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I PLAN TO DELETE THIS, SAVED IN A WORD PROCESSING FILE, ON 11/1/23.  I HAVE WORK SIMILAR TO THIS, WHICH I HAVE WRITTEN FOR YEARS, SAVED IN A WORD PROCESSING FILE.  IT WAS IMPORTANT FOR ME TO PUT UP A FIGHT FOR THE YEARS WHICH I DID.  NOT NECESSARY ANYMORE.

I AM REMOVING ALL OF THIS ON 10/1/23.

I MAY NEED A FEW MORE DAYS. I AM GETTING MY WEBSITE INFORMATION TO PEOPLE WHO I AM IN CONSTANT 24/7 ACTIVITY WITH, WHO SPEAK DIFFERENT LANGUAGES.

i'm sorry if black women feel hurt or confused or frustrated with what i have communicated. i don't want you to be sad. i want you to be happy. i am hurting and confused. every day this black guy who you know about intentionally makes me think that he is trying to get a few black women to make fun of me and lie about my character. every day, like clockwork, so i can't think of anything else and i am so sick of it. it is a sick joke to them. i feel threatened. they want me to feel threatened and it is all unnecessary.

sorry if this has confused black people. i wish that people would leave me alone. they keep intentionally making me think about the same things over and over, as a sick game, without wanting me to think that there is a chance for me to move on. it creates crazy. sorry for the confusion. it is weird and cruel.

this mexican girl likes to confuse my thoughts, wanting people to know that she thinks of it as a sick game, wanting me to react verbally, sounding confused and defensive, in order to try to make people who i am in constant 24/7 activity with who don't speak english think that it was something important, when it isn't, and also that i did something wrong, when i didn't. another way to think about it is that she wants people to know what she is doing, telling them to be evil like she is, trying to make it seem like it will be too much trouble for them to act like they love me or are willing to support me. the black guy does the same thing. they are weird and evil creatures. i think Draconian.

i have already communicated with the police (fayette county sheriff department) in la grange, texas (officer seth nagel), about the thought that someone could murder me when i am there to work. there would probably be a national story about it on the news, if it occurred. the houston, texas news people (channel 2, KRPC) know about me, too. my psych doctor's name at the houston VA hospital is theron bowers, in case anyone ever thought that it would be a good idea to really include my doctor and my family in my real life which they don't officially know about, telling them who i am, even if it is a challenge to them initially, so that i could better cope, getting real support and love from people who are close to me.

please, if people, like the media, have had verification by more than one source that i am who i am, and that i am in the constant 24/7 activity which i have explained, call my psych doctor, Theron Bowers, at the houston veteran's administration hospital, and confirm what i have been telling him, and other doctors at the houston VA for 26 years. i am not schizophrenic, am i? obviously not, if you know about who i am. what kind of ridiculously stupid, uncaring shit is this, that people all around me would know that i am suffering, and that i am a psych patient at the veteran's hospital, and that my doctor can't treat me for what is actually going on with me? i don't need a psychiatrist. i need some basic respect and love, from my family, girlfriend, not that they don't already give me respect and love, with them really understanding what is going on with me, and also from a psychologist (not psychiatrist) who understands who i actually am. i could still see a psychiatrist, but i am not schizophrenic, and i don't need to be prescribed an anti psychotic. it is like being forced to wear a cast and my arm isn't broken. humiliating. i am more competent that you understand. i know more about what the medicine is and isn't than you do, or the doctors do. i have been taking something for anxiety which seems to help a little, but maybe there is something more which can be done, as far as anxiety is concerned. i don't want xanax. maybe there is something else which is better than the buspirone which i currently take. i need to people to explain to my doctor what has been gong on, with this unusual aggression from other people. why not? it can be confirmed. what is the problem? why haven't you helped? is this some kind of joke to you? there should be an official, public statement about this situation, because i should receive a basic, necessary amount of respect every time that i am here on earth. people should know that there has been a problem, so that it will decrease the chances of it occurring again and again, confusing or harming the community as a whole. why don't you give this a chance? you don't seem to want to give me a real chance.

it seems to me like people don't want to actually try to make this better, or more manageable for me, i think because you think of it as fun to watch me suffer, or have to go through something unnecessarily difficult, like americans or whoever who want to watch a hollywood movie about an action character who has to negotiate obstacles. i am not an actor. i am not wanting to be in hollywood action star. i don't care about "stardom". i would like to have a simply, peaceful life, feeling as if i was given a basic amount of respect, publicly. you know, everybody needs to feel loved, even Christ. i can't make orange juice without oranges. nobody can. not children, not old people who are in a old folks home, about to die. not adolescents in school. no one.

this is what happens when a special public person can't have any type of official public security at all. don't play dumb, pretending as if you don't understand what is going on. unfortunately, it is an aspect of human nature for some people to be weird, aggressive and harmful. they do it because they think that they can get away with it, and because they think that they can get more attention for themselves that someone special, like Christ. they are like weird, lame, childish hecklers at a sports event, with me being constantly, 24/7, on the playing field.

since i have indicated, today (9/26/23) that i will get rid of this on 10/1/23, they seem to be making a sick joke about how they are going to enjoy stalking me and harming me while i am "defenseless", with me not communicating about it. if ignorant people really understood how sadistic, childish and creepy these creatures (mexican girl and black guy) are, you would know why i was telling people that there is a problem. i felt or still feel as if it is my job to tell people that there is a problem. no one could handle this mentally. you couldn't just not think about it, and the confusion compounds. it is scary and incredibly disturbing when i am at my home, or at my girlfriend's home, or at my parent's home, knowing that people are on the internet communicating about how i am being intentionally confused. it is not that i am an unfriendly person. i am a friendly person who is being stalked, with the people who are doing it taunting the police, government and whoever they think cares about me. they want to play make believe like little children that i am unfriendly, and that i had or have an evil intent, trying to fabricate evidence to use against me, implying that i deserve to be attacked, but also making a sick joke about how they know that i am innocent. it is obvious that it excites these people to harm me emotionally, in public. i wish that the police or government would come to my home and talk to me in front of everyone. these creatures (black guy and mexican girl) and a few black women think that it is fun to confuse me in public. this is what happens when a public person can't have security. i am not an obnoxious person who wants to go on and on. i would be a good person to work with, who is serious about trying to stop something which really is very very bad, and i think that i did stop it, also with the help of other good people. a few people want want to humiliate me, i guess because they feel as if they are inferior and not as important or special, making a type of mockery of Christ or God, trying to make it look like he is not a loving being. i have given people love. some people don't, and it is confusing.

i think that most of all of you are thinking "you probably won't keep quiet." i sort of doubt it, too, but i gave people advance notice that i was going to delete it this time, so i think that helps. i will probably still be harassed and stalked by creeps.

trump probably thinks that he can use the northern trust and george h. .w. bush issues against me. he probably thinks that some of this followers who he thinks are not so intelligent will take matters into their own hands. no. sorry. i'm just a sweet boy who was made very confused, who got excited about the thought of being able to to help everyone. i didn't want anything for myself, and i communicated that out loud to people back in 2009, and people know that. a word to his supporters. he doesn't give a damn about you, or anyone else. don't vote for him. he is going to harm the long term development of this nation. he already has. don't play dumb, just because it is the "easy" thing to do.

trump posted something like "if you go after me, i am going to come after you." he is the one who goes after people.

except for the posts about donald trump, people who are acting aggressively toward me, stalking me, taunting me, very very creepy, know that i will communicate about it online, because they know that it is more confusing for me if i don't, because of the way which i lack privacy. i know that it looks like i am weird and crazy. that is what they want it to look like, wanting people to know that they are being cruel. i am not weird and "crazy". they are trying to humiliate someone who they think that people think is more special than they are, publicly. they have a mental/social problem. they are lame. cool people are not doing this. this is what happens when a public person can't have any type of security. what is the problem with the police coming to my home, and trying to create a better, more secure situation?


trump makes me think of slimy, sleazy, evil people who i came across when i used to be in the drug scene. people who will put on a ridiculously stupid phony friendly or cool act, only because they are trying to set you up to rip you off.

in reference to donald trump stating that general milley should be executed, trump doesn't actually believe this, just like he doesn't believe conspiracy theory crap which he tries to get the media to report that he believes. he doesn't actually believe most of what he wants ignorant people to think that he believes. it is an evil scheme, just like his tax evasion schemes, to keep his name in the news cycle, knowing that the tv news networks have no choice but to report it, bizarre nonsense, making all of the television news networks huge amounts of money. he knows that people think of it as a form of entertainment, so he thinks of himself as an entertainer, and not a governor. to him it is all about tv ratings and money, and trying to fool people, mostly abroad, into thinking that he is some kind of popular american business hot shot. i'm sure that he is losing money. he bit off more than he could chew when he actually had to do real work in government. he is stupid, just like i state, and just like his former lawyer stated.

it is basically impossible for me to be able to do anything else but think about this crap, all day long, every day, because of the way which people are acting aggressively toward me. i'm not "crazy".

some black women WHO I AM IN ACTIVITY WITH, WHO HAVE MENTAL/SOCIAL PROBLEMS, WHO WANT TO STUPIDLY CONTROL ALL BLACK PEOPLE, don't want to have to compete in the world, just as anyone else would. they imply that no one is allowed to state anything bad about them, even when there is something bad to state. they want special treatment, or they want people to feel sorry for them, because of slavery or world war 2. i am a white person, and i have loved black people, so don't try to use slavery or world war 2 against me. i am complaining because they have been stupidly complaining for 15 years. ordinarily i don't complain at jobs. i do my work and keep quiet. my situation is very unusual, with other people who are lazy, lack initiative and who constantly complain or lie.

this mexican girl has an obnoxious attitude, like some mexicans do, like that of vicious greedy violent criminal mexican drug cartel people, not giving a damn about anything or anyone but herself and her stupid imaginary future sex life. this is what she wants people to think of her, and mexicans in general. she thinks that she can make mexican friends, or get mexican support this way, and she was wrong. not all mexicans are criminals.

this black guy and mexican girl are some kind of animal or something, mixed with a human, and it hates what it is. it wants to take out it confusion and rage on other living beings, also wanting to dominate. it is a disgusting spirit. this black guy and mexican girl don't want ignorant people to know that it is in the form of a human, here on earth. they don't want people to see them with their problem with their left eye, so they are hiding, in his apartment or whatever, probably with his disability check, and she probably at her parents home in houston, texas, and they are trying to make ignorant people think that it is something else more advance than they are, because they think that people wouldn't believe that they have the capability to be aggressive they way that they can be. they are not impressive. the reason that they can do what they can do is because they are dumb, and not intelligent.



this black guy and mexican girl have inferiority complexes. it doesn't mean that all blacks and mexicans have inferiority complexes. it is because i am who i am, and i am white, and because they are who they are, being a black and a mexican. it makes them want to harm me, a white person, publicly, or humiliate a white person, publicly. they have a weird mental problem. it confuses them. they are angry and confused, trying to play it off like they think that they are cool, when they are both panicking. their panic is causing everyone else to panic.

some thug black people and this thug like mexican are telling other blacks and mexicans to act like thugs. i don't think that it is going to work.

they are harassing and making fun of a nerd. it is very very cruel, like a form of torture. i am a sweet nerd, too, if you know me in person. they make fun of people who are sweet. they are ugly thugs who want power, wanting people to think that it is cool to be a thug. they want to harm a white person in public. they are making it a weird racial thing. they lie about my character, wanting people to know that they are full of shit and that it doesn't matter, as long as they have an excuse to harm a white person, publicly. this is what happens when someone can be aggressive, and the police can't be called. i wish that the government or mayor or someone would make an official public statement, letting me and my family know that they did.

people have done, and continue to do so much damage to my mind, that my mind doesn't work properly. that was their intent. their intent was, or is, to make me so sick that i couldn't or can't function properly. ignorant people wouldn't understand how much damage has been done over the years, and how much damage is done, consistently, every day, starting every day before i get out of bed. it is like i got beat up and put into the hospital by criminals or thugs, who didn't want me, a white person, to look better than they did, after they created a public social problem for themselves. blacks and a mexican. they turned it into a really ugly racial thing. it is like having had the tires on your car slashed. i am not stating that i don't like all blacks and mexicans, or that all blacks and mexicans should not be liked. it is just a few people who i am in constant 24/7 activity with who are a problem.

it is not all black women who are the problem. it is a few who i am in constant 24/7 activity with. they have mental problems, and then they want to gossip about me on the internet, trying to bully all black people around.


so, this is supposed to be something awkward and weird for me and the community, every time that i come back? either fix it, by being nice and social with me, or get rid of it. it seems like the community is so insecure about this. what is the big deal? so, i am supposed to be nice to you in public, but you are not supposed to be nice to me in public? it wouldn't work that way. it seems like the reason that jesus christ was effective, or considered positive, was because they showed him some respect and love. basic love and respect is a very basic thing in life. why are you turning this into something weird and awkward for me and the community? it seems to me like weird, unnecessary cruelty, because people make it so uncomfortable, confusing or awkward for me. this is what it is supposed to be every time this happens? there may be a way of figuring out when it would happen again. shouldn't people know about this? it doesn't mean that i want special treatment. i want a basic amount of respect, given the actual situation. people would have to officially publicly acknowledge that there is something to think about, or to work on. what kind of shitty treatment of a person is the community advocating? just leave him there to be fucked with by freaks? every time?

donald trump is dangerously deranged diarrhea.  sorry guys, but i must stoop, droop and poop to his level. nick name for him is "d three" (dangerously deranged diarrhea).  loud, explosive and sputterish.

thinking of donald trump again, the diarrhea which comes out of his mouth is sputter nonsense. sputter nonsense instead of utter nonsense. he knows that it is sputter nonsense, too. that is how he works the media. it is an evil scheme. his lips are like a giant butthole, engaging in sputter nonsense.

i wouldn't be surprised marjorie taylor greene is trying to figure out if she could work with thug evil dork trump supporters to try and have me killed. they would probably wait for some time, in order to try and confuse an investigation. maybe after i post this they wouldn't want to wait. she is evil and repulsive. they don't use text or email for communication. evil conspiring. regular mail, probably with aliases. p. o. boxes.

i thought about deleting all of this stuff yesterday (9/22/23). i am so sick of it. i feel obligated to communicate something to the community because i know that other people are, too. it is like i got robbed by thieves. sad for the world. i hope that by deleting this stuff in about 5 weeks i can make the world a better, more peaceful place. people have disrespected my office, or my task, or whatever you call it, as if they are not acknowledging, officially, that i am doing something important, or that there is something important to do. what is there to do? how about creating something loving and peaceful? i wish that the government would get involved, and make some kind of statement. i sincerely tried, but i got screwed over by mean, childish, selfish people who wanted to humiliate me or defame me for their own personal, greedy social reasons. they have social problems, so they wanted to give me the social problem, so that they could feel better about themselves. people who i am in constant 24/7 activity with.

paris hilton acts like a weird, disobedient child who also wants to stupidly bully everyone around. i wasn't a fan of hers when i wrote to her when she was in jail trying to cheer her up because she didn't go to jail the way which she was supposed which was unusual. she wants people to think that i was a fan of hers when i wasn't.

i called hiton's dad's office back after the police told me to back off because i didn't want them to have the last word. they shouldn't have the last word. it would have confused me more, publicly, if i wouldn't have called back. the reason that the police called me is because i had told a guy who worked at his office "fuck you", but i didn't intend to do that or become angry when i thought about calling. it just came out. i didn't intend to go crazy when i first thought about calling. i just became very frustrated, feeling hurt and confused. they didn't care about fucking up my life, so i wanted to fuck up their life. they treated me, publicly, in such an awful, humiliating, degrading way.

donald trump is dangerously deranged diarrhea.  sorry guys, but i must stoop, droop and poop to his level. nick name for him is "triple d" (dangerously deranged diarrhea).  loud, explosive and sputterish.

i communicated about how paris hilton's dad called the police about me. i called him (at his office) and the police back, after the police called me, and i told them that i don't care if i go to jail. her dad runs a really stupid, childish, disrespectful family. spoiled. i sent the police a copy of my business complaint. the detective's name was lopez. female. she retired. they never called me back. this was about 6 or 7 or 8 years ago. hilton is such a weird, childish, irresponsible, disrespectful, "i fake being a star" creep, who tries to bully everyone around, trying to get people, including her family, to put up with her nonsense crap. i had sent her some correspondence in 2008 about how 1 + 2 + 3 + 4 = 10, also referring to the tropics of cancer (4th sign) and capricorn (10th sign). she knew that TMZ came on at my home on fox tv at 10 pm. she was calling my home, and letting the phone ring 4 times, more than once, trying to use me as a way of promoting her childish crap on TMZ. normally my phone would ring 5 times. she did this in this way so that she could imply that it wasn't her doing it, just the phone ringing, being shady and greedy, because it was close enough to 5 rings. she also called my parent's house, which had an audio caller ID, calling from a place called 'california', so that people in my 24/7 activity group could hear her stupid "california" crap, wanting people to think that it was her, but implying that no one could prove it. i checked, and california is a shop in beverly hills. she sent me weird, childish, cryptic crap, many times, which is what people who stalk people do. she created a mess, and then didn't want to clean it up, being respectful of me, my unique and difficult position, and of the entire community. she loves it when i seem angry, like as i write this, in order to try to get real stars to not like me, and to try to force or bully them to accept her as something more like them than i am, just because she is wealthy and on tv. she seems to be evil, masking it with her supposed class and "glamour", just because she is wealthy. my job is not always glamourous, but i am a real person.

i didn't intend to be thought of as disrespectful, thinking of president biden and his use of the word "petty". i intend to vote for him next year (2024). i'm not sure if he meant anything by it or not.

i have mental problems because i lack privacy, and because a very few people are being blatantly disrespectful to me. they are ugly attitude bullies, who want to be thought of as ugly attitude bullies. they want people to know that they think that it is fun to confuse me in public, knowing that i will try to fight back. basically, i am defenseless. they are like the character Biff in the 'back to the future' movies, or the bug in the 'men in black' movies. it may seem funny, but it is not funny when it is real life.

i act weird or unusual because i am being denied the the basic peace and rest which most people normally have. this has been going on for years, and it compounds. sorry if it has confused you. i am confused, also trying to protect myself and the community.

the black guy and mexican girl who are torturing me and the rest of the 144,000, worldwide, want to be thought of as like brutal drug cartel people, who torture and abuse people, making a sick, weird, joke about it. that is what their attitude is like, and it is incredibly disturbing. i wish that i could be put to sleep at a hospital, and my family informed about what was happening. it is like having been kidnapped and being tortured. they are taunting the police and anyone who they think cares about me. they want people to think that they have an excuse to do what they are doing when they don't. they got themselves into social trouble, and are angry about it.


i really just wanted peace and quiet for the community, but a few people didn't show me a basic amount of respect, so that it could be that way. they didn't want me to have power. just a basic amount of power which each person should be entitled to. i end up going crazy, having to do this in public, 24/7. they took my peace and confidence away, in public. very confusing. i am not communicating about wanting people to kiss my ass. i mean just a very very basic amount of respect, which would be required for someone like me, in a constant public situation, to be able to function efficiently.

i don't want to upset family harmony in general. it is very difficult to not become angry, given the weird, childish disrespectful way that paris hilton and her family treated me, publicly. they seem all weird, childish and spoiled. their image as people with class seems to be fake or superficial, like it is a house of cards. too much money, too fast.

it was hilton's disrespect. not mine.

hilton would hope that some people start to think of superficiality. "glamour", etc. i am a real person with a real heart. hilton is fake, disrespectful, childish yuck. she thinks that people will buy into the fact that she is a better person because she is wealthy, or on tv. sorry, hilton. i have the job and you don't.

i can't make orange juice unless i have some oranges. give me something different to think about, and then i will change.

i don't want to seem like a jerk with this paris hilton stuff. ignorant people wouldn't believe the amount of UNNECESSARY pain and confusion she has caused, and still continues to cause for me, and the entire community, with her knowing first hand about it, and then acting in front of everyone that she doesn't care. she doesn't have class. she has a weird fake image. this is an ongoing matter, since i lack privacy, and she is so irresponsible, childish and cruel. sick. like she thinks that it is fun to cause me to unnecessarily suffer, like she what she really wanted to do was to humiliate a man who didn't like her, publicly. i didn't like her because she is rude and childish. i wish that people knew me in person all of the time, like other people do. i want to move on, but she didn't want to move on. it is impossible to make orange juice without oranges. she wanted me to keep thinking of the same stupid crap, over and over. she didn't want to be known to be the problem, so she played an evil girl game, causing me to act weird, in order to try to make me unpopular. i would rather be "unpopular" than to be a cheesy push over. she has this cheesy childish bossy, cocky attitude, while being so irresponsible and thoughtless at the same time. she has caused so many people, including children all over the world, to needlessly suffer, because of the stupid dumb blonde image that she wants. i wish that i would have never gotten mixed up with her. if she would have acted like she was cool and caring, in public, like most people would have, this wouldn't have happened. she doesn't want to have to do real work. she never had to do real work, like most people do. she wanted and still wants to childishly, selfishly TOY with the public, without being an actual real person, or an actual cool person.

paris hilton's dad put on this fake act, pretending as if he cared about protecting the people in his office. what about my protection? what about the protection of the entire community, including me? he just made it easier to people besides his daughter to mess with me. he didn't tell the police about what he knew about me, and the fact that i have mental problems because of a lack of privacy, and also because of the way people, including his daughter, treated me.

it seems like paris hilton wants to imply that i need her permission, or approval, in order to be accepted into the community of whatever. she is the one who doesn't have the approval. she shouldn't have been playing games with people. she doesn't care about people. it is very frustrating to those of us who do care. this is an ongoing task, and she was too irresponsible and uncaring to be able to handle it. she just wants to flaunt being a childish rich kid, and it is obnoxious.

rick hilton, paris hilton's father, went to the police a few years ago about my calling his office, but i'm sure than he didn't tell the police that he knew something about who i was, and the real why there was a problem, which was his daughter. he is involved in a cover up. she is involved in a cover up. the hiltons are werid childish garbage. paris hilton did a little evil, public, side step move, trying to give herself a way of being able to pretend as if she never got my voice messages, or text messages, wanting to know if she went on TMZ, referring to me by name, some time one week before halloween in 2008. i also asked if she got an extra, not necessary to send, sent in confusion, $150, for a purse which she sent me, which i didn't ask for and didn't want. I WANTED THE ONE WITH THE NUMBER 7 ON IT. NO! NICKY HILTON IS NOT IMPORTANT! ACTUALLY, NICKY, THEY ARE SAMANTHA THAVASA BAGS! DID YOU TRY TO STEAL SOMETHING FROM HER?

this mexican girl and black guy are trying to trick ignorant people into thinking that they are not human.

i'm telling you people straight, i'm really not going to be able to make you happy, as long as i am being blatantly irritated by these few weird psychopaths. i will delete the stuff in this section of this website, but it is not going to be a happy story.

still love ya, black folk.
these people acting aggressively toward the me and the entire community are weird psychopaths. they are weird, sadistic, lacking empathy. it seems like what is described in the negative alien information in the 'for your information' section of this website. it is a mexican girl and a black guy who are some type of weird monsters. they developed my vision in their left eye, and they can act aggressively, causing contractions of muscle and soft tissue. it is a form of communication, which they are using as a weapon to obstruct other people's lives on earth. they are desperate. this doesn't mean that i hate mexicans and blacks. this is not going to get any better. maybe someone could officially, publicly defend me, and the community, letting me know that they did, in order to try to get the action moving in a different direction. it is scary for me and others all over the world. why would you want to allow this, while i am alive?

these people are trying to make me angry on the internet, trying to get me to defend myself, because they don't want me to earn money, not wanting me to be happy, publicly. what they are doing is very childish, like they are implying that i am not allowed to earn money. they are trying to confuse me really badly in public, wanting me think something bad about, or hate blacks and mexicans, or intentionally wanting me to feel uncomfortable about blacks and mexicans, trying to make me unpopular, trying to create a double standard about harming me, and implying that i am not allowed to express dislike of blacks or mexicans. how would you like it if blacks and a mexican got in your face every day, all day long, wanting to make you hate them? it is not just that they are getting in my face, they make it so that i can't work, or be able to think about anything else but them obstructing my life, blatantly stalking me, trying to make me hate them, and unlikeable stereotypical black and mexican behavior. they do this intentionally to try to get me to dislike blacks and mexicans, so that they can say that the white person was no good. even blacks and mexicans don't like them.

this mexican girl who thinks that she can outsmart everyone doesn't give a damn about mexican people. this black guy who thinks that he can outsmart everyone doesn't give a damn about black people.

why don't black people, or especially black women, quit gossiping about me? it seems like i am intentionally provoked every day, so that black people can amuse themselves, gossiping about me on the internet. leave me out of your cultural whatever. do it yourselves.

if black people don't want me to say bad things about them, get out of my life. i mean, how would you feel if some weird rude creepy white people were getting in your black face every day, all day long? you wouldn't like it. you would get sick of white people. i am sick of black people. for the last 15 years!

i am being literally tortured every day, all day long. this is not a joke. the few people who are doing this want me to inevitably react in a weird way, sick, confused way, making a sick, childish joke of it, wanting me to be inevitably very very confused, with them wanting me to know that they want to harm me emotionally, psychologically, in public, wanting me to think and say weird things back to them, wanting to try to make me unpopular, wanting me to know that they get on the internet and gossip like they think it is fun, or because they have nothing else to do. no one feels sorry for you negro. oh, we should care about black people's feelings? what about caring about a white person's feelings? i was already respectful and nice to you. more than a person ordinarily would have been. some of them have an attitude like a homeless bum who i give a dollar or two to, who then says "ah man, you can't do no better than that?!" you know, real greedy.

i want EVERYONE to know if paris hilton received the extra $150 which i sent to her, which wasn't necessary, because she stupidly, rudely sent me something which i didn't ask for. i also want EVERYONE to know if she went on TMZ the week before halloween in 2008, making reference to me by name. she won't take responsibility for creating or contributing to a national/global security problem. it involves more people than just her. if people knew about what happened, then there would be more accountability and order. hilton knows this, but doesn't want there to be accountability and order, because she doesn't want to be held accountable, and because she likes to give people the opportunity to fuck with me, because i don't like her.

this black guy and mexican girl want to be thought of as like pick pockets, or low class street thieves, like they are making a sick joke of it. they want to be thought of as evil and fake, making a sick, childish joke of it. like criminals, who make a sick, childish joke of the fact that they are criminals.

they may try to harm my girlfriend's mom.

they want to do as much damage as they possibly can to my reputation, before i delete this stuff. then they are going to try to get me to put it back on, thinking that it will confuse me more, publicly, if i don't fight. they know that it is more confusing for me to just sit there and take really really ugly, childish, stupid shit from really really ugly, childish, stupid people, publicly, when i know that the public is communicating about this, so they like it when i get on the internet, wanting it to seem like i am crazy or an angry person, when i am not. i

people find this amusing. they are making me so sick every day that i end up doing this on the internet, confused, basically pleading for help, or wanting to try to protect myself and the community.

now maybe black people are going to kill me, wanting people to think that it was white people. maybe white people are going to kill me, when i go out to la grange, texas and work again, soon. i go out there about every 2 weeks.

i am concerned that black women might try to have me, or my girlfriend shelly, killed outside of her home on laurel heights dr. they know when i would be leaving, or when she is leaving to go to work in the morning. why doesn't the government get involved and try to fix this social problem in america, sticking up for me just a little bit. i have rights, just like anyone else. black people started trouble, and we don't have to kiss up to them because of the past slavery issue in america. they want ignorant people to think that because i criticize them, that it means that i am with white supremacists or something, when i am not. i am not with mean ugly (attitude) black people, and i am not with mean ugly (attitude) white people either. leave me out of it.

people don't understand. or maybe you do already understand. i am being treated every day, all day long in a WEIRD, CHILDISH, SADISTIC, EVIL manner. you really wouldn't want to live. you wouldn't really care about making money. you would care about peace and quiet. for yourself, your family, and the community. there really isn't a chance for me to do much good in the world, unless you protect me, or get this shit which people know about from other people besides me, to stop. do you get it? these people who are stalking US are weird childish freaks, who want to be thought of as that. why would i really care about making money, when i won't be able to enjoy my life, or when it makes people even more mean and weird toward me and the people who supported me? either kill me, or find some way to officially protect me and the community. the world community should not be experiencing, or gossiping about this. i am in constant 24/7 activity with people who are situated all over the world. this gossip will spread, more and more, over time. that is a problem for the entire world, including the governments. if electronic communication would have existed during jesus's time, it would have been more problematic. in other words, use electronic communication for a good purpose, by putting out an official message about me, and the fact that people are in agreement that a few people are being stupidly aggressive. tell people to leave us alone. keep the peace.

i understand why people would think "why does he go on about the same things so much?" i can not think of anything else but the same things, because of the way which i am being stalked all day long, every day. paris hilton is a creep, and i don't want her to get away with what she has done. i am under the impression that other people have also explained what she has done, so that makes me think about it, and be confused by it, even more. how could someone be so disrespectful or uncaring to someone like me who lacks privacy the way that i do? she wanted to make it all about a childish, obnoxious rich girl in america. she wants media people who kiss her ass to think that i was the problem, because i didn't act like i liked her in public. this goes back to 2009. she treats me in an abusive (neglectful) way, publicly, wanting ignorant people to think that she has a good reason to, when she doesn't, in order to confuse me and make me act weird in public, so as to try to make me unpopular. that doesn't mean that i want to be in a relationship with her. i want my $150 back, or i want to know if she got it, and then i want to know if she went on TMZ the week before halloween in 2008, making reference to me by name, and then i want her and her childish, disrespectful family to get the heck out of my life. she was greedy and childish, and then it backfired on her, and so she is trying to make it look like i was, or am the problem, when i am not. it is very difficult to keep quiet about it in public. it is like implying that someone who has to do something on camera (figurative) should do a good job when one of the people on the set is being stupid, childish and disrespectful to them. it wouldn't work. i don't mean that i want to be on camera. many people are screwing around with the person who is on camera, trying to support the world, wanting to humiliate him, because they think that it is fun and amusing. they are childish and mean spirited. boring, trying to make it look like i am boring.

i saw president biden on tv tonight, stating something about "petty" something or another. if he was referring to me, my problems are not "petty". people didn't or don't show me a very very basic amount of respect necessary for me to be able to function, publicly. it is a national/global security problem. the problem with hilton relates to other people being disrespectful or disruptive, creating and continuing to create a big mess. hilton tries to make me look petty, by wanting people to know that i was involved with her. i wish that i would have never been involved with her. she is bad news. i was not a fan of hers. just tried to help her feel better when she was in jail. she obviously doesn't give a damn about my feelings, or anyone else's feelings either. she is filthy rich garbage. the government should give me a basic amount protection and respect, or put me to sleep at a hospital. ignorant people don't understand how much i am being tortured by these sadistic evil monsters. it means that i keep thinking about the same thing, trying to protect myself and others. they want me to know that they are trying to deceive the community. they have a social problem, so they want to give me and other people who they think can be happier than then can be a social problem. we have no protection from them.

this creepy weird evil black guy tries to humiliate me, publicly, because he tries to humiliate black women who indicate that they don't like him, with them also implying that they care about me or love me. he tries to make it seem as if black women, or women in general, don't have the option of liking me more than him, because he is so insecure because of the reasons why they like me more than him.

paris hilton is into shady, childish games, like a dumb criminal. she doesn't care about earing respect for herself because she was always so wealthy, manipulating the media. i think that she wanted to emulate her cheese new york buddy, donald trump, and his manipulation of the media. it is a scheme. not only did hilton stupidly unnecessarily start some shit, but she did something really rude, and then didn't conclude it in a respectful, civil way. i wasn't a fan of hers. i think that she wants people to think that i was a fan of hers, when i wasn't.

these very few people who act aggressively are fake and childish, and want people to know that they are fake and childish, trying to recruit fake, socially lame, childish people who make fun of people who are real and who work. they want to humiliate not only me, but any famous person or celebrity like person who gets unique attention, or any person who is peaceful and self confident. they want to take something away from not only me, but the entire community, because of their childish envy, or because of being angry and sour. it is just a very few people who i am in 24/7 activity with who are trying to cause a problem. they created a social problem for themselves by playing childish, mean, evil games. it is not everyone who is causing a problem. they are rubbing it in everyone's face that they are stupid, implying that no one can do anything about it. they want you to see what i am doing, but they don't want you to see what they are doing. it is impossible for me to think of much else but being stalked, and people who are trying to deceive and hurt the community. again, i plan to delete all of the information in this section of this website on november 1st.

a few people want to be known for really weird, sick, perverted cruelty toward me. it is really disturbing. i wish that the FBI or government or a church would help out in some way. it would be nice if someone officially, publicly, acted like they were trying to protect me, and the community in general, from weird, dangerous, psychopathic people. it really isn't difficult to understand. if famous or public people didn't have security, there would be a problem. they wouldn't even hold public events if there was no security.

i know that you guys are sick of this. so am i. this black guy and mexican girl are like weird, creepy, stupid, unintelligent people in a jail cell, who try to run you or unnecessarily intimidate you. there is no need for it. they do it because they are insecure and because they have an inferiority complex. this black guy is like some black guy in a jail cell who would keep walking by me, unnecessarily taunting me in a weird, totally stupid way, looking at me weird, totally stupid, ugly and annoying, saying "oh, i know that you don't like me. oh, i know that you don't like me", etc. the mexican would be doing something similar, taunting me, trying to intimidate me, with weird, creepy, obviously fake fabricated laughter when she would walk by every once in a while. they think and act like dumb, creepy criminals, and it is absolutely horrible to have to be stuck with them, 24/7. very very disturbing. they are anti social personality disorder psychopaths. something demonic. in a way it is fascinating, like satan incarnate (i think Set/Nephthys in egypt), but that doesn't mean that i want to go through anymore of this. it is a power grab which won't work. they are implying that lame, unintelligent, unfriendly, blatantly stupid people are the ones who are going to get attention or have power, and not people who are christ like. they are confused because they know that they are not like me, a decent, loving person. people should not unnecessarily politicize me, or involve me in their lives. live and let live. don't be greedy.


a few mean spirited, childish, fake black women and this black guy who i have mentioned who has my vision in his left eye (evil) are putting pressure on other black people to be stupid and fake. they fake having pride. they act aggressively toward me every day, consistently throughout the day, stalking me and confusing me very very badly, obstructing my basic peace and happiness, implying that i deserve to be harmed spiritually, publicly, because they are trying to cover up the fact that they know that they are the problem, and that they know that other people know that they are the problem. they are trying to cover it up, or trying to fabricate evidence to try to use against me, and any other decent, real person who defends me. they are uncivil, implying that their incredibly stupid double standard is the standard. they want leverage, so that they can live out some puny dumb fantasy about black domination. they are insecure, knowing that they are the problem, acting desperate. that is not what i am doing. this shit is a reflection of them, or how stupid they are, and not me. white people are not the only ones who hate. it is weird childish black hatred of a special white person who gets a unique attention. they don't hate me because i am bad. they hate me because i am good, and because they are not good. i am not one of those weird white supremacist people. they try to make me seem unlikeable on the internet, knowing that i will try to defend myself and other people from them, or to stop their attempt to spread lies about me. they want it to seem as if i am mean and angry, knowing that people don't understand who i am, and what i am like, 24/7. they are trying to trick ignorant people.

i mentioned the issue about barack obama sending me an official white house thank you notice because a few black women want people to think that i never did things like that, or that black people should hate me because i don't like black people. i like black people fine, if they are not acting childishly and mean spirited aggressively, intentionally, unnecessarily ruining my life and the lives of others. i sent obama and george h. w. bush courtesy copies of volunteer number crunch work which i hoped would help in some way. i thought that maybe it would give someone with scientific knowledge an idea about something. i voted for barack obama in 2008. i believed in him. a few black women tried to make ignorant people think something different about me. they tried and still try to get all blacks to hate a white person, me, instead of it being blacks versus blacks.

i stated this once, and i will state it again. this mexican girl, who i know 110% is a mexican girl, who i think still lives in houston, is weird, evil, sadistic and childish, probably baptized a Catholic, wanting me and other people do try to defend ourselves on the internet, trying to make ignorant people think that we are the something evil in chapter 13 or the book of revelations in the bible. i know that she is lying to her parents. she is insane. so is the black man. this doesn't mean that i hate all mexicans and blacks, or that i am telling people to.

the very few childish weird stalkers who are acting aggressively every day seem to want to imply that people should think of this like i am jesus christ, being whipped and pissed on and spit on in jerusalem, and then crucified, or made uncomfortable. they are weird, mean, selfish, and childishly imply that i am not allowed to have a happy peaceful life, just like most people ordinarily have, just because they think that i can have a happier, more peaceful life, PUBLICLY (24/7), than they can have.

i understand if ignorant people think "this is too much!". you don't understand. i know that i am in constant 24/7 activity with the 144,000 (worldwide). if i think that people who i am in constant 24/7 activity with are communicating to others that there is a problem, then i feel obligated to do the same. otherwise, ignorant people don't know if other people should be communicating something. even if i don't communicate about how there is a problem, they will, so there will still be confusion for the community, whether i communicate about it on the internet or not. it is better that my story matches up with theirs, but that doesn't mean that it is a bogus story. i'm still not sure whether it is a good idea to delete this stuff in this section of this website or not. i know that some people would feel more comfortable if i left it there. i think that black women want it gone, and i understand, because i don't want innocent black women to be penalized unnecessarily. but truthfully, i think that some black women or all of them are going to develop some kind of smug obnoxious attitude if i delete it, thinking that they can say whatever they want to say, or act any way that they want to act. i think that they will want people to think that i was crazy and unfriendly, and that hurts very bad, and i am probably still going to be harassed every day by people who will try to get me to put negative information back on the internet, knowing that they are confusing me, publicly.

i understand if ignorant people out there are thinking "please forget about it, and move on to something else." you don't understand, that is impossible. they keep acting aggressively. it is like someone calling you on your telephone who you can't block. so one thought about something causes another thought about something else and then something else and then something else, etc. they want people to know that they are trying to get away with something evil and very very mean, making a childish game of it. it is like having someone who you don't like in your house, and they will not leave, and i can not call the police to force them to leave. it also doesn't mean that i am unfriendly. that is one of their attempts to con people about me. all of this shit in this section of this website is an attempt to try to get me to defend myself and other people, with them knowing that i am defenseless, in order to try to make ignorant people think that i am mean and angry all of the time. no, i am not. i am a very gay person by nature. sometimes i am so gay that it gets on people's nerves, or they don't understand it, because they are not the same way. when they act aggressively, it is not just one thought which they are creating. it creates many many thoughts, thought after thought, which i don't want, and which other people don't want. they understand this.

people want ignorant people to think that i am crazy, or paranoid, so that they think that they can get away with what they have done. no, there are some evil, mean spirited people out there. obviously i am not schizophrenic, if you know about what is happening from someone who knows about it.

it really isn't difficult to understand what has happened, or what is happening. people who i am in constant 24/7 activity with (144,000) think that i have more, or that i am more (i'm not stuck up, just am what i am), with them thinking that they will have less, and it confuses them or frustrates them, so they try to take what i have away from me, like a greedy animal which would fight over food, or blankets to sleep on. their problem is that they unnecessarily involve me in their lives, or gossip about me. the very few people who got themselves into social trouble, who are being unnecessarily aggressive, want others to think that they are being childishly entertained by harming me emotionally or spiritually, publicly. they are taunting everyone, including the police and government. they want ignorant people to know that i am innocent, but also that they have an excuse to harm me and others. socially lame losers. i have tried to help them, but they don't care about helping themselves. they are people who i am in constant 24/7 activity with (144,000), who don't even try to really be happy, or to make the most of their lives.

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a few white cops tried to kill me when i lived in la grange, texas in 2011, so my complaint is not just against blacks and a mexican. i am sure about what the cops did, or were trying to do. they tried to make it look like it was related to my old mexican neighbor, who i told people who i was in constant 24/7 activity with that i suspected he was involved in drug dealing. the cops thought that they could make it look gang or drug related, but their plan failed because they thought that i was going to do one thing, but then i changed my mind and did another. it was at a motel in schulenburg, just south of la grange, where i stayed because i wanted to feel safe. they had gotten the keys to my car, parked my car in a way which it hadn't been, had opened the trunk but so that you couldn't tell. i told people that i was going to leave at 9 am but then i changed my mind and left at 8 am. they had broken into my home in la grange. they wanted to kill me because the activity with me was making them go crazy and sick, and they couldn't work to earn money. there is more to this but i don't feel like writing about it.

i can't remember if i put this information in this section but a few black women conspired to intentionally infected my blood when i was at a care facility in 2011, about 2 days after i "joked" around about the thought of being infected with a dirty needle, trying to ward it off in case they would try to do that, and then they did it just to show me how mean spirited, childish and spiteful they were.  they assumed back then that i wouldn't defend myself on the internet, like with facebook or a website like this one.  they wanted to take a cheap shot at me and get away with it.  they are not going to get away with it.  i think that it was meant to target my digestive system, with them knowing that it would cause me to flatulate in a unusual way, with a horrible, unusual smell, with me sensing the flatulence originating from a higher part of my lower part colon than where a person usually senses it.   i went through 3 major surgeries and they problem is fixed.  they had to take out dead (diverticulitis) sections of my colon.  i had a colostomy bag for 2 years.  i started to flatulate in an unusual way a few hours after they drew blood from me in the early part of june, 2011.  it lasted until i had surgery in the summer of 2012.  i didn't go to a doctor about it earlier because i assumed that no one would help me because i thought that i was in constant 24/7 activity with everyone and that people thought that it was a game.  i eventually stopped passing my food.  i also had some kind of living snake thing inside of my intestine when i was in the jail which eventually died because i quit eating anything which was arousing it, causing to move around in my intestine and stomach.  it tried to escape through my throat, but i pressed down on the bottom of my neck and it got confused and went back down into my intestine.  it developed from rotting meat which was stuck in my intestine because i couldn't pass the food.  the black nurse who drew the blood had her back turned away from me, doing something on a work counter of a medical room before she came over to stick the needle in my arm.  it also seemed like she wanted me to remember her sticking the needle in my arm in more aggressive way than nurses usually do, with a smug attitude.  these black women wanted people to know that i was innocent, too.  they knew that people knew that i hadn't done anything wrong. wanting to make a childish game out of confusing me or harming me spiritually, publicly, black people trying to stupidly boss other black people around.  i am sorry if me explaining the part about flatulence makes people confused, but it is like i am trying to explain it to a doctor or a family member.

former president obama sent me an official thank you notice from the white house with a raised seal on it, for sending both of his daughters an inexpensive gift each. i sent both of them a gift from target store which was something that represented a u.s. flag, with one star where the 50 normally are, and 7 stripes (3 and 4 mixed) where the 13 stripes usually are. it was red, white and blue. i think that each flag was less than $10 each. i ended up burning the thank you card which he sent, because i was confused thinking that i was in constant 24/7 activity with him, and that he knew that i was having problems, but wouldn't help. it made me think that it was just fake political publicity crap, but i guess there was only so much he could do. i believe that he knew that there was a problem from someone else who he was in contact with.

sorry if all of this seems obnoxious. it is difficult to be blatantly disrespected publicly and not fight. i am fighting for you, too.

i have been trying to defend people and myself, when i am defenseless.

this black guy and mexican girl are trying to have me killed, in this life or future lives, by irritating me and other people so much that they think that someone who i am in constant 24/7 activity with will kill me in order to get rid of the confusion. i wouldn't be surprised if someone murders me when i get older with failing health. they think that they are up shit creek without a paddle, with a social, sex and happiness problem.

the mexican girl is lying to her parents. she is trying to make them think that the black man is responsible for acting aggressively, and that no one who is complaining about her knows what they are communicating about. she is a very disturbing combination of evil and childish. the black man is also trying to have her blamed for what he has done. they are like criminals who got caught doing something wrong, and then tried to use each other to better each other, then when that didn't work out, they are then blaming each other. they are both cheesy, evil, insecure sociopaths, psychopaths or whatever you want to call it.

i wish that the family of the black man and the family of the mexican would contact me, and then the police. they are both cruel, childish psychopaths.

these 2 creatures and a few other people are negative (scary) beings, who want to make positive people negative. they can't think in the way that positive people can can, and so they don't try to, so they try to make them negative, in order so that they think that they can better survive. i am trying to stop the spread of something negative, and i have, but then it seems like i am the one who is creating something negative. i definitely don't want to create something negative. i am trying to stop the spread of something negative, or stop the spread of negative people who are trying to create division in the community.

the mexican girl and black man who i communicate about it the 'for your information' section of this website are weird, incredibly disturbing, creepy, childish psychopaths who are stalking the community. they are flaunting the fact that they are sick weirdos, implying that no one can do anything about it. childish, weird, socially lame creatures, who are panicking, but trying to play it off like they are cool when they are not. it is like having been kidnapped and then tortured in the basement of a house by perverts who are then calling your family members and taunting them on the phone, or with mail, or by being aggressive in some other way. they want to be thought of as creepy weirdos, faking thinking that they are smart, when they are actually confused, nervous, panicking people, thinking that they won't be able to survive unless they create a bad story about me. that doesn't mean that i am a bad person. it means that they are implying that it will be too difficult and too confusing for the community to support me, or act like they like me or care about me. they are trying to have me killed in this life or my next lives. they are trying to make people to think that it is just one being, when they are actually wanting to be sensed as 2 different people. they are trying to use the fact that we are stating that it is 2 different people, to try to make ignorant people think that we don't know what we are communicating about. they are trying to hide or cover something up. they are also trying to make ignorant people think that they are not human, or that they are not in human bodies. they are both in human bodies, just like i am a human, and they both have a problem with their left eye. i wish that the government would show me and my family and the community some respect, by having me put to sleep at a hospital with some kind of official medical procedure. i am not going to try to commit suicide on my own again. my family would be hurt. my girlfriend would be hurt. if i was showed some official respect, and put to sleep peacefully with an official procedure, then my family and girlfriend would understand and agree. either put me to sleep at a hospital, or make an official public statement about this, for the world, so that there is a psychological deterrent. these creatures think that no one will try to officially protect me, or the community. they think like animals who are preying on people. if they know that everyone knows that there is official public agreement that they are a problem, then they will probably stop, or be deterred. the government should not want the negative, weird, confusing gossip about this situation, for hundreds or thousands of years. it should be a happy story, about how people worked together to overcome a problem.


i understand if you think that this is too much. you are being duped by a very few people who i am in constant 24/7 activity with, who got themselves into social trouble over the years, with personal problems, who know that you won't understand what is going on, even if i try to explain it to you along with other people. they want me to try to explain it to you on the internet, because it would seem to an ignorant person, who i am in not in constant 24/7 activity with, that i am weird, unfriendly and crazy. i am not weird, unfriendly and crazy. they are weird, unfriendly and crazy.

i don't want to harm innocent black women, but i wanted to state that some of the black women who i am in constant 24/7 activity with want the community to know that they communicate and conspire with some other black women in the community. my blood being infected in 2011. my mail being stolen in 2010 and several times recently over the last few years (TMZ). it is meant to intimidate people, but it is so stupid and childish, that it doesn't. it is just irritating. they should stop hurting other people, and themselves. for some reason, they want to be thought of as superior. back off and get out of our lives. quit trying to involve me, unnecessarily, in your lives.

i wanted to put this back on until i delete this section of this website. a mean spirited, childish, evil black women stupidly attacked me when i was at a grocery store in 2008, wrongfully implying that i was after hilton's money, or that i had done something wrong, when i hadn't, and when people know that i hadn't, and when the black woman who attacked me knew that people knew that i hadn't. i called the black woman a name, because she was so incredibly weird cruel, evil, and childish, wanting to complicate my ability to get along with other people, or to be loved, publicly, wanting to harm me emotionally or spiritually, when she knew that i had done nothing wrong. people can explain. people already know about this. i am still being attacked by black women. they made a big, stupid, unnecessary nationwide deal of the fact that i called that one evil, mean spirited, incredibly rude, incredibly childish black woman a name. i was also apologetic to innocent black women if they got their feelings hurt or confused. they have acted like stupid, ugly attitude, mean spirited, socially lame, childish monsters. i know that the black woman who was, or is, evil and childish, who attacked me at the grocery store, had been talking all kinds of shit about me for years with her cheesy girlfriends or whoever before the crap which hilton unnecessarily created, and then when i started to move on with my life, work, a peaceful, happy, sober spiritual life, quit smoking cigarettes, exercising, working cool job in live theater (im not trying to get my job back), this black woman who was at the grocery store in 2008 wanted to sabotage it, trying to start some cheesy tabloid like shit, because of her childish mean spirited envy, jealously, or because she already had created a social problem for herself saying things about me which she shouldn't have. i understand if it seems like there is nothing to be envious of, because i am angry. that is exactly what they wanted to do to me. it continues. they created social problems for themselves, by not wanting to be thought of as loving people. many of them created social problems for themselves, by stupidly, excessively gossiping and being unnecessarily aggressive. at the grocery store in 2008, i thought that i was being insulted (along with hilton, because i thought that people would make fun of her, too) by a white woman who was standing in line behind me at the check out the night before i was definitely attacked by a black woman. i noticed the white woman giving me a curious look, but now i don't think that she was insulting me, i think that she was flirting with me. i thought that maybe she knew who i was, and what was happening in my life, the night before i was definitely weird stupid attacked by the black women the next day. just a few seconds after i noticed the white woman giving me a look which i thought meant that she was wanting to insult me or make fun of me, i needed to take change out of the metal change jar at the grocery store, i reacted confused and defensively. i was thinking of my pride, how i earn respect, and my ambition, and honest work, happiness, after i thought that i was being insulted, publicly, by the white woman standing next to me waiting in line when i was at a grocery store. now i think that she was flirting with me, not insulting me. i thought that she was trying to take my pride away from me, making fun of hilton and myself. at first, after hilton unnecessarily and stupidly corresponded with me, i thought that hilton was a better person than i found out that she is, so i felt as if i needed to defend her or try to protect her. my thoughts about myself when i took the change out of the metal change dish got mixed together with hilton, or my thought of hilton respecting me because i worked, or my thought of hilton "supporting" me publicly (not money), or the thought of hilton and i having self worth together, or value, together, back when i thought that she had self worth (not money), in an awkward, confused way, which is totally understandable. i had to take change out of a change jar at the grocery store, pulling it toward me, after i thought that hilton and i were being insulted by the white woman, and it confused me, causing me to take the change out slightly more aggressively than normal. i felt confused or awkward as i did it. it all took place in about 4 seconds. it was a thought of having self worth, and not necessarily about money. it would have confused anyone who was in that public situation. what was i supposed to do? leave the change in the change jar? or take it out very very slowly and weird? why would i have done that? that would have meant that i was doing something wrong, when i wasn't. it was an unusual public situation which confused me, and i talked about it right when i got home from the grocery store. talking about my confusion right when i got home 10 minutes later meant that i wasn't a money problem, and not that i was, and everyone knew that. then that evil, childish, weird, mean spirited or actually sadistic black woman tried to make it seem like i shouldn't be loved by anyone, the next day when i was at the store again, because she was envious, or jealous, mean spirited, childish, or really because she had already created a personal social problem for herself on her own. guess what? i gave her a taste of her own nasty medicine. it wasn't my intent to be with paris hilton, publicly. she involved me in her life, in a stupid, unnecessary way. obviously the grocery store incident didn't bother paris hilton because she sent me the envelope with the "supportive" stamps on it ('important 2' section of this website.) after the incident. the grocery store incident was in early november 2008. hilton sent me the envelope, with no return address, with custom stamps, with no postmark, and a purse which i didn't order and didn't want in early 2009. i wanted a different bag, not the purse which she sent. i am so sick of the thought of childish, mean spirited black women and paris hilton. leave me alone.

i have 5 charges on my criminal record which i will elaborate on tomorrow (8/20/23). i'm tired right now. 3 charges were dismissed because of deferred adjudication, or because i completed probation successfully 3 times. no convictions. the other 2 charges were dismissed. one time i was in the back of a police car, waiting to be taken to the VA hospital in houston, and i saw at least one charge on the police computer in the police car which was totally bogus, which i think that a dirty, childish, mean spirited black female cop put there, so as to try to get a cop to act aggressively toward me, in the event that i would ever be mixed up with the police again. it was assault with a deadly weapon. i think that it was some smart ass, ugly attitude, childish dirty black female cop who put it there. i don't think that it is there anymore. i have not been in trouble with the law since 2012.

this creature which is trying to establish ugly dominance on earth is trying use electronic communication, from me and other people as well, as a way of trying to make me unpopular, and also make it seem as if it is better for people in this life of mine, and in my future lives, to just kill me, so that there is less chaos. it wants to create something miserable, and unloving, for people on earth. really. it has a weird, disgusting personality. it is 2 beings, in human bodies. i know what i am communicating about. it is implying that i don't have a right to live on earth. it is ok if i don't live, because then it won't have any power through me. we want to create a happy story. i wish that the government would not sweep this under the rug. if an official, public statement is made, it will act as a psychological deterrent. it is doing what it is doing because it assumes that no one, including the government, will officially try to help me, or the community. this social issue will become a government issue, eventually. that is what it wants. it really doesn't matter how much negative information about this situation there is, as long as it is negative. even a little negative information can be a problem. it should be made into a positive story, with people fighting for my rights, and the rights of others. the world governments should think seriously about information control. it should be positive, not negative, for the entire world. i think that this was the idea last time, but don't compare me unnecessarily to jesus. most of that is a made up story about what he said. the info in the epistles is also questionable. who wrote it, and under what authority? i don't care about some fairy tale story about God writing it. Rome had political and social motives. ?. they apparently wanted to suppress, or manipulate information about jesus christ, hundreds of years after he died. this being which is trying to establish ugly dominance thinks and acts like a criminal, or someone on the street, hustling people. very very creepy. like a homeless person, trying to get something from people. it is like cops and robbers, but in space. the govenments should wake up, and read this. believe it or not, because of my history with drug usage and a small criminal record, i would be on the cops' side. i would be a good cop, because of my experience, also my experience with criminals. i was in a little trouble when i was younger, but i am not evil. i usually didn't get along with people in the dope scene. i wanted to talk about why there are 64 spaces on a chess board, and they wanted to talk about something else.

look ya'll, i don't want to seem weak, or weird, or stupidly nervous, but you would be struggling also. these 2 people (black guy and mexican girl) are depriving people of basic rest (sleep), peacefulness and happiness. it is like sensing the creatures in the movie 'alien', when the thing is trying to attach itself to a person's face, or like the big aliens, which you can't rationalize with. it lacks empathy. it thinks like a wild animal, but is in the body of 2 humans on earth. just like i am in a human body. it is scary and weird. very bad for children and old people, or actually everyone. it is trying to intimidate everyone, but is really scared and nervous, having backed itself into a corner. it tried to get away with an evil power grab, which failed. now they don't know what to do, and are trying to play it off like they know what they are doing, in this really cheesy, ugly, mean spirited fake way, when they don't know what they are doing. they embarrassed themselves, and are trying to play it off like they have control, when they really know that they don't. it has a weird psychological problem, having a childish fantasy about having power and being able to have fun. sex is a part of that. it is wanting to humiliate me sexually, also wanting people to know that i am innocent, but also implying that it can get away with being evil and mean. i wish that the government would make an official, public statement about the fact that they know about me, and what other people are saying about this situation, even if it is only circumstantial. do they really think that people would think that we are all crazy? people should be given the information anyway. i am giving people in foreign countries my website, by giving them my name, using the place values of each letter of my name, in the latin alphabet. for example, J = 10. O = 15. i can listen to the audio function in google translator, which the people who i am in constant 24/7 activity with can sense. sometimes a language doesn't have the audio function, but hopefully they will get the info, because of secondary languages which are spoken in that country. peace. everyone should know about me. it prevents people from potentially fighting against something which they don't understand, or haven't experienced.



I AM THINKING OF LEAVING THIS INFORMATION FOR 3 MORE MONTHS (TODAY IS 8/3/23), THEN DELETING IT. I WANT TO MOVE ON, JUST LIKE I ALREADY INDICATED MORE THAN ONCE THAT I WANTED TO MOVE ON, BY HAVING DELETED NEGATIVE TONE INFORMATION. I WANTED, AND STILL WANT EVERYONE ELSE TO MOVE ON, BUT I DOUBT THAT THE OTHER PEOPLE WHO ARE INTENTIONALLY CAUSING PROBLEMS WILL CHANGE, OR GROW UP. I UNDERSTAND IF IT SEEMS LIKE I AM GOING ON TOO MUCH. I AM NOT THE ONE GOING ON AND ON TOO MUCH. OTHER PEOPLE ARE. YOU ARE SICK OF ME? YOU HAVE NO IDEA ABOUT HOW MANY TIMES I HAVE TOLD THEM TO LEAVE ME ALONE, AND HOW SICK OF THEM I AM. YOU SEE WHAT I AM DOING HERE, BUT YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT THEY HAVE DONE, OR ARE DOING. IT IS SO STUPID OF A FEW PEOPLE WHO I AM IN 24/7 ACTIVITY WITH TO IMPLY THAT I AM THE MOST DISHONEST, MOST EVIL PERSON IN THE WORLD. I AM NOT DISHONEST OR EVIL. THEY ARE DISHONEST AND EVIL. CHILDISH AND SADISTIC, TOO. IT IS INCREDIBLY DISTURBING. I WISH THAT AN OFFICIAL STATEMENT WOULD BE MADE ABOUT THIS SITUATION, TO PROVIDE THE ENTIRE WORLD SOME SECURITY. ALL I EVER WANTED TO DO WAS TO HELP PEOPLE, AND I NEVER LIED, OR WANTED TO LIE, TO THE PEOPLE WHO I AM IN 24/7 ACTIVITY WITH, OR OTHER PEOPLE WITH THE USE OF THE INTERNET. I WANTED TO THINK OF PEOPLE AS MY FRIENDS, BUT THEN SOME OF THEM TURNED OUT TO BE UNFRIENDLY AND EVIL, THINKING OF THEIR OWN LIVES, SOCIAL SITUATIONS, INSTEAD OF THE HAPPINESS AND PEACE OF THE ENTIRE COMMUNITY. THIS CRAP YOU ARE READING NOW IS AN EXAMPLE OF THAT. I AM NOT A PERSON WHO TALKS OR GOSSIPS A LOT WHEN I AM AT A JOB. ASK PEOPLE WHO KNOW ME. I AM HUMBLE AND STICK TO MY WORK. I THINK THAT PEOPLE ARE PROBABLY READING THIS, AND THINKING, "YEAH, AND IF YOU DELETE IT, YOU WILL PROBABLY PUT IT BACK ON." MAYBE, BUT I DON'T THINK THAT I WILL. I WANT EVERYONE TO MOVE ON, AND I AM LETTING PEOPLE KNOW AHEAD OF TIME THAT I INTEND TO DELETE IT. I WILL PROBABLY STILL BE STALKED AND HARASSED, THOUGH. WHEN THAT HAPPENS IN PUBLIC, WITH OTHER PEOPLE WHO I AM IN ACTIVITY WITH COMMUNICATING ABOUT IT, IT CREATES A PROBLEM FOR THE COMMUNITY IF I DON'T COMMUNICATE ABOUT IT MYSELF, VALIDATING WHAT OTHERS ARE STATING. I DON'T THINK THAT I WILL, THOUGH. THE PEOPLE WHO ARE ACTING UP, INTENTIONALLY CAUSING ME TO TRY TO DEFEND MYSELF ON THE INTERNET, WANT TO CREATE A TOXIC ENVIRONMENT, NOT A SENSE OF LOVE, AND WANT ME BEING BLAMED FOR IT. THEY DON'T CARE IF THEY ARE CREATING A TOXIC ENVIRONMENT, THEY JUST DON'T WANT PEOPLE TO THINK THAT I AM HAPPIER THAN THEY ARE. THEY ARE SORE LOSERS, WHO WANT TO HARM EVERYONE. SOME BLACK WOMEN SPEND ALL OF THEIR TIME TRYING TO COVER UP THE FACT THAT THEY ARE THE PROBLEM, OR THAT A BLACK WOMAN STUPIDLY STARTED TROUBLE BACK IN 2008. THEY TRY TO COVER IT UP, OR THEY TRY TO FABRICATE EVIDENCE TO TRY TO USE AGAINST ME, AND PEOPLE WHO ACT LIKE THEY CARE ABOUT ME, BY IMPLYING THAT I DESERVE TO BE HARMED, CONSTANTLY. IT IS SO CREEPY AND CHILDISH. I HOPE FOR THEIR SAKE, AND THE SAKE OF THE BLACK COMMUNITY, THAT THEY STOP. THEY TRY TO MAKE ME FIGHT BACK, IN ANGER AND CONFUSION, TRYING TO MAKE BLACK PEOPLE, OR ACTUALLY EVERYONE, NOT LIKE ME. IT IS VERY CHILDISH AND VERY SELFISH OF THEM. THIS BLACK GUY, MEXICAN GIRL, AND PARIS HILTON WERE ALSO VERY CHILDISH AND SELFISH. ONE WAY WHICH YOU COULD THINK OF THIS SITUATION, IS THAT IT IS LIKE ME BEING ON TV CAMERA, CONSTANTLY, AND CHILDISH, OBNOXIOUS, DISRUPTIVE PEOPLE GET STAND BEHIND ME WHEN I AM BEING INTERVIEWED, AND GIVE THE CAMERA THE FINGER SIGN, OR MAKE FUNNY FACES AT THE CAMERA. I HOPE THAT IT STOPS. I AM SO TIRED OF SEEING INNOCENT BLACK WOMEN, WHEN I GO OUT, WHO HAVE THIS LOOK ABOUT THEM, LIKE "I DIDN'T DO NOTHING", AND I FEEL BAD FOR THEM. IT IS BLACK WOMEN TRYING TO STUPIDLY BOSS OTHER BLACK WOMEN AROUND, TRYING TO MAKE THEM ACT UP WITH ATTITUDE. THE TROUBLE MAKERS ARE FAKING HAVING PRIDE. IT IS RIDICULOUSLY ABSURD. THEY ARE ACTUALLY ASHAMED. EVERYTIME THEY ACT UP, THEY FAKE HAVING PRIDE. I WISH THAT THEY WOULD STOP HURTING THEMSELVES. LEAVE ME AND EVERYONE ELSE ALONE. I WISH THAT THERE WAS A WAY FOR AN OFFICIAL STATEMENT ABOUT THIS SITUATION. NOT NECESSARILY NEGATIVE THINGS, BUT SO THAT THERE IS ORDER, ALL OVER THE WORLD. IT IS A SOCIAL SITUATION, AND PEOPLE SHOULDN'T PLAY CHILDISH SOCIAL GAMES. THIS IS A VERY SERIOUS SITUATION, WHICH APPARENTLY HAPPENS EVERY FEW THOUSAND YEARS. PEOPLE SHOULD RESPECT IT, AND ALSO NOT UNNECESSARILY POLITICIZE ME.

GOOD LUCK.

i thin that some people would feel more comfortable with me leaving this information up. it is confusing. i really want for everyone, including people who really have wronged the community, to have the opportunity to move on, and to not wallow in their personal crap which they created for themselves.. it is them who is doing this. not me. it would help me if someone who knows about this situation would talk to me, in person, in front of others.

this mexican girl who i have communicated about it trying to make ignorant people think that anyone who defends me are the people who have the sign of whatever on their forehead (chapter 13 of the book of revelations/bible). she is evil, a mexican who has decent looks, but unintelligent, boring bimbo, was probably baptized a catholic, and wants people to tell ignorant people what she is doing, in order to try to outsmart or trick everyone who isn't sensing what she is doing, into thinking that the people who defend or support me are the ones who are evil. this girl wants to be thought of blatantly disgusting, trying to make people uncomfortable and panic, trying to make ignorant people think that we are what she is, evil and panicking. she is like the girl in the movie 'the exorcist'. so is the black man. it seems like a few of the black women who have harmed me are, too. they lack empathy, and are socially lame and childish. it is some kind of disgusting, scary, weird creature, in the body of a human, but with a mind like an animal or something. i do not have anything against blacks and mexicans, per se.

you would think that it is like i am communicating with people who know about my situation, when i am writing this stuff. no one communicates anything back, so I AM NOT communicating with people who are indicating to me that they know about my situation, helping me cope with it. one thing which i learned in communications classes, in college, is that disclosure is not healthy unless it is reciprocated.

someone just called me and then didn't say anything as i was driving west, listening to moby's "one of these mornings". the lyrics go "one of these mornings, won't be very long, you will look for me, and i'll be gone." my sister and her family live in california. it would not be the first time that i have been stalked and harassed by someone doing the same thing already in public, using a telephone. could someone please call the police? black girls in californa have proven themselves to have a stupid, weird, incredibly childish, incredibly rude attitude problem. i think that i foiled a plot to murder me once about 7 or 8 years ago, when i walked to the grocery store, here in houston. some black girl said something weird and disturbing to me when i was at the store. they thought that i would be walking back. i took a cab back to my home. he seems like they intended to wrongfully defame me, wanting to generate a bunch of gossip, and then have me killed, so that i couldn't defend myself after being dead. my sister and her family live in dana point, california.  her name is jill m.  a few very childish, very stupid, very fake black women harass and stalk me about paris hilton, northern trust bank (johnny depp at the viper room/hollywood, like they think of my past writing), thule.org (all in california).  it is like they want to play make believe like little children, wanting people to know what they are doing, blatantly stalking and harassing me, like they are trying to get other people to join in with them.  like they are children tattle tales, and i did absolutely nothing wrong.  they just want people to think that they have an excuses to obstruct my happiness, or happy people's happiness.  read my website.  they don't want me to look better than they do, publicly.  they don't want people to know that i am happy.  they are childish, greedy and evil.  it is like these black women are little children, holding hands, dancing around me, with me in the center of a circle, with them singing in a really horrible tone, "let's play with him, let's play with him, let's toy with him, let's toy with him, let's bother him, let's bother him, let's make him angry, let's make him angry".  these girls like to intentionally provoke me, publicly, trying to make it seem like they have leverage over men.  the west east thing means that they are sending a signal to the black women harassing me when i am at my computer, facing east.  i know what i am communicating about, because they have been doing it for a long time already, ganging up on me, and anyone who acts like they care about me.  are you sure that you think that i should delete all of this?  maybe that would be like letting a fierce mean animal out of a cage.  she is also sending a signal to the black guy and mexican girl, like it is a game.  



sorry about all of this, but i am not the problem. a few people stabbed us all in the back. i would like to move on, but they don't want to move on. i wish that an official statement would made about me and this situation, and then i could delete all of this. childish, evil, mean spirited people would not play public games anymore.

i forgot to mention that i when i wrote to johnny depp about northern trust bank, that i had already written to him about a film idea i had. i think that i had sent him just the opening scene, which was a monologue. i am not interested in writing anymore. i thought that everything had some special purpose, and that it was my duty to correspond about northern trust bank to him, since i was already engaged in business, after the black guy, who i didn't know was an ignorant black guy, confused my about the significance and purpose of northern trust bank. there is nothing extraordinary about northern trust bank. it was a misunderstanding. i don't think that johnny depp got the mail. i sent it to the viper room, thinking that he was still there, when he wasn't. i wish that they would have sent me my mail back, stating that he wasn't there anymore. i sent 84 pages of written work to the viper room in 2010 or 2011. i think that i spent between 200 and 300 hours working on it. the name of the story went from "sunlight" to "sunlight and the unanimous acclaim" to "and the earth" to "mixed reviews" to "considering catalysis". i don't know if could have made the title "considering catalysis" work. it was a start. probably about 20 or 30 minutes of film time. i am not interested in writing anymore. it was sabotaged. no, i am not lying. i doubt that i could have gotten my story produced anyway. i'm sorry if all of this old crap confuses mr. depp. i was very confused in the past, but no evil intent.

my girlfriend's health information, which is normally private, is public, and she should be protected. the government is basically allowing childish, evil, sadistic hoodlums to dominate. do something about it.

i really tried to create a loving place, but then that created a war because of a few people who weren't loving, or actually childish, evil and sadistic. they don't want me to be loved, publicly, so they treat me in a weird, childish, abusive manner, so that i act weird, defenseless, trying to defend myself and other people, so that they think that i won't seem likeable. unusual situation. i would forget about this if they weren't obstructing in the unique way which they can.

it is difficult to look at people on tv anymore, thinking that they can do something interesting and social, communicating about this situation with someone who knows about it, when i can't, or am not being allowed to. it is stupid. so what, it is your social thing, and not mine? doesn't that seem greedy of you? i am not allowed to be anyone, with anyone else, making it official? you are, but i am not? so it is all about me, but i am not allowed to be included? that is weird, and the thought of other people being able to socialize, with me not being able to socialize, is making me crazy. i wouldn't care about this if i wasn't being harassed, publicly. i think that it is a problem with my hierarchy of needs (1. security/love), just as everyone has a hierarchy of needs (maslow), and a confused idea about my own self actualization. i don't want to think about people talking about me, when no one talks to me. it is making me sick and confused.




the black people who act up imply that they can harm people, if someone calls them a name, even when they want people to know that they stupidly started the shit. maybe i should call them some more names. they won't leave me and everyone else alone.



i deleted negative information, like what is in this section of this website, 4 or 5 times already, wanting everyone, including black women to move on. they didn't want to move on. this mexican girl and black guy and paris hilton didn't want to move on either. what they are doing is very very serious. sorry, i couldn't support the community, unless i was given a very basic amount of respect. no, i wasn't a fan of paris hilton's. some black women, or a group of black women, who are trying to fool ignorant people, are harassing me on my computer when i am online. they have some type of remote access to my computer, but it doesn't mean that they are sophisticated. it started when i sent mail to TMZ to try to get confirmation that paris hilton stupidly made reference to me on that show. i haven't watched that show in about 13 years. black women stole my mail twice, and made a mockery, twice, of the certified/return receipt, because they work in mail. then i sent it with fed ex, and that is when it started. i think that they falsified the fed ex receipt also. they were sending a very nasty message to both paris hilton and myself. they want me to know that it is a black women, or a group of black women who are doing this to my computer, but want ignorant people to think that i have no right to assume (or know) that it is, therefore implying that no one can criticize black women.

this situation is not really like being around church people at church on sundays.

i don't like for innocent black women or black people, in general, to get harmed. guess what? people are harming me. it is blatant, weird, harm in public. i would forget about it easily if they were not obstructing the way in which they are obstructing, all day long, every day. they have done so much damage over the years, that they don't have to do much, in order to get all of the people in this 24/7 activity group, way off track. one negative thought creating another. a weird, childish, evil entity, which is bluffing about thinking that they have the real power. i don't want to make people negative. i really want some respect. a basic amount of respect. it is like i am a school teacher in middle school who is being disrespected by students, and i have no way of controlling it. sort of like a white nerd who is being fucked with by an obnoxious obnoxious mexican girl, obnoxious black girls, an obnoxioius black guy, and some rich kid who is boring and doesn't do her homework. i DO NOT want to cause a problem for innocent people. i wish that the government would make an official public statement about this situation, so that it is taken more seriously, so that a few weird, childish, socially lame people don't think that they can get away with whatever they want to, toying with everyone. i don't want the government to think that my website, or weird gossip, constitutes what should be some type of validation of something. people would harass someone in my situation, if it wasn't controlled. other groups are probably going to start trying to use me for their own skewed, greedy, personal social motives. please leave me out of it.

it would be nice if the government, or the president, would say "hey, this guy is here, there is no evidence that he is in trouble, and he deserves a little respect. people should not make this more complicated than it needs to be. actually, it is not very important, because it happens all of the time."

thule.org was not a problem, like i know that a few black women, this black guy, and this mexican girl try to spread evil gossip about.  my old friend found a file about antarctica and world war II which was interesting, but confusing.  he found it by searching for ark of the covenant, not because of white supremacy or because of anything anti semitic.  they have shows on the history channel now about antarctica on the weekends sometime.  the black guy, who i didn't know was an ignorant black guy, who i thought worked for some kind of antarctica or goverment something, made me think a few years after i looked at the file that maybe i was supposed to be involved in something humanitarian and positive, diverse, with regard to antarctica.  i searched for the thule society, which was in the file i read, and found thule.org.  it was an interesting website with interesting trivia, and i think that part of the reason that it is not up and running anymore is because of black female haters who pretended like they had a reason to attack an old contact which i made, and me.  he seemed like he was trying to help everyone.  i tried to protect black people after i read the file at first, the first time i flipped out and went into the psychiatric ward at the VA hospital.  i have tried to protect black people after that also.  some of them, women, are the haters and the racists.  it goes back to them lying about me wanting paris hilton's money, and also about them wanting my attention, after paris hilton showed me some attention.  i was not a fan of paris hilton's when i first wrote to her when she was in jail.  i was neutral.  she involved herself in my life and everyone else's life unnecessarily and stupidly. black women are the ones who wanted and want to control people's money, because of envy, or because they don't like it when someone looks more attractive than they do.  sorry if this hurts black people's feelings.  i really don't want negative things about black women on my website, but there will be a bigger problem if it isn't there, because of their stupid, mean, childish, frivolous gossip.  they should grow up.  they like to gossip as a group, and are typically not strong as individuals.  i wish that there was stronger, more public, black leadership.  i don't like what a very few black women who i am in 24/7 activity with have done to the black community.  i don't want black women or black men or black kids to feel bad or unloved.  the very few people who are acting up will probably try to make me angry, and make black people hate me because i just made that statement.  a few black people who fucked up over the years want black people to hate me, and not them.  they have a social problem.  i have been in the the psychiatric ward at the VA hospital 13 or 14 times, the last 8 times (from 2013 to 2016? or 2018?/i had been into the hospital 5 or 6 times from 1997 to 2011) because the mexican girl was telling people that she will make us sick unless someone kills me, also trying to make it look like it had something to do with medication, which it doesn't.


one simple way which you can understand all of this, is that a few childish, mean spirited people wanted to ruin my life, like angry children, because they thought that i looked better than they did, because of how they got themselves into social trouble. really dirty, ugly, incredibly mean politics. it is sad for the whole world, because i can't protect myself. i wish that the u.s. government would let me know that they tried to protect me, or the community. it is not about religion. it is about a u.s. citizen, who would understandably need protection.

the few people who are knowingly causing problems are perverted, evil, childish sadists. they are stalking me and everyone else. they are confusing my feelings, publicly, like it is a game, knowing that i will fight on the internet, knowing that i know that other people are also communicating about it, in order to try to make myself feel better, with them thinking that they can make me look weird, or unfriendly. i am not unfriendly. yes, it is an unusual situation, but they are the ones who are weird, or socially lame. they bullying a nerd or geek. they think that it is fun, and they will regret it when they are just about to die.

people who i am in 24/7 activity with who are not peaceful or confident get angry, mean and aggressive when they sense me at more peace, or having more confidence than they do. they have a mental problem, which turns into a social problem.

a few girls who i am in 24/7 activity with don't want other the men who they are with, or men who they think that they might be with to get angry, thinking that the girl is thinking of me, so they girls obstruct, and create problems in my life, so that they can imply that they is nothing for the guy who they are with to be envious or jealous of. i think that it is typical girl behavior. mind games. they think that they need to take something away from one guy so that they other guy doesn't think that he is less. the girls also don't want to think that they guy is thinking more about me than them. they are trying to avoid becoming jealous. it is understandable, because of how i lack privacy, 24/7, 365.25.


it is one thing when someone acts in an ugly way, disrespects you, telling you and everyone else that they are lying about you, when you can blow them off, going somewhere where they are not, forgetting about them and moving on to something else. it is another thing when someone disrespects you, tells you that they are lying about you, and continually assaulting you, continually obstructing your life and train of thought, confining you and your thoughts to them, without you being able to get away from them. the very few people who act up are pretending as if they won the argument. they want people to pay attention to them, while telling people to ignore me. why would people ignore me? i just want peace and quiet for the community. leave me and everyone else alone. they stick their face in everyone else's face every day. evil, childish hoodlums who want attention. no, i am not lying about being assaulted. no, other people who i am in activity with are not lying about being assaulted.

people may as well accept this situation as something "bad", unless you can figure out a way of protecting me and everyone else from the very few people who are being unnecessarily aggressive. they are childish, weird, violent, evil people, who are flaunting this. they got themselves into social trouble, and think that they will look bad if i look good, so they are pretending as if they have a reason to obstruct, holding everyone hostage.

if you have already heard about this from other people, you don't need to pay too much attention to what i have written in this section of this website.

this is not like being in a room of people, who are not sensing you; meaning, that you would have a level of privacy and peace. i am being sensed, i know that i am being sensed, so when you think of something confusing, you have to talk it out, or write it out, in order to avoid becoming more confused, knowing that you are being sensed, wanting to avoid becoming further confused. some of the people are unfriendly, abusive, evil, childish weirdos, so it makes you go crazy. they think that it is fun and interesting to make me go crazy in public. it is sick and childish.

it is very difficult not to not communicate about this, because it is more humiliating and confusing if i don't, because of how i know that i am being sensed (i don't mean with this website), or lack privacy, and how a few people are being blatantly cruel with aggression. it would be more humiliating and confusing if i didn't communicate. this is not an ordinary situation. a few people want me and other people to know that they like to make me look powerless, or angry in public, like it excites them to try to humiliate me, like sleazy, smug, unintelligent bullies, who are angry that they made themselves look bad, picking on a nerd at school. they are the ones who will have the social problem. i know that good people are explaining what is going on to others. the people who are acting up imply that they can get away with being cruel, being fake, taunting everyone, including the authorities. i am not the one after power. they are after power. the internet is my only defense. they are wanting to childishly harm defenseless people, on some weird sick power trip, wanting us to know that it excites them. weird and scary. thug bullies, like thugs in jail. it is difficult to not communicate about this, because i know that people who i am in constant 24/7 activity with, are communicating to the community about how there is a problem with a few people causing a problem. it would make us all look weak if i didn't fight. it is like being on tv constantly and people are being rude, or cruel to you, knowing that you will react to it, publicly, trying to make me look mean or stupid. it would be more confusing if i didn't fight, or react publicly. please bare with me.

they are making me mentally sick, wanting me to look bad, because they think that they made themselves look bad. it is a power grab coming from evil thugs, but we stopped them.

i know that all of this seems excessive, or weird. it is a weird, unusual situation. i have to fight in order to make myself feel better, or in order to make everyone feel better, believe it or not. the few people who are being cruel know that i have to fight in order to avoid being more confused, so they are trying to make me look weird and unfriendly. ignorant people underestimate how cruel a very few people are being, because you are not experiencing it like i am, or like other people are.

i also filed a police report (incident # 1528227-16) with the houston police department. report filed with officer E. Estep (unit # 20G52N). date was 12/01/2016. i went to the houston police west side command station several times to speak with him about what is going on after i filed the report. he stated that it was a federal issue. i was trying to make a case with the social security administration, in that the african american male who i mention in this website probably gave the social security administration a fraudulent application for his disability, if he receives disability benefits. you know approximately when he would have gone on disability (march or april of 1998). the activity with him started in february of 1998. unusual problem with his left eye, which just started all of a sudden. the doctors probably don't know what it was, and i know that he wasn't telling the social security administration everything which he knew about. i was also thinking that the mexican girl who i mention in this website was receiving social security disability benefits, but now think that she was too young to have contributed toward social security. the activity with her started in may of 2011. so the FBI could look for 2 people (an african american male/a mexican girl who lives in houston, texas) who suddenly, unexplainably, started to have an unusual problem in their left eye, starting at those times. i thought that it would be enough proof. the FBI could also speak to their family members, because i know that the african american male and mexican female told their family members that they have the ability to act aggressively toward me, or the 144,000, creating contractions of my muscle and soft tissue. do you want to investigate? i was hoping that someone would. you could also try to flush their families out, or anyone who their families communicated to about this unusual situation, with the media.

a few people who i am in constant 24/7 activity with, mostly the african american male and mexican female who i have already made reference to, are making an extremely cruel, extremely childish mockery of a person who they know is innocent (george h. w. bush, northern trust bank, paris hilton, my old mexican neighbor in la grange, texas). they are also making an extremely cruel, extremely childish mockery of a person who has always been honest with them, and everyone else in the 144,000 group, a person who is forced to always be honest, because of the nature of this situation. they are trying to twist something which is so honest, and quite frankly, so boring, into something which is so evil, because they think that people think that it is more interesting that way, or so that they think that they will seem more interesting than they are, so that they can try to get special treatment or money from someone. it is so unbelievably disrespectful and selfish of them. they betrayed God, the community, and themselves. they want me and others to know that they are trying to make me uncomfortable and nervous in public, in order to gossip about that, in order to try to trick ignorant people, who don't know me in person, or who don't understand what is going on ALL OF THE TIME, into thinking that the reason that i can become slightly uncomfortable and nervous in public (not always, usually not), is because i am guilty of something (george h. w. bush, northern trust bank, paris hilton, old mexican neighbor in la grange, texas). they are actually the ones who are nervous and uncomfortable, with a social problem, because they were caught doing something evil. they are trying to get out of being in social trouble, by trying to direct attention toward me, lying about me, involved in an evil scheme. if you were sensing what is going on ALL OF THE TIME, you would know that these people are weird, evil, childish, fake and sadistic, because it is always so obvious that i am being truthful, and that all i ever wanted to do with these people is to tell them the truth. it is boring. they are involved in an evil, incredibly childish scheme, trying to cover up what they did, by trying to fabricate evidence, and also have excuse to harm me, trying to make me less popular so that they feel better about themselves, publicly. they also want people to know what they are doing, and that they are lying, playing an evil game, trying to recruit evil people who they want to act fake. it won't work for them.

i am worried that people who i am in constant 24/7 activity with will unlawfully enter my parents house, because they found out where the spare key is. i tried to get my mom and step dad to move it to a different location, without me knowing where it is, but they became frustrated and angry with me because they think that i am crazy. i wish that the government, or FBI, would try to protect me and my family. for example, my niece's birthday card plus $20 cash was stolen last year because people who lie about me stole it, trying to fabricate evidence to try to use against me and the people who defend me. they lie about paris hilton and thule.org. they have wanted people to know that they have stolen my mail numerous times, and also infected my blood when i was at a care facility, causing me to require 3 major surgeries. a black woman was rude, or actually cruel toward me in 2008, so i called her a name, and then some black women stupidly imply that they have a right to attack me when they don't. i didn't start the trouble. a very few people who gave themselves a bad image try to fabricate evidence against me, and the people who defend me, trying to cover up the fact that they are the problem. it is weird and scary. i doubt that someone will enter my mom's house, but i am still worried about it. the good people who i am in constant 24/7 activity with are worried about it, too. my family should know about who i am. i already contacted the west university (houston, tx) police about it.

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i understand if people are thinking "don't go on and on anymore!" i don't want to. it is very hard to take the stupid, evil, incredibly disrespectful crap which a few people blatantly dish out in a really weird, ugly way, with me being defenseless, constantly being in public, because of the nature of this situation. it confuses me because it affects my pride, publicly. the very few people who do it have mental and social problems. they flaunt thinking that they are weird and mean. it is scary and very disturbing. they think that it is amusing that they can get so much attention being talentless and unattractive. sociopaths. they try to humiliate me and good people who defend me, because they humiliated themselves. i am not making this up. i wish that there was some way that the government or FBI could protect me and the community.

i stated that i won't go on, and i really don't want to. ignorant people have no idea about how much i am being stalked and intentionally harmed every day. you see what i am doing, but you don't know about what other people are doing. it is impossible to be able to think about anything else other than being stalked and intentionally harmed. it can be scary. no, i am not making this up. other people are not making it up, either. a very few people in the 144,000 group, who got themselves into social trouble, being knowingly mean and dishonest, keep stalking and disrupting the group, because they don't want other people, like me, who they think can have happier lives than they can, to look better than they do, publicly. they blatantly, childishly lie about george h. w. bush, northern trust bank, paris hilton and my old mexican neighbor in la grange, texas. there was a misunderstanding about george h. w. bush, because of how he had stated "1000 points of light", and also because of the ignorant black guy, who i didn't know was an ignorant black guy, being weird aggressive toward me for years. people are pretending as if they have an excuse to be aggressive and harmful, not even caring if they know that people know that they are lying about why they are doing it. they are telling people "just be fake". it is so cheesy. they don't want other people, like me, to look better than they do, publicly, because of how they got themselves into trouble. it is very childish and selfish of them. they would rather make everyone miserable and confused, rather than to leave everyone alone, so that people, like me, look better than they do, publicly. i am not stuck up or selfish. just want to be left alone. just want people for everyone. i want everyone to be peaceful and happy. they want to drag people down to their level. that is not what i want to do. i am trying to defend myself and the community, so that evil people can't' spread their lies. this black guy and mexican girl are also trying to turn it into a racial thing, because they think that they have made blacks and mexicans look bad. i don't mean any disrespect toward blacks and mexicans. a few black women who they think they made themselves look bad are trying to turn it into a racial thing, when i never wanted to harm them. i wanted them to be able to move on, but they don't care about moving on, because they don't care about themselves, or trying. i would like to be able to contribute toward a positive community environment, or feeling, but it is impossible or very difficult unless you figure out a way of protecting me. like having the FBI or government make a statement about this situation, informing me that they did so, so that these people who are causing problems don't think that they can get away with what they are doing. these people who are acting up are weird, CHILDISH, and sadistic. the very few people who are acting up don't want me to be able to contribute toward something happy because of their envy or jealousy. they don't want me to be liked. the very few people who are acting up are happy when i don't look happy on the internet. they don't want to have to compare themselves, publicly, to a person or people who are happier than they are, so they are obstructing peoples' lives. they fight dirty and ugly, and there is absolutely nothing to fight about. like i already stated, they have a mental and social problem. this situation is unique because it is a constant 24/7 public thing.

the people who are acting aggressively are taunting the police. they want people, including the police, to think that it is interesting that they can harm people and get away with it. it is weird and scary. doesn't mean that i am weak. that is why i wish that the police would call me or come to my house, wanting everyone to know that they talked with me. i would also like to know about a statement which the police could put out, meaning, that there is agreement that there is a real public consensus about what is happening, and that it is wrong. i would really like to be shown some respect and care, publicly. not special treatment, but fair treatment. you don't understand how sick i am being made every day. it means that i can't think of anything else, other than being stalked and intentionally harmed. we feel threatened. bullies want to make other people feel threatened. ignorant people don't understand. people who got themselves into social trouble don't want me to be popular, so they are pretending as if they have an excuse to be aggressive, obstructing people's lives. it is sort of like some people who are waiting in line to get bread start shoving other people out of the way, starting a riot. or an animal fighting with another animal because it thinks that it has less food or blankets to sleep on. i am not the one who started the fight. i am not the one who is being selfish.

me being confused in the past does not mean that i am evil. the people who are acting aggressively are evil. there is a difference.

this is what happens when the police can't or won't protect a public person. the people who are acting aggressively are like crazy, incredibly mean people who would be locked up in jail or a psychiatric ward.

i really can't imagine having a happy life, because of how i am defenseless, except for the internet. i doubt that the people who are childish and evil, acting up, will ever leave me alone. i hope that they change their mind.

ignorant people don't understand. the people who are being aggressive are obviously excited, wanting us to know that they are getting a sick, weird, childish thrill, by making me sick or unhappy or less confident or confused in public. they want to make a person who gets more attention than they do, or a person who would be considered unique or special, look bad, publicly. ignorant people don't know me that well. i have a unique confidence when i am being left alone for a little while. just a few hours. it would be that way all of the time, and the people who are acting aggressively know it. they don't like for people to think that i am more confident, or happier than they are. as stated, their aggression is weird and scary. no, i am not a weak person. ordinarily, good people choose to associate with good people. i got stuck with everyone, which includes weird, evil, childish, psychopathic, sociopathic people. i would not choose to associate with these people. unfortunately, i am stuck with them. actually, everyone is stuck with them. can you PLEASE try to figure out a way of protecting me, publicly? the community needs protection, too. any public person would need protection. do you not want to try to protect me, because you are amused by this? guess what? that hurts. you wouldn't like it either.

i am scared and confused, just as i know that other people in this 144,000 group are. this black man and mexican girl are vicious, evil, childish, weird, sadistic creatures. like a person who is criminally insane. i am also having trouble with a person who i am in activity with, who i know is a black woman, harassing me when i am at my computer. somehow she has remote access to my computer. low level hacking, toying with me, wanting to confuse me, trying to make it look like lame childish are more sophisticated than they are. she is working together with the black man and mexican girl, wanting to make people sick. she is changing the arrow cursor to the little blue circle when i think something, say something or read something at my computer. i think that people know what this is, or how to do it. it does not mean that she is sophisticated. it is not the computer thinking. i know that the little blue circle appears when the computer is thinking sometimes, but it is not that. she has a weird, childish, angry envy of me, wanting me and others to know that she wants to make me sick because she doesn't like the fact that i would be stronger than she can be, publicly, if people would leave me alone. i wish that i could speak with my nurse from the VA hospital about what is happening. he is my friend. or my parents. or the pope. or the president of the united states. or the mayor of houston. i don't need medication. i need a little love, respect. a little protection. ok? i would really like for people to stop sweeping this under the rug. i am scared. i am being made sick every day, because of weird, sadistic people's amusement. people who i would like to talk to about my situation would have to be informed about who i am and what is happening. ignorant people really don't understand how ugly and vicious these people are. they are insane. like an animal which you can't rationalize with. it is what happens when a public person has no security. they want the attention which they know i would be getting, knowing that i would have been happy and productive, publicly. it is scary. they are weird and creepy. for God's sake, please help. why can't anyone who knows who i am talk to me in front of others?! everyone is scaring me, because everyone seems scared of something.

my mother and father and step father and the rest of my family have all gotten angry with me when i try to explain to them what is really happening because they think that only a weird, stupid person would think what i am thinking. do you know how humiliating and demoralizing that is for me, when i have to experience their anger and frustration, or disliking of me, in front of other people, with me knowing that people who i am in activity with find it amusing that i don't have real support, respect and love from my family, with them knowing what other people and myself know? no, i don't need medication. i need a human support system. i have the people at the VA hospital, but they haven't been told by anyone who i am or what other people who know about this situation are communicating. you people, being able to communicate with others who know about the situation as you know about it, helps you to be able to cope with it, or process it in your mind. don't expect me to be some kind of superman when my basic needs as a human being are not being met. needs, like security. no, this is not a con for money either, because that is one of the lies of the evil people who are stalking me. they want to make a mockery of someone who is honest and likes to work, obstructing, pretending as if they have a good reason to obstruct. what do you think would happen to my family's spirit if they thought that someone wanted to show us love, and trust, and build us up? instead of my family thinking of something interesting and spiritual, they end up not liking me, or hating me, publicly. that doesn't do very much for my confidence, does it?

the people who are stalking us like to try to make me look stupid, weird, angry and powerless on the internet. the truth is that the internet works against them, so then they thought after i started to defend myself and the community on the internet, that they would try to make me look crazy or weird or angry by trying to humiliate me so that i would keep fighting on the internet. they are involved in an evil scheme, with them thinking that ignorant people don't understand what is really going on or what i am really like in person.


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the mexican girl who has my vision in her left eye, who i make mention of at the top of this section of this website, is trying to have me murdered. she has been knowingly doing this since 2015, when my parents took at trip to italy, after giving me the dog izzy to watch. she intentionally, in a plan of hers, intentionally made me so inevitably sick, with me shouting in agony for her to leave me alone for hours and hours, days and days, weeks and weeks, that i had to take the dog (who vomited in confusion) to a boarding home (dogtopia on waugh dr.). she then continued to try to have me murdered, making me the same type of sick for about 7 weeks. i could hardly get out of bed. didn't shower or eat much. i lost about 15 pounds. she is evil. she is also deranged and sadistic. i am not sure if it would be classified as psychopathic, sociopathic, or as an anti social personality disorder. she thinks that she can't have fun, or be with a man who she can get money from, as long as i am alive, because of the constant 24/7 activity, and issue with her left eye. she thinks that it is possible for her to make people who i am in constant 24/7 activity with so unnecessarily mentally sick, sad and confused that they would decide to try to murder me. she also knows that they don't want to experience me getting old with failing health, because they will suffer. she doesn't want to experience it either. with respect to me being possibly murdered, keep in mind that people always know where i am, and sometimes where i will be, if they have that information in advance. i have already informed the fayette county sheriff's department about my situation, and the location of my parent's house in la grange. i go out there every 2 or 3 weeks to work. it would be easier to murder me there, because it is more remote, with less people. she is also trying to wrongfully defame me, and anyone who defends me, trying to give herself an opportunity to lie about me, and herself, trying to create doubt about what has happened. i don't believe that the african america man, who also has my vision in his left eye, is trying to have me murdered. i assume that he receives social security disability money, which he doesn't want to lose before he dies. the mexican girl was too young to have been working, or contributing towards social security, before the activity with her started (18 years old? 20 years old? / in 2011). i have attempted to commit suicide several times. the last time was after i discovered that you can get xanax online, interested in killing myself, doing an internet search. i got a job at a mexican restaurant (pappasito's/close to interstate 10 and the west beltway 8), having everything completed before my first day at work, only to discover after working for about 2 hours that the mexican girl had already planned to sabotage it. she wanted to keep me here in order to try to wrongfully defame me and have me murdered. she also thought that she was giving herself an alibi by keeping me alive. she also thought that it gave her an opportunity to lie, stating that i was not a good worker, or that she was trying to help me, or that i didn't want to do the work. i worked a total of 2.92 hours before absolutely needing to quit. the mangers and employees and customers would not have wanted me there. i then told the mexican girl that if she left me alone for a week, or 10 days, just to be sure, establishing trust, that i would get another job and try to kill myself. she made a mockery of it, trying to get people to defend me, so that she could get away with lying to an ignorant person, trying to trick them into thinking that i was lazy, and that i was trying to hustle people for money. i spent about 1 and 1/2 years doing that. then i told people that i do not intend on committing suicide anymore. it would do more harm to the community than good, allowing evil people to dominate, creating a bad story.

i don't want to try to commit suicide anymore. my mother, who i want to be with, will die in a few years from pulmonary fibrosis. i also have a girlfriend who i love very much. both of them would be heartbroken, as would the rest of my family. i also think that people who know about this situation would be sad and confused.

i didn't attempt suicide because i am weak, but because i wanted to get this evil, deranged, sadistic mexican girl away from me and the entire community. i would also want to get this evil deranged, sadistic african american male away from people. they are preying on the 144,000 in order to be able to prey on the world. they think like an animal. really. they act like an animal which has been trapped in a cage, and is thrashing around trying to get out. or like a person who is driving and gets pulled over by the police, and then tries to hide something from the police by distracting them with BS, getting caught anyway. they think like dumb criminals.

if people who i am in constant 24/7 activity with want to prove to someone, or a group of people, that the activity between us is real, and understandably confusing, knowingly making us sick, then you could attempt to have me caused to die with an official medical procedure, which might be able to be authorized. like stopping my heart after being administered general anesthesia. i thought that it would be good for people all over the world to know that i was here before i die, and that the 144,000 and myself were shown some care and respect, by giving us peace. make it a happy, peaceful story, and not a story about a evil monster being able to knowingly prey on innocent people. peace would triumph. psychological warfare. how long do people want to experience this chaos and discomfort which a monster (mexican girl with my vision in her left eye/african american male with my vision in his left eye) is knowingly, unnecessarily creating . i think that you would be doing the world social system great justice by letting them know about me. people should know that there was validity to holy scripture. holy scripture is related to science.

i also filed a police report (incident # 1528227-16) with the houston police department. report filed with officer E. Estep (unit # 20G52N). date was 12/01/2016. i went to the houston police westside command station several times to speak with him about what is going on after i filed the report. he stated that it was a federal issue. i was trying to make a case with the social security administration, in that the african american male who i mention in this website probably gave the social security administration a fraudulent application for his disability, if he receives disability benefits. you know approximately when he would have gone on disability (march or april of 1998). the activity with him started in february of 1998. i was also thinking that the mexican girl who i mention in this website was receiving social security disability benefits, but now think that she was too young to have contributed toward social security. the activity with her started in may of 2011. so the FBI could look for 2 people (an african american male/a mexican girl who lives in houston, texas) who suddenly, unexplainably, started to have an unusual problem in their left eye, starting at those times. i thought that it would be enough proof. the FBI could also speak to their family members, because i know that the african american male and mexican female told their family members that they have the ability to act aggressively toward me, or the 144,000, creating contractions of my muscle and soft tissue. do you want to investigate? i was hoping that someone would. you could also try to flush their families out, or anyone who their families communicated to about this unusual situation, with the media.
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the few people who got themselves into social trouble, by being mean and dishonest, are trying to get me to defend myself and the community on the internet, in order to try and trick ignorant people who don't understand how bad this is, into thinking that i am not friendly or weird. they don't want me to be popular. they are involved in an evil scheme.

ignorant people really don't understand how unusually cruel people are being toward me, and the people who they think care about me. it is like what would probably happen to a famous person at the academy awards, when they were giving their acceptance speech, if there was no security, or no way to protect the person who is doing something in public, on tv. childish, mean people like to humiliate people who are being recognized in a special way. or think of a person at tv station, like a news television anchor on tv, who is on tv doing work, being messed with in a sadistic way, by someone if there was no security at the tv station. childish, mean people think that it is fun to harm me, publicly. no, it doesn't mean that i am weak. it is much, much worse than you could possibly imagine.

the very few people who are acting up also want people to know, because of how they know that people are defending me, that they get excitement, or a thrill, from being able to harm me and the people who they know defend me emotionally, spiritually etc. they think that i am special, so they like to try to humiliate me, publicly. it is like they want people to join in with them, wanting to make fun of or bully a person who is defenseless. i just want to be left alone. they are the ones who are trying to make a big deal of themselves. it would seem like i am the one who is wanting to make a big deal of myself. no. they are. they don't think very much about themselves, so they think that by "associating" with me, that they are making themselves seem more special than they are. this doesn't mean that i am stuck up.

the few people who are causing problems like it when i seem negative on the internet. they also like it when i remove negative things from the internet, because they think that they can get away with horrible, evil things which they have done.

thinking practically, people might as well accept this situation as something negative, until i die. that doesn't mean that i am a negative person. it will be negative, unless you can figure out a way of protecting me and the community from the people who are being unnecessarily aggressive. a few people are making a sick joke of making this a negative situation, wanting to mock christ and mock the church, or something peaceful and positive, wanting people to know that they know that it would have been more positive, or interesting and spiritual, if they would have left me alone. they are weird, negative, childish, envious people, who got themselves into social trouble, and who don't want me to look better than they do, publicly. i understand if people are thinking "it doesn't seem like there is anything to envy." exactly, that is what these people who are intentionally causing problems to want you to think. that is why they are obstructing so much, all day, every day, like a sick childish game, because they think that they can get away with it. i am not lying about their aggression. ignorant people really don't understand how aggressive and cold hearted they are. psychopaths or sociopaths or whatever you call them. it is incredibly disturbing, and you would rather be respectfully put to sleep than to have to be stuck with them. i am suggesting that the FBI/government let people know that i am here, and that there is a problem with people being unnecessarily aggressive. some type of psychological deterrent. otherwise, people think that they can get away with it. it is human nature. not difficult to understand. people who don't think that much about themselves want attention, or want to be thought of as superior. don't unnecessarily politicize me, either. i am not running for a political office. i can do whatever i want to, as long as it is not illegal. do you understand? i have freedom. everyone has freedom. i don't have to be an altar boy at church in order to be accepted. actually, people would probably try even more to find something wrong with me if i was an altar boy. altar boy can be cool. something about liturgical drama. sometimes i ring the bell at my mom's church.

it is like a weird sci fi movie situation. it is a weird, ugly attitude, predatorial, evil, psychopathic, alien species that we are dealing with. you would not want to be stuck with it. you would want to be respectfully put to sleep. you would not want for the community to have to think about it or to talk about it. i have used the internet as a way of stopping bad things, or evil gossip, from spreading, but it also hurts the community, by making it think of something negative. this is not a sunday at a peaceful church event. this is a 24/7 battle, and it will be until i am dead, or unless you figure out a way of stopping this thing (some kind of animal mixed with a human) which is attacking people.

the people who are acting up, being unnecessarily aggressive, are admitting to being ugly attitude, low class, unintelligent, evil, mean spirited thugs, who want to dominate. it is just a few 144,000 people who are the problem. they have a mental and social problem. they think about what christ is, and then think to themselves that they are not like that, or that they don't want to have to do as much work, so they try to take power, with a blatantly lazy, sleazy attitude, not caring about whether or not people think that they are stupid, or that no decent or intelligent person would follow them. this doesn't mean that i am stuck up. i can get along with all kinds of people because of my life experiences, but i can not tolerate weird cruelty, or dishonesty.

ignorant people don't understand how evil and rude these very few people who are unnecessarily aggressive are being. constantly. it is a power grab from them. they think that they can't keep up with people who are happy, or confident, or christ like, so they try to make it seem like low class, thug, mean spirited people have the power, trying to drag people down to their level. they are people who are trying to take power away from me, and other people, and we are not even trying to boss anyone around. we just want to be left alone. very simple.

i feel sad and frustrated for black people. i didn't start the trouble. i would like to move on. i would like for them to move on. i try to help them and then they don't help themselves. i also don't want to let the ones who have caused serious problems get away with what they have done, so that they can cause more problems.

i don't want to go on and on. i know, you are probably thinking "ha, but you do anyway...". lol. this creature which is attacking us is like an animal, or snake or something, which is obviously confused, trying to survive. it is also evil and sadistic. it doesn't mean that we can't have happy moments, but it really won't be good, or better, until after i am dead. this creature is so evil and sadistic that it is fascinating, like mr. spock stating "fascinating, captain". that doesn't mean that i enjoy going through this.

this creature which is acting aggressively toward people is pure evil, and is also using its' ability to act aggressively as a weapon. i wish that the government would let people know that it knows about what is going on, and that it has been documented. the police and military should know about it.

this mexican girl's parents should try to get her help, or go to the media about who she is, and what they know that she can do, being able to be aggressive toward people. she is a weird, vicious, evil female, who obviously gets a sick thrill from hurting innocent people. she has an anti-social personality disorder. psychopathic. sociopathic. she doesn't care about people. all she cares about is trying to wrongfully defame me, in order to be able to get money from some ignorant mexican guy.

the people who are acting up are like adolescents who shine laser pointers into a cockpit of an airplane which is approaching a runway for landing. what i have to do, publicly, is very difficult or impossible when you are being blatantly, childishly disrespected. it is scary. like a form of terrorism. they are trying to get mean, uncaring people to group together. i don't think that it will work. they know that if they left me alone, that i could land the airplane safely, with all passengers being happy and faithful. it is weird childish envy and hatred. doesn't mean that i am stuck up.

ignorant people really don't understand. why would i want to live, when some weird, creepy, sadistic, childish creature is intentionally making me think of nothing else but how it enjoys stalking me, publicly? this creature is like, all day long, every day (very creepy, very ugly, very cruel) "oh no, don't think about your sweet, loving girlfriend, think about me. oh no, don't think about your sweet, loving dog, think about me. oh no, don't think about your sweet, loving family, think about me. oh no, don't have fun at your jobs, think about me. oh no, don't think about your art work, think about me. oh no, don't think about pride in your website, think about me. oh no, don't think about your home, think about me." guess what? you wouldn't want to allow this disgusting thing to have the pleasure of stalking you, the way it lets everyone know that it gets pleasure from stalking you, and others. this doesn't mean that i am going to try to commit suicide on my own. if you want to try to arrange it at a hospital, then fine. ignorant people really don't understand how much time, every day, i am being intentionally, obviously, troubled by this weird creature. you would want peace. and you would want to know that the community is safe, and that there will be a good, positive story for the future.

i wish that people knew me better than the internet. it is an obvious, intentionally inflicted, very weird, very cruel corruption a happy soul. like weird, childish, mean spirited "hackers" getting into your computer and totally screwing it up, so that it can't work right, publicly. they think that they can't survive unless they screw up my life, publicly. they got themselves into social trouble, and are deflecting to me, when i am not in trouble. they played childish, mean games, and it got them into social trouble.

this black guy and mexican are so stupid, cheesy, childish and desperate that it is ridiculous. they combine different UNIMPORTANT, IRRELEVANT things together, creating contractions in different parts of my body, in order to try to stupidly trick ignorant people into thinking that they are smart, or superior. they are childish and panicking, making other people panic. they keep lying about george h. w. bush, northern trust bank, paris hilton, and my old mexican neighbor in la grange, texas, trying to get other people to lie. they think that they can't make people think that they are good, or acceptable, unless they can make me look bad, like what you are reading (negative/confused). they are weird, irritating psychopaths, who don't care about anyone, not even their own families. you don't understand about how they want to fool people who don't know me better, or all of the time.

i wish that the world governments and world health organization should get involved in this situation. it seems like electronic communication is going to make it bad, or confused. i wish that should put me to sleep at a hospital, showing me and the 144,000 some respect. unless you can figure out a way to stop the unnecessary, weird, childish, sadistic aggression. this is what happens when the police or FBI or government do not protect a unique public person from stalkers. the people who are acting up want others to know that it excites them to be able to harm me and others emotionally, spiritually, psychologically. it is scary, and that doesn't mean that i am weak. it is like we have been kidnapped, and are being tortured, and the people who are doing it are taunting the people who know about it, and who they think don't like it.

all of this negative, weird crap you are reading is an example of how some people are trying to make me look bad. i am a happy, positive, cheerful person by nature, and some people don't like it, because they got themselves into social trouble. they are like animals fighting over food, or a blanket to sleep on, angry because they think that i have more, or can have more than they can have. they are being selfish. you don't understand how they can be aggressive, obstructing. you don't understand how much they are doing it, like it is a childish, cruel game. part of their scheme is that they are trying to make people think that i am faking being sick, or that everyone who is complaining about them are faking being sick. the truth is that i am a hard worker, with initiative, and they don't want me to succeed, or to be more popular than they are.

i am sorry about all of this, but it is not my fault. actually, in the beginning, part of it was my fault (methamphetamine usage which made me think unrealistically about being able to help), but then after i developed/matured a few people stabbed us in the back, trying to use my understandably very confused past against me, implying that i had or have an evil intent, when they know that i didn't or don't. God played a trick on them because they didn't have love in their heart. they are sore losers. they want to try to trick you, causing me to defend myself in public, without wanting you to understand what they are doing, obstructing. they know that i will become more sick and confused if i don't fight, because of the way which i lack privacy. i am trying to make myself feel better. i understand if it seems excessive. they are trying to trick ignorant people. they are evil.

a few black women want people to feel sorry for them because i criticize them. i criticize them because they are evil, mean and childish.

please note that this is a unique situation. the few people who are acting up are not people who i would ordinarily associate with. we are stuck with them. no, it doesn't mean that i am unfriendly or disrespectful. they are disrespectful. they might as well get their act together, leave people alone, and think more about love so that they can better survive, loving themselves as well. i would just get away from them ordinarily. i would walk away, run away or drive away as fast as i could. call 911. file a restraining order. i think that there is something in the bible which is something about how to work with others. i think that it is related to 2 or 3, but you don't have to look at the bible in order to figure it out for yourselves.

a few black women, the mexican girl and the black guy are ugly attitude, angry, mean, vindictive and dangerous because they have embarrassed themselves, publicly. they want to harm people, spiritually. it is scary. they are also evil, like weird scary criminal behavior or personalities which you would see something about on tv, like weird criminal people in detective shows. it is scary, and that doesn't mean that i am weak. they are angry because people know that they started the trouble, thinking that they look bad, publicly. they are creepy, weird, childish and SADISTIC. also evil. i wish that the police or government would get involved, make a public statement, and protect people. at least let people know what is happening, with a public statement. these people who are acting up think that they can get away with it, and also want to humiliate authority, like sleazy bully thugs. they are wanting to humiliate people who are christ like. they are implying that people who are christ like won't have power, and that sleazy thug like people are going to have the power. they couldn't keep up with christ, or people who are christ like, so they want to drag everyone down to a low level. it is incredibly disturbing and you wouldn't want to have to go through this, like other people and myself have to. don't expect for me to be really happy, or peaceful, or able to function properly, as long as you don't protect me. this is not an ordinary situation, so don't compare me to ordinary people. please help me.

the mexican girl is trying to make it look like good, honest people who she knows are defending me look like we are panicking, trying to cover up something about northern trust bank and my old mexican neighbor in la grange, texas. the mexican girl is the one who is stupidly panicking, trying to cover up the fact that she got caught betraying me and the community, because she got caught trying to wrongfully defame me and have me killed, so that i could not defend myself. she is also indicating to the black guy and a few evil, mean spirited black women that she will try to cover for them if they try to cover for her. she thinks that she, the black guy and black women look stupid together, and they are all angry and bitter about it, wanting to harm me and everyone else. they won't stop with their aggression. there is nothing extraordinary about northern trust bank. it was a misunderstanding which the black guy unnecessarily created because he was playing stupid, unnecessary games. i thought that it meant that people with more money were going to help people who had less money. i did nothing unethical with regard to northern trust bank. people keep lying about me and money because they got themselves into social trouble. they also won't stop acting aggressively, obstructing people's lives. they also lie about paris hilton and money. these black women, mexican girl and black guy are so childish and evil that it is absurd. they want people to know that they are guilty, but are telling people to lie about it, like evil thugs would. they lie, and tell other people to lie because they think that they gave themselves a bad image. they want me to have the bad image because they think that they have the bad image.

i understand if people would think "ok, ok, you don't need to go on." i am not the one who keeps going on, or complaining. these people who act up are stupidly childish, obnoxious and evil. they do something stupid to begin with and then "talk" back. guess what? they didn't win the argument. they "talk" back because they are sore losers.

another thing is that they don't want people to think that i created this website, or my artwork.

i deleted negative information about the few black women who have been acting up since 2008, wanting them to move on and be happy, but you didn't want me to be able to move on and be happy. don't imply that i have to respect you, or be nice to you, when you are blatantly disrespectful toward me and the rest of the community. it is your racism, hate and anger. get real and leave me and other people alone. quit hurting innocent black girls, or black people in general.

THIS PARTICULAR black guy and THIS PARTICULAR mexican girl are publicly weird, childish and insecure, because they think that people think that THIS PARTICULAR white person is superior, so they want to try to humiliate me in a really really weird desperate way which won't work. they are the racists. evil, too. i don't like all white people, or this doesn't mean that i think that blacks and mexicans are inferior to whites. it is a dangerous crazy black guy and a dangerous crazy mexican girl who are doing intentional harm to the community. i wish that the police or FBI, who i know understand something about this situation, would come to my home and speak to me in person. they can obtain my address easily. i live in houston, texas, zip code 77024. close to memorial drive and gessner.

a few evil, mean spirited black people are intentionally making me sick and crazy in public so that they can stupidly criticize me for being sick and crazy. they are trying to make me unpopular because they think that they are unpopular.

they want people to know that i am innocent, but also want people to think that they have an excuse to harm me, like they want people to think that they think that it is fun to harm an innocent, defenseless white person, publicly. they are weird, vicious, ugly attitude black people, who are racists, who try to make it seem like i am the racist.

the very few black people who are acting up are admitting to being ugly and childish. i wish that the police could help me and everyone else. i went way out of my way to show black people love and respect, and then the black women who think that they made themselves look bad mocked me, or act like they make fun of people who are loving. no, i am not in any trouble because of paris hilton, either. they are in a really weird denial about being the problem.

this black guy admits to thinking that he is a little bitch ass, evil buffoon, and it is really irritating. he is really irritating. he envies people having a good time with me, so he keeps interrupting. the mexican girl does the same thing. they are very childish and possessive.

i am not the one who is weird. these people who are stalking the community are weird. they don't want me to be able to think of anything else but being stalked, or terrorized, publicly, while i am trying to do something very difficult, publicly. it excites them to harm someone, publicly. i wish that the police or FBI would come to my home and speak with me, letting other people know that they did this. are the police afraid? it should be business as usual. it would create a psychological deterrent for the few people who want to act up.

so, you want to have a party, communicating about me, but not invite me in person to come inside and get to be known? no, that doesn't mean that i want evil power. it means that you seem to want to have the power. no, it doesn't mean that i want people to kiss my ass either. i just want a basic amount of respect.

do you know how stupid that i think it is, that i am receiving treatment from the houston veterans' administration hospital for psychiatric issues, with people (president of the united states?/mayor of houston, texas?/pope?) knowing that i am not schizophrenic, with people communicating about me, knowing that my psych team doesn't know about who i am, or what the problem actually is? what type of treatment is that? also that my family hasn't been officially informed, so that i can't receive love and support from them? it seems like no one really cares about me, or other people who are mentally challenged. i don't need medication. i need to be able to speak with someone who has been informed about what the situation is. like a psychologist. not a psychiatrist. it seems like you really don't want me to be respected, or cared for, i guess because that makes your social life easier for you. don't complain when you aren't cared for either. evil people are trying to get you to pigeonhole this.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pigeonholing#:~:text=Pigeonholing%20is%20a%20process%20that%20attempts%20to%20classify,sorted%2C%20or%20that%20it%20is%20based%20on%20stereotypes.

ignorant people would read that paragraph directly above and think that i seem childish and angry. no, actually i am competent, and in a great amount of pain and confusion, constantly in public.

these people are messing with me, knowing that it would be more confusing and humiliating for me publicly if i didn't fight back on the internet. then they want ignorant people to think that i am weird, angry and childish. no. they are weird, angry and childish. they obstruct all day long every day, making a weird childish game of it. i would rather be put to sleep at a hospital than to have to go through this shit, publicly. do you get it? no, i am not going to try to commit suicide again.

i am concerned that black women who are childishly, stupidly conspiring against me and other good people may tamper with my email or regular mail, thinking of potential Etsy orders. they would want people to think that maybe it was the Russian government or Chinese government, or anyone but them, also wanting people to think that it was black women. they just don't want me to be thought of as more popular or attractive than them, so they harass me.

these black women play a dirty, ugly game, where they act aggressively, or start the trouble, wanting me to react in anger, so that they can imply that i started it, or deserve to be harmed.

this black guy wants ignorant people to think that i am the egyptian Set, or the god of war, who wants to have a competition of boats, like what he thinks that people read in the link in the 'for your information' section of this website, with me sinking to the bottom. he is the stupid one who sunk to the bottom a long time ago. he tries to make it look like i am Set, harming me so that i react in public, trying to make it seem like i am the God of war. no. i am protecting people, even if it seems excessive. you don't understand what they are doing. he started some stupid shit, then thinks that he looks stupid, so then he tries to make me look stupid, but i don't, because i know that people are on my side,; even if all of this stuff seems strange. they are intentionally harming me and i don't have privacy, so it is intended to make me go crazy. ''

who said that we have to answer to a very few ugly attitude, childish, mean spirited, evil, unintelligent, stupidly bossy black women? i would rather answer to a loving male. who said that we have to respect them, when they don't respect the peace and happiness of the community, or when they don't show me a very basic amount of respect? they want you to see what i am doing, wanting you to feel sorry for them, wanting you to think that i am some kind of monster, without wanting you to understand what they are doing to me, with me not having privacy. it is sadistic, childish and weird. they started this crap back in 2008, just because i was being recognized by a girl on t.v. they got envious, or jealous, and tried to stop me from being happy, because they thought that maybe it would lead to other things, with other people.

the intent of these very few black women and black guy, who works together with them, is to do very very serious emotional, psychological harm to a unique, CHEERFUL white boy, publicly. they are actually the ones with the weird emotional, psychological problem. most black people are not engaged in what they are doing. it is black women who i am in constant 24/7 activity with, who are a problem, and this angry, weird black man, who wanted to spread their problem all over the united states and world, wanting to try to cope with the problem which they created for themselves. they love it when i try to fight against them, and defend people, or criticize them on the internet, because they think that it gets black women to group together, like it seems like they have done, or are wanting to form some kind of stupid army of black women, dangerous because of computers and networking. they are childish, mean and unintelligent. they are not even trying to build anything good. look at this crap for example. they just want to take something away from people who have more than they do.

don't expect this to be glamourous, like me walking down the red carpet, dipping my sunglasses down for a moment. war with ugly creeps is not glamorous. i don't really care about it being glamorous.

they try to get me to state that they are unfriendly, in order to try to make it seem like i am unfriendly. i am friendly, if you know me in person. the reason that black women started to harass me, publicly, 15 years ago, is because i was recognized, publicly, for being friendly, or loving, and they got envious or jealous. they wanted to bully me, publicly. they also wanted to bully the girl who recognized me. i've been bullied by black women for 15 years, and quite frankly, i am sick of it.

i asked the police and FBI for help, didn't I? so if i drive to the police station, and tell them about my problem, they are going to pretend as if they don't know who i am, right?

people think that it is fun to harm me emotionally, psychologically, in public. it is what happens when a special, public person does not have protection. it doesn't mean that i am weak and it doesn't mean that i am a mean person, who deserves to be harmed. they are ugly cruel thugs who think that it is fun to harm a gay cheerful person. they want to make me angry, trying to get me to defend myself on the internet, because they don't want people to buy art from me, or act like they like me. they don't want it to seem like i am more popular than they are, because they think that they made themselves unpopular. it is blacks putting pressure on blacks to not have anything to do with me, because of their envy. then they would go "ah nah, there ain't nothin' to be envy about. ha ha." that's right. they try to make me unattractive, because of their envy. that is what all of this is shit is about. they treat me in an abusive way, publicly. yes. abusive. unbelievable. maybe you will start to believe how ugly it is. they treat me in an abusive way, publicly, in order to get me to defend myself, publicly, because they understand that it is more humiliating and confusing if i don't communicate about it, because of how lack privacy. they are childish, envious creatures, who want to make me unattractive. the mexican girl does the same. i know what i am communicating about. so do other people. the police should listen to us, and do something about it.

i am not the one who is stupidly complaining. it means that a few evil, dishonest people are the ones who are stupidly complaining, because of their non stop aggression toward me and the community.

i made a special trip to an all black church in downtown houston, texas in 2010, to show my love and respect for black people. a black adult put a young black girl's hand in my hand when i went up to the front of the church to sing, and i cried non stop for 2 or 3 minutes. this is after black women created some problems. a few of them shit all over me, the next year in 2011, infecting my blood when i was at cypress creek care facility, with something which was intended to target my digestive system, wanting to try to cover up the the fact that they started the trouble. cover up or fabrication of evidence to try to use against me. they started it because of envy and their personal social problem. i had to have 3 major surgeries because of infection, and went through great trauma. in spite of this, they continue to harass me and the good people who defend me, like they think of it as a childish game.

black people communicate about what is on my website. i would like to see your websites, and also communicate. let me take a look at your social media posts. do you have a problem with that? they are cowards, who take cheap shots at me and other good people who defend me.

this black guy and mexican girl are playing very stupid, very childish, very irritating games with everyone, wanting everyone to think that they are Gods, when actually they are just ignorant human beings, who don't know what is going on, just like i am an ignorant human being, who doesn't know what is going on.

i really want black people to be ok. for those of them who are playing stupid, childish games, stop. stop hurting other black people. stop hurting everyone. i apologize to black people if you have gotten your feelings confused or hurt by this. people are intentionally screwing up my brain really bad, and you would go crazy and weird too. what they are doing is incredibly mean, and this is not an ordinary situation, so don't worry about it.

a very few black women, who got themselves into social trouble, being evil, mean and childish, try to make me communicate bad things about black women, in order to try to make all black women bond, acting like they don't like me. they are holding black women and everyone else hostage. i didn't start the trouble. it is a very few black women, the black guy, the mexican girl, and paris hilton, who did something stupid, and are now holding people hostage. it is impossible to be able to think about anything else but how they are stalking me, and other people, obstructing our thoughts and actions. it is much much worse than you could imagine. i wish that someone would officially defend me in public, in order to act as a deterrent for other people's unwanted aggression. they are weird, childish psychopaths, who like to play games and harm people.

don't be surprised if i spit in some evil, cruel person's face (not literally), who is torturing me, and also wanting to humiliate anyone who acts like they care about me, or believe in me. that is exactly what you would do also. i don't have super human strength. this situation would make anyone frail. this is not an ordinary situation, so don't compare me to people in ordinary situations.

what would someone on tv do, if someone was being blatantly cruel, or disrespectful to them, while they were on camera? they would quit. they would walk off of the set. guess what? i can't quit, and people like it, because they think that it is fun to make me act weird and crazy in public. you should know what is going on all of the time i don't mean this internet stuff. that is why i tried to commit suicide, because people obviously get a sick thrill from making me act weird and crazy in public. why? because they think that i will look better than they do, if they don't act aggressively. all i want is peace. then this mexican girl made that impossible at the restaurant, because she wants ignorant mexican guys to think that i was faking it, or that i don't have honor, or that i don't care about anyone's peace. she wanted to keep me here, in order to try to defame me. she didn't even think that it would work, but because she is so fake, she pretends like it does.

a black women, who is not sophisticated, who is weird, angry, childish and evil, harassing me when i am on my computer, is telling this black guy and mexican girl that she will lie for them, if they lie for her, and other black women. this black guy is telling the mexican girl and black women, that he will lie for them, if they lie for him. mexican girl is doing the same thing to him, because she thinks that they both look stupid together, because of the northern trust bank issue. she knows that it was his fault, and she is trying to cover for him, because it means that they are not perfect gods, or whatever ridiculous, childish shit they want ignorant people to think.

these few people who are intentionally causing trouble are violent. they are angry, violent, evil people, like a person who would rape someone else.

I WISH THAT THE POLICE OR FBI WOULD COME TO MY HOME, SPEAK TO ME, LETTING ME AND EVERYONE ELSE KNOW THAT THEY UNDERSTAND THAT THERE IS A PROBLEM. I WOULD ALSO LIKE FOR THEM TO TELL ME THAT THEY HAVE MADE A STATEMENT TO THE PUBLIC, INFORMING THE PUBLIC THAT THERE IS A SITUATION, AND EVIDENCE THAT PEOPLE ARE BEING UNNECESSARILY AGGRESSIVE. IT IS UNDERSTANDABLE THAT PEOPLE WOULD ACT UP, CHILDISHLY. THEY SHOULDN'T BE UNNECESSARILY AGGRESSIVE. THEY SHOULD LEAVE EVERYONE ALONE IN PEACE. THESE PEOPLE WHO ARE ACTING UP THINK THAT THEY CAN GET AWAY WITH IT, HARMING PEOPLE SPIRITUALLY. PEOPLE CAN PRETEND AS IF THEY DON'T KNOW ABOUT THIS SITUATION, SO THAT THEY DON'T THINK THAT THEY ACT RESPONSIBLY.

people might as well accept this situation as being something "bad".

the people who are acting aggressively think that they will look bad, if i look good, so they don't stop fucking with my brain. they turned this into a racial thing. i am not trying to create division. they are trying to create division.

this mexican girl has been trying to confuse people about what she means by her aggression, trying to lie her way out of trouble, ever since i started to communicate online about her. she is either lying about northern trust bank, or about trying to encourage me. either way, she wants to wrongfully defame me. i didn't do anything wrong in reference to northern trust bank, and she is definitely not trying to encourage me. northern trust bank was an understandable misunderstanding, and i thought that it meant that the bank was good for everyone. this mexican girl wants to make mentally sick every day. she wants everyone to know that she thinks that this is a game, like a dumb, childish, obnoxious criminal who has been caught, but who is taunting everyone because we can't do anything about it. the black guy and a very few black women are the same.

all of this is a very few people playing a dirty, evil game, intentionally provoking me, making me mentally sick and confused (it would be more confusing if i didn't write about it, and they know that), when they know that i am actually a sweet guy, trying to make me defend myself and other people, in order to try and make it seem like i am a mean and angry person, and that i started the trouble. i didn't start the trouble. they are trying to cover up the fact that they started it.

the very few black people who got themselves into social trouble are trying to create a problem between me and other black people. they treat me in a weird, abusive manner, in front of other people, in order to create confused (normal) reactions from me, in order to try to use it against me. they come into my home, or other places where i am, intentionally making me mentally sick (much much worse than you could possibly imagine), implying that i have to perform for everyone, also wanting me and everyone else to think that they are weird, childish, violent and evil. they start every day, before i get out of bed, ruining my day, and everyone else's day. it is a very childish game to them.

going out and seeing black people in the community makes me feel better, giving me a better sense of faith. a very few black women and this black guy are blatantly stalking me, or blatantly staking everyone, intentionally confusing (normal) my thoughts and actions in order to try and make me unpopular. why? because they made themselves unpopular over the years. they think that they have a survival problem, in this life and their future lives, so they act out in a very nasty way, trying to create an illusion that i am the problem, or that i am an evil uptight jerk, when i am not. they flaunt being evil and sleazy, and also weird violent attitude, so it is incredibly disturbing, especially when i have to do this in public. the mexican girl also flaunts being evil and sleazy also. i am not telling people to dislike black people or mexicans. i am trying to get a very few people who act up to stop harming me and the community. i didn't want childish, evil gossip to spread, dividing the community. i am not trying to divide the community. they are. my work on the internet over the past 7 or 8 years has helped, also when considering help from good people. these people who stupidly act up every day should get a life, and quit unnecessarily involving me in their life. it is every day, nasty weird cruel humor which you wouldn't want to experience either. they think that they can get away with it because they think that no one will make an official public story about this situation, not putting a little pressure on people to be respectful and civil.

a very few black women, this mexican girl, this black guy and paris hilton are all trying to give themselves an alibi, by insinuating that no one would be so stupid as to do exactly what we are stating they are doing. it is a common tactic for people who think that they have been caught doing something wrong. they think that if they change their behavior, that it is an admission of guilt on their part. THAT IS NOT WHAT I AM DOING. you see what i am doing on the internet, but you don't understand what they are doing, trying to fool you. i am trying to protect the community, and stop their attempt to divide the community. they are so fake and disrespectful that it is weird.

this black guy and mexican girl are like john travolta and the other girl who is harassing carrie in the movie carrie. childish, obnoxious, cruel. they are making us sick every day. they also want people to think that we are making up a story about them. they are taunting anyone who says that they don't like them. they are also taunting the police.

the few people who are acting up are uncivilized. it is a power grab from uncivilized people, who don't want to have to, or who think that they can't behave publicly like intelligent, civilized people do. i wouldn't be surprised if they were trying to get trump and his supporters to kill me. they are also trying to trick ignorant people into thinking that i am the one who is uncivilized because of this internet crud. i just want to be left alone in peace and quiet. i just wanted peace and quiet for everyone. these other people are busy trying to get something for themselves, trying to force weak people to do what they want them to do. they are trying to use me as a way of making something out of themselves, or getting something out of other people. they are the ones who are going on and on. they are really childish and irritating, trying to recruit people who are like them.

now the mexican girl is signaling to black girls who she thinks have a social problem to kill me in la grange, where there are more trump supporters, so that trump supporters will be blamed. the mexican girl is telling people that she will make everyone mentally sick and uncomfortable unless someone kills me. then she tries to get out of that, or not make it so obvious, with her evil maybe it meant this and maybe it meant that crap. she also thinks that if black girls kill me, that she can blame it on mexicans, because of how she lies about me and my old neighbor, when i lived in la grange from 2009 to 2011. i had no proof that he was involved with drugs.

all this mexican girl has ever cared about, like the nasty evil gold digger that she is, is getting some ignorant mexican guy to think that it is cool that she harmed me. she wants people to think that mexicans hate white people. i tried to help her, too. publicly.

these few people, including paris hilton, who have acted up, like to be thought of as smart asses. i really don't want to live, even though i am not going to try to commit suicide. now the mexican girl and black guy want people to think that i am faking being sick, because they don't want me to earn money publicly from art, because they don't want me to be more popular than they are, because they made themselves unpopular. so did some black women. they won't leave us alone. very childish, very weird game these people are playing. i am not faking anything, and good people who know me very well know that is true.

people already know about this, and i know that black women, this black guy and the mexican girl have all lied about it. the black guy confused me about the significance of george h. w. bush in 2002, and northern trust bank, back in 2006, because he was playing unnecessary stupid games in 2006, which meant that he didn't want to take responsibility for being the main reason that i was in george h. w. bush's office, thinking that maybe bush was going to publicly support me, only if i figured out something useful for scientists. i thought that bush stating "1000 points of light", and my inexperienced thought about skull and bones or freemasons, meant that maybe he understood some thing special about this situation ahead of time, and i was also confused, not wanting to think that i had to be by myself all of the time. i wanted to believe in something happy and positive for people. i was having a love dream or love fantasy. i didn't want to believe that God would create something bad, so i imagined something which was unrealistic. i wrote a letter to northern trust legal department in chicago in 2010 or 2011, read it out loud, trying to protect people from the bank, even though there is nothing special or bad about it. there is nothing wrong with northern trust bank. it was all a misunderstanding because this black guy was playing childish, unnecessary games. for a while i thought that chase bank was doing something shady, too, after i thought after a few years that northern trust was. northern trust bank and chase bank are not doing anything shady. i kept what i thought was "real information" about northern trust bank to myself for a few years (2006 - 2009), because i was put into an awkward social situation. i didn't know that it was an ignorant black man who was toying with me and everyone else. i thought that it was someone much more intelligent, and that everything had a much more important purpose. people would have assumed that i was a part of something, or that maybe i was a part of something, and i didn't know what the something was, so that confused me and i didn't want to talk about it, because i didn't understand it was going on. i thought at first that something good was going on for everyone, though. ti thought that there was a good reason to not talk about it, and i was also hopeful that something very good was going to happen on earth. i didn't talk about it for 3 years. i'm glad that i did eventually, because i was acting weird and stupid, publicly, thinking that the black guy, who i thought was something much more intelligent, and something which was involved in the government, was telling me that it was between me and him. you know why i didn't talk about it? because there was nothing to talk about! make sense? he wasn't communicating with words. he implies that he can get away with whatever he wants to because he doesn't have to communicate with words. i thought that someone broke into my apartment when i was in the VA hospital in 2009, but they didn't. i thought that they looked at my computer, and looked at a letter which i wrote to johnny depp, which i don't think that he ever got, THINKING THEN THAT IT WAS MY DUTY to communicate about northern trust bank, thinking at first that good news about it was going to spread, after the black guy referred to it, thinking that it was good for everyone, because i thought that God was working some kind miracle for everyone somehow with that bank, or banking in general. i don't think that johnny depp every got the mail, because i sent it to the viper room, thinking that he still owned the place, or worked there, when he didn't. i wish that the viper room people would have sent me my mail back, with a notice on it, that he had moved. i was like a child with a good intent, who didn't understand what was happening. the black guy, who i didn't know was an ignorant black guy, referred to the bank, playing a stupid, unnecessary game, because he is the one who isn't "trust"worthy. he thought that he had made a mess for causing me to be in bush's office in 2005, so he tried to get out of it, trying to put it off on me because he is insecure. i thought that it meant that people with money were going to help people who had less money, and something about antarctica, which the black guy was responsible for causing me to think (first east, and then south once he knew that he had confused me, playing a shady game, intentionally confusing me). i wrote to johnny depp, and people already know this, in reference to the bank "i am not intentionally steering you in that direction, but you might want to check it out." or "i am not trying to intentionally steer you in that direction, but you might want to check it out." nothing about the black guy, who i didn't know was a black guy, and nothing about antarctica. i thought that if there was something good about northern trust bank, that people had to discover it for themselves. i didn't write anything about why i thought that northern trust was important, other than the fact that i saw a sign for the bank in the elevator at george h. w. bush's office, and not the black guy stimulating me when my old friend said something about the fact that you have to have 5 milliion dollars to invest at that bank. it seems like the black guy was referring to 5 or 50, like the messiah, and that i should get out of bush's office or not to think that bush was more important than he was. he mixed the name of the bank with bush's office, which was not necessary and dumb, and created an even bigger mess which he doesn't want to take responsibility for. it doesn't mean that the black guy is honorable. he got carried away and doesn't want to take responsibility for it. i am sick of this shit! i am sick of his shit, and the mexican girl trying to cover for him! they are fake and cheesy! they think that people won't think that they are really intelligent Gods or whatever, who should be thought of as powerful, and that they are just weird human beings, and it makes them angry. he knew that i had a good heart, having a dream about being able to help people, and people know that i stated out loud eventually that i didn't want any money in reference to that bank, thinking at first that people were thinking that there was something good about northern trust. the black guy lies, and tells weak black women to lie, stating that he was telling me to not write about the bank to anyone, when in fact he was the reason that i wrote about the bank to johnny depp, thinking that good news about that bank would spread, thinking that it was my duty to communicate about it, thinking that i was involved in something benevolent for the world. i am not evil. they are trying to make ignorant people think that i am scared because i got caught doing something wrong. no. they are scared. after a while, the situation with the bank didn't make sense to me, and i thought that there was something wrong with it. black guy is lying about east and west bullshit, telling black women and anyone else who he thinks made themselves look bad over the years, to lie. it wouldn't have mattered what side of my body the physical stimulus which the black guy created, as long as it was the opposite side of the entrance of the bank. in this case, it was the east side. i thought that it had something to do with the world, like where the sun rises, and one version of the Shriner's recognition test. i also used to think that this black guy, who i didn't know was an ignorant weird black guy, worked for bush. for a while i thought that it was bush. the black guy is real dork cheesy and evil, implying that he did it on the east side because i had an idea to write about it toward the west when i heard something about 5 million dollars. no i didn't. it was his reaction to hearing something about 5, not mine. he is trying to cover up for a huge mess which he made, and he even wants black people to know that he is lying. he tells them "we look stupid, so just lie..." there was a sign for northern trust bank in the elevator of george h. w. bush's old office. i can't believe that this black guy and mexican girl and black women have the audacity to blatantly lie about what happened. they don't give a damn about people, including little children. the black guy also tried to make people all over the world who don't understand english think that i am the anti christ after i went to a catholic church (i was baptized, but not a catholic, i didn't care, i wanted to experience it at a catholic church) on ash wednesday, attacking me so badly when i was driving home on the freeway, when i started to drive west after the church in downtown houston, that i had to slow down to about 35 or 40 miles per hour while on the freeway, in serious serious pain, for about 2 minutes. he knew that i would try to explain to people what he was doing, people who couldn't understand english, in order to try to make it look like i am the most evil man in the world, when actually he is the most blatantly evil, vicious man in the world. he wanted people who don't speak english to think that the west and east were more important that they are. he is an insecure evil vicious negro pig. i have already written about this on the internet before. this information in this section is very very old. i wasn't interested in banks or banking. i initially wasn't driving to a bank, and then i was a just a passenger in a car which happened to be driving by a northern trust bank location, driving north, in 2006, going to get vietnamese food. i had been in george h. w. bush's office in 2005, just trying to drop off mail which meant that i was confused about the situation. i was also curious as to what bush's office looked like. i also wanted to feel safe, because of how i was so confused about what the government was doing, thinking that more people knew about what was going on than it did. if i would have lived in new york city, i might have driven to the UN building. if in washington d.c. i might have driven to the white house. i was very confused.

why would i not be TRUSTworthy for wanting to help people? simple. basic intent. i was confused and had a very very weird drug problem, because of a very very weird mental problem, but so what? why was i confused? mostly because of this black guy over the years (1998 to 2006). he knew that, and was trying to put it off on me, because he is a sleazy evil insecure creep. he is not a loving man. i didn't think that i could do anything positive, unless i has used methamphetamine. very weird, very confusing addiction. i also didn't know for sure if i really had some special duty, because no one came up to me point blank and stated "hey!". the truth is that the black guy thought that methamphetamine was interesting, and he wanted me to keep using it. he got himself into trouble, because he didn't try to make me stop, publicly, when he could have. he knew that he made my addiction worse, and that he was the main reason why i thought that maybe there was something special about george h. w. bush.

i first figured out that it was an evil, ugly attitude, childish black man, not a really intelligent government agent, who was toying with me and everyone else, in the year 2011, when he tried to cover for the black women who intentionally infected my blood, causing a serious problem to my digestive tract. he thought that they made black people look so bad, that he decided to try to join them, with none of them ever anticipating that i would be writing about this online, eventually.

this mexican is trying to cover for the black guy, because she thinks that they both look stupid and weird together. she knows that it was his fault. she knows that i am innocent. weird, evil, childish sadistic crap all day long, every day!

by the way, it is ok if i look angry in public. guess what? i am angry, even though i am not an angry person by nature. you would be angry, too, if people were stalking you and obstructing your life, because of their laziness and greed.

this mexican girl and black guy are pretending as if they don't know that they are the problem. they are pretending as if they don't know that we would all be happier and more productive if they would go away. they also want people to think that i don't know what i am communicating about, when i state that it is a mexican girl and black guy. i do know what i am communicating about. they try to deceive people. if it doesn't work one way, then they try to make it work another way, and all of it is a bunch of crap. then they really don't care if it works or not, just as long as a this particular white guy doesn't look better than this particular black or this particular mexican. they think that they make blacks and mexicans look bad, but that is not necessarily true.

this mexican and these blacks like for people to know that they know that i am innocent, and that they like to childishly pick on me, harass me and bully me in public, anyway. like thugs who act like they don't want to try to behave like intelligent, civil people. again, they have a weird social problem, and they didn't want me to look better than they did, publicly. thinking about tribes, there were tribes with nice, non aggressive people, and there were tribes with mean, aggressive people. i would try to get along with one another if i were you.

this black guy wants people to think that he is a big bad negro, who has stupid, unfriendly, unintelligent, unpopular black women who bow down before him, like a childish stupid fantasy about people thinking that he is a player. he is telling them in front of everyone to continue to steal my regular mail and harass me when i am online. east and west bullshit. he has done this many times. i know what i am communicating about. they send sleazy signals to each other to harass me, ganging up on everyone. it is just a few lame people who are implying that they can bully everyone. they don't even think that people like them, or believe in them, just fake bullshit.

if it looks like black people, who want ignorant people to think that maybe it is someone else harassing me online, are wanting to complicate potential art work orders, i can give people my phone number, or my home address, and they can order them that way. maybe. i don't know if i can do it that way because maybe there is not a receipt, but maybe we can figure out a solution, only if you are interested in purchasing art work. they want to scare people. they want to make people who are happy, unhappy. that is not what i am wanting to do. i stopped the spread of people who tried to create stupid division in the community.

this black guy acts like he is telling black women that they are not allowed to act like they love a loving white man, publicly. don't complain about slavery, if you don't want to act like you care about assimilating with nice white people. i do not mean that i think that all white people are nice. i am a nice person, even though it seems like i am angry with this internet crap. they just pretend as if they don't know that i am loving , or nice. or, they are mocking and making fun of nice people. like thugs in jail. very childish, evil and cruel. like people who would get fired from a job because they were fucking around being stupid.

they are like rapists, who attack people once they have been rejected. they know that people would communicate that we are happier without them, if they left us alone, and so they don't want that. they are childish, selfish and destructive, they make it about them, every day, instead of leaving everyone, including me alone, so that we are be happy and busy as individuals. i can't function properly because of them. you have to be at peace in order to be able to work efficiently. you can't work while feeling constantly threatened by people who obviously get a weird thrill from making you feel threatened, publicly. they keep implying that they have some authority which they don't have.

they try to make it look like i am the one who is attacking people. no i am not. i am defending myself and others from people who are attacking. they want you to see this, but they don't want you to understand what they are doing, trying to be sneaky about it.

they are stalking people, turning it into a weird childish game, since the police can't help me or you. they are angry people who think that they don't have power, wanting to mess with everyone, including me, trying to make it look like i am the angry person who wants power. i just want to be left alone. they are trying to steal power away from me, and give it to themselves, like it is there identity and not mine.

it seems like the people around me are experiencing something loving, because of your communication about this situation with one another, but i am not experiencing anything loving. no one who knows about this situation communicates to me. i imagine something positive going on, but i don't experience it, and it is very painful, because we are social beings. don't expect me to change, or to get better, or more healthy, when you don't put anything else into my mind.

don't' compare me to ordinary people, in ordinary situations. i lack privacy, constantly, and people are blatantly stalking me and harassing me, wanting people to know that it excites them to confuse me, and make me feel bad, publicly, harming me spiritually. why? because they think that i have more spirit than they do. they don't like it, so they like to make me feel horrible, publicly, making a weird, cruel mockery of christ's spirit. i understand if it seems like i don't have much spirit. that is exactly what their scheme is. i'm trying to make myself feel better by communicating about what is happening. do you understand? how would i feel, knowing that people know that i am being blatantly insulted for no good reason, if i just sat there, communicating nothing, allowing evil thugs to dominate me and the community. the people who are causing problems are weird, childish, and stupid. i am not the one who is weird, childish and stupid. i wish that the police or FBI would get involved. the people who are intentionally doing damage, like vandals, are dangerous to the community.

don't expect this to be glamorous. you really shouldn't expect it to be good while i am alive, unless you can figure out a way to stop the aggression. they are taunting the police and anyone who cares about me. you really don't understand what is going on. you don't get it. i am not being allowed to think of anything else. all day long, every day. it is sort of like i am crying out for help. do you understand? you don't understand how frequently i am being assaulted, like weird torture, like being poisoned, like kidnapped, like held hostage by weird, evil sadistic freaks, like criminals who really don't give a shit about how much damage they are doing. the information about negative aliens seems to fit. they are violent psychopaths. they are panicking, trying to figure out a way to survive, like animals, really in their future incarnations. they think that they can't survive because people can easily identify them because of their unusual left eye issue, unless they trick people into thinking that i am the one who is, or was evil, when i am not evil. bad things sometimes happen to good people. i understand if you are thinking that i don't have to go on about it. i am trying to make myself feel better, while basically being held captive. this is not a happy story. it will not be a happy story, unfortunately. imagine what innocent people who are stuck in a war zone have to go through. it seems unfair. guess what? that is the way it is right now.

i'll shut the fuck up when the people who are stalking, assaulting me and everyone else shut the fuck up. they are weirdos who try to make me look like the weirdo.

sorry if it confuses anyone, but this mexican girl has tried to have me murdered, and she is still doing it, telling black women or whoever that she will make us all sick if someone doesn't murder me. she is trying to defame me, and then have me murdered. she refers to murder when i am in la grange, working, because it would be much easier for someone to get away with it in a rural area.

i don't want to be your leader unless you demonstrate to me that you are trying to protect me. who would want to try to lead when you can't defend yourself from weird childish evil sadistic psychopaths? i am more of a worker, and not so much as a leader. it has been this way my entire life. what am i supposed to do anyway? i just want to work, doing what i am capable of, and be happy, and not break the law.

it is blatant hate and violence, coming mostly from black women and this black guy who i have already communicated. the mexican girl is also doing this. they are very dangerous people. they hate me because they know that i will look better than they do if they leave me alone in peace and quiet. they hate what other people think about them. they want ignorant people to think that they have an excuse to act aggressively when they don't.

i had hope that antarctica was something for everyone. diverse. i thought that maybe it was, and that i had some say in the matter. some black women or this black guy and this mexican girl lie and say that i was thinking of only aryan something or white something when i wasn't. i was thinking about love, and civilization in a broad context. i am sure that they twist it into their version, which isn't about love. not at all. i tried to protect black people at the end of 1997 when i first learned something about antarctica and WWII. i am not the problem. their own embarrassment because of what they shouldn't have done to me and others, and their own evil childish gossip is the problem. they want ignorant people who don't know me well to take things out of context when they think that they have an opportunity to make people take things out of context.

a few people want ignorant people who don't know me in person 24/7 to think that i did something unethical regarding paris hilton. i didn't. they want to play make believe like little children, or like national enquirer tabloid like cheese crap. i have love in my heart. sometimes other people don't, so it creates a big problem for the community. they make tabloid like national enquirer cheese crap story about northern trust bank also. i wrote to paris hilton when she was in jail, in 2007, hoping to cheer her up. nothing else. i didn't care if she corresponded back, and i didn't expect for her to correspond back, stupidly. the fact that she didn't report to jail the way people ordinarily report to jail made me think that she had some type of mental problem. i did the same with lindsay lohan, in 2007 or 2008, when she got in trouble for drugs or alcohol, trying to help her move on spiritually. i probably would have done the same thing with demi lovato, if her drug relapse would have occurred before i snapped out of thinking that i was in 24/7 activity with everyone (2008 to 2012), in 2012, which made me feel as if there was pressure on me to do what i thought was the right thing, showing support and love, publicly, for people who get into trouble. in other words, the thought that God still loves people who get into some trouble, and that they can move on with their lives gracefully. so what? you are saying that oprah winfrey could show compassion for lohan, but i can't? i mean, with winfrey giving lohan the tv gig which she gave her. i have been in trouble so many times in my life, and my mother always kept loving me. i used to visit my old friends when they were in harris county (houston) jail. 3 different people, at different times, who had gotten in trouble for methamphetamine. i am not with them anymore. i am never going to use methamphetamine again. i don't know where to get it, and i scared off the middleman guy who i used to get it from, and i most certainly don't want to go out and try to find it. i am too old for that crap. it would just make me nervous and confused, feeling guilty. i have using fantasies sometimes, but i would never never use it again. i am not wanting to glamorize drug usage. people will probably laugh at me for being loving, like a nerd, like people who don't care are implying that there is no way that one person could change the world for the better. some people make fun of people who are loving, or imply that it means something about my character which it doesn't. i showed support for brittney griner, when she was incarcerated in russia, trying to figure out if i could correspond with her when she was in russia, trying to help her cope. i also thought other people could correspond with her also, if i could figure out that it was possible, publicly. i also showed michael cohen some support, writing to him while he was in jail, because i thought he made the decision to turn his life around, and also because i hate donald trump so much. i do these things, more impulsively than not, because they make me feel better, or because i think that they will make me feel better, or because i think that they will help other people feel better. paris hilton wanted to make a big, very stupid, very weird, very childish, very selfish, totally unnecessary deal of herself, publicly, which caused a problem for the community. people who know me 24/7, know me as a type of loving nerd, in a way because i have to be, publicly, but then they try to portray me as a monster, because they think that people will think that it is more interesting that way. they are childish people who have a social problem. they imply that loving people don't exist, simply because they are not loving people.

it was funny, because one time when i went to visit an old friend in jail, the cops came out and arrested me because i had a warrant for my arrest for a speeding ticket which i didn't pay.

i am not the one with the social problem, even though all of this communication would make it seem so.

a few girls who i am in 24/7 activity with have a social problem, which is understandable. i feel sorry for them, but it doesn't give them an excuse to betray me and the community. they should have been humble. yes, i am humble, even though they try to make people think that i am not humble. they want to tell people about who they are, but then get confused when they think that people would think that they are inferior, or that they are not what i am. then some of them started to lie about me, and tried to make me look bad by intentionally provoking me, or tried to make it look like i started the mess, when i didn't. very childish and selfish of them. they are trying to take something away from me, so i will take it back. they are trying to make it look like i am the one who is selfish, when i am not. i just want to be left alone. they thought that if some imaginary guy who they would be with would think that they were thinking more about me than him, that the guy would get envious or jealous. they also thought that it would be a problem for them if they guy was thinking more about me than them. leave me out of your relationships, please, if you can. i am what i am, just like christ was what he was. don't try to take it away from me, or deny it.

it is sort of a relief to think that people don't like me, or that they wouldn't like me. it is a big pain in the ass to try to be likeable, when you lack privacy 24/7, when a few people are trying to make you unlikeable at the same time. weird angry childish sabotage. they try to make me seem unlikeable because they think that i seem more likeable than they are. it is a few people who i am in constant 24/7 activity with. not everyone. please don't take offense to this. ignorant people don't understand how much our lives are being obstructed. we are not making it up, either.

sometimes bad things happen to good people. like being in a war zone, and being harmed by a greedy disrespectful entity. that is not me.

people wouldn't believe how much everyone else in this 24/7 activity group and i are being assaulted every day. the people doing it are desperate, and don't want people to know that i am happy, and having fun. i understand if it seems like i am desperate. i am just trying to make myself feel better, publicly, because of the way which this situation is. they don't want people in the 24/7 activity group to say that things are better, and that we feel better. the people doing it don't care if they are miserable, or unpopular. they would rather make everyone, including themselves, miserable, rather than to allow me and other people to move on to a much happier, more spiritual life than they can have. i tried to help them, too.

i was not a fan of paris hilton's or lindsay lohan's. i was neutral. it can be a problem for people who have addiction problems to put them on the spot, because they can rebel. they want freedom. i drink a little too much. not way too much, but a little too much. i have been drinking sleepy time tea sometimes instead of alcohol. it helps. i am never going to use illegal drugs again. sorry if i confused michael cohen. i didn't send him that much when he was in jail. info which is in this website. description of hebrew letters 'nun' and 'samech'. i also wished him and his family well. i should have sent him something about divine providence.

trump didn't intend to win the election in 2016. he didn't intend to win the primary. he didn't expect to win the primary. he is a weird, evil, stupid, obsessive gambler. it was all a ploy to enhance the 'trump' name brand, which backfired. i think that he was, or is, having financial problems.

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people wouldn't believe how sleazy, slimy and sadistic this mexican girl and black guy are. some kind of weird monster in a human being. draconian? since there is public confirmation about what is going on, with the 144,000, the governments should let the people know that they are aware of it, and that the police and military have been notified. this is very serious. these creatures are attempting to control the planet, psychologically, wanting to intimidate everyone. they are very stupid and mean. like a sci-fi movie.

sorry if i confused people who don't know me that well, concerning the information about my old friends and methamphetamine. i was a nerd. it was sort of like the movie 'trainspotting', only with methamphetamine instead of heroin. my old meth friends were gay. they did not get in trouble for large substance amounts. i sent 2 of them books, after they got sent from the houston county jail to the state penitentiary. repeat offenders. i visited them when they were at the county jail, in downtown houston. i am not glamorizing illegal drug usage. i am not advocating illegal drug usage. methamphetamine is bad. i'm glad that i don't use anymore. i went through 10 years of a very weird, horrible addiction. it can mess up your life. no, i am not a homosexual. i have been with guys, but i prefer to be with a girl as a buddy. i used to go to gay bars, but not with the intent to pick up anyone, or to get picked up by anyone. my past drug addiction was a horrible, weird, sad, and also funny thing to witness.

i wouldn't have communicated anything about visiting my old meth friends in jail, or sending them books while they were in jail, if a few black women didn't lie about my character, stating that the only reason that i wrote to paris hilton in jail was because i wanted her money. i didn't want her money, and was not trying to use her for publicity. i was wanting to show love to someone who i thought was hurting for some reason. i didn't care if she wrote back, and i didn't expect her to write back, and then she created a big mess. i don't care so much that she created a mess. i care about the fact that she doesn't act like she cares about trying to fix it for the community, kind of like a spoiled childish irresponsible girl who doesn't care about cleaning up the house because the maid will do it.

don't think of me as a politician, walking around in a suit, and with a briefcase. i am more like a kid, who was not brought up in church, who got put into a confusing situation. i never really had the personality of a leader. i am more of a worker, who can help leaders sometimes. i don't want to break the law anymore. because people don't allow me to move on in life the way people ordinarily move on, i end up going on about my past. it is unusually cruel for people to not allow me to move on, considering the unusual stress and confusion which they know that i have been through. it seems to excite or entertain them, and it is sick. other people want to move on, too. i had a problem with drugs and alcohol starting at 12 years old. i became a young adult at around 35. now i am 50 years old. please don't involve me in your lives more than i need to be involved. i want to delete this section of this website in a few months. most, or all of it, is defensive. i am not interested in evil money or giving speeches.

young people, 20s, teenagers, or younger, should get involved in sports or music or art, work and school, exercise, and not drugs. drugs can be interesting at first, with experimentation, curiosity, but people who choose that can, or i think usually do, go down a unnecessarily confusing, sad path. it can lead to jail, or institutions. don't use dope as a substitute for creating interesting, positive, peaceful feelings, which hard work, or having discipline, generate. keep your parents and grandparents proud.

i forgot to mention, that in addition to sending a letter which i read aloud to northern trust bank's legal department in chicago, in 2010 or 2011, i took the same letter to a northern trust bank branch location, located on kirby drive., in houston, texas, in the early part of 2011. i spoke with a black woman who i know thought that i seemed weird. it was weird and confused. this black guy who people know about should not have been, or should not be, playing stupid, unnecessary games. he is an evil, childish, rude, insecure black man, who should leave everyone, especially black people, alone. he thinks that he makes himself look bad, and then stupidly tries to put it off on me. the same northern trust bank which was operating on kirby drive, in houston, texas, doesn't look like it is still open, but someone probably remembers the black woman, or maybe she could make a statement to her boss, if she still works for northern trust bank. i am not playing games. this is not bogus information. all of this crap was unnecessary. people play games, and then they lie about me like they think that it is fun to want people to know that they are lying about me and my character. i am not involved in big money or big banks, and i really don't want to be involved. i didn't have an intent to be involved with big banks or big business or anything like that in the past, either. i was interested in the weather, or geomagnetism, and trying to write a screenplay, honestly.

i wouldn't communicate so much about my personal life if people weren't trying to wrongfully defame me. it is a confused situation, with me constantly lacking privacy, so i want to think of everyone as the people who i am in constant 24/7 activity with, who already know a lot about me. sorry if it seems obnoxious. not like that in person.

i'm trying to defend people when i am defenseless. the people who are acting aggressively are uncivil thugs. they want to mock kind honest people, like christ.

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i communicated with a warden of a jail recently, and told him that i think that giving the inmates smores on friday nights would be good for their morale. graham cracker represents mexicans, asians, indians. chocolate represents black people. marshmallow represents white people.

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go be happy doing something which you enjoy. pet your dog or cat. feed your fish if you have a fish tank. make something in a cook book. take a walk through the park. enjoy having some good company.