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All things were created through him, and apart from him not one thing was created that has been created.

John 1:3
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(3)  The principle of efficient causality

So much, then, for the analysis of change, terminating as it does in a realization of just what is meant by “potency” and “act.” But we also need one further tool if we are to examine the philosophical proof for the existence of God; that tool is principle of efficient causality. An efficient cause—and once again, we are using a word (“efficient”) in a technical sense, rather than in its everyday meaning—is one that contributes to the existence of its result (its effect) by means of some action which that cause performs. This general notion is one that is already quite familiar to us; in normal speech, when we speak of the “cause” of something, it is usually the efficient cause that we mean. So, for example, a builder is the efficient cause of a house, an author the efficient cause of a book, and so on. Now: the principle of efficient causality states (in broad form) that whatever advances from a state of potency to a state of act in regard to any perfection, does so not all by itself but rather under the agency of some being that is already in act. (This merely states that every effect has a cause, but it does so in terms of potency and act, for reasons that will appear shortly.) A little reflection on the nature of potency and act will show why this principle has to be true. Remember first, however, that change—whether substantial or accidental—can be defined as the transition from potency to act. After all, change is merely the loss of one act and the gaining of some other act to which the changing being was in potency.

Now, then: suppose that the reverse of the principle of efficient causality were true. Suppose that some being, itself strictly in potency, puts itself into act. That means that it gives itself the act for which it is in potency. But if it has the act to give itself, then it cannot be said to be in potency in the first place. Either it does not have the act in question (which is what is meant by saying that it is in potency) and thus cannot give that act to itself (for nothing gives—whether to itself or to anyone else—what it itself does not have); or else it does have that act to give itself, but then it cannot be said to be in potency. And so, if the act cannot be self-conferred, but is as a matter of fact conferred, then the only viable conclusion is that it is conferred by another, which other does have that act to confer, i.e., is in act.

Some interesting consequences, for our purposes, follow from this principle of efficient causality. Everything that goes from potency to act requires a cause, itself in act, for this. But everything that changes does, in fact, go from potency to act; again, change is merely the transition from potency to act in regard to some accidental or substantial perfection. Therefore everything that changes requires a cause for its change. This does not, as yet, show the necessity for God’s existence (for there is nothing, so far, to say that the cause of a changing being cannot be simply some other changing being); but it lays most of the groundwork we need.
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Known From The Things That Are / Fundamental Theory of the Moral Life
(Martin D. O’Keefe, S.J. / Copyright 1987 by Center for Thomistic Studies)
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for those people who have not already been made aware of this, independently of this website, i am in a constant 24/7 activity with a small group of people (144,000), who are situated all over the world. i don't understand it exactly, but it is related to the design and creation of the Great pyramid of gizeh.  look at link below. i also believe that it has to do with some type of earth grid system.  in other words, our central nervous systems are somehow fused. they can sense that i am typing at this moment, even though they are situated in different places.  i am not currently in activity with 144,000 people. some have died from old age. some i am not in activity with yet. apparently, some of these people were sensing me as a fetus, when i was still in my mother's womb. i think that i am joined with these other people because of something relating to the sun, other stars (most notably the constellation of orion), the design of the great pyramid and electromagnetism. it means that what is happening in our minds, or central nervous system, also exists somewhere else, in order for the fusion to be taking place in the manner which it is. i believe that the water in our systems acts as a conductor.  i believe that the same was true of jesus of nazareth. meaning, that this is what actually distinguished him from other people. read below about 144 and 72. the story of jesus of nazareth is mostly allegorical, although he was a real person in real history. the constant 24/7 activity can be, at times, be maddening. for both me and the people who are sensing me. i believe that the 144,000 is some type of star seed. constellation of orion. astrology. 12 x 12 x 1000. read below. star seed is not necessarily positive, at least when thinking short term.  i was 24 years old (1997), when it first became evident to me that i was, or am, in this unique, constant, 24/7 activity with people. i am not delusional.  then, in february of 1998, i started to sense an intelligent being communicating to me, with the use of physical contractions of my muscle and soft tissue. this happened, in a way, exactly as it was predicted, by something known as the Ussher chronology. beginning of 1000 years. read below. it was extremely confusing at first. 13 years later, in may of 2011, i started to sense another intelligent being communicating with me, with the same type of physical contractions of my muscle and soft tissue. it was, and still is, easily differentiated by the entire worldwide group, who are sensing it, from the communication from the first intelligent being. it was, or is, fainter and more frequent. a totally different person, with a totally different personality. they both wanted, or want, to make it very clear to me, and anyone else who they thought were sensing me, because of the physical contraction communication which they can generate with the use of the concentration of their minds, that they had my vision, or that they could see what i could see. it is very easy to understand, through sensation and non verbal communication, that the first intelligent being which the group began sensed was, or is, male. it is very easy to understand, through sensation and non verbal communication, that the second intelligent being which the group began to sense was, or is, female.

(i will write some more later)

mentally retarded. psychopathic. sociopathic. narcisstic. childish. evil. it flaunts being evil. hate. anger. envy. jealousy. problem with ego or perhaps super ego. egotistical. negative. angry. sadistic. nervous. creepy. it flaunts being creepy. brutal. insane. predatory. deceit.
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https://www.amazon.com/Jesus-after-Crucifixion-Rennes-Ch%C3%A2teau/dp/1591430712

https://www.amazon.com/Holy-Blood-Grail-History-Shocking/dp/0385338457

https://www.amazon.com/Jesus-Papers-Exposing-Greatest-Cover-Up/dp/0060827130

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https://www.amazon.com/s?k=913+rabbi+ginsburgh&i=stripbooks&ref=nb_sb_noss

you can order the book 'Seventy Faces' from the link below. i think that it will be helpful for people.

https://thetrugmans.com/?page_id=205

https://www.amazon.com/137-Riddle-Creation-Torah-Science/dp/9655320421/ref=sr_1_1?crid=1U3YZH4DMGS7N&keywords=137%2C+the+riddle+of+creation&qid=1640029239&s=books&sprefix=137%2C+the+riddle+of+creation%2Cstripbooks%2C234&sr=1-1
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https://www.artbible.info/art/large/298.html

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https://www.google.com/search?q=the+fool+tarot+card+meaning%2C+divine+protection&sxsrf=APq-WBs3CEOvnhCX8yVPwg7fd1deBTENSQ%3A1644254039749&source=hp&ei=V1MBYojxKtOnqtsPquK20AE&iflsig=AHkkrS4AAAAAYgFhZwnQHi_KnJdUl3bXrB-VOdX4nYK4&ved=0ahUKEwjI-NPPi-71AhXTk2oFHSqxDRoQ4dUDCAk&uact=5&oq=the+fool+tarot+card+meaning%2C+divine+protection&gs_lcp=Cgdnd3Mtd2l6EAMyBQghEKsCMgUIIRCrAjIFCCEQqwI6BwgjEOoCECc6DQguEMcBEK8BEOoCECc6BAgjECc6BQgAEIAEOggIABCABBCxAzoFCC4QgAQ6CAguELEDEIMBOgsILhCABBCxAxCDAToICC4QgAQQsQM6CwguEIAEEMcBEK8BOgsIABCABBCxAxCDAToLCC4QsQMQxwEQrwE6BggAEBYQHjoICAAQFhAKEB46BQgAEIYDOgUIIRCgAToICCEQFhAdEB5Q8Q5YxIsBYPeNAWgFcAB4AYABoQGIAbEikgEFMzkuMTGYAQCgAQGwAQo&sclient=gws-wiz

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the poem ('to my son') in the joshua evan mishler link above was created by Bruce B. Wilmer.

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https://www.google.com/search?q=bylblos+bible&oq=bylblos+bible&aqs=chrome..69i57.9222j1j7&sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8

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https://www.google.com/search?q=isaiah+19%3A19%2C20+gematria&oq=isa&aqs=chrome.1.69i57j35i39j46i67l2j0i67l2j69i61j69i65.2866j1j7&sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8

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gematria / look at etymology

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gematria

https://www.google.com/search?q=what+is+gematria%3F&oq=what+is+gematria%3F&aqs=chrome..69i57j0l9.3176j1j7&sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8

scroll down to carl's breakthough in gematria. each of the 14 numbers will equal 9 when you add the digits of each number until a single digit is derived.

for example:

144 / 1 + 4 + 4 = 9
1296 / 1 + 2 + 9 + 6 = 18, 1 + 8 = 9

more on the number 9 in section below (ennead/casing out of nines).

http://www.greatdreams.com/gem1.htm

https://www.google.com/search?q=new+testament+greek+gematria&oq=new+testament+greek+gematria&aqs=chrome..69i57.9909j1j7&sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8

22 hebrew letters / click on gematria link / take note of how in upper right corner there is hebrew letter 'alef' (1) and hebrew letter 'beit' (2). that is similar to 'alpha'-'bet'. you read from right to left in hebrew. 1 + 2 = 3. similar to concept of trinity.

https://www.inner.org/hebleter/default
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divine providence related to eye of providence on dollar bill. hebrew letter 'ayin' (link below) has an ordinal or positional value of 16. absolute value is 70. both 1 + 6 and 7 + 0 = 7

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Eye_of_Horus

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Eye_of_Providence

https://www.inner.org/hebleter/ayin.htm

https://www.inner.org/alefbeit/sigayin.htm

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hArEPktY79U&t=51s

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_PQbyRYdZUg

https://www.hebrew4christians.com/Grammar/Unit_One/Aleph-Bet/Ayin/ayin.html

https://hebrewtoday.com/alphabet/the-letter-ain-%D7%A2/?fbclid=IwAR0Fc7Vdw4Z4wdTRDdKjtLFXtj7K5ycrJ5B8xh5K_SWtxxMZqtDvgMXpCrE#:~:text=In%20Biblical%20and%20literary%20Hebrew,ayin

https://psychology.wikia.org/wiki/Divine_Providence

https://www.newadvent.org/cathen/12510a.htm

in link above, take note of how the shape of hebrew letter 'ayin' incorporates the hebrew letters 'nun' and 'vav'.

hebrew letter 'nun' / 14 or 50

https://www.inner.org/hebleter/nun.htm

https://www.inner.org/alefbeit/signun

https://www.hebrew4christians.com/Grammar/Unit_One/Aleph-Bet/Nun/nun.html

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a_UIjLiSsrA&t=7s

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MynXTRENj70&t=80s

300 + 400, is the 21st letter of the hebrew alphabet 'shin' (300) added to the 22nd letter of the hebrew alphabet 'tav' (400) (last) of the hebrew alphabet. 300 + 400 = 700 or just 7.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Nun_(letter)

(related to hebrew letter 'nun', as described in link above)

hebrew letter samech / 15 or 60

https://www.inner.org/hebleter/samech.htm

https://www.inner.org/alefbeit/sigsamec

https://www.hebrew4christians.com/Grammar/Unit_One/Aleph-Bet/Samekh/samekh.html
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'3 hebrew mother letters' link, in 'visual' section of this website (3 hebrew mother letters/'alef' [1], 'mem' [13], 'shin' [21]) were taken of information generated by inner.org.  take note of archetype for each letter.  compare with information within the wikipedia 'messiah in judaism' link below.  mashiach ben david (for hebrew letter 'mem') and mashiach ben yosef (for hebrew letter 'shin').  archetype for hebrew letter 'alef' also relates to the mashiach (messiah).  a jewish person who is deep into study stated to me that i am right for thinking that there is some confusion amongst jews (even jews who study) about whether the mashiach (messiah) is a concept or an actual person.  he also told me that maimonides ruled that it would be an actual person.  jesus christ was one of the messiahs, but everyone didn't have the same information.  christians were initially a secret society.  they feared persecution.  they were persecuted.  so were jews.  so were romans.  so were muslims, etc.

you can build on the work which has been done, using technology, and civil institutions. scientists (universities), theologians, the courts, law enforcement, etc.

https://www.google.com/search?rlz=1C1SQJL_enUS896US896&source=univ&tbm=isch&q=diagram+of+3+hebrew+mother+letters&sa=X&ved=2ahUKEwiW2oqlj83qAhVHMqwKHfcZCoYQsAR6BAgGEAE&biw=1366&bih=625#imgrc=l8m24lU9nEPpVM

https://www.google.com/search?q=22+hebrew+letters+22+chapters+in+the+book+of+revelation&oq=22+&aqs=chrome.1.69i59l2j69i57j0i67l3j46i175i199j46i433j0i67l2.6382j1j7&sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8

'3 hebrew mother letters' link, in 'visual' section of this website, the hebrew letters 'alef' (1), 'mem' (13 or 40) and 'shin' (21 or 300), correspond to chapters 1, 13 and 21 of the book of revelations (bible). chapter 13 is best known for 666. important to remember that the book of revelations is sequential and that chapter 14 is after chapter 13, so one single chapter in the book of revelations is not as significant as the entire set of chapters, or numbers, as a mathematical unit. i think that another way of thinking about the book of revelations (22 chapters) is that there are 231 ways of connecting, or interrelating the 22 hebrew letters. a geometrical pattern or form? 231 is the triangle of 21. 21 is the triangle of 6. 6 is the triangle of 3. 3 is the triangle of 2. a triangular number is always formed by adding any number of successive digits, starting with the number 1.

for example:

1 + 2 = 3
1 + 2 + 3 = 6
1 + 2 + 3 + 4 + 5 + 6 = 21
1 + 2 + 3 + 4 + 5 + 6 + 7 + 8 + 9+ 10 + 11 + 12 + 13 + 14 + 15 + 16 + 17 + 18 + 19 + 20 + 21 = 231

there are 22 letters in the hebrew alphabet (when thinking of the significance of 21 or 231/above). i think that 22 is final, or in a way separate from 21, because it shares a relationship with 1 being the beginning. the beginning is the end and the end is the beginning. similar to “I am the Alpha and the Omega,” says the Lord God, “who is, and who was, and who is to come, the Almighty.”

you can make 6 dots on a piece of paper. 2 centered under 1, and then 3 centered under the 2. notice how you can create 2 triangles (one pointed up and one pointed down), one inside of the other.

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hebrew letter 'alef'
https://www.inner.org/hebleter/alef.htm

hebrew letter 'mem'
https://www.inner.org/hebleter/mem.htm

hebrew letter 'shin'
https://www.inner.org/hebleter/shin.htm

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https://www.biblegematria.com/pearls-of-wisdom.html

https://search.yahoo.com/search?fr=mcafee&type=E211US1485G0&p=vernon+jenkins+gematria

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https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Swoon_hypothesis#:~:text=The%20swoon%20hypothesis%20is%20any,in%20the%20same%20mortal%20body.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Jesus_Papers

https://www.amazon.com/Jesus-after-Crucifixion-Rennes-Ch%C3%A2teau/dp/1591430712

Essenes. referred to in links directly above.

https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Essenes,_Christos_Templars

https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Law_of_One

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https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pentagram

https://eyephi.com/phi-the-golden-ratio/

https://www.google.com/search?q=diagram+of+pyramids+golden+ratio&tbm=isch&ved=2ahUKEwjo3KnT_4PyAhULa60KHc--BNYQ2-cCegQIABAA&oq=diagram+of+pyramids+golden+ratio&gs_lcp=CgNpbWcQA1CvaVivaWCTdWgAcAB4AIABRogBRpIBATGYAQCgAQGqAQtnd3Mtd2l6LWltZ8ABAQ&sclient=img&ei=GmAAYejnFovWtQXP_ZKwDQ&bih=625&biw=1366

page 8. page 35.

https://www.yorku.ca/inpar/arthur_mstsggk.pdf

scroll down to diagram of 3 pyramids in the link directly below / golden ratio

https://www.bibliotecapleyades.net/egipto/fingerprintgods/fingerprintgods14.htm#Chapter%2049

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the great pyramid is one of 3 big pyramids close to cairo, egypt, which are an exact model of the constellation of orion. man did not create the pyramids. God (or whatever you call it) did. there seems to be some type of understanding or agreement about the relationship(s) of a biological entity at some higher level. i am a part of it and i want to make a difference which is beneficial for everyone. i can't do it alone. i need help. 3 big pyramids, including great pyramid, were constructed with some kind of telekinesis. impossible for man to have constructed.

https://www.oocities.org/kapluie/weirdpyrmid.html

10,450 BC / age of leo

https://www.bibliotecapleyades.net/egipto/fingerprintgods/fingerprintgods14.htm#Chapter%2049
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consider chapter 14 of the book of revelations

https://www.lostagesecrets.com/144000.html

https://anchorstone.com/the-great-pyramid/

considering 144,000. there are 1440 minutes (720 or 72 x 2) in one day. 6 days = 144 hours. 144 could also be 48 x 3. 48 is the first number with 10 divisors.

https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Matthew%2026%3A53&version=NIV

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/144,000

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circle of enoch / enoch was the 7th patriarch in the bible / he doesn't die / God takes him at 365, like the number of days in 1 year. ante chamber of great pyramid

https://www.google.com/search?q=diagram+of+circle+of+enoch+great+pyramid+&tbm=isch&ved=2ahUKEwiRv-OpgYTyAhWEWKwKHQPUAckQ2-cCegQIABAA&oq=diagram+of+circle+of+enoch+great+pyramid+&gs_lcp=CgNpbWcQAzIECCMQJzIECCMQJ1Dg4wVYhukFYP32BWgAcAB4AIABSYgBiQOSAQE2mAEAoAEBqgELZ3dzLXdpei1pbWfAAQE&sclient=img&ei=3GEAYZHhBoSxsQWDqIfIDA&bih=625&biw=1366#imgrc=D3goZHIkD5BbqM

https://images.app.goo.gl/1k2eLNTNbcbwUxui6

https://www.google.com/search?sxsrf=ALeKk02IMZked4atlSA4H9Q6I9QKynMoTw:1627414838915&source=univ&tbm=isch&q=diagram+of+circle+of+enoch+great+pyramid&sa=X&ved=2ahUKEwjTyP_agITyAhU2gGoFHQDSBQMQjJkEegQIBhAC&biw=1366&bih=625

scroll down to 1 enoch

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Messiah_in_Judaism

take note of lineage starting with enoch

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/High_Priest_of_Israel

melchizedek was or is part of the lineage starting with enoch (link directly above)

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Priesthood_of_Melchizedek

my point is that christ is related to a lineage going back to the old testament. different names...

https://search.yahoo.com/search?fr=mcafee&type=E211US1485G0&p=enoch+and+the+144%2C000

https://www.truthunity.net/mbd/enoch#:~:text=Metaphysical%20meaning%20of%20Enoch%20%28mbd%29%20Enoch%2C%20e%27noch%20%28Heb.%29--,Jared%20and%20father%20of%20Methuselah%20%28Gen.%205%20%3A18-24%29.

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https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ussher_chronology#:~:text=The%20Ussher%20chronology%20is%20a,and%20Primate%20of%20All%20Ireland.&text=Ussher's%20work%20was%20his%20contribution,the%20age%20of%20the%20Earth.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Year_6000

take note of 4004 BC. 4004 BC - 1996 AD = 6000 years.

https://www.bibleprophecy.net/public_html/6000.htm

take note of diagram (2000, 2000, 2000, 1000). also, this hebrew letter 'zayin' would correspond to chapter 7 of the book of revelations

https://www.hebrew4christians.com/Grammar/Unit_One/Aleph-Bet/Zayin/zayin.html

https://www.inner.org/hebleter/zayin.htm

https://www.inner.org/alefbeit/sigzayin

6 and 7 like days of work and then 1 day of rest. 6 x 7 = 42. scroll up and down.

https://www.google.com/books/edition/Re_Genesis/kHGODwAAQBAJ?hl=en&gbpv=1&dq=gematria+genesis+3rd+day&pg=PT33&printsec=frontcover

1000 years = 1 day. 24 hours in one day. 1000, divided by 24 = 41.67 years. 1 hour = 41.67 years. rounds to 42.

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https://www.google.com/search?q=666%2C+genesis+1%3A1&sxsrf=ALeKk00jyfZJW7o-MlwjIFcSLGUSMMr6pA%3A1627416905994&ei=SWkAYaWePK2tqtsP6tS60AI&oq=666%2C+genesis+1%3A1&gs_lcp=Cgdnd3Mtd2l6EAM6BwgjELADECc6BwgAEEcQsAM6BAgjECc6BQgAEJECOgIIADoICC4QxwEQrwE6AgguOgcIABCxAxBDOgQIABBDOggILhCxAxCDAToFCAAQsQM6CwguELEDEMcBEK8BOgcIABCHAhAUOgIIJjoGCAAQFhAeOgUIIRCgAToFCCEQqwJKBAhBGABQibwBWIHtAWDd7gFoAXACeACAAXmIAbUXkgEEMzMuMpgBAKABAaoBB2d3cy13aXrIAQm4AQLAAQE&sclient=gws-wiz&ved=0ahUKEwjl5tS0iITyAhWtlmoFHWqqDioQ4dUDCA8&uact=5
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https://stellarhousepublishing.com/star-east-three-kings/?fbclid=IwAR3igzKZtEl8MxetOvDJTz6Z94QSbqWmehols1QDWLYAzM6HNuORVLxCU_0

https://stellarhousepublishing.com/the-star-of-bethlehem-three-kings-sirius-and-orion-2/

https://www.stellastarwoman.com/articles/sun-southern-cross-those-three-wise-men

https://stellarcodes.com/content/stellar-code-orion/#:~:text=Mintaka%2C%20Alnilam%2C%20and%20Alnitak%20are%20the%20three-second%20magnitude,acceptance%20of%20Christ%20energies%20on%20the%20planet%20earth.

http://webhome.phy.duke.edu/~hsg/134/poems/frost-canis-major.txt

https://www.britannica.com/topic/Horus

https://www.historymuseum.ca/cmc/exhibitions/civil/egypt/egcr10e.html?fbclid=IwAR1jWMFAZETmVfDpfcPgehjbdD_C-AkrL8bW73xejek3JaICOSqMP0OikvY

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ennead

don't focus too much on the homosexuality issue. there may be some type of misunderstanding by the author.

https://www.thenotsoinnocentsabroad.com/blog/horus-vs-seth-homosexuality-hippos-and-familial-violence

the egyptian Set battles with the egyptian Horus. actually it was with Set and Osiris (osiris is the constellation of orion) first. Horus was created because of Set's desire to usurp Osiris or because he murdered Osiris. Osiris and Horus are similar concept (father and son). Horus was or is the king but Set tried or tries to steal it from him. Set who was or who is evil is associated with 72 conspirators in egypt. christ was also associated with 72 in the book of luke. i don't mean that christ is Set. Christ is Horus who battles with Set (look at links below). these are just examples of how the number 72 has meaning. again, 72 (or 720) x 2 equals 1,440 or the number of minutes in one day. Horus loses an eye in the battle with Set or one of his eyes is damaged. Christ has had many names over the eons. he has been here many times and he will be here many more...

it takes sun 72 years to travel 1 degree along the ecliptic. actually 71.6 years. 72 (years) x 360 (degrees) = 25,920 years (1 cycle of the zodiac). it rounds to 26. 71.6 (years) x 360 (degrees) = 25,776. 25,920 (years) - 25,776 (years) = 144.

in reference to the number 26, or the 26,000 year cycle of the zodiac, the name of God (YaHWeH) equals 26 and does correspond to the cycle of the zodiac or astrology.  YaHWeH is spelled Yud (10), Hei (5), Vav (6), Hei (5).  10 + 5 + 6 + 5 = 26.  

i know that a few evil fake black people are trying to trick ignorant people who don't know me and who don't know how blatantly evil and nasty this black guy (Set) who has my vision in his left eye is into thinking that him having my vision in his left eye means that he is Horus and that i am Set. no. definitely not. he has my vision in his left eye, but i am Horus or christ. my brain is ok. his is screwed up for some reason. Horus "losing" an eye in the battle with Set means that he has my vision in his left eye only. left eye is evil. that does not mean that i am evil or that Horus is evil or that Christ is evil. it also doesn't mean that all black people are evil.

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https://egyptian-history.com/blogs/egyptian-symbols/eye-of-egypt

https://www.crystalwind.ca/eureka-amazing/ancient-wisdom/ancient-egypt/eye-of-ra#:~:text=According%20to%20Egyptian%20mythology%2C%20the%20right%20eye%20of,during%20a%20fight%20with%20this%20wicked%20brother%20Seth.

this black guy and mexican girl who the community know about and who are blatantly evil have my vision in their left eye. they were not born with this. they developed it at a precise point in time. black male in february of 1998. mexican female in may of 2011. they flaunt being weird and evil, like they want people to think that it means that they are cool, but they don't even believe that themselves. it is social lameness. they are sociopaths. they are psychopaths. they have a confused concept of themselves and a weird ego problem like satan. i have showed them both love, but they don't seem to want to act like they care, or they don't want people to think that they think that i am good, because they think that i will be more popular than they are.

https://www.jewishvirtuallibrary.org/the-ten-sefirot-of-the-kabbalah

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https://biblehub.com/john/11-9.htm

https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Luke%2010%3A1-23&version=NIV

https://www.google.com/search?q=did+jesus+send+out+70+or+72&oq=did+jesus+send+out+&aqs=chrome.0.0i512j69i57j0i22i30l8.8393j1j7&sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8

https://biblehub.com/context/matthew/26-47.htm

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Matthew 26:53 - A Roman legion consisted of 6,000 soldiers. A roughly equal number of auxiliary troops supported each legion. Thus 12 legions of angels would be equivalent to 72,000 or even 144,000 angels, more than enough to defend Jesus against arrest and crucifixion.

Holman Christian Standard Bible (HCSB)
Copyright 2010 by Holman Bible Publishers
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casting out 9s. take note of how the figure 10 is part of the formula relating to the figure 9.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Casting_out_nines

90 (east) = 9 because 9 + 0 = 9
180 (south) = 9 because 1 + 8 + 0 = 9
270 (west) = 9 because 2 + 7 + 0 = 9
360 (north) = 9 because 3 + 6 + 0 = 9

45 = 9 because 4 + 5 = 9.
45 is also the triangle of 9 because 1 + 2 + 3 + 4 + 5 + 6 + 7 + 8 + 9 = 45

any time you half 9 or something which equals 9 you will arrive at 9 again when adding digits together until a single digit is derived.

for example:

90 / 9 + 0 = 9
45 / 4 + 5 = 9
22.5 / 2 + 2 + 5 = 9
11.25 / 1 + 1 + 2 + 5 = 9
5.625 / 5 + 6 + 2 + 5 = 18, 1 + 8 = 9
etc.

you could multiply any number which equals 9 when the individual digits of that number are added together by any number and you will generate a number which equals 9 when the individual digits of the new number are added together until a single digit is derived.

for example:

36 (3 + 6 = 9) x 23,754 = 855,144 (8 + 5 + 5 + 1 + 4 + 4 = 27, 2 + 7 = 9)
9 x 97,456,356 = 877,107,204 (8 + 7 + 7 + 1 + 0 + 7 + 2 + 0 + 4 = 36, 3 + 6 = 9)
108 (1 + 0 + 8 = 9) x 74,593 = 8,056,044 (8 + 0 + 5 + 6 + 0 + 4 + 4 = 27, 2 + 7 = 9)

1 through 10 consistently generates 1 through 9 consistently.

1 / 2 / 3 / 4 / 5 / 6 / 7 / 8 / 9 / 10, 1 + 0 = 1 / 11, 1 + 1 = 2 / 12, 1 + 2 = 3 / 13, 1 + 3 = 4, etc.

http://www.greatdreams.com/gem1.htm

10 / 9

https://www.inner.org/string/string.htm

you don't have to give a 10th of your earnings to the church if you don't want to. you automatically give 10%. (smile).

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https://www.biblegematria.com/pearls-of-wisdom.html?fbclid=IwAR0Y9ReYN-A7ZkPgNwAL09SN2hcj4F-VLgubx15Vxh7B052eTJB50MVJkRU

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https://www.myjewishlearning.com/article/creation-mysticism-fashioning-the-world-from-letters/

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UYiuM43u0Q4

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3rd letter of hebrew alphabet is Gimmel / 3rd letter of greek alphabet is Gamma.  7th letter of latin alphabet is G.  the letter G is significant to freemasons because it stands for God, Geometry, Grand architect

3 and 7. take note that the first verse of the bible equals 2701 which is 37 x 73. refer to link above about mathematical monotheism.

https://sites.google.com/site/themathematicalstandard/37-73-symmetries

https://sites.google.com/site/mathematicalmonotheism/home

refer to wikipedia (gematria) link above / gamma.

https://www.thefleece.org/gamma.html 

http://www.durandlodge.com/books/RegiusMs1390.pdf

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Novus_ordo_seclorum

note that 6 and 28 are perfect numbers. 6 = 1 + 2 + 3 / 28 = 1 + 2 + 3 + 4 + 5 + 6 + 7.  also note that 496 is mentioned in an above link about hebrew letter nun.  

https://mathshistory.st-andrews.ac.uk/HistTopics/Perfect_numbers/?fbclid=IwAR0Id-55-WYCwcsZ52gyRmCx-t5k3MUycF9s74Z8VADpQXKmKrwuPsTFpqE
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note how in first video the rabbi makes reference to 16 (which is 7 because 1 + 6 = 7 or because 7 + 0 = 7) and 17 (which is 8 because 1 + 7 = 8 or because 8 + 0 = 8) at the end.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=riJOTFvExOA

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=al69CZS4yto&t=10s

8 transcending 7. 50 transcending 49.

https://www.chabad.org/parshah/article_cdo/aid/2868/jewish/The-Eighth-Dimension.htm

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https://bible-menorah.jimdofree.com/english/888/

888 / look at hexadecimal conversion on right side of page. also note factorization incorporates the figure 37 into it.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/888_(number)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vyvqqkGP_kg

note diagram in upper left corner / 378

https://www.google.com/search?sxsrf=ALeKk02jL_f6ikIMKWWIK7npsqHlyJzXBw:1627501453824&source=univ&tbm=isch&q=378+center+of+pyramid&sa=X&ved=2ahUKEwiB3Zqww4byAhV3k2oFHbWXBGUQjJkEegQIDBAC&biw=1366&bih=625

the length of the grand gallery in the great pyramid = 153 feet. that is 1836 inches. the pyramid inch = 1.001 inches. therefore, 1836 x 1.001 = 1837.836. note 378 in the center of this number. also, a 3 digit number can create 2, 2 digit numbers. add the 2 digits to the left of the number until you have a single digit, leaving the digit to the right alone. leave the digit to the left alone and add the 2 digits to the right of the number until you have a single digit.

378 generates 18 and 36 again. 1836 inches

153 can relate to the miraculous catch of fish in the new testament. 153 is the triangle of 17. in other words, 1 + 2 + 3 + 4 + 5, etc. + 17 = 153. 17 (hebrew letter 'pei' [17] is paired with hebrew letter 'ayin'[16]). another issue which is related is that Yahweh (name of God which was revealed to moses/YHWH) equals 26 or 17. 26 / 2 + 6 = 8. 17 / 1 + 7 = 8. Yahweh is spelled 'yud' (10), 'hei' (5), 'vav' (6), 'hei' (5) in hebrew with no vowels. it generates 17 or 26, depending on whether or not you drop the zero in the 10. ultimately it will equal 8 when digits are added together until a single digit is derived (1 + 7 = 8 / 2 + 6 = 8). the figure of 26 relates to the 26,000 (25,920) year cycle of the zodiac.

some of my own work. 7 (like 7 days of the week) x .54 = 3.78. 8 x .54 = 4.32. 432 is the square root of the speed of light. 432 also relates to the scale which the great pyramid was designed with.

look closely number 1:43,200.

http://garyosborn.moonfruit.com/1-43200/4594099844

http://www.greatdreams.com/432.htm

1 degree of latitude equals 60 minutes of latitude. therefore, 90 degrees (distance from pole to equator) x 60 = 5400 or 54.

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https://www.thegospelcoalition.org/article/jesus-need-baptized/
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https://www.biblegematria.com/speed-of-light.html

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read introduction and then scroll down to glacials and interglacials.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ice_age

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Milankovitch_cycles

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in genesis 1:1 there is an 'alef tav' (word or concept/like alpha and omega/'alef' is first letter of hebrew alphabet, 'tav' is last letter of hebrew alphabet) and then also a 'vav alef tav' (word or concept). the hebrew letter 'vav' represents the number 6 (like 60). 'vav' is used as a conjunction like the english word "and".

https://www.hebrew4christians.com/Grammar/Unit_One/Jesus_and_the_Aleph-Bet/jesus_and_the_aleph-bet.html

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https://www.google.com/search?q=new+testament+greek+gematria&oq=new+testament+greek+gematria&aqs=chrome..69i57.9909j1j7&sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8
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https://www.google.com/search?q=vicarius+filii+dei%2C+666&sxsrf=ALeKk02hc2SMJ81AyjRoWMQDHnRnhcRBEA%3A1627509795513&ei=I9QBYYXmHtmrtQaIq4LYDw&oq=vicarius+filii+dei%2C+666&gs_lcp=Cgdnd3Mtd2l6EAMyBQgAEMcDMgIIADIGCAAQFhAeMgYIABAWEB4yBQgAEIYDMgUIABCGAzoHCCMQsAMQJzoHCAAQRxCwAzoKCC4QsAMQyAMQQzoECAAQQ0oFCDgSATFKBAhBGABQ95YHWJWiB2DGqQdoAXACeACAAYwBiAHNBZIBAzEuNZgBAKABAaoBB2d3cy13aXrIAQu4AQPAAQE&sclient=gws-wiz&ved=0ahUKEwjFg-u54obyAhXZVc0KHYiVAPsQ4dUDCA8&uact=5

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Historicist_interpretations_of_the_Book_of_Revelation

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Antichrist

https://www.britannica.com/topic/Antichrist

https://www.biblegateway.com/resources/encyclopedia-of-the-bible/Antichrist

666, 777, 888

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/777_(number)
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8 / 7

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BsiHGHEXKWc&t=457s

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=boug5ZRVp6U

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jKcbERtHWwg

i don't know that much about it but 36 is the triangle of 8. in other words, 1 + 2 + 3 + 4 + 5 + 6 + 7 + 8 = 36 (or 360). 666 is the triangle of 36 (same as 360). in other words, 1 + 2 + 3 + 4 + 5. etc. + 36 = 666.
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i wish that i could get help with this. people should establish trust and confidence within the community; wanting people to know that they were not afraid to talk to me in public. i can get experts started but you would have to give me some authority. it would also hold me and everyone else more accountable. if there is anything which i am doing which people don't like, then simply tell me. i will work with you. i am flexible. put civil institutions to work. don't make a waste of technology. upgrade the planet's consciousness. create something peaceful and interesting. give people something new or interesting to think about. it will help them get along. it won't make a good difference if i have to try to do it all alone. i understand if people out there are thinking "i don't really care about all of this information." i understand. what would really be more important is some kind of communication or tale about love and acceptance which is what it would be, thinking long term. they already did that with the new testament. now we could construct the newest new testament. validate all holy scripture so that experts can expound upon it, being able to use me as a point of reference. if it happened twice, then it happens all of the time, and it is not so important, or it is more normalized, so that people don't create something weird out of it. part of it has to do with time keeping. just like BC and AD. if you give leaders the information, there won't be as many surprises in the future (future incarnations), so they will think that it is no big deal. people make a big deal of it when it is not normalized and that can cause trouble. at this moment we have the ability to normalize it; making it more socially acceptable. put technology to good use. i fear that they will fight over me again in the future unless you do what i am suggesting you do. make it about more about science, and not so much about religion. 24 hours in one day. 365 days in one year.
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https://biblehub.com/acts/20-24.htm
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the constellation of orion is osiris. osiris is the father of Horus. 3 pyramids close to cairo, egypt are an exact model of the constellation of orion. note that the constellation of orion illustrates the golden ratio (1.618/diagram above) which can be related to the understanding of quadradic equations.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Osiris_myth

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Horus

it used to state that Set was also associated with or known for envy. i'm not sure if someone did something shady and took it out. again, Horus loses an eye in the battle with Set. this black guy who the community is having problems with has my vision in his left eye. a mexican girl, who is now about 30 years old (2022), who i believe still lives in houston, texas, also has my vision in her left eye. i have seen her about 1/2 a dozen times. she wanted to be identified at first. now she is hiding.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Set_(deity)

i know that this is the mexican girl who also has my vision in her left eye only. i have seen her in houston, texas about 1/2 a dozen times, because she was wanting to show off that she was a mexican. she is evil. read about what she is best known for. she really did try to kill me. she is still trying to kill me and wrongfully defame me.

https://www.worldhistory.org/Nephthys/

thoth is something about the relationship or understanding of all of this. lol. i think relationship between the sun and the moon.

https://www.worldhistory.org/Thoth/

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Thoth

relationship between the egyptian thoth and the greek hermes

in reference to a "divine trickster", it is not a trick or i am not trying to trick anyone, but people can get tricked. i think that the part of the story about hermes telling lies has some other meaning, or represents something else about how it isn't a lie, but how people can get tricked by not being open minded or loving enough. in a general sense, there is a mystery of God which is difficult to understand within context. think of jesus christ; past and present. i have thought about it as something like the game called rock, paper, scissors. also like an right triangle. one angle is 90 (or just 9 because 9 + 0 = 9) with there also being two angles of 45 (or also 9 because 4 + 5 = 9). 9 + 9 + 9 = 27 and then 2 + 7 = 9. or all types of triangles. all of the angles added together in any type of triangle is 180 (or 9 because 1 + 8 + 0 = 9). the important aspect of a triangle is that the angles form a center point. same with a circle. same with a square.

https://www.ducksters.com/history/ancient_greece/hermes.php?fbclid=IwAR1NFM7k9U6PfmCfQHCaWf5n5n0-IFtfOSLJBrANz3v-7cLqbUQKf7YyG9c

https://www.greekmythology.com/Olympians/Hermes/hermes.html

https://global.oup.com/us/companion.websites/9780195397703/student/materials/chapter12/summary/

https://products.kitsapsun.com/archive/2001/02-04/0072_tell_me_a_story__the_divine_misch.html

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hermes

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hermes_Trismegistus

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hermetic_Order_of_the_Golden_Dawn

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hermetic_Qabalah

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22 hebrew letters. alef (1) + tav (22) (first and last) are similar to concept of alpha + omega (refer to information above/22 hebrew letters, 22 chapters in the book of revelations). the torah or bible begins with the hebrew letter beit (2) as the first letter of the word 'Bereisheet' (in the beginning). 3 is the triangle of 2 because 1 + 2 = 3. 6 is the triangle of 3 because 1 + 2 + 3 = 6. 21 is the triangle of 6 because 1 + 2 + 3 + 4 + 5 + 6 = 21. 231 is the triangle of 21 because 1 + 2 + 3, etc. + 21 = 231. there are 231 ways of connecting or interrelating the 22 hebrew letters. this relates to the understanding or illustration of 1 body. cyclical.

hebrew letter shin / 21 or 300

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ie9LqKeEQbk

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4Sf3KVENm_Q

hebrew letter tav / 22 or 400. note how tribe of Dan is incorporated into understanding. tribe of Dan is the archetype of the 16th letter of the hebrew alphabet (ayin/16 or 70, 1 + 6 = 7, 7 + 0 = 7). refer to information about hebrew letter ayin above. note that 22 and 1 are the same or overlap. the end is enwedged in the beginning and the beginning is enwedged in the end. he mentions that the hebrew word for truth is 'emet'. the 3 hebrew letters he mentions (alef [1], mem [40], tav [400]) equal 441, which is the inverse of 144. something to do with light or the properties of light.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o89R_xsNk_g

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g3nM4czJw5s
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https://www.inner.org/parshah/genesis/bereisheet/E68-0123.php

913 is the value for 'in the beginning' (genesis 1:1). this book was recommended to me when i told rabbi ginsburgh's secretary that i was interested in the overall structure of the bible. i have not ordered it or read it. i believe that the last letter of the hebrew word bereisheet (in the beginning) is the hebrew letter tav. tav is the last letter of the hebrew alphabet. the first letter of the hebrew word bereisheet is the hebrew letter beit which is the 2nd letter of the hebrew alphabet. when focused on 2 or the 2nd letter of the hebrew alphabet, i think that 2 is significant as it relates to the entire word or concept of bereisheet because 3 is the triangle of 2 or in other words, 1 + 2 = 3. the hebrew letter shin is the 21st letter (next to last) of the hebrew alphabet. 21 = 3 because 2 + 1 = 3 or because its' absolute value is 300 and 3 + 0 + 0 = 3. 3 is the triangle of 2. 6 is the triangle of 3. 21 is the triangle of 6. 231 is the triangle of 21. there are 231 ways of connecting or interrelating the 22 hebrew letters. thinking more about about the number 231, 2 + 3 + 1 = 6 (like 60 or a cycle or circle). there is some kind of differentiation between the first and last (22nd) letters of the hebrew alphabet with the 2nd and 21st (next to last) letters of the hebrew alphabet. it is one body.

https://www.amazon.com/s?k=913+rabbi+ginsburgh&i=stripbooks&ref=nb_sb_noss

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if you pair the value of the first letter of the hebrew alphabet with the value of the last letter of the hebrew alphabet (like alpha and omega / beginning and end) you will get 5. that is 1 + 22 (ordinal or positional value) or 400 (absolute value). 22 / 2 + 2 = 4 or 400 / 4 + 0 + 0 = 4. so 1 + 4 = 5. then work your way inwards and you can pair 2 + 21 (ordinal or positional value) or 300 (absolute value). 21 / 2 + 1 = 3 or 300 / 3 + 0 + 0 = 3. so 2 + 3 = 5. then work you way inwards and you can pair 3 + 20 (ordinal or positional value) or 200 (absolute value). 20 / 2 + 0 = 2 or 200 / 2 + 0 + 0 = 2. so 3 + 2 = 5. i am not an expert on this, but it seems to allude to a notion that the concept or structure of the messiah is illustrated by letters or words or by holy scripture. one body. 5 is related to 50 or a concept related to the messiah. that would be 11 fives because 22 letters paired is 11 pairs and each pair = 5. 11 x 5 is 55. 55 is the triangle of 10, or in other words, 1 + 2 + 3 + 4 + 5 + 6 + 7 + 8 + 9 + 10 = 55. 10 is the triangle of 4 because 1 + 2 + 3 + 4 = 10. i think that this has something to do with the value of 'in the beginning' being 913 (or 4 because 9 + 1 + 3 = 13, and 1 + 3 = 4).

if i confused anyone with ordinal or positional value and absolute value, the values for the hebrew letters 1 through 10 are just 1 through 10. when you get to 11, you also have an absolute value. 11 is also 20. 12 is also 30. 13 is also 40. 14 is also 50, etc. 19 is also 100, 20 is also 200, 21 is also 300 and 22 is also 400. both ordinal or positional value and absolute value will be the same when you add the digit of the number until a single digit is derived. for example, 21 / 2 + 1 = 3 or 300 / 3 + 0 + 0 = 3.

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concerning the significance of the freemasonic letter G, G is 3 in hebrew (Gimmel) and greek (Gamma) or G is 7 in the latin alphabet. G can stand for God, Geometry and Grand architect.

in the beginning / 913, 9 + 1 + 3 = 13, 1 + 3 = 4
created / 203, 2 + 0 + 3 = 5
God / 86, 8 + 6 = 14, 1 + 4 = 5
(untranslatable) / 401, 4 + 0 + 1 = 5
heaven / 395, 3 + 9 + 5 = 17, 1 + 7 = 8
and / 407, 4 + 0 + 7 = 11, 1 + 1 = 2
the earth / 296 / 2 + 9 + 6 = 17, 1 + 7 = 8

therefore, 4 + 5 + 5 + 5 + 8 + 2 + 8 = 37

refer to mathematical monotheism link above. 37 x 73 (thinking of 3 and 7) = 2701 or is the value of the first verse of the bible. it forms a perfect equilateral triangle with 2701 dots or pixels.
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i wish that a group of the people who i am in constant 24/7 activity with would go with me to the FBI, in order to inform the FBI, and furthermore the media, about the few people who are childishly assaulting us and intentionally creating confusion and misery for the community. it is a national, or actually, global issue. they are childish, socially lame, angry people who don't want happy people to be happy. they are wanting to make a mockery of honest, loving people because they are not honest or loving. they think that they can't operate at a level, so they want to intentionally drag people who they think can operate at a level down to their low class level. they are dishonorable. they are betraying the community. they lie. they are creepy. they are stalking and intentionally harassing and harming the community. it is a national and/or global security problem. compared to how many people it could have been, it is hardly anyone. just a few, but the few people who are acting up are creating a huge problem for many other people. i don't think that people would create problems if you make an international story about this. i think that they would respect it, like the honor system. a few people are creating problems because they think that they can get away with it or because they think that it doesn't matter. it does matter. if it seemed like it did matter because people were openly involved and candid about it, i don't think that they would act up anymore.


https://biblehub.com/matthew/18-20.htm

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fw62ZSYh9mM

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k_IXzU-lnLU

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https://www.ancestry.com/dna/origins/share/cb3c0d76-34a3-44bf-a70f-87ee8ff61fa3

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john dee worked for elizabeth I in the 1500s. dee traveled to the new world. this would have been before the american revolution. i am not implying with my ancestry DNA results that i am john dee or 007. i think that he and others knew about me before i was born in the new world; meaning, that they knew that i was going to be born in the new world.

https://www.google.com/search?q=john+dee%2C+007&oq=john&aqs=chrome.1.69i57j69i59j46i67i131i433j46i67l2j46i67i433j69i60l2.3316j0j7&sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8
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144 / 144,000 (book of revelations) / 144 is the 12th term in the Fibonacci sequence which means that it is unique in that it is 12 raised to the power of 12 / Fibonacci sequence relates to the golden ratio or spiral / pyramids (link above) / golden ratio or PHI relates to the understanding of quadradic equations or space/time / there are 1,440 minutes in one day / 6 days = 144 hours

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tt_nqLvuR2A

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1Jj-sJ78O6M

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some of my own work. every 12 parts of the zodiac is separated by 30 degrees. as it relates to something scientific, in kabbalah, the absolute value of the 12th letter of the hebrew alphabet is 30. also, as it relates to something scientific, the absolute value of the 18th letter of the hebrew alphabet is 90. every 90 degrees of the zodiac can be illustrated as 3, 6, 9. 3 + 6 + 9 = 18.

for example:

30 / 3 + 0 = 3
60 / 6 + 0 = 6
90 / 9 + 0 = 9

120 / 1 + 2 + 0 = 3
150 / 1 + 5 + 0 = 6
180 / 1 + 8 + 0 = 9

210 / 2 + 1 + 0 = 3
240 / 2 + 4 + 0 = 6
270 / 2 + 7 + 0 = 9

300 / 3 + 0 + 0 = 3
330 / 3 + 3 + 0 = 6
360 / 3 + 6 + 0 = 9

as it applies to each 90 degrees, take the outer 2 digits of 3 / 6 / 9 and multiply by the center digit.
39 x 6 = 234. 234 is the inverse of 432, which is the square root of the speed of light. it illustrates a mirrored or reflexive nature like 37 and 73 or 144 and 441.

as it applies to each 90 degrees, take the outer 2 digits of 3 / 6 / 9 and divide by the center digit
39, divided by 6 = 6.5

6.5 x 4 (4 parts of 90 degrees each) = 26, which i think has something to do with a concept of 26 dimensions in string theory and possibly the 26,000 year cycle of the zodiac

234, divided by 6.5 = 36, with 90 degrees of a day on earth being 360 minutes.

i would like to follow up on this work with someone who knows something about number theory. i think that it is significant but i don't know how to explain it.

3 x 6 x 9 = 162, divided by 3 (3 numbers of 3, 6 and 9) = 54, with 54 or 540 relating to the formula for precession of the equinoxes. 5400 corresponds to the equator because 60 minutes of latitude = 1 degree of latitude. therefore, 90 degrees (pole to equator) x 60 (minutes) = 5400. you could take 3 away from the 9 in 3 / 6 / 9 and give it to the 3, forming 6. therefore, you would have 6 / 6 / 6. 6 x 6 x 6 = 216, which are the same digits as 162. 216, divided by 3 (3 digits of 3, 6 and 9) = 72. it takes the sun 72 years to travel 1 degree along the ecliptic. this relates to the equator or 54. you could square 3 to get 9, square 6 to get 36 and square 9 to get 81 and then add 9 + 36 + 81 to be 126, with 126 being the same digits as 162 or 216.

https://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=tesla+369

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R7oyZGW99os

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https://www.google.com/search?q=is+the+star+of+bethlehem+sirius&rlz=1C1SQJL_enUS896US896&tbm=isch&source=iu&ictx=1&fir=6YXahdm5gn9pxM%252CwLGyKXeO7rvqrM%252C_&vet=1&usg=AI4_-kTWcqdiG8UhT1NvNU0gj_fCOUGLag&sa=X&ved=2ahUKEwjxnc764NzqAhUNiqwKHc4IBpAQ9QEwBHoECAoQJQ&biw=1366&bih=625#imgrc=6YXahdm5gn9pxM

https://stellarhousepublishing.com/star-east-three-kings/?fbclid=IwAR3igzKZtEl8MxetOvDJTz6Z94QSbqWmehols1QDWLYAzM6HNuORVLxCU_0

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https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Hieros_Gamos
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https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gilgul

the hebrew letter tav is similar in concept to the greek letter omega.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o89R_xsNk_g&t=8s

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RnTY1Dt6-0A
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ivyWdd8oduE
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me loves me sweet...

my girlfriend and i were both born in 1972. we are both water rats. we got back together in 2020 after high school which was year of metal rat. metal creates water. it will be metal for the next 11 years since this is 2021. 12 year cycle. rat is the 1st sign of the cycle.

me:

heaven - yang water
earth - yang water
human - yang wood
kua # 1 (east group) - yang water

shelly:

heaven - yang water
earth - yang water
human - yang wood
kua # 8 (west group) - yang earth

for a male to find his kua #, you take the last 2 digits of the year you were born and add together until a single digit is derived. for example, 1972 is 9 because the 7 + 2 = 9. then you subtract 9 from 10 to get 1. for a female, you add 5 to the 9 you got by adding 7 + 2. this will give you 14 and then you add 1 + 4 to get 5.

there is no kua # 5.

kua # 5 for a male is kua # 2.
kua # 5 for a female is kua # 8.

when you combine kua # 1 and kua # 8, you generate a concept known as '5 ghosts'. i spoke with a feng shui master about this and he stated that the health of the relationship ('5 ghosts') depends on the intent of each person. the feng shui master and i are also '5 ghosts' together and we get along very well just like my girlfriend and i do. she conceived a child which was not intended when we were both 16 years old. it was aborted, but is loved.

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https://www.google.com/search?q=rat+wins+the+race+chinese+astrology&oq=rat+wins+the+race+chinese+astrology&aqs=chrome..69i57j33i299l2.12573j0j7&sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8


12 year cycle (12 animals) corresponds to 12 year orbit of jupiter around the sun.

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from 'The New Astrology' by suzanne white

Sagittarius / (western astrology)

cheerfulness
openhandedness
solicitude
valor
honor
reason
outspokenness
recklessness
bad manners
vacillation
carelessness
contradiction / (contradiction is interesting because there is a contradiction about the contradiction)

Rat / (eastern astrology)

nervousness
influence
acquisitiveness
thirst for power
intellectual skill
charisma
appeal
verbosity
thrift
sociability
guile
meddling

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in a way my astrological characteristics are not important because it will shift with every incarnation just as everyone else's will. God is in control.
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scorpio = 8th sign of the western zodiac
sagittarius = 9th sign of the western zodiac
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take note of space for each letter. 15 (hebrew letter samech) supports 14 (hebrew letter nun)
.
https://www.inner.org/alefbeit/signun

https://www.inner.org/alefbeit/sigsamec
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https://www.inner.org/hebleter/nun.htm

https://www.inner.org/hebleter/samech.htm
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https://dailygazette.com/2008/08/31/0831_startalk/

https://synchromystic.fandom.com/wiki/Galactic_Center

https://earthsky.org/favorite-star-patterns/teapot-of-sagittarius-points-to-galactic-center/
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hebrew letter nun (14 or 50) / refer to above

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MynXTRENj70

hebrew letter samech (15 or 60)/ refer to above

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y28Y7_mUZAE
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the beginning of the spelling of the name moshe (moses in hebrew) corresponds to the spelling of mashiach (messiah). the first 2 letters of the word Moshe, omitting vowels, are M and S, which are the hebrew letters Mem (13 or 40) and Shin (21 or 300). the hebrew letters Mem and Shin are also 2 of the 3 mother letters.

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hebrew letter nun (14 or 50)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a_UIjLiSsrA&t=68s

hebrew letter samech (15 or 60) / i want to learn more about what a jewish soul is considered or understanding how torah is applied to everyone, regardless of whether or not someone is a jew. i am mentioning this because of how the rabbi in the video below discusses a marriage with the jewish people. it is everyone but don't know how to explain it. i think that jewish folk relate themselves to the torah or the tanahk (hebrew bible / 24 books) because of the significance of hebrew.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ggUO2CDuUoo
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message from a rabbi's assistant.

Harav Ginsburgh's Secretariat <HaravYGinsburghSecretariat@gmail.com>
Tue 6/23/2020 1:54 PM

To:
  •  You
Basically it means that there are unbreakable bonds between the soul, and God, and the Torah.

On Tue, 23 Jun 2020 at 20:14 joshua evan mishler <mishler2002@hotmail.com> wrote:

what does it mean to be Jewish?  are all souls "Jewish" because of the unity of God?  12 tribes of israel?  priests, levites and israelites?  what is israel?

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lC2fe63oo2E

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https://www.hebrew4christians.com/Grammar/Unit_One/Jesus_and_the_Aleph-Bet/jesus_and_the_aleph-bet.html

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https://www.sefaria.org/sheets/103860?lang=bi
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pJjgxXCkMYk

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8Qtgm5g5Gyo
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https://www.google.com/search?sxsrf=AOaemvITkuG_VVV6JQ-xRX0OuHovWgHoiQ:1632842054479&source=univ&tbm=isch&q=genesis+1:1,+666&fir=_ea7il72fM5lVM%252C3KNYlfMJL-5Z0M%252C_%253BgnG-tt3RwzAjJM%252CINRnP7sddkSLsM%252C_%253Bfy9ZcxObIRAV1M%252CINRnP7sddkSLsM%252C_%253BEmgYNI3-iIcOJM%252CIIs3olp8wSeNcM%252C_%253Bag3RTTyARXPDsM%252CpDclWhTnHeuJYM%252C_%253Bs0WErqCwsgckXM%252C8cqgNSRdfMkIaM%252C_%253Bb8ngCfuKIaVU7M%252CINRnP7sddkSLsM%252C_%253BdfNTzr5EUzvKQM%252CyL6ifVRZJ3EY6M%252C_%253BOMcmudL6Q1SO0M%252CINRnP7sddkSLsM%252C_%253BEUj6li4VRPyANM%252CJBMa8uDC6xw0PM%252C_&usg=AI4_-kRWzrXziTsc4vP7KDGkuxlqQwNWTg&sa=X&ved=2ahUKEwjo-4XV-qHzAhWpkWoFHco_DPkQjJkEegQIEhAC&biw=1366&bih=625&dpr=1

https://sites.google.com/site/themathematicalstandard/beyond-genesis-1-1

https://www.dafyomi.co.il/general/info/torahau/torah_numerology.php?d=11

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vyvqqkGP_kg

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I-5U8o47uBY
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ny1I3kFM7iI
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https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Stigmata

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God takes Enoch at 365 like the sun. he is the 7th patriarch. his conclusion is unique when comparing Enoch to the other 9 patriarchs in the first 10 (Adam to Noah). think of great pyramid and circle of Enoch. great pyramid 144,000 casing stones.

https://images.app.goo.gl/1k2eLNTNbcbwUxui6

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FsVQnspOkkY

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https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Objectivity_(science)

https://www.cliffsnotes.com/study-guides/sociology/the-sociological-perspective/the-founders-of-sociology

from the 'Story of Philosophy' by Will Durant. (pages 352 - 353 / Chapter VIII / Herbert Spencer / I. Comte and Darwin)

This was an understanding which, in scope and patience, was second in modern times only to Spencer's "Synthetic Philosophy". Here the sciences were classified according to the decreasing simplicity and generality of their subject matter: mathematics, astronomy, physics, chemistry, biology and sociology; each rested on the results of all the sciences before it; therefore sociology; therefore sociology was at the apex of the sciences before it, and the others had their reason for existence only in so far as they could provide illumination for the science of society. Science, in the sense of exact knowledge, has spread from one subject-matter to another in the order given; and it was natural that the complex phenomena of social life should be the last to yield to scientific method. In each field of thought the historian of ideas could observe the Law of Three Stages: at first the subject was conceived in the theological fashion, and all problems were will explained by the will of some deity - as when the stars were gods, or the chariots of gods; later, the same subject reached the metaphysical stage, and was explained by metaphysical abstractions - as when the stars moved in circles because circles were the most perfect figure; finally the subject was reduced to positive science by precise observation, hypothesis, and experiment, and its phenomena were explained by through the regularities of natural cause and effect. The "Will of God" yields to such airy entities as Plato's "Ideas" or Hegel's "Absolute Idea," and these in turn yield to the laws of science. Metaphysics is a stage of arrested development: the time has come, said Comte, to abandon these puerilities. Philosophy was not something different than science; it was the coordination of all the sciences with a view to the improvement of human life.
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in reference to youtube video above about the book of enoch.

https://www.google.com/search?q=names+of+angels+in+the+book+of+enoch&oq=names+of+angels+in+&aqs=chrome.1.69i57j35i39j0i512l8.5298j0j7&sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8
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i was thinking about being able to do a Gillette mach 16 shaving advertisement. nice and smooth.
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Why was Book of Enoch removed from the Bible?

The Book of Enoch was considered as scripture in the Epistle of Barnabas (16:4) and by many of the early Church Fathers, such as Athenagoras, Clement of Alexandria, Irenaeus and Tertullian, who wrote c. 200 that the Book of Enoch had been rejected by the Jews because it contained prophecies pertaining to Christ.
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i am not implying that it is jews versus christians. there is validity to all of it. don't understand it but i think that christ is mentioned more times in the koran that muhammad is. there is a second coming of christ in the koran but i don't understand it. you can google similarity of bible and koran (characters, etc.). islam means peace or submission, but some groups which are a minority, twist it into whatever they think that they can for their own selfish reasons.

https://www.google.com/search?q=wiki+book+of+enoch&oq=wiki&aqs=chrome.0.69i59j69i57j69i60l3j69i65l3.1011j0j7&sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Book_of_Enoch

https://www.google.com/search?q=which+books+were+removed+from+the+bible&oq=which+books+were+removed+from+the+bible&aqs=chrome..69i57j0i22i30l9.10301j0j7&sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8
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you can order the book 'Seventy Faces' from this website. go the the 'store' link and then 'books and publications'. i think that it will be helpful for people.

https://thetrugmans.com/
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-4_2LfzxX4I
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https://www.constellationsofwords.com/leo/

excerpt from link above.

On page 253 of Star Names Allen says the Syrians called Leo Aryo; the Jews, Arye; meaning a Lion. Ari or Aryeh, is the Hebrew for “lion”, cognate with Akkadian aria, Aramaic arya. Aryeh in Sanskrit (a PIE, Proto-Indo-European, language) means “noble” and in Hebrew means “lion”. Ari was used in Hebrew as an honorific for an important man. The Hebrew name Ari-el translates to “lion of God” []. The word Aryan is a synonym for Indo-European (people and language). The original word in Vedic Language for Lion is ‘Hari‘ [10] which is phonically similar to ari. Linguists say that the Indo-European languages are not related to Hebrew and might deny a link in this case, but they are unsure of some words and they term the Hebrew words that have strayed into these languages “borrowings”. The term “Arya” derived from the Proto-Indo-European, generally carries the meaning of “noble” or “free”, is cognate with the Greek-derived word “aristocrat” [11].

first paragraph. don't understand it but 200 and 20 and 2 are interrelated. 200 fallen angels in the book of Enoch. the first letter of the torah or the bible is 'Beit' or B. (B = 2).

https://www.inner.org/hebleter/reish.htm

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in reference to the book of Enoch, i understand a little, which is that the DNA of something more advanced or more evolved got mixed into what was here on earth. something else about planet mars. there was also some kind of differentiation between male and female DNA as it relates to africa, but i am not being disrespectful toward black people. something about female DNA in africa and male DNA in other places. something about how the DNA spread or didn't spread. everyone serves a purpose so God created you because he wanted to no matter what.
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there is going to be a problem with food in the future because of the weather. this is good information which i have. FEMA and the military (martial law will be instituted) should begin to coordinate now as if this issue has already begun or as if it is an emergency. they could begin to store non perishable food and have planned distribution points. people should stop having children or limit it to 1 child per mother and father if possible. try not to panic. the problem is when people don't address issues head on even if that means creating more work for themselves initially. it works out better in the long run if you don't bullshit around.  people could coordinate and contact your u.s. representatives or the president or the united states.  it would good if we could begin to coordinate something between the president, FEMA, the military and mayors of cities.  i will contact my state representative and the also the president with whitehouse.gov.  

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i think that it will be good for america in 20 or 40 years if a younger, more open minded, more diverse generation of young people get involved in politics. go for it.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SQhbEh8AeSA

george h. w. bush was a republican, but i am not implying that only republican party members should be in power. i will probably always vote for the democratic party. i know that george h. w. bush was not pleased with what had happened to the republican party, just prior to his passing in 2018.

still transforming.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Democratic-Republican_Party

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https://www.google.com/search?q=humans+did+not+evolve+from+apes%2C+missing+link&sxsrf=AOaemvI5tzpxuYYRi3MlRHy0vPs3e8MpfQ%3A1638294811303&ei=G2WmYd73EZ2rqtsPrLKKuA8&ved=0ahUKEwie8Y7i08D0AhWdlWoFHSyZAvcQ4dUDCA8&uact=5&oq=humans+did+not+evolve+from+apes%2C+missing+link&gs_lcp=Cgdnd3Mtd2l6EAMyBAgjECc6BQgAEM0COgcIIxCwAhAnSgQIQRgASgUIRBj4DEoECEMYA1BaWKEFYLEPaABwAngAgAGkAYgBjAWSAQMxLjSYAQCgAQHAAQE&sclient=gws-wiz
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gK2VJBKHCsY
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related to 200 fallen angels in the book of Enoch. something about some dudes who crash landed in a ship and were stuck here. relates to genesis 6:6. they mated with the Assyrians, Chaldeans and Sumerians. i don't want to give people the creeps with aryan whatever (below). i don't understand DNA. i am not a white supremacist.

https://search.yahoo.com/search;_ylt=A2KLfR9KmK5hKagA2SpXNyoA;_ylc=X1MDMjc2NjY3OQRfcgMyBGZyA21jYWZlZQRmcjIDc2ItdG9wBGdwcmlkA1YyUXhSeGNWU3QuSUtVNGYxOGthM0EEbl9yc2x0AzAEbl9zdWdnAzIEb3JpZ2luA3NlYXJjaC55YWhvby5jb20EcG9zAzAEcHFzdHIDBHBxc3RybAMwBHFzdHJsAzE4BHF1ZXJ5A3RlY2hsb2dpY2FsJTIwYXJ5YW5zBHRfc3RtcAMxNjM4ODMyMjUy?p=techlogical+aryans&fr2=sb-top&fr=mcafee&type=E211US1485G0

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https://www.google.com/search?q=genesis+1%3A1%2C+666&sxsrf=AOaemvIju8anmaDKA59JhuzQju1SfiD_mw%3A1638832914611&ei=EpuuYd_MJMG3qtsPt8eRkAQ&oq=gen&gs_lcp=Cgdnd3Mtd2l6EAMYADIECCMQJzIECCMQJzIFCAAQkQIyBQgAEJECMggILhCABBCxAzIICC4QgAQQsQMyBQgAEIAEMg4ILhCABBCxAxDHARCjAjIICC4QgAQQsQMyCAgAEIAEELEDOgcIABBHELADOgcIABCwAxBDOg0IABCABBCHAhCxAxAUOgQIABBDOgcIABCxAxBDOgsIABCABBCxAxDJAzoFCAAQkgM6CAgAEIAEEMkDOgcIIxDqAhAnOg0ILhDHARCjAhDqAhAnOhEILhCABBCxAxCDARDHARDRAzoICC4QsQMQgwE6CwguEIAEELEDEIMBOgsILhCABBDHARDRA0oECEEYAEoGCEQY2P8USgYIRBjkvxVKBghEGJDkFUoECEMYAkoGCEUYkOQVUM8uWNljYNOGAWgCcAJ4AIABowGIAc4IkgEEMTAuMpgBAKABAbABCsgBCsABAQ&sclient=gws-wiz

https://www.google.com/search?q=genesis+1%3A1%2C+alef+tav&sxsrf=AOaemvInrvFjiRiKb02O1lZ72_uuDt7xzA%3A1638833275898&ei=e5yuYauXNqmnqtsPmYewgAI&ved=0ahUKEwjrwIXaqdD0AhWpk2oFHZkDDCAQ4dUDCA8&uact=5&oq=genesis+1%3A1%2C+alef+tav&gs_lcp=Cgdnd3Mtd2l6EAM6BwgAEEcQsANKBAhBGABKBghEGKyfA0oECEMYA1CrLFiDQGC8V2gBcAJ4AIABTIgBnAWSAQIxMZgBAKABAcgBCMABAQ&sclient=gws-wiz
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https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Psychopomp

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https://www.amazon.com/137-Riddle-Creation-Torah-Science/dp/9655320421/ref=sr_1_1?crid=1U3YZH4DMGS7N&keywords=137%2C+the+riddle+of+creation&qid=1640029239&s=books&sprefix=137%2C+the+riddle+of+creation%2Cstripbooks%2C234&sr=1-1

(some of my own work)

137

137    137
 4        1

a three digit number can generate 2, 2 digit numbers. add the 2 digits to the left of the number until a single digit is derived. add the 2 digits to the right of the number until a single digit is derived.

therefore, you have 47 and 11.
47 + 11 = 58, with 58 being an appellation for kabbalah.
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May the Lord bless you and protect you; may the Lord make his face shine on you and be gracious to you; may the Lord look with favor on you and give you peace.

Numbers 6:24-26
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i wish that people who know about me and the group who i am in constant 24/7 activity with (144,000) would make a story about this situation so that there would be a more objective, scientific understanding of christ or nature. we could easily prove who we are with a test on tv. there would be much more respect for it or appreciation of it. and i don't think that people would want to cause problems, thereby creating something more peaceful now and in future incarnations. people would think more about creation or cycles of creation. rebirth. the solar system and stars, thereby having a better appreciation for what they are. people would feel as if they had something in common. december 25th relates to the winter solstice or cycles of the sun. put people to work. i think that they would want to do the work.

https://sites.google.com/site/themathematicalstandard/the-jesus-cube

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L50tuag6iRs
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=phnArJV8jJg

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sent electronically to congresswoman lizzie fletcher and president biden.


congresswoman fletcher. there will be a problem with the weather in the future and it will create a problem with food. crops and livestock. i think that it would be a good idea if the government start to stockpile non perishable food with planned food distribution points at cities throughout the country. mayors could be notified. good information which i have is that martial law will eventually be implemented. the government could begin to coordinate with the military and FEMA and mayors throughout the country. i am trying to buy america some time. i will copy and send this message to president biden with whitehouse.gov. this would actually be good for leaders of the entire world to take into consideration.


respectfully.
joshua evan mishler

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capricorn is associated with the 16th letter of the hebrew alphabet (ayin) / 70 / see above. the 22 tarot cards of the major arcana correspond to the 22 letters of the hebrew alphabet.

https://www.tarot.com/tarot/devil-tarot-card-capricorn-zodiac-sign
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https://www.astro.com/cgi/chart.cgi?;clang=e;rs=3;btyp=w2gw;cid=0gufile0lKMLz-u1641668702;nhor=1

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F133-YdYNTM
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https://search.yahoo.com/search?fr=mcafee&type=E211US1485G0&p=knights+templar+being+persecuted+by+the+catholic+church

https://search.yahoo.com/search;_ylt=A0geKeaeQeJhg6EA54JXNyoA;_ylc=X1MDMjc2NjY3OQRfcgMyBGZyA21jYWZlZQRmcjIDc2ItdG9wBGdwcmlkA05DVWRRYkZDU015VFZmVlY2Nk1NdkEEbl9yc2x0AzAEbl9zdWdnAzQEb3JpZ2luA3NlYXJjaC55YWhvby5jb20EcG9zAzAEcHFzdHIDBHBxc3RybAMwBHFzdHJsAzQ5BHF1ZXJ5A2tuaWdodHMlMjB0ZW1wbGFyJTIwb3JpZ2luYXRpbmclMjBhbmQlMjBlbmRpbmclMjBpbiUyMGZyYW5jZSUyMAR0X3N0bXADMTY0MjIxODAwNQ--?p=knights+templar+originating+and+ending+in+france+&fr2=sb-top&fr=mcafee&type=E211US1485G0

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https://www.ancient-origins.net/history-important-events/secrets-knights-templar-knights-john-baptist-005088

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5gAenGrKHKU
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you would know if you were one of the 144,000 and you probably wouldn't like it. it is a type of madness, especially at first. it has its' moments, however.

https://search.yahoo.com/search?fr=mcafee&type=E211US1485G0&p=enoch+and+the+144%2C000

https://www.truthunity.net/mbd/enoch#:~:text=Metaphysical%20meaning%20of%20Enoch%20%28mbd%29%20Enoch%2C%20e%27noch%20%28Heb.%29--,Jared%20and%20father%20of%20Methuselah%20%28Gen.%205%20%3A18-24%29.

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https://search.yahoo.com/search;_ylt=AwrEzet4E_thkp0AD0xXNyoA;_ylc=X1MDMjc2NjY3OQRfcgMyBGZyA21jYWZlZQRmcjIDc2ItdG9wBGdwcmlkA0FzeDEzMVkyUUdPXzB1MWs2QzEwb0EEbl9yc2x0AzAEbl9zdWdnAzQEb3JpZ2luA3NlYXJjaC55YWhvby5jb20EcG9zAzAEcHFzdHIDBHBxc3RybAMwBHFzdHJsAzIwBHF1ZXJ5A21ldGF0cm9uJTIwYW5kJTIwMTQ0JTJDMDAwBHRfc3RtcAMxNjQzODQ0NTYz?p=metatron+and+144%2C000&fr2=sb-top&fr=mcafee&type=E211US1485G0

https://search.yahoo.com/search;_ylt=AwrJ61nME_thnD8AHipXNyoA;_ylc=X1MDMjc2NjY3OQRfcgMyBGZyA21jYWZlZQRmcjIDc2ItdG9wBGdwcmlkA3loS3BRZEhmUUdpYVU3NGwzUjhaWkEEbl9yc2x0AzAEbl9zdWdnAzYEb3JpZ2luA3NlYXJjaC55YWhvby5jb20EcG9zAzAEcHFzdHIDBHBxc3RybAMwBHFzdHJsAzE2BHF1ZXJ5A2Vub2NoJTJDJTIwbWV0YXRyb24lMjAEdF9zdG1wAzE2NDM4NDQ2OTY-?p=enoch%2C+metatron+&fr2=sb-top&fr=mcafee&type=E211US1485G0

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eVF4kebiks4

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https://www.historyextra.com/period/the-origins-of-slavery/

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Slavery_in_Africa

https://research.cornell.edu/news-features/curious-history-slavery-west-africa

https://www.takimag.com/article/did_africans_sell_africans_into_slavery_lets_ask_some_africans_jim_goad/

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https://search.yahoo.com/search?fr=mcafee&type=E211US1485G0&p=messeh%2C+messiah%2C+crocodile

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of interest. i wish that people would make a story about this on tv news, proving who christ and the 144,000 are with a test. meaning, that our central nervous systems are fused. separate us into different rooms in a building. say something to me and the other people in other rooms would know what it was. touch me somewhere on my body, not inappropriate, and the other people would know where it was. the police could certify it. like being able to look at something (cell) through a microscope. then other work builds upon this. it helps people understand what it is, objectively or scientifically. matter of fact. not a frivolous opinion (religion). make it about official science and biology which the world should know about. objectivity. it would lead to other scientific discoveries. i should have rights. everyone should have rights. leadership and love is also important. be brave. put the police and courts system to work for the world. i only live a short life span so what is the problem? what are all of you so afraid of? it confuses me. don't let twisted religion, instead of objective science, get the best of the community. it could be as simple as thinking about a flower which blooms from a plant once a year. very simple. innocent. just nature. interesting, but not important. not stiff, cold politics. have a few ideas about how to secure it. i could do something unusual every morning when i get out of bed which only people who i am in activity with would know about. another security measure is that people who i am in activity with and myself are not allowed to talk about ourselves when in public. no one would listen to anyone who talked about it.

https://www.knowthyselfadvisor.com/144000-brotherhood-star/#:~:text=The%20144000%20are%20a%20soul%20group%20who%20belong,are%20known%20as%20the%20Order%20of%20the%20Star.

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GOOD AND EVIL ACTS

SUMMARY OF CHAPTER FIVE

An act is “good” or “evil” either because of something stemming from what that act is, i.e., from its very nature (“intrinsic morality”) or because of something completely outside it, having nothing to do with its nature (“extrinsic morality”).

Extrinsic morality can be something like authoritarianism, informal or formal: something is right or wrong because someone else say that it is. In informal authoritarianism, an act is good or evil because parents, unquestioned religion, or peers decree it so. Examples of formal authoritarianism are the Social Contract Theory (the state declares certain actions good, other evil: Hobbes) and the Social Pressure Theory (some other entity does so). Another version of extrinsic morality is the pleasure/pain theory: a good act is one that causes us pleasure, and an evil act is one that causes us pain. This can take the form of hedonism (the pleasure/pain is that of the individual: Aristippus, Epicurus, our own culture) or utilitarianism: the pleasure/pain is that of the group: Bentham, Mill, some contemporary thought. Extrinsic theories do have some problems, both internally and in the fact that they present themselves to us as somewhat alien to (or unworthy of) us as human persons.

An intrinsic theory of morality demands a special application of the Principle of Final Causality. In general, this principle states that every agent acts for an end, a goal. Some cases of goal-directedness can be found among all types of agents, cognitive and non-cognitive; moreover, all agents act for a goal: all human agents performing imputable acts do so (since will—and therefore knowledge—are involved), and all other agents do so as well (for the observed consistency with which a particular action always achieves a particular result implies a relationship of governance between act and end: the end determines the type of action to be performed). Imputable acts (which are ethics’ concern) always aim at least implicitly at a goal which is not also a means to some further goal; an intermediate goal in the order of intention (one sought for the sake of something further), precisely as intermediate, could not ultimately initiate an action in the order of execution. Finally, any action is “good” (in the physical sense) if it is complete, if it reaches its goal; act and end are, therefore, correlative terms.

Now, some actions present themselves as having a certain obligatory character. Given the fact that act and end are essentially related, the source of this obligatoriness will need to be either in the act itself or in the relationship that the act has to an end. The intrinsic theory of morality states that, objectively, a good action is one that leads us to a goal that we should achieve, and an evil action is one that leads us to a goal that we should not achieve (or leads us away from one that we should achieve).

Known From The Things That Are / Fundamental Theory of the Moral Life
(Martin D. O’Keefe, S.J. / Copyright 1987 by Center for Thomistic Studies)
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https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Thule

from link directly above. go to link to see more links within this work. hyperborea. i think that it is antarctica. it may also be another planet. this planet would be a thule, considering when traveling here from somewhere else in the universe.

In Nazi ideology[edit]

In Germany, occultists believed in a historical Thule, or Hyperborea, as the ancient origin of the "Aryan race" (a term which they believed had been used by the Proto-Indo-European people). The Thule Society, which had close links to the Deutsche Arbeiter Partei (DAP, later known as the Nationalsozialistische Deutsche Arbeiterpartei, NSDAP) was, according to its own account, founded on August 18, 1918.[51] In his biography of Lanz von Liebenfels (1874–1954), Der Mann, der Hitler die Ideen gab (published in Munich, 1985; translated as The Man who Gave Hitler the Ideas), the Viennese psychologist and author Wilfried Daim wrote that the Thule Gesellschaft name originated from mythical Thule. In his history of the SA (Mit ruhig festem Schritt, 1998 – With Firm and Steady Step), Wilfred von Oven, Joseph Goebbels' press adjutant from 1943 to 1945, confirmed that Pytheas' Thule was the historical Thule for the Thule Gesellschaft.
Much of this fascination was due to rumours surrounding the Oera Linda Book, claimed to have been found by Cornelis over de Linden during the nineteenth century. The Oera Linda Book was partially translated into German in 1933 by Herman Wirth and was favored by Heinrich Himmler. The book has since been discredited. Professor of Frisian Language and Literature Goffe Jensma wrote that the three authors of the translation intended it "to be a temporary hoax to fool some nationalist Frisians and orthodox Christians and as an experiential exemplary exercise in reading the Holy Bible in a non-fundamentalist, symbolical way".[52]
See also


i researched thule initially because i wanted to help people, ONLY IF I COULD. maybe it is not possible. i thought that maybe i was suppose to know something about it or be involved in it, but only to help people ONLY IF I COULD. i know what i have in my heart, and i know that other people know what i have in my heart, so i'm really not worried about it. i got placed in the middle of a situation which is eons old. never wanted to harm anyone. i still don't want to harm anyone. i didn't want to think that i didn't have power, or that we didn't have power, to create something good in the future. i can't change the past. i only hoped or wished for a happy future, and i thought that it would be cool if i had technology on our side. i didn't want to feel powerless or scared in public, but maybe having power to do good things in the way which i hoped i could is unrealistic. i still don't want to believe that. this is not nazi germany in the 1930s and 1940s. leave the past behind. truthfully, i have a type of respect for some of what the germans accomplished during world war 2. i think that you could think (as i believe that i read) that they actually didn't lose world war 2 because of the manner in which german intelligence was integrated into u.s. intelligence. that doesn't mean that i want to harm anyone or go to white supremacist rallies. i don't understand it exactly but i believe that it has to do with a long term alien peace.
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i saw a version of 'march of the penguins' which had penguins with afros.

https://search.yahoo.com/search?fr=mcafee&type=E211US1485G0&p=hitler+and+antarctica

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operation high jump / admiral richard byrd / 1947 / same year as the roswell, new mexico incident. i think that u.s. intelligence mixed information with disinformation concerning roswell in order to get something started.

https://search.yahoo.com/search?fr=mcafee&type=E211US1485G0&p=operation+highjump%2C+u.s.+intelligence

https://search.yahoo.com/search?fr=mcafee&type=E211US1485G0&p=operation+highjump%2C+wiki

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i am not pushing nazi propaganda

https://encyclopedia.ushmm.org/content/en/article/nazi-propaganda

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cause and effect. jewish folk. why were jewish folk what they were during jesus's time? why are they what they are now? how did they become what they were or are? most jewish folk didn't know what was going on during christ's time, or what christ actually was biologically. meaning, that he was actually being sensed 24/7 by a group of people worldwide. he was a type of intermediary or agent. i am a type of intermediary or agent. i think that it relates to stars or stellar rebirth. creation. christians were initially a secret society. another way to think of it is that christians started out as a 2nd temple jewish sect. there were also no bibles or churches like we have them today. there was also a technological difference (communication/transportation). there is also the difference between a jewish person's beliefs and jewish DNA. i don't understand what jewish DNA or "DNA" is. i am 1% or less european jewish. i am so frustrated, because we now have the ability because of television cameras and law enforcement, to prove what christ and the 144,000 are with a certified test. like scientists and the world being able to understand what something is, much better and objectively, because of a microscope. no one seems to want to do it. why??? it would lead to other scientific discoveries. i think about electromagnetism or the sun. why don't you make it more objective and understandable, using technology and civil institutions? what? you don't want me to have any friends? you don't want to make it a happy party? who would argue with nature? it should be a celebration, like christmas. christmas day is related to the winter solstice, or a rebirth of the annual cycle of the sun. people argue when you let religion dominate. science keeps it objective and peaceful.

(only the first article)

https://www.thegospelcoalition.org/blogs/kevin-deyoung/why-did-they-hate-jesus-2/

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https://www.jstor.org/stable/1429971

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i understand if this german stuff gives you the creeps. it confused and scared me at first. i tried to protect black people right before the first time that i went into the psychiatric ward at the VA hospital at the end of 1997, when i flipped out real bad for the first time, thinking that everyone was sensing me. it still makes me a little nervous, but i try to be objective and brave. i think that i am some type of treaty between different alien forces, but part of that is wishful thinking. i don't want to harm anyone. it is better if we help each other. i imagine that aliens like peace too.
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https://www.jewishvirtuallibrary.org/the-ten-sefirot-of-the-kabbalah

the 3 higher sefirot (look at diagram in link above/looks like a triangle at the top of the 10) are intellectual and the 7 lower sefirot are emotional (or animalistic).

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5 (value of hebrew letter 'hei') and 50 (value of hebrew letter 'nun' [concept of messiah]) are related.

https://www.inner.org/alefbeit/sighei

https://www.inner.org/hebleter/hei.htm

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rbUermY7cAs

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rmqa0RQ-clY

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aryan myth. namaste'.

https://www.ushistory.org/civ/8b.asp

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https://owlcation.com/humanities/Famous-Pirate-Flags#:~:text=The%20red%20flag%2C%20when%20used,would%20be%20allowed%20to%20live.

https://www.cs.mcgill.ca/~rwest/wikispeedia/wpcd/wp/t/Theta.htm

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Theta

https://search.yahoo.com/search?fr=mcafee&type=E211US1485G0&p=knights+templar+sailors%2C+pirates

https://symbolsandmeanings.net/skull-and-crossbones-symbolism-meaning-origin-pirate-jolly-roger-flag/

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this is an example of why i was confused in the past. i didn't understand how i fit into something or didn't fit into something because i knew that i lacked privacy. i didn't know who in government i was with or what they were thinking or whether i was supposed to do something for the government. i had experiences with the supernatural which made me think that events were more important than they were or are. i am sure that jesus was confused about how he fit into Rome.

difficult to understand or accept, but if it happened then it was suppose to happen. i can't change the past. all i wished for was a happy, positive future. i wanted it to be about everyone, regardless of race, and people who were with me back then, and still now, understand that.

https://search.yahoo.com/search?fr=mcafee&type=E211US1485G0&p=operation+paperclip

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IziUdpP_dD8

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FtdvwiqK4gg

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https://www.amazon.com/Intercept-But-Dont-Shoot-Saucers/dp/1975655583

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https://exopolitics.org/von-brauns-false-flag-alien-invasion-genuine-warning-or-deception/

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this is not me. i'm not false and i'm not a tyrant. just want peace and quiet and happiness for everyone. i never lie. people know that, but because they don't want to have to do the same thing, publicly, they lie, stating that i am lying. just want to live out my life peacefully with a part time job (grocery store or landscaping) and my sweet girlfriend and family. i'm as honest as honest can be, because i don't have a choice, because i know that i am being sensed. i am always thinking of what people think about me, and wanting people to be confident and peaceful, so if i lied it would create confusion within myself which other could sense. a few evil people are trying to confuse me in public, in order to lie about me, stating that the confusion or little bit of nervousness means that i am guilty. it doesn't indicate guilt. it is just a little awkward confusion from time to time, because they want me to know that they betrayed me in public, or with me having to think about that in public. evil and cruel. they are playing a dirty game, because they think that people think that they are guilty of something. people can know every single thing about my entire life if they want to. a few people lie about me or my very confused past, but that is because they think that they are the ones who are in social trouble. i am not the threat. the threat or danger is the people who are not being observed or who don't have responsibility. they just don't want any pressure to be put on them to be honest in the way that they know that i am, so they stupidly lie and state that i am not what they know that i am. everything will better when i die so that they can't get to anyone in the way in which they presently are.

https://energeticsynthesis.com/index.php/controlling-factions/2665-false-king-of-tyranny

https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/False_King_of_Tyranny

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a few evil fake black people, who know that i am the good guy, try to confuse the meaning (Egyptian Horus versus the Egyptian Set). this black guy and mexican girl both have my vision in their left eye. they are both trying to create division. i am trying to create unity by trying to make it impossible for people to try to create division. obviously they both lie about me and they are also sending a signal to other people to lie about me. they have weird mental problems. childish and sadistic. they flaunt this in a sleazy way, implying that they think it is fun since they think that law enforcement can't help me or other innocent people . it seems as if they have something to do with NAA (Negative Alien Agenda/read above).it is incredibly disturbing to have to be stuck with them. it is like we are sensing something which thinks like an animal, which thinks of humans as prey. it doesn't care. you can't reason with it. it wants us to know that it enjoys preying on us like an animal which eats another animal. it is scary and i look forward to my death. i will have some good times while i am still alive, but i look forward to my death. they won't be able to harm anyone in the way which they are once i am dead. i wish that people would make a story about this with the freedom and protection of the media and law enforcement in the united states because i never want this to happen to people again. they don't care if they harm children psychologically or emotionally.

i understand if people would think that it seems like i am the one who is negative. no. i am a cheerful, positive person, if you know me in person. their unnecessary aggression means that they want to create something negative, or make fun of, and try to humiliate people who they know would have been positive, or more positive than they can be. they know that it would have been positive if they would have left me alone. there was or is no reason to attack me and the good, honest people know that. they intentionally twist something which would have been positive into something negative. their envy is a part of it.. they are angry because they feel inferior. strong people are not the problem. weak people are. i don't want to seem like i am stuck up, but truthfully, everyone understands how people naturally group together. you have to have something in common. being loving, friendly, intelligent, etc.

https://www.givemehistory.com/the-eye-of-horus

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6iHN8y3d4Og

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GFAeP8SrrNk

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SjqYTb9thj8

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https://www.resonancescience.org/blog/New-study-reveals-electromagnetic-properties-of-the-Great-Pyramid-of-Giza

https://www.thevintagenews.com/2018/08/02/electromagnetic-discovery/?chrome=1

https://search.yahoo.com/search?fr=mcafee&type=E211US1485G0&p=great+pyramid+electromagnetic
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the substitutionary atonement of christ makes sense, whether he died on the cross or not. it was a synthesis of ideas or concepts at that time. it goes back to a Creator, or how something was created, or everything which was created.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Substitutionary_atonement
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https://www.desiringgod.org/articles/could-jesus-have-sinned

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hypostasis_(philosophy_and_religion)

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the archetype for the hebrew letter 'mem' (one of the 3 mother letters) is the mashiach ben David.

https://www.chabad.org/kabbalah/article_cdo/aid/379756/jewish/Donations-for-David.htm

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https://marymagdalenebooks.blog4ever.com/

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mary_Magdalene

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objectivity. what is christ? how do you define christ? is it smooth and groovy?

https://www.timeanddate.com/calendar/determining-easter-date.html

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Date_of_Easter

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this seems to be what this situation involves. the part about wanting to create a mockery for their own amusement is correct. i don't necessarily agree about them being highly intelligent. i don't understand whether "food source" means something which is eaten, or just a type of nourishment. parasite?

https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Negative_Aliens

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https://search.yahoo.com/search?fr=mcafee&type=E211US1485G0&p=loosing+and+binding+in+the+bible

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Binding_and_loosing

https://biblehub.com/job/38-31.htm

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KNOWING THE NORMS: LAW

e. Types of law

The aspect of law which we will now undertake to discuss, however, is not brief, and it is complicated. It is straightforward, but it is complex for all that. This is the whole area of the types of law.

In general, we can distinguish different kinds of law, even within the confines of the strict definition of law which we saw at the beginning of this chapter (i.e., even if we do distinguish out such things as Murphy's Law, the Law of Diminishing Returns, the laws of the physical sciences, and the like). On the basis of duration, for instance, we can speak of either eternal or temporal laws. Or, on the basis of laws’ mode of promulgation, we can have laws that are either natural (promulgated through the very nature of the being that a given law governs) or positive (really, posit-ed, i.e., laid down): promulgated through some external sign of enactment such as TV, radio, newspapers, and the like. Or, according to their origin, laws are either divine (given by God) or human (given by human beings). Two types of law—natural and positive—interest us in ethics, through a word first needs to be said about eternal law, since the word does come up in ethical discussions from time to time and since it has relevance for our understanding of natural law.

1) The question of eternal law

The term “eternal law” means simply that the Creator—the first uncaused cause, in the sense that we have seen—has given all beings a particular type of nature, and commands that those beings live in accord with that nature. In the last chapter, we saw that the Creator, under pain of contradiction, could not give a being a particular nature, and then command that the being perform some type of activity other than the activity proper to that nature. This present discussion is akin to that, but asks whether the Creator necessarily insists that the being perform any activities at all. The argumentation is similar to what we have already seen. Once the Creator has given a being a certain type of essence or nature, then it is not possible that he be indifferent as to whether the being fulfill the goal of that nature (by its activities, or course) or not. That would put the creator, once again, in the position of both willing the fulfillment of that nature (since the Creator did give it, and since it does, just by the fact of its existence, have a certain finality or fulfillment toward which it tends), and not willing it (as being, by hypothesis, indifferent to its fulfillment, insofar as the Creator is indifferent as to whether the creature does or does not perform any actions—the means by which the creature’s nature would be fulfilled). That, of course, is once again a contradiction.

On the understanding of “eternal law,” it is not hard to see that it does fulfill the definition of true law. It is an ordinance (a command, not a wish or a piece of advice), of reason (the divine intellect), promulgated (generally through the nature of the being in question), for the good of the community (it is aimed at the acquisition of the final goal by all of the beings who possess that nature) by the one who has the care of the community (i.e., by the Creator, who has the care over all beings of the universe, irrespective of any given community, city, state, etc., in which they may live).

Apart from noting that there is such a thing as divine law (discoverable by natural reason—as opposed to, say, divine law as made by religious revelation, e.g., the Ten Commandments), and apart from noting that it is true law, however, we will spend no further time in this area, since whatever else we might need to know of divine law will come back into our thinking when we consider the question of natural law, to which we turn next.

Known From The Things That Are / Fundamental Theory of the Moral Life
(Martin D. O’Keefe, S.J. / Copyright 1987 by Center for Thomistic Studies)


https://www.bartleylawoffice.com/faq/what-is-eternal-law.html

https://definitions.uslegal.com/e/eternal-law/

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Natural_law

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Positive_law

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Treatise_on_Law#:~:text=Treatise%20on%20Law%20is%20Thomas%20Aquinas%20%27%20major,for%20the%20legal%20theory%20of%20Catholic%20canon%20law.

as law, or a manner in which law is to be interpreted or deduced

Torah (literally 'Instruction' or 'Law')

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hebrew_Bible

https://users.cs.jmu.edu/abzugcx/Public/Biblical-Hebrew/Components-of-the-TaNaKh.pdf

again, i wish that people who i am in constant 24/7 activity with would make an international story about what christ + 144,000 actually are. we could prove it on tv news with a test, certified by the police. laws assist in creating a peaceful, civil environment. the idea is to make a big deal of it, so that it is not a big deal or so that people don't unnecessarily fight about what it is (religion). normalize. many incarnations to go. i think that there is probably a way to figure out when it will happen again.

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universal - 16. Philos. a. a general term or concept or the generic nature that such a term signifies; a Platonic idea or Aristotelian form. b. a metaphysical entity that is repeatable and remains unchanged in character in a series of changes or changing relations.

concrete universal - Hegelianism. a logical category having the concrete properties enabling it to enter into dialectical relationship with the absolute idea.

Webster's Encyclopedic Unabridged Dictionary of the English Language
Copyright, 1989, by dilithium press, Ltd.

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i am concerned about my rights, the rights of others, or the general progress of the law. when one person does not have rights, then there exists a problem with everyone else's rights. please make a story about this, with the use of modern technology, in order to advance the law. some people who seem to be negative aliens (beings inhabiting bodies) are trying to childishly/stupidly bully and harm people who act like they like me or love me, around. they are weak people who want to harm people who they think are happier than they are. this has become people who think that they have less, wanting to harm people who they think have more. i am about love and and peace. they are not, and then they also try to make it look like i am not, by intentionally confusing me, or making me angry in public. it is impossible for me to not become angry and they know that. they are like criminals who will act up as long as they think that they can get away with it. don't allow them to get away with it. take a stand. get scientists (biology) and the government, the media, the police and the court system involved. this is about future peace and happiness. law. civil society. build on the work which was done. it involves technology. please help.

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https://www.biblehub.com/john/1-5.htm

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/John_1:5

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The Shepherds and the Angels

8And there were shepherds residing in the fields nearby, keeping watch over their flocks by night. 9Just then an angel of the Lord stood before them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were terrified. 10But the angel said to them, “Do not be afraid! For behold, I bring you good news of great joy that will be for all the people: 11Today in the city of David a Savior has been born to you. He is Christ the Lord! 12And this will be a sign to you: You will find a baby wrapped in swaddling cloths and lying in a manger.”
13And suddenly there appeared with the angel a great multitude of the heavenly host, praising God and saying:
14“Glory to God in the highest,
and on earth peace to men
on whom His favor rests!”
15When the angels had left them and gone into heaven, the shepherds said to one another, “Let us go to Bethlehem and see this thing that has happened, which the Lord has made known to us.”
16So they hurried off and found Mary and Joseph and the Baby, who was lying in the manger. 17After they had seen the Child, they spread the message they had received about Him. 18And all who heard it were amazed at what the shepherds said to them. 19But Mary treasured up all these things and pondered them in her heart.
20The shepherds returned, glorifying and praising God for all they had heard and seen, which was just as the angel had told them.


https://biblehub.com/luke/2.htm

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Heavenly_host

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/144,000

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considering the thought of christ being perfect, it can confuse me. i think that either christ has faults, just like anyone else, or that the entire system is perfect. i think that it is the latter, even though it can be difficult to understand or accept. faith... what else could the system be, other than what it is? logic. think, for example, about the formation of the universe or the formation of the solar system. would someone say that there is something wrong with it or that it is not perfect? asteroids smashing into other asteroids in the asteroid belt? i guess that it is perfect. thinking more about it, or the concept of perfection, you can't change the past. you can only change the future or attempt to change the future. i think that this is when the concept of repentance and redemption make more sense. refinement. the universe is in a constant state of refinement, becoming more and more perfect or ordered. i also think that redemption is a concept involving very large amounts of time and reincarnation. i think that it happens automatically with time. changes, but it doesn't change.

other thoughts about the nature of God or nature of Christ. biology includes the reproduction of galaxies, stars, solar systems, etc. it would be love, in order for it to want to reproduce. similar to cellular reproduction.

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i hope that people who i am in constant 24/7 activity with (144,000) at least coordinate with the police and military, to inform them about this situation. you can refer them to my website. i wish that you would do more than that. you are being controlled or limited by old law. old law is still important, however, because it would establish the precedent for new law. use technology. technological devices (such as television cameras, satellites, computers, weapons, classrooms [buildings/desks/chairs/chalkboards/chalk], telephones, cars, airplanes, flying saucers, etc.) are composed of elements, just as humans are (police, military, judges, scientists, students). you can create a synthesis, which would enable the system to perform more efficiently. like taking vitamins? just need to begin to coordinate and implement. there would be slight confusion at first, but would run more efficiently after adaptation. think like a peaceful, mad scientist.

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https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Androgyny

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bisexuality#Studies,_theories_and_social_responses

https://global.oup.com/us/companion.websites/9780199315468/student/ch4/wed/freud/

https://apieceofhistorybyramona.wordpress.com/2016/09/08/sigmund-freud-homosexuality-is-not-a-crime/
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i know that a few people stupidly lie, stating that this black guy with my vision in his left eye is a good person. he isn't, and they know that he isn't, and they are ashamed of him but try to cover it up. he showed up right when i was supposed to in february of 1998 (4004 BC - 1996 AD = 6000).

https://www.biblehub.com/revelation/20-2.htm

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i previously posted above that 144 could be 72 x 2 or 48 x 3.

144 / 1 + 4 + 4 = 9 / 9 = 3 + 3 + 3

72 / 7 + 2 = 9 / 9 = 3 + 3 + 3

48 / 4 + 8 = 12 / 1 + 2 = 3

therefore, 144 = 3 + 3 + 3

also,

144 = 36 x 4

36 / 3 + 6 = 9

9 / 9 = 3 + 3 + 3

it can be organized into 3/3/3, or 4 parts of 3/3/3. 4 parts of 90 degrees. astrology, or an earth measurement. there are 1440 (144) minutes in one day. that is 360 (36) minutes per 90 (9) degrees. or astrology. 12 x 12 x 1000...

i wonder if it has something to do with priests, levites and israelites. all priests were levites, but not all levites were priests.

who cares? in a way i agree with that. why not just make it about love and friendship?

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Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God, so that he may exalt you at the proper time, casting all your cares on Him, because he cares about you.

1 Peter 5: 6-7

Don't worry about anything, but in everything, through prayer and petition with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.  And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.

Philippians 4: 6-7

For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but one of power, love, and sound judgement.

2 Timothy 1: 7

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http://www.sangraal.com/labyrinth.htm

(excerpt below is from link above)

Human activity is circumscribed by the actions of the higher DNA imprints, which means that we cannot will ourselves into spirit. But the divine can act upon and through us. Therefore, the inner circle has four points, connected with the solar stations and the fixed signs of the zodiac, which represents the four Arc-Angels, or parabolas of divine Intent.

Add these four points to the spiritual structure of our 32/64 pattern and we have a 36/72 pattern. This of course is the root of pentagonal geometry. A circle divides into five parts with angles of 72 degrees each. It also points to the precession of the equinox, which moves back through the zodiac at the rate of one degree every 72 years. Just as 32 + 1, the center/spirit, = 33, or the number of completion and perfection, so to does 36 +1 = 37 equal a cosmic completion. 37.5 eclipse cycles of 690 years each equals 25,920 years or one complete precessional cycle.

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https://www.deliriumsrealm.com/beelzebub/

https://www.huffpost.com/entry/beelzebub-an-unfairly-dem_b_9759936

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Beelzebub

*(from my bible study teacher)

The Pharisees accused Jesus of working under him, not being him. That accusation prompted Jesus to call out the “unforgivable sin” of blasphemy of the Holy Spirit in the book of Matthew. Most feel that was just another name for Satan.

Mark

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i think that there used to be something in wikipedia about this book (intercept, but don't shoot), but i can't find it anymore. i think that i read that it was significant, as far as the library of u.s. congress is concerned.  i was referred to this book by thule.org.

https://search.yahoo.com/search?fr=mcafee&type=E211US1485G0&p=intercept+but+don%27t+shoot%3A+the+true+story+of+flying+saucers

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Another basic human need may be called the need for challenge. This need becomes more visible when one has been able to fulfill needs for food, shelter, status, love, sex and finds only boredom from the sameness of life. Under these conditions, the boredom serves as a prod, causing one to seek excitement, a new experience, or a more challenging goal. This challenge may also come from other people, catastrophes, problems, or one's religious background.

We need variety in stimulation, not just to avoid boredom, but to actually preserve our ability to perceive the world.

Maslow, A. H. "A Theory of Human Motivation"
Psychological Review, vol. 50 (1943)
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https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Quetzalcoatl

https://mythlok.com/quetzalcoatl/

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7/14/22

what people are doing to me and this 24/7 activity group who i am together with is sadistic. i have already explained this. it is childishly sadistically perverted. really sick shit from really sick people, which has been going on very bad for 14 years now (since 2008). it is weird creepy sadism, and these people who are engaged in it want the public to know that they enjoy it and that they also like taunting the police. like some weird creepy criminal person with mental problems and a personality disorder had kidnapped you, and is torturing you, also wanting you to know that they like you, while flirting with you and torturing you at the same time. imagine a person who has kidnapped you, and then binds you to bed in their basement, and then licks your face slowly while whispering something creepy and weird in your ear, and then burns you with a lit cigarette on your arm, continually. they want people to know that they find it gratifying or are aroused by it. it is weird and sick. these people want me and others to know that they have some weird obsessive fascination with me, and i'm telling you real serious that it is disgusting, and that they are disgusting people. i wish that people who i am in constant 24/7 activity with, and the u.s. government, or doctors, would authorize me being euthanized at a hospital in Houston, texas, showing some respect toward me, my family, my girlfriend, the people situated worldwide who i am in activity with, and their friends and families. these people want to publicly mock and torture an innocent, defenseless person, just because they got themselves into social trouble, and are angry about it. either have me caused to die, with an official medical procedure (general anesthesia/stop my heart/like for heart surgery), or create a story about this unique situation with tv news, in order to create a deterrent for, or stop, these childish, weird, sadistic people who are stalking not only me, but everyone who i am in constant 24/7 activity with, and their friends and families. you can try to flush out the people who are causing problems, by getting the community involved. these people who are acting up have weird psychological or personality disorders, and they are sending signals to each other to try to help each other get out of the social trouble which they created for themselves, by trying to wrongfully defame me. please help. we are in great pain. this should not be the story to hand down, generation after generation.

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7/25/22

people who know about how there is real evidence that black women, who work for the united states postal service, have been stealing, and/or tampering with my mail for years, should report this to both the FBI and postmaster general. i believe that black women, who work in the united states postal service, have already been secretly conspiring on how they could possibly steal photographs, which i have created, which i will be marketing, and potentially mailing to the public through the internet company ETSY. i can't even file a complaint with the postmaster general, because black women will tamper with, or obstruct, my official complaint to the postmaster general, because they know about when i am doing it, and also because black women, who i am in constant 24/7 activity with, wrongfully conspire with other black women in various organizations throughout the united states. i think that there is also a chance that black women who might work for the internet company ETSY, could tamper with my ETSY account, or orders for art work.
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i deleted the 'book of Enoch' file which was in the 'miscellaneous files' section of this website. after thinking about it some more, i didn't agree with the presentation of the information.

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i think that it would be a good idea if the president of the united states, congress of the united states and the supreme court of the united states, create a national moon your neighbor day.

https://www.yourtango.com/zodiac/moon-phase-personality

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Re: corresponding with Brittney Griner





joshua evan mishler






To:
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Fri 8/5/2022 2:27 PM




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to whom it may concern/Russian embassy, Washington, D.C.:
i would like to correspond with Brittney Griner, while she is incarcerated in Russia. is this possible? can you please help me to understand how to do this, if it is possible? thank you for your time.
joshua evan mishler
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IT SEEMS LIKE YOU WANT TO USE THE INTERNET AS A WAY OF PROTECTING YOURSELVES, OR SOCIALIZING, BUT YOU WON'T TRY TO PROTECT ME, OR SOCIALIZE WITH ME, OR MY FAMILY, OR MY GIRLFRIEND, OR MY DOGS OR MY CATS.  I DON'T BELIEVE THAT THERE IS NOTHING YOU CAN DO TO HELP.  YOU NOT SPEAKING TO ME, OR BEING FRIENDLY, OR SHOWING SOMONE WHO IS IN A VERY DIFFICULT SITUATION A BASIC AMOUNT OF RESPECT, IS UNHEALTHY FOR THE WORLD.  LOOK AT WHAT IT IS DOING TO ME.  WHAT TYPE OF PRECEDENT ARE YOU SETTING?  EVEN IF THERE IS SOMETHING GOOD OUT THERE, I DON'T KNOW ABOUT IT, AND I DON'T EXPERIENCE IT, SO I DON'T BENEFIT FROM IT.  NEITHER DOES MY GIRLFRIEND OR MY FAMILY.  WHAT ARE YOU SO AFRAID OF?  WHY DO YOU IMPLY THAT THERE IS A PROBLEM WITH PEOPLE KNOWING THE TRUTH?  WHY DO YOU PROJECT FEAR OR INSECURITY?  
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there was nothing unethical about my email to my old contact at thule.org.  i understand if it would seem like it is negative or suspicious, but it was innocent small talk.  you shouldn't assume anything about my old email messages unless you could look at them.  i haven't had that email account since 2012.  hasn't existed since 2012.  it seems like evil, childish black women, who think that they made themselves look bad since 2008, are trying to trick people, including my own family into thinking that i am something which i am not.  you would be surprised at how innocent it was.  i don't remember communicating about anything on the thule.org website, except for something about 200 fallen angels.  he stated that there is no connection between numbers and life, so i asked him about why the number 200, when thinking of 200 fallen angels, and he stated something about how the number 200 has been translated into many languages, or something to that effect.  i think that it relates to the 20th letter of the hebrew alphabet ('reish', gematria value is 200)  i think that i have something about it in the 'for your information' section of this website.  etymology of the word 'aryan'.  200 can also be just 2.  he didn't seem like a mean person, but i didn't know him that well.  nothing about hating jews or blacks.  he probably wouldn't shun people who were not white, if they were loving/intelligent.  DNA.  now i remember something about us communicating about something which is on the thule.org website, but i think that he brought it up.  something about the roswell incident being a canadian pilot.  i remember writing after that about how i thought that i read about a crashed disk in germany or poland in the 1930s.  i was not involving paris hilton in anything unethical, because my there was nothing unethical about my email.  i was just being open and honest about everything, in front of everyone, like i always way anyway.  

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this is what it is like.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MPMmC0UAnj0
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a few people who i have already referred to have a weird creepy childish attitude like (excited, disrespectful) "look how i stupid i act... and no one can stop me! look how i stupid i act... and no one can stop me! look how i stupid i act, and no one can stop me!" they are implying that christ has no power, implying that i can't make them stop, or do anythign else. they are like lazy lame obnoxious loser adolescents, who just want to stupidly act up, and who have no honest ambition. i just want to be given a very basic amount of respect, and left alone.

i gave people who i am in constant 24/7 activity with the thule.org website and email address, back in 2003 or 2004, and continually, more than once.  i was never hiding anything, and i don't have an evil intent, like the black women who have the evil intent imply.

THIS MEXICAN GIRL'S PARENTS, WHO I REASONABLY BELIEVE LIVE IN HOUSTON, TEXAS, SHOULD REPORT THEIR DAUGHTER TO THE FBI AND MEDIA. GIVE HER UP TO THE PUBLIC. IT IS THE BEST THING THAT YOU COULD DO FOR HER AND THE COMMUNITY.

this mexican girl, a few black women who are not the majority, this black guy and paris hilton (it is embarrassing to have to mention her/i wasn't a fan of hers) intentionally want to create a toxic environment, because they couldn't or can't get their way, or have fun, and it is so stupid, because they are not even trying to do something. I AM NOT THE ONE WHO WANTS TO CREATE A TOXIC ENVIRONMENT. they are wanting to try to get me to react to their blatant ugliness and disrespect in public, without wanting ignorant people to understand what they are doing, in order to try to have be blamed for creating the toxic environment. they are trying to fool you about me. i have much better things to think about or do.

something else which i want to communicate, concerning the post before last. i don't want to seem hypcritical, by seeming like i am the one who is negative, or implying that we can't do something. ignorant people don't understand how much i am, or we are, being obstructed every day. it is ridiculous. like these people who are doing the obstructing, playing games, are admitting to being childish, social failures, like they are making a sick stupid joke about it. this means that the people who are doing the obstructing are blatantly lying about me, like they want people to think of it as a childish game, not wanting people to believe in christ, or God, or love, wanting to hold people back, because they don't want to try, or because they think that they can't do it themselves for whatever reason. i am a loving person, but i am being blatantly mocked by people who are not. i do become angry, just like other loving people can become angry. if you know me in person, i am a cheerful, gay, honest person. not a bad boy. a geek.

what some of the these black women do, i mean just the ones who are acting weird, childish, angry, creepy, is to intentionally make it very obvious that they know that i am innocent and cool, and that they like to try to make me look unattractive in public, like it is a weird childish creepy game of theirs. they stalk me. they stalk and want to emotionally harm anyone who they think is more attractive than they are. they have emotional and anger problems. they don't even care if they make themselves seem stupid, mean and unattractive by doing what they want people to know that they are doing.

these people who are unnecessarily acting up, very aggressively, intentionally wanting to put negative thoughts into people, and obstruct, didn't want to make this situation about my success and happiness, or anyone else's success and happiness either, or anyone's success and happiness, who can be more successful and happier than they are, or can be. they don't want people to think of my success and happiness, and their lack success and happiness, when they go out in public. successful, happy people are not a problem. it is like a classic type of message from a pastor or preacher, about people who tell you that you can't, or that you are not allowed to, just because they think that they can't, or don't want to. it is like a classic message from a preacher about satan, what satan is, or what satan does. they ARE NOT trying to put positive thoughts into me, or other people, or motivate people, like they are trying to "trick" ignorant people into thinking. they are trying to recruit evil, socially lame people, wanting them to understand how they are trying to "deceive" others. they are trying to "trick" ignorant people into thinking that i am the one with the attitude problem. i am not. i am a humble worker, who is being blatantly stalked and harassed. actually tortured, along with other innocent people, situated worldwide.

it is like the people who lie about me are making sick, stupid, childish joke about how they know that people don't, or won't, believe their lies about me. they try to get people to hate me just because i am special, or because i have a unique soul. they are politicizing me. i don't want to be politicized. i am not in trouble either, like they want ignorant people to think that i am. it is like they are little children, who got themselves into trouble, who are then trying to get me in trouble, when i am not in trouble.

this mexican girl is like a little evil, weird, obnoxious child, who keeps talking back to her parents, once they have told her that she is doing something wrong. this black guy acts like a evil, creepy, punk adolescent, who fakes thinking that people think that he is cool. the few black women, who act like they like him, are fake negro cheese. they "support" each other, desperately trying to make themselves seem attractive, because they don't think that they are attractive.

this mexican and black women desperately, childishly, stupidly try to make it look like my relationship with my girlfriend is all wrong. they do it because what they actually think is that it is all RIGHT. they are envious, and jealous, and angry, like little childish girls become, typical little childish girl behavior, actually thinking that they will never have love, or happiness, or intimacy, in their life in the way which my girlfriend and do. it works so well, or looks so good, that this mexican girl and black women have gone crazy, trying to make it look like it is all wrong. they try to humiliate us, or anybody who is happier than they are. the black guy who is a creep acts like a idiot too, trying to humiliate white men who look better than he does. it is so weird how these people want others to know that they are socially lame. it is social lameness. people who intentionally refer to their own thought of their own lameness, pretending as if they should be accepted, or praised, not matter how blatantly stupid they are. i am not lame. they are trying to make it look like i am lame, knowing that i am a cool, interesting person, who has a good heart, who will defend the community from these people, anyway which is possible. all of this shit, which they are intentionally creating on the internet, is a reflection of THEIR LAMENESS. they want to create a toxic environment, like terrorists do. communicating about them is the lesser or two problems, however. i stopped them, but they are pretending as if i didn't. it could have been much worse. i stopped them, with the help of other good people. people don't believe these people who try to get ignorant people to hate me, or anyone who acts like they care about me or love me. they lie, after lie, after lie, after lie, wanting people to hate me, just because they think that i am special, or more special than they are.

this mexican girl is childishly and stupidly perpetuating the same lie. exactly what i just stated a few posts ago. every time she acts aggressively, which is a lot, she has this evil attitude, like "oh, i was being friendly. oh, i was trying to stop him. oh, i was being friendly. oh, i was trying to stop him", panicking, trying to get herself out of trouble, by admitting to panicking, thinking that people wouldn't believe that she was doing that, because it is so stupid. she has always, always, tried to give herself these weird alibis, like a dumb criminal would.

these black women think that ignorant people wouldn't think that black women, or a black woman, were, or was, the initial problem at the grocery store, back in 2008, because what that black woman did to me was so nasty, evil and childish. she was WEIRD and creepy. they fake thinking that they are right, but they also want people to know that it is fake, because they fake thinking that they are attractive in general. these black women act like weird little children, and i know that black men are sick of it. the black woman who stupidly attacked me at the grocery store in 2008 doesn't represent all black women. she was, or is, a WEIRD, childish, evil black bitch with a mental problem. some woman who i am in constant 24/7 activity with who has a mental problem, social problem, etc.

these very few black people who really are being blatantly stupid, evil and incredibly mean racists, should not imply that i can't call them nigger if i want to. they are literally, blatantly torturing a person who they actually know to be sweet and innocent, just because they are trying to cover up the fact that they are the ones who look bad. they have a weird image and anger problem. i didn't start out this way. they made me into this. 14 years of it. they also did it intentionally, trying to get people to feel sorry for them. i think that the "N-word" thing is stupid. it means that black people can create a double standard, implying that people have to show them respect, even if they aren't respectable, or that people have to show them respect, even if they are blatantly disrespectful. i don't think of all black people as niggers, and i don't want to call all black people niggers. i associate the name nigger with ugly stereo typical black behavior, just as other people can do. another thing about the "N-word" is that they try to use the concept of it as a way of intimidating people, or trying to make people be afraid of them. i'm not afraid of them, and other people should be afraid of them either.

black women and this black guy fight dirty, fight nasty, fight ugly, fight childish, fight stupid, etc. and guess what? there was nothing to fight about. they fake having pride. it is ridiculous. they don't care about black children or any child for that matter. they want to teach black children hate, and it is so weird and confusing, because i showed them more love than any white person ordinarily would. they are the racists. it is their hate and not mine. they want to be hated, because they try to make people feel sorry for them. they are losers who really don't try to make it in america.

this mexican girl tries to make ignorant people think that the people who complain about her are either lying or crazy. she is evil. it is so evil and disrespectful, that she thinks that no one would believe that she would do this, with her intentionally wanting the public to know about it. she is trying to giver herself an alibi and also buy herself time to make up a story, but she has been doing the same stupid evil thing for so long, because she is a lazy coward, that her plan won't work. she is stupidly fanaticizing about it working, and also not even really caring if it doesn't.

this mexican girl has an attitude, which i know that many or all mexicans understand, like "isn't it funny, how i am evil, obnoxious and rude?" some girl with decent looks, who is stupid. she is a an evil bimbo. like some nasty mexican bitch in the dope scene. i already have a girlfriend. i would never want to be with a girl like this mexican. one of her lies is that she is being friendly and that i am not. her other lie is that i deserve to be tortured, along with other innocent people. she has a mental problem, and her parents know about it, and they should turn her over to the FBI and media. she has continued with the same ridiculously cheesy lie crap, pretending as if she doesn't think that she has been caught doing something really horrible to people, knowing that she was busted years ago, panicking, not knowing how to get herself out of trouble. she thought that she was busted years ago, when i started to tell people about her, and how she was trying to hustle her way out of trouble, when i was on facebook, so she just tries to bullshit her way out of trouble, pretending as if she hasn't been caught, trying to give herself an alibi. she also flaunts being evil, also trying to give herself an alibi, because the she thinks that ignorant people would assume that she wouldn't be so stupid or evil. if i die soon, mexican guys in houston or somewhere close to houston should be on the lookout for a mexican girl who hasn't been working since 2011, who seems weird or childish, or who makes up a story about having worked when she didn't, and also saying that she was one of the people who i was in activity with, but she seems strange or like her story doesn't make sense. she will probably say that she didn't understand it, or doesn't want to communicate about it, when she is actually trying to fool people into thinking that she does want to communicate about it. she is still trying to have me killed, while also trying to confuse people about my life or my character. she is evil. like a person you would see a story on tv about.

this black man and mexican girl are obviously wanting to incapacitate me every day before i get out of bed in the morning, continuing with aggression all day long, wanting to confuse my thoughts, wanting to make me feel confused and threatened by them all day long. they are pretending as if they are trying to help me. it is evil. they want to incapacitate me because they don't want me to be healthy and more popular than they are. they are evil. they want people to know that they are evil, playing a game, trying to recruit evil people. everything would be fine if they would get out of everyone's life, and they know it, but don't change their behavior because they don't want it to be more obvious that they are the problem.

this situation is like being stuck in a psychiatric ward with deranged, weird, incredibly mean psychopaths, who like to prey on people. they don't even seem human. they lack empathy. they like to harm others. it is like trying to work with a wild animal which lacks human emotion of intelligence. i think that it has to do with negative aliens. they are making a sick joke about how they like to prey on people and harm them, taunting anyone who doesn't like it. they prey on me, other people, the police, the president of the united states, etc. i wish that there was a way to stop them. i thought that by going to the media, and demonstrating with a test that the activity between me and certain people is real, or that our central nervous systems are fused, that we could create a deterrent, or maybe put pressure on these people's families to turn them over to the FBI. or we could try to put pressure on the medical community to authorize me being euthanized, for the sake of me and many other people who are unnecessarily suffering. this is not a good story for people to be thinking about or sharing. some other story should be handed down to younger generations. we are pointlessly suffering. it is not healthy for the community. the idea behind the medical field is to improve the quality of people's lives. one person (me) taken away so that many others benefit is logical. i am not doing anything very important.


who the fuck do these black women think they are? stupidly attacking me to begin with, stealing my mail, a black nurse infecting my blood, causing me to need 3 major surgeries. stealing my mail on more than one occasion again, harassing me online (cyber bullying). i didn't do anything wrong (at least not what they are obviously lying about because of how other people defend me) and i didn't do anything to them. they like it when i honestly defend myself online, because they think that it gives them something to lie about, or some excuse to attack me and everyone else, wanting to intentionally make everyone, including themselves, miserable. they don't even try to be happy or make people happy. they stupidly try to make people feel sorry for them because i called some weird, childish, totally full of shit, mean spirited black woman a name back in 2008. they are not even actually accusing me of doing something wrong, because they know that they couldn't. i know that nice cool honest black people support and defend me about this. these black women intentionally causing problems want people to think that they have an excuse to harm not only me, but other innocent people as well. they want to harm anyone who they think is happier, or anyone who they think can be happier, than they can be. this is how the trouble from them got started. it can be typical childish girl behavior. envy, jealousy. they didn't or don't like the thought of black men thinking that i was, or am, more attractive than they are. some of them have a serious weird attitude problem. they try to drag everone down to their unhappy angry level. i am worried about using the united states postal servicece, UPS and fed ex, for potential ETSY sales work. i hope that people who know about what has happened with my mail contact someone at the united states postal service, UPS and fed ex. they like to get cute and stupid with everyone, wanting everyone to know that they have been stealing or tampering with my mail, trying to create this ridiculously stupid and cheesy double standard. they have gone insane. they keep trying to cover up the fact that they have been the problem all along, by wrongfully and desperately implying that i derserve to be harmed. they are fake. so fake that it is weird. they even want people to know that they are being fake. i am not lying. i never lied to anyone who i am in 24/7 activity with, and i never lied to anyone on the internet. it is so simple to understand. they are lying, trying to "improve" the really bad image which they think that they have created for themselves. they just make themselves look even more insecure and evil, but they don't care, because they are so totally fucking fake.


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(text to my sister and brother-in-law)

i think that maybe black women are trying to make you and other ignorant people think that i did something unethical, thinking of this contact which i had made with this guy in the past at thule.org.  i didn't do anything unethical, don't have an evil intent, and never wanted to harm anyone.  people already knew that.  it is a very simple thing to understand, but a few people want others to think that it is more exciting than that.  it isn't.  it seems like black women are trying to work the past paris hilton crap into the thule.org guy situation, in order to attempt to wrongfully defame me.  they want ignorant people to think of it like little children who play "make believe".  hilton confused me in public by playing unnecessary games.  i was not a fan of hers.  i thought that she was sticking up for me in public, so it made me think that i liked her more than i did  she actually did stick up for me, but also did something disrespectful at the same time.  sorry that sierra got hurt.

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part of the reason that black women stole my niece's birthday card + $20 cash is because they know that i am innocent, and that i would become angry, and confused, because it is such an ugly, cheap shot at me and my family, with them thinking that i would probably be angry online, in order to try and make me less popular, trying to fabricate "evidence" against me, in order to try and make it so that i don't sell as much art work with ETSY. they either don't want me to sell art work, or they want to try to make anyone who purchases the art work unpopular. they did the same type of thing back in 2008, trying to make me unpopular, knowing that i was innocent (paris hilton situation/grocery store), trying to complicate my relationships with everyone, but especially anyone famous or with money, or on tv, knowing that i had started to write something as a movie idea. they wanted to try to humiliate me, and anyone who gets unique attention, who would ever be known to associate with me. people on tv, people with money, etc. they are very childish, envious and/or jealous, socially lame, mean spirited black females. they don't like to think about me having more, publicly, or being more, publicly, than they are. it is sabotage. if they would stop stupidly gossiping about me, they would be fine. they try to make it seem like they are more than christ is, because them thinking about how they are less confuses them. don't get me wrong, i am not stuck up. it is like they are trying to steal God's (a man's) power away from him. i am all for sharing power, fifty-fifty, but some of these people don't seem to like that idea, because they are greedy for more, or it confuses them because they already think that i have more than they do. strong spiritual people who already think that they are something, or that they have something, are not the problem.

just because i communicate negative things about a few black people, it doesn't mean that i hate all black people, or want to hate all black people, or that i like all white people, or that i want everyone to hate all black people. it has become an issue of intelligence, class, (wealth?), civility. intelligent, civil black people don't like what is happening.

the very few people who are acting up are sending signals to each other to act like they are ganging up on me and the people who defend me. it is so cheesy. they want to be cute about it, knowing that they will never be the majority, wanting to mess with the majority or people who have more power than they do. stupid attitude problems. it is just a few people who are actually panicking, because they think that they are in social trouble. they are like sour, punk adolescents, who talk back to their parents or the teacher at school, pretending as if they think that they have more power than they do. just a very few people who got themselves into trouble. they envy my spirit, because i am not in trouble, and because they know that i know that i have support, so they act aggressively, wanting to harm good people's spirit, wanting to drag me and other good people down to their shit, loser mentality level.

trump uses the media to communicate in code all of the time. he is a creepy, childish, greedy, evil weirdo. he does it, even when it is not necessary to do it. at his golf tournament 2 days ago (7/28/22), he stated that no one ever got the bottom of september 11th (or nine, eleven, as he stated). what he was stating was that no one will get to the bottom of the current congressional investigation going on about january 6th, 2021, calling it a type of emergency, or 9/11.

these very few people who are acting up are admitting to being evil, trying to recruit evil people. they admit to being cruel, dishonest bullies, who don't care about the truth or people's feelings. like trump and his supporters.

these black women, or actually black people, because of the fact that this evil black man is working with a few evil black women, just take cheap, ugly shot, after cheap, ugly shot, after cheap ugly shot at me and other good people. it is so uncivil and childish that it is weird. really weird and childish. they admit to their own thought of their own incivility, and inferiority, but also stupidly imply that they are, or will be, dominant. it is a little scary, because they act more like animals who are not tame, rather than intelligent, civil human beings.

it seems like people, by not speaking to me, don't want me to be able to be a man. it is your social thing, and not mine. i would really like to socialize with someone who knows who i am. it would help my spirit along. we are social beings. just like when we go to church.

don't try to create a ridiculously stupid double standard, black women, implying that you can blatantly violate me and other people, being rude and evil, publicly, and knowingly, and then imply that i can't say anything back in defense, or make a joke.

the few people who are acting up, harming me and the community every day, are admitting to being blatantly evil and cruel. they want people to think that they are cool because they are evil and cruel. they are so lame, and so stupid, that it is ridiculous. they are psychopaths, or sociopaths, or people with anti social personality disorders. it is scary and very confusing. will someone please tell me about a website which i can go to, which is about this situation? i know that it exists. i would like to share it with my girlfriend and family. please help.

these few people who are acting up are like little children, who are angry, throwing a fit, because they think that i can do more than they can do, or because they think that i have more potential than they do, or because they think that they made themselves look bad, or because they think that i can have more fun, being more peaceful and spiritual than they can be. that is why they are blatantly obstructing. they are blatantly obstructing anyone who can be happier than they can be. they are lame boring losers, who don't care about doing anything with their lives. they have this attitude like "no! you ain't gonna have more than me." (or) "no! i don't want people to think that you are more than me." (or). "i don't want to think about you being more than me." it is a public situation. it is not a problem for strong people. it is a problem for weak people, who have personality disorders, or who are sociopaths. they think that if people know that i am happy, that it will complicate their lives, because they are unhappy. they don't want to have to compare themselves to a happy person, publicly, while they are unhappy. they are lazy, angry people who don't try. they are blatantly obstructing, wanting the public to know about it. this means that they are blatantly lying, wanting people to think that they have an excuse to make everyone, not just me, unhappy. they are lame losers who don't try, and who are also not honest about what is what. sore losers, who pretend as if they won the battle when they didn't.

this mexican girl is faking thinking that she hasn't been caught doing something wrong. she is actually nervous and confused, panicking, like she has been for years. she also fakes thinking that she is cool.

this mexican girl is a very weak girl, and she dwells on how she is weak or on how she isn't strong and can't build. she is a weak girl, who lets everyone know that she wants to dwell on how she is weak and unpopular. it is so horrible having to be stuck with someone like this. it can be typical weak girl behavior. once they think that they have made themselves look weak, they don't try to move on and be strong. lame childish girls do this. they give people stupid, weird attitude, like they won't even try to do anything else but seem weak, or to create a positive environment. a few black women are doing the same thing.

this mexican girl is trying to make ignorant people, especially mexican guys, think that it is funny that we are always arguing, or that she is arguing, or that it is funny that she is so rude and obnoxious. it isn't funny at all. this stupid bitch doesn't give a damn about real work at all. she doesn't care about kids or old people or anyone. it is like she wants people to think that she is my wife, wanting to use me, and that she wants to argue about everything, no matter how ridiculously stupid it is, or she is. there is nothing to argue about. i would never be with any girl like this. she would be like some gold digging obnoxious creepy sleazy mexican bimbo at a bar, playing childish games, and i would sense it right away, and i would go a different direction, and she would never have control of me. she wants guys to know that she is an evil obnoxious gold digging bimbo bitch, because she is telling them that she wants to prostitute herself. her attitude is "i won't fuck you , unless you play my incredibly stupid game. oh yeah, be angry and obnoxious like me, and act like you hate white people."


this mexican girl is trying to humiliate my girlfriend and i, publicly, because she thinks that we look like cool lovebirds. she doesn't want my girlfriend to live with me at my wonderful town home eventually, because she thinks that we will look like sweeet lovebirds who are having fun with extra cash. my girlfriend and i have already talked about this, and are in agreement that it would be good for both of us. my home has a very good vibe to it, but this mexican is desperately, stupidly and chilidshly trying to make it look like it is all wrong. she envies people who look better than she does. she thinks that she will never be in a relationship as good as ours, and is bitter about it. typical childish girl crap.

this mexican girl can't keep up with people who do real work, in a public social setting. she is too childish, unintelligent, greedy and lazy. black women do the same thing.

all i have wanted to do, since the end of 2012 or beginning of 2013, is to work peacefully, and also be happy that i made it through some really difficult, confusing times, starting in 1997. the problem is that this mexican girl wanted people, especially mexican guys, to think of nothing but childish greedy obnoxious gold digger bimbos, who do nothing, making a sick joke of it, trying to stupidly compete with people who do real work, instead of thinking about sweet, humble men who are focused on interesting work. i happen to be white, and she turns it into a weird racial thing. she tries to humiliate people who do interesting work, because she thinks that she is boring, or unintelligent, or because she does nothing. she implies that people should think of bimbos who do nothing, or girls, wanting to prostitute herself, rather than humble men who do interesting work. she wants to compete with people who do real work, in a really stupid way, because she does nothing, thinking that she is not earing any respect for doing anything. it is like she is trying to put something stupid on her resume, implying that it is impressive when it isn't. her con is that she is either trying to help me, or that she is trying to stop me, and they are both totally stupid. she got caught doing something evil, trying to wrongfully defame me, and she doesn't know how to lie her way out of trouble. she is trying to make it possible for her to get along with any guy who has money, no matter what he thinks about me or this situation. that is why she is mixing crap together, trying to make it seem like no one can figure it out. we have figured it out. another thing is that she seems to hate white people who have more than she has (intelligence, spirit, financial security), so it seems like she is wanting a mexican guy who acts like he hates white people. it is always BECAUSE i do work, and BECAUSE i am so honest all of the time, that she constantly tries to make ignorant people or ignorant mexican guys think that i am evil or lazy, and that they should hate me. she thinks that i do more that they do, or am more interesting, but she doesn't want them to know that, because she thinks that it will hurt their macho. it wouldn't hurt it, it would make it stronger. in other words, she doen't want to submit to men who do honest work

it is like these black women have an angry stupid attitude, like "we gonna get what we want, by any means necessary!" it is stupid because they are so fake. they fake being righteous. you are going to get what you want? what do they want? for me to state that i am the one who did something wrong? well, that is stupid, because i am never going to do that, because i am not the one who did something wrong. i reacted IN DEFENSE of being wrongfully assaulted, by an evil childish weird black woman who tried to humiliate me, for no good reason. i was also apologetic afterwards, thinking that innocent black women got their feelings confused. i also went to an all black church in 2010, wanting to show my love and support for black people, trying to help them move along, holding a little black girls hand when a black adult put her hand in my hand, crying for about 2 or 3 minutes while they were singing. some black women are being evil and mean and dishonest and stupidly angry about what the problem was or is, knowing damn right what it was or is, not wanting to publicly acknowledge that a black woman was the problem. they seem too insecure. move on! quit hurting everyone. they are so lazy and unfriendly. they will try to use this post as a way of continuing to lie and be stupid, preventing me and everyone else from being happy. i am really sick of thinking of evil, ugly attitude black women, who don't care about anyone, not even little black children. you want to teach them hate. i am not the racist, you are. they are angry because they gave themselves a bad image. well, why don't you move on, and give yourself a better image? no good leadership amongst you. you are like little children irresponsible children. grow up. they have been weird, childish and sadistic, pretending as if they have a reason to harm not only me, but other innocent people as well. that is what it was in the very beginning.


we could have all had power. some of these people try to steal power away from me, so they lie about me. we could have all had power. we can all be happy. they try to steal power away from me because they think that i have more power. quit lying about me. why do you want people to think that you are unhappy all of the time? why are you lying about me? quit lying about me. go out and be happy. quit lying. tell the truth. don't pretend as if you don't know what i am communicating about. this is ridiculous. move on with your lives. create a a happy life for yourself. these people don't try to be happy. they don't try to be happy, and then they stupidly and dishonestly want to blame me for their unhappiness. quit lying about what the real problem is. leave me alone and quit lying about me. these people are insane.

this mexican girl is intentionally incapacitating me every day. if people communicate about what she is doing, she wants ignorant people to think that we are lying. she lies in 2 way at the same time. 1 is that she lies about george h. w. bush and northern trust bank, implying that i did something wrong when she knows that i didn't, implying that i am lying about it when she knows that i am not. 2 is that she tries to trick ignorant people into thinking that she is trying to help motivate me when she definitely doesn't intend to motivate me. she doesn't know how to lie her way out of trouble, so she keeps doing the same really rude, really stupid thing, panicking.

this generation of black women who have harmed me and the community need to die off. they will be dead in 30 or 40 years. i'll be dead too.

it seems like people want me to make them feel special, but it doesn't seem like people want to make me feel special. in other words, i am not going to make you feel special, because you didn't make me feel special.

cool, friendly black people should write to the FBI and the houston michael debakey VA hospital, to the director of the hospital, to stop me from being harassed. they are disrespectful to all veterans. it should be a place of respect, not blatant disrespect.

A + for effort...

maybe they should fire every black woman who works at the houston, texas VA hospital. maybe they should fire every black woman who work at the united states postal service.

this is the opposite feeling of the nice peaceful social loving feeling people typically think of when they go to church. it is more like a bad dream or bad experience, like a very mean psychopathic criminal coming up to you on the street with a gun or a knife, robbing you. they want to publicize this. i like going to church, and greeting people, and saying "peace be with you..." do you? it is like the neighborhood in the movie 'back to the future', when evil thug biff has his hotel. too bad. i tried to get people to help. low class thugs are going to ruin america. like criminals. i think that many people with money will move out of america.

if you are finding this situation interesting, i am warning you, curiosity killed the cat.

people don't even give me a real opportunity to shine in public, actually speaking to me in person, and allowing me to speak in person, as a friend, as somone who really is friendly, just like you know me to be when i speak with my girlfriend, and the neighbors, or my parents, or people at the grocery store, or people at drive through restaurants, actually in person, as a leader, as a parter, as a friendly respectful person. do you get it? don't play dumb. don't pretend as if you don't know who i am or what i am like, in person. this internet shit is stupid. your internet shit is stupid. good luck. i am being assaulted by weirdos in public.

this mexican girl is making a sick creepy stupid joke about how she is trying to have me murdered. taunting the police. she is making me and other people so sick and confused, that seh thinks that somone will kill me. the black guy doesn't want me to be killed, because he wants his social security disability and his easy life. she wasn't old enough to have anything in social security disability.

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7/25/22

people who know about how there is real evidence that black women, who work for the united states postal service, have been stealing, and/or tampering with my mail for years, should report this to both the FBI and postmaster general. i believe that black women, who work in the united states postal service, have already been secretly conspiring on how they could possibly steal photographs, which i have created, which i will be marketing, and mailing to the public through the internet company ETSY. i can't even file a complaint with the postmaster general, because black women will tamper with, or obstruct, my official complaint to the postmaster general, because they know about when i am doing it, and also because black women, who i am in constant 24/7 activity with, wrongfully conspire with other black women, in various organizations, throughout the united states.

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this mexican girl's con is that she is, or will be so unbelievably cruel and evil, so as to make ignorant people think that the people who complain about her are either crazy or lying about something. she thinks like a criminal. she keeps trying to make people think that there is something interesting about my text messages or past when there isn't. everyone already knows everything about me, and i'm not in trouble, and i never lie. it is not as interesting as lame, boring people want ignorant people to think. i am a sweet, honest geek who always wanted to help people, regardless. they try to make people think that i am an evil bad boy, because they think that people think that is more interesting, or because they got themselves into trouble, and try to wrongfully defame me. they try to make people think that there is no good in the world, just because they are not good people, or because they don't believe in themselves, or because the don't have confidence. not only is she lying about me, and trying to get people to lie about me, she is obstructing so badly every day, that we can't think clearly or work efficiently. the police or FBI can monitor my phone and computer. i don't care. maybe they already do, because i have communicated to the white house and military. these people who blatantly lie about me, like it is a childish game, or like they are a cheesy supermarket tabloid magazine, are stupid.

someone please go to the media and police about this situation.

this mexican girl's parents should give her up to the FBI and media. they know who i am, and they know that she has the ability to act aggressively toward me and other people because she told them. your daughter is a dangerous psychopath. she likes to harm people. obviously she has been lying to you about what she is doing, or why. she is greedy and stupid, and she doesn't care about anyone, not even little children. she is like an insane drug addict, who keeps trying to get something for herself, not caring about how many people she hurts. she likes to harm people. she is a demon. it is the most disgusting spirit you could possible imagine sensing. sadistic and evil.


these few girls who are blatantly creating problems for the community want to hurt me publicly, just because i don't like them, while also wanting to make me think of why i don't like them in the first place at the same time. typical lame, childish girl crap. not only do they want to harm me, but they don't want anyone to be able to have a good time with me, because of their weird envy or jealousy. weird possessive psychopath female shit. they are angry because they think that they can't have fun, because people know that i don't like them. they liked me, but i didn't like them, and then they make up lies about me. this shit right now which you are reading is an example of how they try to make people not like me, creating something negative. i am a positive cheerful person, but more so that most people are, so people who aren't the same, try to spoil it, or make it look like i am negative. they are negative. they don't think that they are cheerful in the way which i am cheerful, so they want intentionally want to make me negative, like they are making a weird childish mockery of a positive cheerful person, publicly. because they are negative people, they want to make a public mockery of a positive, cheerful person. it is very sad and i wish that someone would be bold and speak to me, helping me and my family and my girlfriend. do you like this shit? people are trying to make other people sadistic, or feel superior, because of how they want people to know that they are treating me in an abusive manner, publicly. why don't you arrange to have me killed at a hospital, with official government or medical authorization?

this mexican girl envies how good my girlfriend and i look in public, so she wants to try to humiliate us, implying that it has something to do with feng shui or our intent, because i wrote about this in this website. we both have very sweet, honest intents. this mexican girl has an ugly, very rude, very mean, very childish, dishonest intent. she intentionally ruins my wonderful home, all day long, every day BECAUSE it is a good place, stupidly childishly implying that it has to do with feng shui. my home, or my sweet honest girlfriend is not the problem. this mexican girl who wont get out of my home when she isn't welcome here is the problem. she is like a drug addict, who comes over to your home, and eats you food, and runs up you phone bill, and steals your clothes, and makes a mess, and won't leave.

some of these people try to create the impression with ignorant people that they don't understand something, or what has happened, or what is going on with my life, when it is actually the complete opposite of that. that is the beauty of this situation. it causes them to play dumb, mostly girls, because they don't want to have to do work, like i do. too much pressure for them. some people can't handle the pressure, socially, so they play dumb. this mexican girl is playing dumb. paris hilton is playing dumb. black women are playing dumb. black guy is playing dumb.

i wish that there was some way of locking this mexican girl and black guy up in jail or killing them. they are dangerous psychopaths who like to harm people. they are ruining the world.

some of these girls are insane. they want to blatantly upset love, peace and harmony, because of their childish envy, jealousy and anger.

this mexican girl's con is that she is, or will be so unbelievably cruel and evil, so as to make ignorant people think that the people who complain about her are either crazy or lying about something. she thinks like a criminal. she keeps trying to make people think that there is something interesting about my text messages or past when there isn't. everyone already knows everything about me, and i'm not in trouble, and i never lie. it is not as interesting as lame, boring people want ignorant people to think. i am a sweet, honest geek who always wanted to help people, regardless. they try to make people think that i am an evil bad boy, because they think that people think that is more interesting, or because they got themselves into trouble, and try to wrongfully defame me. they try to make people think that there is no good in the world, just because they are not good people, or because they don't believe in themselves, or because the don't have confidence. not only is she lying about me, and trying to get people to lie about me, she is obstructing so badly every day, that we can't think clearly or work efficiently. the police or FBI can monitor my phone and computer. i don't care. maybe they already do, because i have communicated to the white house and military. these people who blatantly lie about me, like it is a childish game, or like they are a cheesy supermarket tabloid magazine, are stupid.

someone please go to the media and police about this situation.

this mexican girl's parents should give her up to the FBI and media. they know who i am, and they know that she has the ability to act aggressively toward me and other people because she told them. your daughter is a dangerous psychopath. she likes to harm people. obviously she has been lying to you about what she is doing, or why. she is greedy and stupid, and she doesn't care about anyone, not even little children. she is like an insane drug addict, who keeps trying to get something for herself, not caring about how many people she hurts. she likes to harm people. she is a demon. it is the most disgusting spirit you could possible imagine sensing. sadistic and evil.

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7/25/22

people who know about how there is real evidence that black women, who work for the united states postal service, have been stealing, and/or tampering with my mail for years, should report this to both the FBI and postmaster general. i believe that black women, who work in the united states postal service, have already been secretly conspiring on how they could possibly steal photographs, which i have created, which i will be marketing, and mailing to the public through the internet company ETSY. i can't even file a complaint with the postmaster general, because black women will tamper with, or obstruct, my official complaint to the postmaster general, because they know about when i am doing it, and also because black women, who i am in constant 24/7 activity with, wrongfully conspire with other black women, in various organizations, throughout the united states.

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the mexican guy who was at memorial park (2016? 2017?) with this mexican girl who is bothering people when i was jogging around the park should go to the police and the media, to tell them about this girl and the issue with her left eye. she is absolutely evil. she has a weird mental problem, and anger problem, and likes to harm people. i think that the same mexican guy followed me into my townhome community, being stupid and aggressive, probably because she told him to, trying to make it seem like someone didn't like me. obviously she was lying to him about the situation, or my character. maybe is is a stupid punk mexican who doesn't care. i hope not. it is easy to understand how she could have deceived him.

this black guy is not humiliating me, like he wants people to think. he is just irritating me, and everyone else. he is humiliating black people, not me. too bad. really sad too. black people can't stand him, or the black women who act also stupid. they have so much opportunity in america, but they don't care. they don't believe in themselves. don't make it my problem, or everyone else's problem either. if you can't keep up, get out of the way.

this black guy is trying to fool people into thinking that he is the humble servant (description of hebrew letter 'ayin' in 'for your information' section of this website), when he is actually a weird obnoxious evil creep, who i am protecting the community from. he is not humble. he is angry and nervous, but trying to play it off like he is cool. he is cheese. chocolate cheesecake.

this mexican girl is really really really ugly stereo typical ugly mexican attitude shit. she is trying to create the impression that all mexicans are like this. they aren't. she tries to put pressure on them to not act like civil, intelligent, loving people. i know that they don't agree. she is a real person. not an alien like she wants ignorant people to think


black woman who attacked me at the grocery store in 2008 was childish and WEIRD. she had a mental problem. i think that the same woman stalked me and my girlfriend, or everyone, when i went into a store called trader joe's, here in houston texas about 3 weeks ago. she knew that we were going there about 45 minutes before we got there. weird, creepy and childish, wanting to irritate me, or try to make me look bad, publicly. that is how it started to begin with, back in 2008.


i already apologized, more than once, if innocent black women got their feelings hurt, when i called that black woman a name back in 2008. i think that they did get the feelings hurt. you know what? my feelings got hurt and confused. i would have definitely called her name, no matter what it was, wanting to hurt her, real bad, because she obviously wanted to hurt me, real bad, BUT I HAD DONE NOTHING WRONG. she was WEIRD, creepy, childish, evil and sadistic. she doesn't represent the majority of black women, even though these few black women tried to make it seem like she did, trying to control all black people. these few black women who are acting really stupid and disrespectful, including who work in mail and at the houston VA hospital, who are not the majority, really are stupid, because take their orders from weird, lazy, childish, lame, disabled, crazy, power hungry, greedy bums with mental problems, who desperately want to be thought of as God, who i am in activity with, constantly lie about my sweet, honest, geek character, because they think that they have been rejected. they created an image problem for themselves, and are now creating an even bigger mess, wanting to harm people, or have control over people, who they think are happier than they are. that is how it started to begin with, when that black woman attacked me at the grocery store, back in 2008. not to cause unnecessary problems, but these black women better get their shit together, because God is not going to wait for them. watch, and wait to see what black women do. they will be even more disrespectful to me because i seem apologetic, or kind, implying that i should be rejected, no matter what, in order to try to cover up the fact that they are the problem, also trying to provoke me and make me angry in public. that is what they do.

hilton wanted to try to humiliate people who had or have less money than she does. that was part of the the reason that she did what she did. a very few people with color wanted to humiliate a unique white person, publicly. if you were witnessing this, like other people are, you would agree that the tone of this is like the childish, creepy, mean people in the move "Carrie", who humiliate her publicly. this is obviously what they want to be thought of as. it is weird and creepy. i am not paranoid or weak. it is very ugly, and they are taunting the police and the government. the government should not allow this to continue for years and years. it is social problem, which creates a social problem for the government. either make a statement, telling people to back off, or kill me peacefully.

the people who are obstructing are like sleazy, shady, lazy, evil creeps in the dope scene, even if they don't use drugs. they didn't want this to be a movement of honest, working, loving people. they obstruct, so that it doesn't gain momentum, pretending as if they have a good reason to obstruct. they think that they can get away with it. it is more than just obstruction, it is like being tortured by weird childish creeps who have mental problems. like mean thugs, with mental problems. they don't want there to be social pressure on them do have to be good people, or do work, because they are lazy, bad people. they don't want the pressure, because they think that they can't do the work. it is difficult for intelligent, loving, hard working people to understand. it is very painful, because of how they are intentionally ruining my life, and other people's lives, not wanting this to be a story about my success and happiness, because they are envious, or unnecessarily gossiping about me, politicizing me, wanting to unnecessarily involve me in their lives, wanting to unnecessarily compare themselves to me, not wanting people to think that i am better than they are. quit gossiping about me. some good people may be like "why would they do that?" it is easy for good people to not understand, because ordinarily good people associate with good people.

black women are trying to politicize ugly attitude, disrespectful black females. it is really weird, childish and stupid. they don't even think that they will succeed. it is like they want to politicize black women who unnecessarily complain all of the time. nobody feels sorry for you. you attacked me FOR NO GOOD REASON. lazy, dishonest. don't want to accept responsibility.

everything would be fine if these people would stop stupidly gossiping about me, or acting like they want to gossip about me. they lie about me, because they want to be thought of as superior. they didn't want to show me a basic amount of respect. this black guy, paris hilton, black women and this mexican girl. they don't show me respect, because they are lazy, and don't want to work. they mock, or make fun of people who work. they don't want to have to work as hard as i do, publicly, so they make up lies and excuses to get themselves out of doing work. they don't want a movement of honest, hard working people to generate, because they are dishonest and lazy. they can't keep up (mostly girls or black women), so they drag everyone down to their level. really sad. like they are making a sick joke of doing this. girls have a problem with making it about another guy, thinking that it causes problem for their relationships. they don't want to submit in men, in general. they try to stop male bonding.

these few people who are acting up in this situation, mostly black women as a group, are like the dumb trump supporters, low class, angry, abrasive, creepy, totally full of shit weirdos, who know that they are full of shit, who stormed the capitol building on january 6th. God help us.

this mexican girl's parents should not be supporting her. she intentionally harms people every day. she has a weird creepy anger and attitude problem. evil. sadistic. i am not making this up, like the mexican girl is trying to make people think. she thinks like a criminal.

it is so weird and creepy how these few people try so hard to humiliate my girlfriend, shelly and i, because they think that we are such a good couple, or because we look so good together in public. they envy our strength in public, because they can't imagine themselves doing the same thing, because they don't have the same quality which she and i have.

this stupid mexican girl and stupid black guy are implying that i have to be held in an interrogation room, when they already know that i am innocent. for years. they are so stupid and so evil and fake. they are not cops. i am not in trouble. they think that they are in trouble. they are childish weirdos, who are angry because people think that they are childish weirdos, and because they can't have sex, and because they think that they can't make people think that they deserve special treatment. they don't want to face the music. they want to fanticize that they will be something which they never will be.

this mexican girl keep trying to create gossip about things from my past which are irrelevant. you have to have a reason to search someone to begin with. there has to be probable cause. you want to come look at my things, or investigate me? fine, then go to the police, and get the police to get a warrant from a judge, and then come look at as many things in my life as you want to. you can't just come into my life and go "what's this?!, what's that?!" fuck you, and get the fuck out of my life! that is what it is! get a warrant! i'm not in any trouble. there is no probable cause. bullshit on the internet is not probable cause. i'm sorry everyone, it is not as interesting as you wanted it to be. i am a sweet, honest geek. not a evil bad boy.

a few of these people just try to generate a bunch of stupid stupid shit on the internet, implying that something is more interesting than it actually is. they are boring people, who want others to think that they are more exciting than they actually are. they imply that they need me to make their lives more interesting.

this mexican girl is a type of retarded and very mean and very stupid, very childish, implying that what she is doing is intelligent, just because it is unusual. it is not intelligent at all. she is dumb as a doorknob, and any mexican guy who ever meets her will think the same thing. she is like a child, wanting to be thought of as impressive, but it is not impressive at all. she is weird and socially lame. she is not an alien, like she is trying to make people think that maybe she is. she is a human being, who i think still lives in houston, texas. she wants to be thought of as a star or celebrity, but she isn't, and she is angry about it thinking that she can't have sex, and won't be able to show off, or make someone think that she deserves special treatment. weird, little stupid obnoxious angry mexican bitch attitude. black guy has the same type of problem. so do a few black women.

black women are angry, or were angry before i came around, so they feel better about themselves when they make me angry, actually knowing that i have a unique, cheerful, gay spirit, not wanting to think about how i am happy and how they are angry. they want to drag everyone down to their stupid lame angry level. they are little children who can't take care of themselves, or anyone else.

what that childish, evil, cruel, weird black woman who attacked me at the grocery store back in 2008 did was want to blatantly assault on my peaceful, gay, innocent spirit. she was angry and bitter, thinking that i had or have more spirit and confidence than she did, so she thought that she had an opportunity to harm me, publicly. weird, very childish, very selfish, very mean black bitch. she wanted to drag me, and other people, down to her angry bitter lame level. some of these people who i am in activity with have mental problems, personality disorders, confidence problems, social problems, etc.

some people may not understand, but all of this in this section of my website is like a soldier, who keep sending out an SOS, working dilligently at it. i care. other people didn't or don't care. we are under attack by nasty, mean spirited people, who betrayed the community. christ doesn't solve everyone's problems. he creates division, because not everyone is like him. loving people don't understand it, because typically loving people associate with loving people. nasty people associate with nasty people. go figure. why don't you leave me alone? i am a loving person who is under attack.

a few angry people want to try to drag me down to their stupid angry level. they are angry because they made themselves look stupid, or mean, or dishonest, over the years. they pretend as if they have a reason to obstruct my life when they don't. they would be fine if they quit unnecessarily gossiping about me. black women think that i make them seem more interesting than they are. that is why they keep unnecessarily gossiping and lying about me. they are boring. it seems like they think that they need me in order to get ta thrill out of life, instead of being able to do it on their own.

a few girls who got themselves into social trouble, or who think that they made themselves look bad, are angry and bitter about it, wanting to drag me down to their stupid, childish, angry, bitter, unpopular level. then the black guy joined them, because he is a wimp. i have many reasons to be happy. they don't like to think about my cheeful gay spirit, and their angry spirit, at the same time, so they intentionally irritate me. they are acting like little children. another reason that they are angry and bitter, is because they think that they can't get something which they want. they also don't want me to be able to have something which they can't have. they are acting like little children.

black women try to confuse people about my intent. i have a sweet, honest intent, never wanting to harm anyone. wanting to help everyone, regardless. they got caught having the nasty intent, so they are trying to fool people about me. i'm not an evil bad boy, like they try to portray me as. more like a sweet, honest geek. they think that people would think that an evil bad boy is more interesting. too bad. just a sweet, honest geek. what's the matter? boring? why don't you get your entertainment is some other way?


paris hilton ruined america.

these black women who are intentionally causing problems, who are not the majority, are the type of childish, thug like, sleazy, disrespectful, evil crap, who would make fun of, or mock, stevie wonder, and "ebony and ivory". they would make fun of anyone, including black people, who they think are more spiritual than they are.

if these black women who are acting a fool, and wanting other black people to act a fool, think that people believe their crap about me, and also the good people who support me, why don't you get quannel x and the black panthers involved? joke, but also serious. social activists and the black panthers don't believe you, black women. go away. you were the weakest link in american society. why don't you grow up, and get a life, and quit stupidly trying to make people feel sorry for you.

black women try to create these ridiculous double standards. they like to imply that they have leverage on everyone, because of the past slavery in the united states. i am tired of their anger and hatred. i am not a slave owner, and never have been, so you can go fuck off. i loved you and tried to help you, in a way in which most white people never would. don't play dumb or try to play dumb. you started it, and you are embarrassed, faking having pride. it is so fake and cheesy, that it is absurd.

i stated that i apologized to hilton about putting her in an awkward situation, but not intentionally, but that doesn't mean that she is right and that i am wrong about everything. actually, she owes me and the entire community an apology. she also owes me $150.

black women are stupidly implying that they can do whatever they want to, including breaking the law, stealing my mail, because i called a black women a rottweiler with rabies, back in 2008. that black women attacked me for no good reason, so she deserved it. she was or is childish and evil. she was a childish, mean spirited, weird black women, who wanted to humiliate me, knowing that i was innocent, because she thought that i could move on to better things than she ever could. she thought that she could make it seem like i did something wrong, even when she and other people knew that i didn't. she wanted to be nasty and humiliate me for no good reason, so i wanted to humiliate her, because i did have a good reason. black women are insecure, faking thinking that they are secure and superior or attractive, acting even more stupid, in order so that it seems as if they believe in what they are doing, when they don't. what they are really insecure about is the fact that a black woman stupidly attacked me for no good reason. it didn't seem to bother paris hilton, because of the supportive stamps which were on the envelope, which was delivered to me after the grocery store incident. i have loved black people, and tried to help them, but they don't care about themselves. the women are caught up in a really weird, really cheesy, really dishonest, massive denial about knowing that they were, or are, the problem. their gossip is stupid. they imply that they can be vicious, nasty, cruel, ugly dishonest, evil, and assault people, but no one is allowed to call them a name. they fake thinking that they are right, and that i am wrong. you attacked me, for no good reason. they want to stupidly dish it out, but can't take it. they keep panicking about having given themselves a bad image, desperately trying to give me the bad image.


some black women fake thinking that i did something wrong, or that they are superior, because what they actually think is that the public thinks that they did something wrong, and that they have an image problem, and that i am superior.  they are insecure.  they think that they created an image problem for themselves.  they did, and they stupidly continue to create an image problem for themselves.  they are fake, cheesy and childish.  they fake thinking that they are superior, while at the same time intentionally wanting to be thought of as ugly and disrespectful, implying that they are superior, no matter how ugly or stupid they are.  mexican girl also does this, black guy also does this, paris hilton also does this.  black women are so blatantly stupid and ugly for stealing my niece's birthday card, plus $20 cash.  they are desperately trying to make it look like i was doing something unethical (paris hilton/thule.org) when i wasn't.  very simple.  they are trying to fool ignorant people into thinking that i was trying to get money from paris hilton to give to thule.org.  nope.  not what i was doing.  money for what?  i hardly knew hilton, and i hardly knew the guy at thule.org.  i was never told by thule.org that people were supposed to invest in something.  black women are just pissed off, because they got caught being nasty and mean, so they are desperately trying to defame me.  they also thought that because the thule.org website is down, that they could take advantage of ignorant people, or try to fool people, about the nature of the website, the nature of the thule.org dude, and my nature.  it was an interesting website, and that guy was always cool and nice with me.  interesting character.  black women think that they made themselves look stupid and mean, because of the grocery store incident about paris hilton, back in 2008, so they are wanting to try to combine 2 things (grocery store, plus me trying to get hilton to print out thule.org messages from my email account), when i didn't do anything wrong in either event.  just taking a stupid, cheap, ugly, childish shot at me.  that seems to be their style.  they are stupid and desperate.  they are angry and ugly, because they know that people know that they have been the problem.  they don't care about children, including little black children.  they try to teach children hate and racism.  me trying to get help from hilton about printing out email messages was about me thinking that maybe i could work some of the email messages into a film idea that i had.  i was excited about it, and thought that she would want to be involved.  i didn't have a printer or working computer at my home.  i thought that the thule.org dude was cool and interesting, and i wanted to share it with someone.  innocent.  it wasn't about money.  black women are taking a really nasty, really ugly, really childish cheap shot at me, and the entire community.  i didn't mean to put hilton in an awkward situation and i have apologized to her.  i was trying to establish trust, because there was nothing wrong with my email.  black women want ignorant people to think that i was doing something wrong or unethical, like they want to try to get people to play "make believe" with them, like they are little children.  or like cheesy ridiculous national enquirer crap.  they want to make a very cruel, very weird mockery of someone who is innocent.

these few people who are acting up are the opposite of christ. weird, childish, incredibly mean, angry, evil, deranged psychopaths. like the black women who work in mail, who stole my niece's' birthday card + $20 cash. they thought that they could fool ignorant people about the paris hilton situation, because they think that they are the ones who look bad. they are in trouble. i'm not. actually, the more that i think about it, they really didn't think that they could fool people. they just want people to think that they have an excuse to harm me and my nice family, publicly, when they don't. we have more than they do (spiritually, mentally), so they want to harm us.

i understand if people are thinking to themselves when they read this "ok, ok, man, you don't have to keep going on about it." i am not the one who keeps stupidly going on about something. a few people got themselves into social trouble, or created an image problem for themselves, by playing stupid games, and they want to take out their anger and insecurity on everyone else.

some of these people want to mock and humiliate people who are christ like. they are unintelligent, evil, angry, childish thug like crap. like donald trump and his supporters. weird bullies.
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i would rather that the community take care of itself, on its' own. good luck...

i deleted a considerable amount of data on 7/11/22, which was created by me as a result of low class, uncivil people, being grouped together with people who have class, and who are civil. ordinarily, different classes of people form because of what they have in common, which can include being located in the same area, for whatever reason. certain people situated with certain people. when i state "class", i do not necessarily mean people with monetary wealth. the data which i deleted was created by me as a result of stupidly evil, stupidly childish cowards, who intentionally wanted the public to know that they were, or are, blatantly harassing, stalking, and trying to humiliate an innocent, DEFENSELESS man. it is better for me to allow people to defend themselves, rather than them trying to use me, a DEFENSELESS person, as a manner of defending themselves. people have had information about me for years.

what these people are doing is criminal. a form of terrorism. don't let them intimidate you, or try to blatantly lie to you about me, and other people who actually are honest and loving. it is also like they are nasty, evil, creepy, sleazy, shady, lazy, lame thugs in the drug scene (whether they use or deal drugs or not), who don't work, who have mental problems and social problems, socially lame, who don't care about working, and who don't care about living an honest life. they are unemployed, so they try to use sheisty, cheesy tactics, like blatantly telling lies about me, wanting people to think that they are more important than they are, or that they deserve special treatment, in order to try to hustle their way into whatever they think that they can. they are also weird losers, who fake thinking that what they do makes them popular. they want attention, it seems like because they are angry because of the unique attention which i get. i'm not stuck up. i am easy going and personable. i try not to be overly judgmental, because i have all kinds of life experience. this situation, with people acting up stupidly, really isn't difficult to understand. it is like life, as people already understand it. most people work, or work or go to school, or work and go to school, and are happy and successful. other people don't work or have ambition, can be lazy, and are not happy and successful, and it can become criminal. these people who i am in constant 24/7 activity can't work, because they are disabled, so some of them turned criminal. people who think they have less can hate people who they think have more, or can have more than they can have. their greed is the problem. initially, and also continually. they think that they don't have much, or won't have much, or won't have as much as me with the public knowing about it, making them confused and angry, so they obstruct my life, lying about me, in order to try to make it seem like they have a good reason to obstruct, when they don't. they think that because they have things to lie about, which were unusual but not important, that they can get away with it or make up any story they want to. they are not getting away with it, but are still obstructing, pretending as if they think that they are getting away with it. it is their weird greed which is the problem. insecurity too. they want people to think that they are more special than they are. it is their greed. they are not humble. it is their hate, and not mine. actually, they don't hate me, but they try to make people think that they hate me, and also that other people should hate me. they want people to hate me because i am a unique person who has more public support, or more love in my life, in a way which most people don't. all of their stupid lies are about their weird hated of me, or their weird attempt to try to make people hate me, when they actually don't hate me. it is very painful to have to go through this. it is because i am a cheerful, loving, honest person, that i am hated, or that people pretend as if they think that i should be hated. people who are not cheerful and self confident hate me, or pretend as if they hate me, or actually envy me. they are angry or bitter, because they think that i have more potential than they do, or that i can be more successful in life. love, work, play, confidence, spirituality. they blatantly obstruct my life, and the lives of others, because they have weird childish psychological problems and envy. it has been mostly females who are the problem. most people are cool, or not causing problems in my life, and the lives of others, and this communication is really not about them. the problems started with a few people who i am in constant 24/7 activity with (144,000). they betrayed me and the community, because of their childishness and greed. they are a very small percentage of the community. they are trying to steal something which belongs to me, wanting people to think that they are God and that i am not. or something like that. or it could be like they are implying that the inheritance goes to them, and not me, like they want to thought of as more wealthy than i am, like evil, selfish, dishonest, members of a family, who are stupidly trying to contest God's will, implying that it goes to them, and not me. they are wrong. actually, it goes to everyone, but they want more for themselves.

just so that people know, this crap which some people, not me, enjoy creating, won't last forever. people will not have the ability to act aggressively toward me, or other members of the community, after i die. another fact is that infrastructure will eventually fail. power, communications, internet, etc. the initial problem will be a shortage of food, because of changes in the weather.

a few childish, evil, unfriendly, lame, dishonest people are desperately trying to make it look like i am an evil, unfriendly person. i am not. they got caught doing something wrong over the years, and are trying to cover it up, and also trying to fabricate false evidence me, by being unnecessarily aggressive. they are not even accusing me of something. just taking cheap shots, wanting ignorant people to think that something is more interesting or important than it is. they obstruct, pretending as if they have a reason to obstruct, because they know that i would be happier than they could ever be, if they left me alone. they are angry about this. they don't want people to think of my confidence, and their lack of confidence, because they got themselves into social trouble.

a very few weird, childish people who think that they are inferior (inferiority complex), or socially lame, or not as confident as i am, want to try to humiliate me, publicly, because they think that i am more than they are. it also seems like they are trying to turn it into a racial thing. this doesn't mean that i am stuck up. they are weird, very childish, socially lame, angry, envious or jealous, incredibly mean (sadistic) psychopaths, who try to spread their stupid, obnoxious crap. they are angry and confused, because they think that people think that i am more than they are, publicly. they have social problems, or image problems, because they got themselves into social trouble, by being knowingly evil and cruel. they have weird mental problems, or personality disorders. it is similar to how donald trump, a greedy, weird con artist, also bully, spread, or tried to spread, stupid crap. these people are ugly, socially lame bullies, attempting to bully everyone, because they don't like the pressure of being humble and honest, publicly, like i am.

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https://biblehub.com/philippians/4-7.htm

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i had previously communicated on this website that i had read about "the plan" for massive depopulation of the planet (thule.org, although i don't believe that thule.org would be responsible, or solely responsible, for the execution of this "plan"). the idea was, or is, to intentionally tip an asteroid or meteor into the gravitational field of the earth, with history citing it as an act of God. i actually support this idea, and appreciate the effort of thule.org to respectfully inform the public about it. it seems logical, and i don't think that if there really is such a plan, that the people involved in it are not loving, caring or intelligent. i think that a massive, sudden depopulation would be in the best long term interests of the inhabitants of the planet, spiritually, psychologically and emotionally. there is going to be a problem with food in the future because of the change in weather, and the world is going to become a very confusing place to live, generation after generation. not manageable. chaotic. chaos creating chaos. many people will commit suicide. families. parents killing their children first, and then themselves. there will be a rebirth after the next ice age or glacial period. i think that is another part of the idea or plan. we are currently near the end of a warm interglacial period. aliens, or more developed creatures, use us a slaves to support them, even though we don't understand what is happening, or even though is is imperceivable. taxes, science organizations, military. patents are also key. aliens, or more developed creatures, are similar to migratory birds. they travel to where they can comfortably habituate. sometimes underground.

thule.org was an interesting website.  informative.  it was described as a type of red cross.  i used some of the information which it provided about '"culture" between ice ages', including information about milankovitch cycles, in order to try to cause members of government to plan for shortages of food later on.  thule is known as a mythological place.  hyperborea.  it could be another planet, or it could be this planet.  or somewhere on this planet.

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people don't need me in order to have a good relationship with God. people do it on their own. i can help though, because the evidence of a structure indicates that a structure exists. space/time. that is also what the great pyramid indicates (smile). it works in repeatable cycles. 24 hours in a day, 365 days per year, etc. millimeter, centimeter, meter, kilometer, etc.

i really really wish, and keep pleading, for someone who i am in activity with, who knows that i am being blatantly stalked, harassed and harmed by weirdos, to tell my girlfriend about it, confirming what i am telling her, so that she feels as if i am being loved and protected, and also so that she feels as if she is being loved and protected. it would be good for our intimacy. don't people care anymore? i know that people indicate that they care about me, or love me, or respect me, with the use of the internet in public. so why don't you actually, officially, make me feel this way myself? with the public knowing about it. why don't people want me to be a man? you want me to be a little boy? why? because you really don't want to have to work like an adult? people seem to think that communicating to me would create a problem. the problem is, and is going to be, if you don't. don't let weird societal problems sneak up on you, 10 years from now, 20 years from now, 50 years from now, 500 years from now. it is breaking into tribes. if disrespectful, childish, evil people feel as if there is no pressure on them to act in a civil manner, or to care for one another, it will get worse and worse. like a trend which they think is "cool". peer pressure, etc. people make me feel like we are all a big group of children, who can't take care of ourselves, because of a lack of your leadership, and i don't want to be a child. these people who are stalking me, are stalking everyone, wanting weird attention. they want people to think that they are more important than they are, because of their "association" with me. they are unattractive (spiritually, mentally/physically?) people who want more attention than attractive people.

some black people (a few black women, and 1 black male) are admitting to being ugly racists. they want people to know that they are just making about their blackness, and not intelligence or being honest and loving. what they have done, and are still doing, is so childish, stupid, evil and mean spirited that it is disgusting. they want to try to drag everyone down to an  uncivil, low class level, because they can't keep up with good people.  they are lazy, lame, dishonest, unintelligent.  they imply that it is about their ugly dominance, and not about intelligence, civility, honesty, love or respect. sort of like children who can't take care of themselves, and who aren't good people to try to work with.  black people shouldn't be surprised or complain, when people of other races indicate that they don't like them, or that they don't want to try to work with them.  they just stole my mail (again), which was a birthday card to my niece in california, with $20 cash inside.  i think that they are trying to fool ignorant people about the paris hilton situation, and $20 cash which i sent to her back in 2008, which was because i was excited about paris hilton getting involved in my film idea which i had begun to work on, asking her to help me print out some interesting messages from my email account, some of which i was thinking about trying to work into the film idea, which were from an interesting, loving guy, who i became acquainted with through thule.org.  it was innocent, but a few black women are trying to make people find out about unimportant bits and pieces of my past, in order to try to wrongfully defame me, and stupidly imply that they have a right to harm my family, because of how they stole my nieces birthday card and $20 cash.  who would believe them?  who would follow them?  i didn't have a printer or working computer at my home, at the time i did this.  i initially researched thule on the internet, because i thought that maybe i was supposed to know something about it, because i wanted to help people if i could, or if it were possible.  part of the reason that i thought that maybe i was supposed to know something about it, or be involved in it, was because of unique experiences with the supernatural, including unusual physical communication, which i started to sense in february of 1998.  thule was something associated with the third reich, but i didn't have something against jews or blacks.  not white supremacy.  i found out about the thule society because of a file which an old buddy of mind accidentally found on the internet, when having a good intent, researching something about the ark of the covenant.  black women knew this about me already, and also that i tried to protect black people after i initially read this information about the third reich and world war II, which confused me at first.  people knew this already.  thule was also a mythological place.  read in the 'for your information' section of this website.  now i am trying to protect black people from themselves.  black women try to fool people about my character, because they got themselves into social trouble, and are angry and stupidly desperate.  they try to get ignorant people to take something about me, or my past, out of context, stupidly and desperately trying to wrongfully defame me, because they are angry and panicking, having created social trouble for themselves since 2008.  i didn't realize at the time that i sent paris hilton my email address and password, that i would be putting her in an awkward social situation.  i didn't think that it was a problem, because i wasn't doing anything wrong, or because i had and have a good intent.  i was trying to establish trust with the community.  i have apologized to her about this.  i have a different email address and password now.  since the beginning of 2013.  hilton could have sent me the money back, and told me to change my email address and password, back in 2008, but she didn't.  i was excited about working on my film idea story, and was also excited about getting someone involved in it.  i was not a fan of paris hilton's initially.  i was neutral, just trying to cheer someone up.  i am not a fan of her's now.  i wrote to her when she was in jail in 2007, trying to cheer her up, because i thought that she was feeling blue, or was having mental problems, maybe related to this unique situation, because she didn't go to jail the way which she was supposed to, and because i saw a picture of her crying in the back of a police car.  then she did something weird, disrespectful, childish and selfish, involving me with her in public, in a way which was not necessary and stupid.  she confused me in public, because i lack privacy.  i didn't want to seem like a jerk, so i wanted to be thought of as friendly.  i didn't want to think of unusual tension or confusion, publicly.  she is still confusing me, and other people as well.  weird, disrespectful, childish, selfish. it is also cruel.  all of this crap was totally unnecessary.  hilton send me the supportive like envelope and stamps, which are in the 'visual' section of this website, after i sent her the $20 for help with printing out email messages.  a few black women are engaged in a real dirty, real nasty game.  they made themselves look bad in public, starting in 2008, so they are desperately trying to make me look bad in public.  they knew that stealing the mail would confuse me and make me slightly nervous, because of my thought about my future, with no defense or police, because they are staking me, knowing that i am innocent, and knowing that i know that they know that i am innocent.  then they imply that the confusion and slight nervousness means that i am guilty of something, when i am not guilty of something, and when good, honest, loving black people communicate that i am not, and also when these evil people know that i am not guilty.  it is obvious that i am not guilty. if you were observing this, like other people are, you would understand that childish, evil, mean spirited, lazy black women are wanting to make a weird, incredibly cruel mockery of an honest, innocent person.  trying to humiliate an honest, innocent person.  it is weird abusive, inhumane treatment of a human being in public.  they got off on this sick shit, wanting other people to know that they get off on it, as long as they have "an excuse" to do it.  they are wanting to humiliate somebody who has good qualities, which they don't have, wanting to make it obvious that they are doing this, because of their envy or jealousy.  they are flaunting their own thought about how they don't have the good qualities which they think that i have.  they want to humiliate someone who has better qualities than they do, or who can accomplish more in life than they can.   it is weird, creepy, ugly, childish cruelty.

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this are text messages which i sent to my sister in california today (7/15/22):

some black women like to try to divide me from love which they think that i have in my life, and which they don't have, or which they won't have. they act like little children who have emotional, psychological, weird confidence or anger problems. they created an image problem for themselves, and it is weird, because they continue to want to create an image problem for themselves not caring about their image, while also faking having pride at the same time. they fake being confident about what they do, implying that they have pride or confidence, no matter how stupid and ugly (attitude) they are, and have knowingly been. a few other people have done this too. they are also trying to fabricate false evidence about me and my past. why? because they are in social trouble and i am not. they are childish, stupid and evil. fake.

i sent the following to Sierra. i won't communicate about it to her anymore. don't want to scare her. black women did want to scare her, and you, and the community as a whole, including black children, trying to intimidate them, or teach them hate. these black women hate themselves for what they have done, and are faking being confident or having pride in public.

hi. i think that black women who work in mail stole the mail (birthday card + $20). if so, they are really taking a really cheap, ugly shot at me, my family, and also good loving honest people who have been defending my for years. my mail has been stolen before, and there was nothing wrong with it. a few black women have gotten themselves into social trouble since 2008, so they are panicking, thinking that they have a bad image, acting like little children, desperately trying to make it look like i did something wrong, or that i started trouble, when i didn't, and when people know that i didn't. i think that they are trying to fool you and my sister into thinking that people like them, and not me. people don't like them. there is a battle going on right now between civil, loving, honest black people, and black people who are dishonest, lazy, childish, mean spirited, greedy, etc.

i'm sorry. they have hurt many people since 2008. they like to be childish and cruel. it is weird.

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it is because i am so truthful all of the time, that a few people communicate that everything which i communicate is a lie. it is very sad. in other words, they blatantly mock a person who is always as honest as he possibly can be. it is very very painful to have to go through this. they are childish, sleazy, low class, lazy, thug, dishonest, lame, creepy people who don't work, who have mental problems or who are disabled, and who want to make fun of people who work, and who are honest. they mock me, and obstruct, because they are angry that i can be more successful or spiritual than they can. the few people who are acting up are also angry, because they made themselves look stupid. so it seems like they want to take out their weird, childish anger on everyone else. they don't like the cards which God dealt them, and they just lie and complain all of the time, instead of making the most of their lives. it is just a few people who are doing this, but they are creating a huge mess for the community. i am not the one who is complaining. their unbelievable aggression means that they are complaining. and also lying.. the reason that i am communicating this on the web is in order to try to make them stop, by trying to make it impossible for them to spread evil, malicious, frivolous gossip about me, and other honest, loving people.

these few people who are stupidly acting up, want the community to know that they are creating unnecessary drama, just to imply that the focus should be on me, and not them, because they are lame and can't handle the pressure, and that people should think of it as a type of sick entertainment. it is very painful because they are blatantly obstructing my life. it is more like a form of sick torture if you were witnessing what is happening. the reason that they want to put the spotlight on me is because they don't want the spotlight being on them, because they think that they really can't perform in a way which would make them seem like they are something good. because they are lazy and boring (they do the same stupid thing every day), they want to put the focus on me, so that they don't seem that bad. they know that if they left me alone, that i would not seem as important, and that they would then have more pressure put on them to be seem important themselves. they think that they can't do this. they put focus on me, in order to put less focus on them, because they don't like for people to think that they aren't very much or not doing very much. they put the focus on me, because they don't want focus on them, because they think that they are lame, and that they can't handle the pressure in publicly. in other words, it is "think about him, because i don't want you thinking about me, because i am doing nothing, and i don't have much confidence." or, "shit, i don't have to do anything, because the focus is on him." they don't want any responsibility. they try to deflect the responsibility toward me, while they are also obstructing at the same time, in order to try to make it seem like i was no good, or that they were better than i was.

these people who are acting up are angry because i can have a better time than they can. they think that they made themselves look so stupid, and ungodly, and are angry that i can have a better time than they can, publicly. they pretend as if they have a reason to obstruct my life, by blatantly lying about me. they don't even care if people know that they are lying, they just don't want me to be able to have a better time, publicly, than they can. their childishness, selfishness and disrespect is so incredibly stupid and weird. they don't want people to think, publicly, that i am more confident and cool than they are. they would be just fine if they stopped gossiping about me. their evil gossip, and desire to stupidly gossip about me, is what got or gets them into trouble. people didn't start to publicly defend me until other people started to betray me, them, and the community. i'm not making this stuff up, like these people try to trick people into thinking i am. they act up like little children, who are angry and sour, and who don't like it when someone can have more fun than they can, or when someone has more than they have. like they are screaming like little children "i don't like this! he can have more fun that me!" or "i don't like this! people think that he is God and that i am not!" they are childish, weird, evil people. it is sad for the entire world community.

this black guy who people know about, paris hilton, a few black women, and this mexican girl who people know about, thought that they couldn't have sex, or have fun in general, unless they lied about me and the situation. real simple. they put their personal, selfish, greedy interests above the general welfare of the community. they think that they made themselves look bad over the years, so they lie, and pretend as if they have a reason to complicate my life, so that they think that people will think that i don't look better than they do, publicly. they all wanted to play childish games, stupidly toying with me, when they shouldn't have been, and it got them into trouble. real simple. they want to play with me, because they think that i am special, so they think that it makes them seem special. creepy, weird, childish shit. the reason that i am not in trouble, and that they are, is because i actually had real responsibility, so i was always trying to help the community, doing work and being honest. i was confused initially about what was what, but who wouldn't have been? i am not evil, or don't have an evil intent, like they try to trick ignorant people into thinking i did, or do. they didn't have any real responsibility, so they weren't, or aren't, under any real pressure to do the right thing, like i was, or am. it is all a game to them, and now they wish that they wouldn't have done what they did. they are the ones who are in trouble, and actually, are really pissed off and nervous about it. i'm not in trouble, even though they try to make it seem like i am. they try to give themselves an alibi, by being unnecessarily aggressive, obstructing my life. they try to make it seem like they wouldn't do what they are doing unless i deserved it. i don't deserve this. they are like little children who got themselves into trouble, who then get nervous or scared, and who then try to blame someone else.

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7/14/22

what people are doing to me and this 24/7 activity group who i am together with is sadistic. i have already explained this. it is childishly sadistically perverted. really sick shit from really sick people, which has been going on very bad for 14 years now (since 2008). it is weird creepy sadism, and these people who are engaged in it want the public to know that they enjoy it and that they also like taunting the police. like some weird creepy criminal person with mental problems and a personality disorder had kidnapped you, and is torturing you, also wanting you to know that they like you, while flirting with you and torturing you at the same time. imagine a person who has kidnapped you, and then binds you to bed in their basement, and then licks your face slowly while whispering something creepy and weird in your ear, and then burns you with a lit cigarette on your arm, continually. they want people to know that they find it gratifying or are aroused by it. it is weird and sick. these people want me and others to know that they have some weird obsessive fascination with me, and i'm telling you real serious that it is disgusting, and that they are disgusting people. i wish that people who i am in constant 24/7 activity with, and the u.s. government, or doctors, would authorize me being euthanized at a hospital in Houston, texas, showing some respect toward me, my family, my girlfriend, the people situated worldwide who i am in activity with, and their friends and families. these people want to publicly mock and torture an innocent, defenseless person, just because they got themselves into social trouble, and are angry about it. either have me caused to die, with an official medical procedure (general anesthesia/stop my heart/like for heart surgery), or create a story about this unique situation with tv news, in order to create a deterrent for, or stop, these childish, weird, sadistic people who are stalking not only me, but everyone who i am in constant 24/7 activity with, and their friends and families. you can try to flush out the people who are causing problems, by getting the community involved. these people who are acting up have weird psychological or personality disorders, and they are sending signals to each other to try to help each other get out of the social trouble which they created for themselves, by trying to wrongfully defame me. please help. we are in great pain. this should not be the story to hand down, generation after generation.

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this mexican girl, who we started to sense in may of 2011, who is knowingly causing problems for the community, is implying that life is about childish, obnoxious, blatantly disrespectful bimbos, and not humble, honest men who work. she is implying that childish, obnoxious, lazy, weak, blatantly disrespectful bimbos overshadow humble honest men who work, or that people should think of girls instead of guys, because i make her insecure because she has a weird, massive inferiority complex. she is not just obstructing, she likes to be thought of as creepy and obnoxious, intentionally harming people spiritually. weird disgusting ego problem and personality disorder. the treatment is inhumane.

this black man, who we started to sense in february of 1998, who is knowingly causing problems for the community, is implying that life is about punk, fake, loud, childish, obnoxious, blatantly disrespectful black men, and not humble, honest men who work. he is implying that punk, fake, loud, childish, obnoxious, lazy, weak, blatantly disrespectful black men overshadow humble, honest men who work, or that people should think of a black man, instead of a white man, because i make him insecure because he has a weird, massive inferiority complex. he is not just obstructing, he likes to be thought of as creepy and obnoxious, intentionally harming people spiritually. weird disgusting ego problem and personality disorder. the treatment is inhumane.

it is easy to tell that there are 2 people, even though the black man was just trying to fool people as i typed the last bit of information. he is trying to outsmart anyone who would investigate him.

both this mexican girl and black guy (african american) have my vision in their left eye (evil eye). they can both create contractions of my muscle and soft tissue, which the entire 24/7 activity group (144,000) worldwide can sense.

their problem is that they like to childishly show off, wanting people to think that they are the greatest thing since sliced bread, when they aren't, and that is how they got themselves into social trouble. they are stupidly trying to politicize themselves because of their greed. it is absurd because no reasonable person would ever like them or follow them. sort of like watching a really drunk, sleazy, childish person act stupid in public. i just want to be left alone and live a normal life.

this mexican girl is about 30 years old. she looked like she was about 18 or 20 when i first saw her, or when she wanted me to know that it was her, back in 2011. i am not mistaken. i have seen her about half a dozen times, because she was greedy, wanting people to know that she was mexican, wanting to try to use this group as a form of media, because she thought that she would be able to make a mexican guy think that she was like a star or celebrity. she drove a white SUV, had a restricted phone number, probably lives inside the houston 610 loop. had long light brown hair. about 5 feet or 5 feet, 1 inch or 5 feet, 2 inches. medium size breasts. full figured. i think that she has a brother around the same age as she is, who drives a dodge charger. i am guessing that the black guy, who i know is african american, lives in the north of america. i can't be sure though. i have never seen him. she is trying to fool ignorant people into thinking that we don't know what she is, or what her motive is. we do. it has always been very easy to understand, if you were sensing what is going on. she tries to give herself an alibi, like a stupid criminal who desperately tries to confuse a crime scene would, only making it easier for people to understand what happened, and for her to be caught. she was also together with a mexican guy, who was probably is his 20s or 30s, back around 2016 or 2017. she was at memorial park in houston with him, when i was jogging around the park, wanting me to see her, acting childishly, like she was trying to make me jealous, when i would never be jealous of this stupid girl. i think that the same mexican guy she was with at memorial park, followed me in a threatening way, into my town home community, playing a very stupid, childish game. i should have stopped my car, and got out, and questioned him as to why he was following so closely, and whether or not he lived in my town home community, or whether or not he was a guest. obviously she was lying to him about me, and i also think that she was trying to give other people an opportunity to lie about me, or harm me, because she knew that i would communicate about the experience. like a criminal set up.

if you want entertainment, go to church. or read the bible. leave me alone. i'm not in trouble, like these very few people who got themselves into social trouble, want ignorant people to think. they are in trouble, and panicking, obstructing my life, and the lives of others, because they think that they can't keep up, and that i will look better than they will, publicly, if they leave me alone. they are angry about it, playing games, like little children.

black women stealing my niece's birthday card, + $20 cash birthday money, is such an ugly, disgusting cheap shot, but it really doesn't surprise me. they are ugly and angry. they make their public confidence problem, everyone else's problem. they want to hurt anyone who is happier, or more confident, that they are. they fake having pride. they don't even try to make themselves seem attractive, because they think that people think that they are so unattractive. mentally, spiritually, physically. i am not here to sugar coat anything. they attacked me for no good reason back in 2008, think that they made themselves look dumb, and are now angry, ugly and pissed off about it.

it is unbelievable how childish and disrespectful a few of these girls have been. paris hilton, a few black women, and this mexican girl who people know about. they want to hurt me, publicly, just because i don't like them, publicly. sour and sadistic. they were the reason that i didn't like them to begin with. like little girls who play dumb games, making themselves unpopular, who are sour, and angry, and who want to talk back to their parents. they are sour because i am more confident and happy, or because i can be more confident, or and happy, than they are, or than they can be. grow up, and do your own work, in order to give yourself confidence. don't try to take someone else's confidence away, just to try to make yourself feel "better".

for years (since 2008), black women lash out in a weird, childish anger. it is creepy and scary. it is because they think that they are inferior, or lacking a good quality which i have, and which people state that i have, or also because they think that other people think that they are inferior. weird spite, weird vindictiveness. they are constantly trying to make it look like i am an angry bad boy. nope. a sweet, caring, honest geek, who gets angry, just like other people would naturally get angry, when someone wrongfully violates them. i don't have an evil intent. they do, and then they started to panic when it was obvious that they did, desperately trying to cover it up by wrongfully implying that i deserve to be aggressed upon, and harmed, publicly. they are panicking, because they think that they did something wrong and stupid, publicly, but trying to play it off like they are cool. real cheesy and real fake. it really just seems like they want to harm an innocent, DEFENSELESS white person, publicly. weird hated of a white person, especially a sweet, funny, loving white person with an interesting spirit. i make them feel like they are less. they want other black people to think that they should be amused by the fact that they can harm me, or actually torture, or try to humililate, a sweet, honest geek, who they think has more potential and spirit than they do. they are angry because they think that christ is a white person for a reason, or that people think that christ is a white person for a reason, or that i possess a quality which they don't possess, because i am white. this doesn't mean that i am stuck up. i can' think of black people who i like way more than certain white people. they would be just fine if they quit stupidly gossiping about me. their stupid, weird, mean, childish gossip is their problem. it seems like they want me to make them seem more interesting, and it is because they are actually unintelligent and boring.

some of these black women are so childish and stupid, that it is scary. it is scary for everyone, including young black kids. they like to be thought of as stupid. it is scary.

black women stealing my niece's birthday card + $20, is like donald trump, stupidly, childishly, desperately, franticly, attacking joe biden about his son and something about money, during the presidential debate, when joe biden's son is innocent. it is irrelevant. something which happened 14 years ago and i had no evil intent. i have a very sweet, honest intent, but they try to fool ignorant people. some black women desperately try to portray me as an evil white man, always something irrelevant about money, because they are the ones who got caught being evil, incredibly mean spirited, childish, and fixated on money. black women are just angry and ugly, because they think that i look better than they do. they created an image problem for themselves, and it is also because of the stupid, unnecessary amount of gossiping which they do about me. i don't want to hurt sweet, friendly black girls. they do. they want to hurt anyone who can have a better time than they can have. childish, angry, unfriendly, stupid. they started the trouble, but they want people to think that i did.

****** now i have to worry about black women who work in mail, stealing my ETSY orders, if get orders for artwork. i hope that someone, or a group of people who i am in constant 24/7 activity with, contact the FBI and postmaster general. i wish that someone who knows about what is happening would contact me, so that the FBI and postmaster general, would take me more seriously. i am innocent, and also a sitting duck, because of weirdos in the community.

a few people who are stalking the community, including the police, and members of the government, don't want to be honest about what is actually what, they are like little problem children, who are trying to get themselves out of trouble, because they think that people think that they are in trouble. i am not in trouble, like they try to make people think.

these people who are stupidly, childishly acting up, have a weird, excited, creepy, psychopathic, personality disorder attitude, like "yeah! unattractive people are getting attention! yeah! unattractive people are getting attention! yeah! unattractive people are getting attention! yeah, unattractive people are getting attention!", etc., like they have gone crazy, and are all excited, because they think that unattractive people have an opportunity to get attention. when i state "unattractive", i mean spiritually, mentally, (physically?). they don't have good personalities, and are angry, because people with good personalities, get more attention. they are trying to compete with people who have good personalities, in a really ugly, obnoxious, stupid, childish way.

this mexican girl, and a very few other people, intentionally want me to think of nothing else but weird, creepy, evil sadistic psychopaths, who are stalking me, intending to confuse me really badly every day, so that i can't work efficiently, because they don't want me to look better than they do, publicly. they are implying that they can get away with it, taunting the community, the police, and members of government who they think know about this situation. they are not intelligent though. like dumb, uncivil animals, which are not as capable of doing intelligent work, and surviving, as intelligent, civil humans are. they don't care about doing work.

this mexican girl's idea, to try to use this activity group (144,000), as a way of fooling people about herself, and also trying to wrongfully defame me, was, or still is, really stupid. she is insecure, and panicked, and she didn't want people to think that i was better than she was, or that i was God like and that she wasn't, because she thought that she couldn't have a fun life. she is evil. very stupid too. the black guy did the same thing. black women did the same thing. paris hilton did the same thing. they are evil, greedy people, who didn't, and still don't, give a damn about the community.

what these very few people who are acting up are emphasizing, is not that i am guilty of something, and not that i am unfriendly, but that they want the public to think that it is interesting that they can knowingly, publicly harm people, without the police being able to stop them. this is an issue for the government, or FBI, or police to consider. please use the media as a way of creating, or at least trying to create, a deterrent.

maybe people who understand what is going on with my situation could contact the ACLU, in addition to other pertinent offices. people are implying that christ, or a unique individual, has no rights, or doesn't have the right to be protected, just as any other person would be. i am still a human being, and i was born in the united states of america.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/American_Civil_Liberties_Union

this aggression toward me, and other people in the community, is coming from weird, childish, socially lame, angry, boring, unconfident, envious and jealous people, who try to make people who they think are cool people, look stupid in public, because they think that they won't have as many personal social problems if they do. it is first their weird envy, or jealousy, which then becomes hated, and anger. their attitudes indicate that they are even admitting to this, or what i am communicating that they are doing. they are insane.

it is mostly girls who are the problem. they want to humiliate me, publicly, with this stupid, weird obstruction of my life, because they think that i am more than they are, or that a man is more than they are, or that i am more confident that they are, or that i can be more confident that they can be, or that a man is more confident than a woman, or that i am more peaceful than they are, or than they can be, or that a unique man is more peaceful than a woman, making them angry, causing them to childishly lash out. at everyone. strong, confident girls, or strong, confident people, are not the problem. weak people, who lack confidence, are the problem.

they are trying to make it look like it is funny, because they are so stupid are rude. it can be typical immature, socially lame female behavior. girls who aren't serious about their life and work, thinking that it is just about games. it isn't funny at all. they are hurting people, like want people to think that they think it is fun or a game. they lack confidence. they obstruct because they don't want to publicly compare themselves with a person who they know is stronger, and who the public knows is stronger, since this is always a public situation. they want to stupidly gossip about me, and want the community stupidly gossiping about me, instead of doing work on their own, like people ordinarily do.

they don't take life seriously enough, because they really don't believe in themselves. they are going to wish that they never played stupid games. they already do, but are in denial about it.

this mexican girl is wanting to humiliate sweet, honest people. i guess because she is a rude, "macho", abrasive, obnoxious, ugly attitude, childish mexican, who tries to make other mexicans think that they should be the same way, or because she tries to make people think that this is the way which mexicans are. i'm not trying to start trouble with mexicans. many of them are sweet and hard working. she tries to make them hate me, because she thinks that i am more than she is, or that they are. she is not an alien, like she is trying to make people think that she is. she is a human being, with a weird, creepy, angry mental problem, who i think STILL lives in houston, texas.

the very few people who are blatantly acting stupid and rude, actually have feelings for me, or like me, or love me, but they pretend as if they don't, or that they hate me, publicly, because they don't want other people to act like they like me, or love me, more than them. they have their own acceptance problems. it is envy, or jealousy. an understandable, confused social situation. everything would be fine if they quit trying to politicize me, or themselves, because their stupid greed. everything would be fine if they quit unnecessary gossiping about me. it seems as if they think that they need me, or some story about me, in order to make people think that they are more interesting that they are.

either create an international story about me on tv news, in order to deter weird, evil, dangerous people, or shut the fuck up, and leave me out of your life.

people didn't start to communicate good things on my behalf, or be like missionaries, until evil, childish people attempted to betray the community. either quit trying to wrongfully politicize me, or make an international story on tv news, so that different types of scientists, including biologists, can study this, document it, and do more work concerning the sun, stars. electromagnetism, positive/negative charge. atoms? great pyramid, pyramids. our sun and solar system are very very small. objectivity. it should be respected. people should make the most of it. people should not be trying to make the worst of it. peace on earth...

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i decided to put the information which i moved from this website, to a word processing file on my computer, back on my website. evil, childish, socially lame people, who know that ignorant people don't know me that well, want people to think that all of this crap in this section of this website, means that i am guilty, and an angry person by nature. nope. or that i am crazy. nope. i have much better things to do than to think about these people, who are weird and stupid, and who are intentionally causing problems for the community. i recently started to use commas again, like i used to when i would write things. i thought that informal was better, but it is difficult to read. i apologize if it is difficult to read.

why do some black people in america want people to know that they want to publicly hurt or humiliate an innocent, defenseless white person so badly? it is weird hatred of people who they think have more, or who they think are more than they are. i am innocent, and i know that good kind black people defend me. i'm not stuck up. i am sweet and honest, if you were to get to know me in person. it seems like the reason that they act like they hate me is because i am sweet and honest. like they want to try to humiliate someone who they think is more attractive than they are.

these girls, including paris hilton, are like little children, who had an attitude like (screaming, confused, envious, panicking) "no, it's not his! it's mine!", trying to steal something from me. or like screaming, panicking, envious 4 year olds "no! he's not God! i'm God!" they didn't want to be thought of as humble subjects or just be humble and respectful. they wanted to be thought of as childish girls, with attitude, creating a bunch of stupid childish drama for their own stupid childish excitement. black guy does the same thing. he is like (like a problem child) "ah nah, a cool white person ain't God. a dumb childish mean black man is God." like he is a child or creepy adolescent punk, with an inferiority complex, who is trying to steal something from me.

if this mexican girl's parents knew what she was doing, they would dump her off at a half way home. she is lying to them. i think that she has a brother who she lies to, who drives a dodge charger. was it you at the police station, bro? your sister is vicious and evil. a demon.

this mexican girl, especially, is in an incredibly stupid, incredibly weird denial, about the fact that she thinks that people think that she is stupid and evil. she does it every day, all day long. for years. she is a weird, blatantly childish, blatantly obnoxious (like some mexicans are, like they think of it as a trend), very angry, very ugly, very mean spirited mexican girl, who wants to blatantly harm people, pretending as if she thinks that it makes her cool. her parents should not be supporting her. they should drop her off at a half way home, and tell her to get lost. she lies to her parents. she holds her family hostage. her family is partly to blame for the incredible damage which she is intentionally doing to society. she wants her family to think that she is some kind of God, when she is just a creepy, dishonest, anti social, unloving human.

a few black women who have a serious creepy attitude problem, and this black guy who has a serious creepy attitude problem, and this mexican girl who has a serious creepy attitude problem, are all playing a stupid childish game, like the more stupid that they know that they make themselves look in public, the more that then want people to know that they go into even more weird denial about it. like they want people to think of it as a game which they are playing. i am serious about work, and unfortunately i got stuck with people who are childish, and who don't care about work. they are lazy, socially lame, evil losers, who are obstructing everyone's life, because they don't want to have to try to keep up with people who do real work or who have a real heart or who have a real brain. it is a type of criminal element. they are like criminals. like adolescent punk criminals or anarchists. like sheisty dope scene fools, who don't give a fuck about work or school or getting off of you ass and doing something. their childish frivolous evil gossip is stupid too. too bad for them. they obviously lie about me and the people who defend me, implying that there is no honor or honesty or love in the world. they are just stupid people who do not possess these qualities themselves, so they try to make ignorant people, who don't know me, think that these qualities are nonexistent.

i don't think that any of the law enforcement officers who worked in la grange, texas when i was there from 2009 to 2011 still work as law enforcement officers. they wanted to kill me because they wanted to be able to continue to work, but i think that when i stayed alive, and especially considering how confusing this situation became after i left la grange, i don't think that they would have been able to function at their job. so they probably quit. best of luck to them.

the reason that i wrote to michael cohen, is because i appreciated him coming clean, because i wanted trump to suffer the consequences of being an evil creep. i hated and still hate trump. he is an evil, greedy, sadistic dork fool. then i realized later that cohen was just trying to get himself out of trouble, and that he really wasn't a good person, and that his performance at the congressional hearing was a type of con.

i think that black women, or that maybe black people in general, are going to try to kill me when i go to la grange, texas, to work this weekend, or some other time when i am there working, in order to try to trick ignorant people who they think have just looked at information on this website, into thinking that it was the police in la grange, or mexicans who live in la grange. something doesn't seem right for the last day. like they are up to no good. i mean less aggressive. the black guy and the mexican girl. like they are being too friendly. that doesn't mean that i want them to be aggressive. or, they may try to make it look like white people who live in the country who are trump supporters, and fox news viewers, killed me, because of what i communicated below about michael cohen, trump and fox news.

just tired of all of this unhappy shit. want to be goofy and cheerful. want people to have fun, and be in love. there is a difference between communicating with people who i am in constant 24/7 activity with, and people who only know me through this website and because of what other people communicate about me.

what this black guy is doing is basically stating "i don't give a damn about yo kindness and honesty white boy, cuz i gotta weapon and you don't..." not only that, but it is like he saying "oh yeah, white boy, i be a sleazy weird mean black man, too." that is why the police and the military should at least be notified. he won't be able to harm or try to intimidate people after i am dead. so, it is sort of like a stupid animal which tries to dominate, but then doesn't. it is too stupid to be able to take care of itself.

*IMPORTANT - this "i don't give a damn about yo kindness and honesty white boy, cuz i gotta weapon and you don't" attitude, which he has, and which he is trying to spread amongst black peole, is spreading, and it is dangerous for america. he is implying that black people should be lazy, and act like they are unintelligent, low class black people, in general. this is why the police and military should make a public statement about my, or this public situation. psychological deterrent. it can become a type of trend for black people to join in with this nonsense, which is really about blacks who are embarrassed, faking thinking that they are cool. peer pressure. they think that as long as there is no real official statement about it, that they can play games, and that is dangerous for america and for the world. i am so saddened and confused, that just a very few black people, would destroy, and then try to destroy decades of progress which blacks have made in america. they are lazy, and don't care about trying to keep up with others. I WANT BLACK PEOPLE IN AMERICA TO BE OK. Leave me alone. Quit gossiping about me. Quit hurting yourselves. Accept responsibility for causing problems. You are hurting innocent black people, or everyone.

these weak lame people shouldn't spend all of their time and energy trying to tear down people who they think are happier or more peaceful than they are. they don't want to do work for their own happiness and peace, like i do, or like i am known to do. they are boring, and then get angry or envious when they see me get ahead, because i try, or because i have ideas. i understand if people think that this is overkill. not really. not when considering what they are doing every day. they are going to get tired of thinking that people think that they are stupid are dishonest. i have help. like an army.

it doesn't surprise me or other people, but about 2 hours after i wrote the last post, this black guy is mocking me because i am caring, honest, responsible, etc. he is putting pressure on black women to continue to attack me when i am online, or any other way which they can do it. he is also putting pressure on the mexican girl to continue to be disruptive. he doesn't want to create an impression that a white man is more peaceful and confident than a black man. if he thought that he was more popular, because he was being honest, respectful and responsible, he would be peaceful and confident. they tell each other that they will lie for each other, but no one believes their lies or their bullshit. no one will believe it. i have been working at this with other good people for way too long. they pretend like they think that people believe their bullshit. it like watching dumb, lazy, panicking people tell each other, (confused/angry) "i'm not going to do it, are you going to do it?" dumb leading the dumb. he is telling the other people that he needs their help. weak loser wimp black creep, who thinks that he can't do anything on his own. and then he wants people to think that he is a player. it is ridiculous. he is like a little boy who is telling black women that he needs his mommy. he has an really sleazy, childish, untelligent, unfriendly attitude toward black women, like "ah nah, you ain't allowed to act like you like a white boy more than a black man." he is so insecure, publicly. he wants people to think that a dumb black man is more powerful than an intelligent white boy. very insecure.

this mexican girl and black guy have an open invitation to call me or come over to my home. i would try to help them, if they were respectful toward me and the rest of the community. if they want to communicate with the physical contractions of muscle and soft tissue which they generate with the use of their mind, just a little (once, gently, once every few days or weeks), or be included, needing to feel as if they are included in the rest of the group, then fine, not wanting to act like they want to blatantly harm me and others who act like they love me or care about me. they need love or help, but when i have already tried, they mock me. they shouldn't try to make it look like i am evil, when they know that i am not, just because they are insecure. they try to make it seem like they are the adults, when really they are like the disabled, confused children. it is understandable why they would be insecure, or confused, or why they would have social difficulty. i would help them or try to help, if they acted like they wanted to be honest, respectful and responsible. it is like trying to work with a wild, dangerous animal. they shouldn't want people to think of themselves this way. i don't care if they are confused about what people think about them. they should behave like humans ordinarily do. they should form an alliance with me and other people, because they are part human. humans can accomplish work in a unique way, more than animals can, because of their ability to communicate with words, constructing sentences, or conclusive, intelligent statements. it is the best thing for their long term health. and also for future incarnations. i feel like i am trying to tame a wild bear in woods right now, with a piece of medium rare filet mignon. i would love to go out to a bar with this mexican girl and buy her a margarita, and try to help her move along socially, supporting her in public, if she was really acting like she wanted to be honest and respectful. my girlfriend could come along. but then i don't want to interact with this mexican girl all day long, every day. i have my home. she has her home. if she wants to communicate with me, then she has to call me with a telephone, just like people ordinarily do. she has hurt herself by playing games. i was afraid of this at the end of 2012, and tried to force her to publicly commit to me and the community, but she chickened out. how do you say "chicken" in spanish? maybe she will be like marty mcfly, when you call him chicken... i hope so.

this black guy fakes thinking that i did something wrong with northern trust bank. so do black women. this mexican girl knows that i am innocent, but she is trying to cover for him and a few other evil people. they are all in trouble. black guy is faking thinking that i was a problem with bush and northern trust bank, because he is trying to cover up for the nasty evil black women who infected my blood in 2011, causing me to need 3 major surgeries. he is a wimpy chump black man, who doesn't want to have to stand up to nasty evil black women. he is a wimpy chump, who is afraid of, or who is intimidated by, dumb black bitch dominance. i don't care if someone is dominant, but it has to be something honest and smart. they aren't. he is the reason that i wrote about northern trust bank, thinking that it was important when it wasn't, for everyone, and i didn't do it in an unethical way. he tries to fool people into thinking that i was thinking of writing about northern trust bank before he acted aggressively toward me, playing dumb games. no. it was a dumb game, because he was the main reason that i was in bush's office to begin with, seeing the northern trust bank sign in the elevator, just wanting to drop off mail, because i was confused about what was going on. all of this is bullshit, because he won't admit to trying to help me, and also playing dumb, unnecessary games. i never lie. that is God's honest truth. this is what happened. he is lying, because he thinks that black women made the black community look so bad, so he is trying to cover for them. i think that part of the reason that he started to lie, is because good black women stated publicly that they didn't like him, so he wanted to try to humiliate them, or anyone who cared about me or defended me. he is a mean evil pig. he flaunts this, like he wants people to think of ugly attitude stereo typical black behavior, like he is trying to make it the norm. he didn't succeed. he won't succeed.

this black guy is an evil vicious pig, who is fake, who pretends as if he thinks that there is a reason to fight me every day. he is an ugly attitude racist. very childish weird insecure black man who tries to get low class hater black people to hate white people, and i am a sweet honest white person at that. i understand if it doesn't seem like it from this website crap, but you don't know me 24/7 personally. they blatantly irritate me every day, in order to try to make me seem less popular, because they made themselves unpopular. some black lazy black people try to create a double standard, implying that they can harm me, or a white person, for no good reason, but the white person is not allowed to act like they dislike the black person in public. i didn't do anything to them. they started it. like wild animals. they just didn't want me to seem more popular or more likeable than them because of their envy and social issues.

there wouldn't be this problem, if paris hilton hadn't turned the situation into a little childish girl thing, making it all about herself. she didn't act like a responsible adult. not caring for the community. wanting people to think something about her, and not giving a shit about the destruction which she creates every day. her family is stupid. she made them stupid, even if they fake being cool and having class. she doesn't care about fixing the problem. it seems like she and her sister want drama. stupid drama. stupid hilton sister drama. i have left voice messages, sent email, and sent text messages to paris hilton (she used to have a phone number on her website, supposedly for business / i deleted the number from my phone because i was sick of her), trying to fix the problem, asking her if she received an additional $150 from me, which was not required to be sent to her by me, in reference to a hand bag which i wanted to buy from her sister (it wasn't about the hiltons, but about the number 7 on the bag) from her, but she sent me something which i didn't ask for, so i thought that it was a gift, so i sent more money to try to get what i had asked for. bunch of stupid childish bullshit from a bimbo named paris. i have also asked her if she went on TMZ, in october of 2008, referring to me by name. she doesn't respond, because she is trying to cover it up, wanting people to think that maybe she didn't get the messages. her father, at hilton and hyland real estate, is also involved in the same cover up. they are very childish, weird, cruel, filthy rich people, who make america and the rest of the world literally sick. she stupidly wants people to think that i need to let it go. no. she needs to let it go, and send me my money back, and let me, and everyone else, know if she referred to me in public on TMZ. that would be common courtesy. it is a privacy law problem. it is a security problem. it would stop the spread of frivolous gossip, and she knows it, but she seems to want to create frivolous gossip, in order to try to use it for her "publicity". she knew that people didn't like her or made fun of her. it would be a problem, even if people didn't make fun of her. it seems like she wanted to amuse herself, seeing if she could create some type of problem, curious to see what would happen to me. she could fix the problem if she showed me a very basic amount of respect in public, by sending me $150 back, and letting me know if she went on TMZ, referring to me by name. she did go on TMZ, referring to me by name, but i want to be officially informed. it is about respect and security. wouldn't you want to know about it, if someone did that to you? wouldn't you want to see it? she wanted to make it about her, ond not me or anyone else. if she showed me some respect, other people would do the same thing. she knows this, so it seems like she wants to create childish unnecessary drama, or as if she wants to try to create unnecessary problems for black people and me.

i think that people are sick, or are going to get really sick of these lazy, evil, mean spirited, dishonest people who want to try to hold everyone hostage, because they think that they themselves have no future. they stupidly and blatantly lie about my past, because they think that they don't have a future unless they lie about me and my past. i think that black women are going to get sick of it. quit hurting yourselves. it is like these black women are telling other black women, "you ain't allowed to move on. you ain't allowed to be happy. you ain't allowed to respect this white boy, even though people defend him. you ain't allowed to act like you love white people." quit pretending as if you don't know that a few black women have done something terrible. girls can be very selfish, childish and mean. they can play nasty mind games with people, trying to get what they want, or trying to work it so that they don't have to do more work than they want to. that is what happened. they didn't want men to be stronger than women. they knew that black men would like me if they didn't sabotage. they thought that it would cause men to bond. they also wanted special treatment, sex, money, whatever, etc. they are insecure and trying to cover it up. they don't even care if people know that they are lying. they just don't want to look stupid in public. they wouldn't look stupid in public if they acted like they wanted to be truthful and responsible and friendly. i know that mexicans are already sick of it.

i had a problem when i lived in la grange, texas (2009 - 2011), with a few of the police, who tried to kill me, trying to make it look like i was involved in gang or drug activity. they thought that they would try to create a fake report. it didn't work. they were or are all white. so it is not that i just have something against a few blacks or one particular mexican. i don't care about the cops in la grange anymore, because they didn't continue to fuck with me. i wish them well. i was making them go and crazy and they wanted to be able to work and earn money. the mexican girl pretended or will still pretend as if she didn't know that i was innocent. she is evil. any time i write honestly about something, she thinks that she can fool people into thinking that i am dr. evil. nope. real honest. real simple. isn't it?

it really seems like a few people with dark skin, who think that they made themselves look dumb in public, are trying to imply that white people are not smooth, or not allowed to be thought of as more smooth that people with dark skin. lol. it seems like they want people to know that they are creating all of these unnecessary, stupid obstacles, in order to try and imply that white boys are not smooth, or not more smooth that people of color. like stupid stereo type shit. don't misinterpret this. they are the ones who are making a big deal of it for some reason. they are people of color who are insecure, who don't like the stigma of being a person with color. i am not implying that all people with color are less than people who are white. i don't like all people who are white. i like some people of color more than some white people. these particular people with color, who are causing unnecessary problems for the community, are not smooth, because they sit around playing stupid games all day long, not doing anything, or not caring about trying to do anything with their life. they are lame, but wanting people to think that they are cool, just because they are dark skinned. nope. doesn't work that way.

the black women who are evil and play dumb and lie and who put pressure on other black women to play dumb and lie are insecure. they know that they were or are the problem. they waste everyone's effort and time. this mexican girl is insecure. this black guy is insecure. the beauty of this situation is that everyone knows that i am honest, BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE A CHOICE. it is so innocent and simple, but a few evil people try to make people think that it means that it means that i am the most dishonest person in the world. i am the most honest person in the world. i know that i don't have privacy, so i always wanted to make myself feel better but always telling the truth. people know this. they got caught being nasty and mean, and they are pissed off about it. they didn't anticipate when they fucked me and other people over, that i would eventually get on facebook (not anymore) or have a website, so that i could defend myself in public.

this mexican girl who probably still lives in houston, texas, is trying to have me killed. i think that people know who she is. she is insane. very childish, like retarded, very selfish and sadistic. someone should kill her or the FBI should do something, at least making a public statement about this situation in order to try to deter people from being ugly aggressive, wanting to mock christianity or harm peaceful loving people. she is trying to fool people into thinking that she is an alien or something, when she isn't. or, she wants to taunt the authorities, implying that they don't have anything on her (proof), even if she wants them to know that she is responsible for creating this. it is like what nasty thugs do in an interrogation room, taunting the police. she wants to irritate people so much, that she thinks that someone will kill me. she is also trying to set a precedent for her future incarnations, so that people think that i should be murdered in future incarnations. i think that this black guy is trying to work it so that he can receive disability benefits from the social security, meaning, keep me alive so that he eye issue doesn't return to normal because i think that he is screened by the social security administration every few years, but also try to make it seem like dumb evil childish punk ass black creeps are more dominant that sweet honest white boys who do real work. he is a very insecure black man who is trying to humiliate someone who he thinks is more popular or likable than he is. he tries to get black women to lie for him. they are all cheesy and fake, because black women also got themselves into social trouble. what they have done is so childish and sadistic that it is weird. they are ruining america. low class black people are ruining america because of electronic communication. what are they going to do after the internet goes down eventually? i wouldn't be writing any of this if other people were not playing nasty nasty evil childish games with electronic communication. i am not in any social trouble, or trouble with the police, but they try to trick people into thinking that i am. i never wanted to harm anyone and i never lied or lie. that is the difference between me and them.

it is like this black guy and these few black women are telling black people that they are not allowed to act like they have class in public. it is sad and really weird. lazy people.

all these people who are stupidly acting up want to do is cause people to dwell on the past, instead of a happy, positive, productive future. they dwell on the past, because they fucked up, and because they can't forgive themselves, or because they think that they won't be forgiven. they keep referring to the past, trying to cover up the fact that they fucked up; meaning, they won't let it go and move on. they don't even try to create a good life for themselves or for the people around them. it is mostly girls, but also this black guy who is controlled by stupid lazy black women. i didn't fuck up, because i was always honest, because i had to be, and because i tried really hard, and also because i had a good intent, never wanting to harm anyone.

this black guy and mexican girl and a few black women want to stupidly, childishly imply that they are like thug gangsters who are taking over america or the world, like it is a stupid fantasy which a young punk adolescent has, meaning, wanting to be thought of as thug or ganster (when they are not) and not even gangsters or thugs or evil people who are locked up in jail would want to have anything to do with them because they are so stupid, selfish, childish and irritating. people usually don't want to harm people who don't harm them. people just leave people alone. usually that is how it works. people usually think, "i don't care, as long as he didn't mess with me." i didn't mess with anyone. i didn't start the mess, like they want ignorant people thinking that i did. they started it. gansters or thugs like me, because i have experience, and a sense of humor, and also because i am a loving guy who really isn't a gangster or thug.

these few people who are intentionally causing problems would rather make everyone's life, including their own, miserable or stupid, rather than to leave me alone in peace, because they think that i would look good and that they wouldn't. it is mostly girls who are doing this. it is very selfish and very childish of them to do this. very sad. they don't care about children or old people or themselves or anyone. it is like a bad dream. they want to hold everyone hostage. even if i don't communicate about how they are intentionally creating a problem all day long every day, other people will, so they are still succeeding at holding people hostage. they don't like happy people. happy people make them angry. i am a very cheerful person if you know me in person. sort of like a gay geek, but i am not a homosexual. they couldn''t keep up with me, so they drag me and other motivated people down to their level. it is like trying to work with people who wouldn't even fill out a job application or care about improving their life. very lazy and socially lame. it is horrible for america and also for the world. i wish that there was a way of fixing it, or this social problem, by deterring or knowingly trying to deter, unnecessary childish aggression from people who are blatantly stalking others. it is really sad. it is like they want to mock the feeling or peace which people typically think of when thinking of peaceful sundays and peaceful loving people who typically are at church. i am not stating that people should go to church, but it is like they want to mock peaceful civil loving people who are typically at church. they want to mock or try to wrongfully defame christ, because they couldn't keep up with him. dirty politics. i don't think that i could ever be involved in politics. people attack you because they think that you are doing something good or that you look good. it is horrible and very painful to have to go through this while i lack privacy. they do this for this reason. it is sadistic. very ugly behavior in america, which is affecting america and also the world. i am in activity with people all over the world. internet, etc. they know that i am good and that these other people are evil. they know that these other people want to harm them, just because they like me more than them. very childish and sadistic behavior. like people who want to walk over to a group of people who are having a nice dinner together, and take each one of their plates of food, and dump it in their lap, and then say something mean, childish and obnoxious.

a few, evil, lazy, ugly attitude, FAKE black women try to trick ignorant people into thinking that i am a angry, mean person when i am actually a very sweet, loving, honest white boy. they try to fool people who don't know me personally. i showed black people more love than a person would ordinary do back in 2010, and this was after they stupidly attacked me. they mock sweet, loving people, because they are not sweet. they are angry for some reason, and it is not because i did anything to them or because i did something wrong. they try to fool ignorant people who don't know me personally about my character. they are trying to make people think that something about the hebrew letter 'ayin' means that i am angry. i am not an angry person by nature, but i do care about stopping people who are evil and mean spirited. i don't understand what the sense of 'anger' is, as it relates to the hebrew letter 'ayin'. a rabbi's assistant told me that it doesn't mean 'anger'. it means 'a wellspring, color, an eye, sheep (in aramaic). they try to fool people who don't know how sweet i am. they stupidly harass and stalk me, and other loving people, which is very very irritating.

a few evil, lazy, ugly attitude, FAKE black women are are trying to use this black guy, who black people don't like, as a weapon to try and get something for them or for black people. they imply that they don't have to communicate anything intelligent in order to get what they want, because he has the ability to act aggressively in the way which he can. the mexican girl is also using her ability to act aggressively as a type of weapon, implying that they will get what they want, but without having to do any type of smart or normal social work, in order to get it. they won't get a damn thing. no one believes their lies or the people who are lying. the black guy is also trying to use black women as a weapon, in order to try to get something for him or for black people. everything would be fine if these childish, evil lame, dishonest, boring people would stop gossiping about me on the internet. the reason that i communicate on the internet is because it is obvious that they are, because of the way which they are acting aggressively toward me and other innocent people.

this vicious evil negro pig has attacked me like a vicious evil negro pig, in order to try to try to hold black women hostage, in order to make them have a ghetto attitude like "shit, i don't care if he be stupid and evil... as long as black men got a big dick." they are trying to make black people think that they should behave more like animals, because these specific people themselves lack intelligence, so they they think they can't keep up with people who are more intelligent. he is trying to force black women to have this attitude, even when he knows that they don't want to, or when he knows that they really don't like him. he has ruined their life. they have ruined his life. they fake liking each other. i really don't want to confuse women in public with this statement, but i am just getting to the point. these black women and black guy are really the ones who don't care about confusing people's feelings in public. mine included.

i recently deleted something about plessy vs. feguson, because i didn't want to hurt or confuse black people's feelings. it is all confusion, which incredibly mean, weird, childish, dishonest black people are unnecessarily creating. it is ridiculous. in other words, if you are not going to be a nice black person, get the fuck away from me. i had written that i wasn't actually suggesting that blacks be separated from whites.

actually, i really do want to get into politics. first city council in houston, texas. then the u.s. house of representatives. my first official political campaign slogan will be 'eat shit'.

this black guy is a stupid cheesy childish weird negro, who gets angry because he thinks that people think that a white boy is cooler and more confident than he is.

i stated that i wouldn't call this black guy a bitch, but i will refer to him as a weird, vicious, evil pig. i know that black guys got my back on this. i'm not worried about it. he is. he is weird, childish and angry, and he wants people to know that he is weird, childish and angry, just like some of those black women are, and do. mexican girl too. they have an inferiority complex, which means that they think that they are inferior, and it makes them very angry and mean. they would have been fine if they wouldn't have kept unnecessarily involving me in their lives. people should get the government or FBI and media involved. these people who are intentionally causing horrible unnecessary problems for the community, like they think of it as a game, or like they are problem punk obnoxious unruly adolescents who want to talk back to adults, intentionally act stupid, just so that they can fake thinking that they are cool. it is ridiculous. please help. it is only going to get worse. this is not a fairy tale about good triumphing over evil. these people are going to do serious serious irreversable damage to the community. they want to be destructive. it is dangerous for america and for the world. please try to do something AND LET ME KNOW WHAT YOU HAVE DONE. people keep trying to politicize me, or actually they keep trying to politicize themselves, when they are nobody. i am not trying to politicize myself. i am not in a political office, and i am not running for a political office. leave me the fuck alone! people are lying about my past, and my intent, because they want people to think that something is more important than it is, because they want to be thought of as special, because they are wanting special treatment. eat shit. don't try to use me as a way of making yourself special when you are not. do your own work.

these girls who are intentionally causing problems are so unloving. not ladies. they don't want to be loving or they don't want to have to be loving, because they think that if i feel loved, that i will gain strength, and popularity, and then there will be more momentum, and then they will have to do more work. they don't want to have to do work. they are just lazy, scared, stupid and lame. they are afraid of work. they don't have honest ambition. too bad for them. they lie, and pretend as if they think that they have a reason to not be loving. they are intentionally, stupidly provoking me, in order to try and make is seem as if i shouldn't have been loved. they just didn't like to think of people liking me more than them. i will fight, and too bad if it seems like i am an uptight jerk, because people who really know me, know that i am a sweet, loving, cheerful person who got fucked over in america. i am trying to protect the community. i have protected the community. go figure.

why don't people who i am in activity with coordinate something with the police or FBI or president of the united states, so that they make an official public statement about this situation, so that everyone, including me, is protected. they need to create a deterrent from creepy mean childish weirdos who obviously want to stalk and harm people. this is not about religion, or Christianity or judaism or islam. this is about protecting a u.s. citizen, or u.s. citizens, or citizens of the world. get off your ass and do something, please.

black women pretend as if there was something important about my feelings or thoughts or actions at the grocery store in 2008. paris hilton incident. there wasn't. it was normal social awkwardness. they knew that it wasn't important, but because they are insecure, or not truthful about people's feelings, or things in general, OR THEIR OWN FEELINGS, they made a big deal of it, trying to fool people into thinking that they have honor when they don't, and when they have a hidden agenda about wealth. the mexican girl does the same thing in reference to northern trust bank. she knew that i was innocent back in 2011. i explained to her, and she knew that it was ok, because it is always obvious that i am telling the truth, and also because she was willing to meet me in public, wanting people to know about it. she stabbed me and everyone else in the back, later, when she thought that i wouldn't provide her with comfort or some type of social status which she wanted to have. she wanted to have sex, or was worried that she wouldn't be able to have sex, so she decided to try to make it look like i was evil, trying to trick ignorant mexican guys into giving her something. weird issue with her left eye which she developed the last week of may in 2011. that is when the activity with her started. i know what i am communicating about. she is trying to make me look like i am crazy, by basically torturing me every day. i am not crazy. you don't understand how evil and cruel this girl is. black guy who has my vision in his left eye also. activity with him started in february of 1998. they are weird and childish and cruel. weird envy. personality disorders. this doesn't mean that i think that white people are better than all blacks and mexicans. i wish that people would get to know me in person. these people who got themselves into trouble are trying to fool you, because they think that they have a social problem IN PUBLIC. they are really really fuckin' mean, weird, childish, who are really mean to me in public, to get me to react, or try to stop it with the use of the internet, in order to try to make you think that i was or am the problem.


paris hilton probably goes "why don't you quit stating bad things about me, josh?" to which i would respond, "why didn't you give me a reason to quit stating bad things about you? just because you are paris hilton, doesn't mean that something is interesting or good." i hope that she shares this with her husband, carter reum, who she obviously, wrongfully manipulated. she wrongfully manipulated me too.


that's right, that's right. and these ugly attitude, stupid, mean spirited, childish negros want to hurt the innocent sweet white boy's spirit, along with the innocent sweet white boy's girlfriend's innocent sweet white girl spirit. they try so hard to make us look so bad in public, because they think that we look so much better than they could. what is wrong with these weird, angry black people??? i didn't do anything to them and i tried to help them. and i didn't do anything wrong with paris hilton back in 2008. these black women think that they have made black women look dumb. that is the truth.

it is really bizarre, how these black people and mexican girl wanted to viciously, viciously publicly confuse and destroy a GOOD white person's spirit. a white person who THEY KNEW was good. they tried to make it look like all white people are bad, or that blacks and mexicans are better than whites. i am not stating that whites are better than blacks or mexicans.

why do people imply that people should be afraid of me? i mean, why don't you want people to think that it is ok to speak to me in person? why are you acting as if you are afraid of other people? i think that jesus stated this to people who were around him. people are acting up, attacking innocent people, because they think that you are afraid of them, or that you won't lead the community with acts of love and kindness and respect.

i wanted black people and this mexican to succeed. why didn't or don't they want me to succeed? right, now they are going to try to trick ignorant people, who are not sensing me, into thinking that i am evil, when i am not evil. it is their envy. they think that, because they understand what i am, that i have more potential for happiness an success than they do, and they don't like it. don't get the wrong idea. i am not stuck up. i am not wanting to make a big deal of myself. they are the ones who want to make a big deal of themselves, when they are not a big deal. all of this crap in this section of this website is because of other people lying about me, implying that they have a reason to obstruct. not only me, but everyone. they can't keep up, so they force people back to their lazy level. they are afraid of work. they are afraid of life. they are afraid of people (but they pretend as if they are not).

what these girls, meaning a few black women and this mexican girl are doing, can be typical immature girl behavior. they get angry or bitter when someone is having more fun that they are. especially in public. so they pretend as if they have a reason to obstruct my life. they don't have a reason to obstruct my life. they want people to think of this as some of sick show on tv or some kind of sick fascinating entertainment for america or for the world. they will regret it later. ya snooze, ya looze...

these very very few crazy, mean spirited black women, who are intentionally acting stupid, want to compete in a very ugly way with people who are more attractive, who they envy. when i state "attractive", i mean physically, mentally, spiritually, etc. or people who are happier and more peaceful than they are or than they can be. this is the truth. they are not friendly like christ. they want to mock and corrupt christ's good spirit, like they get a weird thrill from it, because they don't like to think of christ's good spirit, because it makes them angry. this is the truth. they are bitter, envious creatures. work on yourself, and make yourself happy, rather than tear down people who are happy or who you know would be happy, if you would quit being blatantly mean and stupid. they don't want to make it about an interesting, peaceful, happy, spiritual white boy, who is peaceful and busy doing work. they assault me and the community every day, like mean wild animals. they are trying to fool people into thinking that it is the russians who are harassing me on my computer, while at the same time, wanting me and people to know that it is childish, really fuckin' ugly attitude, evil black women. they are trying to associate me, or a white person, with the russians and republicans. these black women are so stupid. i have shown them love, but their problem is that they don't love themselves, and as a result, they are angry and very very very mean. they don't want people to think of a peaceful, smooth white boy, because they are not peaceful and smooth. that is their problem. they shouldn't make it everyone else's problem. i am communicating about the entire world, and how i am in constant 24/7 activity with people all over the world. these black people don't like to think about how people love me in a special way. that is the truth. so they like to try blatantly irritate me in public, in this really weird creepy childish way, like they are implying that it is what black people do. that they irritate people, or make people uncomfortable. i don't think that all black people would agree.

i really don't want to call this weird creepy lame evil black guy a bitch anymore. lol. don't want to hurt or confuse cool black dude's feelings when they are out in public. many of them are very strong and very cool spiritual. he is not. i know that you know about it, so i will try to relax. if someone talked to me, and explained what was happening on the internet, or reassured me that everything was already ok, then i could really relax.

i wouldn't care that much if it were just other people stupidly gossiping about me, but when they blatantly obstruct my life, my girlfriend's life, my parent's life, my dog's life, the community's life, then i have a problem with that. it is more than just obstruction. it is blatant weird cruelty. they are taunting the police, thinking that the police and government know about it. these people are weird, trying to trick you into thinking that i am the one who is weird. it is like people hacking into a person's computer, messing it up, so that it can't process work or thoughts. evil. like the colombians in the beginning of the movie scarface, who try to fuck him over. they are shit. they betray people like it is a game to them. like shady people in the dope scene, who fuck people over, like they think that it is fun, or like they get a weird thrill from it. they thought that, because of their stupid childish unnecessary gossip about me on the internet, that the more they made it about me in public, the less they made it about them in public. they want to idolize me, with this weird creepy childish fascination, but then tear me down, lying about me, implying that they are more than i am. they seem to have narcisstic personality disorders, but they are trying to make it seem like i do. i don't. i am humble, but they are intentionally provoking me in order to try to trick people into liking them more than me. i am more humble than most ignorant people would imagine.

this seems right for them. they will make a sick joke, and say that the "he" is me. no. i am a actually a humble person who is being stalked. they don't want to be humble like me, so they try to trick people into thinking that i am not humble. the reason that i write so much is because i am trying to protect people from evil creeps, and i am also trying to cope with real horror. i wish that that people would try to protect me with the media. try to create a psychological deterrent. even if it didn't stop people from bullying me, it would make me and my loved ones feel better.
this is what the mean people in this activity group (24/7 constant activity/144,000) seem to be. not all of them are mean. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KUb4WncQgls

it is amazing how childish, mean spirited, vindictive and spiteful some girls can be. that is what most of this shit in this section of this website is about. they want to hurt me because i don't like them, or actually because they think that other people think that they are not likeable. this mexican girl is an insane, ugly (attitude) bitch. it has been almost 10 years of her weird spite and vindictive, mean spirited shit, just because i wouldn't provide her with comfort or some social status fantasy (hollywood) of hers. i didn't like her because she was childish and greedy (needy) and disrespectful, and then she freaked out or gave up really easily, instead of being respectul, patient, and caring, thinking that she couldn't use me in some other imaginary relationship of hers, in a positive way. she didn't want to love 2 men at once, because she isn't any fun (i don't mean that i wanted to have sex with her), or which means that she just didn't want to submit to men. she is always like, "me, me, me, me, me, me....", not giving a shit about other people's lives, or their peace and independance. like a child who constantly indicates that she needs to be taken care of, but she is about 30 years old. she does the same thing every day. one way which you could think of this is that she is saying to mexican guys "i'll fuck you if you have money, and also if you act like you hate white people." she is such an unfriendly, low class, obnoxious bitch. she wants mexican guys to think that she is cool because she is trying to kill me. really. which means that she is lying about george h. w. bush and northern trust bank. she implies that i have no rights. people imply that i have no rights, which is a problem for the law, or for the united states of america, or for the world.

something else is that these things which are attacking us are more like animals than humans. alien. they are more about stupid ugly dominance, like animals can be. so the way which humans, with intelligence, control wild, dangerous animals, is to have the have the ability to use our brains, but more specifically the unique ability of human beings to be able to communicate and do intelligent work. like designing and creating weapons. or just communication and problem defense. or traps. or ways of getting away from wild dangerous animals (cars/boats/helicopter/flying saucers). the universe is apparently full of different types of species. like the many species of animals on earth. humans are a type of animal. animals will eat other animals. they don't care. i don't want to be "eaten" be another animal; suffering for a long time. i don't think that other people do either.

these very few black women and this black guy who i am in activity with, who are actually weird disabled anti social lazy bums with mental problems, have polluted or corrupted black culture in america. it is sad. just a few people who could do so much damage, because of of childish, unnecessary black gossip on the internet. they wanted people to think that they were God, or God like, or that black people were God, and that i wasn't, when they knew that it was me, and not them. greed. disrespect. or like animals, saying "no! it don't be yours! it be mine!" when they knew that it wasn't. you shouldn't play around with computers so much. look what you are causing. obviously YOU are playing around with computers or electronic communication devices. they wanted, or still want, people to think that they were, or are, God, while being blatantly ugly and disrespectful, which means that they have some confused concept about their own acceptance and self worth. it is because they think that i am accepted, or that i have self worth.

the very few people who created, or who are still creating problems, didn't want to allow a movement of work and respect to generate, because they are childish, lazy and greedy. it is really sad for me and for other people. you wouldn't want to allow these people to get away with it either. they didn't get away with it. i don't understand, but i have thought that maybe things will be worse after i die. why don't you get control of it while i am alive? you have to act like cops, who stop thugs. it will spread. more people are lower class than higher class. i was a little wild, but not an evil person. i am still a little wild, but not an evil person. my bible study teacher taught me that there were a few instances where jesus was telling his disciples to "go!", but they didn't. i know that jesus was frustrated in the same way. i didn't go "perfectly". i can't make you healthy, when people are intentionally making me sick. sorry. they are taunting people, implying that evil creepy thugs are in control, or that they are going to be in control. it is criminal mentality. it is scary, but i know that i tried. i think that maybe there is like a police force in space, when considering technology and greed. think psychological warfare. use the free media in america to protect the world, and perhaps this sector of the galaxy.

these people who are acting aggressively ALL OF THE TIME are so socially lame that it is weird. ordinarily people choose who they want to be around. i didn't have a choice, and it is absolutely horrible to have to be stuck with these childish, evil, mean spirited, weird, SOCIALLY LAME people. they have anti social personality disorders. they don't care about how the violate people. they don't even care about their own happiness or the happiness of their own families.

this mexican girl wants to make it about childish obnoxious girls who play games instead of men who do work. she feels overshowed by a man (chirst), and has a massive inferiority complex. every day she has an attitude like "don't think about humble men who do work. think about childish obnoxious girls." she couldn't handle the responsibility, just like black women and paris hilton couldn't. girls will often make a stupid joke about how they think that they are weak. these girls don't build, and also indicate that they don't care about building. not only did they not build, they destroyed, like they get some weird sick thrill from it. inferiority complex, anger, etc.

people really don't understand who i am or what i am like by reading this stuff. i am not the one who is whining and complaining. it means that other people are unnecessarily whining and complaining. i am a humble worker, who just wants to be left alone these people are weird and childish, wanting to create stupid drama, because they are lame and boring. they want to talk about george h. w. bush and northern trust bank and johnny depp and paris hilton when it isn't important. i didn't do anything wrong and they know it, but since these people who are acting up got themselves into trouble, they try to use that stuff against me. like little children who want to play make believe, and who try to get others to play make believe with them. like the national enquirer absolutely ridiculous tabloid crap.

why do people want the community to think about the same miserable thing which they have been thinking about for years? i can't do anything about the situation. you can. you can communicate to me, my girlfriend, my family, with the public knowing about it, so that this seems more friendly. or, why not drop off some fenanyl or opiods or xanax at my front door so that i can try to overdose? this is what i stated before i discovered that i could order xanax from candadian pharmacies. that is why i got a job at pappasitos restaurant in 2018. so that i could work for 6 months or 1 year, and take a vacation, and then attempt to overdose by mixing hard liquor with xanax. i think that i would have fallen asleep and then stopped breathing. actually, i don't want you to drop off fentanyl or opiods or xanax at my front door, but i am very confused and in great pain, just as i have been for years. evil people want you to think that this is fake, and that i am faking being sick. you wouldn't want to live either, because you wouldn't want to think of weird creepy people getting some sick satisfaction of playing with you and intentionally making you uncomfortable in public. i am not going to try to commit suicide on my own. these people lie about the fact that i wanted to commit suicide or the fact that i didn't want to make it all about me, and they also lie about me not wanting to work. i have a job. i work when most people wouldn't. the mexican girl made it impossible for me to work at pappasitos because she was trying to create ways for her to lie her way out of social trouble. one lie is that i didn't have honor. another lie is that i am lazy and didn't want to work. another lie is that i was just thinking of taking xanax and not committing attempting to commit sucide. another lie is that she didn't want me to commit suicide so that i could try to work in hollywood. she constantly tries to give herself multiple ways of lying, depending on what happens. she wanted to keep me here, but then also not allow me to be happy or work. doesn't make any sense. she thought that she would keep me here, in order to try to use me. it can be typical bimbo behavior. try to use one guy so that you can use another guy. i am not going to try to take my own life before my mother or step father dies. i really don't want to die before i am supposed to from of natural personal health causes. i would like to live out a healthy happy life, but it really seems hopeless because of these ugly freaks who are blatantly stalking the community. i am being tortured and abused publicly by childish perverts who have a weird creepy fascination with me. why? because you think that i am special? because you think that i am more special than you? not much of a reason, is it? they make me think of the crazies in the movie "escape from new york". why doesn't someone make this more social and friendly by communicating to me and my girlfriend? or my family too? could you please inform me about what is going on around the internet? a website, so that my family can understand what i have been trying to explain to them for 25 years? why don't you embrace this, instead of trying to run away from it or sweep it under the rug? it should be celebrated. not a big deal. every few days or few thousand years. 1 day = 1000 years. what is the government doing? i am a u.s. citizen who is being blatantly and knowingly disrespected, stalked, abused, etc. publicly. why? so that blacks and a mexican or stupid rich people like paris hilton can feel powerful? is this what america is about?

this mexican girl is so stupid for flaunting that she is trying to have me killed. she fakes thinking that she is smart. she thinks that she can create an alibi for herself if no one kills me, or make some mexican guy and her parents think that she is "cool" if someone does kill me. she is an disgusting evil bitch who you would never want in your life.

having to try to work with some of these black people, is like trying to work with black natives on an island somewhere, where they are barefoot and naked and will kill you and eat you and then laugh. or like criminals in africa. they are trying to intimidate people with this dumb computer shit which they do, but they are really not connected. fake. like stupid fat fake gold chains.

this childish weird creepy mexican girl wants to try to make people play make believe with her, trying to imply that my sweet beautiful smart loving girlfriend shelly and i have bad intents (feng shui info which i gave you in this website) because this mexican girl is trying to make it seem like my home is not good for us (something about feng shui) when the truth is that this mexican girl is jealous or envious because she actually thinks that shelly and i are so right in my home. this mexican girl has never respected my home or my independance from her. she comes into my home, like some dumb loser lame junkie, wanting to use my phone, run up the phone bill, eat all of my food, take up my time, not get out of my house when i tell her to, piss off the neighbors, try to get money from me, try to use me as a way of getting some other guy, etc, etc, etc. my home is perfect for me, and a feng shui master told me that it is orientated fundamentally correct. it has a very good feel to it, except for this dumb blatantly obnoxious mexican bitch, who won't get out of it. i meen the mexican girl and not shelly. don't think that i am a racist or unfriendly. she is the racist and she is unfriendly. i am a sweet geek, and this mexican couldn't handle it. she couldn't keep up, because she wants to be thought of as an abrasive obnoxious bitch. i am not interested in that, or the games which many many many mexican girls with decent looks play. your looks don't mean shit to me, or other smart guys. many girls are evil. like dope scene girls. this mexican envies my home and my family life. she actually thinks that shelly and i would be very happy together in this house if she would get out of it, and so because she acts like childish girls often do, she doesn't want some mexican guy to know that my girlfriend and i are happy in my home, because she thinks that he will be envious or jealous, of my home and my rubia, and she doesn't want that for her or for some mexican guy who she imagines being a wimp. no offense to mexican dudes. i have a wonderful home. i was told by the feng shui master that i would reap the benefit because i am situated on the west side of the city. metal creates water.

i think that this black guy and mexican girl have been confined, or isolated in their higher form. we can also sense their higher form, just as people can also sense my higher form when he chooses to communicate. you really have to be a part of the 144,000 to know what i am communicating about. this black guy and mexican girl desperately and stupidly try to fool people into thinking that they are the authority or like the parents. they are not. they are like weird children with a mental problem and obnoxious attitude. they are trying to fool ignorant people, because they are panicking about this life, but really about their future incarnations. they think that maybe they will be killed when identified because of the issue with their LEFT eye. they are not the eye above the pyramid on the dollar bill, although it is related. that is me. i have been watching out for everyone for 25 years. that means that, in a way, i am only 25 years old. i am watching out for everyone, but people are making me sick, like poisoning me, so it is difficult.

the people who defend me don't act like they believe in me, even when they communicate that they do. you would be surprised at what you would get out of not only me, but other honest people in the community. you could act like a parent who wants to inspire their child. you have to act like you believe in them first, don't you? you people don't act like you care about giving me a job, or anyone else for that matter. you are allowing sleaze to rule.

6/28/22 - i quit drinking for one week, and thought "ok, just not every day" and then i got carried away drinking orange liquear infused whiskey because i already had the bottle. i highly recommend taking 6 or 7 shots of that stuff in about 1 and 1/2 hours and vomiting for a few hours if you really want to consider abstinence from alcohol. but seriously, this is not a joke. the doctor told me that i will need a liver transplant eventually if i don't get my drinking under control. i may have to completely abstain because i don't know if i can only do it everyone once in a while. truthfully, i enjoy drinking, and sharing alcohol with people, so i would like to be able to do it only every once in a while. july 4th? halloween? thanksgiving? but not too much? every few weeks i think would be ok. and only 2 or 3 drinks. it could be the disease working. i have a disease and it's name is alcoholism. this is not the reason that i didn't work in houston, like the mexican girl and black guy and a few black women lie about. i know that they lie about me on the internet. the reason that i didn't work in houston is because this mexican girl and black guy and black women didn't establish trust, so that i knew that i could work IN A PUBLIC PLACE without being interfered with. they tried to make it so that a potential manger wouldn't hire me. that is discrimination. i like to work. i like to get out of my house and go somewhere. it is fun and therapeutic. like this morning in la grange at 7 am on a ranch with a cool breeze. it is good for the entire group, but lazy evil losers say that it isn't. just like bible study was good for this entire group. not that the bible was the important thing. healthy consistent activity was the important thing. it is therapeutic. these people are blatantly dishonest, stating that i don't like to work. the truth is that i have more initiative than they do, so they lie about it, because it is dirty politics to them. new sobriety date is 6/24/22. last one was 6/17/22. i quit for 7 and 1/2 years before, but you clean time doesn't mean anything. it is about character defects. or what causes someone to drink. also, i wanted to wait a little time before i told anyone, even though i know that other people told the public, i relapsed with methamphetamine after about 12 and 1/2 years of abstinence. i used once in november of 2020, and then cried, thinking that i wouldn't do it again. then i used it again in february or march of 2021, and then cried again. i think that i scared the middle man who i got the dope through away. i don't think that he wants anything to do with me anymore. i told my sister and brother in law and it has helped. my girlfriend knows everything and is supportive. i wouldn't have used if my life was happier. methamphetamine can used to treat depression. huge initial surge of dopamine, but i definitely don't want it. it would just make me nervous after a few hours. committed to my girlfriend and family. i thought about telling my mom, but i thought that she would worry too much, thinking that it was more of a problem than it was or is.


the very few people who are intentionally causing problems are lame losers who don't care about their own happiness. they stupidly imply that good people don't exist, because they are lazy evil losers who don't try to be anything good in life. don't make your problem my problem or anyone else's problem. weak people don't want to have to compare themselves to happy confident people in public, so they they obstruct. it goes beyond obstruction. it is weird cruelty or sadism. they want to think about getting away with it. don't allow them to get away with it. do something new. do something which you haven't done already. these few people who are intentionally causing problems have created a social problem for themselves and they have gone insane. they are a danger to the community. these black people who are causing are racists. they are trying to make people think that i am a racist when i wasn't. it seems like they are trying to turn me into a racist so that they think that people will feel sorry for them or so that they can swing all black people to their lazy, unfriendly agenda.

the very few people who are using this situation as a way of blatantly stalking the community are perverted. they are perverts. they want people to know that they are perverts. they are perverts who want attention. like people who would kidnap someone and then call the family or the police, taunting them. they have a creepy childish fascination with me. it is disgusting and i wish that the government, and media and police would do something about it. i think that communicating to me in person is a good idea. try something different. what you are doing is obviously making it worse. i can't do anything because i don't know who you are or where you are or how to contact you.

another way to think of this is that i am an airline pilot who is trying to do what the people expect me to do or want me to do and there are crazy people onboard the aircraft making it impossible or very difficult to do the work. get some security personnel. or you could think that there is a type of mechanical failure with the aircraft. or you could think that creepy punk adolescents are shining a laser pointer into the cockpit as i am trying to make a landing. don't expect for me to be able to do much for the public, unless you protect me like a public person would be protected. it is very simple. i know that people are communicating about the problems which a few people are unnecessarily creating. why don't you try something new, instead of using the internet? the reason that i keep communicating online like this, is that i am telling you that there is a problem, because i care. i am actually not the one who is complaining. it is other people who are lazy and dishonest who are complaining. they are fake. they embarrassed themselves and are now trying to make me look bad, or wanting to try to humilate honest people who try.

one way to describe this situation, is that a few nasty childish mean people want to prove that i am good, and hard working, but also imply that people who are good and hard working should be ignored or mocked. creepy, ugly attitude, lazy, mean spirited, childish, unfriendly people are doing this. they keep creating unnecessary cruel obstacles in my life, like they think of it as a game, or like they want me to act like a dog who does a trick for them, because they are childishly fascinated or amused by it. they know that i will fight, and try very hard, because it is my personality, plus the fact that i don't have privacy, so they know that i would become more confused if i thought that people were thinking something bad about me, because i didn't care or didn't try. they understand this, and are amused by it. it is sick, and they will regret it. oh, so you know so much about me because i lack privacy? what will i being doing in my next incarnation? or the incarnation after that? or the incarnation after that? what did i do 10 incarnations ago, in the past?

a few black women who have really ugly mean childish attitudes (not all black women are the same) blatantly obstruct my life, because they don't want people to think of me as a type of star. it is their envy. they are sending a signal to other black women to act ghetto and animal, and to not try to make it with civil people from other races. i am not stuck up. if you knew me in person, you would understand. i don't have to have a bunch of money and be on tv to be a star. this black guy is obstructing for the same reason. this mexican girl is obstructing for the same reason. paris hilton obstructs, in her creepy cheesy fake evil "oh, hehe, i don't know what the problem is" mind games way.

why don't these people want to make it about peace, and a sense of love, and respect? it is weird and confusing and very sad. i am not the problem. don't try to blame me for all of the problems in the world. it is easier for you to want to focus on me, than the community as a whole. i am a loving person, and i get really pissed off when other people are not.

this black woman, or these black women, who keep harassing me when i am online (they change they change the mouse pointer to the little blue circle intermittently, like when the computer is thinking, but they are controlling it by pressing a button on their computer, and it is definitely not my computer thinking, it is a type of remote access, and they do it when i say something or read something, and they do a lot of it, bullying me and everyone else, it is not the computer thinking, and they are really obnoxious, like they definitely want me to know that it is ugly attitude, incredibly mean, incredibly stupid, childish black woman who are doing it, it started when i send mail to TMZ with fed ex after my regular mail had been stolen or tampered with twice by black women in the mail service, i don't think that the fed ex mail worked either, black women are conspiring, they play childish games with electronic devices and are a threat to national/global security) are constantly panicking because of an image problem which they think that they created for themselves in public, so they become really angry, mean, confused and stupid, wanting to try to create a image problem for me in public. that is what these black people do. they try to create an image problem for me in public, because are pissed off that they created an image problem for themselves. they messed with me about paris hilton because they thought that they had created an image problem for themselves, because of all of the trash which they talked about me for years in the past, not anticipating that i would move on, or that my spirit would develop in the way that it began to develop. they don't like to think about the development of my spirit in public, because they don't have the same type of spirit. it is their envy. i know what i am communicating about. paris hilton stupidly involved me with her. it wasn't just about paris hilton. they were, and still are, trying to prevent me from earning money and being happy in public. why? because they don't like to think about how i am happier or more spiritual than they are in public. because of their envy. it is obvious that they just don't want me to be happy in public. so why do they do it? it is like these black women want people to know that they hate people who have more than they have or that they hate people who can feel better than they can feel. they shouldn't make their problem everyone else's problem. not all black women are the same. if these angry stupid mean, really ugly attitude, childish black women want to be dumb, then fine, i think that they will go extinct. get away from us. get away from everyone, including innocent black children who you are hurting. these black women want black men to think that they are in a relationship with me, because they think that i makes them seem more powerful. you are not powerful. you are weak, weird, lame, unpopular, and you have a ugly, unattractive attitude. get out of my life. you are trying to use me. i am in a relationship with a beautiful, very sweet, very smart, very caring, white girl, who i could never replace, and i don't want to think about nasty mean childish ugly black women. get the fuck away from me and everyone else.

like i already stated, this black guy acts like a little weird bitch. he wants to be thought of as a weird little bitch. he spends all of his time doing nothing, moping and whining about how he created a huge problem in the past BECAUSE HE WAS PLAYING UNNECESSARY CHILDISH GAMES. he made himself look dumb, and not like the big bad cool negro image that he wants in order to get girls, and he is going crazy because of it. i am communicating about the george h. w. bush and northern trust bank and johnny depp situation. this black guy is making a sick joke about how he is, or always has been, stupid and irritating, but also wanting to play it off like he has an excuse to ruin my life, because he doesn't like the thought of black women, or the community as a whole, thinking that a white boy is more confident than a black man. the george h. w. bush and northern trust bank and johnny depp issue was this black guy's fault and he knows it, and i always just wanted to help people, innocent, thinking that i was being told that the meaning of the bank was that it was something good for everyone, and i didn't do anything unethical, and i was wanting to help everyone, or thought that i was supposed to help everyone, regardless of race, and they know that. they are the racists. leave me alone. it is very simple. i have always just wanted to help people, and i wasn't making it about people with money. i am in activity with everyone, so why would i make it just about people with money? i didn't have much money when i was young, and neither did my parents, and it caused us to develop in a way which makes us more social. i really want to let people know how ugly and mean this black guy is, and i know that people already know. it should be documented for the future. i wish that people would get scientists and biologists to work on this, because he and the mexican girl are some type of species (doesn't mean that all blacks and mexicans are bad) which is more like a mean animal, rather than being human. i think that it has to do with the 7 lower sephirot in the tree of life (kabbalah). emotion or animalistic. there are 3 higher sephirot, which relate to the intellect. i wish that you would document this situation, like how biologists classify different biological species. like a dolphin. or like a piranha. i also think that it relates to the properties of light. spectrum. maybe like a beautiful, vibrant flower, or slimy mold underneath a rock or piece of wood. they have a weird mental problem, and are a danger to the community.

these people who keep wanting to gossip about this are so fucking dumb and childish. just because it was something unusual, doesn't mean that they can make up any story they want to about it.

the people who are playing games, messing around with this nation and the world, are like little children in 2nd or 3rd grade, who can't take care of themselves. we need leadership.

hilton and this mexican and a few black women want people to think that the heart at the top of this section of the website is fake. no. i have a big heart, and i am going to protect people from this mexican and hilton and these few black women and people like them. i already have.

this mexican is a weird, scary, creepy, violent mexican, and there are many of them like that. in a way it is not important.

paris hilton is not a lady. she is an ugly bully who ruined people's lives. like a weird vicious rich person like donald trump. or a sheisty shady childish dope scene sleaze, who plays evil games with the media. she thinks that people don't understand what she actually is, because she thinks that her family's wealth means that she can fake having class. she diverts attention away from doing something intelligent with her family's wealth. meaning, the more stupid she acts, the more that she thinks that she can intimidate people with her cheesy wealth. she probably smirks with an an ugly childish look about her when she reads this, thinking that it doesn't matter or that she can use it for publicity, because of how she markets herself as rich and dumb.

hilton's husband (carter reum) is suppose to be some media whatever, which means that he is a phony dork who is into cheesy superficial yuck, like his wife.

some people are trying to make me look like a hypocrite. i am humble, but they are trying to mock a humble person, and intentionally irritate him so that he gets confused and angry in public. they don't want to be humble, so they mess with me in public in order to try to make it seem as if i am not humble. they are trying to fool you about my character. they try to confuse me in public, in order to try to make me look ugly. they do it because they got caught being ugly.

his ugly attitude, angry black woman or women, who keep stalking me and harassing me when i am online (they want people to think that maybe it is someone else, but flaunting the fact that it is them) keep trying to make the innocent sweet honest white boy look stupid, but instead they are going to make it look like the white boy was a cool warrior, who had lame black people, who had a massive inferiority complex, hating on him. bye bye.

it is like this black guy, a few black women, paris hilton, and this mexican girl all want to be thought of as weird childish perverts who want to play with me, wanting the public thinks about it. it is creepy and disgusting. they want the public to know that they are doing this, like they want the public to know that they get a weird excitement from playing with me.

this black guy, paris hilton, a few black women and this mexican girl are stupid lame spineless cowards, who won't admit to being wrong, creating a problem for the community. every day they indicate that they are in some really weird childish denial about being the problem. they like to take cheap shots at people, like cowards would. another way which you could think about it, is that they are admitting to being wrong, just implying that no one can stop them from being stupid and harmful.

i am quitting drinking until december (stopped on 6/17/22), when i go on a sea cruise to mexico with my girlfriend. this mexican girl was trying to trick ignorant people who don't know me into thinking that alcohol was or is the reason that i didn't or don't get a part time job in houston. nope. it wasn't. she and the black guy didn't establish trust, so that i could know for sure that i wouldn't be messed with at a job. i told her to leave me alone for 1 week or 10 days, just to be sure, and she mocked my sincerety because of it, acting stupid aggressive every day, pretending as if she was trying to encourage me or pretending as if there is a good reason to stop me from working. she doesn't know how to lie her way out of trouble. i have been working for almost 1 year for my step dad's brother in la grange, drinking, and it was never a problem for me to get to work on time, also working when most people would never do what i am still doing while being harassed. like being slapped and urinated on in public, because envious people hate you and want to humiliate you publicly. they are trying to fabricate evidence against me or cover something which they did up, because they are in social trouble. i was drinking too much, but it wasn't a problem for me for work. problem for my liver. i also have sleep apnea. i developed it about 2 or 3 years ago. one issue that i am concerned about is that i think that black women who work at the houston VA hospital tampered with my blood lab work; meaning, whatever the number is that deals with the liver. it was elevated, in think in the 50s, and the doctor told me that it was a problem, and then it dropped down into the 20s about 3 months later or 6 months later. i doubt that it would have changed that much, because i didn't change my lifestyle that much. people would have known what my doctor was telling me or what was going on, because of the way this situation is, with me lacking privacy. ordinarily, that information is privledged. i also had a problem at the VA hospital in houston, texas, when i had an HIV screening back in 2009, even though i already knew that i was negative. they didn't process my blood, playing a childish game with me, so that there were no results as there should have been. i did the test again, and the result was negative. i also had problems with black nurses at the VA hospital being stupid, knowing that i was in the psych ward at the VA hospital, and knowing that i was a good kid who was just confused, turning this into a stupid black thing because some childish, mean spirited black women caused a problem for all black people, back in 2008. like one black lady who worked in the psych ward, standing outside my open door to my hospital room, and saying "they never die, just multiply". some stupid obnoxious shit about the rap song "colors". get out of my life. you are stupid and lame. you are ashamed of what some childish, mean spirited black woman did. i am not the problem.


paris hilton could end most of this chaos by simply sending me the $150 which she rightfully owes me, plus let me know if she went on TMZ in october of 2008, making reference to me by name. i have already asked her more than once. i am not wanting to make a big deal of me being on TMZ. it is not about me being on TMZ. it is about her showing me a very basic amount of respect in public. it is also a privacy law problem. she knew that it would probably cause a problem for me, because she knew that people didn't like her or make that she thought that she was a joke. it did cause a problem for me at both of my jobs in the past. i know that she went on TMZ, but i would like to officially know. it is also about gossip control and my security, but she really doesn't seem to care. she is trying to create stupid gossip. she really doesn't seem to care if it creates problems for the entire community. she is giving people the cheesy evil run around, like maybe she didn't know that i was trying to find out, when she actually does know. she is sort of working with nasty mean black women who like to harm me in public. girls think that they made themselves look bad, so they are ganging up on me to try to make me look bad. she gives her family a cheesy, phony, fake act, like she is better than the childish, weird people who create unnecessary problems for the community, when she is no different, or actually, the stupid leader. it seems like she wants to be thought of like this, like she thinks that it makes her seem cool, as long as other people still have the opportunity to stupidly fuck with my reputation.


this black guy is trying to make it seem like there is something wrong when i masturbate or have sex, when there isn't anything wrong, and he does it because he is stupid insecure/socially lame, or because he has a sex problem, or because he thinks that he has made it seem like black men are less attractive, so he is insecure, trying to make it seem like a white boy who he thinks is more attractive, see less attractive. i am not insecure or socially lame. he has a sex problem and a social problem, so he tries to put the focus on me, trying to make it seem like i have the problem when i don't have a problem. he thinks that the only way he can attract a black woman, or seem attractive, is if he humiliates me publicly, but he is not humiliating me. he is just making it seem as if i had or have more sexual power than he does. he thinks that ignorant people would wrongfully assume that something is worse than it is. it is like he wants people to think that black people are more like uncivil animals, rather than being human, but i know that many of them disagree with that. i don't want to compete with other men for sexual power. understand? i just want to be left alone. these weirdos stalk me, or actually, they are stalking everyone. actually, this black guy wants to take sexual power away from everyone, inluding the black women who he tries to seduce in a stupid way. he tries to take sexual power away from black men too, especially black men who act like they care about me or love me. he is a creepy weirdo who wants to prove that he is a creepy weirdo. he likes for people to communicate about how he is a creepy weirdo, pretending as if he thinks that he is cool. punk, with an obnoxious stereo typical black punk obnoxious attitude.

every single day, these blacks and a mexican girl, keep trying to make it seem like all they want people to think about is blacks and mexicans. why? it seems like they are insecure because christ is a white person. I AM NOT THE PROBLEM! THEY ARE THE ONES TALKING STUPID SHIT! it is not all blacks and mexicans who are the problem. it is weak blacks and a weak mexican. paris hilton was really stupid and rude too, so it really isn't just about blacks and a mexican. why are they messing with me? i am not messing with them. it seems like they are insecure, implying that blacks and mexicans are taking over, because of their hated of whites for whatever reason, but i don't think that they really believe that. why are they wanting to harm me? i didn't do anything to them. they are wanting to try to fabricate evidence against me. they think that they are in social trouble. i am not in social trouble. they are ashamed, and they think that what they did makes all blacks and mexicans look bad, but it doesn't.


i feel like i am stuck with lame childish evil loser people in the drug scene. i used to use drugs, but i usually didn't like the people in the drug scene, and it seemed like usually they didn't like me, because i was or am sort of like a nerd. it is mostly girls who are causing the problem, who are like little children, who have an attitude like (screaming, unhappy, confused, angry) "I don't like this, because he can have more fun that i can have." or "i don't like this, because people will like him more than me." so they sabotage. this black guy is a little stupid bitch who joined in with them.

they want to humiliate me because i can do something which they can't do. like sharing a nice meal with my family at my home on father's day. like cuddling with the dog, playing with his soft ears and kissing him. i have a unique power, and it makes them reek with envy or jealousy. i am able to build something or do something which they can't do. they know that it would be peaceful and spiritual if they left me alone, and they don't want other people to experience it, because they think that people will like me more than them. they are childish, unhappy, mean spirited losers, who want to make a mockery of chirst and his ability. they are childish envious creatures. i also have a good sense of humor. that is another thing which makes them angry. they try to create this impression that i am an angry person. nope. sweet and loving. they need to get out of people's lives, only wanting to make it about them. they don't want to accept what they really are in life, desperately stupidly trying to make it seem as if they are something else. they try to make me look like a hypocrite. hypocrite? what? i just want peace and quiet for the community? that is what all of this fighting is about. very simple, isn't it? they want to be known as something because they are not something, like i am. i am happy with what i am known to be. i am happy with what i am. content. unique soul. no one else in the world.

a few lazy, childish, unintelligent, dishonest people are causing a huge problem for the rest of the community. they think that they can't keep up with me, or they think that they don't have the same type of good character, so they lie, and state or imply that i am not doing what i am doing, or that i have not done what i have done, so that they think that there is no pressure on them to do the same type of thing IN PUBLIC. go away. get a life. leave me and everyone else alone. ignorant people think "you get a life, josh. get away from the computer." it would be worse if i didn't fight. it is the lesser of 2 problems. there wouldn't be a problem if these evil, childish, greedy people would just leave us alone. i am going to defend myself and the community. and i have done a good, thorough job of it, thank you very much. i wouldn't do this, if i didn't know for absolute absolute sure that other GOOD HONEST people were in agreement. a few evil people ARE TRYING to get good honest people to defend me, so that they can try to make all of us look bad or dishonest, but they won't. lazy unintelligent, dishonest people are the problem. same thing in government.

i am so sick of innocent, sweet blacks and mexicans being hurt by this. the problem is a few punk ass, thug like, evil black people and a punk ass, thug like, evil mexican girl. they have weird mental problems and it is incredibly painful to have to be stuck with them. they are so lame. they are creating this. they won't leave people alone because they want special treatment. they don't want to accept what they actually are. they are like weird creepy socially lame evil people who you would see on dr. phil, who you would detest. it seems like they hate me because i don't have the cultural or social stigma which THEY think that they have. why do you hate white people so much, because we are known to have accomplished more in europe or in the united states? because typically we have more money? then they want ignorant people, who don't know me, to think that i am the one with the attitude problem, when i am not. they are the ones who are complaining about something. all of this shit in this section of my website is because of other people unnecessarily complaining. you see what i am doing, but you don't understand what they are doing. i am a good person to work with. i am sort of quiet at work, and do my job, and i don't want to engage in gossip or bullshit like other people do. these other people are engaged in stupid bullshit, and it messes up everyone else's ability to work.


why do some black people and this mexican girl imply that they don't want to be thought of as gay (friendly), like a gay (friendly)white person? it seems like they want to create the impression that they are abrasive and unfriendly. they are mocking a gay (friendly) white person. i am honest, too. they are mocking an honest white person, too, for some reason. why do they hate white people so much?

this black guy and a few black women have a confidence problem IN PUBLIC. it seems like they always had a confidence problem in public. they don't like people to think that i am more confident than they are IN PUBLIC, so they are stalking me and everyone else, implying that we "don't understand" what they meant by their aggression, so that they think that they have an excuse to continue to be aggressive and ruin our lives. they are doing this nasty thing like (sleazy thug evil mean attitude/facetious) "oh, well it could have meant something friendly. ha ha." so that they think that they are able to continue to cause problems in my life, because they don't like people to think that i am more confident than they are. nasty sour attitudes. i am a cheerful person by nature, and they know it, and they don't like it because they are not like that. they like to make me less confident in public, like it is a childish game of theirs. they can't keep up, so they don't allow us to make progress. lazy, lame, childish people. go away. they keep involving me in their lives when i don't want to be involved in their lives. there is no reason for it. they try to make people think that they are cool because i am involved in their lives. they are lame losers who i would never be involved with.

as i, and i think other people who i am in activity with have already stated, this mexican girl is trying to have me killed. she is making us so sick, every day all day long, with the lies that she is trying to encourage me, or that i did something wrong with george h. w bush and northern trust bank, when she knows that i didn't, as an excuse. she doesn't even care that people know that they are lies, as long as she has something lie about, or as long as she thinks that she can get away with it. it seems like she is indicating to black women, that she will continue to confuse them and make them more and more sick if they don't kill me. this is very serious. make a story on tv news about this. flush out this mexican girl who i believe still lives in houston, texas, and this black guy. try to flush out their families, so that a story can be made about this very serious and sad situation.

paris hilton (and i am sick of thinking about her and writing about her) was incredibly rude, childish, uncivil, irresponsible, dumb and unfriendly for starting what SHE started, and then not concluding it in an actual conclusive, civil, respectful manner. she "ended" it that way intentionally, in order to confuse and anger me in public, to try to cover up the fact that she was the problem. she wanted to confuse and provoke me in public (like all of this internet crap), in order to try to make me look unpopular, because she thought that she made herself (and her childish insecure sister) look unpopular. she also wants to use me. she wants to use me, but wants people thinking that i am trying to use her. she seems to like to deceive and use men. she uses the fact that she is wealthy as a way to seduce men, because she really doesn't have a brain. her game worked with me at first, but then i thought to myself "what the heck am i doing kissing this stupid, disrespectful, childish girl's ass?" she stupidly used me unnecessarily in her last relationship with chris zylka, and i know that she unnecessarily uses me in her current relationship with carter reum. i hate him, because any guy who would indicate to the public that he thinks that it is ok to treat people the way in which his wife treated people is a cruel childish dork. i hate her. i hate them both. actually i feel threatened by them. obviously she lies to him about what happened or who she actually is.

this black guy plays little bitch games because he wasn't man enough to tell black women who were childish, nasty, cruel, that he thought that they were or still are childish, nasty and cruel. he thought that all black people looked bad, so he decided to betray the community and join in with their nasty game, also trying to humiliate kind honest black women WHO HE KNEW WOULD DEFEND ME. he also thought that he couldn't have sex unless he played some dumb black female game, but i don't think that it worked out to well for him. he has a sex problem and creepy personality disorder. angry and weird. black women were stupid for attacking me when considering the paris hilton incident in the grocery store in 2008. also stealing my mail on more than one occasion. also infecting my blood with something which caused diverticulitis or diverticulosis. 3 major surgeries. trauma. get out of my life. i also think that they are messing around with my pharmacy items from the VA hospital in houston, texas. i am also worried about my bank account at chase bank. they are destroying my life because the envied me being happier than they could be in public. childish, angry, incredibly mean creatures. get out of my life. this is what happens to a famous person who doesn't have protection. weirdos stalk you. my fame is unique. not only this life, but my past. i am probably the most well known person on the planet.

ignorant people would be amazed at how these few black people want to known for their brutality and ugly attitude. it is really disturbing. every day they want to make a story about being ugly bullies. they think that they can't be known for anything else, because they lack intelligence. they want to be known for ugliness and brutality, which is the exact opposite of me. they imply that christ doesn't fit in, or is not allowed to be accepted, and they do it because they think that christ is superior, and that they don't fit in. this is what THEY think. i have loved them, but it doesn't seem like they care. i can't believe that i have to go through this. i can't believe that other people have to go through this. it is very sad for kind honest black people who think that maybe people look down on them, when they didn't do anything wrong. these black people who are acting up are weird anti social bums, so they don't represent black people as a whole.

like i already stated, this black guy is a weird little creepy bitch, who flaunts being a weird little creepy bitch. he harassed us at about 6 or 7 am yesterday morning, instead of consistently at about 3 or 4 am like i had just posted that he was doing, and then at about 2:30 am this morning, while we are trying to rest, being a blatant little shady bitch that he is, trying to cover up his shit for about the last month, implying that he is going to continue to be a blatant black childish evil creep. i wouldn't call him a bitch unless i knew that good black people already had my back on this, and that they also did the same thing. even apollo creed would call him "a chump". he is being a blatant asshole. it is not the only thing which he does every day. he intends to hurt the spirit of the world. he is a weird little cheesy bitch who whines like a child, and then wants people to see this, and mistakenly think that i am acting like the child. he is some weird creature with a disgusting spirit. mexican girl is the same. he can be a stupid ugly childish creep if he wants to. i am going to go have fun. what i have experienced from a few black people since 2008 means that there is a division within black society or culture, honest caring blacks or dishonest mean blacks. just like all white people are not the same. or any race. dishonest mean blacks are being lazy, and want to try to drag everyone down to their lazy level. they mock honest caring people, like me. get these monsters away from me and the rest of the community. they are derranged and very mean. it was their unnecessary meaness to begin with.


this is weird childish black hate and weird childish mexican hate. they don't hate me because i am a bad person. they hate me because they think that i have something which they don't have, and they don't want to think about it, and they don't want other people to be able to think about it. not all blacks are mean. not all mexicans are mean. it seems like paris hilton hated me too, because i have something which she doesn't have, even with all of her stupid money and cheesy superficial crap on tv. it seems as if she wanted to hurt me in public, like childish girls with emotional problems act.

this feels like a bad dream or like the kingdom in the lion king movie when scar takes control. or like the town in the back to the future movie when biff has his hotel/casino or whatever it is. dreary. america is a scary place with childish mean scary people and i don't want to be a part of it. convince me otherwise. i doubt that anyone will.

i think that people think that i am supposed to do something for them in public, but that they don't have to do anything for me in public. i think that people's idea is that i am supposed to love them in public, but that they don't have to love me in public. doesn't work that way. wouldn't work that way. you would just make me feel uncomfortable. these people who i am in constant 24/7 activity with give me the creeps. they are not social and friendly. it is like a bad dream. they lurk. it is creepy. they are not bold and social or friendly. i don't like it. i don't like them. why are they not acting like they care? why don't they want me to think that they want others to think that it is ok to be friendly with me? it seems like they want people to think that this means that it is everyone else's social situation, but mine. you know, jesus had friends. that is what made it work. you people seem like boring cowards.

some black women try to humiliate someone who they thought was more than they were, or someone who they thought other people would think was more than they were. they seem to be making it a racial issue too. i am not a mean white person. i am a happy friendly white person, and it seems like that is why they want to harm me, because it makes them angry to think that they don't have what i have. mexican girl wants to humiliate me. black guy does the same. paris hilton does the same.

these people who are knowingly causing problems for the community, want people to know that they are trying to separate me from my girlfriend, or someone who brings me joy. they do the same thing with my parents, and the pets, or just the community in general. they like to get in the way of people's connection to things which make them happy because of their weird childish envy or jealousy. very childish and very weird. they are like animals who get jealous or envious. they are so lame and childish, because they want it to be obvious that they are obstructing because the are envious or jealous. it doesn't mean that they are being friendly. definitely not. doesn't seem like they want me to have a happy peaceful time in my nice townhome either, like they want people to know that they are childish and envious, like they are trying to make other people be envious or jealous, like they are trying to make other people hate me because i am happier or because i have more than most people have. they are socially lame creatures, who don't like to think of other people's happiness. you know what? my girlfriend shelly and i are still going to have a good time, and we will still look good in public, whether these nasty childish unhappy lame creatures like it or not. she and i look good together, because we are loving creatures. we are both strong, loving creatures. too bad, if you are not.

a few evil childish people, who got themselves into social trouble by being mean to me and other people, playing unnecessary games, are always implying that i am like dr. evil or something, like it is make believe, like they are children playing make believe. i am harmless. they are the ones being aggressive, also trying to create a double standard, implying that they can get away with whatever they want to because the focus is on me. they stupidly and intentionally provoke me, knowing that i have a good heart and that i will try to defend myself and the community online, in order to try to make ignorant people who really don't know me, be afraid of me. i am a sweet cheerful honest person. they are the problem. i am a cheerful person, who can get angry when people do things WHICH REALLY REALLY ARE STUPID. this is a really sad situation for so many people. angry unhappy childish people want to spoil it for everyone else. i would be so happy if these people would get out of my life, AND THEY KNOW IT. they envy how i can be happy, in a way in which they can't. why don't you try to create a deterrent? do something different. these people are weird and childish, wanting to scare others, like it is terrorism.

this black guy acts like a little weird creepy envious or jealous bitch, because he thinks that girls like me more than him or because they have more fun with me. ignorant people don't know me that well.

this mexican girl is a weird, childish, angry, incredibly mean, sour bitch. she and a few other people blatantly stalk me because they know that i can have more fun IN PUBLIC than they can have. they are childish envious or jealous creatures. it is sickening. they are pathetic. it is blatant cruelty. they don't want people to know that i am happy IN PUBLIC because they are not happy people, or because they can't keep up with me. they know that i will try to defend myself and the community online, because it is the only way which i can try to defend myself and the community, so they are constantly harassing me or stalking me, in order to try to make it look like i am an uptight unfriendly jerk when i am not. i just want peace, quiet and happiness for myself and the community. these people who are doing this have personality disorders. i wish that a few people who i am in activity with would speak to me in public, in order to try to create a deterrent for this unnecessary aggression. these evil people are implying that they are going to get away with it. it means that they keep lying about george h. w. bush, northern trust bank and paris hilton. i have already explained. they want people to know that they are lying about it, like it is a sick childish game. they are insecure people, implying that no one can criticize them, so they imply that they have dirt on my when they don't.

this mexican girl wants to be thought of as an obnoxious thug. she thinks that she will have more success that way, instead of doing honest work. she doesn't want to try to act like a lady. she wants mexican guys to think that it is funny that she is so evil, because she is trying to seduce them. it isn't funny. she is intentionally making people sick every day. she has a serious attitude problem, just like this black guy does.

the government should know about this black guy and mexican girl who have my vision in their left they. they are torturing people and wanting to flaunt it. they should be killed. they both have the ability to create contractions of my muscle and soft tissue which the rest of the group worldwide sense. they are like little deranged children who are angry, who want to harm people. they flaunt being smug and creepy and mean. they don't like being what they are, even though they pretend as if they do. they are confused and trying to survive. it is like they are weird intoxicated, very mean people, even if they are not intoxicated. deranged. they want to harm people and get away with it, pretending as if they think they are cool or that it is ok, like they are trying to justify being some kind of really nasty ugly creature, when it is not justified. they should be killed. they are a very serious problem for the entire community.

this black guy has been coming into our homes consistently for weeks, every night at about 3 or 4 am, harming us in a really creepy evil smug way. it is a type of psychological torture which he dishes out, proving that he is a creep, like he is trying to intimidate people and stupidly try to recruit evil nasty black people. he has an attitude like (sleazy/childish/mean/weird) "yeah, that's right. i'm the creepy evil black man who everybody hates." he is making a sick joke of taunting everyone. really childish punk. he should not be receiving social security benefits if he receives them. he and the mexican girl have disgusting spirits. he is sending her a signal to try to harm me and my girlfriend because of their weird childish envy and jealousy. they are pathetic. they admit to being pathetic.

this mexican girl flaunts being an ugly sour bitch. she implies that mexican guys better put up with her stupid shit, otherwise she won't fuck them. she is pissed off because she thinks that she can't get special treatment. she is a real person with an anti social personality disorder.

the more that this mexican girl thinks that she makes herself look stupid, the more that she wants to refer to how she thinks that she is stupid, because she is an insecure girl who fakes thinking that she is cool. she is fake. really fake. weird.

these people who are stalking and harassing everyone want people to think that it is something personal, and not that i did something wrong. they are angry because they think that they made themselves look like fools. they should grow up and move on. i doubt that they will, because they are so worried about their image in public. oh well. too bad that it couldn't have been peaceful and happy. i wouldn't state this, unless i knew for sure that other people were stating that other people are stupidly and unnecessarily creating a problem. don't look to me for answers. look to other people who actually have the ability to do something about this fucked up situation.

this mexican is like a shady creepy criminal thug mexican bitch, in an interrogation room, with an overwhelming amount of evidence against her, guilty, who is taunting the police like a creepy coward who won't admit to being guilty. she is so stupid, trying to seduce shady mexicans who she thinks would do the same thing. she is a real person, who i think still lives in houston, texas. she wanted people to know who she was, but then tried to deceive everyone.

this mexican is like a girl who got pulled over by the police, who has dope in the car, who is trying to distract the police with bullshit so that she doesn't get in trouble. she even wants shady mexican guys to know what she is doing, trying to seduce them, because she thinks that she can't make it with a good mexican guy. she thinks that she can make ignorant people think that i am crazy, going on and on about her. i am not crazy. she is real person who has a personality disorder. her parents don't like her. she doesn't care about her family or anyone. evil disrespectful mexican.

this black guy and a few black women try to make it seem like black people are more important or interesting than they are, by wanting to unncessarily involve me in their life. i don't want to be involved in their life, unless they call me or come to house, being friendly, acting in a civil friendly manner. i would invite them in for tea or coffee. it seems as if they are trying to make it seem like i don't like black people or mexican people. i don't like stupid mean black people or mexican people. just like i don't like stupid mean white people.

this mexican girl flaunts being stereotypical ugly stupid obnoxious unfriendly rude mexican shit, making a sick childish joke of it. she thought that she could attract mexican men that way. she tries to seduce them that way, wanting them to act like they hate white people, because she is faking not liking me.

one of the problems with these people who are stupidly and childishly gossiping about me on the internet is that they keep unnecessarily involving me in their lives and other people's lives. leave me out of your lives, unless you want to make a big international story about me, to make a big deal of it so that it isn't a big deal. quit stupidly gossiping about me. i am not making a big deal of myself. other people want to make a big deal of themselves. they stupidly and unnecessarily gossip about me, lying about me, in order to imply that they are superior, because they have a weird childish inferiority complex. go away. leave me and my family and my girlfriend alone. they keep wanting to communicate about me because they don't have anything to say about themselves. it is like stupid national enquirer bull crap.

i wish that ignorant people, who don't know me like people who i am in constant 24/7 activity with, would quit trying to find something wrong WITH ME. i mean this, because of all of this negative crap in this section of my website. weird childish people are stalking the community and it is frustrating and a little scary. it is making us nervous, but that doesn't mean that i am paranoid. they like to make people nervous, like they are making a mockery of something which they know would have been peaceful and happy and spiritual. it is like terrorism or like school shootings. they want to upset the harmony of others because they are unhappy and crazy. i don't want to do this. i understand if you think "then don't write anything else which is negative." i am not going to sit here and take this stupid stupid childish shit from these people IN PUBLIC. it is like an argument, and they are implying that they won the argument when they didn't. i could relax more if someone talked to me. it is worse than you can imagine. like being kidnapped and tortured by a few psychopathic freaks who enjoy doing it together. they think that they have an image problem, so they want to give me the image problem, but i don't think that really will. they envy what christ is or what he can do, and then want to harm people including christ, so they don't have to think about christ creating something good, which they can't create. they know that it would have been good if they left me alone. one of this issues is that they envy christ's fame.

this black guy is stupidly implying that black men or black people like him. i know that they don't. i know that there is communication about this on the internet. he thinks that stupid black people can't compete with smart black people, so he is trying to drag all black people down to his level.

this black guy is a weird little lame stupid sour black bitch. go away. he is like a crazy black man with dirty nappy hair, wielding and waving a knife, with crazy mean looking eyes, talking all kinds of crazy stupid shit, like some person that the police would warn and then shoot or tase. unfortunately, we can't get rid of him. mexican girl is sour too. a few black women are sour. they all think that they made themselves look bad, and so they want to hurt everyone because they can't have fun. they don't want me to shine like a star. they know that i can shine like a star, and they don't like it. that is why they obstruct so much, all day long, every day. like it is a childish game to them. like they are children. they act like little children, wanting people to know that they are acting like little children, wanting other people to join in with them and act like little children too. i don't think that people want to do it. they are socially lame, trying to make it look like i am socially lame.

if famous people didn't have security at events where famous people are gathered together, weird psychos would do weird things, acting aggressively, trying to make them look stupid in public, because of envy. same thing with the president of the united states. same thing with people in the media. same thing with me. i don't have any protection. not difficult to understand.

i guess the people who acted up stupidly didn't get away with it. ha. they are putting on a phony act, pretending as if they think that they got away with it, but it is phony. like some dumb thug criminal who is in an interrogation room, and who is busted, but puts on a phony act, denying that they did anything wrong, because they are cowards. that is what these people are like. they lie, and state that i am the one who is doing this. no i am not. i have a good heart, and i never wanted to harm anyone like they did. i was confused in the beginning, but mostly because of what this black guy did to me. he knows it too. i have a good heart, and people know it. i use to be addicted to methamphetamine really bad, but not anymore. i used it because i was sad, mostly because of what the black guy did to me. i didn't know what he was for 13 years. it is probably the most confusing situation that a person could be put into, besides being in a war zone.

black guy is a weird lame obnoxious creep, who doesn't care about his own happiness or pleasure, who intentionally interferes with other people's sexual pleasure, because of his envy. he doesn't want people to have a good time because of his envy. we are having a good time and then he does something, which is meant to be thought of as stupid, because of his childish envy. he wants ignorant people to assume that the sex is worse than it is. it is good, and then he likes to mess it up, like he is implying that he is something more than i am when he doesn't have friends or a girlfriend, like he is playing make believe that he thinks he is attractive. he is like a childish, punk, obnoxious vandal, who wants to take someone's healthy happy spirit away, because of his envy. he wants people to know that he is childish and envious, so it is incredibly lame. he is implying that childish, obnoxious, lame black punks with nasty attitudes are superior, when they aren't. it is ugly, stereo typical black behavior, and he tries to get other blacks to follow him, but i doubt that they will. it also seems like he is telling weak black women to lie, stating that they think that he is attractive, when they don't think that. he got them in trouble. he does the same thing for them, pretending as if he thinks that they are attractive when he doesn't. they got him in trouble. he should leave everyone alone. he is wanting to prove that he is a weird asshole. creepy psychopath/sociopath.

it seems like the people who i know are defending me and the community are sort of faking being nice or supportive. they are making a situation worse. it is like a parent who doesn't enforce discipline in a way, so that an obnoxious child with a behavior problem doesn't stop acting up. you are making the problem worse, with whatever you are doing on the internet. so i am. why don't you communicate with me in person? in front of everyone. i have already suggested making video, which can be posted on the internet. people can give people fake names if they want to.

paris hilton could help to fix this social problem, which she contributed greatly to causing america to currently have, by sending me $150 back. she is trying to cover up a problem which she knows that she created, by bobbing and weaving, ducking and dodging. she doesn't set a precedent about social respect. very basic respect.

people don't act aggressively because i did or am doing something wrong. they act aggressively, in order to obstruct, because they don't want people, IN PUBLIC, to think that i am more, or happier than they are. they should leave everyone alone, and quit involving me in their lives. find your own confidence. find your own happiness. don't sabotage others', so that you can feel "better" about yourselves.

for people who don't know me as well as people who i am in constant 24/7 activity with. i am trying as hard as i possibly can, to create confidence and happiness and peace, but some people are sabotaging. i know that i don't have privacy, and that this affects the community, and i am being stalked and harassed, and i want the community to be happy and peaceful, and i am trying, so it is confusing. this section of the website is me telling you that i want to help, i want to help, i want to help, but i really can't, and that it frustrates me. it will still be some help though. God bless you. younger generations will be better off, once i die, because these people who are psychopathic and mean, won't be able to get to anyone in the way which they currently are. have faith...

this situation is sort of like a situation when a group of criminals try to take something from people who have more, but they fail, and make themselves look stupid. they also make themselves feel stupid. like a group of criminal computer hackers, who hack into a company, demanding a ransom or something of value, but the cops get involved and the hackers or criminals get nothing. they go to jail too.

the last refill of my anxiety medication, which i received about 3 days ago (6/3/22) in the regular mail, was filled on 5/27/22. the refill before that, which i received in the mail about 1 week prior, was filled on 5/19/22. i doubt that my nurse would have ordered the refill, which was filled on 5/27/22. he keeps good records of when my medication is due to be ordered. it is a 30 day supply of medication. i am checking with my nurse about this. i think that black women at the VA hospital in houston, texas, are harassing me in a cruel way, referring to why i would be prescribed medication, or wanting to publicly mock a person who is sick. i have had problems with black women since 2008. i am not the problem. their childishness and greed for attention is the problem. another issue, which i discussed with my social worker like i stated that i would, is that i should just keep quiet about the money which i have been earning under the table, working for my step father's brother at his ranch in la grange, texas. it has probably been about $100 per week, but i don't go out there every week. it is not an official job. sometimes there is a break for a week or 2 weeks. i am sick, because people think that it is fun, or amusing, to make me sick in public, mocking an honest, sweet person, who wants to work. they do it because they are lazy, thug like, sleazy scum bags, who don't want to do humble work themselves. they imply that honest, loving people are not going to be in control. sort of like the situation with evil, thug like republicans and honest, loving democrats. these people who are causing problems, with regard to my situation, are corrupt. black women have been the biggest group problem. they conspire over the internet, like they unnecessarily think of something like the underground railroad. ok, what happens then the internet goes bye bye eventually. it will. breakdown of infrastructure eventually. let's see how coordinated they were, when they spent all of their time being childish and full of hate.

i wish that people would create an official story about this situation on tv news, because a few people obviously get a sick thrill from making me and the community sick. it is a form of terrorism. they are mocking Christ, and also loving people in general. it would be easy for people to understand why myself, or a person in my situation, would be having problems with stalkers, and why that is a problem for the community as a whole. i think that an official deterrent would help. it is very painful to have to go through this. even if someone just talked to me, wanting me to know that they wanted people to observe something kind and supportive, it would do my soul so much good. this, in turn, would do others good. why hasn't someone done this already? what is the problem? your insecurity? your lack of courage? your lack of kindness? i thought that this was "home of the brave".

some black women intentionally make themselves look ugly, because they are insecure about what they think that people think about them, because they are pretending as if they think that they don't look ugly. fake, ugly, very childish attitude. i don't care about the way someone looks, because good looking people can be mean or not loving or evil. what i care about is the way in which people act or the way in which another person treats me. i don't understand DNA. i have communicated this many times. they fake thinking that they look good, while intentionally making themselves look bad. insecurity. go away!

if the president of the united states would make a story about me, it would deter these evil, socially lame, incredibly mean people from harassing me. like someone was officially sticking up for me. what are you so afraid of? naturally there could be a problem, especially if people think that they can get away with it. they are taunting the authorities.

i think that one of the reasons that black women who work at the houston VA hospital sent me more anxiety medication was in order to try and lie about the fact that they knew that i tried to commit suicide. i have already written about the following information. i tried several times to give people the opportunity to shoot me in the head, in a remote location. with ear plugs and a photocopied note in my pocket, the car, and at my house. i asked or pleaded for people to drop off xanax or opiods at my front door, because i didn't know that you could get them online. i thought that it was dark web something which i didn't know how to do. then i thought that i would try online, and discovered that it is easy to get xanax from canadian pharmacies, without a prescription. an overdose of xanax or opiods would make a person pass out peacefully before they died from the toxicity. so then i got a job at pappasito's mexican restaurant (2018) (memorial city location in houston), in order to get money to get the xanax in order to attempt to commit suicide (i told people on facebook that i wanted to work for about 6 months or 1 year, enjoying my life and extra mohey to take a trip somewhere before i would probably die), but the mexican girl was (and still is) so caught up in so many of her lies about me, that she tried and still tries to make it look like i didn't have the honor, or that i was lazy, or that she was friendly and that i wasn't. all of that is total bullshit and people know it. she wasn't authorized to be in the work place with me. i don't care what her lie is. nobody else does either. just like she isn't authorized to by in my home, or my girlfriend's home, or my parent's home. she wants people to think that a childish rude girl is more important than a man who is christ, because she has an inferiority complex. she wanted to keep me here, because she thought that she could use me and other people who i am in activity with that way, and that she could lie about me, thinking that she could confuse people (including her parents) so that she can try to lie her way out of the social trouble which she created for herself. in other words, she made it all about herself, instead of allowing me to attempt to commit suicide or commit suicide, for the peace of the community. this is the truth. and those nasty black women better step off, too. this mexican girl intentionally does stupid things, because she thinks that people would think that it doesn't make any sense, because she thinks that it gives her an alibi, so that she thinks that she can lie her way out of social trouble that way. i am not going to take this buspirone anxiety mediation to attempt to commit sucide. it makes you dizzy. just one pill can make you feel dizzy. 30 pills would make us uncomfortable. xanax does not make you dizzy. when mixed with alcohol, it would have just made me just pass out. i don't want to commit suicide anymore. it would hurt my mother's spirit. actually my entire family's spirit and my girlfriend's spirit and my girlfriend's mom's spirit. i am going to shoot a 9mm pistol with her mom sometime soon at a shooting range. kool. her mom is from upstate new york. i also want to plant a tree at her mom's house. i tried to commit suicide in a way which would have been peaceful for both me and the people who i am in activity with. i also tried to have someone shoot me in the head several times, before i discovered that i could easily get xanax online without a prescription. the mexican girl is lying about it, so these evil childish female black creatures try to use her and each other as a way of trying to get themselves out of the social problem which they created for themselves. they think that they have an image problem, and they don't care if they make it everyone else's problem. it isn't my problem. go away and get a life! i did try to commit suicide. more than once. now i don't want to, because i think that it would hurt the spirit of the community more if i did, because people were knowingly so disrespectful to me as i was trying. their lies about me being greedy and mean aren't true, are they? their lies about me don't make any sense, do they? that is what they think that people think. i am a humble, loving person at heart. people who know me, know that i am. the problem is that others are not. i am humble, but also have a bit of a wild side. kind of a mixture, but more good than bad. i am not so stupid wild, now that i am older. i have more to live for now, like my sweet loving smart girlfriend, and mother, who is happy that i have a partner and love. if people in this activity group want to try to arrange my death at a hospital, like a mercy killing, meaning that doctors would give me general anesthesia and stop my heart, or something like that, where i am being officially recognized and respected, then i would do it. i have tried to do this many times, suggesting or pleading with peopele to coordinate. i communicated with the media (channel 2/kprc/houston) several times about it, giving people the opportunity to prove what is happening and make a story, with the thought that we could gain public support for me being officially caused to die. like a mercy killing. who needs the anxiety medication now, you nasty, childish, ugly attitude, african american creatures? isn't that nasty of them? like they are threatening my sanity, if i don't try to commit suicide, even though they know that i did try.

this mexican girl and black guy and a few black women seem to be wanting to try to humiliate people who are happy and in love (attractive). it is because of their envy or jealousy. the don't like for my girlfriend and i to look happy in public. it's ok. we are going to look happy, anyway, because we are intelligent and loving. these people who stupidly act up can spend their entire life playing ugly games if they want to. go ahead. it just makes my work that much easier.

these black women who stupidly, childishly state that i did something wrong when it comes to the paris hilton incident, in the grocery store in 2008, are trying to cover up their own obsession with money, or, they are trying to hide their greed and own desire to have money. they are putting on a phony act, like (cheesy) "oh, i be good. now give me somethin', cuz i be good." it is like a crazy homeless black bum is coming up to me on a street corner in downtown houston, trying to feed me a load of crap, trying to hustle me.

this mexican girl has an attitude like a child, like "look what i can do, look what i can do, look what i can do, etc." when all she is doing is coming in to people's homes and disturbing them. she is trying to get mexican guy's attention, like a prostitute would, hoping that she can hustle them into thinking that she deserves special treatment. she and the black guy try to fool people into thinking that because they can create these contractions in my muscle and soft tissue, which other people all over the world sense (144,000), that it means that they are intelligent. it doesn't mean that. not necessarily. they are not intelligent. weird and dumb. they don't even care about creating a healthy, peaceful, happy environment for themselves and for their families. very mean too.

it seems like this mexican girl thinks that mexicans have ugly behavior or an ugly attitude. why would she think that they would like her, or that she could get along with them, for acting in the way in which she knows that she is known to act? she tries to market herself as being ugly, thinking or implying that some mexican guy will want her. it seems like she thinks that mexican guys like her or will like her because her attitude ugly. it seems like she thinks that they think or will think "gringos are stupid!" or "we hate gringos!" i wish that she would get away from me, my family, my girlfriend, and other people. she thinks that mexican guys would become insecure if they thought that i was cool, or cooler than they are. that is why she obstructs and lies about me so much. it seems like all she thinks about is sex with a mexican guy, like a childish girl, wanting him to think that he is more powerful than i am, or that she thinks that he is more powerful than i am, when she doesn't think that herself. it seems like she has an obsession with sex or something sexual, which isn't realistic. the black guy seems to have the same issue.

part of the reason that this mexican acts so stupid and obnoxious, is because she is implying that because she has decent looks or a big butt, that it means that guys will like her, no matter what, so that she can do whatever she wants to do. not true. mexican guys can go out an find another girl who makes them feel better. i know that mexican guys know what type of stupid rude girl she is, playing an incredibly stupid, childish game, like her attitude is "oh, i'm always dominant, no matter how stupid and childish my attitude is." she has an attitude like "oh, i act stupid and childish while you work to give me money, because i have a big butt." it is this incredibly stupid, incredibly obnoxious shit every day, all day long. mexican guys know what i am communicating about. girls with decent looks who are stupid and evil and lazy are irritating. this mexican girl acts like a bimbo in the drug scene, who wants to prostitute herself. she is very lazy, and just tries to hustle. she spends all of her time trying to deceive people, like she wants mexican guys to know what she is doing, like she wants them to think that it is funny that she is evil, like wanting them to think about her looks or sex and nothing else. it is weird. she is very very lazy and weak and stupid, trying to use her looks as a way of getting something.

i like smores. graham cracker is mexican or indian people. chocolate is black people. marshmallow is white people. let's make a campfire. i told the guys who i am in activity with, who are in jail, that they should speak with the warden of the jail, and tell the warden about this thought; trying to create a better environment in jail. i think that it would keep fighting amongst inmates down. i also told them that i could try to work it, so that they get released early for good behavior. i could leave a shovel outside the outer wall of jails, and the inmates who i am in activity with could tell the security guard that someone was going to tunnel in to the jail and help an inmate escape.

this mexican girl is always making a sick joke about how she knows that she has never been any help. she is a weak loser who doesn't care about anyone, not even herself. all of this stress, tension and confusion she creates every day is or was unnecessary. she does it because she is boring, lame, childish and feels the need to create "excitement" in her life, not caring about how many people she harms every day. isn't that horrible, that she would do this to me for years, acting like she doesn't give a fuck? she isn't a lady. disgusting obnoxious attitude, just like the black guy. she wants people to think, just like the black guy does, that they have authority over everyone, when they actually think that they don't, and that people who do real work, like me, are in control. like it is make believe because of the eye above the pyramid on the dollar bill. they don't have authority. they are just some weird, socially lame, creepy, unfriendly, childish deranged, disabled, incredibly mean biological entity. demons. it is like a wild animal. it is related to the eye above pyramid, but they try to fool people about the meaning, because they have a social problem, because they don't like for people to know what they really are. they don't like to think about what they really are, so they are trying to create an alternate reality. thinks that it can't survive like a vicious wild animal which gets confused and attacks humans. fanaticizes unrealistically like children about getting something for itself. she acts like a child, like in the exorcist movie (this is what she wants to be thought of/totally stupid/trying to intimidate people), who doesn't know what the fuck she is doing, faking thinking that she is cool. it is really sad, but that doesn't mean that i am a party pooper. she and this black guy are horrible, unfriendly creatures. that is the truth.

these few people who are acting up are implying that people should think of this as some kind of sick entertainment. they want drama, because they think that it is interesting. black women want to stupidly gossip about me. some people want to gossip about this. they intentionally create sensationalism because they are childish, boring, lame, incredibly mean people. they know that i am innocent about the george h. w. bush and northern trust bank and paris hilton issues, but they don't care. they won't leave me alone, because they want stupid unnecessary drama. they think of it as childish excitement and it is very painful to have to go through this. i have so many reasons to be very happy. like they are children who want to play make believe and gossip about me. i am serious about honest work, and i didn't know that i was going to get stuck with people who are childish and evil and who don't care about honest work. sorry, i can't help you unless you protect me somehow.

people are seeing me work now, because i worked through a great deal of the confusion which this situation created for me, starting in 1997. you really don't understand how sick and confused i was initially. i didn't know what this black guy was. it took me 13 years to figure out that he is not some really smart entity which maybe worked for some kind of space government or something. he was acting aggressively in a weird confusing way, knowing that i thought that he was something which he wasn't, or knowing that i thought that it meant something about the situation which it didn't. it seems like he wanted me to think something about him which wasn't true, because he thought that he could better motivate me to do work that way. what he did was weird. i also used to think that it understood details about the future which it doesn't understand. all this guy has done for 24 years is to create unnecessary problems, because he wants to show off like an punk adolescent would, wanting to show off driving a car fast and then crash the car. he wants people to think that he is so cool or like a celebrity when he isn't. now we could move on to something good, but he wants to play childish games because he is insecure about black women saying that they don't like him. he wants to give everyone this dumb, childish, obnoxious black man's attitude. part of the issue in the past was that i got addicted to meth amphetamine. i was sad (mostly because of how he was confusing me) and so it lifted my mood and made me want to try to do something, so i studied. it really didn't make me feel good though. just confused me and made me act weird. he made my drug problem worse. i was sad because this black guy separated me from the community and my family. i thought that i couldn't tell anyone about what was happening to me because no one would believe me. people would say (irritated/annoyed/confused) "so what, you think that you are jesus, or something?" i would have also stayed way, far away from george h. w. bush if this black guy, who i didn't know was an ignorant black guy, wouldn't have confused me when i was writing an innocent letter to bush, trying to get advice or help somehow, in 2002. i have already communicated about this below. the black guy is part of the reason that i thought that bush was more significant than he was, or was part of the reason i would have thought about writing to bush in the first place. i had a mental problem or was confused by many things, mostly because of what this black guy (who i didn't know was a black guy) was doing, and i also had a drug problem, which complicated the mental problem. i know that a few people communicate really nasty stupid dishonest things about me, but i never wanted to harm anyone like they obviously do. they imply that people shouldn't have love or compassion in them. they lie about me, because they think that they made themselves look bad or not God like (mean and not loving). they knew that i had a good heart, and that i was just confused with a drug problem. i would talk out loud about what i was thinking all of the time. when that paris hilton shit started, some of the black women betrayed the community, playing childish games, wanting to gossip about me. black people's gossip is going to hurt them. they want to use each other as an unnecessary crutch, instead of doing work as strong independent individuals who don't give a fuck about stupid, frivolous gossip. i am not a robot. i am a human being with feelings. people see my website and probably think that it doesn't seem like i am sick. i have been sick as i have created my website, and i was sick for years in the past. in one way it is better now, and it another way it is worse.

all this mexican girl does is fake thinking that she is smart, and it is so unbelieveably stupid. it is all about her giving people this stupid rude attitude, faking being macho and cool. that is all she cares about, even if it doesn't make any sense or even if it is obvious that she is dumb. she is a very very insecure female. look at all of this bullshit she has created for years on the internet because she wants to fake thinking that she is macho and cool, just like other mexicans do. she really just likes to harm people. she doesn't like what she is. she is an angry creepy weird mexican female, who likes us to know that she likes to harm people, wanting to make people think that she thinks that she is cool and macho because harms people every day all day long.

i think that black women at the VA hospital in houston, texas (pharmacy) are stupidly, childishly harassing me and anyone else who acts like they care about me. you are the racists. i wasn't a racist, but you seem to want to turn me into one. go ahead. segregate yourselves with YOUR HATE. it was not and still isn't my hate. it is your hate, because you think that people think that a white person is superior, because of how you have made yourselves look stupid and mean. you are insecure, because a few black women have embarrassed you, so you fake being confident and having pride, while at the same time doing something dumb. cheese. chocolate cheese. they had previously sent me a bottle of anxiety medication, with the seal being broken (like i need to take it fast), along with facial cream for a facial skin condition (i went to the dermatologist at the VA hospital), which had a broken seal too. now they are sending me more anxiety medication only one week after i just got a new refill, like they are making a sick stupid joke about making me unhealthy and raising my anxiety, wanting to make me and everyone else feel threatened. some black women like to make me and everyone else feel threatened. they do it because they don't feel powerful. they like to harass me in way where they want people to think that i am being harassed, but that no one can prove it or say anything bad about black people. there are many black people who work at the houston VA hospital. they are definitely conspiring nation wide with the use of computers and social media. there is evidence of it. they are dangerous. they are the racists. they are the hate. actually, they hate themselves, but try to put it off on me. there was a good reason why men kept power away from women. they are too childish. a few ugly, childish, mean spirited black women want the public to think that they are in a relationship with me, but i don't want to be in a relationship with them. oh, no. they do it in order to try to make people think that they are powerful or to try to intimidate people. they do it because they don't feel powerful. go away. quit involving me in your life which is obviously lame and boring.

one way to describe all of this info, is that a few people are stupidly trying to steal something from me and other people. so i will take it right back. they failed, but are pretending as if they think that they didn't.

what these few people are doing is like )dumb/obnoxious/socially lame) "ah nah, it ain't about him and the community. it's about me." they are so childish, greedy, disruptful. disrespectful of everyone. i can't keep calm or really anyone get along in life unless i was given some type of official protection.

they are wanting to harm my girlfriend, because they think that people think that she is cooler than they are. the longer my girlfriend and i stay together happy in love, it seems like the more that they want to harm us and try to humiliate us publicly. they want to do the same thing with me, wanting to humiliate me because they think that people think that i am more likeable than they are.

this is really not difficult to understand. famous people are stalked by weirdos who want to "associate" with them. the people who do it are socially lame. weird psychopaths. they are like crazy, mean, psychopaths who are locked up in a psychiatric ward. i understand if people think "c'mon. make us happy, josh..." i can't make you happy unless i am happy and relaxed. i am being stalked and harassed by people who are taunting the police and the community. these people don't want me to be able to make you happy, because of their envy or inferiority complex. they envy what i can do or could do, if they left me alone. they won't leave me alone, because they think that people will communicate about how everything is better, which means that they don't want people to think that they were the problem. they want to keep everything the same, holding people hostage. they are flaunting thinking that they are lame. they are implying the socially lame, weird people have more power than people who are not socially lame and weird because of their envy. they are acting stupid, just for the sake of acting stupid and getting attention.

this mexican girl and black guy are trying to fool people about their identity. they want ignorant people to think that they are super stars or celebrities when they are actually evil creepy socially lame sleazy incompetent thugs. the eye above the dollar bill is related to them, but it doesn't mean that they have the authority. they act like little children or adolescents with attitude problems. there is something wrong with their brains. their brains never developed properly because of the fact that they develop my vision in their left eye. they act like retarded creeps who unrealistically want power. they don't like being what they are, compared to me. they are angry and want to hurt people. always panicking, trying to get something for themselves. they use the ability to create contractions in my body, which other people sense, as a weapon. they use it to hold people hostage. we can't think of anything but how we don't like them, and also how they are going to ruin our future. they are doing this intentionally. they are insecure, but faking thinking that they think that they are cool. socially lame. couldn't keep up with me, or other people who do honest work. they are both in a weird, insecure, childish, evil, fake denial that they think that they are inferior. they don't like being what they are, compared to me and other good people. they fake liking themselves. it is fake and stupid.

mexican girl is a lame childish female who is making a stupid joke, which isn't funny, about how she is weak. she has been doing it for years, and won't stop because she fakes thinking that weak childish girls are cool or funny. it means that she is insecure and trying to cover it up. she is implying that evil girls who play stupid games are more than honest men who do honest work.

this mexican girl is intentionally making people all over the world sick, because she envies how i could make them happy and peaceful if she left us alone. she has an anti social personality disorder. she wants me all to herself, not wanting me to be able to be in happy healthy relationships with other people. she is a weird, creepy, childish incredibly mean mexican female. she likes to hurt people emotionally or spiritually. she is sadistic, but then tries to cover it up with bullshit. black guy is the same. a few black women are the same. we are being stalked every day, like they are admitting to being weird and creepy. if people would get the media and police involved, i think that we could flush them out. if they knew that the public knew what they are doing, i think that it would serve as a deterrent.

this mexican girl is panicking like a young girl who is nervous and greedy for something would panic. she is desperately trying to get out of trouble. she thinks that she isn't going to have a good life, without a man with money. every time she acts aggressively, she is playing a childish game, panicking, like she is trying outsmart everyone or pretending as if she thinks that she is outsmarting everyone, with a stupid attitude like, "you don't know what i meant by that. you don't know what i meant by that. you don't know what i meant by that, etc." or in other words, it is like she is saying "you can't say anything bad about me. you can't say anything bad about me. you can't say anything bad about me." she thinks like an evil person who is in the drug scene or like an evil criminal, trying to hustle her way out of trouble. she even wants evil thug people to recognize what she is doing, because she is trying to make them think that she would fit in with them. no one would want this girl. no man or nobody at all. she is evil and doesn't care about the community. not old people. not children. not people who are trying to govern america or the world. nobody.

this black guy has an attitude, like (dumb/childish/stereo typical ugly creepy black shit punk attitude)"ah nah, don't think a sweet, honest white boy having a fun, peaceful, spiritual time with his girlfriend, think of an nasty stupid black man". he wants people to think that people like him rule the world, when they don't. he acts like a crazy homeless person. weird mental problem. he wants to hurt all people who are in loving happy relationships. he is stalking me and everyone else, wanting people to think that he is a weird childish creep, as a way of trying to intimidate the community. he thinks and acts like a thug criminal.

this black guy keeps making a stupid sick creepy joke about how he knows that he is irritating, lame and that no one likes him. he is pathetic. all this guy has ever done is to create unnecessary problems for people. get out of my house, negro. you are not invited there. it is the same thing with the mexican girl. i don't mean that i wouldn't invite a friendly black person into my home.

a few black people, like this black guy and a few black women, like the black woman stalking me online, who think and act like thug criminals, are trying to intimidate other black people into "acting a fool", and doing what they want the black people to do. it makes me think of blacks selling blacks into slavery; not giving a damn about them. what are they trying to accomplish??? they don't even have any power. they are weak, lazy black people who are panicking. the black people who are trying to force other black people into doing something for them don't even have power. they are unfriendly, fake and stupid. they are having an unrealistic fantasy about having power. they want black people to think that blacks are powerful in a way in which they are not, because they can easily get to me and others. what are they going to do when i am dead? i never wanted to harm black people. why are a few of them acting up? black people are better off working with whites and other groups, rather than segregating themselves. they will have more resources. younger generations should be cool with one another and work together. some of the old people are not open minded enough.

this black guy who people know about, who is acting stupid and aggressive, is a weird creep like r. kelley, but worse because he actually wants people to know that he is like r. kelley.

the few people who have mental problems, who are acting up causing unnecessary problems for the community, think that my girlfriend and i look happy and confident in public, and that makes them angry and envious, because they are not happy and confident. they don't like for us to look good in public, because they think that we look better than they could ever look, and that confuses them in public. strong, happy people don't have a problem with it. weak, unhappy people have a problem with it. don't be stupid, just because i am happy or because i can be happy. grow up, and make yourself happy.

ignorant people don't understand how flexible i am. it is other people who are not flexible who are the problem.

i wish that black women would quit hurting themselves. you are not mad at me. you are mad at yourselves. grow up and move on. i want black women and the entire black community to be happy.

this black guy and a few black women are so childish and socially lame. they lack confidence. they want people knowing that they like to mess with my confidence, all of the time, because they don't like being less confident than i am. it is like they are admitting to being lame, loss class, less confident creatures, who don't like to think of confident people being more confident than they are. it is like they are implying that childish, less confident black people should be dominant over people who are more mature and more confident. they are totally stupid, like they admit to thinking that they are stupid. they couldn't keep up with me, so they want to drag everyone down to their level.

THE PROBLEM HERE IS THAT I AM DEFENSELESS BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE POLICE OR GOVERNMENT OR MEDIA PROTECTION. WHY DON'T THEY JUST MAKE IT ABOUT A CITIZEN OF THE UNITED STATES WHO IS HAVING TROUBLE, AND NOT RELIGION? IT IS LIKE I AM TRYING TO FIGHT OFF SOME WEIRD CREEPY INSANE PERSON OR PEOPLE WHO ARE RAPING ME. THEY MAY HAVE SOME POWER, BUT I PUT UP A GOOD FIGHT SO THAT THEY DIDN'T WIN, OR SO THAT THEY "GO TO JAIL". I GOUGED OUT AN EYE AND GOT THEIR SKIN UNDER MY FINGERNAILS FOR DNA ANALYSIS. SEE YA!

this black guy and mexican girl, who both have my vision in their left eye, and who both can create contractions in my body which the rest of the group (144,000) worldwide can also sense, are nervous and panicking, but trying to play it off like they are cool in a really stupid, creepy, sleazy, fake way. it is like they think that they have been caught being something weird, like the opposite of God, and they are both faking having pride about it, but they don't, desperately trying to secure something for themselves, now, and in future incarnations. they think that they can't survive unless they trick people into thinking that i was the one who was evil. but they are so stupid, because what they are actually doing is sending a signal to evil people that they are the ones who are evil and that they are trying to recruit evil people, and people will not follow them because they don't care about having fun or being friendly. i think that these 2 people or entities started out as something strong and good, eons ago, but then became envious of the power which i had. just like story about satan. i know that i make them laugh and that they love me, but they are angry and want to hurt people. they want to be respected, but they won't be because they didn't respect others because of their weird creepy ego problem.

they try to create the impression that they are acting aggressively toward me because i am guilty of something. they are panicking, desperately trying to cover up the fact that they are guilty of something. they don't like what they are compared to me, and that is why they want to hurt my spirit, and also the spirits of people who they think care about me. i'm not stuck up. this is not a problem for strong people. it can be a problem for people who are not strong, or who develop envy. work on yourself to make yourself more confident. quit hurting me and other people.

some black women and this black guy want people to think that they are in a relationship with me because they think that it makes them seem powerful, and they do it because they don't think that they have power or because they think that other people think that they are not powerful. they pretend as if they think that they have power or are cool. very lame and childish. they spend all of their time playing stupid games, so they are nothing.

black women are sending a signal to this black man, "mess with the white boy. don't act like you like a white person more than black people." he is dong the same stupid thing with them. they try to make it seem like they like each other when they don't. they are fake and socially lame, trying to cover up each other's mistakes

the black girls who childishly mess with me probably have boyfriends who don't do much or who are into drugs or crime. that is why they feel the need to obstruct my life and lie about me. it seems like they feel the need to try to build up their men, by playing dumb girl games. it is not necessary. leave all men alone. get out of the way! mexican girl does it too. they are actually not trying to build their man up anyway, they don't want him to be strong by having me, or a strong friendly male, in their life. the girls don't want the men to be strong. they play evil shady childish girls games, pretending as if they think that their boyfriend should like them instead of me, because they think that their boyfriend will like me more. jeaously or whatever. they pretend as if they are doing one thing, when they are actually doing another. i don't trust most girls. some of them i do trust. i trust my girlfriend. i am a very lucky man to have her in my life. other people are lucky to have her too.

a few unattractive (mental/spiritual) people are intentionally provoking me, wanting to try to make me unattractive they like they are. actually, they are trying to make everyone unattractive like they are. i am not stuck up. they envy my unique spirit. i am a very happy cheerful person by nature, if you know me. humble. they are trying to make it seem like i am an angry evil man. i'm not. i'm like a sweet honest furry fluffy bunny rabbit. they are mocking a sweet honest man.

the problem here is that i am defenseless. it is like i am trying to fight off some weird creepy insane person who who is raping me. they may have some power, but i put up a good fight so that they didn't win, or so that they "go to jail". i gouged out an eye and got their skin under my fingernails for DNA analysis. see ya!

i am or we are being stalked by a childish crazy, mean spirited, very ugly attitude black woman over the internet. she wants to be in a relationship with me. she wants people to know that she is a black woman. it started when i sent mail to TMZ about paris hilton referring to me by name. my mail was stolen 2 times when i used the regular mail service, and i think a 3rd time when i used fed ex. i don't want to be in a relationship with her. she wants people to know that she is stalking me. weird crazy very mean childish people stalk me, wanting to play with me. they know that i am innocent, but want to be stupid and weird anyway.

this black guy is childish, weird and dishonest, implying that he is humiliating a white boy who he thinks that girls like more than him, when he knows that he actually isn't. girls don't like him, and i know that they have already communicated this. get out of our life, creep.

this seems to have become something about negative unhappy people, wanting to make positive happy people sad and frustrated. negative unhappy people do not want to have to compare themselves with positive happy people, so negative unhappy people want to make everyone negative. it started with christ, or someone who was positive and happy, or what started a difference between positive happy people and negative unhappy people. i am not a negative person. i have many reasons to be very happy and count my blessings. i would be very happy and peaceful if people would quit stalking me and they know that. people seem to envy my cheerfulness or confidence, and then they want to hurt me or make nervous in public. they have childish emotional problems. negative unhappy people do not like to observe me having a fun peaceful time, in public or with the public knowing about it, because they don't want to have to compare themselves to something which they are not. they think that it will complicate their personal lives because they are not happy. so then they come up with an "excuse" to ruin my life, and also the lives of other people who they think are like me (happy/positive). it is becoming a division between people who are happy and confident and people who are not happy and who lack confidence. or grace. society was already divided. i want these weird lame rude people to get out of my home. i want them to get away from my family, my girlfriend ,my dogs, my cats, my friends, my neighbors. do you get it? do you understand?


this black guy and mexican girl don't want to live in reality, because they don't like their reality. they want people to play make believe with them, like they are little children. they have serious mental problems. people could forgive them if it was just a mental problem, but because they are so cruel, they won't be forgiven.

this black guy and mexican girl are like animals, which get excitement from eating other animal. observing this is like observing a spider eating a fly which is caught in it's web. their spirit is like watching an animal eat another animal, with the animal being sort of dumb, and just acting on instinct. really nasty alien crap. they seem to have a different type of brain. they want people to know that it excites them to be able to prey upon and harm others psychologically. like weird people who got locked up in jail for a good reason. i think that maybe it has to do with reptiles or some reptilian entity which i have read about. they are weird childish, really disgusting, real cruel spirits, whatever they are. they like to flaunt it to. they attack people because they are nervous. it is also like thinking of someone who flipped on a light switch, and filthy roaches get confused and start to run around nervously.

a few of these people are like animals, which don't care about living in a clean environment. they are dangerous too. or like crazy drug addicts, who don't care about themselves. sorry everyone, there is nothing which i can do for you, unless you protect me or give me more power. i have suggested that people coordinate, and prove what christ + 144,000 are with a test on tv. it would be easy for people to understand, that childish weird people could act aggressively to a to public person who is defenseless or who has a lack of necessary security. i don't want to boss people around. i am not doing anything illegal or unethical with money. i don't want to work full time. i just want a very basis amount of respect. guess what? i am who i am. why don't you respect it or just deal with it, because it is going to occur again, and again, just like the sun rises in the east, every 24 hours. actually 23 hours, 56 minutes. 1 degree of longitude = 4 minutes or 240 seconds.

this black guy and mexican girl are insane, very childish, very greedy creatures or monsters who want power. some kind of really terrible alien crap. they want power because they think that they don't have power, and because they are nervous or panicking about it. they are trying to steal power away from me and also from the community, in general. i would not be going on so much on the internet, if they would leave me and other people alone every day. they want to make a story about themselves every single day, playing a very childish, very obnoxious game. why are they important? they are not important. they keep tying to make it seem like i am dishonest and that i deserve to be tortured, when i am the most honest person in the world, because i have to be, because i would go crazy if i were not, because i know that i am being sensed. it is very simple. i didn't and still don't want problems with the people who i am in constant 24/7 activity with, so i was and still am always honest, so that it is obvious that i am being honest and not wanting to betray their trust. sometimes i get a little confused or feel awkward because they want me knowing that they are lying about me and also because i don't have privacy, but the little confused or awkward feeling doesn't indicate that i am guilty or lying about anything. it lasts for a very brief moment and then goes away. evil people probably lie about what it is. like i stated in the post below, they want it to be obvious that i am innocent, but want people to think that they have an "excuse" to harm me and others, which means that htey really just want to harm people emotionally and spiritually. they are trying to make me confused and awkward, because they think that it gives them the opportunity to lie about what the feeling is about, knowing that good people will defend me, in order to also try to make the good people look evil, or to be able to mock good people. they think that as long as they have an "excuse" (george h. w. bush, northern trust bank, paris hilton) to play games and be evil, they will do it. i have never lied to anyone who i am in constant 24/7 activity with, and i have also never lied to anyone on the internet. it is very simple, but these evil people want to make a mockery of it. they are panicking because they are in trouble. i am not in trouble. they act like sleazy thugs. they didn't want to have to work like an honest nerd, like me, so they try to create a false impression that i am evil and unfriendly. i am not evil and i am not unfriendly. i can choose, just like anyone else can, to not want to be around evil, sleazy, childish creeps.

these people who are mean and acting aggressively toward me and the community want it to be obvious that i am innocent. like they are making a sick joke about it. they want people to know that they like harming an innocent person or innocent people in public, as long as they think that they have an "excuse" to do it or get away with it. they have very weird very serious psychological problems. like people who the cops would want off of the street because they are a danger to the community. very angry, very weird, very childish, extremely cruel. they want to mock innocent honest people who like to work. what they are doing is so ugly that it is bizarre. weird creatures. this has been going on for years. it is like they are admitting to being envious of me, wanting people to know that they will harm me anyone else who acts like they care about me. very childish. like very mean, very obnoxious children or adolescents whose brains didn't, or never develop properly.

another way to think about it is that this mexican girl and black guy and few black women intentionally sabotage, because they don't want to have to feel as if they have to compete with people who are more attractive. that is why they try to make me seem unattractive. what is happening is very ugly. they provoke me and obstruct in order to try and make it seem as if i am unattractive. they don't want people to talk about me being happy and having fun, because they think that it will complicate their life, because they think that they can't be happy or have fun. these people don't want anyone to seem more attractive than they are. that is why they are intentionally creating a toxic environment. they want to create misery and sadness, like it is a sick joke. they don't want to have to try to compete with people who are attractive, because they think that they can't.

part of the reason that this stupid rude evil mexican girl is wanting people to think that i am thinking of her, instead of my sweet smart girlfriend, shelly, is because this mexican is trying to overshadow girls who she thinks are more attractive. physically attractive, mentally attractive, spiritually attractive. she doesn't want to have to do real work in order to compete with other girls.

it seems like this childish mexican girl is trying to scare my girlfriend off when my girlfriend is at my home. the mexican knows that my girlfriend and i have talked about living together at my place when she retires, because she (or we) would have more money that way. this mexican girl doesn't want people to know that we are snug as a bug in a rug because of her envy or jealousy. it is so childish and stupid, that it is ridiculous. like this mexican girl wants to play make believe, like a child. she thinks that mexican guys will get envious or jealous or angry if they know that i am having a good time, but it seems like she is trying to make them envious or jealous. very weak, very stupid, very childish, very angry mexican girl. she doesn't want people to know that i am having a good time in public because she thinks that it will complicate her own love life. why? because i am stronger and happier than she is or than she can be.

a few of these people don't want other people to know that i am having fun in public, because they think that it will complicate their life. they think that people will think that i am better than they are or that i am superior, and that they are inferior, so they lie about me and obstruct, every day like clockwork, like they are admitting to being childish and stupid. they want me to go in circles. it is not a problem for strong, happy people. it is a problem for weak, unhappy people. when they think that they can't keep up, they obstruct or try to obstruct, like it is a childish game. like little children, who have an attitude like (childish/greedy/sour) "i don't want him to have a good time in public, because then i can't have a good time in public." they don't try to work for their happiness. very childish, selfish and mean.

this mexican girl and black guy have this incredibly weird, obnoxious, irresponsible attitude, like no one is allowed to communicate negative about them, even when they are intentionally giving people something negative to communicate about them. they are insecure, with a weird, very creepy ego problem. demons who are stupid who don't like what they are. they are flauting thinking that they are stupid. like they are implying that stupid people get attention too.

i think that some childish stupid ugly ghetto like greedy dishonest mean black girl put 'sweet heat' barbeque sauce from popeye's chicken on my girlfriend's front yard of her house the other night, because of how this black guy is trying to get weak black girl's to lie, stating that he is the turn on and that i am the turn off. he is wanting to ruin the sex experience, wanting to humiliate me and also other people who are having good sex, but also wanting black women to lie and state that he is the champion or turn on, and that i am not, even when they don't like him. these black people think that ignorant people would assume, that my girlfriend and i are not as strong as we are, because of how we are stong. these black people have an image problem, so they are lying for one another and also obstructing, so that it is not as obvious that i am a sweet, friendly person. they are pretending as if they think that they are more attractive than i am, because they think that people think that they are unattractive. it seems to be a childish mean obnoxious dumb greedy evil ghetto thug like black girl who is telling the black guy to try to make the white boy who they think looks better than they do, look stupid in public, when he is having good sex with his girlfriend. like some childish evil greedy black ghetto girl saying to him, "try to trick ignorant people into thinking that you are sexual and the white boy ain't". it is so stupid. they do it because they think that i am getting attention for something. my girlfriend and i are lovebirds. it doesn't matter what they "think". what matters is what i think, and what i know that other people communicate that they think, and i want these nasty childish evil greedy negros to get away from me, my family, my girlfriend, my pets, my friends and the community in general. they already knew that. this doesn't mean that i hate all black people. i don't like nasty, mean, evil black people, just like i don't like nasty, mean, evil white people. they are also wanting me to think that they are threatening my girlfriend or my girlfriend's peace and happiness, with their ugly aggression. i don't have a problem with a nice, cool, honest black man, teasing me in a and other people in a loving way when i have sex with my girlfriend. i have a problem with an evil greedy thug like cruel negro creep, trying to make me look stupid, because he thinks that i look better than he does. get away from me and other people, too. they are panicking because they think that they made themselves seem unattractive, so they are trying to make people think that i am unattractive. all of this internet crap, too. i would have been doing something else, peaceful and happy and confident, if these lame childish weirdos would leave me alone. they want to play with me because they think that i am fascinating, but i don't want to play with them. doesn't mean that i am unfriendly. these black people who are acting up are nervous. i don't have a reason to be nervous. they do. they are nervous, insecure, panicking; sending a signal to other black people that they are nervous, insecure and panicking, because they are trying to get all black people to act a fool and try to get themselves out of the image problem which they created. i don't think that it will work. being more stupid will create a bigger problem. why don't you just move on, and admit that a few black people got stupid and mean? i would guess that it is about 70% or 80% on my side. that means that there is about 30% or 20% of stupid childish evil crap out there. are you sure that you want to do this?


someone told me that including the psalms in prayer is good or will help keep me grounded.

i have started to pray a little bit, and this mexican girl is harassing me, intentionally making it so that i can't have a peaceful, healthy moment. it doesn't surprise me. i will keep trying and keep praying. she has always been smug, obnoxious, childish and mean. she is attempting to fool ignorant people, into thinking that she is being loving. she isn't. she is actually making a sick joke about how she isn't loving. some ignorant people may think, "maybe she was being nice, and you are not being nice." nope. that is exactly how she is trying to fool you. she is evil. she is flaunting being evil, playing a game. very stupid girl. she is also making fun of sweet mexicans. she thinks that she can either make people think that she was being loving, or recruit evil people, as long as she thinks that she can get a guy with money. she is confused, not knowing what she is doing or how to lie her way out of trouble. i understand if you would think "maybe you don't understand what she is doing" because it sounds confused. that is exactly how she is trying to fool you. she thinks like a criminal. also like a nasty drug addict who doesn't care about herself (even if she isn't using drugs). she wants to interfere with my relationship with other people, just like she is making it obvious that she wants to interfere with my relationship with God. she does it because of her weird envy. she wants mexican guys to know that she is envious, like she is trying to make them envious and angry too. very weird. she is so afraid of mexican guys. she thinks that she needs to lie to them about me, in order to try to make them feel superior. she thinks that she can make me unpopular, one way or another. one lie is that she was friendly and that i wasn't. the other lie is that i did something terrible in reference to george h. w. bush and northern trust bank, when she really really really actually does know with certainty that i did not do something terrible, and that it was someone else's fault. she is insecure, trying to cover for the black guy who she knows was the problem. they are weird and insecure together, wanting power or sex, but they can't get it and are angry. this mexican girl is so stupid and uncivil, because one of the things which she is doing is sending a signal to mexican guys that she is shady, and likes shady mexican guys who are insecure, angry, and who put on an incredibly stupid fake macho act. like she thinks of it as the way which some mexicans act, like it is a trend that she wants to be a part of.

a few people are stalking the community because they were rejected. they are like people with psychological or maturity problems who would put turbo lax in the figgy pudding at a christmas party. ha. actually, it is not funny. we are sick of it. they are intentionally creating a confused, toxic environment. i don't want to do that with this website. i am trying to get it to stop. i want people to be happy and peaceful.

this black guy who is stupidly irritating everyone, including the black women who lie, stating that they like him when they actually don't, does what he does because he thinks that he doesn't have power. he doesn't do it because he thinks that he has power. he does it because he thinks that he doesn't have power or because he thinks that people think that he doesn't have power. very weak, very childish, insecure black man.

these black women who are messing with everyone are sending signals to people that they are smug and ugly and thug and dumb, shady and low class and lame and childish. some black women are a threat to national and global security. they have a psychological problem. very angry and very childish. i wasn't the initial problem. they think that this is the underground railroad or something. do you know why? because they don't about joining in with loving people. they would rather think about being former slaves.

this black woman or these black women who are harassing me and everyone else, when i am online, are like cheesy childish black people who try to intimidate others with fake gold shit on their car or fake fat stupid gold chains, just like they are fake. go away. many black people care about real success. these black women who are playing games don't care about success.

some person who wants people to know that they are a black female keeps bullying me when i am online. just because she is doing something with a computer, doesn't mean that she is sophisticated. she is an ugly, weird, childish, incredibly mean psychopath. that was the problem to begin with back in 2008. this person is sending signals to the mexican girl and black guy to keep harassing me. they think that if they gang up on the community, that they think that they can make it seem like they are right and everyone else is wrong. just a few people got themselves into trouble, and they are panicking, trying to get themselves out of trouble.

it is so weird how lame, childish, rude people want to mess with my confidence while i am doing something in public, like they are making a sick joke about how they are doing this. it is sadistic. it would be like someone throwing something at someone when they are on stage, performing in front of an audience. they can do it because they envy the attention which the person on stage is getting, so they want attention for something.


paris hilton isn't loving or kind. she wanted to make it all about her publicity and cheesy cockiness. she probably wants people to think that i was a fan of hers. i wasn't. i wrote to her just trying to cheer her up when she was in jail, without caring about whether she wrote back. i didn't think that she would, and then she did something weird and childish. she violated me publicly, like she wanted people to know that she gets off on it. low class rich kid. she has created a problem for many people all over the world. didn't seem to care about building people up strong and peaceful and happy. mexican girl acts like she doesn't care about building people up either. neither did some black women. what they did (and are still doing) to me is so ugly, weird, childish. like they want to play with me, and don't want to be able to play with anyone else. they didn't act like they wanted to submit to a higher cause. they wanted to make it about their attitude or childishness and it created a problem. they seem to be making a sick joke about how they think that they can't build. hilton could have fixed the problem which she created for the community, by showing me (and other people) a very very basic amount of respect. she is playing a game, like maybe this meant that or maybe that meant this, because she plays evil greedy games with the media, thinking that she can use it anyway she wants to.

I WOULD REALLY LIKE TO CLEAN UP THIS 'COMMUNITY' SECTION OF THIS WEBSITE, ONLY INCLUDING INFORMATION WHICH IS ABSOLUTELY NECESSARY TO STOP JUST THE FEW PEOPLE FROM THINKING THAT THEY CAN GET AWAY WITH LYING ABOUT ME. I AM REALLY SICK OF IT. I REALLY DON'T WANT TO THINK ABOUT IT ANYMORE. I AM NOT AN ANGRY STUCK UP JERK. SOCIAL AND CHEERFUL IF YOU MET ME IN PERSON. I AM IN A DIFFICULT SITUATION.

this black guy is a weird angry insecure punk ass freak. he makes his problem everyone else's problem. i am not the problem. he desperately wanted to be thought of as a player, when he isn't. this mexican girl is playing a game, like it is a stupid game about playing a stupid game. she has been doing it for years. they are both doing it. people know what they are doing. they act like angry obnoxious disrespectful children. they are evil too. really evil. so evil that it is weird. they are trying to get something for themselves, but without wanting to have to communicate with words in order to get it. very greedy and very rude. it is like getting jacked on the street by someone with a knife or gun. both of them are like this. a few other people have been like this too.

both the black guy and mexican girl have a weird childish fantasy about people thinking that they are God and that i am evil, because they don't want people to know what they know they are.

this mexican girl wants people to think that mexican girls are angry and obnoxious. that is what she wants as an image. like she is all attitude and no brain. she wants mexican guys to think that they are supposed to give her something. ha. good luck, you evil, disrespectful scum bag. she is also messing with me and everyone else so much that she is trying to make ignorant people think that the people who are communicating about her don't know what we are communicating about. we do know what we are communicating about. she is a mexican girl who is about 30 years old, who i think still lives in houston, texas. she is evil, with a real nasty attitude problem. this black guy is evil, with an attitude problem also.

a few people imply that i am not allowed to be somebody happy in life, because they think people think that they aren't a happy somebody in life. they are obstructing people's lives. they are obstructing people's happiness. they are very childish and very angry. i am not wanting to obstruct people's happiness. people are creating a problem, and because i don't have privacy and am involved in it, i am basically communicating that i can't help. people are communicating that there is a problem, whether i communicate about it or not. so i think that it is better if i communicate something too. do you get it? i really don't like this. i am stuck. get tv news and the police or the government involved. ok?

a few people are being ugly and stupid, just for the sake of being ugly and stupid, or because they think that they can get away with it, taunting people and the authorities. it reveals something really horrible about human nature. no. i'm not making this up, like this mexican girl or other people, want you to think that i am. she is trying to trick ignorant people into thinking that i am trying to trick ignorant people. she is evil. pure evil. what she are a few other people are doing is blatant sadism. they want the public to know what they are doing, and they are implying that they can get away with it. it is a sadistic evil creature, which wants to mock kind, sincere people, like me. why don't you make a story about this with tv news, because i think that you will be able to flush this mexican girl and black guy out? you should document this, so that the police and military and governments officially know. their families know about who they are and what they are capable of doing, being able to create contractions of my muscle and soft tissue, which the rest of the group (144,000) worldwide can sense. they have my vision in their left eye. they were not born with this, they developed it at a certain point in their life. they seem to be animals, mixed with human. it is incredibly disturbing to have to be stuck with them, like being stuck in a jail cell or psychiatric ward with someone who is mean, crazy and evil. they are angry creatures. they don't like thinking about what they are, compared to me, but they pretend as if they do like themselves. they are in a type of shock about what is going on and what they are.

every single day for years this mexican girl and black guy try to associate me with george h. w. bush and northern trust bank and johnny depp, when i am not associated with george h. w. bush or northern trust bank or johnny depp. they are constantly trying to cover up the fact that this black guy and mexican girl are the problem; trying to wrongfully defame me. it is so unbelievably stupid and childish. like they want to play make believe like little children, like they want others to know that they want others to play make believe with them. leave me alone. you are lame. i didn't do anything wrong with paris hilton either, like some black women wanted people to think. it is stupid. leave me alone. you are lame.

every single day, this mexican girl and black guy (and still sometimes black women) are holding everyone hostage, telling people to obstruct and lie about me.

every day, lame childish people fantasize about people thinking that they are more interesting or important than they are because of their stupid lies about me. they need to grow up.

some people like to confuse me or harm me in public. it is sadistic, and they try to get other people to join in with them. they also want to confuse or harm people who they think care about me. they like to make me feel awkward or confused in public, like it is a sick game. i had to go through it, because it is just the way this situation is, but then some people wanted others to know that they got a sick childish thrill from observing me go through it, so they intentionally created unnecessary obstacles. it is a terrible thing about human nature and i wish that it would stop. they want the public to think that they have an excuse to harm me, but they don't, and it is just indicative or their desire to harm innocent people and get away with it. it could be an interesting, peaceful time right now. it seems like some people are angry that other people are more peaceful or could be more peaceful than they can be, so they are acting up, causing unnecessary problems.

the black guy's rapper name is MC gerber. his debut album is 'bush, da bank, and booullshit'.

i know that black guys don't agree with what this black guy is doing.

this black guy stupidly and childishly creates discomfort or tension, when i am creating comfort or peace, because he is envious or jealous. he is pretending as if he thinks that him doing something which he knows is stupid makes him more attractive. he is fake and weird. he is making a stupid joke about being irritating and dominant and dominant at the same time, and also pretending as if he thinks that the girls like it, when he knows that they don't. he pretends like he thinks that people like him or that people think that he is cool, when he knows that they don't. he is socially lame. weird psychological problem. he is a weird childish irritating insecure creepy black man. he thinks that girls think that he is unattractive, so he does something which he knows is unattractive, pretending as if he thinks that girls should think that he is attractive, or that he likes himself. he is fake and cheesy. creepy and childish and fake. you could call him mc gerber, because he is so childish. or mc cheese creep.

these black people and mexican girl who lie about me and my character are stupid for doing what they are doing. i never wanted to hurt anyone. that is the main difference between me and them. the main reason that i was confused about george h. w. bush and northern trust bank was because of this black guy messing with me. he had been steering me in the wrong direction for years. i didn't know that he was an ignorant black guy. i thought that he was something advanced, who worked for the government or something. i was having a big love dream and i also had a drug problem because i was sad. just because i have used drugs, doesn't make me an evil person. i never wanted to harm anyone, and i wasn't interested in banks. after the black guy confused me about northern trust bank, i thought that many people were going to invest there, and that would generate interest, and that would help all the banks or do something positive for the entire world. my mind wanted to try to make sense of it somehow. it didn't mean anything at all, and all i hoped for was something positive for all types of people, and someone else was the cause of the confusion, so there is no problem. why do you keep skipping over the fact that the black guy (who i didn't know was an ignorant black guy) confused me, playing dumb unnecessary games? he is lying and telling other people to lie, stating that i intended to write about northern trust bank before he confused me about it, because he doesn't want to take responsibility for playing dumb unnecessary games, causing a problem. all it was, was a big love dream. it is funny. i never wanted to harm anyone. but because he has been caught several times being mean and stupid, he is now lying about it. since a few black women have been caught being mean and stupid too, they are now lying about it. they are trying to use each other a way of lying or trying to "fix" their image problem. they think that they have made themselves look bad, and are insecure about it. i never wanted to harm anyone, and that is the main difference between me and them. people know that i dreamt, and still dream, of something all inclusive. maybe it is easier said that done, but i think that eventually, there will be more diversity. i was glad that i eventually talked openly about what i had done, writing about northern trust bank after the black guy confused me about it, because the situation was making me act stupid and weird in public, thinking that northern trust bank was more important that it was, and also that i had to keep something to myself because of the thought of people not understanding who (turned out to be an ignorant black guy) was communicating to me about the bank or why. i am glad that a nurse at the VA hospital in houston, texas, put a magazine with a picture of johnny depp next to my bed, because it caused me to think that the police at the VA hospital had gotten into my apartment while i was in the hospital, and looked around in my computer. i had written to johnny depp about the bank, thinking that it was my duty to do this, and also because i had started to write a story and imagined johnny depp as a character like a cameo. i think that i had already written to the viper room about this before i wrote about the bank. evil mean people want ignorant people to think that i did something unethical. why do you keep skipping over the part where the black guy played a dumb, childish, unnecessary game, confusing me about northern trust bank? I THOUGHT THAT IT WAS MY DUTY TO COMMUNICATE ABOUT IT. i also tried to protect people from that bank a few years later, because the whole thing didn't make any sense to me after a while. i didn't communicate about the bank in an unethical way. i was just confused about it, thinking that i had been told that it was special for some reason. i explained that i saw a sign for the bank in the elevator of george h. w. bush's office. i have written more about this at the bottom of this 'community' section of this website. i wrote "i am not intentionally steering you in that direction, but you might want to check it out. (or) i am not trying to intentionally steer you in that direction, but you might want to check it out." i don't think that johnny depp ever got the mail, because he wasn't at the viper room any more like i thought that he was. the hospital incident was 3 years after the black guy did something dumb, not taking responsibility for him being the reason that i went to george h. w. bush's office, just dropping off innocent, confused mail. that is when i saw the sign for the bank in the elevator. the black guy made me think that there was, or that maybe there was, a special relationship between bush and myself. i already thought that maybe there was because of "1000 points of light" and the black guy confused me even more. i couldn't make any sense of this situation, knowing that i didn't have privacy, and thinking that i didn't have official support, or that i wasn't supposed to do something like a "miracle" (young and hopeful and naïve). the black guy put me into an awkward situation. he was playing dumb unnecessary games and confused me. it is so simple. i never lie to anyone. the few people who got caught being evil and mean want ignorant people to think that i am the most dishonest, evil person in the world. i am not. it is so simple. just because i am defending myself, doesn't mean that i am guilty of something. some black people will probably lie and say that i was really nervous when i typed this when i wasn't. slightly awkward for brief moment because i lack privacy, and because people want me to know that they are lying about me, but nothing which indicates guilt. they want people to think that something is more interesting than it is because they are lame, boring people. they want people to think that they are interesting or exciting, because they are "involved" with a bank and a former president. george h. w. bush passed away in 2018. please let him rest.

this black guy who can create contractions of my muscle and soft tissue is admitting to being a weird envious obnoxious jealous childish unattractive socially lame irritating creep, making a sick joke of it. he is also telling black women to lie and say that they don't think this when they actually do. in other words, he is telling black women to lie and say that they like him even when he acts like a weird envious obnoxious jealous childish unattractive socially lame irritating creep. in other words, he wants black women to say that they like him more than they like me, no matter how unattractive and stupid he is. he is fake and he thinks that he can put pressure on weak black women to be fake. he has a weird psychological problem. he is trying to disrupt love and harmony. i know that most black people know about him and don't like what he is doing.

i have no intent to purchase a firearm or harm anyone. i wish that people wouldn't harm me and other innocent members of the community. it is nonsense. like childish people who are acting up like obnoxious crazy children in a classroom. leave people alone.

I UNDERSTAND IF IGNORANT PEOPLE WOULD THINK THAT IT SEEMS LIKE I AM JUST ANGRY AND STUCK UP. THAT IS EXACTLY HOW EVIL PEOPLE ARE TRYING TO FOOL YOU. THEY ARE INTENTIONALLY PROVOKING ME AND CONFUSING ME, OBSTRUCTING EVERY DAY, KNOWING THAT I WILL TRY TO DEFEND MYSELF AND THE COMMUNITY. THEY THINK THAT THEY LOOK BAD, SO THEY ARE TRYING TO MAKE ME LOOK BAD. THEY ARE EVIL AND CHILDISH.

for the black women who are intentionally segregating themselves from the rest of the community, you are not giving yourself more resources. you are giving yourself less resources. the same is true of white supremacists. i am stuck in the middle. it is really about loving intelligent people, instead of the color of skin. people can't be forced to live with or like one another, but don't hate each other or harm each other.

it is really weird and childish of people to lie about me and money. cruel. they want people to think that they have an excuse to prevent me from having fun, working and earning honest money, just as other people do. work is good for me and for this group of people. it is a type of therapy. it is therapeutic. repetitious activity. bible study once a week did the same thing. it wasn't so much about the bible, as it was consistent, healthy social activity. they really just don't want me to have fun and and more confidence, socializing a little bit and also doing something challenging/rewarding. they know that it would make me more confident; being good for my metal health. they don't like it when i am strong, because they don't like thinking about how i am stronger than they are. weak, childish, evil people are doing this. they don't like it when i look good in public, because they think that they don't look good or because they don't want people to think that i am better than they are because of how a few of them they screwed up. then they want ignorant people to think that i am lying about wanting to work, like they are children who want to play make believe, wanting other people to join in with them. i currently have a job which most people wouldn't do or think about doing. i just wanted something closer to my home in houston. this mexican girl and black guy didn't establish trust, so that i know that i can work at a job, without them pointlessly interrupting and interfering. i think that i also have had a problem with childish, mean, dishonest black women going to my job to stalk, harass and confuse me while i am trying to concentrate. they are implying that they have a reason to do this, when what it really means is that they are in a very stupid denial about having been a problem. they would attempt to fabricate evidence to try to use against me or they would attempt to cover up the fact that they were the problem, by wrongfully and stupidly implying that i had been the problem. it is saddening, because i like to work. it would have been good for this entire group or the entire community. i am still going to work, but it is not as convenient as a job in houston would have been. i don't think that i have to report the money which i am earning, working for my step dad's brother in la grange, texas, but i can try to learn more about this. it is not that much, and it is not an official or consistent schedule. i am blessed to have security in my life, but i can't get ahead or have a little spare money in my bank account. this is not bullshit like evil, childish people stupidly try to make people think that it is. i wanted to officially work. i am still going to do what i am currently doing for my step dad's brother at his ranch in la grange, texas. more important than money is me getting out of my house for a few days every week. it is good for everyone's mind. the people who are stupidly lying and sabotaging don't care about having a healthy mind. they are like drug addicts who don't care about their own health.

i have told my girlfriend, shelly, that we don't have privacy. she doesn't care. i am not always a psych ward silly goof. it is good for everyone's love making. it was funny, because she stated "i've always been somewhat of an exhibitionist" or something to that effect. people probably assume that it is worse or more awkward than it is. it isn't. we fare well. lots O' love... it would be sort of like watching a tv reality show. mr. and mrs. snuggleupagus...

have a good life. care about having a happy life. don't ruin your life, playing childish unnecessary games. move on.

don't want to seem like a party pooper, but it really seems like this mexican girl and black guy and a few black women and paris hilton wanted to humiliate me in public because they thought that it was fun or interesting. their behavior is indicative of their hatred of me, but i am not a bad person. ??? quit gossiping about me unnecessarily. it is like constantly or unnecessarily gossiping about the fact that the sun rises every day in the east, every 24 hours.

it seems like this mexican girl and black guy are implying that my sweet girlfriend and i are not allowed to have a good time this december on a sea cruise to mexico and also that she is not allowed to live with me at my place, like snug as a bug lovebirds in a cozy home with a little extra money. this mexican girl and black guy are so childish and envious or jealous that it is weird and stupid. like little children who are mean and retarded. i understand if people who don't know me think that this sounds like i am stuck up. i'm not. i am just telling you, seriously, that it seems like some people want to interfere with my happiness and fun because they don't like comparing themselves to someone who is happy and fun when they are not happy or having fun. i think that some black women are pissed off about it too, because they don't like it when i look good or happy in public, because of how they gave themselves a bad image. i wouldn't be surprised if they were lying about what my girlfriend stated to me, which was witnessed by the entire group. in fact, my girlfriend brought it up herself, meaning, the thought about living at my place eventually. she can save or have more money that way. they are always childishly and stupidly trying to make it look like i am a money problem when all i do is the same thing which other people do. people who are in relationships think of ways of making money situations work better for the both of them. there is nothing wrong with it. they seem to be pissed because they think that i will be having fun in public. they have the weird fixation on money. they are just envious or jealous, because what my girlfriend and i do, is done in public, and we are in love and a good match.

this mexican girl and black guy have incredibly weird, incredibly disturbing, disgusting mental problems. they are some type of low level version of an alien (like russian nesting dolls) which seems to be more like an animal. it is like we are sensing weird zombies who wants us to know that it likes to harm and confuse us. it is an envious, very childish creature. they are both human beings on earth. they both have my vision in their left eye (evil eye). there is something wrong with their brain. they were not born with this. black male developed it in february 1998. mexican female developed it in may of 2011. they can both create contractions of my muscle and soft tissue which the entire group (144,000) worldwide can sense. they use it to harass and stalk people. very creepy. or like a weapon to subdue. they use it to obstruct. they use it to intentionally invoke fear into people, like the fear of not being independant of them so that we can have positive thoughts. they got themselves into trouble by showing off like little children, and then once people complained about them, they decided to lie about what has happened, and betray the entire community. they are so lame and childish. they get a thrill from sadism. they are taunting the community. sore losers who want to harm people spiritually.

a few black people are being a problem. ignorant people don't understand how stupidly aggressive they are being. really creepy and really lame. they want to be thought of as sleazy, like it is some kind of psychological warfare game to them. it is inhumane. it is abusive. they fake thinking that they are cool or smart. it is so fake and cheesy that it is ridiculous. they got stuck with christ and it confused them because they are not like christ. it seems like they are angry because they think that they are inferior. i am not a white supremacist. i know that caring, honest black people still defend me, despite what i have communicated here. it is not all blacks that i am frustrated with. it is the evil, lazy, lame, sleazy thugs who act up causing unnecessary problems for people who i don't like.

low class, dishonest unintelligent lazy childish fake pride black people are trying to intimidate loving honest intelligent black people who have more class and more money. the low class blacks are telling others to act like they hate white people. it is confusing, because i am a loving white person. they don't care about acting like they are loving, so they shouldn't complain when they segregate themselves. bye.

this mexican girl is like a child who grabbed the steering wheel of a car going crazy wanting to play around, and she is smashing the car into everything in sight, because she is too young to drive. danger to the community. she is childish and doesn't care about people.

this black guy and mexican girl and a few black women have an attitude like a envious or jealous child, like (obnoxious temper tantrum/voice of a child) "I don't like this! he can have more fun than i can have!" or "i don't like this! he can be happier than i can be!" they don't like for me to look better or more cool than they think that they can look in public, because of how they think that people know that they have damaged their own image. what they are doing is very childish and very selfish. like little children. they imply that i am not allowed to have fun or enjoy my life. their dishonesty about me and money is really stupid. not only are they lying about northern trust bank and paris hilton, knowing damn well that i am innocent, but they imply that i am not allowed to work an honest job, just as other honest people do. they are obstructing so that i don't know if there will be a problem at a job. they don't establish trust. they mock an honest guy who likes to work. evil and very sleazy and very childish. it is because of their envy. they don't want me to look good in public because they think that they don't look good. it also seems like this mexican girl and black guy are trying to make it so that my girlfriend doesn't want to live with me at my place, so that she (or we) can have more money after she retires, implying that i am doing something evil with money. they are just stupid and envious, implying that my girlfriend and i are not allowed to have more fun in our lives because there would be more money. my girlfriend and i have already talked about her moving into my place eventually and she seems to think that it would be a good idea. i have a nice town home and my bills are paid. help from parents and uncle sam. these evil childish people keep trying to use money against me because they are obsessed with money themselves. they are after money, trying to trick people into thinking that they have honor when they don't, so that they can hustle someone for money. leave me alone. get a life. quit lying about me and money. do you know what this black guy and mexican girl are really angry about? that i have love in my life. that it is evident that a girl loves me and wants to be with me. they try to stupidly twist it into something about money, when actually it is about and love and partnership. i have a cozy place, and these 2 are pissed off about it. they want to hurt everyone around them because they don't like themselves.



this black guy and a few black people (mostly women) are promoting hate, disrespect, laziness, dishonesty, stupidly, childishness, ugliness, cruelty, racism. i have tried, and God knows that i am actually a sweet honest boy. i understand if ignorant people would think that i seem angry and stuck up. that is how they are trying to trick ignorant people. it is impossible to work with some of these people because they are unintelligent and socially lame. they are cheesy and fake. they will be the dumb leading the dumb. go ahead. suit yourself. they don't believe in what they are doing. they gave themselves an image problem, and instead of moving on with their lives, like i tried to help them do, they want to remind people of it all day long, every day. too bad. don't make it my problem or anyone else's problem.


for the most part, this is childish, mean spirited lame females trying to make a unique male look dumb in public. they developed an inferiority complex, which means that they think that they are inferior. strong confident smart girls don't have this problem. they don't want to make this about a unique, peaceful, confident male in public, so they are intentionally obstructing. they want to try to take power away from men. this is very painful. i wish that someone would help. you don't understand how often i am being obstructed. i am not a snob. i just want peace and quiet for everyone. these girls have an attitude like "ha! oh yeah! think about childish obnoxious lame girls instead of a cool peaceful guy who works." they want to try to make me look stupid, because they think that they look stupid. mean spirited, vindictive, childish, angry, spiteful.

this mexican girl's family is really really stupid and uncaring for supporting their daughter while their daughter is blatantly violating people, all day long, every day. she does not intend to be thought of as friendly, and there is no reason to be harming me. she lies. she doesn't want to leave me alone, because she knows that people would communicate that our lives improved, and so she doesn't want it to seem like she was the problem. she keeps everything the same stupid thing every day all day long. she is evil. she is boring and socially lame. their daughter is intentionally harming people spiritually, holding people hostage, like she is demanding that someone respect her, even though she is being blatantly harmful and disrespectful toward the community. she has a weird childish anger and ego problem. sort of like a zombie. really. she lies to her parents, not wanting them to understand how childish and irritating she is intentionally being. she is intentionally obstructing people's lives. she is making a sick stupid joke about knowing that she is a failure. she is making a sick stupid joke about how she thinks that she is weak or about how she thinks that girls like her are weak. like "yeah. hehe. i'm stupid and weak. hehe. isn't that funny? i couldn't handle the responsibility. i have a personality disorder. hehe."


this mexican girl and black guy like to intentionally be thought of as creepy and evil, like they are stupidly implying that it is funny. they are making a sick joke which isn't funny at all. they are socially lame. they have a weird ego and anger problem. deranged. brutality. they are trying to recruit evil people, but i don't think that it will work out too well for them. they are actual demons. in a way it is fascinating to experience, but that doesn't mean that i want to continue to experience it. one function which the devil has is to scare people into not being like what it is. satan being cast down makes sense. these things want more power than God, but they will end up with nothing or not very much because their blatant disrespecful greediness gave them away. they seem to be more like animals than human.


it is like an evil unintelligent sadistic tyrant has confined me and anyone who acts like they care about me when it knows that i am innocent. do you understand? it is like having been kidnapped and then tortured slowly in the basement of the assailant's house. the 144,000 and the u.s. government should fight back. the military should now about this. just putting the word out would act as a deterrent or a type of psychological warfare. people should not act like they are afraid to associate with me in public. it makes evil mean weird people think that they can get away with whatever they want to. children don't get in line unless the adult uses a type of force. if order is not enforced, the child will continue to act up because they think that they don't have to take the adult seriously. this is about thousands of years of future social development. please make the most of it. i am tired of needlessly suffering. this situation has revealed something ugly about human behavior. people like to pick on me for no good reason, intentionally hurting me spiritually in public. they flaunt being weird and mean. they are socially lame. it is incredibly nasty. they do it because they know that my spirit would otherwise soar. since we (i don't necessarily mean people who are reading this) are stuck together (144,000/our central nervous systems are fused), they don't like to sense me being happier or more confident or more peaceful or more popular than they are. strong people are not a problem. weak childish people are the problem. they try to make themselves feel better about themselves, by intentionally making me uncomfortable. like they are saying in a really mean greedy way "yeah! that's right! i got more than you got!" and they do it because they didn't like thinking about how i had more than they have. they are greedy. they don't like thinking of how they feel inferior, so they are sabotaging my life in order to make themselves feel "better". again, strong people are not the problem. they feel like equals to me. i am not stuck up. i am social and flexible. you should meet me in person.


these few people who think that they made themselves look cruel and evil are really pissed because they got caught. now they want to hurt everyone. they are socially lame. it is scary. they are like children who are angry because they didn't or couldn't get their way, and so now it is like they are screaming and throwing things around, breaking them. it is like terrorism and i wish that some of the 144,000 and the u.s. government would make a story on tv news, in order to try to deter unnecessary pointless aggression.. i don't think that anyone would want to mess with it. like the honor system. people don't want to create a social problem for themselves. if a few people did act up, we could handle it as necessary. a few people are playing blatantly stupid games right now. they want to be thought of as stupid and irritating, like they get a thrill from complicating good people's lives. like vandalism. the stupid will spread if we don't get it under real control. please show some respect and courage.


this black guy is like a weak, childish basketball player, who makes a bad move, thinking that he made himself look bad, who then whines and complains and bitches like a dishonest, stupid little weird negro bitch, blaming everyone else on the basketball team for his mistake. he is lying and telling black women to lie for him, also letting them know that he will lie for them. these people are sleazy dishonest thugs who are trying to attract other sleazy dishonest thugs. it is not that i am a problem. it is other people who are not like me who are the problem. many people are christ like. some are not.


this mexican girl is trying to have me killed by intentionally making everyone in this activity group (144,000) mentally stressed and sick. they would kill me in order to get rid of her. she is really annoying and obnoxious. she has tried to kill me before, but failed. i think that she thinks that she can get black people or black women to do her dirty work for her. my parent's home in la grange is more secluded, and therefore, a better place for someone to try to commit murder. i go out there to work every few weeks. i want to email the fayette county sheriff department and the la grange police department. i could also send the email to an austin, texas tv news station. she is making people sick, and then if people communicate about it, she thinks that she can fool ignorant people into thinking that we are trying to get money from people. i have to earn money just like other people do. i am not lazy. she just recently messed up my time with a job search lady from the houston veteran's administration. she doesn't want me to work because she doesn't want me to be more respected than her. i am doing work right now in la grange which most people in my situation wouldn't do. she has always tried to trick ignorant mexicans into thinking that i am lazy and unfriendly. the truth is that she thinks that i am more motivated and more friendly than they are, but she doesn't want them to know that, because she thinks that the will become envious or jealous or angry. she has always thought that she needs to lie to mexican guys about me in order to build them up.



this black guy and mexican girl are violating people really bad. they have a mental problem like they are retarded and also very mean and sleazy. it is like they got close to a person who they wanted to be close to or have sex with, and were then rejected, and then they use unwanted sleazy force to do something like rape. continually. over and over. every day. they both have mental problems. they are admitting to being failures with a smug attitude. it is very creepy. they are some type of alien. i think associated with constellation of draco/alpha draconis. i also thought that maybe it has something to do with the moon, because i think that i read that scientists think that there used to be 2 moons. it is horrible. if i had a fire arm and knew where they lived, i would consider killing them, even if i went to jail for 10 or 20 years. they like to harm people emotionally or spiritually. very creepy and sleazy. they are taunting the police or any type of authority. i wish that we could make an international story about this with tv news, because they are a threat now and also in future incarnations. they are trying to take power away from me and other good people.



it would be nice if someone showed my family and my girlfriend and myself some respect. if i were able to communicate in person to people, who i knew were aware of this situation, i would be able to better cope. you can communicate with people who know about the situation. i can't. it helps you cope and spread love. are you implying that i am not allowed to be a social person, or to be able to socialize with other people (family and friends) about my life or about who i actually am? my family? my girlfriend? am i not allowed to be someone, while at the same time being that person? anti climatic. i have told them about what is happening, but they think that i am crazy or that maybe i am crazy. then i have to do this in front of everyone. how does that help my confidence? it doesn't. how does it help anyone's confidence? we are not doing work. you are not giving me any power, which also means that you don't have any power. i don't understand why people don't want to try to advance the law. science. you should take advantage of a free country and free press which would protect people. why are you making this uncomfortable for me? how does that help people's confidence? does it mean that people are getting a thrill from watching me struggle, and not be able to be closer to my family and girlfriend? you don't want to make them into anyone either? i would get more support from my family if they knew about what was going on. my mother would stop thinking that i am crazy and not get angry or frustrated when i try to explain what is happening. it is humiliating. my family would have more respect and love for me. do you have problem with that? it would also give me an opportunity to be more of a leader. you are not forcing people to develop, or to be more open minded.

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The Shepherds and the Angels
8And there were shepherds residing in the fields nearby, keeping watch over their flocks by night. 9Just then an angel of the Lord stood before them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were terrified. 10But the angel said to them, “Do not be afraid! For behold, I bring you good news of great joy that will be for all the people: 11Today in the city of David a Savior has been born to you. He is Christ the Lord! 12And this will be a sign to you: You will find a baby wrapped in swaddling cloths and lying in a manger.”
13And suddenly there appeared with the angel a great multitude of the heavenly host, praising God and saying:
14“Glory to God in the highest,
and on earth peace to men
on whom His favor rests!”
15When the angels had left them and gone into heaven, the shepherds said to one another, “Let us go to Bethlehem and see this thing that has happened, which the Lord has made known to us.”
16So they hurried off and found Mary and Joseph and the Baby, who was lying in the manger. 17After they had seen the Child, they spread the message they had received about Him. 18And all who heard it were amazed at what the shepherds said to them. 19But Mary treasured up all these things and pondered them in her heart.
20The shepherds returned, glorifying and praising God for all they had heard and seen, which was just as the angel had told them.


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some people are intending to be thought of as ugly and mean. like trump and his supporters. they are trying to group ugly, mean people together because they think that they will have more power that way. they are also trying to make it look like i am the one who is ugly and mean, while also wanting people to know that they are trying to trick people or that it is a mockery of kind, honest people. they are evil.

this mexican girl and black guy think that they can make ignorant people think that people are making up a story about how cruel they are because it is so unbelievably nasty and stupid. they try to force the few dumb evil weak people to lie, stating that it is friendly when they actually don't think that. they are holding everyone hostage. please get the media and police and government and me involved. the entire world should be warned about these aliens. now and for future incarnations. they should be kept at bay. they are a danger to the community. it is like they are retarded and very mean. greedy, socially lame, confused, very angry, very mean creatures. they want to hurt everyone because they don't like themselves.

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you are damn right that paris hilton makes me uncomfortable. having to be stuck with her when she intentionally didn't create a basic respectful rapport is so shitty and cruel. she wanted to be thought of as cocky and childish. that is how she markets herself. she keeps trying to fool ignorant people. she started it.

the entire community is having to suffer because of a very few stupid, disrespectful people. they are playing a game about being disrespectful. like obnoxious children in school who talk back to the teacher or principal.

this mexican girl is very weak and childish. she is constantly making a stupid obnoxious sick joke about how she knows that she can't build people's confidence and about how nobody likes her. it is like she is pleading for someone's help, but no one will help her. she has always panicked. she is always panicking. she was greedy and impatient and she fucked herself and her family and the community because of it.


people who i am in activity with, and the rest of the community who know about this situation, seem like children who can't take care of themselves. why don't you coordinate with me and the police and the government and the media, in order to AT LEAST try to prevent this from continuing in the way which it is and probably will continue. i think that coordination would serve as a deterrent. i think that it would work. what are you afraid of? me? why? what am i doing every day? this is not rome in palestine, 2000 years ago. are you afraid of the roman soldiers? are you afraid of pontius pilate? are you afraid of people who would shoot you or something? i don't get it. i am not afraid of people who would shoot me. why don't you take a stand to people who might act aggressively? it would get the ball rolling. is that what you are afraid of? i am a u.s. citizen and i don't want to have to be afraid. ok?


most of this stuff in this community section is generated from people who try to humiliate christ, trying to make it look like he has no power or that good people have no power. they know that i am a good person, who will try to defend myself and the community, but they are trying to make it look like i am powerless or stupid. i am not stupid. God is with me. He knows that i care. other people know that i care. these people who are doing this are low class, sleazy thugs who want low class, sleazy thugs to get attention. it is really sad. i don't know whether to delete this stuff or to leave it. i know that i need to have something here about george h. w. bush, northern trust bank, paris hilton. i really don't want to think of this anymore. they want to mock an innocent person. they get some weird, childish thrill from it.


this mexican girl wants dumb, lame people to get attention. she is obstructing people who would have been getting good attention.

some thug people in america (mostly blacks) are trying to humiliate a sweet, honest, hard working white geek, because they don't act like sweet, honest, hard working, white geeks. this low class mexican girl is doing it too. so did paris hilton.


this mexican girl is trying to have me killed. she is irritating people in this activity group (144,000) so badly all day long, every day, because she is hoping that someone will kill me. she is also trying to give herself an alibi, by trying to confuse people about what she means when she is being aggressive. she mixes lies together in order to try to make it look like we don't' understand what she is doing. just by me stating this, she thinks that she can get away with it, even if she knows that people know what she did. she has my vision in her left eye. she was not born with this. she developed it in may of 2011. a black guy also has my vision in his left eye. he developed it in february of 1998. he can also create contractions of muscle and soft tissue, which the rest of the activity group (144,000) can sense. at first, the mexican girl wanted to be identified because she thought that she could get special treatment. now, she doesn't want to be identified, because of the horrible things which she is known to have done. so she is trying to have me killed, because she thinks that her eye sight will return to normal, so that she thinks that she can blend in to everyone else. she then intends to try to lie her way out of trouble. that is why she is trying to confuse people so badly, but she just makes herself look even more stupid. she is trying to give herself an alibi because it is so blatantly stupid. she intends to lie to some ignorant mexican guy who she fantacizes about meeting, giving him a phony story about what she has been doing or why she hasn't worked. she hasn't worked in 11 years. the guy could find out from her parents what has happened, so she will probably try to have her parents lie for her. her parents are really stupid and uncaring of the community to be supporting her in the way which we think that they are right now. your daughter has an anger and cruelty problem. she is a weird psychopath. she likes to harm people spiritually and emotionally, including her parents. please make a story about this on tv news. i doubt that this mexican girl would continue. we could flush her and her family out. she thinks that she can take advantage of people who don't know about what has happened. she tries to get the same stories about my past to recirculate, so that someone ignorant will think that it is more important than it is. she tries to make ignorant people think that the good, loving, honest people are all evil. she is evil. she is making a sick game about knowing that people know that she is childish and evil. she is trying to attract an evil childish mexican guy. like a thug who is into drugs. she tries to take me away from the love of other people because of her very weird, very childish envy. it thinks that it can't survive if people love me or love me more. it irritates me so that people don't love me or want to say that they like me or love me. it tries to make the people who say that they love me or like me look bad. we can't be happy because of how this creature is attacking us all day long, every day. when i say creature, i mean this black guy and mexican girl. it is a very childish, very mean sadistic creature. it is like it is retarded or like it's brain never develops properly in any incarnation. this doesn't have something to do with me having done something wrong. this has to do with a few people wanting to humiliate someone who can have more fun and be more popular than they can. this mexican girl is so childish, trying to make mexican guys think that they should hate me because i am more unique or because i have having fun, so she obstructs my life, pretending as if she is trying to help or pretending as if she thinks that i am evil. she tries to make them angry, because she pretends as if she is not afraid of their anger. she is dumb, childish and full of shit. she doesn't know how to lie her way out of trouble, because she knows that she has been caught. she tries to make mexican guys envious and hate me, because she thinks that will enable her to get along with them. it is very stupid. she is very stupid and childish.

i am not hated because i am a bad person. i am hated because i am a good person, and because a few others couldn't keep up. they obstruct because they couldn't keep up, wanting to try and trick people into thinking that i am lazy or lame. no. i have much better things to do that do sit at my computer typing this. or maybe this is the most important thing for me to do. i sort of can't figure it out. if someone from the community would speak to me, so that i could get some feedback, i would be able to understand something more objectively so that i could perform better. are you wanting me to look stupid?

i think that some black people want to try to humiliate white people because they are angry about slavery. i think that is what happened with me and my situation. it seems like some black women want to try to spread hate. they shouldn't. i never wanted to hurt them and i tried to help them, more than once. some black woman got stupid and nasty with me for no good reason back in 2008, and i inevitably reacted, and then black women or black people wanted to unnecessarily turn it into a big stupid nationwide black thing. i was apologetic, even though i wasn't the problem, but then they wanted people to think that they rejected it because they wanted to try to trick people into thinking that i had started it when i didn't. i was apologetic and i have showed black people love since then, but it seems as if they can't get over the fact that they they made themselves look so bad. move on. it was your fault. stop feeling sorry for yourselves. this doesn't mean that i think that all black people are bad.

paris hilton is a stupid, cocky, childish rich creep who ruined america. her money was evil. money which got her on tv, combined with a childish, stupid, irresponsible, disrespectful (or actually cruel) girl.




i am going through something incredibly painful, as are a small group of people situated worldwide. it is like being tortured. people, including yourselves, who are finding out about this are also being affected in a negative way. i am not a negative person. people don't want me to be popular because they think that it complicates or will complicate their life. it is an alien war. dirty politics. like russian nesting dolls. i have to try to keep cool and remain objective. it was good for me to have fought, and i already won the war. it was important for me to defend myself and the community with my website, but i want to get rid of most of what i have in the 'community' section. it is important for me to have something about this situation there, because otherwise some people think that they get away with lying about me, and that will divide the community, creating unnecessary conflict. it is horrible how a few people betrayed the community. i am sick and confused as i write this.


this black guy is putting pressure on black women who he thinks are dumb and weak, to communicate that they like a dishonest weird creepy, incredibly mean black man instead of an honest sweet white boy. he is trying to create division within the black community. he is trying to divide low class thug like black people from high class people because he thinks that the majority are low class thug like and because he thinks that they want power. he is lazy and trying to get lazy, low class thug black people to group together because he thinks that they will. maybe we can change that. i think that most black people want to move on from being low class or from slavery and develop their lives and be respected.

this mexican girl has been and is always panicking, trying to get more for herself, trying to take something away from other people, not caring about how many people she hurts, and she is so stupid because she ended up getting nothing for herself. it can be typical weak girl behavior. she is also in denial about having been caught doing this, so she just keeps doing the same thing, all day long every day, pretending as if she doesn't think that she is in trouble. she is a weird childish psychopath who wants us knowing that she likes to hurt us all day long, because she doesn't want people to know that people in this activity group or other people are having a good, relaxed time with me, because of her envy or jealousy. she flaunts thinking that she is childish and obnoxious. it is literally sickening. she couldn't handle the responsibility, just as a few other girls couldn't. she likes to refer to how she thinks that girls are weak and childish, making a sick stupid joke about it.


this mexican girl is trying to make ignorant mexican guys hate me because i have more money or security than most people do. it seems like this mexican girl wants to ruin the sea cruise which my girlfriend and i have already scheduled for december. i have more security than most people do, but i also like to work. i didn't have money to begin with, so i always liked to work. this mexican girl is trying to make mexican guys who have less hate me. she tries to make them envious and full of hate. it is so stupid. her fake stupid childish macho shit is stupid.


this mexican girl''s father should kill her. he would kill her if he was sensing what she is doing every day all day long. she lies to him and her family about what i have done, what i am doing, and what she is doing. her father should kill her or turn her over to the media or police. she is an evil, very angry, very childish sadistic mexican bitch. everyone hates her. she is trying to make ignorant people think that i am crazy, when i keep referring to her as a mexican. i am not crazy. she wanted people to know that she was a mexican girl who lives in houston, texas, but now she is trying to cover it up. she is evil.

what is happening is that when you added a loving honest person like me and other people who are the same, evil sleazy childish thug people who didn't want to do the same thing, or who are not capable of doing the same thing, or who want to mock loving honest people, are forming into a group which resembles a criminal or terrorist organization. they are preying on innocent people, wanting to bully them. i don't think that it will have much success, but it is still definitely a problem for security in the united states and elsewhere abroad. these evil people like it when i try to defend myself and the community on the internet, because they think that it gets them attention and enables them to be able to intimidate and recruit people. another reason that i don't believe that they won't have much success is because they do not seem to be intelligent. they seem to be unintelligent people, who want attention or who want to be thought of as intelligent when they don't think that themselves. some black women are secretly conspiring to do something, but they don't know what is going on or what is going to happen, so they are not as "cool" as they want people to think that they are. they are in a strange, blatantly fake denial about being an initial problem back in the year 2008. they are spreading false or biased gossip about me, trying to intimidate and recruit ignorant young black girls, preferably who have access to computers, who work in different places all over the nation. i don't want to hurt innocent, kind black girls with this website. in a way, i don't like having this information on the web, because it can confuse innocent, kind black girls, making them feel awkward in public. i wish that i would be left alone in peace, and i also wish that everyone else would be left alone in peace. hope that good people coordinate in order to officially combat this. people should coordinate with me, because as long as we are separated, people who resemble a criminal or terrorist organization think that they can get away with being nasty and aggressive, or that there will be no official oversight. they are acting aggressively in order to deliberately harm the community, and it is very sad. envy and jealously is the main issue. they have psychological problems. doesn't mean that i am stuck up. i want people to be happy. what is happening is that people who think that they have less, or who think that they would have less if they left me alone in peace, are wanting to harass/obstruct me and people who they think have more, or who they think would have more, or who are happier, or who they think would be happier. it is very childish, very selfish and very disrespectful of them. they are lying, stating that they have a reason to harass/obstruct people's lives when they don't. their motive stems from envy and jealously.

i was in a grocery store today, looking at the cover of a national geographic magazine which featured a story about jesus. my point is that everyone already knows about christ. he is not a secret. so why are some people making such a big deal about me? the issue is that some people unnecessarily politicize me. they gossip about me unnecessarily. there is no requirement for people to communicate about me, no matter what it is. there is also no requirement for me to do something, i suppose, other than to obey the law. it is a problem when people think that it is more important than it is. good people were already good. evil people were already evil. i don't think that they need me. i don't think that it actually changes people. not necessary. leave me out of it. thinking about it again, i think that it can do the community good if the community is in agreement about the general concept of love and acceptance; meaning having love and acceptance for me. being loving and not mean. i don't want special treatment. i want fair treatment. people always make it about a story about jesus or christ loving other people, but that wouldn't work unless he was treated in a respectable, humane manner.

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i have already deleted important information about my situation 5 times because it can create a negative environment. i can put the information back on this website just as easily as i took it off. i wanted to move on. i want everyone to move on. i want the community to be happy. very stupid childish dishonest people continue to harass me and stalk me. they are insecure and in a weird fake denial about being the problem. actually they are wanting to harass and stalk the entire community. they don't want to move on because they keep trying to cover up the fact that they were the problem. they try to cover it up and also fabricate false "evidence" about me. they would rather make everyone including themselves miserable, rather than have people see me as happier or more popular than they are. some black people want to humiliate me because they think that other people think that i am more attractive than they are because of what they are known to have done since 2008 or before. i think that they think that i am more physically attractive, mentally attractive, and spiritually attractive. i am not sugar coating this. i am getting down to the point. ok? they are angry because they think that people think that i am more attractive than they are, so they are taking out their anger on everyone, and wanting to try to make me less attractive by being aggressive and intentionally making me confused and less confident. they are childish and incredibly mean spirited. they are childish and sadistic. their aggression stems from insecurity or envy and jealousy. i want black people to be ok, but the problem is that some of them don't want me to be ok because they think that people will like me more than them because of what they think people think about them because of this situation or what they are known to have done. a few black people are creating a problem for all black people. i am sick of it. people are sick of it. some black people are sending signals to black people to act a fool instead of acting like they have a heart and a brain. it is stupid. they don't even care if they continue to make themselves look stupid because they are lazy and not trying to do anything with their life. the longer that this goes on, the more stupid all black people will look. it is really sad.

i was going to put everything which i recently deleted back on, but i won't. if i don't have it up, people think that they can get away with lying about me and the good people who are defending me. it also creates a negative environment which i don't want. what is weird is that it seems like other people want to create a negative environment. they won't leave me and other people alone. i wanted to move on but they don't because they are desperately and stupidly trying to cover up the fact that they are the problem. they would rather make everyone, including themselves, miserable, rather that to have people know that i am happy while they feel ashamed in public. i want the community to be peaceful and happy but they don't want the community to be peaceful and happy. oh well. there is nothing which i can do for you. you don't care about me? letting me and others know that you care about me? ok, well i don't really care about you. is that ok, or am i supposed to stupidly kiss everyone's ass? it doesn't do my spirit any good to care for you, because you don't communicate anything kind back to me. it just makes me feel terrible. i wish that someone would communicate to me in front of the other people. ignorant people would be surprised at how sweet and sociable i am in person. you make me feel terrible and confused. all of you. disclosure is not healthy unless it is reciprocated. what is going on? people are stalking me and my family and my girlfriend. what did we do to you? you are the ones who started the crap. i never wanted to hurt anyone. i just want to be left alone in peace. some people are implying that i am supposed to suffer for my entire life. why? because you are lying about george h. w. bush and nothern trust bank and paris hilton or anything else you think that you can lie about? you are so incredibly lame. people know that i am innocent, but you imply that i am supposed to suffer just because you become envious or jealous when i am happier that you are or having more fun that you can have. i really want a job so maybe i will delete everything in this section again. i think that it will help my chances of getting a job in houston. right now i work in la grange at my step father's brother's ranch.

i just had to take my dog back to my mom's home to keep her safe. i have had to do this before. i am stalked and being harassed for no good reason and it causes me to talk out loud nervously and confused and in anger in my house and the dog hears the stress and confusion in my voice and it hurts her spirit. i reassure the dog so she knows that i am not angry with her. people have been doing this, hurting my sweet dog for years, making a sick game out of it, with them wanting people to know that they know that i am innocent, and that they just want to hurt the dog anyway. america turned out to be a really ugly place. please help to fix it.

very sad to say that i can't continue to look for a job in houston, texas anymore with the help of the job lady from the veteran's administration. not a good idea with the way that i am being stalked and harassed. these people want to mock someone who wants to work. they won't establish trust. not only do they lie about me and money in the past, but they are implying that i am not allowed to work for honest money. it is so stupid that it is ridiculous. they don't want me to have more than they have. more confidence. more peace. more happiness. they made themselves miserable or look stupid, so now they don't the public to think that i am more than they are. i can still work out in la grange, texas for my step dad's brother at his ranch. it is difficult, but not so much of a problem if i talk out loud in confusion because i am not around anyone. more difficult than you would imagine. most people wouldn't do it.

this mexican girl is trying to make it look like this has something to do with psychiatric medication when it doesn't. in fact, she is making a sick joke about how she knows that people know that it is not about psychiatric medication, while wanting to be cute about it.

i understand if some ignorant people could say "well, he doesn't seem like a good leader" because of what i stated above about america being an ugly place. there is no possible way for me to be able to be a good leader because i am not healthy because people are intentionally making me sick, like it is a game to them. i am sick and confused as i am writing this. i can not make people healthy and happy unless i had basic security and protection which anyone would need, in order to be able to be healthy, so that they could lead or make others healthy. we are being blatantly violated by some type of alien species. i need police or media protection.

not one of you is kind. let me put it another way. i don't have any real evidence that something kind or loving is out there. it is not just this mexican girl and black guy and a few black women and paris hilton (no, i wasn't a fan of paris hilton's) who are not kind. sorry, i can't do anything for you if you don't do something for me and build me up. don't expect to get something for nothing. are you implying that i should work a miracle? how? oh, i guess it is like a hollywood movie about christ, where they spit at him while he drags the cross. are you getting a thrill? i would have rather thought about people thinking of me spending quality happy peaceful time with my family at a restaurant or with my girlfriend, snuggling in bed.

low class, childish minority females (mostly black and one mexican) want to fuck with and make fun of a white boy who they think is high class and interesting. they are low class, sleazy shit. they started trouble for no good reason. they have an inferiority complex. they thought that if men thought that i had power that it would take power away from other men and they thought that would complicate their relationships with other men. these girls are stupid because it would have just given power to men and made their relationships better. they didn't want to submit to men. they are not humble. black women and this mexican girl like to fuck and play with me, because they think that i am an interesting white boy, because they like me, and also because they want to lie to black men and mexican men, stating that they don't like me, because they are always making me uncomfortable. it is an evil girl trick. you know how girls play evil mind game tricks, right? they think that ignorant people would assume that i am not as likeable as i am by reading this internet shit. they are trying to fool ignorant people. black women and this mexican girl are trying to trick black men and mexican men into thinking that they didn't like a white boy as much as they did. they are intentionally irritating me in order to try to make me unpopular. black women and this mexican girl didn't want black guys or mexican guys to think that they thought that a white boy was more interesting or attractive than they were, so they want to lie about me.

this mexican girl is making a stupid lame joke about how she knows that she didn't out smart anyone in an evil way like she wanted people to know that she tried to. she thinks that she has been caught red handed and is trying to make a joke of it. it is not funny. sort of like "oh, you caught me being evil... hehe. isn't that funny?" she is stupid and childish.

this black guy who won't take responsibility for the george h. w. bush and northern trust bank issue is a childish, insecure, dishonest black man who wants people to know that he is trying to humiliate me because a few black people made all black people look stupid. it is like he is letting people know that he is insecure like he needs a mommy or a stupid evil thug childish low class black bitch to help him. scroll down to the bottom of this crap to read more about george h. w. bush and northern trust bank.

the people who tried to confuse the community about me and money already know that people know that they are lying, so it is really about them wanting people to know that they hate people who have more than they have.

i tried talking sense into this black guy and mexican girl again yesterday, just as i have many times. they are confused, angry, very childish creatures. they need love, but when you give them love or show them love, they just try to provoke me and make me angry even more, so that people don't' think that i was loving. they are like children who are giving everyone a big temper tantrum for many years, screaming and throwing things and breaking things and talking back because they can't get what they want. they have a weird ego problem and image problem. personality disorder. sociopaths. psychopaths. incredibly mean. punkish sleazy attitudes. like obnoxious adolescents who talk back to their parents.

some black women and this black guy panicked about their image problem which they created for themselves, so they want to try to make me look bad but they won't. mexican girl does the same thing. paris hilton is also doing the same thing, but trying to be sneaky about it.

they want people to know that they get a sick thrill from hurting and confusing people. they are creating unnecessary drama because they are boring. this is what happens when a public person doesn't' have police protection.





some people are creating a lose, lose situation for themselves and me and the community. it is sad and illogical. they don't even care about themselves. good luck and God bless you.

https://biblehub.com/philippians/4-7.htm

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i am sorry if information which was in this section confused you, but the truth is that a few people owe me and the community an apology. i don't mean that i would actually expect someone to actually apologize to me.

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i don't know whether to put the info which i had in this section back. very confusing. tired of thinking about it. i need to have something about how a few people are lying about me in order to protect the majority good people who are defending me and the community.

some black women wanted to kill the spirit of america because my spirit exceeded theirs. i understand if ignorant people think "it doesn't seem like you have much spirit." exactly. that is what they wanted to do. it was sabotage. i am much more cheerful in person 24/7 if you met me in person. negative, unhappy people envied people who were more happy or positive, so they wanted to fuck with our spirit. it is like going to a job, and some people can't keep up, and they are also immature, and so they want to drag everyone down to their level, not focused on goals or doing a good job because they really don't believe that they can accomplish much in life.

they keep trying to politicize me. they keep trying to make me unpopular. why do you want to talk about me? leave me alone. they keep trying to politicize me, and they are lying about me too. why do you want to involve me in your lives? because you think that it makes you seem more interesting? leave me alone. get a life. do you own social work on your own.

people who think that they are less than i am, try to politicize me and make me unpopular, in order to try and make it seem like they are more than i am. they think that they have to lie about me in order to do this. strong people are not the problem. weak people are the problem. i just want to be left alone. why are you wanting to involve me in your life?

a few people are holding everyone hostage because they don't want to have to do work, as people ordinarily do work. they don't want to do work and they also want special treatment.

black guy
paris hilton
mexican girl
some black women

the people who are intentionally causing problems are like people who call into work, lying, wanting people to think that they have an excuse to not work when they don't have an excuse. they are lazy, lame losers. they do nothing, sitting around all day long, wanting people to think that they are more special or more interesting than they are. i have much better things to do than to sit at my computer, typing this shit. the reason that i get angry and frustrated, trying so hard, is because i want peace and happiness and productivity for everyone. some people are intentionally causing a problem and i have tried to make it impossible for them to get away with lying or imply that they have a excuse to be stupid. they think that if people know that i am happy and busy, that there is pressure on them to be happy and busy, and because they think that they can't be happy or because they are lazy, they don't even try. they mock honest people who like to work. they are trying to make it seem like sleazy thugs who hustle are dominant. they make fun of me because i am honest and because i work and also want to work. they are lazy and dishonest and very very rude.

sorry, i can't help you. i have tried.

they keep implying that i am the most dishonest person in the world, when actually i am the most honest person in the world, and that they don't want to do the same thing which i do IN PUBLIC. they lie, because it means that other people were the problem, and that they don't want to make it some kind of awkward social situation for themselves or the public at large.

this is real easy to understand. nice honest people versus mean dishonest people. it has always been that way. i don't need to reinvent the wheel, do I?

do you really want to know about me? just read the bible, or go to church.

this mexican girl and black guy keep trying to make ignorant people think that they are stars or celebrities, when they are actually just weird, deranged, very rude mean people with mental and social problems. very childish, like a child who wants to fanaticize about being something which they aren't or being recognized for being something which they aren't. they have personality disorders. very mean psychopaths. something like an animal and human mixed together (alien). it wants something for itself, but it implies that it doesn't have to communicate anything intelligent or kind in order to get it. it is like a thug bully in jail or a mental instituation, which steals peoples food or implies that it has the right to steal people's food. very lazy. very stupid. very greedy. very mean. psychopaths. it spends all of its time trying to deceive ignorant people. it doesn't like what it is, compared to me or other positive, happy people. it seems like it is impossible for this creature to think positive, because of it thinking about what it is (inferior/animal) compared to human beings which are more normal or healthy or happy, so it doesn't like thinking about how others are positive, so it intentionally acts aggressive, in order to make people negative by making them think about something negative or a negative person. it is intentionally making people negative, but pretending as if it is trying to make them positive. totally full of shit because it thinks that it is in trouble. it tries to be crafty but it is really just stupid. it is lying and sending a signal to other evil people to lie, stating that i was the one who wasn't positive when they just can't keep up with my positive. they just don't want there to be such a noticeable differentiation between good happy people and evil negative people, so they are intentionally making everyone negative. that is why they are staking me and everyone else. they don't like what they are, but are faking thinking that they do. they are confused and trying to survive. it is a nasty, animal like creature, which is confused about what it is and desperately trying to survive. it doesn't like itself, but pretends as if it does.

ordinarily, i would just call the police and get rid of a stalker. i am a public person and i am being stalked. do you want to try to help? they are using this unique situation as a way of stalking the entire community.

they have weird, very childish, unusual issues with jealousy or envy and it seems as if they want people to know that they have weird, very childish unusual issues with jealousy or envy. not only do they want to harm me, but they indicate that they want to harm anyone who acts like they love me or care about me. they have personal problems which i don't have, and that is why they act in the way which they act.

they are just lazy, pretending as if they think something about me which they don't think, because they don't want to have pressure on them to act in the way which i act, in public. not christ like. i guess because they are incapable of being christ like. they want to mock people who are christ like. not intelligent enough or they don't have a heart. like i said, it is nice honest people versus mean dishonest people. i suppose it will always be that way. so who cares? very mean negative people versus very loving positive people. go figure...

like i said, some people are holding us hostage. lazy, uncaring people want to hold everyone else hostage. they are very lazy and very lame.

oh well, i tried. sorry, i can't help you or work a "miracle".

some black women want people to think of the fact that i called this black women in 2008 a name, and not the fact that she assaulted me, being incredibly cruel, and also indicating that she was dishonest. she wanted to try to humiliate me for no good reason, and so i wanted to humiliate her because i did have a good reason. what she did was sadistic and evil. she wanted to interfere with my happiness when i had done nothing wrong. guess what? it back fired, didn't it, you dumb, incredibly mean, incredibly childish black bitch...

oh, i'm not allowed to say anything bad about black people? oh, i have to be afraid of them? i'm not a plantation owner. and guess what? black people sold black people into slavery. i have demonstrated respect and love toward black people, and then they wanted to hurt me even more, intentionally making me angry because of it, because they thought that it looked like i was a loving person and that they weren't loving people. why should i try to work with these fucked up creatures? it is impossible. it really isn't difficult to understand. when you add christ to people who are not christ like, it creates a problem.

some black women thought that the paris hilton issue in the past might be the start of me being around people who had money or people who were on tv so they wanted to block it. they thought that i was being recognized. black women are trying to portray me as someone who is greedy and mean. no. not greedy and not mean. they are mean, and they didn't want me to be able to be around people who have money for some reason. i didn't expect hilton to write back to me and i didn't care if she did. that was not the reason that i corresponded with her to begin with. i was not a fan of hers. i was neutral. the lesson was that you can still show people who are in trouble some love. she was in jail. in reference to what happened at the grocery store in 2008, when i was about to get the change out of the metal change dish, i thought about my pride in making my own money and then it got mixed together with hilton because i thought she liked me so it was confusing. i thought that maybe a white lady who was standing next to me in the check out at a grocery store the night before i had a bad experience with a black lady who was next to me in the check out at the same grocery store the next day, was giving me a look like she was implying that hilton and i were stupid. now i don't think that she was giving me a stupid look, but flirting with me. i thought that i liked hilton in the beginning because i thought that she was sticking up for me in public, even when other people wouldn't. it would have confused anyone. i had pride in earning my own money, but it got combined with the thought of hilton's money because i thought that hilton liked me, so it was confusing. earning respect for making my own money was important to me, so her money was not a big deal to me or i didn't want it, but then the more that i would think about how it was not a big deal, the more that it would seem like i was making a big deal out of it. then the more that it seemed like i was making a big deal out of it, then the more that i would think that i wasn't making a big deal out of it. then the more that it would seem that i wasn't making a big deal out of it, then the more that it would seem like i was making a big deal out of it. this is how i became confused at the grocery store in 2008 all in a matter of 3 or 4 seconds. i also felt the need to indicate that i was willing to try to protect hilton, because i thought that the white lady at the grocery store was implying that both hilton and i were stupid, so that is why i acted like i was pulling hilton closer to me when i took the change out of the change dish. what was i suppose to do? leave the change in the change dish? i took the change out of the change dish with a slightly more aggressively feeling than normal, but not something you would have been able to notice as i was doing it. i felt awkward and confused as i was doing it. several things were confusing me all at once. i talked about it when i got back to my apartment from the grocery store because i didn't like the idea of people thinking that i was greedy. i wish that people could see how nasty and childish and mean spirited that black woman who attacked me the next day at the grocery store was. everyone knew that it was innocent, but just a confused, awkward moment in public which anyone would have had to struggle with. i had quit using drugs, quit drinking alcohol. quit smoking cigarettes. exercising. doing what i was supposed to do on while on probation. i had a very interesting job as a production assistant in a live theater and another job, as a production assistant for setting up stage and lights and sound for different events. . there was a dramatic change in my spirit and they wanted to stop it because my new confidence confused them or made them feel inferior. they also thought that they were going to look stupid for having said many mean childish things about me and my past. i developed, and then it seemed like they didn't want me to be able to. the same is true right now, at this very moment. they knew that i had started to write something. i am not wanting to write now, except for an article which i started to work on about sensationalism in the media. i am not wanting to work in theater. the black woman at the grocery store wanted to hurt my spirit, and she knew that i was innocent, so i wanted to hurt her spirit, because she was a nasty, ugly, childish mean bitch. it seemed like she envied my spirit or my new peace which i developed. all black women want people to think about is the fact that i called this black women a name, and not the fact it was a normal reaction to her assaulting me for no good reason. she was childish and cruel. and that is what i have continued to experience from some black women. childishness and cruelty. they want to fuck with my spirit for some reason. they also infected my blood when i was at a hospital, causing me to have 3 major surgeries. i thought that maybe black people would infect my blood, and i talked out loud about it when i was in the hospital 2 or 3 days before they stuck me with a dirty needle. guess what? they did it just to spite me, wanting to prove that my thought about them being nasty and dangerous was true. go figure. they are trying to intimidate people. like stupid gangster thug shit. they can be stupid gangster thug shit if they want to be. i would rather be something else. most people would rather be something else. most black people would rather be something else.

i really want black people or black women to be alright, but if i don't have this information made public, some of them will lie and try to create division in the community.

i also want people to know that i am in great pain. i am a sitting duck. public person with no police or government protection. that means that the entire community is in trouble. we have to worry about childish mean weirdos who act aggressively because they want attention. most people are not a problem.

it makes some black women so angry when i am peaceful and happy. this is what it goes back to. i am a peaceful and happy person by nature. people who don't know me in person would be surprised. you should get to know me in person. i have so many reasons to be peaceful and happy, and they know this, and it makes black women very angry, because they are not peaceful and happy creatures. they are constantly provoking me in this really ugly childish way, in order to take my peace and happiness away from me, so that they feel "better" about themselves. they refer to their own envy of my peace and happiness.

it is like being raped by a bunch of weird stupid incredibly mean black people. they are lame but wanting ignorant people to think that i am lame. they are very mean unhappy creatures and so they don't like thinking of my happiness so they intentionally make me unhappy, pretending as if they have a good reason to do this when they don't.

sergeant milroe with the houston debakey VA hospital police tried to poison me with something in my coffee in may of 2011, but i made myself vomit it out when i got to la grange, texas, about 2 hours later. the girl who worked at the starbucks at the VA hospita said something weird to me as she served me the coffee. milroe and another black VA police man were standing close by.to the starbucks. people knew that i intended to get coffee about 10 or 15 minutes earlier when i was outside in the parking lot, finding a parking space, because i talked out loud about it. enough time for milroe or someone to go to the pharmacy and get medication to put in my coffee. there was a big white gob of shit in the toilet which i vomited up when i got to la grange. my eyes turned bloodshot on the way there and i felt drugged. everybody felt it.

it is too bad that some people were savages.

sorry, can't help you unless the police can protect me. i can't make you healthy while people are intentionally making me unhealthy, making a very childish, very mean game out of this. just like public people are protected, i would need protection.

what a few people did to me is evil and very cruel. they have confined me, knowing that i am innocent. they have not only confined me, but other people as well. they were guilty, or they thought that they were in trouble or would be confined, so they lied about me, confining me to them or people who they know that i know are lying about me. ignorant people don't understand, i can't have a thought because i didn't have a thought, because i didn't have a thought, because my train of thought is being manipulated or interfered with. we are being constantly threatened, which means that we are not free. i am being confined. we are being confined. i would not be writing this right now, but again, today, i was confined, which means that i can't develop. not only is it a problem at the present, the people who are doing it are basically telling me and other people that they will not allow us to develop. you have to have a thought in order to be able to have a thought. i am being forced to think of the same stupid shit lame people every day who do nothing but play games. they flaunt being ugly. they want notoriety. they are taunting the community.

it is like having been put in jail by an evil, political entity when you are not guilty. dirty politics. they want to put anyone who acts like they care about me in jail too. you don't understand how they get to me and other people every day. they make it impossible for us to develop because they envy how we can develop more than they can. oh well. too bad.

some black women got angry because they think that this situation means that people would think that i am more accepted than they are (christ), and they already had a problem with feeling as if they were accepted, so they became really angry and mean and childish. the paris hilton issue didn't help. i'm sick of thinking about it. that's right, that's right... more negative shit. that is exactly what they wanted. they make a sick childish joke about how they are trying to make me negative and unpopular like it is a game to them, like they are admitting to the fact that they know that i would be more popular if they would get the fuck out of my life. they are nasty ugly attitude creatures who want to hurt anyone who is happier than they are. i am a very positive cheerful person if you know me all of the time. unfortunately, i got stuck with people who are lazy and who are negative or who don't give a shit.

some of these black women mock people who are loving. i apologized to innocent black women back in 2008 and the problem to begin with wasn't even my fault. then i went to an all black church and a black adult put a young black girl's hand in my hand and they sang and i cried hard for about 2 or 3 minutes because i of the general love which i have for black people. this is before they intentionally infected my blood, wanting people to know that they infected my blood, wanting people to think that they should be afraid of black people. they try to fabricate evidence against me or cover up the fact that they were the initial problem. they are so insecure. they don't care about themselves. i'm not the problem. they provoke me when it is evident that i am loving, in order to try to make it seem like i am fake. i'm not fake, and i will send nasty people to their grave all fucked up so that hopefully they can figure it out for themselves. it would be more confusing and painful for me if i didn't become angry, and they know that, because i don't have privacy. no privacy. 24/7. you have no idea about how difficult this is when people are blatantly sick cruel disrespectful to you in public, with them knowing that you will never get a break from it because you have no privacy. you know what? i am going to have fun anyway, you stupid angry negro bitch! and then they try to make it seem like it is not a hollywood movie about christ because i am angry. fuck hollywood stories about jesus christ and fuck the bible! you don't know a damn thing about the real christ or that situation because you weren't there.

and just because i call some nasty, incredibly mean black woman or women a bitch, like they should be referred to, they probably want to walk around with a creepy weird ugly smirk on their face, wanting ignorant people to think that they have leverage over everyone. that's right, with their creepy weird ugly smirk, like they want people to know that they like to hurt an innocent defenseless white boy in public.

oh, oh... we have to be afraid of angry black people, because they are angry about slavery. they won't let it go, or they don't have anything else to think about. they imply that it is pay back time for slavery. guess what?! i didn't do anything to you. leave me and my family alone. like they imply that they are going to hurt everyone because they think that people think that they are inferior. they are a threat to national security. childish mean black women playing around with computers and the internet. they are conspiring. they want people to know that they are conspiring.

i didn't start out this way. hate is learned. and if you would have been treated the way that i have been treated for the last 14 years, black people would make you uncomfortable too.

interesting, how it seems like the government wants to sweep this under the rug. they want make it about stiff politics instead of about love. so do other people. you could think of it as a seed, but without being nurtured or watered or given sunlight, it won't do as well. people make this about stiff, cold politics instead of about love. i was about love, but other people didn't want to do the same thing, so it got all messed up. why don't you just kill me, before nasty people have time to hurt the community some more? myself included.

they want to be hated, because they think that they are more dominant that way. i think i am getting to the point where i don't care if i am hated. i want attention, because i am being ignored. but all i want is to be left alone. all i want is to be left alone, and i am being ignored. so guess what is happening? i am getting really pissed. why? because i want attention. that's why. why do i want attention? because i want peace and quiet. not only for me, but for the entire community. every single day, more than one time a day, i am blatantly violated. confined. not only are they confining me at that moment, but they are making it clear that they will continue to confine me and anyone who wants to move on from this stupid shit, every single day. so it is madness. why don't you just kill me? either kill me, or make a story about me in order to obtain a defense. the government can make a story about me like "yeah, he is here. so what? leave him and his family alone! he is not a threat. we monitor him." real simple, isn't it. and also, "he doesn't want to be involved in church or politics." real simple, isn't it. what was the point? that reincarnation or life cycles are real. how does it make sense for the president of the united states to be sworn in with the use of a bible, but not inform the public about christ's current presence, as a way of safeguarding the order and peace of the community? it is a sham. if they are already making a big deal of it, then what is the big deal to communicate about it again?

people treat me in an abusive way, in order to try to make me react, in order to try to make people not like me or love me. they do this because they have weird childish psychological issues or problems because they think that i am more special or loved that they are. in a way, i don't care if all of you people who really don't know me, like me. what matters is that my dogs like me, and my cats like me, and my girlfriend likes me, and my parents (mom and step dad) like me, and the rest of my family (sister and brother in law and niece and nephews) likes me, and my girlfriends mom likes me. guess what? they do. i am a sweet boy. but i am being abused in public by weirdos who have a weirdo fixation on me. they get a weirdo thrill from interacting with me in public. it is sick. literally sickening. would you like to help, please?

this black guy with my vision in his left eye and mexican girl with my vision in her left eye are terrorizing the community. they like to scare people. they are a danger for children. they should be killed. they are a weird alien which is like part animal and part human. it is very childish and mean. like it is retarded. it is deranged, like a crazy homeless person. they intentionally incapacitate people's ability to function. it seems like they are childishly fanaticizing about having some type of power which they want to have in the future. it seems like they have a social problem and sex problem. they are very childish envious very mean creatures. too bad it couldn't have been a happy loving feeling every day. some people were jealous and envious, so they wanted to ruin it. they think like sleazy thugs. they are wanting to scare people. they make people negative, while making a sick joke about how they are trying to fool ignorant people into thinking that they are positive and that other people who complain about them are negative. they are also sending a signal to evil people to lie, stating that they are positive or friendly and that i am negative or unfriendly, while being incredibly sleazy at the same time, like they are implying that it doesn't matter if people know that they are the ones who are the problem, as long as they have something to lie about. they are negative. very weird and negative. everything would be fine if they just left people alone. they are trying to get something for themselves and they don't care about harming other people. they are negative because they are not content. that is why they keep trying to get something for themselves. they are trying to take something away from good people and give it to negative people. they are lazy and trying to cheat. very sleazy, creepy attitudes, like they are saying "yes, we are evil".






black women in america are going to regret letting these stupid unfriendly negative black women who i am in constant 24/7 activity with boss you around. they are negative aliens. they have lost contact with God consciousness.

some people in america want to humiliate someone who they think is more special than they are or who gets more attention than they do. that is what all of this crap is. do you understand? do you think that i would be typing all of this, if people weren't constantly provoking me, trying to humiliate me in public? they are trying to trick you. they want you to see what i am doing, but they don't want you to understand what they are doing. dirty ugly politics, but i am not dirty or ugly. it is a cruel place. i have no police protection. do you understand? this is what happens when the police do not or can not protect someone. it is easy to understand. why don't you get the police to make a statement with the media?


sergeant milroe with the houston debakey VA hospital police tried to poison me with something in my coffee in may of 2011, but i made myself vomit it out when i got to la grange, texas, about 2 hours later. the girl who worked at the starbucks said something weird to me as she served me the coffee. milroe and another black VA police man were standing close by.to the starbucks. people knew that i intended to get coffee about 10 or 15 minutes earlier when i was outside in the parking lot, finding a parking space. enough time for milroe or someone to go to the pharmacy and get medication to put in my coffee. there was a big white gob of shit in the toilet which i vomited up when i got to la grange. my eyes turned bloodshot on the way there and i felt drugged. everybody felt it.

it is too bad that some people were savages. sorry, can't help you unless the police can protect me.

black people and this mexican girl keep wanting to involve me in their lives and i don't want to be involved. they think that they can't do it without me because they are so weak and boring. this black guy with my vision in his left eye is a weird creepy little irritating evil bitch who always wants to involve me in his life in order to try to make it seem like he is bigger than he is. this black guy is tiny and that is what the good black women think about him too. he already knows that i want him to get away from me, but he likes to make a sick joke about being a stalker. this mexican girl is involving me in her life because she is trying to make it seem like girls (in general) are more powerful or interesting than they are. she wants to boss a guy around in the future, so she is trying to make it seem like she is more powerful than she is by wanting people to know that she was "associating" with me. she is a very weak, boring, disrespectful mexican female who i would never associate with.

this doesn't mean that i am unfriendly. it means that they are uncivil. lazy too. they are disturbing the peace. they are implying that they don't have to do what they are supposed to do, like it is a basic requirement of a basic job in life. to be respectful, to act like you care. like being at a job and having to act like you care about doing your job. like it was a basic duty of their job to do something and they imply that they didn't want to do it because they are too lazy or because they want people to know that they don't care because they want people to know that they don't care about trying to advance in life. they are lazy. still complaining about slavery, like they are complaining that they have to do work. very basic work. it is also about them not wanting to act like they care about doing other things as well. they don't want to acknowledge who is who, or what is what. they know that i am sweet and that i work hard, but becausee the don't do the same or want to do the same, the pretend as if they don't know what is going on. like not doing their job. like acting like they don't care about doing work, like they are implying that they think that it won't get them anywhere because they really don't want to have to try in life.

black women are implying that no one is allowed to say that they look like an animal, even when they do look like an animal. and they also imply that no one is allowed to say that they look like an animal, even when they act like a nasty angry mean animal. why should it matter if i called some black woman a rottweiler with rabies, when she actually looked like that? me saying that you look like a rottweiler with rabies in not a crime, especially since you were the one who assaulted me for no good reason. stealing people's mail is a crime. many times. so it infecting their blood when they are at a hospital. so is tampering with their mail (recently/VA hospital). you disturb the peace, black bitch. you are angry about something, and it isn't me. oh, you don't like me? well, that's ok... because i don't like you... you are just angry because you do look like a rottweiler with rabies, and also because you got caught doing something very mean, betraying the community.

you wanna keep going on, black women??? i don't. oh yeah, you wanted to be in a special relationship with me, didn't you??? you thought that it made you seem special, didn't you? ever since the paris hilton incident.

what these black women are doing essentially is letting people know that they are angry for being lower. like their dissatisfaction. their behavior is meant to be thought of as low, like they are indicating that they think that they are low, and also that they are angry. get a life, stupid black bitches. you are lazy and don't try. quit complaining about slavery. quit complaining about the way you look, too. everyone is sick of your dumb bullshit. you try to make everybody come down to your level because you can't keep up.

maybe i should go to the VA hospital in houston, texas, and beat any black women who i see with a baseball bat. black women are intentionally turning a place which is supposed to be about respect, into a place of blatant stupid disrespect. they are intentionally doing the opposite of what they are supposed to do, with a stupid, very ugly attitude problem. when given the opportunity to do the right thing, they don't. they can't even deliver the mail and mail is a very easy job. it is a federal offense to steal mail, and they have recently stolen my mail (advance directive) from the VA hospital to me. they want to take someone's effort and turn it into pain and confusion. they are indicating that they don't care about doing their job because they are lazy and also that the don't care about trying to move on to anything else in life because they are so lazy. then they also want people to feel sorry for them. they are so stupid and childish. i never thought that i would have this problem with black people, but i now i do. for the last 14 years.

it is like being raped, and i am trying to fight off my attacker. i may not be able to stop them, but i gouged out this mexican girl and black guy's ugly eyes. black women's ugly eyes too. all i want is peace and quiet for everyone, every day. but they don't want me to have peace and quiet. people don't want me to have peace and quiet. they think of it as entertainment because they sit around doing nothing. even if i don't communicate about it, people know that i am not having peaceful days because i lack privacy or because i am in activity with people who are also communicating that there is a problem. for me to not communicate something myself, when i know that other people are communicating about it, is very confusing or humiliating. it would make the entire group or community look weak. why doesn't someone just show a little bit of kindness and sociability and communicate something supportive to me? i think that it would get me to calm down. is there a website that i could know about? it seems like people are aware of something when i go outside. what are they reading? what is going on? i have been confused about this for years. don't expect me to work a "miracle". this is sick and sad. it reveals something horrible about human nature.

do these people who are harassing me every day really believe that people would believe that they are harassing me because i did something wrong? or is it that they want people to think that they are harassing me just for their stupid fun? they do the same thing every day. they want to stop me from being more than they are, and they pretend as if they have an excuse to do it. they don't like the thought of someone being more than they are.

i'm not the problem. ugly psychopaths are the problem.

this mexican girl is trying to have me killed with her nasty aggression. she is doing it with a real smug attitude. she thinks that if it works, then it works for her bullshit which she wants to tell someone. like that she is right, because it seems as if other people didn't like me. she thinks if it doesn't work, then it works for her bullshit which she wants to tell someone. like that she is right, because it seemed like it wasn't that bad or like she thinks that she can say that it didn't bother people and that i was wrong for saying that it bothered me.

black women in america in large internet groups are a threat to american security and global security. they used my situation in order to pretend as if they had a reason to be grouped together or believe in something as a group. it was a "convenient" way for them to try to make people think that they believed in something as a group. black women in america and electronic communication devices to not mix well.

some black women really are dumb, mean and childish. i didn't care until they started to stupidly attack me. i wouldn't care, if they weren't attacking me and everyone else. get out of our life.

they are fake, and pretend like they think that this evil creep black guy with my vision in his left eye, is good and that i am evil. they actually don't think that, but they try to use him and he tries to use them. they both embarrassed themselves. some black women are destroying america just for the sake of destroying america. they are still angry about slavery and they want to hurt people. weird psychological problems. people always make a story about white hate, but what about black hate toward whites? in reference to this black guy with my vision in his left eye, fake black women have an attitude like, "say that it be about a black man who be God, even if the black man be stupid." i would rather not have to think about any of this. why don't they leave me and everyone else alone? you see what i am communicating on the internet, but you don't see what they are communicating on the internet. they don't want you to see what they are communicating on the internet.

most of this shit in this section of this website is a result of negative aliens attacking us. they are trying to make people think that i am negative. no. i am not. i am not psychopathic either like they want you to believe. they are trying to deceive you. i am a very positive happy cheerful person if you know me in person all of the time 24/7. negative people are sabotaging other people's lives, because they can't keep up with people who are more motivated and/or intelligent. this is what happens when you add christ to a group of people. some people can't do it or don't want to do it, so they obstruct and then try to create a movement of people who act like they are lazy and don't care. they want resources because they think that they will have to compete somehow in order to survive. i don't think that it will work out too well for them. dumb leading the dumb. it is more about their fake pride and weird ego than doing anything intelligent.

instead of this evil mexican girl and evil black guy pretending as if they think that they are right and everyone else is wrong, why don't they just get out of everyone's life? they create a problem every single day. why don't they just go away? they know that people would say that things are better if they went away, that's why. they are trying to give themselves a way of perpetuating a lie, which they want other evil people to try to spread, with that lie being that they are humble and that i am not. they are not humble. they are intentionally aggravating people in a really creepy, sleazy way every day, so that we can't relax or focus well. they keep wanting to make it all about them every day, wanting to try to show off like obnoxious children, instead of leaving people alone. they are not humble. they don't like the idea of people thinking that they are weird and that they were the problem and that they were rejected, so they are trying to make it seem like i should be rejected, but doing it in a way which means that they are sending a signal to evil people to lie about me. i could have done some excellent work for the last 9 years if it were not for these people. i don't think that i could have gotten my screenplay idea produced, but it would have been fun to try. unfortunately it was made sour. doesn't mean that i didn't care. i wouldn't have even started to write any of this. i would have been upstairs relaxing in bed with herbal tea with my dog before i go to bed. real simple. real peaceful. these people are evil and into trying to deceive. it is pure evil. they don't care if people know that they are lying. they are just going to make a big mess, sort of like any other terrorist organization.

what i meant when i stated that i wanted to find a job for people with mental disabilities is that i have been harassed really badly at the job which i have now, but i like to get out of my house and work, so i want to find a job where it doesn't matter if i am talking out loud a little bit or acting a little unusual while i work. i can still do my job. most people wouldn't have done what i have done and continue to do, given the circumstances. i like to work, but this mexican has always tried to trick ignorant people into thinking that i am lazy and unfriendly, or that she was trying to help me when she wasn't or isn't, or that i deserve to be harmed when i don't. she is constantly trying to politicize me and demonize me, because she thinks that people think that she is the demon. she is angry because she thinks that she can't get what she wants. she is playing a very childish game, like she wants mexican guys to know that she is a demon, because she stupidly thinks that means that they want to have sex with her. she is constantly sending a signal out to mexican guys who she thinks are sort of low class or whatever, that she is easy, and that she is the type of mexican girl who acts like she hates white people, even if she doesn't.

what black women have been doing for years is self destructive. it is sad. apparently they don't have any good leadership on the internet, or it is mostly childish angry dishonest crap.

what this mexican girl is doing is self destructive too. she wants ignorant people to think that i don't know what i am communicating about. that is why she is doing so much of what she is doing. she is trying to trick ignorant people into thinking that i am the one who has the mental problem. she is the one with the mental problem. she wants to make people negative. she has a personality disorder. she has childish anger problem. she wants to play with me and hurt me too, in front of everyone, because i rejected her back in 2013. since i rejected her, she thought that she would stab me and everyone else in the back, trying to make it seem as if she was God and that i was evil. she is some kind of weird creepy demon. just like the black guy is. this doesn't mean that i think that all mexicans and all blacks are demons. i prefer some mexicans and blacks to some white people.

this is what i was referring to, when i stated that some black women want to be thought of as like my girlfriend or wife, wanting people to think that i think about them, and that they have authority or power over me. actually, they want all men to think that they have the power. who the fuck do they think they are? this is what i meant, when i stated previously that it is like they are saying "ah nah, paris hilton ain't your girlfriend! i be your girlfriend!" or like "ah nah, you ain't gonna think of paris hilton! you gonna think about me!", and they are still doing it. they are so stupid. i don't mean that paris hilton was or is my girlfriend. i thought that she wanted to be my girlfriend in the beginning, but that was just confusion which she created by corresponding to me in a childish, cryptic, unnecessary way. i was neutral about her at first and then THOUGHT that i liked her when there really wasn't a reason to. now i hate her.

it is like some of these black women want to stupidly act up so that they can get beaten over and over so that they feel as if they are getting attention. not only that, but they want it to seem as if they are right and i am wrong. they are wrong. what they are doing and have been doing for years is weird and abusive. they want to abuse a white male in public who they think is more special than they are. they have a problem with the concept of their self when they compare it to me. there would not be a problem if it had not been for their totally stupid and unnecessary aggression. this goes back for years. they have a weird psychological problem and it is because of their gossip. they use each other as a crutch, in order to feel stronger about themselves, instead of doing something as strong independent individuals. they are weak, but want to be thought of as strong.

these black women want attention for being childish and ugly and mean. it doesn't make any sense. they are socially lame. their intent is to be thought of as stupid, yet dominant. it is really irritating. they imply that they don't want to try to be something more in life.

and what do they intend to create with their dumb dominance?

they are pretending as if they are angry with me. they aren't. they are angry at themselves. they think that they have made themselves look bad and so they want ignorant people to think that hurting me makes it seem like i was the problem. i wasn't the problem. they just couldn't keep up with a sweet, honest white boy, so they decided to flaunt being dumb obnoxious ghetto shit.

there is strong evidence that black women at the VA hospital are stupidly childishly harassing me. they seem to want people to know that this is what they are doing, and implying in a really ugly way that no one can do anything about it. they have been doing it for years. not only do they disrespect me, but all veterans. i think that they want to try to stupidly boss all men who are veterans around, like they are implying that women with no honor are superior to men who do have honor. i am going to speak with a manager at the VA hospital tomorrow about the harassment.

i am going to delete most of this in this section. i don't like the thought of people being hurt and confused by this. i need to make a statement, so that good people who i am in activity with, are not thrown under a bus. it is sad that a few people decided to betray the community because of their own greed, or because of their own social problems which they created for themselves. i am having trouble being able to focus or think clearly about what i am doing.

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they want to harm someone who they know would have been more confident and happy in public than they can be. the activity can cause people who are not confident or happy to have unusual psychological problems. they want to make me less happy and confident, so that they feel better about themselves.

paris hilton and other girls created a whole lot of unnecessary confusion, frustration, tension and sadness. hilton could fix the problem with her by sending me $150 back, but i doubt that she will. she is involved in a cover up, and the cover up allows other people to act like it doesn't matter if they play very mean games. she knows this, but doesn't care.

i stated that i don't like some black women, but they are not even trying to be liked. they try to make me hate them, in order to try to create a stupid double standard, like they are implying that people have to like them, no matter what. they try to make it seem like i shouldn't be liked because i don't like them or because i don't like everyone. there is a concept known within christianity, known as "the enemy". maybe also "the other side". why should christ not have enemies if christians don't? christ did have enemies. but why not love them, if they are just going to make it be able for you to accomplish more good?

https://www.biblehub.com/matthew/5-44.htm

some black women thought that the paris hilton thing in the past might be the start of me being around people who had money or people who were on tv so they wanted to block it. i didn't expect hilton to write back to me and i didn't care if she did. that was not the reason that i corresponded with her to begin with. in reference to what happened at the grocery store in 2008, i thought about my pride in making my own money and then it got mixed together with hilton because i thought she liked me so it was confusing. i thought that i liked her in the beginning because i thought that she was sticking up for me, even when other people wouldn't. it would have confused anyone. her money was not a big deal to me or i didn't want it, but then the more that i would think about how it was not a big deal, the more that it would seem like i was making a big deal out of it. then the more that it seemed like i was making a big deal out of it, then the more that i would think that i wasn't making a big deal out of it. then the more that it would seem that i wasn't making a big deal out of it, then the more that it would seem like i was making a big deal out of it. this is how i became confused at the grocery store in 2008. what was i suppose to do? leave the change in the change dish? i wish that people could see how nasty and childish and mean spirited that black woman who attacked me the next day at the grocery store was. everyone knew that it was innocent, but just a confused, awkward moment in public which anyone would have had to struggle with. i had quit using drugs, quit drinking alcohol. quit smoking cigarettes. exercising. doing what i was supposed to do on while on probation. i had a very interesting job as a production assistant in a live theater. there was a dramatic change in my spirit and they wanted to stop it because my new confidence confused them or made them feel inferior. they also thought that they were going to look stupid for having said many mean childish things about me and my past. they knew that i had started to write something. i am not wanting to write now, except for an article which i started to work on about sensationalism in the media. i am not wanting to work in theater.

i debate whether or not to delete everything in this 'community' section of this website, but then a few people think that they have the opportunity to lie about me. they want to politicize me, lying about me in order to try to make it seem like they are superior. it was totally unnecessary. they are the ones who want to create division in the community.

i was not advocating the usage of methamphetamine when i wrote 'WWJD'. it was past tense or about the way things can be. i also have a sense of humor. don't expect me to act like a monk. i am a recovering drug addict and i always will be. i have a criminal record, but there are people in the world who have done or who are doing much worse or illegal things than i ever did or would do, and they do not have a criminal record. i have had 5 charges in my adult life. 2 of them were dismissed, and with the other 3 there was no conviction because i completed probation each time successfully.

https://biblehub.com/matthew/10-16.htm

it is more difficult for nice people to understand what is going on, because typically nice people are not associated with mean people. people form into groups, based upon how they act or what type of character they have. nice people are typically associated with nice people, and mean people with mean people. i got associated with people who i would not normally associate with, because they are not nice or intelligent, or because of a lack of a common interest. as an example, people in church would have more difficulty understanding what the problem is, because typically there are not wolves in church. "behold, i send you out as sheep amidst the wolves." it is not just about people who go to church, though. it is a group (i think that you can use the word cabal) which forms because of a common characteristic. intelligence, kindness, ambition, etc.

these few black women who i am in constant 24/7 activity with, who have an attitude problem, try to make people think that they are God and that i am not, because they don't like sitting around doing nothing all day like they do, thinking about how i am God and they are not. it seems to make them angry. this is not a problem for strong people. it can be a problem for weak people. this whole problem with black women started with just a few black women who i am in constant 24/7 activity with, who don't do very much, who wanted to stupidly gossip about me and make fun of me in a really stupid mean way which meant that they weren't being honest about what is what. it meant that they didn't have a heart. then they thought that they looked dumb for having talked stupid unfriendly unloving shit about me when i started to move on in 2007, so they sabotaged, not caring about how many people they hurt or would hurt. very childish and very ugly attitudes. very mean. i think that they thought that they were going to have a problem with black men because of all of the stupid mean trash that they talked about me. they never thought back when they started to do this that i would be on the internet, defending myself and the community from them. then the started to act even more dumb.

sorry to seem so negative, but black women have dragged this on and there wasn't a reason to mess with me to begin with. some black women will always lie about me and my character because they think that if they are truthful, that it implies that i was good and that they were bad. not all black women are the same or care about the crap gossip which other lame black women engage in or try to spread. some person who i think was a black women seemed to want to harass me or attempt to defame me when i was about to be at the photoshop lab to work on art today. i got a weird phone call right before i got to the lab and i think that a black woman wanted everyone to know that she was intentionally wanting to be thought of as dumb/irritating, childishly harassing me. they don't do anything intelligent, yet want to be thought of as dominant. it would never work that way. some black women are telling other black women to lie, saying "it don't matter if it be good, say that it ain't." or "it don't matter if he be honest, say that he ain't." this situation is prejudicial. it is unfair prejudice. they are a danger to the health of the community. mental health. also physical health. they infected my blood with something in 2011 which caused diverticulosis. i had to have my colon resectioned. 3 major surgeries. trauma. they are insane and mean. i don't like them. some of them are running around like chickens with their heads cut off, because they think that they have made themselves look so bad since 2008. they got caught not having the heart, and they are lying stating that i didn't have the heart. they never thought that i would be on the internet. they thought that they could harm me, and that i would never be able to defend myself, along with other people. it all goes back to them lying about me and money and paris hilton. they tried to stop me people who had money from being me. not just hilton, but other people as well. they are the ones who made a big deal about money. i didn't. they didn't want me to have it because they don't have it.

this mexican girl thought that i was better or more than she was so she wanted to politicize me in order to try to make mexicans think that they were better than a white person. it is true. she is a very insecure mexican girl. not all mexicans are insecure. what she did and continues to do is so dumb and childish. like she is a little girl who wants to dress up in a costume and play make believe that she is something which she isn't. the black guy does it too. black women did it too.

people keep trying to politicize me. i don't want to be politicized. this mexican girl keeps and black guy keep trying to politicize me in order to try to trick people into thinking that they are superior. they do it because they think that they are inferior and because they are insecure about it. they are so insecure. they even want people to know that they are insecure because they are trying to get people to lie for them. the only reason that i have suggested that people make a story about this on tv news, proving what this group is, with police certification, is because people attack for no good reason and it creates problems for the entire community. there is no order. i should have rights. biology. simple biology. science. science helps. religion doesn't or won't. you make a story about it so that it isn't an unnecessary story or so that it isn't a big deal. we already have the story before. but without the next one it doesn't make as much sense. it is not big deal. is jesus christ a big deal, or does everyone know about him? why would you make a big deal of it this time, or any other time, by thinking that you can't openly communicate about it? the lesson would be, hundreds or thousands of years from now, worldwide, it that it was respected. simple. biology. the universe. science. people can turn vicious and attack me and others who they think like me, so there should be a defense or deterrent. that is where leadership should be. are leaders saying that i am fair game? how will that help the community? there is no order. there is no law. if it is something which is better UNDERSTOOD, and therefore respected, people will leave it alone and think about something else.

this mexican girl keeps trying to make ignorant people think that i am faking being sick. i am not faking being sick. i just don't like the idea of her getting away with trying to deceive the community. she didn't get away with it. i have had a job for about 6 months now working in the country for my step dad's brother at his ranch. i am now looking for work, with the assistance of a vocational help lady, who helps veteran's. i am looking for work where people who have mental problems work. the mexican girl will probably still try to make it look like she is trying to encourage me when she isn't. she is implying that even if i work, that i will still be miserable. she doesn't like the idea of me being more confident than any guy she would ever be with. the the other thing she is doing is implying that i am not allowed to work or have a decent life because she is lying about the george h. w. bush and northern trust bank issue. there isn't anything important about it because it was a bank. read way below. i don't want to work full time, and this mexican keep implying that i have to work like a slave for everyone, trying to politicize me, wanting people to communicate about how she makes it impossible for me to rest in my own bed, when i don't have to work like a slave for everyone. i like working part time and i also enjoy having time to enjoy my life or help my girlfriend when she needs help or take my dog to the dog park. my girlfriend is a school teacher and it is a very stressful job so i like to help her when i can. this mexican tries to make people think that i am lazy and unfriendly, by trying to get people to communicate about how she won't allow me to rest in my own bed. she just tries to make mexican guys not like me. one way or another. it is either i am lazy and unfriendly, or i did something wrong with george h. w. bush and northern trust bank. she doesn't want mexican guys to think that i am more confident than they are. she knows that i did nothing wrong with george h. w. bush and northern trust bank, and that it was this black guy's fault, but she keeps trying to make it seem like they are God (good) and that i am the devil (evil) when she actually thinks the opposite of that. she is trying to give evil people an opportunity to lie about me and the situation. they are demons and she is trying to cover it up by constantly referring to something else to try to distract people from the fact that it is obvious that there is something weird and wrong with them. she thinks that she can't have sex or be in a good relationship with a man and so now she just wants to hurt everyone, including her own family.

this mexican girl and black guy who have my vision in their left eye are intentionally denying people pleasurable thoughts or feelings. it is an outright denial. they have weird psychological problems, and then they want people to are not sensing what is going on, and reading this, to think that i have the psychological problems. they don't even care about their own family's pleasurable thoughts or feelings. they seem to be some type of animal. it knows that it is not what i am, so it doesn't try to be what i am. it just wants to be something different, like it thinks that it is not mentally capable of being loving. they are real sleazy, thug like people, and they flaunt it, trying to recruit people who are the same. they are sending people a signal to lie about what is going on, trying to make it seem as if i am the one who is negative. they have anti social personality disorders. they are like creepy, unlikeable freaks who would be on the dr. phil show. smart asses who don't care about other people's feelings. they are intentionally denying people pleasurable thoughts or feelings, yet trying to trick ignorant people into thinking that i am the one who is negative or not friendly. i am a very cheerful, positive person if you know me in person all of the time. i am a loving person, but unfortunately other people are not or choose not to be. some black women wanted to deny people pleasurable thoughts or feelings also. it seems like when i have happy thoughts or feelings, that they get confused because they can't have the same type of happy thoughts or feelings, so they act aggressively in order to intentionally deny me the ability to produce happy feelings. you have to work for your happiness, and not just get in the way of someone else's in order to make yourself feel "happy". i really want black people to be ok, but i wanted to tell the community that what those few black women did to me and other people was very ugly, childish and sadistic. i know with certainty that some black people agree with me. i don't think that we will ever recover from what they did, and it is like they didn't want people to be able to forget about it, because they want to be thought of as powerful. they seem to do it because they don't think that they are powerful. not all black women are the same. i wish that i had some black friends or just black people to be around to have a joke or a smile with. i would say that i want black women to be ok and happy, but they some of them would just ignore my kindness or act like they have the authority to deny me, implying that they have a reason to harm me even more. i didn't do anything to them. they started it. they keep wanting people to feel sorry for them when they are the one's who are the problem. why are they destroying the happiness of the community? they destroy other people's happiness because they are more confused thinking that other people are happier than they are. i've got a very sweet, smart girlfriend, and i don't want to think about a dumb unfriendly mexican girl or dumb unfriendly black women. they are stalking my girlfriend. they are trying to deny her happiness also, because it is obvious that we are happy together. they seem to want to try to make it all about people's unnecessary suffering, instead of happiness. they do it because they are not happy or because they think that they can't be happy. they don't try enough.

sorry to keep going on, but i can't believe this. it is like a bad dream. these girls who have intentionally messed with the community seem to want to intentionally create the opposite feeling of how a son feels about a good mother; meaning, feeling comfortable and loved. it seems as if they intentionally wanted to create discomfort for a male in public like they didn't want to think of a man's strength. they didn't want to nurture a man in public, like they didn't want him to be strong or like they didn't want men to be strong, or like they didn't want to create the impression that they think that men are more special than women. i am not saying that men are more special than women, but christ is a man. i am not implying that girls have to kiss men's ass, but it would have been nice if i would have been shown a very basic amount of respect. they disrespect me in public like it is a game to them, like they want to humiliate a man who they think has power, like they are trying to make men who they think people think are powerful, look stupid. i am not stupid though. they thought that i was special and wanted to hurt me because of it. for people who don't know me in person, you would assume by reading all of this that i am not as good as i am. they wanted to create negativity. i am really pissed about all of this. you would be too. i can't have one single day of peace and quiet, like people ordinarily have. i am being knowingly stalked and assaulted every day. yet i am supposed to do something for the community?

i can't even think about what i need to do because of how this mexican girl is intentionally polluting my mind. she has been doing this for years and she is trying to make people think that i am faking being sick or that other people are faking being sick too. she is evil. she goes to such a ridiculous vicious ugly extreme in order to try to give herself an alibi or try to make people think that the people who complain about her are crazy or that we don't know what we are communicating about. she is evil and trying to deceive people. her parents should turn her over to the police. she has a very serious mental problem. she likes to hurt people while making a sick joke about how it is "supposed" to be thought of as help like she is implying that people should give her something while she is intentionally making them sick at the same time. it is dumb. she is so greedy. she has never been any help because she only cared about deceiving men into thinking that they should give her something. one way was to try to trick the men into thinking that they should like her and not like me. one of the things which she is doing is trying to make ignorant people think that she is an alien or that she isn't human. she is a human. she and this black guy have the unusual ability to create contractions of my muscle and soft tissue which the rest of the group can sense. they use it as a weapon to subdue and incapacitate with a really ugly, sleazy attitude, like a thug with a weapon pointed at your head, because if i do work then they think that they will have less because they can't keep up or because they think that people will think that they are less, so they are trying to group together a bunch of lazy stupid losers in order to dominate smart, hard working people. this is very painful. i wish that the government would get involved or at least make a statement to the public so that these evil uncivil childish people won't think that they can get away with this. the government should at least say something because keeping it a secret makes it look like they are trying to hide a problem. this mexican girl is like an obnoxious child with a serious behavior problem, like she is screaming "no! i don't want to have to do work!" but she is also trying to trick people, including her ignorant parents, into thinking that she cares more about work than anyone else. that is totally untrue. she is evil. she thinks that when ignorant people read this, that they will think that i don't know what i am communicating about. i do know. she is obstructing, but pretending with a real evil sleazy smug attitude that she is trying to help. obviously it isn't any help. for years. that is how stupid and greedy and evil she is. she doesn't want to have to do work, so she is trying to give herself leverage somehow or get something for herself in another way, implying that someone owes her something. she is the most nasty, evil, disrespectful, greedy mexican scum bitch that there ever was. she thinks about her looks too. oh well. they don't mean anything. she is like a girl who has a personality like a decent looking girl who gets mixed up in the drug scene and wastes her life or gets beat up for fucking somebody over. she is a greedy evil loser who tries to manipulate or hustle her way into money.

i'm adding some color to the aRt-wErk. will post pictures of it with ETSY information when finished.

i really understand if you think that i have gone on too much, but people are being blatantly stupid and they didn't win the argument. i can rest easy. better too much, than too little. i know that people have my back, but because no one who i know agrees with me actually communicates to me, telling me to relax, i worry more than i need to. it is good for me to worry a little, but i wouldn't feel disconnected if someone would communicate to me.

i'll try to relax. it makes me so mad that cheesy, low class, evil, lame people try to dishonor me. they couldn't keep up, so they pretend like they don't know what i do, so that they don't have to make the same type of effort when in public.

what would jesus have done if there had been internet back then? what would people have done if there would have been electronic communication? childish girls with telephones and computers? television? what we learn in schools? they didn't have schools. would jesus have used methamphetamine if they had it? would he have gotten a DWI if they had cars and alcohol which was readily available? WWJD?


another thing about black women wanting people to know that they stole my mail to TMZ more than once was because they were making a big deal of the fact that hilton referred to me on TMZ, like the black women were inferring that they get attention, but i don't. real ugly attitude. they want ignorant people to think that i did something wrong. i didn't. these black women attacking me is like getting jacked all of a sudden, numerous times, by sleazy, low class, lame thugs

ever since paris hilton said something about me on TMZ, some black women wanted to intentionally irritate me and provoke me in public in order to make me think of them and also interfere with my relationship with hilton and everyone else. it was like they were implying that they were special because they were messing with a special person (me) because a famous girl on tv said something about me. they wanted and still want to think that they were special for interacting with me. it was like they were saying (nasty attitude/bossy/stupid/abrasive/loud) "oh no! now hilton don't be your girlfriend... cuz i be yo girlfriend!" and it was or still is so stupid that i would rather die that to have to be stuck around some of these lame black women. black women got confused and angry and wanted to compete with hilton or a girl who has money and is on tv. i am not stating that hilton was my girlfriend. real way below. i have already communicated about this stupid paris hilton shit. i am sick of her. i am sick of this. i was neutral the first time that i wrote to hilton when she was in jail trying to cheer her up because i thought that maybe she was in trouble. i was not a fan of hers. i was neutral. then hilton wrote back and created a big problem, sort of like she knew that she was going to create a big problem because she knew that i didn't have privacy. hilton turned out to be a big, stupid name on a big, stupid building... she wanted to create a bunch of unnecessary drama like it was for her and her childish sister's personal amusement, not caring about the horrible damage which it is doing to the community. i doubt that the kardashians or anyone else would want anything to do with hilton, if they really really understood what kind of horrible thing she did and continues to do to the community. people's feelings. she belittles me (and other people), like she wanted to intentionally belittle a person who has less money than she does, and i never get a break from it because i lack privacy. it is very painful and confusing. maddening, and she and her childish sister seem to enjoy it. i would also hate any man who acted like he liked her. obviously she lied to her husband and former fiancé about me, and to think that she wants to try to use me as a way of making an ignorant guy think that she is more likeable than she is. she thinks that they think that something means something, other than what it actually means, or she doesn't want them to really understand how she has confused me. i just wanted to do something basic kind for her and for my niece (hand bag gift idea) and i got shit all over in public for 14 years. it doesn't surprise. a stupid girl. i don't mean my niece. some girls are cool and smart and some are childish and dumb. any guy with a bit of experience knows that. they are not all sweet and innocent. hilton plays evil, childish, manipulative games with the media and she thought of this group (144,000) as a form of media. not all of the 144,000 are good. it really is maddening. what she did was cruel. not only to me, but to people all over the world. you wouldn't believe how tense and confused i am as i type this, and all i wanted to think about was being nice to a girl and buying a christmas gift for my niece. that is all it would have been. but hilton was greedy and wanted to try to stupidly and unnecessarily capitalize on it, because she thought that she could use it for publicity. one way or another. she will probably be a dumb, unpopular girl with no money in her next life.

this mexican girl is trying to make me communicate something about nasty, stereo typical mexican behavior in order to try to make all mexicans not like me. not all mexicans are the same so it is nothing new. she is trying to trick ignorant mexicans into thinking that she is better than i am because she wants them to give her something and she does this because she is disabled and doesn't work, so she is trying to hustle her way into something.

it could have been about everyone's power and happiness or strength, but because some people got confused, thinking that i had more power than they did, they wanted to weaken me so that they felt better about themselves. it is really sad, because they weakened the entire community. they continue to do it, every day. sorry, i can't do anything for you. what? you just want me to suffer? will that make you feel powerful? some people are making a sick, childish game about weakening me in public. it makes them feel "better" about themselves. they are very stupid and their stupid shit will die off when i die eventually.

this mexican girl is so unbelievably stupid, always panicking and impatient, thinking that she has to tell a mexican guy in the future, (nervous/confused/dishonest/desperate) "you are so much more than he is. you are so much more than he is. you are so much more than he is." it is so stupid. her fake cheesy "macho" shit is so stupid. she is worried that they will become insecure. it is not a problem for strong men but she is not a strong girl so she thinks that she can't get a strong man. she is intentionally exhausting me every day so that i can't work! but she is pretending as if she thinks that she is trying to motivate me. does it look like she is helping?! no, it doesn't. all she wants to do is to say bad things about me to some mexican guy who doesn't know me in person. the other thing she will lie about is george h. w. bush and northern trust bank. i didn't do anything and she knows that it wasn't my fault, but she is trying to cover for this african american creep because she thinks that the 2 of them together make them seem EVEN MORE weird and stupid. READ WAY BELOW. she is an evil mexican girl who doesn't give a fuck about the community or her parents. all she cares about is sex and money. she lies to her parents. she has a personality disorder. she is so insecure that it is ridiculous. she seems to think that mexican guys are insecure too, so that she thinks that she has to lie to them about me. she doesn't want them to think that a girl is the problem so she tries to trick them about me. it sort of seems as if she wants them to know what she is doing, like she is making a sick childish joke of it, like she wants them to think that they will have good sex because she is evil and childish. i doubt it. she is a disgusting turn off who doesn't care about children, or parents trying to raise children, or suffering old people in nursing homes. she never cared about me. she only cared about trying to trick mexican guys who don't know me in person into thinking that i was no good, or that she was better than i was, or that they are supposed to give her something because "she earned it". she can't work, so she is trying to hustle her way into something.

some of these people make a sick joke about being mean spirited. they won't leave us alone. they are childish, with serious psychological problems. this mexican girl is admitting to being a weak and angry female. she does it in a a very ugly obnoxious way. i made a joke with bugs bunny but this is really not funny. i want to be gay and funny, but it is difficult because these people who are knowingly causing problems want to scare others. the bugs bunny video was also about my faith. i thought about deleting the smokey and the bandit video out of respect for the police, but i think that it is so goofy, that i will leave it. this mexican girl is implying that she would ignore me no matter how much work that i do but she is really not ignoring me. she finds it fascinating that i work so hard, but because i work harder than she does or can, she implies that i should be ignored and that other mexicans should ignore me. isn't that cruel? for her to cause me to tell her to leave me alone thousands of times for the past 9 years and then to imply in public that i should be ignored. it is like she is implying that mexican women are stupid and that the man should always be ignored. this female would never have the opportunity to dominate me ordinarily or if this was an ordinary situation. i would just walk away from her because she would give me a funny creepy vibe and she would never have control of me. she is implying that stupid girls have control. i want black people to be ok, but some black women have done something so bad that i want to express my hatred of them. i want people to know that they have caused pain and that they have intentionally hurt me for no good reason. they do it as a sick joke. they are childish and mean spirited and it makes me sick and uncomfortable. i don't like them. they wanted to hurt me so that i would think about them in public because they got jealous about me thinking of other people. they wanted to hurt me because they thought that i had more potential than they did so they wanted to obstruct. they wanted my attention because they have some weird fascination with me but then they lie about how they really feel about me, saying that they don't like me when they actually think that i am ok. they have childish emotional problems. their gossip about me was and still is their problem. they are childish and angry and mean. i don't like them. they got angry when they thought that i was moving on in life, back in 2008, so they wanted to obstruct. they want to interfere with my relationships with other people because i can do so much more than they can, because of the nature of this situation.

this mexican girl is making a stupid, sick joke about how mexicans should be thought of as dumb. dumb and "macho". she is trying to get other mexicans to do the same thing, but i don't think that it will work.

it is like dumb, stupid, insecure, thug like bullies, picking on a nerd in the school playground in front of other kids, intentionally making him nervous, because they think that they nerd is more special or confident than they are. there is no one around to break it up. i wish that the government or the police or the media would help.

some of these girls don't even try to build. they just make a sick joke about how they think that they are childish, rude, obnoxious and destructive. they didn't want to make it about my confidence and work in public, helping or wanting people to know that they cared and were helping, because they thought that it would take power away from another man. it could have been about everybody's confidence and work but some of them don't care about work. not only do they not offer a very basic amount of respect and help in public, but they blatantly lie and obstruct, making a sick joke about it, because i have no authority to make them stop or because the police have no authority to make them stop. another thing which they are intentionally doing is to make me sick and confused, knowing that i will try to defend myself and the community on the internet, in order to try to make it look like no one should like me. they are trying to deceive you. i would like to imagine having a good life, because i could have a good happy productive life if these few people would leave me alone,, but they probably won't leave me alone because they are sadistic and deranged (nasty alien crap), so i really don't want to live, giving them some weird sick satisfaction of harming me and other innocent people. it is confused. i tried to commit suicide. these people who lie say that i didn't or that i am putting on an act. no. i tried more than once and then i thought that it would be a victory for evil people if i did that because of how disrespectfully me and other people are being treated it so i changed my mind but now i am so sick of this misery which they intentionally create that i am thought about it again, even though i would like to be able to enjoy my life. there is no requirement for me to kill myself and i am not in trouble like evil people who betray the community want you to think. they are in trouble. they got caught harming people and lying. i didn't. even with me writing this, defending myself, they want you to think that it means that i did something wrong. they are not even accusing me of something. they are trying to trip me up on the internet, knowing that i will fight for myself and the community. they try to get me to communicate something in confusion or frustration or anger, or all of that, in order to try to make it seem like there wasn't a reason to support me to begin with. they are the ones who are unpopular and they are angry about it so they want to hurt everyone. they are lazy, evil people who don't try. they can't keep up. they try to make ignorant people think that i am not christ or a good person because it doesn't seem "perfect". if ignorant people knew what was happening all of the time, and not just reading something on the internet, then you would really understand what i am about.

this section of the website would seem confused and that is because it is confused because of a confused situation which a few people are intentionally creating for the community. they are like terrorists who want to upset something which would have been good. they are angry because they have less, so they don't want other people to have more, so they obstruct. it is a form of terrorism. they want people to read that people are being harmed. we are being "poisoned" every day by an evil creature. it is evil, childish, sadistic, unintelligent. something in space. read below. way below. i think that maybe it has to do with alpha draconis or draco/draconian. or maybe grey aliens. i read that they lack a soul. it makes me think of the monster in the movie alien 4, which was a whitish color. it was some kind of cross breed between a human and the vicious alien. it is dumb, childish, very mean and mentally unstable. i would be busy doing laundry and kissing my dog goodnight and going to bed right now if it weren't for these nasty people. nice and peaceful, thinking about something else or something happy. i am a happy person but they don't want you to know that. like i said, they want people to see how i am trying to defend myself and the community, implying that we are defenseless. they are trying to intimidate people. beware. they can't keep up with motivated, intelligent people, so they want to drag everyone down to a stupid level. they think that they can get more people to join in with them since it is easier to be dumb.

i have been goofing around, posting youtube links. i am tired of all of the negative crap which other people create so i just want to be goofy sometimes. i don't care if it makes sense or doesn't make sense because it is funny anyway.

some black women have an attitude like they are implying that people have to like them or respect them no matter how ugly (attitude) and mean and childish they are. it doesn't work that way. it would never work that way. they want people to feel sorry for them for some reason. they are not mad at me. they are mad at the black women who have made them look so bad since 2008. some black woman tried to humiliate me (and paris hilton) for no good reason back in 2008, so i naturally wanted to humiliate the black woman because i actually had a good reason to. i would have become more confused if i didn't say anything back. then i have apologized several times if innocent black women got hurt. it is not blacks versus me. it is low class, dishonest, mean, lazy blacks versus blacks who are not lazy, who are nice, who are honest and who have class. i keep getting these weird phone calls from numbers which i can't call or which say disconnected or no longer in service when i call back and i am reasonably certain that it is black women wanting to take cheap shots at me and the people who defend me. it is very difficult to remain calm. i get a little confused, but it is not a feeling of guilt. it is a feeling of confusion and a little fear because a few weird, childish, incredibly mean people are stalking me and others. they do it when i am driving west or whatever direction and they are also relating it to the dog park or northern trust or george h.w. bush and they are so stupid for doing this. they are stupid because they refer to themselves as dogs, wanting people to be mad at me when i am a sweet guy who never wanted to hurt them. i am a happy person. they aren't happy people. they are like a little child who acts up when it can't get its' way. the only reason that i want people to make a story about me and the other people who i am in 24/7 activity with on tv news with the police is to defend me and the community from aggressive mean childish weirdos. it is a matter of my rights. otherwise, i don't care if a story is made about me. everything would be fine, and i would live out a nice peaceful happy life with a part time job and my beautiful home and car and nice family and nice girlfriend and dogs and cats. i don't want to be politicized. they keep trying to politicize me, wanting ignorant people to think that no one should like me or that they are better than i am and they do it because they are after something for themselves. some black women try to make black men like them more than me because they think that there is a reason for black men to not like them.

there is an issue concerning the concept of lawful jurisdiction in space. but i imagined a small group of little green men who were wearing judge's white wigs and black cloaks. they were smiling.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4mJEF5emuXQ

i've been a little confused for the past few weeks about the swastika. it is confusion about my past confusion, but more so because people lie about me and my character. it is confusing and very painful. i was hoping that something positive came out of world war 2 which i hoped to be a part of in order to be able to help people, regardless of race. never wanted to hurt anyone. i don't know what is going on. maybe i wouldn't like it if i knew more about it. i didn't want to think negative. i felt like my thoughts about something happy for everyone meant that it was going to be something happy for everyone because the thought of God sending someone to create something sad or to be a part of something bad didn't make any sense to me. i thought that God wanted to use me as a way of creating something happy, even if that seems unrealistic. i didn't want to imagine that something evil was dominant; meaning, that we didn't have a chance to be happy. so the way my young brain rationalized it, or wanted to think of it, was to think that i was a part of it, but in order to do good for everyone. like a dream. that was the only way it made sense to me. the only reason that i communicated about the swastika, and posted other information, was in order to kill off false gossip about me coming from a very few people who have proven themselves to be unfriendly and dishonest.


not all black people are the same. a few lazy, dishonest, mean, childish black people are trying to create that impression. just because black people in america were descended from former slaves doesn't mean that they are all the same. they have had generation after generations to more on, but some of them moved on more than others. some of them trying to group all black people together by lying about me and my character or by trying to put social pressure on all blacks to do what they want them to do, not matter how stupid, evil and mean that it is, because they think that a few black people made all black people look bad. they are also lying about the good people who i know defend me. they think that they have more power, because they think that they don't have much power, if they group all black people together. they are not mad at me. they are mad at themselves or the few black women who have knowingly betrayed me and the community. some of these black women don't give a damn about the community or other black people. they only cared about their own sex lives and money, so they lied and continue to lie about me in order to try and make a black man like them more that me, or to put pressure on a black man to like them more than me, because they thought that they have made black women look bad. childish and mean. also, this black guy tries to put pressure on black women who he thinks are dumb or weak, like "ah nah, act like you like a dumb, obnoxious, black man instead of a sweet, honest white boy. i don't like people thinkin' that the white boy got more power..."

this mexican girl is always trying to create the impression that females have more value than they do. she does it because she is a lazy, boring, incredibly lame female who wants some ignorant mexican guy, who doesn't really understand how stupid and obnoxious she is, to give her something. because she doesn't work or can't work, she is trying to create a way for her to get something for herself. it is lies and an attempt to deceive ignorant men. i don't think that it is going to work. i don't think that she thinks that it is going to work, but because she is so fake, she likes to pretend as if she thinks that she is smarter than she is. or she is pretending as if she thinks that other people think that she is smarter than she is.


this mexican girl is trying to have me killed by intentionally making people miserable, but also trying to trick ignorant people into thinking that MAYBE it meant that she intended to help me. no one cares about the meaning. what we care about is peace and quiet every day. she is like a retarded child who is very mean or deranged. she is evil and angry. we can actually sense it or what she is. it is incredibly disturbing. she hopes of me dying and then she is going to go out, because she is trying to lure men, and try to find out if the guy she is communicating with knows anything about this situation, without wanting to communicate about it herself. then she thinks that if he does know about it, that she can tailor her dialogue to whatever some ignorant mexican guy thinks, as long as she thinks that she can get something from him. she is the most evil, disrespectful , greedy bitch that ever was. she has a personality disorder. so does this black guy. their brains never develop properly or it means that they were something unattractive to begin with.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a8BODTA3Kn8



a few people are intentionally provoking me and confusing me in order to try and make it seem like i am not humble or that i am not the humble servant when i am. they are evil and sleazy. they are trying to trick you. they have been caught doing something wrong or dishonest so they are trying to make it look like i am the bad guy when i am not the bad guy. these people are also intentionally provoking good, honest people who are defending me in order to try and make it look like we are evil. the evil people are lying about me and want to make it about hate instead of love. it is easy to figure out who is who. a few people got caught doing something wrong or being dishonest so their lives or image are messed up and so they are trying to make the good people look bad. they didn't anticipate that i would be able to defend myself on the internet. i already won this fight but they don't stop trying to lie their way out of trouble. they just don't want me to be happy because they know that i would be happier than they can be if they would get out of my life.

a few people keep trying to politicize me. i don't want to be politicized. i just want to be left alone so that i can blend in with everyone else. there is no reason for these few people to be creating this incredibly stupid drama every day. all they want to do is to gossip about how they are creating problems for me like they think of it as a sick joke and also implying that they get a sick thrill from it because the police can't do anything about it. i take it seriously and they don't. they couldn't handle the social responsibility. they try to politicize me by lying about me or my character in order to try and make it seem like they are superior. they do it because they think that people think that they are inferior or because they got caught doing something wrong. just a few people. black guy, paris hilton, a few black women and this mexican girl. if people left me alone, i would get ride of most of this information in this 'community' section of this website. they won't leave me alone which means that they won't stop lying. i am not the problem. this was like going to a job and taking it seriously and then childish obnoxious girls play childish games or talk too much or are not focused on work like they should be. they think that i have more capacity than they do and they don't like it so they obstruct in order to try to make a mockery of men who like to work. they can't keep up so they obstruct to try to bring everyone else down to their ridiculously stupid uncaring level. they didn't want to make it about my confidence in public because my confidence exceeds or would have exceeded theirs. they don't want to have to compare themselves to people who are more confident than they are so they are blatantly obstructing, sort of like anarchy.
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it seems like this mexican girl wants to hurt her own family because they don't like her. she has a really bad personality disorder.

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_XoifYo9JCM


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=owvpRNzoaVU

i added the 'aRt-wErk' tab in the 'GALLERY' section of this webite. it is under construction. i will inform the public when the work in available through ETSY. i am trying to raise $5,000 in order to replace the floor in my home.

if i don't write that there is a problem, ignorant people will assume that everything it ok when it isn't and that would confuse me more because i think that you want it to get better. i doubt that these people will leave us alone. they have weird mental problems. it is like being raped by sick weirdos every day who are ganging up on me and other innocent people. imagine watching a movie where a girl gets violently raped by an insane sleazy person, trying very hard to fight off the attacker. that is what i am doing. do you understand? i am fighting for you, too. these people wanted to poison the community but it didn't work. they get angry when they think of something positive which they know that i could have created which they can't create, so instead of thinking of healing or something positive, they wanted to make people literally sick, because of weird childish envy and anger. they are deranged. they have weird psychological problems. i understand if you would think that about me, but you would think that i am cool if you got to know me in person. they don't like comparing themselves to me so they destroy what i would have created. they have a personal problem, like with their sense of self worth. they have unusual mental problems and they should be institutionalized, or killed, because of the way which they are harming people. it is like they want to hurt anyone who they think that God likes more than them.

this mexican girl who i think still lives in houston, texas has parents who stupidly support her and what they should do is turn her over to the police and a mental institution and the media. the only way for people to like her is if she goes away and respects people's peace and independence.

i think that a few black women are trying to make people think that i am guilty of something because the thule.org website is currently not in use. i didn't or don't know that guy that well, but he always seemed nice and it was obvious with the informative website that he was trying to help people. all i am trying to do is to be informative and help people too. the thule society (different than thule) was related to the 3rd reich, but i really doubt if he had cared what race someone was, as long as they were intelligent or had a heart. that is the impression i got from him. namaste'.

these people who are lying about me and paris hilton/northern trust bank don't care if people know that they are lying, as long as they think that they have an excuse to prevent me from earning honest money and being happy. they get angry when they think that people think that someone is happier or has more than they do, so they are childishly obstructing, pretending as if they have a good reason to do it. it was all about their envy and stupid gossip. they don't like to sense how i am more confident than they are, so they obstruct, playing a childish game and not wanting to act like they have to work as hard as i do. i understand if people are thinking "you don't seem very confident." right! that is exactly how they wanted to drag every confident person down to their level.

i would really rather die that to have to think about these few black women who have childishly and stupidly attacked me, wanting people to know about it. i don't want to have to be stuck with them. i don't want to have to think about them. they will lie and state that they had a good reason to attack me. that doesn't surprise me. they didn't. their envy and totally stupid gossip with the use of electronic communication was or is the problem. they didn't or don't want to have to compare themselves to someone who is more confident than they are, so they are intentionally harming me and others, intentionally making us less confident, so that they can feel "better" about themselves. some black women are nice and intelligent. some are not.

people normally group into groups because of intelligence or a lack of intelligence. i got grouped with everybody. think about it. some of these black women try to make it just about blackness and not about people's intelligence, irregardless of race.

this mexican girl wants to imply that latinas are not sweet or loving. it is this stupid childish angry fake macho shit every day, all day long. she is an incredibly weak childish girl who thinks that she can't do anything on her own. she acts aggressively in order to try to cover up her insecurity. she wants to create the impression that mexican girls are angry and obnoxious, like an image she wants for herself or which she wants them to have. she tries to make it look like all girls are the same because she doesn't want to have to compete with smart, more likeable girls. she also thinks that mexican guys will get angry and insecure if she acts like she thought that i was cool or cooler than they are so she lies and obstructs. it is real bad. strong mexican guys wouldn't have a problem with me because i am friendly and hard working. i would rather die that to have to go through any more of this. why doesn't someone just drop off some xanax or opiods or fentanyl at my door so i can overdose? i know that other people don't want this either. we are in a constant state of discomfort and confusion because of this angry personality disorder mexican girl who is implying that she can get away with it or that the police can't do anything. this is what happens when a famous person doesn't have basic security. weird people will stalk them.

some latinas are sweet and submissive.

i wouldn't be aggressive unless other people were being aggressive. if this is the route they want to go, then fine. none of this 'community' section in my website would exist if people had been honest and friendly like i was or am. i would just be like an ordinary guy who obeyed the law and had a part time job. what's the matter? not that interesting? lame people want you to think that it is more interesting than it is. i want to be like an ordinary person. i don't want all of this weird shit in my life. i would like a nice, simple, peaceful life with my family and girlfriend and dogs and cats and a part time job. real simple, isn't it?

this black guy and mexican girl stupidly childishly want ignorant people to think that they have my vision in their left eye because they are supposed to watch over me. no. that is stupid. they have my vision in their left eye because they are weird freaks with a weird mental problem. they try to make people think that because the eye is above the pyramid on the dollar bill, that they have some authority which they don't actually have. i am the one who is watching over. and it is not their job to watch over me anyway. it is the job of the police or the FBI or CIA or NSA or secret service, etc., but there has to be a reason to watch over me. right? there has to be a reason why they would want to watch over me. so it is not childish "make believe" that i need to be watched over. and besides, many people are observing what i am doing and have been doing my entire life, and they don't need my vision to understand what i am doing or what is going on.

part of the reason that i was transparent about the swastika issue is because i knew that blacks and mexicans, who really know me and my character, would defend me anyway. would i do it again. no. do i think that i did something wrong. no, because i was very confused at that point in my life.

this mexican girl and black guy are using their ability to create contractions in my body which other people sense and suffer from as a weapon, like holding a gun to someone so that they can't move or have freedom to think or be able to think clearly and systematically. i am not doing anything wrong. a few black women who are cyber bullying are joining in with them. their aggression is a type of weapon to prevent people from doing work. they do it because they can't keep up with smart, hard working people. they don't want to think about how smarter, hard working people have more or are happier, so they are obstructing. it is a social problem. they are turning it into a social problem about who has more or who is happier. people who work or people who or are dumb and lazy. they are like criminals who use weapons in order to try and get something for themselves. or to prevent another group from having more than they have. just like tribes, but the good nice people were not the ones who started the war. it was the people who thought that they had less or thought that they would have less who started the war. the stupid unintelligent lazy people didn't want to sit around thinking about how they were stupid, compared to people (including me) who aren't stupid, so they started taking something away from people who they thought were better or happier or not stupid, in order to try and make themselves feel better about their stupid thought about their stupid self. it really isn't difficult to understand. they think like criminals who use weapons to get more for themselves because they are too lazy and too stupid to do it the honest way. native american tribes were diverse. some were aggressive and brutal. some were peaceful. it has to do with the way in which it got started initially with certain individuals. i hope to "kill' off evil, cruel crap. i know that i have already made a difference, along with other good people who fight just like me.

this mexican girl and black guy are insane sadistic monsters. like animals. alien shit. really nasty scary alien shit. please help. i think that the same type of species exists within other people. we will be what different species of aliens are eventually. this mexican girl is holding her parents and everyone else hostage, trying to give herself time in order to try to figure a way out of her stupid life, but she just keeps making her situation even worse. she is trying to perpetuate the support which her parents STUPIDLY are giving to her. for her parents: YOUR DAUGHTER IS AN EVIL INSANE MONSTER. SADISTIC. DISHONEST. SHE DOES'NT LIKE TO THINK OF HOW OTHER PEOPLE ARE HAPPIER THAN SHE IS OR WILL BE.

this mexican girl who i think still lives in houston, texas has parents who stupidly support her and what they should do is turn her over to the police and a mental institution and the media. she is the most disgusting piece of mexican shit that there ever was. when i say "i think still lives in houston, texas", it doesn't mean that i don't know what i am communicating about. she doesn't leave people alone so that our brains reset and begin to think of something else. she is doing this intentionally. she is a loser loser loser, very weak obnoxious female, who likes to refer to how she thinks she is weak and obnoxious or how she thinks that people think that she is weak and obnoxious, yet implies that females are dominant no matter how stupid they are. she didn't want to have to work like a humble honest male like me. black women didn't either.

i have been and still am being assaulted by black women and a black guy and a mexican girl who are ganging up on me and everyone else who think that they are stupid, publically communicating about it. they want people to know that they are assaulting me and other people. just because you are black in america and i am a white person in america doesn't mean that you can get away with being blatantly stupid and rude or that i am not allowed to say something back or express my hatred of you. black women tried and are still trying to prevent me from having money or fame or basis happiness in public because of their childish envy and their stupid gossip which they actually feel stupid about. they pretend as if they believe in what they are doing when they don't. i do believe in what i am doing.

this mexican girl is so incredibly cheesy and fake, putting on this fake, childish macho act, because she is trying to make mexican guys thinks that she is not afraid of them because she is afraid of mexican guys because she thinks that they know that she betrayed the community. her stupid fake childish obnoxious macho shit is disgusting and ridiculous. another way to think of it is that she wants a mexican guy to know that she betrayed the community, or that it doesn't matter, because she just wants a mexican boyfriend who acts like he hates white guys. again, she thought that mexican guys would feel inferior or become insecure if they knew that i was more confident than they were, so she thought that she would lie to them about me. ignorant people really don't understand how this girl and a few other people are terrorizing us. they obstruct. we can't have a thought about something else or about other things because of the way which they are obstructing our thoughts. i can't have a thought because i can't have a thought because i can't have a thought, etc. you can not focus unless you are relaxed. she keeps making me think of the same thing like someone who won't get out of your house who is acting weird and obnoxious. i would just get the police to get her away from me ordinarily. i got out of bed to write this because she is intentionally bothering me with me while i am in bed in the middle of the night. she tries to create stories in order to try to confuse ignorant mexican guys and her family but she failed. they know that she is evil.

why do you want ignorant, incompetent dip shits for leaders? now and in the future... hundreds or thousands of years in the future. please make it about science and not religion. biology. please make a story about this with tv news and the police and the court system. we can prove what this is with a test using television cameras. the camera would act like a microscope and the police and media personal can certify that me and other people's (144,000) central nervous systems are fused. put us in different rooms in the media station. say something to me and other people in different rooms would know what it was. give me something to eat and other people would know what it was. touch me somewhere on my body not inappropriate and the other people in other rooms would know where it was. this can be certified by the police. if you make this seem innocent and harmless then that is what other people will think too. that is what they will think in the future, in future incarnations. make it about love and acceptance. for everyone! why are you hiding this from people? if you don't make it seem innocent and harmless then people will think that there is a problem when there isn't a problem. that is a problem. why don't you finish the work. don't take your peace for granted. put scientists to work. there will be wars about me again. there already is a war which a few stupid, dishonest people have started. take advantage of a free country and free press which would protect the world. people who i am in constant 24/7 activity with (144,000) have an opportunity do something and i am pissed that they don't. so what if it is work?! i don't want to go backwards! we can figure out ways of securing it. i don't think anyone would want to mess with it anyway once we made a story. nice and peaceful. i think that people would respect the honor system. i believe in them...


this mexican girl didn't want mexicans to think of my strength or a white person's strength because she thought that it would make them feel inferior but that is only because she is a weak mexican who can't keep up. i don't think that it would have bothered strong mexicans. she blatantly sabotages with this really sick mean obnoxious attitude like "i don't give fuck about christ or the mexican community either." it is sad because her intent is to twist something which would have been positive into something negative. she didn't want to make it about my work and happiness in public because she thought that it would make it difficult for her to be happy with a mexican guy who is not unique like i am. i am sure he would have thought it was fine if he was a strong loving man. i am not stuck up. i am a loving person who cares but the problem is that other people don't care. she is negative. it makes her angry to think of a person who is more positive than she is so she intentionally makes everyone negative. she is also trying to make it so that no one hires me at a landscaping company or at a grocery store, sacking groceries. she is an incredibly mean spirited mexican girl who is trying to attract a mean spirited mexican spirited mexican guy.

this mexican girl and and a few other females want to make this about girls who play childish games and not about guys who work and who are peaceful and confident in public. you don't understand how they are obstructing. it is like a girl who is going "hehe. oh, i'm not going to work like an adult. i don't have to take this seriously. you can't force me to do anything. i'm going to play games. hehe. isn't that funny?" they are ruining america and the world. this mexican girl is trying to trick ignorant people to think that she isn't a human being. she is and she has a personality disorder. she got herself into social trouble and she is trying to give herself an alibi, trying to trick ignorant people into thinking that she wouldn't make herself sick or ruin her own life like she is doing. she just doesn't care about her own life. she is a loser. some girls want to make it about humiliating a unique guy instead of making it about his confidence in public or i think just men's confidence in public. this is a very difficult situation to be in when people are blatantly disrespectful because they think that they can get away with it or that the police can't do anything. it is sad and confusing. i want positive things. i think positive but unfortunately other people don't and they want to ruin it for people who do. ordinarily i would get the police involved and get a restraining order filed against this mexican girl. she is a real person who i think still lives in houston, texas. she is a weird creepy disrespectful angry freak. she thinks that she can't have sex and it really makes her angry because she thought that her looks (not that good looking) were going to get her something like many young girls do so she wants to fuck everybody over wanting people to know that she is a mean uncaring bitch and act like she doesn't care about christ or the community. she couldn't handle the responsibility. she only thought about herself and not the community. she doesn't even care about her own family.

it is ironic that the term "soul" is given to describe black people (soul music/soul food) because some of them don't have a soul.



ignorant people would feel sorry for me if they knew how confusing my life was starting in 1997. you would feel sorry for me now also. if you have an attitude like (sarcastically) "awhh, poor boy..." then i would tell you to fuck off and go eat shit and that you don't have a heart and that you should show a little compassion. you have no idea. i'm not a robot. if someone would have talked to me in person, helping me sort this out when i was 10 or 15 years old, then i would have felt as if i had love in my life and i would have grown into a stronger, more responsible man. instead of some people wanting people to think that they care about my feelings or mental health or showing compassion for someone who was put into a very confusing situation in public, some people try to turn it into this thing where they want people to know that they are harming me and that they don't want to act like they give a shit about my feelings or other people's feelings either. they are just lazy and don't want to have to act like they care about trying to create something positive. i am trying to create something positive by killing the negative. i need to get rid of most of this in this section because other people do the work for me. going on too much creates an impression that i haven't already won the battle.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r_4jrMwvZ2A


i never thought that i would have the thoughts which i do now about some black women. hate is learned. and it is because of the way which they have treated me for 14 years. they admit to being childish and mean. they also admit to stalking me. i have a sweet, gay spirit and it makes them angry to think about it because they don't have sweet, gay spirits, so they intentionally make me angry, pretending as if they think that they have reasons to do this, because they want to drag me down to their angry, bitter level. it makes them feel better about themselves when they don't have to compare themselves to a happy person.

this is really not difficult to understand. when you mix a strong mind (strong spirit) in with weak minds (weak spirits), the weak minds become confused and angry (envy). then the weak people obstruct, in order to try and make it look like i don't have a strong mind or that i am not a strong person. it could have been about everyone's happiness and productivity, but because some people are weak or become envious of the strong people, they obstruct so that they don't have to work as hard as the strong people. they lie about me and want ignorant people to think that they have a reason to obstruct when they don't. some people can't keep up so they obstruct so that they don't have to work as hard as the strong people. this mexican girl and black guy are so cheesy because they intentionally want to be thought of as evil tyrants who bully people. they are implying that evil people dominate, also trying to recruit evil people. they are lazy and sleazy, but want people to think that people like that dominate.

it could have been about everybody, but because some people are so greedy, they decided to try to put me down or obstruct so that they thought that they could get more themselves or have more for themselves. they didn't want to make it about me or my confidence in public because they thought that they couldn't get something for themselves that way. they can't keep up with me so they are dragging everyone down to their stupid level. they lie. they thought that if people knew about my happiness, that they couldn't be as happy. strong people are not the problem. weak people are the problem. they can't keep up. i think that they think that they are not capable. i wanted to make it about everyone's happiness but people who are weak didn't think that they would be happy if people knew that i was happy. they don't like the idea of me having more than they have. my spirit.

a few people are intentionally obstructing, implying in a sleazy manner that they are superior because law enforcement can't do anything about it. that is why i am going crazy on the internet. i can't work like i want to be able to. i want to set an example, but i can't work. i care about doing something good for the community, even if that is just obeying the law and working a part time job. i am also in great pain. that is another reason that i communicate on the internet. i want to be positive. i am a positive, cheerful person by nature. i got stuck with other people who are not positive. it is either very hard or impossible to be able to work. it is frustrating. another reason that i communicate on the internet is to prevent evil people from being able to get away with lying about me or my character. they want to create division. i do not want to create division. some of them try to divide because they can't keep up with people who are honest and work hard. sort of like bullshit in american politics. they politicize me. i don't want to be politicized. jesus had the same problem, so they decided to make a spiritual messiah out of him. he wasn't cut out to be the type of leader which some people wanted or not typical authority. why don't you leave me alone so that i can work at a part time job and enjoy my life with my nice family and nice girlfriend and loving dogs and cats? it could be real simple but people want to gossip about unimportant shit. they want to be thought of as superior because they feel inferior. it confuses them and makes them angry. they have social problems. don't involve me with you social problems. i understand if people are thinking that about me. i want to get rid of most of what is in this section of this website. some of it needs to stay.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Fz3y0BHVvU


this mexican girl keeps going on and on about herself but she is totally lame. it is stupid. her greed is the problem. it is unbelievable. she also lacks intelligence so it is not a good combination. she stupidly implies that what she is doing is impressive but she doesn't even think that herself.

i am being stupidly harassed every day. it is not about me having done something wrong. it is about a few females and this black guy not wanting me to be happier than they can be. they want people communicating about how they are sleazy and cruel. it is the most disgusting shit you could every imagine. it is like having been kidnapped by creepy childish weirdos who call the police to tell them that they are torturing you, taunting the police, implying that they can't do anything it and that they want to hurt the police too or get the police to join in with them. sort of like being eaten slowly by an animal. i mean a real animal. it doesn't seem human. some kind of weird alien shit. please help. they make their social problem everybody else's problem. they pretend as if they have an excuse to harm me and other innocent people. they are trying to create hate. why? very mean, very childish people. you see what i am doing here, but you really don't understand how cruel and evil these people are being all of the time like they are admitting to being cruel and evil like it is a game to them, implying that they think that it is fun because the police can't do anything about it. they flaunt being the opposite of christ as if they are implying that evil people get attention too. i guess they think that they are incapable of doing anything else. they are weird, like scary animals with an anger problem. they have emotional problems. they also lack intelligence. normally, people can choose who they want to be around. i couldn't. i got stuck with a few weird scum bags. they sit around all day doing nothing. that is not what i am doing. i would have been busy right now putting groceries away and making breakfast and then moving gracefully on to another task. they keep interrupting, because they envy what i could be if they didn't interrupt. i wish that people would make a story about this on tv news so that these people don't think that they can get away with it. they want to harm anyone who could be happier than they can be.

none of what i communicate on the internet is official or matters because there is no official recipient. you are wasting my time and your own time. i have sincerely communicated many loving, supporting things of mexicans and blacks but it doesn't matter. also, none of what i have communicated to people every day for years in person is official or matters because there is no official recipient. people can play a game like it didn't matter or that they didn't know about it because i am not officially communicating to anyone. do you like this? i think it sucks. i would rather die. i don't have rights. i am being attacked every day by crazy mean freaks because i don't have rights. this unique situation means that i don't have rights and also that people who i am in activity with don't have rights. you are not engaging me in person, so you're wasting your time if you are trying to get to know me.

i understand if ignorant people think that i am going on too much but you don't understand what these other people are doing or how often they are doing it. it really is weird and sadistic. very childish too like their brains never developed properly in any incarnation. i wish that i could die. many people would like it better if i were dead. it would be more peaceful. i have tried to convince people who i am in constant 24/7 activity with to go with me to a doctor's office, proving that the activity between us is real, making it understandable that it is not healthy. i have thought that maybe i could be euthanized. humans can't be healthy in this type of situation and there is no point to it. i am not doing anything important. i think that we could gain public support for it if we also involved the media. it is especially not healthy because of the way in which other beings are acting weird and aggressive toward the entire group, wanting attention. a few of them are angry and mean because they embarrassed themselves. they don't want me to succeed because then they think that people will think that they are no good compared to me so they are intentionally sabotaging my basic happiness. i would rather die than to have to do through any more of this. this is not a joke. these people are childish and weird. they have weird mental and anger problems and they want to hurt other innocent people all over the world. they want attention because they feel weak. it makes them feel powerful or something weird because they actually don't feel powerful. it is like someone who has a weird angry attitude like (angry/childish/overcompensating for thinking that they don't have power or that people think that they don't have power) "oh yeah... well i'll show you. i have power too..." i'm not the one doing that. they are. YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT THEY ARE DOING OR HOW MUCH THEY ARE DOING IT.

this cheesy, evil, deranged negro keeps coming into our homes when he is not invited. so does the mexican girl. so do black women with the use of the computer. it is cyber bullying. they all got themselves into trouble and are now ganging up on the good people which includes me. he is telling black women something like "you betta say you like me mo than the white boy, even if i be stupid..." they all have evil thug like attitudes like "that's right... we can fuck with you and everyone else and the police can't do nothin' about it... ha ha. isn't that funny..." it is scary. i would rather die than to have to go through this but i don't have a way to commit suicide. i made several attempts to get shot in the head at remote locations with earplugs and photocopied notes in my pocket, the car and in my home. then i wanted to do it in the past by overdose on xanax. i got a job at a restaurant (you can read below) in order to get money in order to get xanax from a canadian pharmacy online but the mexican girl made it impossible to work because she didn't want it to be a story about how a mexican girl was a problem. she thought that she would keep me here in order to try and confuse people into thinking that i was or am the problem. i was really trying to get rid of her. the xanax would have made me fall asleep and then die in my sleep. that would have been a peaceful death for me and good for the people who i am in constant 24/7 activity with.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r_4jrMwvZ2A

why do these people keep involving me in their lives??? i don't want to be involved in their lives. leave me out of your life! they involve me in their lives in order to try to make it seem like they are better than i am. they are also lying about me and my character. leave me out of your life! leave me alone! i would just be like other people, with a part time job and not harming anyone. real simple... sorry, it is not that interesting. you are the ones who are complicating this! i have many reasons to be happy. get out of my life! they involve me in their lives in order to try and make it seem like they are more important or more interesting than they are. i just want peace and quiet for the community. that would make me happy. i attempted to commit suicide several times just so there would be peace and quiet. real simple.

some girls don't want to give me power by acknowledging what i actually am (how i actually am) because they think that it takes power away from another man or would make him jealous or envious. actually the girls just didn't want to give power to men, generally thinking. they don't want to have to act like they submit to men, generally thinking. i think that the girls think that they would feel inferior or like men would have more power than they do and that confuses them. it could be an inferiority complex. girls, including paris hilton, have created a huge problem in this situation. for both america and the world.

the black women who caused and who are still causing problems don't want black men to know what they really think about me or how they really feel about me. they lie because they think that the black men will get jealous or envious or because they think that it will take power away from a black man, confusing their relationship. this mexican girl does the same thing. she doesn't want mexican guys to know what she really thinks about me, thinking that i am hard working and funny. then she is also obstructing all day long every day in this really stupid, irritating way, so that mexican guys don't know about me being happy and successful because she wants mexican guys to think that they are better than me or a white guy because she thinks that it will improve their relationship. she didn't want to include me in her relationship with another guy in a good, honest way. she wanted them to think that i was the bad person because she was or is the one rejected. some of these girls are greedy and childish. they don't care about the community. they don't care about trying to build people up. they only care about getting something for themselves and they don't care about how destructive it is.

in this situation, the people who are intentionally causing problems for the community are like trump supporters. they are obstructing every day, making a sick joke of it, wanting people to know what they are doing just like trump wanted people to know that he was evil. they are unintelligent and they lie like it is a game to them. they don't want to have to act like they care like good, honest people do. this is just like politics. i am a good person. i was confused in the past, but i am a good person. many things were confusing me, but people knew and know that i am good. i communicate so much more than this in person. i have been communicating out loud since 2002. people know me very very well. they know my heart. there is so much more to me than this website. some people are good. some people are evil. the evil people are lazy and don't want to have to act like they care like the good people do. so the evil people lie and pretend like they don't know that the good people are good. they people who are acting up are thugs, like trump supporters. they have social problems because i am a good person. they don't want to have to compare themselves to a good person, so they try to create reasons to say that i am bad. they lie and obstruct. matter of survival to them. it is like politics. it can be very painful. people attack you because you are a public person. they attack and lie. i don't have problems because i am a bad person. i have problems because i am a good person.


some people imply that because i am christ, that i am not allowed to defend myself or say something about nasty, mean people. i am not a nasty person. i am not a mean person. i have love in me. i never wanted to harm anyone. i still don't. they got caught being nasty (childish and sadistic), so now they lie and say that they have dirt on me when they don't. they are a horrible, horrible combination of childish and sadistic. they like to toy with me, harming me psychologically, because they find it fascinating while also implying that law enforcement can't do anything about it. they are taunting the police. they want the police to know that they are harming me and other innocent people.

it is the people who are not being observed who are the problem. i am not the problem. i don't want to harm anyone. i didn't in the past either. black women are conspiring. it is other people's unnecessary aggression which is the problem. they want you to see what i am doing here on the internet, without wanting you to know what i am doing or what i am like all of the time. they don't what you to understand what they are doing all of the time. it is creepy and sadistic. i am a gay innocent man but they like to try to create the impression that i am mean and not innocent. they are trying to trick ignorant people. they are the ones who got caught doing something wrong, intentionally harming innocent people. i have never done that or wanted to do that.

we are damned if i communicate about this and we are also damned if i don't. i'd like to get rid of most of this. i won the fight because i actually made an argument. going on and on makes it seem like i didn't already win the fight.

as far as the swastikas thing in the past, i wouldn't say that what i did was wrong. i would say that it was confused. i don't think that other loving people communicate that it was bad or that i am a bad person either. it is sad to think of the death of the jewish people. i hope that something good came out of it. i think that it had to do with long term alien peace. all i can hope for is the future. i can't change the past. i'm a little conflicted about it now, but not in the past because i was so confused. i thought that maybe i was being given the opportunity to be a part of something strong and dominant, but in order to do good with it. wishful thinking. i didn't want to think that because i was good, that i was going to be killed or that we had to worry or that we didn't have a chance. that wouldn't have made any sense. many things were confusing me in the past. some people probably say that i am trying to hide something. i'm never hiding anything and that is the beauty of this situation. i'm just trying to diffuse a situation which is spinning out of control because some people lie about my character or what is in my heart. come ask me a question if you want to know something. you don't get to know what is going on this way. i got stuck in the middle of something. would i draw a swastika again? no. do i think that i did something wrong in the past when i was young and very confused about many things all at once? no or not really. i may have drawn a swastika but i was by myself and confused and not involved with any white supremacist groups and i never would be involved with white supremacist groups because i don't believe in that. good DNA can be in any group of people. i don't like all white people or i don't always prefer a white person to a colored person.

a few people are trying to make ignorant people think that i am the anti christ when they know that i am not. they are doing it because they did something which was wrong in the past and they know that the community communicated about it. they have a social problem. nobody deserves to be treated the way which i am being treated. i don't care who they are. but i am not the anti christ. they flaunt in a really ugly way how they like to hurt many innocent creatures, including me, so it is not about me having done something wrong. they imply that because i am a unique person, that they have the right to bully and harm me. they are ugly bullies and i hope that it stops. i am not going on and on just for the sake of it. i am trying to get it to stop by making impossible for people to get away with lying about me.

some people are childishly trying to humiliate a person who they think is more likeable (or loveable) than they are. they are trying to use me as a scapegoat because of their own personal social problems which they have created for themselves.

i never imagined that i would be communicating these things about black women in public because of the general love which i always had for them. some of them have an attitude like "yeah! i be bossy! i be ugly (attitude)! i be angry! i be stupid! i be childish! i be lazy! i be loud!" and it is really irritating. uncivil, like they want people to know that they really don't care about trying to assimilate into something else. it is an attitude of american black women and not african black women. they want to make their social problem everybody else's social problem. i'm not a plantation owner. i have showed black people love over and over but because some of them think that they made it look like they are not loving, they pretend as if they don't know about it.

the people who are acting up are angry because they think that they are inferior and/or because they think that other people think that they are inferior. they are deranged. they are nut cases. it is like they are saying (loud/crazy) "i may be inferior, but i'm gonna get attention!..." they are also like Biff, i the movie 'Back to the Future" or like the bug in the movie 'Men in Black'. it is a real dumb creature (bully) which wants attention which gets angry when you say anything bad about it.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r_4jrMwvZ2A


we could have all had something together, but some people (mostly black women) got childish and envious or jealous about me having more than they could have so they tried to stop me from having something. not only do they lie about me and money, they want people to think that they have the right to stop me from earning money honestly or just being happy in public. it is so stupid. they are the money problem and i think that some black women who work for banks or other institutions which require trust might be a problem now or in the future. they have already proven that they can't be trusted with mail. it is a federal offense to steal mail. so they try to stop me from having more than they have and then they also try to turn it into this childish, selfish thing like blacks and mexicans (this one particular mexican girl who i am in activity with) have a right to have more than a white person. i know what i am communicating about. i haven't had a problem with mexicans other than this one mexican girl who i am in activity with. i have had and am still having a big problem with black women. first it was just a few black women who i am in activity with who got childish and envious or jealous (paris hilton incident) and then it has spread to millions now because of their childish gossip and dishonesty. it is a national security problem. they are angry and mean. they want people to think that they have an excuse to harm me and other innocent people like it is some kind movement or dumb black trend. part of the reason that black women wanted to cause a problem (paris hilton incident) is because they thought that they were going to have a problem with black men because of the women's gossip so they tried to humiliate me in front of black men because they thought that the black men wouldn't feel as powerful. i think that the black men would have been fine. women do stupid things sometimes. they play stupid unnecessary mind games. this black guy who i am in activity with joins in with weak black women because he is a weak black man and also because he stupidly thinks that it makes him look like a player when it doesn't. what this situation has demonstrated to me and i think others is that blacks and mexicans (or at least one mexican) have hatred toward white people (or a white person) because they think that the white person (or white people) has more. not only do they have weird hatred toward a white person because they think that the white person has more, but they want to harm the white person or white people. people always want to communicate about white hate, but what about black hate and mexican hate. it is understandable if people are being honest about feelings which people would have. it is easy to understand.



they are going to attack me again real bad in order to try to get me to defend myself on the internet in order to try to make it so that no one hires me if i apply for a job here in houston. i have a job right now working for my step dad's brother at his ranch in the country. they are playing a trick on people. they also want to interfere with my family life and home life and girlfriend life. they don't want me to do work in my home. they don't want people to know that i am happy because of their envy and jealously.

some of them hate me because i am something which they aren't and also can't be. some of them lie about me and my character.

they hate it when i am peaceful and happy. it makes them envious or jealous and angry. my happiness or gaiety is unique and i am hated because of it. they can't do the same thing in public like i can so they like to make me miserable in public like it is a stupid childish game to them. they have mental problems. deranged. angry. like they want to make a sick mockery of a man who is gay or happier than they are or can be. they are childish, mean spirited, low class scum who i got stuck with. they come into my home every day all day long intentionally disrupting my peace and ability to work. i would not choose to be around them. they don't even live in my neighborhood.

i'd rather not think of it this way.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cgvv-Hj62H0&t=119s

this mexican girl is so blatantly weird, childish, obnoxious and stupid; meaning, how she persistently attempts to get something for herself and to deceive men or trick them into giving her something or doing something for her in the future, without actually going out and talking to them in person. she doesn't want to actually go out and communicate with anyone now because she thinks that they will think that she isn't as exciting or interesting as she wants them to think or that she can't live out some childish, weird, greedy fantasy about getting something from people or being happier than she can be. black women are trying to do the same thing with black men. this black guy tries to do the same thing with black women. they all fantasize about someone thinking that they are more interesting or more special than they are or can be. they all want someone to take care of them or give them something which is not realistic. they fantasize about being able to be something which they can't or won't be. they have a confused ego and concept of themselves. personality disorders.

this mexican girl acts like a disgusting drug addict even if she isn't using drugs, like some girl who keeps stupidly trying to get a crumb of heroin or speed out of a syringe or pipe when there isn't a crumb. she is so stupid. then she wants mexican guys to know out about what she is doing ALL DAY LONG EVERY SINGLE DAY because she is sending them a single (sleazy) "hey, do you have a crumb for me? i'll fuck you if you have a crumb... oh, wait... do you have two crumbs?" and she is so blatantly disgusting about it, trying to prostitute herself.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=goKRpR4XNg8&t=47s

a few black people are admitting to being vicious, low class, sleazy animals. they admit to thinking that they are not intelligent. really. they do it every day, trying to drag other black people down with them. like they are telling other black people "be nasty, or else we are going to mess with you too..." i pray to God that this will not manifest worse than it needs to be in the future. 50 years from now. 200 years from now. 500 years from now, etc. they are being blatantly childish and ugly just for "fun" and it is sick. i have much much better things to do with my life than to constantly think about scum bags. it started out with black women lying about me and money because of how they gossip. these black women who i am in activity with want other black women to think that they are God and it is ridiculous. they are disabled. they are lazy. they are not connected. they have no power. it means that THEY fuck around all day on the internet, wanting people to think of me as an idol, yet insulting me and lying about me in every stupid way which they think that they can, implying that they are superior. they know that they got caught being stupid and now they want to hurt everyone. if they don't lie about one thing, they lie about another. i am not stupid. i have a good intent and they know it but they pretend as if they don't know because they don't want to act like they care about doing the same thing.

I WISH THAT PEOPLE WOULD INVOLVE THE FBI AND THE MEDIA SO AS TO TRY TO CREATE A DETERRENT. I UNDERSTAND IF THERE IS AN ISSUE WITH ONLY CIRCUMSTANTIAL EVIDENCE, BUT THE SITUATION WHICH PEOPLE COULD PROVE IS REAL BY PERFOMING A CERTIFIED PROOF TEST OF THIS ACTIVITY ON TV, IN AND OF ITSELF, MEANS THAT THERE WOULD BE SOMETHING ELSE TO THINK ABOUT SO IN A WAY IT PROVES WHAT WOULD NEED TO BE PROVED, OR AT LEAST BE A PRECAUTION. I THINK THAT THIS WILL MANIFEST AS ISSUES WHICH THE POLICE AND/OR MILITARY WILL HAVE TO NEGOTIATE IN SOME FORM SOME TIME FROM NOW. DON'T UNDERESTIMATE HOW BAD IT CAN GET IN THE FUTURE. THIS IS THE START. LIKE IT OR NOT.

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many black guys are cool and have class. God be with them.

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american females, starting with paris hilton, are destroying the world with childishness and arrogance. they have an attitude problem. they want to be thought of as more than christ or a humble man, stupidly insulting a humble man or humble men. no, i'm not a chauvinist. they are stupid childish rude feminists. this mexican girl does it. black women do it too. they will regret it. they have ruined america.

she thinks that i am more interesting and better than most mexican guys but she doesn't want them to know that. i want mexican guys to know that i am not stuck up. she keeps intentionally fucking with my confidence, wanting people to know about it, because she thinks that mexican guys will think that they are inferior and she doesn't want that because she thinks that she won't have sex as good. that is the truth. this mexican bitch is greedy, lame and evil. she hurts me. i am innocent. i am not involved in anything bad. i don't want to hurt anyone. she hurts my innocent girlfriend. she hurts my innocent dogs. she hurts my innocent family. she hurts the community. like she wants people to know that she thinks of it like a game like she is an obnoxious sleazy mexican girl in school who talks back to the teacher after she gets in trouble. i want mexican guys to know that i am not stuck up. i am a good person to work around with a sense of humor. she thinks that i have more experience and more confidence than most guys but she doesn't want them to know that. she keeps intentionally obstructing my life. she lies in two ways. one way is that she is being friendly and trying to help and that i am not friendly or receptive to it. that is one lie. the other lie is that i deserve to be harmed. she can't figure out how to lie her way out of trouble, because she got caught trying to wrongfully defame me. she is panicking. she has been panicking every day for years going crazy because she thinks that she can't get have sex or get money from some guy. she is an evil boring gold digger who tried to use me and when she thought she couldn't, she stabbed me and everyone else who she thought cared about me in the back. she is a threat to national/global security. so is the black guy. so are some black women who are also playing games.

this mexican girl wants to tease and toy with a man, making him mentally sick, because he doesn't like her or because he rejected her BECAUSE HE DIDN'T LIKE HER. she is angry because i rejected her because she thought that she couldn't get another guy to like her so she stabbed me and everyone who she thought liked me in the back. she is an evil bitch! some black women have the same problem. they do the same thing. they are stupid. these females are so stupid. they should move on. they are so lame. men have a right to not like women who don't make them feel comfortable!

another thing is that black women and this mexican girl want other men to think that they are trying to make the men jealous or something stupid like that because they want the other men to think that they are with me. it is ridiculous.

this mexican girl doesn't want mexican guys to know that i have a good time with my beautiful smart girlfriend in my beautiful home because she thinks that she can't have the same kind of good time with a guy. she admits to being a stupid childish jealous bitch. she wants people to see that i am angry but to not know how sweet i am. she tries to trick people. she is evil.

this mexican girl is also definitely lying to her family. she can't work and so she is lying to them in order ot try and get inheritance money. she is evil and wants her family to know that she is evil, stupidly implying that they should give her inheritance money anyway.
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WILL SOMEONE IN THE COMMUNITY PLEASE COMMUNICATE WITH ME AND MY GIRLFRIEND ABOUT WHAT IS GOING ON AROUND THE INTERNET? I KNOW THAT PEOPLE ARE IN AGREEMENT ABOUT WHAT I AM STATING ON MY WEBSITE. I KNOW THAT THERE IS SOMETHING ABOUT IT ON THE INTERNET AND I WOULD LIKE TO KNOW ABOUT IT. IT WOULD GET ME TO CALM DOWN. IT IS VERY DIFFICULT FOR ME TO EXPLAIN WHAT IS HAPPENING TO MY GIRLFRIEND WITHOUT ANY ACTUAL SUPPORT FROM A REAL PERSON. HOW IS THIS GOOD FOR ANY COUPLE OR ANY FUTURE COUPLE? IT DOESN'T MEAN THAT WE ARE GOING TO BREAK UP, BUT IT SURE WOULD BE NICE TO EXPERIENCE A LITTLE LOVE COMING FROM SOMEONE ELSE IN PUBLIC.
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i am not a threat and people lie about me, wasting everyone else's time and energy. it is the people WHO ARE NOT BEING OBSERVED who are the threat or danger. do you understand? i never wanted to harm anyone and people know this about me a long time ago and they still know it about me every single day. i only wanted to make people happy. what am i doing every day? nothing harmful. it is very very simple. some evil childish people are blatant about harming me and others, pretending as if they have an excuse to do so, not wanting me to be happier than they are because of their envy. they are childish weirdos who want to play with me and make me sick in front of everyone like they think that i am a star who they want to play with. please help me and the community.

this mexican girl is the biggest coward and liar in the universe. she is constantly trying to make mexican guys think that she is more macho than they are because she is actually a coward who is trying to trick them into thinking that girls deserve something when that is not necessarily true. she is a stupid coward who was always afraid of real work. i would be doing something else right now if these dumb girls would get out of my life. i would be a very confident, calm, happy man if it were not for dumb childish weird girls who want to play with me in public.

i already communicated on this website that i drew a swastika about 20 years ago to label a binder which had innocent, interesting messages from a guy (thule.org) who i felt was loving. i also think that he knew who i was. i threw it and the messages away years ago. i think i drew a few swastikas in my old note books which i have already thrown away but it really isn't important. i don't communicate with white supremacists or KKK or anything like that. i never did and never would. i thought that there was something interesting about world war 2 and i also never wanted to hurt anyone. some black people talk stupid shit about me but their problem isn't with me. their problem is with themselves. i thought or hoped when i was young and naïve and using methamphetamine that i would be able to be involved in technology in order to help people. it is funny if you really know what i am like. people lie about my character. i always wanted to help and i am stuck in the middle so i didn't understand my potential. i wanted to think that there was some type of justification for what happened during world war 2. maybe there isn't. i got stuck in the middle of something and wanted to believe that i could help or that everything would be ok. i was feeling lost and confused in the past, mostly because of how this black guy had and was separating me from the community, so i wanted to feel as if i was connected and had power to do something good. i didn't want to harm anyone and i wouldn't have harmed anyone if i had been given the opportunity. thule guy was showing me love and i needed love and acceptance in my life. i was also intoxicated on meth, feeling passionate about optimistic about something in something.

i'm not the one who wants to talk about swastikas. i want to move on to something else. that was in the past when i was confused. i never wanted to harm anyone. i never tried to promote white supremacy.


some stupid black people want to start a war because they think that people think that they are inferior. don't make your problem everyone else's problem. not all of them are doing this. some of them lie about me and money or whatever they think they have an excuse to lie about because they think that it gives them an excuse to act lazy and as if they don't care because some of them don't even try to be anything other than former slaves in america. it was all unnecessary. they fake having pride. they fake thinking that they are superior. they fake thinking that they are good and that i am evil it is fake. they are fake. i am not fake and they know that i am not fake and they can't keep up with me or other good people.

they are trying to make it so that i can't get a job close to my home. they don't want me to be happy and then they also lie about me and money. it really is unbelievable how so incredibly nasty and childish these people who are doing this are. it is weird envy but that doesn't mean that i am stuck up. i understand if you are thinking "what is there to be envious of? you always seem angry." that is exactly how they are trying to trick you. they want to make me negative because they can't keep up with my positive. it is like they got kicked out of a party because they were obnoxious or mean to people and then they give the host and other people at the party stupid attitude, scratching people's cars with key and breaking windows of the house after they are thrown out. childish anger. they made themselves look stupid and they don't like it so they are trying to make me look stupid but i am not stupid. do you know the real reason why they don't want me to get a job? because i am a good humble worker who is friendly. they don't want people to see that i am a good humble worker who is friendly. they are not humble and they are sending a signal to other black people to not be humble or caring but i don't think that it is working or will work.

these people make a childish angry mockery of christ or something positive because of their own negativity in their own lives. they don't even try to be happy. to some of these black people the word "civility" is a punch line of a sick joke.

a few people are trying to portray me as an obnoxious bad boy. i'm not an obnoxious bad boy but that is what it would seem like with all of my internet crap. they intentionally provoke me in order to try to get me to defend myself and the community in order to try to make it look like i have an attitude problem when actually they are the ones with the attitude problem. they try to make it seem like i am the one who is aggressive when i am not. they are the ones who are unnecessarily aggressive. they are trying to trick you. i just want to be left alone! do you understand? i just want to be left alone! i would much rather being doing laundry right now or taking a shower or peacefully walking the dogs or vacuuming or looking for a job at a landscaping company (i have a job right now working for my step dad's brother in the country but i would like something closer to my home) or something else besides this. that is what it would have been and they know it and they don't like it because they think that it makes me seem more popular or likeable than they are. i would be peaceful and confident. they are not peaceful and confident. they are the ones who want to try to make a big deal of themselves. i am not the one who i trying to make a big deal of myself. they try to politicize me in order to try to make it seem like they are superior because they actually think that they are inferior or that people will think that they are inferior, and it makes them angry and confused in public. the only reason that i communicate about trying to get the FBI and media involved is because these people are evil aggressors who are intentionally destroying the community because they are angry because they were rejected. i would not be destroying the community if they left me alone. they keep trying to make people think that it is justified to harm me and other innocent people, including innocent dogs, which means that they are trying to fabricate false evidence to use against me or that they are trying to cover up the fact that they are the problem.

this is what happens when you don't get the FBI or media involved. it really isn't interesting.

i know that good black people are defending me, despite what i have communicated. i want ignorant black people to know that it is like being tortured for no good reason by a few black people who have a attitude like "that's right white boy, yeah, i'm sleazy evil nasty low class ugly black thug shit which i know that you hate." what they are doing is perverted. they are weird perverts like someone who would kidnap someone and torture them while saying really creepy things to them at the same time plus calling their family or sending notes to their family, taunting them being weird. they are fascinated with me, wanting to "play" with me and it is absolutely sick. a few black people want other people to think that they are special because they get to "play" with me. they are creepy and lame. ordinarily i wouldn't be anywhere near these people so they couldn't get to me.

i am considering getting rid of this web site. i get tired of the negative crap which OTHER PEOPLE intentionally create. i may keep it. i think that i will keep it but i'm not sure.

it was like i was only about 8 or 9 years old (i had to begin to relearn everything in 1997) when i drew the swastika as a label for a binder. i thought that there was something cool and interesting about it, but it was really about my old thule friend and not nazi germany. i never wanted to harm anyone. it was like i was a young boy who thought that there was something cool about sponge bob square pants and so i drew him on a piece of paper. i was young and impressionable. my life got turned upside down and it was mostly because of what this black guy (who i didn't know was an ignorant black guy) was doing to me, confusing me, making me think that all of these things were connected or that things were more important than there were. i have tried to help black people more than once but they pretend as if they don't know about love because they don't want to have to do the same thing or because they are not the same way. quite frankly, i am fed up. i'm sure that you can tell. some black people stabbed everyone in the back and they are trying to group sleazy black thugs together. these people who are acting up are making a sick childish game about making everyone unhappy because they envy how we could be happier than they can be because of what they know that the public knows that they did. they assault us every day. they disrupt the peace every day. they are weird, angry and want attention because they were rejected. they pretend as if they think that i deserve it. i don't. they are fake. part of the reason that i keep posting on my website is because i am trying to let people know "sorry, i can't do anything for you. sorry, i can't do anything for you. i am trying, but it is impossible." and also because i am in great pain and confusion, wishing that people would get the FBI and media involved. why does it have to be this way? what is happening on the internet?

(because this black guy and some black women keep STUPIDLY harassing me and other people)

get out of my life, negro. you stalk me because you think that i can be happier than you can be because of how you made yourselves look bad. you want people to know that you are stalking me, like you think of it as a childish game. you are taunting the police and the community. you are childish, uncivil, unfriendly and unintelligent. your shit gossip on the internet is your problem. you fake thinking that you are right. you fake thinking that you are superior. you are fake. just like your stupid fat gold chains. i'm not the racist. you are the racists. you are not that special, negro. you want to "associate" with me because you think that it makes you seem special or more powerful than you are in public. eat shit and die. i'm tired of you creating problems for me and the community like you think of it as a childish game. you envy what i could create if you were not obstructing. the problem is not with me not being loving. the problem is with you not being loving. i am not the one assaulting people. it is not about me not including you. the problem is with you not including youselves.


some girls didn't want to show me love or affection in public because they think that it will make other men jealous and complicate their own relationships. so what they do is the complete opposite of showing me love or affection in public. they are cruel or sadistic like they want people to know that they think of it as a childish game. they only care about sex and money for themselves and not the health of the community as a whole. they don't hate me because i am a bad person. they hate me because they think that i am a nice person who is superior. it confuses them about themselves so they constantly obstruct my life in order to try to make me less popular and so that they can feel "better" about themselves being less. they try to create the impression with my website that i am the aggressor. i am not the aggressor. they are the aggressors. they want you to see what i am doing, but they don't want you to understand what they are doing. they are trying to trick ignorant people into not liking me. i really don't care if you don't like me, but what is important is that i have rights or that i should have rights.

i am not the one assaulting people. blacks and a mexican girl are the ones assaulting people. they like to mess with my spirit because they think that i have a stronger spirit than they do. it is like vandalism.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GU7tBHvcG1s

i never thought that i would think or communicate these things about black people. quite frankly we are sick of them. this group which i am in activity with is like media like its own tv station and some people who don't get attention, want stupid unnecessary attention and it is irritating. i get plenty of attention. more than any other person in the world and i am content with that. i have much better things to do than to get on the internet every day defending myself and the community.

some black people flaunt thinking that there are childish and nasty. that is their style. they won't stop. i didn't do anything to them. i didn't want to do anything to them. why are they harming with me and other innocent people? i know why. they have an inferiority complex. really. that means that they think that they are inferior. they become angry and confused, thinking that they are inferior, so then they put on this weird childish phony unnecessary act, acting as if they think that they are superior. they don't like the thought of people thinking that they are inferior or less, because some of them do think that, so they put on this dumb act. they are trying to trick ignorant people who don't know me that well with this internet shit. i would be peaceful and happy and productive every day if these weird childish negros would get out of my life. they want people to see me defending myself on my website, without wanting ignorant people to know what i am really like or what is really going on all of the time. if you want a war, negro, you are going to lose. you will kill yourselves. easy. some black women are very weak, childish and unintelligent. they panic, thinking that black people have made themselves look bad or that they have a bad image, so they are trying to make me look bad. guess what? all things considered, i really don't look bad. i look like a sweet nerd who never wanted to harm anyone who got wrapped up in something unique and interesting. it is like these black women want black men to know that they are panicking, like they are begging for help. people can know about my entire life if they want to. they already do. if i am so evil or the antichrist or whatever you want ignorant people thinking i am, then why are there people all over the world right now at this very moment involved in things much worse than i have ever been involved in or ever would be involved in? now that i made that argument they will probably take another cheap shot at me and lie about george h. w. bush and northern trust.

i am still being harassed by black women or black girls who stupidly started some shit back in 2008 (paris hilton incident). i didn't do anything wrong. they just thought that they had an opportunity to try to trick people into thinking that i did something wrong because they didn't want me to be more than they are. they just hate people who they think have more than they have. their behavior is so ugly and childish that it is ridiculous. then they stupidly complain that people don't like them or hate them. how could i not hate them? how could i not be a racist or not become a racist when they behave in the way which they behave?

GO TO THE BOTTOM OF THE 'FOR YOUR INFORMATION' SECTION OF THIS WEBSITE TO READ ABOUT THIS.

i won't keep communicating about it, but something else about the swastika and thule dude. i didn't understand as much about my situation then as i did now. i had hoped or fanaticized about being able to able to integrate a diverse group of people into something technological, but the more that i think about it, something about the thought of working around, or trying to work around people who were or who are responsible for the holocaust doesn't seem right. i tried to make sense of it in a way which i think was unrealistic. i think that it confuses people and i understand. the small swastika which i created as a label for a small binder which people really couldn't see was about a cool feeling i got from my old thule dude friend and not nazi germany back in the 1930s or 1940s. it really wasn't about nazi germany. it was about him. he didn't give me a bad feeling so i thought that it was ok. thule is a mythological place but it can also relate to some type of society during world war 2. i thought that there was something interesting about it and i didn't want to hurt anyone.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Thule

i thought that maybe i was going to be allowed to have a loving control over something which would carry over to the next epoch of development. in the back of my mind, i hoped that something was peaceful and friendly because otherwise i didn't think that we would have a real chance of positive development. methamphetamine didn't help. it made me unrealistically positive. i thought that things which i learned about in the past meant that they were more significant than they were. i thought that it must mean that it is ok because i am ok. maybe it doesn't. i understand if it doesn't make colored or jewish people comfortable. i wished that it would be ok for them and that is why i thought that it was ok. i got stuck in the middle of something.

did the holocaust occur in order to create peace at some other level in space? i don't understand it. i'd like to believe that something good came out of it. i read something about how something was secured because of world war 2 and what has happened (because of america?) since then.

i'm not in control of what is above us (space/aliens), even thought i would like to believe that i could influence it in a positive way. i read something about how the technological aryans (related to fallen angels in the book of enoch) got started on mars. they are and have been working with people/governments on earth. that is related to what i meant about intelligence and money. science. funding. something about patents. i'm stuck in the middle of something. enoch = christ. circle of enoch/great pyramid. technological aryans/great pyramid. older or more evolved than we are. book of enoch in wikipedia. hybrids. i think that christ would be considered aryan. definition of aryan is important. great pyramid/orion - 10,450 BC. age of leo. sphinx due east.

https://www.constellationsofwords.com/leo/

excerpt from link above.

On page 253 of Star Names Allen says the Syrians called Leo Aryo; the Jews, Arye; meaning a Lion. Ari or Aryeh, is the Hebrew for “lion”, cognate with Akkadian aria, Aramaic arya. Aryeh in Sanskrit (a PIE, Proto-Indo-European, language) means “noble” and in Hebrew means “lion”. Ari was used in Hebrew as an honorific for an important man. The Hebrew name Ari-el translates to “lion of God” []. The word Aryan is a synonym for Indo-European (people and language). The original word in Vedic Language for Lion is ‘Hari‘ [10] which is phonically similar to ari. Linguists say that the Indo-European languages are not related to Hebrew and might deny a link in this case, but they are unsure of some words and they term the Hebrew words that have strayed into these languages “borrowings”. The term “Arya” derived from the Proto-Indo-European, generally carries the meaning of “noble” or “free”, is cognate with the Greek-derived word “aristocrat” [11].

first paragraph (aryeh). don't understand it but 200 and 20 and 2 are interrelated. 200 fallen angels in the book of Enoch.

https://www.inner.org/hebleter/reish.htm


the only reason that i chose to communicate about the swastika in public is because i feared that black women who lie about my character would try to use it as a way of creating unnecessary division for the community. i thought that communicating honestly about it was the lesser of 2 problems. no one would have ever known about it or really cared about it because i am really not a problem. never wanted to harm anyone.

what i imagined in the past, and like i used to communicate all of the time in the past, and now, was/is to be able to coordinate a group of guys like a diverse (mixed multi ethic) special forces team who have a great deal of respect for one another. i was born in america in 1972. truthfully, i don't know if it is possible. maybe i could influence the diversity but i think that something at a higher technological level involves money and i am not in control of that. money or no money, make it about love. you may think that i am cold because of how i communicated about black women, stating "why don't we just agree to hate each other", but you really don't understand how they were and still are the ones who are cold. i also want to get them out of my life and on with their own lives. quit unnecessarily communicating about me. don't "involve" me in your life.

it is easy for you to take things out of context. just because of this little bit of whatever on a website doesn't mean that you know me that well. sometimes i think that the internet is going hurt or confuse people. not just my work, but also the work of other people.

if i was doing something wrong or thinking something wrong in the past, why wouldn't this black guy have acted aggressively with me back then? because i wasn't doing something wrong or thinking something wrong and he knew that i wasn't. he knew that i had a good heart. he changed his story and started to lie about my character after black women made themselves look bad after the paris hilton incident. he can't get a woman so he started to lie also trying to humiliate me. he is a very weak insecure weird black man who would rather lie about me than to stand up to ugly attitude, childish, dishonest black women. he is a fake, insecure, evil, childish, vicious negro pig.


i feel as if i confused or hurt the spirit of people around me or people who are finding out about this and i am sorry for that. i mean about the swastika. i thought that the old thule dude was cool, loving, interesting, smart and unique so it didn't seem wrong or i thought that it didn't matter. i didn't want to think that it mattered or that there is a problem or limit for everyone. wishful thinking. maybe the aliens eat sweet guys like me for dinner. i didn't want to think that. i thought that my old thule dude knew who i was and that he was being supportive and that meant a great deal to me back then because i was very confused and hurting. this is not nazi germany in the 1930s or 1940s. this is some kind of spin off (non violent?) in america after world war II. i think that it is really more about intelligence and money, rather than being white. science. i don't think that the thule dude is in trouble or that the website is down because he is in trouble. i think that a few black women would want people to think that when they actually don't think that it is true. it was a good website. informative like mine. i liked the '"culture" between ice ages' and 'book of enoch' pages. there was also 'the "plan" for massive depopulation' which mentioned something about how there is a "plan" in place to tip an asteroid into the earth's gravitational field. i have thought that if it worked, that it would be a better way for people to die, for the most part ending quickly this large cycle of population. this, rather that to have to struggle or war in tribes like animals for a long time after a transition which will take place in the future. food is going to be a problem because of the weather. that will be the start of it. there was other information as well like 'did we evolve from apes?' something about darwin. another file was about technological aryans.

i hope that the swastika thing doesn't mean that no one will hire me. i have never gone to a white supremacist or kkk or white nationalist website and i never would. i would never show up at any rally for any of those groups. i don't always prefer a white person over a colored person or a jewish person. i don't understand DNA. in a way the swastika was related to world war 2 (thule society/doesn't mean that he is part of the same "society") but in a way it was not related to world war 2. i could have created a label for the binder by writing out T, H, U, L, E, but the swastika was just a way to label the binder. it seemed ok at the time. my old thule buddy never once mentioned anything which sounded mean or hateful toward anyone in the emails. all i am guilty of is organizing paperwork. all i have wanted to do since i knew who i was is to try to help people. i felt as if my old thule buddy was trying to help people too. you are witnessing me about 17 or 18 years later and i am much more confident and level headed, being able to better discern what is important and what is not important. i was and am still intrigued by what the germans (or now america?) were working on. much of what hitler ranted about was propaganda.

these girls who are playing childish games with me and the community every day get a sick thrill from making a guy, who they know would be very confident and peaceful in public, uncomfortable and tense in public, like they think of it as sick game or like they want to make a mockery of a man's confidence in public, like they are admitting to being no good for people's confidence, like they are admitting to being too weak or not being able to build people up. they don't even try. they also don't try to be happy. all they have to do is move on and quit unnecessarily communicating about me. they want to be in a relationship with me in public, but i don't want to be in a relationship with them. i have a girlfriend and we are happy together. i also have a loving family and cool dogs and cool cats. i don't want these people in my life. they should get out of my life and everyone else's life. go away.
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hey ya'll. the aliens said that they would give me a cool deal if i set up a hooters down in antarctica. aliens need love too!
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why don't the black women who have assaulted me in the past for no good reason, and who continue to assault me when i am online for no good reason, and i just agree to hate each other (even though they really don't hate me) and then they can get out of my life? i know why. they want to associate with me in public because they think that it makes them seem more powerful than they are. they try to make it seem like they are superior and i'm not even making a big deal of myself. THEY think that i am a big deal and they want people to think that they are superior for some reason. they are also not wanting me to work because they think that i will be popular, and that they won't be, and they are also trying to make it look like i didn't create my website when i did.

i think that people want to think of me or try to portray me as a monster because i used to use drugs when i am not a monster. i am not a monster and i can think of people who don't use drugs who are monsters. i'm really not a bad boy like i think that people want you to think of me as. i am more like a geek momma's boy who used to use dope a little. i usually never liked the people who were around drugs and usually they didn't like me.

i'd like to move on with my life now. why don't you stop communicating about george h. w. bush and northern trust and paris hilton and johnny depp and antarctica and the thule dude and whatever else which doesn't matter? sorry, it is not as exciting as they want people to think that it is. quit communicating about me and move on with your own lives. all i want to do is live out a happy, peaceful life, with a part time job as a grocery sacker at a grocery store or with a landscape company. it is very painful when people try to stupidly use your past against you for no good reason. what is the point in doing good things in life if people only want to criticize you for your past? i am not in any trouble like some people want you to think that i am because they think that people think that they are in trouble.
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it is like these black women are admitting to thinking that i have more class than they do and trying to make it about low class, thug people who are going to dominate people who have more class. it is scary. they are using this situation as a way of "having something in common" with others so as to try to gather resources. it is scary. they don't even care about children. all these black women care about is sex and money. they lie about me and money. they want black people to know that they are lying, implying that it doesn't matter, as long as they think that they can make up a story. they are the ones who are after money.


I WISH THAT PEOPLE WOULD INVOLVE THE FBI AND THE MEDIA SO AS TO TRY TO CREATE A DETERRENT. I UNDERSTAND IF THERE IS AN ISSUE WITH ONLY CIRCUMSTANTIAL EVIDENCE, BUT THE SITUATION WHICH PEOPLE COULD PROVE IS REAL, IN AND OF ITSELF, MEANS THAT THERE WOULD BE SOMETHING ELSE TO THINK ABOUT SO IN A WAY IT PROVES WHAT WOULD NEED TO BE PROVED OR AT LEAST SERVE AS A PRECAUTION. I THINK THAT THIS WILL MANIFEST AS ISSUES WHICH THE POLICE AND/OR MILITARY WILL HAVE TO NEGOTIATE IN SOME FORM SOME TIME FROM NOW.

a few black women have really ugly childish attitudes because they think that they made themselves look bad. that is why they lie about me, trying to trick people into thinking that i am the one who looks bad. they are trying to bully people and it is very very bad for america. it is real ugly and childish and i don't want it in my life or my family's life or my girlfriend's life. we are innocent. black women have been a problem for 14 years.

this mexican girl is so ugly and childish that it is ridiculous. so are some of these black girls. this mexican girl is trying to make people think that i am crazy and that the people who are sensing what is going on and who also don't like her (144,000) are crazy. she is so stupid for wanting people to know that she has this stupid childish obnoxious, very weak female attitude like "oh, you don't like me... well then i don't want you to be happy or for people to like you..." she does this every day all day long instead of moving on with her life. she doesn't even try to be happy or to have friends. she is angry that i don't like her because she thinks that other men won't like her so she intentionally ruins my life every day so that i can't be more popular. she is very childish and very selfish. she implies that if men don't give her money or if they don't like her or if they reject her that she will hurt them. she is a very weak, very angry, very childish mexican female who is about 30 years old who hopes to get something because of the way she looks who couldn't handle rejection in public. she actually thinks that her looks won't matter and she is pissed off about it. she doesn't have a brain. evil obnoxious bimbo. she is trying to have me killed but not being read obvious about it and then she thinks that she can make up any story she wants to after i am dead. obviously she is lying to her family about what is going on. i want her out of my life. i have never liked her. she never cared about me or my feelings. she only wanted to try to use me as a way of getting something from someone else.
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a sick joke shot out to my homeboys.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=le3xII5yKqE
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this mexican girl has a very disturbing mental problem. she likes to harm people. she is after money. i wish that people would make a story about this situation on the tv news. maybe we could flush her family out. she used to date a mexican guy who was at memorial park with her when i jogged by. she also had him follow me into my town home community trying to intimidate me when she knew that i was innocent. she did this in order to try to make people who i am in activity with think that someone didn't like me, i think trying to create an opportunity for someone to kill me "because it looked like someone didn't like me". obviously she was lying to him about what was going on. maybe we could flush him out too. just because i stated that i have been in the psychiatric ward 14 (maybe it has been 13 times) doesn't mean that i am schizophrenic. usually i am forced in by the police or my parents because it gets so bad. most of the times i have been in (i think 8 times/the last 8 times) was because of this mexican girl trying to have me killed but no one killed me. she wants people to know that she takes a weird, childish pleasure in harming people. she has the most disgusting spirit you could possibly imagine. evil, childish, stupid, sadistic, greedy. some kind of alien. same as black guy. they can't communicate anything intelligent with words like i can so they think that they need to compensate using these muscular contractions but they are not intelligent or friendly, and they both have a disgusting weird ego problem like satan. they use the ability to act aggressively in the way which they can as a weapon, incapacitating people. they seems to want sex and money or love, wanting someone to think that they are powerful, but they really don't think that they are powerful or they have a confused concept of what they are (because they think that people think that i am the number 1). they want sex and money and love like humans do but they act like weird deranged tyrants, or like animals, who flaunt being uncivil and evil. they have a weird mental problem. i have an ego problem too but not that bad. i am like a dolphin. they are like piranhas. really. different biological species.

the people who are causing problems EVERY DAY are wanting to fuck with people who they think can be happier than they can be. obviously the people who are causing problems are not happy and want people to know that they are not happy. they are not happy because they got themselves into trouble by being caught being childish, mean and dishonest. i am not a person who is in trouble.

a few black people (mostly women) and this mexican girl and this black guy and paris hilton think that they made themselves look bad and now they are bullying people around. it is really ugly and childish. i wish that the government would get involved because i think that it is going to get worse or that it is the beginning of a problem for the future. they are harassing me about money and i never did anything wrong with money (northern trust/paris hilton) so it is really really stupid. they just don't want me to be happy because they think that i can be happier than they can be because they think that they made themselves look bad. part of the issue is the money my family has and assists me with so they make it an issue like about hating people who have money. i also get disability benefits but i am allowed to work part time and retain my disability benefits and i would really like to do that because it would make me and other people very happy because it would be healthy consistent activity but people are making a mockery of someone (me) who is honest and wants to work because they are angry that i can be happier than they can be. it is not just money. i have a nice family and a nice girlfriend. my family situation and girlfriend situation are good.

a few black women are trying to use this situation as a way of stupidly bossing men around. i'd like to see them actually go up to a man in person and try to boss them around. why would a man just allow you to boss him around when he doesn't know you? what would he actually think of you in person? are you smart? are you attractive? are you a loving person? are you funny? they try to intimidate men, basically telling the man "you better give me something or else you ain't gettin' none. oh yeah, i'm gonna boss you around." i don't live in that world and i don't want to live in that world. some girls are sweet.

i previously stated something about how childish, obnoxious women don't rule the world and that honest, caring men do, or something like that, but there are honest caring women who help rule the world or who are involved in leadership positions or politics. most women don't try to be in leadership positions or politics and i think that it is because it is something which they don't want to do. it requires courage and sacrifice but i am not stating that girls don't have courage. more of them should get involved but not because they want greedy power but because they want to help. you have to go to college first.

something else about my past when i would do meth is that for about 10 years i would study every week for about 10 or 15 hours, thinking that maybe or that i was supposed to figure something out for scientists regarding the weather and that it was prophesized. that is why i thought that it didn't matter if i used meth and it is also why i was confused about the german stuff. i wondered why i wasn't being arrested since people knew that i was doing it. i also wondered why i wasn't killed. i had already been doing drugs since i was about 13 years old when i found out who i was when i was 24 so i thought that it didn't matter because God knew that there was more to me than just that. i thought that maybe drug usage was going to enable me to figure something out because it gave me so much energy to study. it was a lot of brainstorming but i didn't know what i was trying to write about. i never wanted to hurt anyone. just very confused in the past. i thought that things were going much faster than they were or would be in the beginning so i didn't understand how to understand my life within the appropriate context. i still don't. i was put into one of the most confusing situations in the world, if not the most confusing situation in the world, so i would appreciate a little latitude. i would compare my situation psychologically to being in a war zone. it could be good right now, but some people who are not happy or who got kicked out of the party (not me) want to spoil it for everyone and it is very sad. they are childish and socially lame.

it is really stupid how some black women fake thinking that they have power, knowing that they don't have power. i am not the one with the attitude problem. i am not a chauvinist. they are disrespectful childish feminists.

i have been getting a lot of phone calls lately which i think are black girls who are stalking me and the community. they have a weird emotional problem or are socially lame. i have been getting calls from numbers which say disconnected or no longer in service when you call back but it is a number which a person can call another person from. really creepy. these black girls flaunt being lame. it is really sad for sweet friendly black girls who are cool but they will be ok. i guess it will be a cat fight.


i didn't mean that girls or guys can't be playful at work. i am being stalked by creepy obnoxious lame girls who made themselves look bad who try to make me look bad and who also want people thinking that they are flirting with me while also wanting people to know that they want to interfere with my relationships with other people. they want people to know that they are stalking me because they are stalking everyone and i wish that people would get the media or the FBI or the government involved. it is bizarre and incredibly disturbing. i can't wait until i am dead so that these people can't hurt anyone anymore or try to hurt anyone anymore. it goes beyond being staked. it is blatant weird sadism and it is girls mostly girls who are doing it. this black guy also does it but only because the girls started it and because he is stupidly trying to make it a black thing with these dumb black women who want to make it a black thing when they shouldn't. these girls (mostly black women) don't want men to have power or imply that women have the power while being incredibly stupid at the same time so it doesn't make any sense at all. my girlfriend is very sweet and very smart and very cool and i really really don't want to think of dumb black female lame sleazy "ghetto" thug crap. they try to humiliate or intimidate men because of they way that they want people knowing that they are treating me (an innocent man who is being harassed) in public and it is so stupid and not lady like. they act like sleazy ghetto thugs who make fun of people who have class. they try to humiliate men or a man (me) in public because they think that they will have to be more humble and focused if people know that i am happy, cool and confident like they know that i would be if they would get out of my life. i am not in any trouble. they are. i am not trying to cause a problem for girls but some of them are mean and like to make fun of men so they are trying to humiliate men by trying to humiliate me but they are incredibly stupid because they won't humiliate me. i do real work and they play stupid childish games so they will lose. they already lost. they reason that black women or black women and this mexican girl and paris hilton try to humiliate me is because they think that they are less. that is why they didn't want to have power. they have a weird inferiority complex. i am not a creep either. i am a sweet humble guy. these girls (and the black guy) have a weird emotional or anger problem. they want power but they are not intelligent so it doesn't work.
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https://www.jstor.org/stable/1429971

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the reason that i found thule.org on the internet was because another old buddy had an experience with a flying craft which moved him into it. he was looking at 3 beams of light and he stated that he had some kind of telepathic experience sensing something about the number 64. then later he picked up some mysterious hitchhiker who told him that he should build an ark in order to transport an ark after my old buddy told him about his flying craft experience. my old buddy was still in a type of shock and didn't know what he was doing just like i didn't know what i was doing and just like i still don't know what i am doing and all of this is not as important as it may seem. then he searched for ark of the covenant on the internet and found a file which i think is similar to something called 'the omega file' on the internet (which i don't care about reading all of) which had something about the thule society (hitler or the third reich) which i read about. this information bothered me and scared me at first. it confused me and i tried to protect black people thinking that i was going to be killed the first time i went into the psychiatric ward at the veteran's hospital here in houston at the end of 1997. i have been into the hospital 13 or 14 times since 1997. i was confused and scared real bad for the first few years of this just like i am still confused and scared but slowly my confidence started to build and the black guy (who i didn't know was an ignorant black guy) was trying to build my confidence even though now he will say something different now because he thinks that he can't get a black woman unless he lies about me because of how black women did something stupid several times also lying about me. so anyway, i thought that maybe i was supposed to be involved with something the germans developed in antarctica because of reading a little bit of the file and unique experiences with the supernatural which included what this black guy (who i didn't know was an ignorant black guy) but i knew that i didn't want to harm anyone. why would i want to harm anyone when i know that i don't have privacy and when i don't know who i am in activity with? something else was that i thought that everything had some magical meaning which it didn't when i was younger. so i researched thule on the internet and found thule.org and the dude who i communicated with was very interesting and cool and loving so i continued to communicate with him. you would be surprised at how innocent and interesting the short messages from him were. he told me not to communicate with him anymore since about 2014 or 2015 when i tried to get the government to cause me to die with an official medical procedure when i involved him and darpa (defense advance research projects agency) because of how i believe that he involved me with darpa some time ago. i think that he thought that they should know something about me. i have communicated with him probably about 5 times since then because i thought that it was important but he has never corresponded back and i don't think that he ever would. i think that evil dishonest black women in the group i am with (144,000) harass him but it doesn't mean that he is doing something wrong or that i am doing something wrong. i communicated about thule.org many times back in 2002 or 2003 or 2004 or whatever. people could check out the website and communicate to him and i know that black women thought that he was interesting and cool but they started to lie about him and me after they thought that they started to make themselves look bad after the paris hilton incident. black women stabbed everyone in the back. not all of them. just a few.

i think that i was high on methamphetamine at the time when i created the swastika binder label. meth used to make me act weird especially because i was confused. i was confused and sad in the beginning of this so i used it one a week after i got introduced to it in early summer 1997. it would make me feel very passionate about things in a way which was unrealistic. the swastika doesn't mean that i would like a white person over a person with color or a jewish person.

i am sorry if the swastika thing confuses anyone. i wasn't thinking that white people are superior to whoever else when i created it. i wouldn't do it again but i don't feel as if i did something wrong. you shouldn't be afraid of me. i am harmless. i was young, confused and truthfully i wanted to think that i had i had the power to accomplish something good for people or that something positive was going to come out of my past confused situation because i was sort of lost and feeling very weak and confused for years when this first started. i wanted to believe that i was part of something strong (and i thought loving) because thinking that there is a "problem" (antarctica) for everyone or that i couldn't help anyone was more confusing because i lack privacy so my mind wanted to think that it wasn't a problem. i wasn't as far along with my life as i am now. i was less mature and less developed and i used to think that things in my life were more important than they were and i needed to think that they were more important at that time in the past because i was a confused mess, mostly because of what this black guy (who i didn't know was an ignorant black guy back then) was doing to me, confusing me. this sounds confused but i was confused in the past and i also don't like people lying about my character. i don't know if antarctica is a problem. i don't understand it. i guess there is never a problem in life. that is what faith is about. i know that i don't want to harm anyone and i never did. i think that maybe WWII was something which enabled some kind of work to be able to get going in a way (america/nation state/funding) which is not so bad but that is really because i want to imagine something peaceful. the messages from my old thule buddy were more innocent and and interesting than people would assume. i didn't want to think that we can't be happy (antarctica or whatever other underground stuff exists in the world) or that i can't do anything for people or that it is hopeless or that we are fucked. how would you feel if you knew that you didn't have privacy (people involved in government?) and knew about certain more secretive things and wanted to help if you could? i thought that maybe i was supposed to be involved in something but not in a way which meant that i was going to harm anyone. that is what i hoped for because i thought that it seemed interesting and because i have a big heart. to be allowed to be involved but to do good. wishful thinking. thule guy was loving and interesting and i thought connected to something relating to WWII or high tech something which i hoped would be applied toward everyone in a good way so it seemed ok. i was also confused about my personal experiences with the supernatural, including the communication from the black guy who i didn't know was an ignorant black guy back then. he was trying to build me up but he got carried away and it created a big problem for everyone and now he doesn't want to accept responsibility for it because he joined in with a few dishonest mean spirited black women because he thought that he couldn't get a woman unless he did or also because he thought that black people had an image problem because of what some black women did after the paris hilton incident so he thought that he would lie along with a few black women. i am not trying to create a problem for black people. i want them to be happy and confident. these black women who are blatantly acting dumb should move on and allow other blacks to move on. they are childish and socially lame, wanting to use this group as a form of media in order to get attention and bully people. i don't think that people want to join them. love and peace is better. i will always be transparent but i always already was because i lack privacy. i am not running for a political office. i just want to work at a grocery store part time or at a landscaping company part time. i just want to be left alone. some people try to politicize me because they think that they need to make themselves look superior to me even though i am not wanting to make a big deal of myself.


i thought that evil dishonest black women gossiped trying to fool ignorant people last night or today about my character. i never wanted to harm anyone and they knew that. i don't want to harm anyone and they know that. they want to harm people. i have tried to help black people more than once. they lie about me because for some reason they want to be thought of as superior. i was going through some paper work in my home last night making a point about how there is nothing in my home which is anything to be concerned about. people already knew that. then i remembered that back in 2003 or 2004 or 2005 i created a paperwork binder label with a swastika on it but it was no big deal. i threw it away years ago along with a few (5 or 10) email messages which i got from an old buddy (thule.org) before i attempted to commit suicide because i didn't want my mother or anyone to be confused or take something out of the appropriate context because she didn't understand the big picture. i wouldn't do it again, but i didn't do anything wrong given how i was in a confused situation plus the fact that i never wanted to harm anyone. the binder was for a few messages which i got from an old buddy of mine (thule.org) who wanted to help people including me. i was confused about my own situation back then, thinking that maybe i was involved in something which the germans had helped to develop but it seemed ok to me because i know that i am ok and because i don't want to hurt anyone. it was wishful thinking. i had hoped that i would be able to be involved with technology in a loving cool way. the holocaust is not something which i like to think about. i don't understand it. something about money but also propaganda? population in europe? i think that stalin killed more jewish folk that hitler did. a swastika in my home doesn't mean anything. you need to have a warrant or a reason to search but you can come over to my home any time you want to. . in other words, i have to be a problem in order for the police or anyone to search. i am not a problem so there is no reason to search. a judge or a lawyer could make the argument that i could have a swastika in my home, but also prove that there is no evidence that i am a problem for the community or also that i contribute money or assistance to a jewish synagogue. doesn't prove anything about my character. i am not trying to bribe jewish folk by making that argument. i liked my old thule buddy. thule is a mythological place. once he stated that it was unattainable but that it can be attained, to which he can attest. he was very interesting and he was trying to help people. i think that he may have taken down the thule.org website because unfriendly angry black women were harassing him. doesn't mean that he is a problem just like it doesn't mean that i am a problem. some black women seem to want to hate and hurt people who they think have more than they do. i thought that the swastika was cool because i thought it was ok because i am ok and i thought that maybe i was involved in something interesting which would make people happy but i understand if it confuses people. i don't want to confuse or hurt people. i wanted to be happy and peaceful making other people happy and peaceful. would i do it again? no. does it mean that i think that i did something wrong? no. just young and confused and also very passionate about wanting to be involved and help do something which really is good for people. maybe it is not possible. another time i created a swastika and balanced art around it using metal right angle brackets screwed into a piece of square wood. then i spray painted it. i think that i threw it away years ago. just because i created a binder label with a swastika on it doesn't mean that my old buddy would agree with it. a swastika is also called a hackenkreuz (kreuz is german for cross) or a flyflot cross. don't want to hurt anyone's spirit. don't want to kill jews. i have never stated that jewish folk are bad. i used to state that i thought that those spirits which were harvested during world war 2 served a special purpose. but every soul serves a special purpose. this doesn't mean that i think that it is good to kill people. i got stuck in the middle of something. i can't change the past. all i could hope for was a happy future.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Swastika

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i just noticed that the envelope which i received the purse from paris hilton from in 2009 doesn't have a post mark on it. i already posted that it didn't have a return address on it. you can look at the photo of the envelope in the 'important' gallery at the top of the website. the problem with the black woman at the grocery store was in november of 2008. it seems as if black women don't want people to think that hilton liked me or cared about me after the grocery store incident(s) in november of 2008. i am reasonably certain that hilton went on TMZ and made reference to me by name and it seems as if black women who work in mail wanted people to know that they were stealing my mail to TMZ when i was trying to find out because i have a right to know about it. it seems as if black women were playing a game with the certified/return receipt option which i chose, wanting people to know that they were playing a game. i think that my mail was also stolen when i then used fed ex to try to secure it. if it is true that hilton went on national tv, making reference to me, i feel violated that she wasn't respectful enough to inform me even after i have asked her more than once. hilton plays shady games like she thinks that because she doesn't answer the question that people think that it is more interesting for her publicity or that maybe she didn't get the message when other people and myself know that she did. i know that she went on TMZ (i haven't watched TMZ for many years) and made reference to me but it hasn't been confirmed and it is very confusing. i am not communicating about TMZ to try to make it seem like i am cool. i am communicating about it in order to squash this nasty evil childish black female gossip. actually all of this in the 'community' section of my website. hilton was really wanting to make it about her and not anyone else, pretending as if she was trying to help. she plays evil games with the media. she has been doing it for a long time since new york. what she did is a very serious security or privacy law problem; meaning, because of the way this unique situation is. harvey levin may be a lawyer but i don't think that he would make a very good judge. it really seems as if hilton wanted to create a security problem for me for her childish amusement while pretending as if she was trying to help because she was trying to squeeze me for anything which she could get out of me or kick me to the curb if she thought that it didn't make her look good. she didn't want to do humble simple community work. these girls who have caused problems didn't or don't. read information below. hilton plays dumb games and doesn't answer the questions about whether she went on TMZ, making reference to me. she created or is still creating a national/global security problem because some people think that they have an opportunity to lie about it when she doesn't answer the question. it is like she is intentionally giving them an opportunity to lie about me or my character because she made herself look dumb. she complicated so many people's lives like right now causing me to communicate about this for the sake of the health of the community. i am putting out fires or trying to put out fires but some people intentionally light more like it is a sick game to them. it is causing an opportunity for division in the community because of how it relates to other incidents. i am not a fan of paris hilton's. i wasn't a fan of hers in the past. i was neutral and then found out she is a childish disrespectful creepy tacky yuck. it is embarrassing to think that people think that i wanted to be involved with her. i didn't. i just wanted to wish her well when she was in jail because i thought that maybe she was going through a hard time which related to me. i didn't expect her to correspond back and i didn't care if she corresponded back. she wanted to play games and it has created a big problem for people all over the world, but especially for the black community because black women also wanted to play dumb games.


the 'graph/number work' gallery shows work which i did in 2010 which was an effort to help scientists with the weather. i am not posting it because it is some type of break through or important to study. i am posting it because i think that some obnoxious evil childish black people lied about it, stating that i never did anything when other people did say that i tried to help. it is mostly about 90 degrees or how there is a consistency with 90 or 360 degrees. this is easy to understand when you think of east, south, west and north. 9 (90) +18 (180) + 27 (270) + 36 (360) = 90. the work is probably significant but probably not important at this day and age because of all the work which has been already been done, starting a long time ago. maybe the work is significant because it supersedes current work, but there is no need to go backwards. the work is also about observation and graphing. i was trying to help scientists simplify data processing by simplifying the data input. for example, is it 1 or 10 or 100 or 1000?


black women are still stalking the community. i know ya'll are sick of this shit which i am typing, but believe me, i am sick of this shit too. these people are playing a weird game with me and the public. it is like they are refusing to acknowledge that they have responsibility or that everyone has responsibility because they are lazy and don't care or because they don't want to have to act like they care in public. uncivil. angry. these black women want to make people feel threatened by them for some reason. they are not humble or honest about what has happened. they are trying to force black men to like obnoxious low class unintelligent class mean spirited black women instead of honest sweet jesus. they really are negative ugly attitude mean spirited racists who always lie about me and money because they have some weird obsession with money themselves. they want black men to think of them but they keep referring to me or they are trying to use me as a way of forcing black men to think of them and be intimidated by them. it is stupid. they should do their own work on their own just like the mexican girl should. some black girls are cool and smart and sweet. some aren't.

when this black guy who is now viciously stalking and harassing people, trying to force black women or black people in general to lie about the situation, thinks that he has made himself look bad (even when it really wasn't bad initially) he turns into a little weird bitch and whines and tries to put the blame on someone else. he is not a real man. he is not cool. he is not secure. we are sick of his dumb shit and the fake evil mean spirited childish black women who pretend as if they think that he is the king or something noble when they know that he isn't. they shouldn't continually make their image problem, because of what A FEW black people did, my problem or anyone else's problem. i really want black people to be happy and confident. i never wanted to harm them or anyone else. i have tried to protect them and help them more than once. the problem is that a few black people try to spread anger and hate like they don't even try to by happy themselves. childish mean black women hurt the image of the black community and i am saddened by it and instead of moving on to something happy and forgetting about the past or allowing people to forget about it, they dwell on it and keep reminding people of it because they want me to be blamed for having done something wrong when they actually know that it was them who did something wrong. they keep lying about my character or intent. they try to portray me as a monster because i have power. i am not a monster. i am a sweet honest nerd (a little wild sometimes) who just wants to be left alone so that i can work. they don't want me to work. they don't want me to be happy because they think that people will think that i am happier (or better) than they are. they would rather make everyone including themselves miserable instead of just moving on. it is very selfish and childish of them.

these few lame people who lie are not even officially accusing me of something so that i could officially defend myself. they just keep referring to something without saying anything intelligent or logical with the use of words. they are lame cowards and they know it. they like to refer to their own thought about their own lameness pretending as if they think that they are cool when they actually don't think that they are cool. they know that i would be such an interesting gay spirit who was productive if they would get out of my life and it makes them angry and envious to know that so they keep stalking me and everyone else. they are very childish, creepy, lame, boring, evil and the only way to really get rid of them is to get rid of me. ignorant people don't understand how what they are doing is a form of torture or inhumane abusive treatment. this is what happens when people don't have a basic amount of security like living in a separate locked home or being able to involve the police. these people have disturbing mental problems. anti social personality disorder. they want to play with me in public in a perverted abusive creepy way because they find me fascinating and because they think that people will think that they are more interesting than they are. this is true. doesn't mean that i am stuck up. i don't want to play with them. i have better things to do. as i have suggested, we could make a story on tv news about it as a way of trying to create order and accountability. the problem is really with childish women who want my attention (paris hilton, mexican girl, some black women). they are childish and dangerous. the reason that i have written so much is not because i am trying to fool people into thinking that i am sick when i am not. that is what they want you to think. i am trying to stop them from being aggressive by informing people about what is going on in order to try to get them to stop lying about it because their lies won't work. i am also begging for help. these people are predators who like to harm people. they like to harm innocent happy people.


we are all sick of this mexican girl playing stupid games. she implies that childish obnoxious bimbos rule the world instead of sweet honest peaceful men who work. she thinks that because i am here, that men overshadow women so she is trying to make it look like women overshadow men. this doesn't mean that i am making a big deal of myself or stating that i am superior. the problem is her making a really stupid big deal of herself or implying that she is superior because she is confused thinking that women are not superior or that people will think that women are not superior. she has a very weird, massive inferiority complex. she has a very lazy mind and is not intelligent. she doesn't like it when i have peaceful positive thoughts because she can't have the same type of peaceful positive thoughts. she is not as strong and it makes her angry. she is envious or jealous and angry. also very childish. it is the same with black women. they don't like to sense me positive because it makes them angry because they are not positive so they are intentionally making this negative. mexican girl keeps intentionally inserting stupid shit into my brain and other people's brains all day long every day so that i can't move on. it is incredibly cruel. ordinarily she would just be some girl who gave me a horrible vibe and i would choose to not associate with her; meaning, i would be in control and get her the fuck away from me and my family. she is weird and stupid. if she wouldn't leave me alone i would call the police. very simple. she implies that no one is allowed to reject her or she implies that men are not allowed to reject women when they can reject women. she is stalking me, thinking that it is fascinating to toy with me in public. it is childish and perverted. she can't keep up so she forces other people down to her level because she doesn't want it to be obvious that she can't keep up or do as much as me. she is faking thinking that she has a reason to obstruct. she just doesn't want it to be obvious that i am a guy who likes to work so she keeps obstructing, pretending as if she thinks that it means that (1). i am lazy and unfriendly, or (2) that there is a good reason to stop me from working. those are both lies. she has been mixing lies about me together since i started communicating about her on the internet. she doesn't know how to lie her way out of trouble and she also really doesn't care about doing anything at all but playing games. she thinks that she make her parents think that as long as i am alive, that she doesn't have to do anything and i think that she is also trying to work her parents for money later on. she has killed the spirit of america because of her childishness and obnoxious rude behavior.


just because these people who got caught doing something very bad created social problems for themselves by being unnecessarily aggressive (cruel/evil/childish) can't move on doesn't mean that i am not allowed to move on. they are childish and selfish, implying that i am not allowed to be happier than they are. they don't want anyone to be happier than they are. they are implying that i am not allowed to move with a happy life. why? because people are brainwashed about the suffering of jesus christ in some movie? jesus used to have a good time with people and people had a good time with him. mary magdalene for example. he was a good spirit. i'm not in any trouble. these other people are in trouble. they are like a child who is in kindergarten or very young in school who gets caught by the teacher doing something wrong and then they become confused and scared and try to blame someone else as they talk slowly and confused and scared and it is so obvious that they are trying to be sneaky. come over to my house or call me and accuse me of something in person. do you know why people don't do that. because they know that i am innocent and also that i could officially defend myself. they just take cheap shots at me like lame cowards. none of this internet crap is official because i am not actually officially communicating to someone. there isn't an actual recipient of the information which i know of so it isn't official. i am trying to defend myself and the community from evil mean weirdos but it isn't official unless you actually communicate something intelligent to me with words in public. these people try to make it look like i am guilty by causing me to try to defend myself on the internet but i can't actually officially defend myself unless someone actually communicates something to me with words. they are trying to make me look defenseless because they get some weird sick thrill from it. why don't good people figure out a way of making it official or including me in what is going around on the internet.


a couple of things which i have already communicated honestly when i had my old facebook account which i deleted because it looked like someone hacked it was that the black man who has my vision in his left eye and who can create contractions of my muscle and soft tissue in whatever part of my body he wants to (who i didn't know was an ignorant black man in the past) stimulated me on the right side (east) of my body when i just happened to be driving by a northern trust bank location 1 year after i was in george h. w. bush's office just dropping off innocent/confused mail. i didn't think that the mail would be processed through the regular mail service machine because it had coins and a metal peace sign in it which were just symbolic of something (support [15/5 + 5 + 5]/good health [20]/something about the rosicrucians which i thought was more important than it was or is (36 + 36 + 36)/1000 years starting in 1997/125 [5 x 5 x 5] years between george washington [1799] and george h. w. bush [1924]/presidents on u.s. currency/spiritual wealth) because i was confused because of many things, some of which i saw in books which i thought were more important than they were. none of what i did was important, because the important fact is that the black guy confused me. i wouldn't have thought about giving george h. w. bush any mail and i wouldn't have been in george h. w. bush's office in 2005 if the black man (who i didn't know was an ignorant black man) hadn't stimulated me when i was writing an innocent/confused note to george h. w. bush in 2002, trying to get advice because i knew that i didn't have privacy and i didn't understand how the situation made any sense for the community or government unless i worked something like a miracle. i was really mixed up and confused back then. i am better now. so in the past it made less sense to me. basically the only things which i mentioned in the note to george h. w. bush in 2002 was something about geomagnetic reversals or pole shifts which is something that i thought that maybe i was supposed to help scientists with (weather) because i had come across something in a book, and the fact that george h. w. bush had stated something about "1000 points of light". after the black guy (who i didn't know was an ignorant black guy) stimulated me as i wrote the note in 2002 i thought that my imaginary hopeful thought about me helping scientists was true and that i was supposed to help scientists and that it was prophesized that i was going to help the world in some unique way. my mind couldn't make sense of it any other way. that is why i continued to use drugs and be alone studying. i thought that it didn't matter if i used drugs and i was really depressed and confused without drugs so that is why it made even more sense. i have some of this information below in previous posts on this website. i was not very confident when i wrote the note in 2002 because i didn't know if i should be writing it at all because i was using drugs and it wouldn't have seemed like i was making a point about anything. i just wanted to get some advice (help from an older man who i respected and who i thought was wiser than he was because of whatever my imaginary freemason or skull and bones hocus pocus was) because i was actually nervous and sort of scared. my life was very strange or seemed like it didn't make any sense mostly because of what this black guy had been doing to me for years. i would have been afraid of george h. w. bush if this black guy (who i didn't know was an ignorant black guy) wouldn't have confused me about him. i would have stayed way away from him. the black guy doesn't want to admit to trying to help me. he knew that i was ok even though i was using drugs but he changed his story and started to lie along with black women after the paris hilton incident. i was the passenger in a vehicle in 2006 which was going to get food and we just happened to be driving north passing a northern trust bank location when the black guy stimulated me on the east side of my body when the driver of the car said something about northern trust and the fact that you need 5 million dollars to be able to be a customer there. i think that the black guy was referring to 50 like 5 plus 0 or something (i had started to look at numbers so he would have understood something about that) but whatever he meant by it except for wanting me to think that i am not connected with bush (which didn't make any sense to me at that time because the black guy was the reason that i thought that i was connected with bush or the government) doesn't matter. all of this shit is so stupid because people are lying about what happened or my character or my intent. i wasn't thinking of writing about northern trust bank before the black guy stimulated me when we were driving by a northern trust bank but he is lying about it, wanting to shit all over my good writing work for the movie idea which i had, which i did later which people witnessed. he is a childish, angry, evil black man who is pissed off because people don't like him and because he thinks that he can't get a woman. i was trying to make sense of something which didn't make any sense. it wouldn't have mattered what side of my body that the black man stimulated me on, as long as it was opposite the bank. he combined george h. w. bush's office and the bank which confused me because he was the reason that i was in the office to begin with. the black guy was just trying to put it off on me because he thought that he had made himself look bad because he knew that he was the reason that i was in george h. w. bush's bank. he started to lie about what he meant by it after black women acted very mean and evil because he thought that he couldn't get a black women unless he played their stupid game. he and the mexican girl think that because they aren't saying anything intelligent with words in public, that they can make up any story they want to about the meaning of what they are doing. he wants people to think that he is so much smarter than he is or that the situation seems more interesting than it is. he started to lie and say that he was stating to me and other people that northern trust didn't belong in the west because i had started to write something trying to make a movie (because he stimulated me on the east side of my body) when actually he was the reason that i wrote about northern trust and sent it to the west. it is totally stupid. he is totally stupid along with the other people who lie. he is an evil childish black man who just didn't or doesn't want to take responsibility for me having written about northern trust when it wasn't a special bank or important or for me being in george h. w. bush's office, seeing the sign for northern trust bank in the elevator to begin with. i would have been scared of george h. w. bush and stayed way far away from him if the black man (who i didn't know was an ignorant black man back then) wouldn't have stimulated me like he was trying to comfort me or reassume me and everyone else that i wasn't doing anything wrong when i was writing the innocent/confused note in 2002 and that it was ok when i had a nervous feeling when i was writing the note to george h. w. bush in 2002 thinking that i shouldn't be writing to george h. w. bush because i was using drugs. the black man probably lied (it is easy to figure out that he is lying), stating that he stimulated me because i was doing something wrong in the letter. it seemed as if he was trying to comfort me or reassure everyone and i know that i have witnesses who sensed it too. the black man changed his story around and started to lie because he thought that he made himself look bad by betraying the community. i wasn't interested in banks or banking and he knows it. he was playing games and then created a problem and then didn't or doesn't want to accept responsibility for it. i thought that when he stimulated my on the east side of my body that the east meant toward God like the sun or something i had read about in a book ('big secrets' by william poundstone) which had something about one particular shriner's recognition test. (there are many sects of freemasons so it is not important). i immediately thought that the bank was something special for the world and that it involved antarctica and i didn't want to hurt anyone. like an innocent boy who just wanted to help (even though i was using drugs and stealing food from the store to support my drug habit/my mother didn't realize that she wasn't giving me enough to live on even if i wasn't using drugs/she suspected that i had a drug problem). then once the black guy realized that he had done something wrong buy confusing me AGAIN, he made reference to the south (like antarctica) because he thought that he would try to put it off on me in order to try and humiliate me or try to make me look like a monster, wanting to intentionally mislead me. he is an evil insecure black man who panics when he thinks that he makes himself look bad. you could also think that he was telling me that the south was away from the trust or george h. w. bush in the north, but he knew that at that time that i couldn't process it any differently, so his intent was to imply that he tried to help me, even when he wasn't trying to do that, in order to try to get himself out of trouble. he was trying to get out of trouble AGAIN. he is a very insecure black man who plays childish, evil games. he wasn't communicating anything intelligent with the use of words. he was or still is just playing games. he is still playing games. then once he knew that people thought about the east because i have been telling people about what has been going on for years, he started to lie and make a big deal about the west (like california) when it didn't have anything to do with california in the west. he lies and he tells people (black women) to lie because he thinks that they all made themselves look bad. he viciously attacks people like a deranged monster. mexican girl is the same. she knows that i am innocent, but since she thinks that the 2 of them look bad together, she also lies. i communicated in the letter which i sent to johnny depp that i saw the sign for northern trust in the elevator of george h. w. bush's when i was going up to the 9th floor of the office. i thought that 9 was important because of the concept of 'benevolence', which means charitable or giving (see photograph in the 'important'' photo gallery above). i was like a young innocent boy who wanted to believe in something good for the world. very simple. again, the black man is responsible for me being in george bush's office and also writing to johnny depp about northern trust bank which i thought was my duty to do but i didn't write about it in an unethical way. why would i think that i was supposed to know about some "special" bank but not communicate about it? that thought would have just created confusion in me. i thought that God was tasking me with something special because the bank was good for everyone. i wanted to believe that. i wanted to believe that i had some special purpose which was positive for the world. i thought that IF there was something good about the bank, that people would have to discover it on their own. that is why i wrote about northern trust in the way that i did. i didn't write about antarctica. i didn't write to george h. w. bush about antarctica either but the black guy probably lies, stating that i did. after i wrote about the bank, i thought that there was something good about the bank which was legitimate but that was just me trying to make sense of a confused situation. then after that i thought that the bank was evil and that it was taking advantage of people. there is nothing special about northern trust bank. this black man changed his story around and started to lie because he thought that he couldn't get a black woman otherwise (a few black women made themselves look really mean and childish/they lie about paris hilton and my character relating to other things). he sends signals to them to lie. that is what the mexican girl does too. they think that people reject them, so they lie about reasons which are not reasons people have to reject me. it is always about money. they try to trick people into thinking that they have honor because they are the ones who want something from someone. i don't think that johnny depp every got the mail. black women could also lie and state that they intercepted something which i didn't write. the problem is that a few other people think that they made themselves look bad so they lie about me. they are using each other to gang up on people because they think that they look stronger if they lie as a group. again, this black guy and other people who lie are so stupid for making a big deal of northern trust and george h. w. bush. they lie and state that he was telling me to get away from california when he was the reason that i sent something to california. it is so stupid. he also lies about what he meant about antarctica because it means that he was cruel and wanted to mislead me or humiliate me because he thought that he had made himself look bad. that is what he does. he thinks that he makes himself look bad and then he blames and wants to humiliate someone else because he thinks that they look better than he does. he is childish and weird.

like i stated before in the website, this closes the case. it doesn't open the case. or there was never a case because people always knew what was going on. people aren't even accusing me of having done something wrong with the use of words. they just keep referring to the same incident(s) with the use of stupid childish "which direction is it" bullshit because they want people to think that it is interesting or that i did something wrong when they know that i didn't and that it was someone else's fault for creating the confusion.

the information which i already gave you about george h. .w. bush, northern trust bank, la grange, texas and paris hilton is true and means that the case is closed. not that the case is open. actually there was never a case because everyone knew what was going on all of the time anyway. i have been truthful about it for years because there is nothing else which i could have done. it is so simple but evil dishonest people desperately and stupidly trying to make it look like it is more interesting than it is. some evil childish people will try to use the information which i put on this website as a way of lying even more and harming people even when they know that what i have communicated is true and that i am innocent. they do it because they are in trouble, so they are trying to switch the focus to me, implying that i am in trouble when i am not. the people intentionally causing problems for the community are childish, lame, angry and very mean. they want attention for being stupid after they were rejected.

some girls are stalking me and everyone else wanting people to think that childish obnoxious girls overshadow interesting guys who work. they can't keep up with me so they play games, dragging everyone down to their dumb level.


this mexican girl doesn't even try. she is very weak and childish. she keeps admitting to be no good with a really creepy angry obnoxious sarcasitc attitude. many weak childish girls do the same thing when they think that they have made themselves look bad. they dwell on it or can't overcome a little obstacle because they think that they don't look strong. instead of having a positive attitude and moving on like it was no big deal and that she cared, she wants to constantly think about how she made a mistake in public. it is like when a girl thinks that she did something wrong and then says to the man with a really creepy angry obnoxious sarcastic attitude "oh, so i guess i am no good then, huh?" or like "oh, i guess i shouldn't do that then, huh?" which means that she wants to act like she doesn't think that she is weak while admitting to it at the same time. it is really stupid. she didn't or doesn't act like she wanted to love people and build people up. she didn't care enough or have enough patience. it doesn't make any sense at all. she didn't want mexican guys to think that she was committed because she thought that she couldn't get a guy or that she couldn't go easily from guy to guy because she is only interested in getting a better deal for herself.
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i'll try, but this is what it has been like.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WjM26GWWoGk

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this mexican girl is trying to have me killed. she is being so aggressive every day all day long in order to make people sick and she has been doing it for a long time. why doesn't someone drop off some fentanyl, opiods or xanax l at my front door so that i can attempt to kill myself by overdose or coordinate with me so that a group of people who i am in constant 24/7 activity with and i can go to a doctor, proving that the activity is real, in order to try to have me euthanized. this is really horrible for people to experience and communicate about. it will become sadistic socially. people will think that it is interesting or entertaining. i am not joking. you would not want to have to live being treated in an inhumane, sick abusive way every day. that is why i am writing so much about this shit on the internet. this mexican or other people will lie and say that i wants the drugs so that i can get high. no. i just want to pass out and die. give me anything which will cause me to fall asleep and then die. i am sick of this. you would want to die also. i have been sick of this mexican girl and black man and some black women and paris hilton for a long time. they won't be able to harm the community if i am dead. they die off when i die.

it is like being raped and trying to fight off your attacker. i won the argument because i actually made an argument over the years. i am not just complaining. i am trying to make it so that these people won't harm people any more being unnecessarily aggressive because they think that they won't be able to deceive ignorant people in the community like they are trying to. they want you to see what i am doing but they don't want you to understand what they are doing and have been doing for years. they are trying to trick you. i am not trying to trick you. you have God's word.



this mexican girl wants mexicans to have an image like they are obnoxious, scary and bully people. she is trying to intimidate people. she doesn't intimidate people because she is so childish and stupid. it is sad because many mexicans are cool and hard working. she isn't.

this black man and mexican girl want people to think that because they have my vision in their left eye and because they can create these contractions in my body in whatever place they want to, with the rest of the people in the group (144,000) sensing it, that they have the authority. they don't. the majority has the authority and the majority situated all over the world know that they are stupid and evil. obviously these 2 are weird, evil, greedy and very mean creatures. they have an ego problem and a sex problem which is complicating their actions. they want to be thought of as something great, like a celebrity or star, but as i stated and as i know that other people have stated, they are weird, evil, greedy and very mean creatures. they don't have the authority. the majority has the authority. people who are sensing me (144,000) don't need my vision to know what i am doing all of the time. these 2 want people to think that they have the authority (when they don't) because they want people do so something for them or give them something. the try to use the fact that they have my vision in their left eye as a way of lying about me. they try to deceive people. they know that they are evil creatures and they are trying to survive. they don't have the authority and they know that they don't but are giving everyone stupid attitude. they have personality disorders.

then when i am defensive try want people to think that it means that i am guilty of something or nervous about something i did. i'm not. they are. they are stupid and panicking, trying to play it off like they are cool when they aren't.

i got a phone call last week from the police department in pharr, texas, (no message was left) which i think was a childish evil black woman stupidly harassing me and people who defend me. i think that it had something to do with antarctica in the south since pharr, texas is in the south of texas. i think that it was a fake cheesy childish black woman who works at the police department in pharr, texas, who is not authorized to be using police equipment for that reason, who is also trying to make it look like i am in trouble when i'm not like she is trying to flex some flabby muscle or muscle which doesn't exist. why haven't the police knocked on my door about antarctica or george h. w. bush or northern trust or paris hilton? why? because i'm not in any trouble. because i didn't do anything wrong. i never wanted to hurt anyone. i am not involved with antarctica or banks or hollywood and i don't want to be. i have an interest in antarctica just like other people do but so what? i never wanted to hurt anyone and everyone knows that. mean childish angry black women are the threat. i am not. i really think that a black woman was harassing me from the police department, trying to make it seem like the south was important, because i got a call about 1 week earlier from someone who i think was a childish evil black girl in denton, texas (west) while i was paying for groceries. this relates to the stupid black guy playing games with me and lying to everyone about northern trust, california and antarctica. black people know that he is lying but because they think that they made themselves look so bad they are lying about it too like it is a trend and telling other black people to lie so that they think that they don't look so bad or so that they can pretend as if they feel better about it. these black people just take incredibly stupid cheap shots at me which means that they know that i am innocent and also that they are evil incredibly mean cowards. they don't like the way they look so they try to make me look bad. they like to irritate or dominate people with stupidness. it is so frustrating for me because i have tried to help black people so many times and they seem to want to make fun of me because i am nice which means that they are trying to cover up for the fact that they started the trouble. actually paris hilton stupidly started it.

someone should figure out where this mexican girl lives in houston, texas and kill her. or the police should kill her. she has a weird incredibly disturbing personality disorder. she likes to hurt people, pretending as if she has a good reason to do it or that she has honor when she is actually the most creepy, dishonorable, evil mexican in the entire world. she is always having a weird childish fantasy about being something popular because she isn't popular and she is angry because she knows that she isn't popular and she wants to hurt people because she isn't popular and never will be popular. she is really fucking weird, childish, creepy and mean. she is also trying to make ignorant people think that she isn't a mexican girl who i think still lives in houston, texas like i have communicated. she is a real person and she is mexican. she is the most disgusting, creepy, evil, ugly, mean mexican you could possibly imagine and she has decent looks. lol.

this mexican girl knows that she got caught betraying the community and lying and she has been pretending for years as if she hasn't been caught, trying to play it off like she is cool or macho or honorable and it is so incredibly fake and stupid. she is a childish evil coward. like a criminal who is guilty and has been caught and who has so much evidence against them and they deny it and deny it and get the maximum sentence they can get anyway. all she wanted or wants was sex and money. she doesn't give a fuck about the community or her family.

these people who are intentionally causing problems know that i would have a beautiful happy peaceful gay spirit if they would get out of my life. i have so many reasons to be happy. my family. my dogs. my cats. my girlfriend. my beautiful home. my car. my soul. my experience(s). people who i am in activity with who i know love me (even though they don't think that it is a good idea to communicate with me in public). these people who have made themselves look bad over the years are angry and don't want to think about my happy gay spirit and their angry spirit at the same time so they are intentionally making me angry. they are very childish and selfish. they also don't want the public to like me because of envy or jealousy. they have ruined america and the world. it wont' make any sense until i am dead unless you can figure out a way to make them stop acting aggressively. go to the police and media. coordinate with me so that we can prove how this activity is real. flush these people out. warn the community. bind the community.

this mexican girl doesn't even try. she just plays the same stupid game every single day. she is incredibly cruel and incredibly fake. she got caught lying and is pretending that she hasn't been caught lying. she lies to her family. she wants money from her family and her family should know that she has an anger problem and a cruelty problem. she is a weird childish girl who likes being cruel to people. she is making people sick every day all day long like she wants people to think that she thinks of it as a childish game. she wants attention for being stupid.

childish rude females are killing or have killed the spirit of america and the world. paris hilton, some black women and this mexican girl (and this little black bitch of man who joins in with these girls). they have been childish and destructive like they wanted people think that they are making a sick joke about it or like it is a childish game to them. like some childish girl who starts to drive a crane and destroys something which she shouldn't have and then makes stupid obnoxious laughs and smiles, making a joke like "oh, i'm just a childish girl, hehe...." like they are too stupid or lazy to take themselves seriously. they have destroyed my work for years. since 2008. it is like they want to destroy a good man's work because they think that they will have to do more if it is obvious that i have accomplished something. people know that i would be a very happy peaceful focused spirit every day if these childish people would get out of my life or if they would not have caused a problem to begin with.

this mexican girl is such a weak fake girl who thinks that she needs to lie to mexican guys because she is afraid of them because they think that they know that she is a weak fake evil girl. she fakes being strong and macho and it is so stupid. she fakes being strong and macho because she doesn't want to have to do any work. she is afraid of mexican guys but is trying to trick them into thinking that she is not afraid of them. she makes her relationship problems everyone else's problem.

it is really sad because this obnoxious childish rude evil mexican who i think still lives in houston, texas has killed the spirit of america and the world. she couldn't handle the responsibility. she likes to be thought of as rude, obnoxious and angry (fake macho) like she wants people to think that is what mexicans are. it is like her mother didn't teach her any manners. i know what i am communicating about when i state that she lived in houston, texas and that i think that she still lives in houston, texas. she came out to see me several times in the past and she wanted me to talk about her because she wanted mexican guys to know that she is mexican because she was trying to work them. she stabbed everyone in back when i wouldn't give her hollywood fast enough but she didn't even give me a chance to finish writing what i had started to create without interrupting because she was so greedy, impatient and childish. any time that i am doing work she tries to use it against me in order to try to make mexican guys like her and not me because she thinks that they don't like her.

this mexican girl tries to make it look like men can't do anything on their own and this girl is so stupid because all she does is get in the way. all she has done since the beginning of 2013 is get in the way and she knows it and is embarrassed by it and then tries to cover it up by intentionally interfering so much that i can't do anything or think clearly because she is so dumb, childish and rude, pretending as if she is trying to help me, so that she can then lie and say that i didn't care enough. she is just trying to cover up the fact that she knows that she is the problem by intentionally creating an even bigger problem so that it doesn't seem like i can do very much. she is so stupid and rude and evil. that is one way which she is trying to deceive people. the other way is implying that i am not allowed to do anything because i am evil which is totally stupid because i am not evil or dishonest and that people know that i am not evil or dishonest. what is she accusing me of? she would have to actually make an argument and not just stupidly refer again and again and again to something which means that i am innocent. she tries to make people who don't know what she knows about me and the situation think that there is something more interesting about my past than there is.

in 2009 i thought that a few people found out about northern trust bank because i had written about it and that there was something good and legitimate about it and that they wanted to give me some money to show their appreciation and support in public but i told people out loud that i wouldn't accept any money and that it was not what i wanted to be respected for. i told people in 2009 that i would create a conflict of interest between me and the people who were giving me money in public so i wasn't going to do it. it was all imaginary because of what the black guy did with me thinking that he was something more advanced than he was or is and also because i thought that i was in activity with everyone for 4 years (2008 - 2012). i wanted to earn my respect as a writer. there was nothing special about northern trust bank and i did nothing wrong. the mexican girl and everyone knew this already but she is going to play dumb. she acts really stupid in order to try to give herself an alibi because it is so unbelievably stupid or another way to think about her is that she actually wants mexican guys to think that she is stupid because she wants them to think that it is funny because she is easy to have sex with and also that she hates white people no matter how sweet, honest and hard working they are. in fact, she hates them more if they are sweet, honest and hard working. she is trying to have me murdered but she thinks that if no one does it that she can make people think that it wasn't that bad or that she wasn't doing that while she tries to give herself time to try to lie her way out of trouble some other way.

this mexican girl has an attitude toward mexican guys like "yeah, i'm a shady evil childish bitch who won't fuck you unless you give me money. that's so funny, isn't it? hehe. oh yeah, another thing is that i want a mexican guy who acts like he hates white people even if he doesn't." sorry if this hurts mexican guys' feelings. i wish that people knew me in person and not this computer crap. i am a good person to work around. she isn't. she likes to hurt men. all men. she wants to try to humiliate or insult men who she thinks have more confidence or peace than she does.

i created another gallery on this website (see above/'important') for the photos which i had posted on the facebook account which was disabled (read below).

this mexican hates me because i am a nice intelligent interesting white person. not because i am a mean unintelligent lazy white person. she wants ignorant mexicans to think that she hates me because i am a evil lazy unfriendly white person. she hates me because i am a nice intelligent interesting white person who she knows would succeed if she left me alone or if she quit stalking me every day. this black guy is the same. they won't leave me alone because they think that people will communicate about how i am happy and successful and so they think that people will think that i am good and that they are bad and they don't like it so they childishly harass me or stalk me and other people who want me to be ok. i don't mean rich when i state "successful". i am blessed because i already have security but i would like a part time job in the city after my job in la grange which i have right now which these people are complicating because they are lying about george h. w. bush and northern trust bank. they want people to know that they are lying. they are so stupid and childish that it is ridiculous. They just try to spread hate, knowing that I am innocent, because they envy the fact that I can move on to better things than they can, pretending as if they have a reason to obstruct, because of the social problem which they created for themselves, and the bad image which they gave themselves.. people know what happened and that i didn't do anything wrong. they intentionally want to make reference to how they were the problem, implying that it doesn't matter and that no one is allowed to criticize them while also being incredibly cruel to me and the people who care about me. Like a dumb thug mentality. they are making a sick joke about how they know that they are the problem and about how they know that all they have done is ruin people's lives like they are stating that they don't even care about trying to do any good with people's lives because they are so weak and lame. it is like they are admitting to being no good for anyone at all, making a sick creepy joke about it and also implying that they won't even try to do anything else or be civil. do some black people or a mexican have a problem with an honest white person who likes to work or who can succeed? that is what is seem like. i can't believe how fucked up this situation is. a part time job after the part time job which i have would be good for a little bit of money but more importantly for my spirit and the spirit of the group. a little bit of work is good for our souls. peaceful repetition is therapeutic like meditation or chanting. two 5 hour shifts per week would be perfect for me and this group but since this mexican girl and black guy are trying to lie their way out of trouble they will probably make it impossible like they are already making my job very difficult or impossible and it is so stupid and childish of them because they intentionally refer to how they were or still are the problem while implying that no one is allowed to criticize them because they are so childish, angry and insecure. .this mexican girl and black guy know that i like to work and that i am honest but they keep lying about george h. w. bush and northern trust bank. it was the black guy's fault and i still did nothing wrong. the black guy is the one who is not TRUSTworthy. he thought that he made himself look bad and then he tried to put it off on me and he wants people to know that he is lying like he is implying that he can do whatever he wants to do and that no one can criticize him. i wasn't interested in banks or banking. he made me think that i was suppose to know about something special but it wasn't special and people already know about this very well. he confused me about george h. w. bush when i was writing an innocent letter to bush in 2002 trying to get some advice at the moment when i thought that maybe i shouldn't be writing to bush because i was using drugs, making me think that everything was ok or that it was ok to write and actually what i think that the black guy was doing is trying to make people who were sensing that i was conflicted about writing the letter think that i wasn't doing anything wrong. this is something which i think that the black guy started to lie about later. he lies because he can't get a woman. then because of that i thought that there was some special relationship with bush because i didn't know what the black guy was or i thought that he was something advanced which worked for the government and nothing else at that time really made any sense to me because i wanted to believe that this situation meant something good like a miracle which i thought that i was going to work because i was studying and which the government already knew about because i thought that things were prophesized. i couldn't imagine that God wanted to create something negative or weird or awkward for the community. i knew that i didn't have privacy so naturally i was confused about who knew about me or what i was suppose to do and when i was younger i was in much worse shape but actually it is worse now because my own people betrayed me and the community after i developed and moved on after my initial confusion. they had been making fun of me and gossiping about me when i was young and then when i grew up and could move on they obstructed it because they thought that they were going to look stupid because of what they had been saying about me and they thought that i would look good like a champion who had to go though something difficult but who was a cool honest guy who ended up being successful. when i went to bush's office to drop off innocent mail because i was confused about what was going on i saw a sign for northern trust bank in the elevator and didn't think much about it but then one year later i just happened to be driving by a northern trust bank location and the black guy did something stupid and unnecessary which confused me about the bank which meant that he didn't want to take responsibility for me being in bush's office in the first place. he isn't trust worthy. he assumed that i would never go to bush's office because of him fucking with me when i was writing to the innocent letter to bush and he assumed that i would never talk about it back then. he started to lie and say that i was thinking of writing about northern trust bank before he unnecessarily fucked with me when i just happen to be driving by a northern trust bank. i didn't do anything wrong when i wrote about it to johnny depp because i was working on a film idea writing, thinking that it was my duty to communicate it. about 3 years later, i got a funny feeling about the whole thing (when there is nothing special about that bank to begin with). i thought that the meaning was that many people were going to become customers there and that the bank would generate much interest which would help other banks or do something positive for the entire community. i also thought that it had something to do with antarctica which i thought was meant for the entire community or world but that was because the black guy intentionally deceived me in order to try to humiliate me because he was trying cover up for the fact that he was the reason why i was in bush's office to begin with. oh yeah, i wouldn't have thought anything at all about that fucking bank if the black guy hadn't stupidly fucked with me in a way which meant that he is evil, trying to put his stupid bullshit off on me. i wrote a letter to northern trust's legal department trying to protect people from that bank. i read the letter aloud. i was confused, thinking that someone got into my apartment and looked at my computer and so it meant that private information had become public and i thought then that i was in activity with everyone everywhere. i'm glad that i thought that someone got into my apartment so that i talked about northern trust because i was acting stupid for a few years, thinking that it was important when it wasn't. i had to keep it to myself, because people would have wanted to know what it meant and then they would have thought that there was something wrong with it or with me or with the person who was creating the contractions (black guy who i didn't know was an ignorant black guy). the black guy was playing games with my in front of everyone and created a very bad situation and he still does the same thing. he is an angry childish evil man. i don't think that johnny depp ever got the mail because i sent it to the viper room after he had left that place, thinking that he was still there. i wrote that i saw the sign for the bank in the elevator when i was at bush's office and nothing about the black guy stimulating me when i drove by. i was a passenger of a car, so i was not intentionally driving by the bank for a special purpose. i wrote "i am not intentionally steering you in that direction, but you might want to check it out." or "i am not trying to intentionally steer you in that direction, but you might want to check it out". the black guy also again and again intentionally deceived me about the importance of northern trust bank because he wanted to humiliate me while also trying to cover up the fact that he was responsible for me being in bush's office which was the reason why i saw the sign for the bank in the elevator. this black guy is a very insecure weak childish evil black man. he confused me because he combined the bank with bush's office but he was the reason why i was in bush's office. I STILL DID NOTHING WRONG. Not an evil intent, and people knew this a long time ago. i wasn't interested in banks or banking and i am so sick of this evil negro mother fucker and this evil mexican girl bitch, who flaunts that she knows that it was his fault. she thinks that the 2 of them look bad together so she tries to cover for him. i tried to protect people from that bank and this black guy created a bunch of stupid shit and he is still creating a bunch of stupid shit playing childish games. northern trust is not important. i have already explained this more than once i and i am really really sick of this shit! these people are taunting everyone, including the police. why don't you try to create a deterrent with the media? flush their families out. get the police to use the media to try to get their families to work with the public. don't let this nasty gossip spread. don't allow people an opportunity to spread nasty gossip or play games. it will get worse and worse, especially for black people. unnecessarily breaking into tribes, etc. this mexican girl and black guy have very serious mental problems. they are showing off like children wanting people to know that they are angry, wanting to hurt people emotionally. they are intentionally destroying the spirit of the community. it is like a child who breaks or throws something when they are angry.

people will try to use the honest information above as a way of lying and gossiping. why don't you ask me in person? i have already been over this shit again and again! i did nothing wrong. i am sick of communicating about this. it was the black guy's fault and he knows it but he is trying to cover it up and make me look bad. he started to lie after black women did something stupid because he thinks that black people made themselves look stupid. people gossip about it because they childishly want other people to think that they are involved with big banks or george h. w. bush or johnny depp or antarctica when they aren't. neither am i. i was like a child who couldn't understand what was what and i didn't want to harm anyone! I thought that people with money, were somehow going to help people who didn’t have as much money, like a fantasy about something cool. these people who are lying about my character want to harm people. that is the difference between me and them.

this mexican girl who i think still lives in houston is panicking, not knowing how to lie her way out of the social trouble which she got herself into by being greedy, disrespectful and dishonest. she tries to make people think that either i am lazy and unfriendly, or that i deserve to be interfered with. both things are untrue. she doesn't know whether to be thought of as friend or foe and she has been doing this same stupid evil childish thing for years, pretending as if she thinks that people think that she is smart for wanting people to know that she is playing a childish evil game. she is trying to make ignorant people think that people who are sensing what she is doing don't know what we are talking communicating about. she is just wanting to bullshit her way out of trouble. she tried to kill me and wrongfully defame me, so that i couldn't defend myself back in 2015 but it didn't work. since then she has just been acting stupid because she knows that the community knows that she is mexican garbage. she is still trying to have me killed, but just not wanting to be real obvious about it. she never cared about me or anyone else. she just wanted sex and money. then if i communicate about it on the internet, she wants people thinking that i am fake or faking being sick because i want money from people. i already have more security than most people. i have a part time job which she is interfering with and that is God's honest truth. she is interfering with work at my house. she is hurting my innocent girlfriend. she is hurting me and i am innocent. she is hurting the innocent dogs. this girl is a human. part of the reason that she is doing what she is doing is to try to confuse people into thinking that she isn't human or that people who are sensing her don't know what we are communicating about when i state that she is a mexican girl who lived in houston and who i think still lives in houston. i think that she lives inside the 610 loop. she used to have a white SUV in 2011. she is about 5 foot 1 or 2 inches. she had or probably still has long brown wavy hair. not black like some latinas have. she has medium size breasts or a little bigger than medium. part of the reason that she is doing what she is doing, flaunting being shady, is because she wants to attract a mexican guy who is shady too. she wants a mexican guy who acts obnoxious and rude. she also wants a mexican guy who acts like he hates white people even if he actually doesn't. what is important about a part time job for me is that it does my spirit good. it is good for me to get out and be busy for a few hours and socialize a little bit and then feel good about what you did that day. she wants to harm my spirit. she knows that work would make my spirit strong and she doesn't want people to know that my spirit is strong or stronger than hers. she doesn't want people to know that i am happy because she thinks that she can't be happy if people know that i am happy. she is a very childish, envious or jealous creature. the black guy is the same. a few black women are the same. i have given this mexican girl and black guy a chance to move on in life, showing them love, but they don't because they are dishonest, mean cowards.

people want other people to think that they are superior because they think that i am superior. they have a weird childish inferiority complex. i am not stuck up. i just want to be left alone. i am not the aggressor. they are. i am not the problem. they are.

this mexican girl who i think still lives in houston, texas is obnoxious childish stupid fake macho shit. it is ridiculous. she likes to make everyone sick pretending as if she thinks that it means that she has talent. she is so stupid and rude that it is ridiculous.

a few people make fun of loving honest people, like they are implying that it won't make a difference in the world if people are loving and honest but it will make a difference.

i think that i may be some kind of treaty between alien forces or star systems but part of that is wishful thinking. i have also communicated that maybe an evil force wants to use me as a way of confusing or destabilizing the public so that it can more easily dominate. i don't know. i wish that people would involve me so that we could put people to work. make it more about science and less about religion. objectivity. even the aliens don't understand what is going on. just because it is higher level doesn't mean that they know what they are doing. there is always something older and smarter. why don't you really fight against evil forces by putting people like law enforcement and judges or other civil institutions to work? scientists too. it would be more objective and innocent that way. i am innocent. a few people are lying about me but the community knows that they are lying about me so they make themselves look stupid and childish. they want people to know that they are lying, trying to give thugs power over people who have class. i have broken the law a few times in my life (drugs and alcohol/confusion) but i am not a big problem or evil. i am not in any trouble with law and i have no intent to break the law. i have lied a few times in my life when i was younger, but i have never lied to the people who i am in activity with or on the internet. i cheated on 2 tests (i remember it being 2) in college because i really didn't feel like studying because i was very confused and very sick. it was horrible madness. i missed a test one time and then had to schedule a time to take it and i accidentally discovered that i could easily cheat at the place where the tests were taken. i'm not real ashamed about it because i was so sick after 1997. you are seeing me now after 25 years of getting used to this unusual and very confusing situation but i was a complete nervous confused uncomfortable mess for the first few years. i usually don't cut corners on work. i hated college after 1997. it was difficult to have to go through it knowing that something with me was going on and that i was isolated from the community. sometimes i didn't feel like going to class to be around other students because i was so confused. sometimes i thought that the teacher and students were sensing me when they weren't but some people were. once a college buddy gave me a paper which i think that he got off of the internet and i turned it in and got an A but i didn't ask for it. my mom helped with writing a few times (not all of the work) but she loves to do it. it was still my job to get it completed. once i lied to a professor about my computer crashing when it didn't so that i had an extra week to do the work and i did it and got it completed. i wasn't a big fan of school. i am more of a blue collar worker type person. i ended up getting a B average and it took me 4 and 1/2 years. i gave an inappropriate note which was not real bad to a girl who looked like she was about 15 or 16 when i was 21 in the army but i didn't want to hurt her and i was giving her the option of doing something but it was still wrong and i already got in trouble for it. i really didn't think of an actual law which would prevent me from associating with her plus i just imagined her being happy plus i was with girls who were young teenagers when i was a young teenager so it didn't seem bad. i did a few crazy destructive things when i was young like adolescents or young adults do sometimes. people can know everything about me if they want to. i don't care. that would be a plus and not a minus. people already know everything about me because i told them.

this black guy who is acting like a weird childish creepy fool didn't want to have to take a stand to black women who he knew were evil and childish and very mean. he thought that he wouldn't be able to have sex that way. he is too wimpy and weak and unintelligent so he started to lie about the past. he is also a racist. these few black people who are causing problems are racists.

people with class are not harming people. people with low class are harming people with class, trying to drag them down to their level because they are lazy, not wanting to have to do what people with class do or they think that they are incapable of doing what people who have class do.
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these photographs which i posted on a new facebook account which i created on 2/11/2022 are in the interest of national/global security. a very few people are childish and dishonest, wanting to create evil gossip. they wrongfully claim that they have a reason to make me unhappy every day when they know that i am innocent which means that they just don't want me to be happier than they are because they are weak, envious or jealous people. i am not stuck up. they should stop gossiping about me and focus on themselves.

https://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100077845852045

facebook disabled my account. i requested a review to try to get them to change their mind but i doubt that they will. the photos were of a police report when i was in la grange, texas in 2011 and my request for the report in 2014. the mexican girl knew that i was innocent but tried to wrongfully defame me and also have me killed so that i couldn't defend myself. she also combined george h. w. bush and northern trust bank together with the la grange incident, knowing that i was innocent of all of it. she had a weird childish fantasy about thinking that i mexican female (who is evil) was God and that a sweet innocent honest white boy was the devil. it was or still is incredibly stupid. i also had 4 photographs of an envelope which paris hilton sent me which had a purse which i didn't ask for or didn't want. she jerked me around and ripped me off for $150. the envelope which had unique stamps on it indicating she was being supportive was sent to me after the issue with the black women at the grocery store in 2008. one stamp is pomegranate meaning something about health. the next stamp is a guy named james a. michener (writer) which sounds like my name mishler. she knew that i had begun to write something. i guess Rockefeller is something about her new york bullshit which i don't care about. the tiffany lamp stamp had something to do with me having talked about how i imagined tile like a tiffany lamp around a bar area of an apartment which i thought i was going to live in eventually. she sent me this envelope in the beginning of 2009. the incident with the black woman at the grocery store was in november of 2008. why didn't hilton put a return address on the envelope? how was that supposed to make me confident in public? so she wanted people to know that she was playing childish shady games? so she wanted me to play her childish shady game with her in public? she also included a flirtatious creepy childish photograph of herself which i sent back to her eventually in the purse which i didn't ask for and didn't want. i wanted a different bag for my niece at christmas time. not for me after christmas time. hilton is stupid, childish and disrespectful. actually cruel. i also sent another childish flirtatious cryptic photograph of her which she sent to me (which is how all of this stupid unnecessary crap got started in the first place) back to her. i am not communicating about this in order to make it seem like i am cool because paris hilton liked me or supported me. i am communicating about it because some black women are lying about the situation, wanting ignorant people to think that she didn't like me and that i did something wrong when i didn't. black women have been caught doing something wrong and they have acted really stupid about it.

i don't want to think of obnoxious, childish, mean black women who want my attention. i want to think of my sweet, smart, cool girlfriend. get out of my life black women, unless you want to say something friendly.
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this is just another example of the many problems which paris hilton and other childish, disrespectful females have created or are still creating. i don't want to just complain. i want someone to help make it better so that people don't continue to cause unnecessary problems for the community.
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sometimes, i don't like any of the people who i am in constant 24/7 activity with. they make me uncomfortable. no one ever said anything kind to me like they want me to know that they care about me or my feelings or like they want people to know that they care about me or are trying to help me cope.


this mexican girl who i am in activity with likes to insult men who work like she wants people to think of it as a childish game because what she actually thinks is that men are superior but she fakes thinking that women are superior. she is obnoxious for the sake of being obnoxious. it is sick. she wants mexican guys to think that she is more macho then they are but she is a very very weak dishonest childish female so it is totally stupid. she is implying that mexican girls are superior and that they treat men like shit and that the men have to give them something. it is really stupid. she does absolutely nothing all day long every day but then stupidly implies that she is superior or the boss. she is implying that a mexican guy has to agree that stupid childish lazy women are superior otherwise she won't give him sex. she is so stupid that it is sickening like she isn't even human. she interrupts me all day long every day, wanting people to communicate about it, playing a game like "oh, maybe i was trying to help him... oh, maybe i was trying to hurt him... oh, maybe i was trying to help him.. oh, maybe i was trying to hurt him..." like she wants people to know that she is playing a childish game like she wants people to think that she has talent because she is playing an evil, childish game. she is confused, not knowing how to lie her way out of trouble and she has been doing this for years, like someone who knows that they are in trouble and have barricaded themselves in a house while they surrounded. she is insane and incredibly disrespectful toward the community. she never cared about me or my work. she still doesn't. she wanted mexican guys to think that she was special because she was "associated" with me, but they wanted them to think that she was better than i was because she actually thought the opposite of that. she is a nasty evil gold digger. she won't stop lying. she also wants people to think that it is funny that she is so evil. it isn't funny. she is making people including young people and parents trying to raise children and old people sick every day all day long. all she cares about is sex and money. she is trying to get someone to kill me because she thinks that she has confused the community so that she can make up any story she wants to after i am dead but she hasn't confused the community because other people and myself have done so much work for years making sure that people knew that she was or is evil.


i am a nice honest person and i am being harassed, stalked, viciously violated all day long every day and the people who are doing it are taunting everyone including the police wanting them to know that they know that i am innocent but trying to intimidate or humiliate authority. the people who are doing it are trying to create crap on the internet. it is very painful. i would be more confused if i didn't communicate about it or try to protect the community. it would be like the president of the united states not having security. there are weird childish people out there and they attack if they think that they can get away with it. just knowing that the president has security is a deterrent. i don't have any protection which means that the community doesn't have any protection.


this black man knew that i was innocent in the past, but because later on black women stated publicly that they didn't like him, he tried to humiliate me and them, lying about the past and my character. he tried to humiliate nice loving black women and me, trying to rally childish obnoxious evil thug black women. he also tried to get black men to act a fool. i don't think that they want to do it. he is just talking back to black people or me or anyone who doesn't like him, giving them and me and everyone else a really stupid, really ugly angry childish attitude like a little baby who is screaming. he started to lie about the past because he is insecure. he stabbed everyone including his own family in the back. he is angry because he can't get a woman so he wants to try to humiliate people who can have fun but it won't stop us.

what some black people are doing to this nation is really horrible. it is like a drive by shooting because the people doing the drive by shooting are people who think that they are less than the other people and they started stupid shit because they want to imply that they are more even when they really don't think that they are more. it is like a dog at the dog park who thinks that the other dog is stronger or superior and so it starts to act weird and attacks because it is nervous because it thinks that the other dog is stronger or superior. then childish fake mean black women would state that i am the one who is nervous. no. they are. they were and they still are so they act up stupidly.

i am much more confident in person. i wish that people would get to know me better. this part of my website will make ignorant people misinterpret something of take something out of context. these people are trying to make you think that i am more nervous or skittish in person than i am. they are trying to deceive you, trying to make me unpopular or seem like i am not cool because they don't want people to follow me because they think that they will have to do more work or act like they care. it is a difficult and unusual situation. i am a public person or a person who is in a unique public situation who doesn't have basic law enforcement protection from weirdos. it is scary. it doesn't mean that i am unfriendly and it doesn't mean that i am weak.

people only want to think of the divine aspect of christ and not the human aspect. we are not capable of understanding the divine aspect. way too much time involved, incarnation after incarnation. astrology. something else to consider is that events or other people affect what christ is doing. in this incarnation there was more probability that other people or other events would affect my life because of the increase in technology. i am not the only one who has responsibility.

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i communicate in this website about a problem with blacks and a mexican and paris hilton but i also had a problem with a few white people who were cops in la grange but i really don't care about that anymore because they don't continue to harm me. i forgive them and i have tried to help them. i am a loving person but i can't stand people who are evil or cruel. i ended up opening a coffee bar in la grange called starclucks.
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it seems as if this childish obnoxious thug black man is trying to humiliate a white person who does honest work because he thinks that a white person who does honest work can get ahead when he can't. he is trying to make it seem like it is about thug low class childish people who hustle instead of people who do real work. he is having a weird childish fantasy about people thinking that he is some kind of gangster player when actually black people think that he is totally totally stupid.

this situation is like childish, obnoxious hoodlums shining a laser pointer into the cockpit of an airplane which is on approach to the runway at the airport. they know that it is difficult work which demands a great deal and they want to play stupid games. it is dangerous. i wish that the police or FBI or media could help. can we at least try? i have been trying to motivate people to do this for years. what are you afraid of?

this black dude has got a weird, childish, deranged, angry, evil, possessive, very mean attitude toward women or just in general toward people like (thug/low class/socially lame/loser/stupid/childish) "Ah nah, you ain't gonna think about him. you gonna think about me..." believe me black ladies, you don't want to think about him. he flaunts being a creepy weirdo and he is a disgrace for black men. i know that good black people who i am in 24/7 constant activity with have informed the public. "he be a fake nigga."

a few black people are trying to humiliate or make fun of an honest, loving white male in america because they are not honest and loving and just because i am white in america doesn't mean that the black people are right and that the white person is wrong.

people who are low class and unintelligent are playing stupid childish games with people who are higher class and more intelligent or the management.


this black guy who people know about wants people to know that he likes to hurt an innocent sweet white man in public. it is absolutely sick. someone should kill him. maybe he lied to or didn't disclose something to the social security administration about his left eye or that fact that he has my vision or that he is sensing me like other people are and that he can create contractions of muscle and soft tissue which the entire group can sense. he really is a weird disgusting creature with an incredibly fucked up mental problem who wants people to know that he is harming people and the social security administration should not be giving him money. (for the u.s. social security administration. the problem with this black man's left eye began in february of 1998. i think that it was february 22nd, 1998. he probably would have gone to the social security office in march or april of 1998 to try to obtain benefits. he lied on his application. he has a incredibly disturbing mental problem and he is harming people every day.) he likes to harm innocent beings like someone who wants someone to know that they like to repeatedly rape someone who who is telling him to stop. the mexican girl is the same way. black women are doing the same thing. it is scary. it is like rape because the person who is doing it knows that you don't want to think about them but they continue anyway, knowing that they are harming you emotionally or psychologically or spiritually. i don't deserve this stupid shit and people know it. it makes me hate black people and mexican people which is sad because i always loved them and was nice to them. it makes me think of stereotypical black and mexican behavior which is not attractive. they are trying to make me think of this, trying to make it obvious that i hate them because they are trying to create a double standard, trying to create social leverage over whites. they are also trying to recruit low class blacks and mexicans but i don't think that it will work.

normally one can choose who one wants to socialize with, but i didn't or don't have a choice. cool friendly people and lame unfriendly people got mixed together in this situation but the cool people will win.

i understand if you get tired of reading this, but i added a few things below which were important about george h. w. bush, northern trust bank, this mexican girl causing problems, and black women who infected my blood back in 2011 when i was at a psychiatric care facility. That doesn’t mean that I don’t know what I am communicating about because it was a psych care facility. something else about northern trust bank is that i tried to protect people from that bank after i thought that something was not right about the situation. i wrote a letter to their legal department and read it out loud in 2010, basically letting people know that if you want to associate with that bank, you are on your own. there is nothing going on with northern trust bank so don't worry about it. the black guy did something which was very very stupid and unnecessary which meant that he wasn't TRUSTworthy. he still isn't TRUSTworthy. he thinks that he makes himself look bad and then tries to put it off on me. he is a very weak, insecure black man, who wants people to think that he is cool, when he isn’t.. then he wants black people who are shady to lie for him because he turns it into a black thing because he is a racist. no, you insecure, weak ass, punk ass, bitch ass, evil ass, fake ass, puny ass negro. i don't want to post for a while. the community needs to digest this. you would be surprised how i am different in person. all of this chaotic crap in this part of my website is a reflection of stupid childish sadistic people who are playing games with everyone. they think that it is so fascinating to play with me but i don't want to play with them because they are socially lame. they want attention because of the attention which i get but i'm not stuck up. that is just the way it is. it is like when you see someone on tv and some childish person gets behind them and acts up wanting attention on tv.

these people who are intentionally bothering everyone know that i could have fun and a spirit which they can't have and they are angry about it. they are intentionally causing me to defend myself on the internet after i started to do it in order to try to make it look like i am an angry person in order to try to make me unpopular in order to try to get people on their side so that they can have more. they are attempting to hustle people. they don't want to think of me (and other people) having fun and them not having fun or people thinking that they are dumb and mean (because they really were) so they harass and stalk me and other people making a very stupid sick childish game of it. it is very childish, selfish and mean of them. the more time that black people have had to advance in america, the more it seems like blacks who have less hate blacks or whoever who have more. that is why some blacks are trying to use me as a way of creating division amongst other blacks. stop hating and grow up and do something so that you have more plus more to feel better about. and don't hate me either because i am or because you think that i have more than you have. i'm not stuck up. what else would i think when they harass, obstruct and harm a person who you know is innocent and loving? they are childish.
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i wish that i could post a link to http://thule.org?w=5035170?w=5035170?w=5035170 but the website is currently not in use. i gave people this information in about 2003 or 2004 or 2005.
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i think that this internet crap is unhealthy for the community. people don't know if people have read something or not, or are familiar with something or not, and i think that it is unhealthy for the community. why don't you just make a story on tv news so that everyone in the world gets the information all at once? simple. i think that people think that this internet crap is creepy. we are not accomplishing that much that fast and there really isn't any real pressure on anyone to not act up stupidly or cause unnecessary problems. we all want to be as peaceful as possible. we have a common enemy.

i would like to believe that i had some good loving control over issues in the world which really are healthy for all types of people, but usually lately i think that maybe an evil force is using me as a way of destabilizing society so that it can dominate. i have a good heart. it knows that i have a good heart. but maybe it is using me as a way of confusing or destabilizing society so that it can dominate. why don't you kill me? i don't care. if you make an international story of this, we could probably generate public support for it with doctors doing it officially at a hospital. if things go on in this way, you should kill me. i started to say back in 2010 when i was starting to become very confused or when my confusion was compounding, either fix it or get rid of it. i have already tried to commit suicide. i tried unsuccessfully to have myself shot in the head several times by going to remote locations with ear plugs and photocopied notes in my pocket, car and home. then i figured out that i could get xanax online (i had thought that it was harder or impossible for me to get) so then i got a job as a dishwasher at pappasito's restaurant close to my home so that i could get the xanax and attempt to commit suicide after 6 months or 1 years of working and enjoying my life before i die (like taking a vacation somewhere) but the mexican girl intentionally made it impossible for me to work on the first day (Period Beginning: 03/28/2018 CO. FILE DEPT. CLOCK VCHR. NO. Period Ending: 04/10/2018 156557 039000 PC010 0000154532 1 Pay Date: 04/18/2018/2.92 hours/gross pay-$30.66, net pay-$28.32) because she wanted to try to lie her way out of the social mess which she created for herself so she tried to make ignorant mexicans guys or ignorant people think that i didn't have enough honor or courage to go through with the suicide attempt (which is not true) or that i am lazy or a bad worker (which is not true) or that she was trying to help me at work and that i am unfriendly (which is not true) or that she wanted to keep me here in order to try to motivate me to do work (which is not true). i didn't want to commit suicide because i am lazy or uncaring like she wants people to think that i am. i wanted to commit suicide to get this weird evil greedy mexican girl away from me and everyone else. she also thought that ignorant people wouldn't think that she would keep me here alive while she is in activity with me, so that is another way which she is trying to confuse people so that she thinks that she can try to lie her way out of trouble. she thinks that she can make ignorant people think that she doesn't even exist or that all of the people who communicate about her are crazy. she thought that she would keep me here in order to have time to try to deceive people because she had been caught doing something very very wrong and she thought that she needed time to try to deceive people. she is trying to have me killed now but just not wanting it to be real obvious. it may seem like i don't know what i am communicating about but that is exactly how she is trying to deceive people. she tried to create so many ways for her to lie her way out of trouble that it got her into even more trouble. she is trying to have me killed and her plan is probably to say (because someone will want to know what she has been doing since 2011) that she was one of the people who i was in activity with; meaning, that she was disabled, and that she liked me and would have never done what she is doing every day all day long. or she could say that it sounded like we didn't know what we were communicating about. she will wait to see what someone states to her, and then depending on what they say, she thinks that she can tailor her attitude or statements so that she can get money from a man, no matter what his opinion is. she is evil and greedy. she and the black man who also has my vision in left eye are really the most disgusting evil childish sadistic creepy stupid creatures you could possibly imagine (in outer space!) and like to flaunt it and they like to flaunt how they are stalking people including law enforcement. they are tying to take control of the planet. law enforcement and the military should know about it. seriously. it is trying to sour what i am and what i create or what the public thinks i am so that it thinks that it can have control now and in future incarnations. it is like a creature or animal that has been trapped and is thrashing around in a cage in confusion, trying to get free. it thinks that it can't survive in future incarnations if people know that it was a problem so it is trying to make it look like i am the problem but i am not the problem. it doesn't want people to be happy. it is the opposite of what i am. it envies me because i am a happier, more social being than it is or ever could be. it doesn't want people to be happy and then it stupidly implies that it should be worshipped and it seems to be a battle of unhappy people wanting to harm happy people or maybe some negative alien agenda which i read about (see below/ascension glossary).

i don't like people who i am in constant 24/7 activity with not making an international story about this with tv news. we could prove that the activity is real with a test on tv. why are you keeping it a secret from other people? that is dangerous. when people think that people are keeping a secret, they assume that something is wrong or that there is a problem. why should people think that there is a problem? if i was a manager of a company, i would put information out to everyone at the same time. you can put the courts, law enforcement and civil institutions to work. don't be brainwashed by stories of jesus. don't play into your idea that other people have been brainwashed by the stories of jesus christ. what is the big deal? i am harmless. this should be about biology and science. that relates to everyone and not just me! solar system. stars. a celebration, because it works in cycles.


some people may say that i am fake because i had or still have an interest in what the germans were working on in antarctica during WWII. i am not fake. the information was discovered by an old friend of mine who was doing research on the ark of the covenant. supposedly the file was written by a man named arkel. you can find something like 'the omega file' but someone told me that it or some of it is disinformation. i would rather have a beer and a bratwurst. i think that america took over the project in antarctica (operation high jump/admiral richard byrd /1947). i don't believe that it is only white people who work on it or who are involved. at least that is wishful thinking. much of what hitler ranted about was propaganda. good information which i got is that he escaped to south america. a flotilla which refueled in the mid atlantic. i researched 'VRIL' but not much. i find it interesting just like i am sure that everyone would. that doesn't mean that i am a mean person or that i want to hurt people. i don't understand it. i used to think that i should respect something which is more advanced because God created it, but I am sure that there are different groups of entities which are more advanced, so I would probably fit into one group more than another. i still have to respect all of them though. i think that i read something about orion and something nordic looking (ascension glossary/see below), but i don't understand it. orion and sirius? (south). there is also alpha draconis and ursa minor (north)/(see below). they now have documentaries on the history channel about antarctica. apparently there are other underground facilities throughout the world. i read some information about technological aryans (keep in mind that an aryan is not defined as someone working for hitler during WWII), which stated something about their fear, hate and avarice (greed for wealth). i don't understand the hate part, because there has to be a reason to hate. i thought that maybe they are nice, but hate people who are not nice or intelligent. i don't know. i know what i am. i am a sweet boy, but i can't tolerate evil people or mean people and i do become angry just like other people do. i don't want to confuse anyone with this information, but i feel as if i wouldn't be doing my job unless i was honest about what i know. i am not going to sugar coat anything. there was other information which stated something about how these technological aryans sometimes abduct good specimen females in order to insert their genius stock into them or to procreate. they want to have children in order to continue the work. i like the concept of good in every race so it confuses me. there is genius in every race. i don't understand it. just because they are white doesn't mean that i would get along with them or that they would like me. maybe i would get along with them. i don't understand it. the person who wrote it might not understand everything about it. here is something else. my wishful thinking is that it included good people from every race or a broad gene pool.

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i understand if this german stuff gives you the creeps. it confused and scared me at first. i tried to protect black people the first time that i went into the psychiatric ward at the VA hospital at the end of 1997 when i flipped out thinking that everyone was sensing me. it still scares me a little but i try to be objective. i think that i am some type of treaty between different alien forces but part of that is wishful thinking. i don't want to harm anyone. it is better if we help each other.

don't panic. a few black women are panicking, fighting about money and human resources, which seems to be because they are worried about something which is mostly in the future. they are trying to turn good black people to bad black people who hate unnecessarily. they are trying to work black people who have money or influence in order to try to get them to do something for them. it is not necessary. don't do it. don't be fooled by their attempt to wrongfully defame me because they are evil and greedy, trying to get something for themselves. they have become stupid haters who don't have a plan. it is sad because it was all unnecessary. love is the better way... don't unnecessarily break into different groups or different races battling with each other. you will be better off helping each other. do not take your current security for granted -- do something now so that it doesn't need to become worse than it needs to be in the future.

do you want to know what i think the big problem is here? white supremacists. some black people feel as if they need to polarize themselves against the white supremacists who flaunt or advertise being what they are. black people are doing it secretly and i think that this is dangerous or unnecessary. i would rather join white supremacists as a last resort if black people or other races were treating me so badly that i didn't have a choice but i would rather not have to join with white supremacists. try to work together and help each other. if you are weak or disorganized because of unnecessary fighting, then it will just be easier for some group who you might not want to dominate you, dominate you. i am concerned about some black women using this situation as a way of trying to scare or wrongfully intimidate or wrongfully coerce other black women at different work companies. you are better off working with nice people. so be nice. it is like some black people are holding a gun to other people, telling them not to move because they are trying to accumulate money or power or resources. they don't even have a plan because they don't know what is going on yet. eventually something is going to give; with power and the internet going down. love is the better way... help each other. i don't think that the white supremacists really have a plan either. this will probably sound crazy, but if black people want to have a better chance at survival in the future, establish places which are like bases out in the country. the cities will become chaotic in the future. probably better to be in the country. most black people are in big cities. organize ahead of time. this situation means that some black women did something wrong and got caught and are now in denial about it and are trying to use unnecessarily me as a way of dividing black people from everyone else because they think that they will have more power as a group that way. here is a word to black people. don't do it. don't join the people who just want you to think about anger and hate (or how 1 black woman was mean to an innocent white boy). there is no reason to hate me or the people who defend me. we are harmless. you will be better off with nice white people but i don't mean that all white people are nice. i said it before and i will say it again. i am sorry if what i said to that black woman at the grocery store in 2008 hurt black people but she was trying to humiliate me and there was absolutely no reason for it. it was very childish and very mean of her to have done that to someone who lacks privacy the way that i do and she must have done it because of some bullshit social situation which she had already created for herself. stop communicating about my past unnecessarily! i want to communicate about a healthy, happy future. this doesn't mean that i am trying to cover something up either. they lie about me and money or my intent. it is a bunch of stupid evil gossip. stop! move on to something happier and less tense for everyone.

stupid macho (read below) is when a person fakes being macho because they are really evil or dishonorable. you can figure it out for yourself.

the only reason that i want people to make a tv news story about this situation is because of weird, mean, childish people who want to make it about them instead of the peace of the entire community. they act up because they think that they are less or because they think that people think or will think that they are less. i am not the problem. i just want to be left alone. i wouldn't have written all of this crap which you have been seeing for years if people would have acted more maturely, leaving me and everyone else alone. they think that if they leave me alone, that i will be happier than they will be or that people will think that i am happier than they are, and they don't like it. they got themselves into social trouble so they pretend as if they have a reason to obstruct my life. it is evil, childish and selfish. they want to control and hurt the entire happy community. it is like a child, like "if i can't be happy, then no one can be happy!" it is a childish temper tantrum.

it really seems as if these few black people and this mexican girl are wanting people to think that they are unwilling to act like they care about a white person in public and i am a sweet white person. blacks and mexicans often have an attitude like they want whites to think that they ignore whites and i think that it is because they don't want to act like they think that whites are superior but i am not stating that i think that whites are superior. it is understandable in this nation. slavery, mexican american war. the issue is not about me wanting to be thought of as superior. the issue is about them wanting to be thought of as superior. why? why won't they leave people alone?

this situation has demonstrated something very ugly about human behavior. a few people want to humiliate me in public because they think that i am more than they are. it is abusive treatment. the people who are doing it are trying to get others to join in with them. very childish and very mean. this black guy and mexican girl who you can read about down below are like people who you would see on the tv news who got arrested for beating a child and keeping it locked in a closet with no food or water. they flaunt low class behavior and they try to get other people to join in with them. they think that it is easier for them to get people to be lazy and lie, rather than to act like people who have class. people who are intentionally harming me and others have weird psychological problems.

the few people who are intentionally causing problems for the community are like children who are obnoxious who were told to go to their room and clean it up and then they yell at their parents and sneak out of the house. they are implying that it doesn't matter if i am right and that they are wrong because they are implying that people should ignore me anyway. they are implying that thugs get attention and that honest people who do honest work don't get attention or don't get any where in life. their behavior is low class, sleazy and very very childish.

i am not just wanting to complain. i am trying to get this to stop so that the community can be a better, happier place. i have been trying for years on the internet (first with facebook, now with this website) and childish, mean, evil people want to mock me, wanting people to know that they are hurting an innocent person. like bullies at school who want to knock a sweet nerd's books out of his hands in the playground in front of other kids and then push him around, knock him on the ground and kick him so that he yells in pain and confusion in front of the other kids. it is real ugly childish shit in america and i wish that it would stop. i just want to be left alone! it is very simple. they are trying to trick ignorant people into thinking that i am making a big deal of myself when they are the ones who are wanting to make a big deal of themselves. people didn't start to defend me until other people started to fuck everyone over or betray the community. that is why we write so much on the internet. evil people are trying to fool you, wanting ignorant people to think that i am the aggressor. i am not the aggressor. i am acting defensively. i just want to be left alone.

this mexican girl is not kind or gentle. she acts like an obnoxious punk like she wants people to think that is what mexican girls are like. if mexican girls are like that, then fine, but get out of my life. i have a girlfriend who is sweet and loving and kind and beautiful. we don't want this mexican girl's low class, disgusting attitude crap bothering us or our families or our dogs or our cats. i don't want her intentionally bothering me before i go to work or when i am at work either. this mexican girl wants to be thought of as like a mexican drug cartel member's girlfriend who is vicious, brutal, evil and ruthless like that is what she thinks mexican people's image should be. she never cared about me or anyone else. she just tried to use me and everyone else in order to try to trick ignorant mexican guys into thinking that she deserves something when she doesn't or that i am lazy or unfriendly when i am not or that i did something wrong (george h. w. bush/northern trust bank) when she knows that i didn't and that it was someone else's fault and that i had a good intent anyway. i stated below something about "stupid macho" but what i meant is that there is a difference between stupid macho and good macho. she is a very weak, evil mexican female who fakes being strong and macho. it is like she wants to publicly desecrate the office of christ or a good man. she wants to try to humiliate men while still implying that they should give her something. what she actually is, is an incredibly stupid, weird coward who is in denial about knowing that she is the problem. paris hilton does the same thing. black women do the same thing. this black guy who has my vision in his left eye who can create contractions of my muscle and soft tissue does the same thing. read below.

i don't want stupid, childish, mean, fake black women in my life either. they lie about my heart because they got caught not having the heart. they lie about my intent. if they want to be thought of as something low class, then fine, but leave me out of it. i'm definitely not stating that all black women are bad or mean. some of them don't even try to be anything in life. they caused a big stupid unnecessary problem for themselves and then all they want to do is complain, faking thinking that i was the problem. what that black woman did to me at the grocery store in 2008 (read below) was childish, evil and sadistic. they are intentionally provoking me now in public in order to try to portray me as a monster. no. i am not the monster. they are. they are trying to fool ignorant people and i think that it is working a little bit. don't be fooled by it. i am a sweet honest white boy and they like to try to humiliate me or turn my sincerity into pain, confusion, frustration and anger in public because they know that i am a sweet honest white boy and because they think that i am something which most black people are not. i don't want their unnecessary aggression. it is stupid. i don't think that black people want it either. they act like satan, implying that they are superior while being incredibly evil and mean so it is dumb. satan or the devil has an ego problem (upside down thinking/it exists in everyone). they have an ego problem. they want the community to know that they are acting aggressively. they are not humble.

paris hilton is a tacky dork. i didn't want to get involved with her. i just wanted to wish her well when she was in jail. it is embarrassing to think that people think that i wanted to be involved with her or that i was involved with her. she made a big unnecessary childish deal of something trying to manipulate the media like she wanted people to think that i was a fan of hers and that she rejected me or that she was better than i was because she has money and is on tv. i wasn't a fan of hers and there was no reason to reject me. she is childish, greedy and disrespectful. she was a curse for the USA. seriously. she probably stupidly bosses carter whatever his name is around. i think that she tried to stupidly boss chris zylka around but it didn't work. she tried to stupidly boss me around but it didn't work. what hilton did to me and everyone else was childish and cruel. that is not an overstatement. she is a bad thing for children in the USA and all over the world. she wanted people to think that she was so important or so interesting because i thought about her or wrote to her trying to lift her spirit when she was in jail and then she shit all over me in public as if she wanted to hurt me because she thinks that i am more interesting or unique than she is despite all of her money and tv nonsense. the only reason that i thought about her is because she didn't go to jail the way which she should have and i wanted to try to make her loved or ok because i thought that she was going through a bad time or because i thought that maybe she was having a hard time because of this situation. it seems like she was. she wanted people to know that she was one of the people who i am in activity with. bossiness, cockiness, boastfulness, thoughtlessness, cruelty and disobedience are all aspects of her astrological makeup. i don't like her. she is full of shit. the reason that i wrote to TMZ with my mail being stolen 2 or 3 times by black women who wanted people to know that they were stealing my mail was because hilton wouldn't show me and everyone else a very basic amount of respect and answer the question about whether she made reference to me by name on TMZ herself. read below. she wants people to think that maybe i am such a problem that she won't communicate with me when she is the one who created the problem so it is stupid. she is trying to cover up the fact that she was or is the problem. i want my $150 back. here are 2 excerpts something from the same astrology book (The New Astrology by Suzanne White):

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First of all, the Aquarius born in a Rooster year often succeeds. And second of all, this person frequently fails.


2.
Not that the Aquarius/Rooster is a blase' shrugger of the shoulders. Far from it. This person is generally of cheerful demeanor, and personifies enthusiasm and involvement. But look a little deeper. The scars are cleverly hidden under natty dressing habits and a smart wardrobe of accessories. The Aquarius/Rooster's disenchantment may be camouflaged a cushion of glorious pink roses, but it's still there.

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paris hilton probably goes (dumb blonde) "ah, gee, daddy... i don't know what he is talking about when he says that i could fix it". she could respectfully tell me (and everyone else) whether or not she went on TMZ in october of 2008, making reference to me by name. i also think that she had the outrageous audacity to tell people what kind of work that i was doing, like it was her work or that she had to be involved with my work or else she would kick me to the curb if i didn't work her publicity. it is a privacy law problem. she wanted to make me a target, trying to force me to make her look good or else then she could just make up a story about me like saying that i wasn't good enough for her or for the public. she plays evil childish mind games. she started it out by trying to make it seem like she was accepted but that i wasn't. she knew that people would attack me if she made a statement about me because she knows that they don't like her. i know that she did do this on TMZ, but i would like confirmation. that would be the decent thing to do. i feel violated. i would also like $150 back. she ruined the spirit of christmas but that will be her problem and not everyone else's problem.


paris hilton has created a national/global security problem WHICH SHE DOESN'T FIX. black women or black people are using this situation involving hilton as a way of creating division in society, which means that they are beginning to try to recruit people in order to fight over money and resources. it is like they are holding people hostage, threatening them to do something for them or else. paris hilton holds people hostage too. she is the one who is unpopular. but the media is a fake, superficial, evil industry... so she thinks that she will benefit. she is fake. her family is fake. her husband is fake. she must lie to him or intentionally deceive him about the true nature of me or what has transpired. i know that she intentionally misleads him. i can't see how any guy would want the public to think that he liked a girl who has hurt so many innocent people all over the world. obviously he doesn't know what she has done or is doing. she doesn't want him to know. i'm not the one who dragged this on. i just wanted to take care of business back in 2008. real simple. hilton dragged it on because she wants to use me for publicity. she plays dirty publicity games, pretending as if she doesn't like this shit.

it seems as if paris hilton is intentionally giving black people the opportunity to lie about me and this situation. it seems like paris hilton wants to hurt black people (who have probably fucked with her mail) and wants to hurt me and wants to give black people the opportunity to hurt me and wants me to hurt black people. it is stupid crap every day in public and i don't deserve it at all. paris hilton is childish, weird, greedy, irresponsible and cruel. she is a problem for national/global security. and she really doesn't care. like the cheesy 'simple life'. like it is all a big joke to her, with her stupid hand bag dogs and creepy fake smile.

she really doesn't care about her reputation because of the way which she manipulated the media with her family's money.

it is really really disturbing to think that the media would make a "star" out of hilton when she r