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the black women who recently (today is 9/17/22) stole my niece's birthday card and $20 cash are childish, evil, stupid and mean. they have been childish, evil, stupid and mean many times, and the community is sick of it. they try to wrongfully defame me because they have gotten themselves into social trouble since 2008. they like it when i defend myself on the internet, because then they think that they have something to lie about, or some excuse to play dumb and be lazy. they try to get people to play make believe with them, like little children, lying about my intent, or my character. the black women who stole my mail are desperately trying to make it look like i was doing something wrong with money (paris hilton) and also that i am a white supremacist (thule.org), mixing 2 things together. i didn't do anything wrong with money, and didn't have an intent to do anything wrong with money, and i am not a white supremacist. some black women are pissed off and very very mean because i called a black woman who stupidly and childishly harassed me in 2008 a name. they also are trying to cover up for the fact that they think that they have made themselves look really bad, or that they are insecure, by wrongfully implying that i deserve to be harmed. i know that nice, smart black women are defending me. i was apologetic back in 2008, thinking that innocent black women got their feelings hurt. they have stolen my mail many times, wanting people to know that they were stealing my mail, implying that they can break the law, and that no one can do anything about it. they infected my blood when i was at a care facility with something which targeted my digestive tract, causing diverticulitis or diverticulosis. i needed 3 major surgeries in order to have the bad stuff removed, and for my colon to be resectioned. they wanted people to know that they did it, also implying that they can get away with it. these black women who act up have a serious attitude problem, and i didn't do anything to them, and i also showed them more genuine love than a white person would ordinarily do. they imply that they can break the law, and harm people, and that no one can do anything about it. they are the racists. they are the ones with hate in them. their problem is their own really weird insecurity; with them faking believing in what they are doing. they have weird childish psychological problems.

don't expect me to like everyone, especially when their intent was, or is, to harm people emotionally, spiritually and psychologically. don't expect me to like people who are not loving.

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in the past (1997 - 2007), when i wasn't high on speed (methamphetamine), hoping unrealistically that i could accomplish something great for the world with study, i would lay on my couch sort of lethargic, caught up in a horrible mixture of confused faith and hopelessness, for 4 or 5 days in-between weekly bouts of speed (methamphetamine) usage. have a heart. i went to george h. w. bush's office to just drop off mail, because the black guy, who i didn't know was an ignorant black guy in the past, confused me, making me think that maybe i had support from a public official, because maybe i was going to figure out something important for scientists with study, thinking that maybe something about this situation was prophesized. it was wishful thinking. i didn't want to believe that God was going to use me to create a big confused mess on earth. at that time, i was much more depressed, or sad, confused, with a feeling of isolation, etc. interesting that millions of people know about me in america, but that my family and psych doctors don't know about it. i was just dropping off mail at george h. w. bush's office, which would have just indicated that i was confused. i also wasn't interested in banks, or banking, or business, like this cheesy evil insecure negro creep, and a few cheesy dishonest black women, want ignorant people to think. the black guy, who i didn't know was an ignorant black guy, confused me, by playing unnecessary cheesy games, making me think that northern trust bank was important for the world, and that wealthy people were going to help all people, or all banks. he keeps stupidly trying to make ignorant people think that i did something unethical, when i didn't, because he is embarrassed, because he created a big mess. the paris hilton issue isn't important either. i wasn't a fan of paris hilton's. i felt sorry for her when i saw a photograph of her crying in the back of a police car when they were taking her to jail, back in 2007, so i wrote to her in jail, trying to cheer her up. then she unnecessarily, childishly and stupidly involved me with her in public. some crazy, mean spirited, childish, envious/jealous black women wanted to try to obstruct my happiness (which wasn't real happiness, i just didn't know that at the time), because i was (or am) happier than she could (or can) be, so i gave her a taste of her own medicine. the black woman who assaulted me was the one who was childishly fixated on money, or other people's money, trying to control people's money, and trying to prevent me from earing money, or being around people with money, because she thought that i had more potential than she did, and because it made her angry and confused. it was one black women who was the problem, and then they decided to spread stupid gossip, and now it has become your problem. or maybe not. why don't black women, and this black guy want to move on? please move on. what you have done, or are doing to the black community is sad.

i do have a criminal record, but never a conviction. 5 charges. 2 were dismissed. 3 were deferred adjudication, with my completing probation successfully all 3 times. it is all related to drugs and alcohol, and also confusion because of my unique situation. one argument which i can make is that people are in jail at this very moment, having been convicted of crimes much worse than i have ever committed, or than i ever would commit. i never dealt drugs, and i usually didn't get along with the people in the drug scene. they usually didn't like me, because i wasn't shady enough.

i relapsed with methamphetamine after 12 and 1/2 years of abstinence from hard drugs. i used twice, once at the end of 2020, and then once about 3 or 4 months later in the beginning of 2021. i cried both times after using. i am not going to use again, mostly because of the fact that i shared what happened with family members (sister and brother in law), and also think that i scared the middle man guy who i was getting the dope from away, because i told him that someone warned me. someone called my cell phone from a number which stated 'unavailable' when i went to get cash from the ATM, but not for dope, after i used the second time. i don't know who it was who did that, but i am grateful, because it helped me stay on track. i have using fantasies every once in a while, but i would NEVER do it again. i would have to tell my girlfriend, sister and brother in law, and they wouldn't be very happy about it. it would complicate my relationships with many people. it wouldn't even make me happy if i did the dope. it would be interesting for a few hours, but then i would become nervous and awkward. don't want to break the law. i am drinking a little too much alcohol right now, trying to dull the pain i am in. this mexican girl is trying to drive me to drink, in order to try to get me to drink myself to death, so that she thinks that she can have sex with someone after i am dead, some ignorant mexican guy, and say really mean untrue things about my character. it is really sick crap. i told my doctor that i was drinking too much, and he stated that there is medication which i can take which will help block the urge. i am not going to use illegal dope again.

the people who stupidly and blatantly lie about me want ignorant people to think that me explaining something, like what is above, means that i am nervous, or being defensive because i am guilty of something. nope. sorry. it is not that interesting. i am always honest, because i have to be. very simple. not evil either. actually, it is boring, and people lie about me, trying to make people think that something is more interesting than it is, or that they are more interesting that they are, because they want special treatment.

quite frankly, i am sick of this shit, and i am also sick of thinking of people who are socially lame. no, i'm not the one who is socially lame. i am reacting to people who are socially lame.

for the few black women who want people to know that they are playing childish, cruel games. life is not a game. it is real. it requires real work.

why do you imply that you should teach young black children hate, or that God is not a loving being, when i showed you more love than a white person ordinarily would have? don't lie either, stating that i did something wrong, when you know that i didn't.

don't play dumb. you play dumb because you are lazy or dishonest.

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i am not trying to intimidate people with information in the 'for your information' section of this website. it is meant to be informative. i let people know what i know about. it is meant to bring us together, so that everyone can understand something more objectively, or so that we are all in the same boat. i don't want to waste your time. people would complain if i kept things to myself. they would accuse me of doing something shady.

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the black people in america who are acting up have an attitude like thug african criminals who live in africa. very obnoxious. very sleazy. they imply that ugly attitude, unintelligent thug people are dominant, or are going to be dominant. they are going to lose. they flaunt being sleazy, trying to recruit sleazy people. like trump and his supporters.

the media needs to wake up, or realize what trump, his supporters, or people who want to copy trump are doing, or trying to do. they are manipulating the media. they intentionally commit stupid, weird acts, in order to get the media to state that they are stupid, weird acts, in order to create what some find to be a form of entertainment; with people inevitably tuning in for more. i do it myself, because i hate trump. they intentionally create sensationalism, which, fortunately or unfortunately is what the media is about, in order to get people to tune in for entertainment. it is not a form of governing. they think of it as a form of entertainment, knowing that the masses will want more entertainment, and will pay ($) for it by tuning their tv channels in.

a few black people mess with me, in order to try to get me to try to defend myself and the community, knowing that i will try to defend myself and the community, and also that they are making me do it while being confused, frustrated and angry, trying to make me unpopular (or so that i won't sell art work?). they like to try and fool people about my character. like pretending they have a reason to steal my mail. they made themselves unpopular, so they are trying to make me unpopular. dirty politics. i didn't sign up for dirty politics. i didn't know that i was going to have to engage in dirty politics. they try to make me look like an angry person, when i am not an angry person. you should be around me 24/7.

i don't want to discourage black people. it is really about encouraging black people to not follow the few who have blatantly behaved like savages.

i wouldn't goof off so much on my website (chuckle schmuck or anything else) if someone spoke to me, wanting me to know that they knew who i was, and that they wanted others to know that they wanted to speak with me in public. otherwise, i just want to be like the common man. i am not running for a political office. i am not qualified. there was confusion during jesus's time about whether he was to be a political messiah, or a spiritual messiah. he was young, and probably confused. in the past, during jesus's time on earth, because of less technology, there was less opportunity for things to go "wrong". no tv. no books. no bible. no methamphetamine. no alcohol. no cars. no DWIs. no arrests for drug possession. no computers. no website. no telephones.

this mexican girl who has been causing the community problems for years is always stupidly implying that men are supposed to like girls who make them tense and uncomfortable, like a dumb dominatrix, like she is implying that she thinks that girls are stupid and annoying. she isn't my wife or girlfriend, and i don't want her as my wife or girlfriend. i have a girlfriend, and she is humble and smart. this mexican girl seems to want to make a joke of the fact that a girl makes everyone tense and uncomfortable all of the time, or that they are too childish to be able to take serious work seriously. she is an evil, greedy, lazy, obnoxious, coward gold digger, who is blatantly fake about caring more about work than anyone else, like she is always making a sick joke about the fact that this is what she is, and that she really doesn't care about work, and that she is trying to hustle her way into something. she is giving everyone attitude because she is trying to make mexican guys think that the reason that she has an obnoxious attitude, is because she has good looks. she is stupid, because the mexican guys can pick another girl who has good looks, and who is sweet/humble. she has an attitude, like "isn't it funny that i am a cheesy fake gold digger. hehe?" she intentionally creates a problem every day, because she doesn't want me to be popular, thinking that it will complicate her sex life, or also trying to trick ignorant people into thinking that people are making up stories about the situation, so that she can try to lie her way out of trouble, or so that she can get a thrill from being evil. really. she implies that men have to work for women, or give them money and take care of them, and that the woman is supposed to make the man tense and uncomfortable, and not give a damn about the man's feelings, like she is making a stupid cheesy joke about how she has this attitude about relationships. she doesn't believe in herself, as far as being in a relationship, and building a partner up goes, so she acts stupid. she is childish and needy. she also has a weird anger problem, or a weird meanness problem. violent and sadistic. this, coupled with the fact that she is greedy and dishonest, is a very bad combination.

a few people won't allow me to rest, like simple peace which people need in order to be healthy and functional. they get a sick childish thrill from bullying me, stalking me, wanting the public to know that they get a sick thrill from bullying me, stalking me in public, implying that they can get away with it. i have been bullied in public for 14 years. i think that you can tell that it affects my behavior on the internet. in a way i would rather die, than to allow these cheesy, socially lame, brutal weirdos to be able to get the sick thrill which they get, wanting the public to know that they like to bully me, and other people, implying that they can get away with it. i don't intend to attempt suicide. i did attempt it in the past, but now i think that it would hurt the community more than help it, because of how blatantly disrespectful a few of these people have been.

this situation is sort of like when you show up to a job, and the people don't already know each other, or have not already done work together, and a few of them are not brave, acting stupid and lazy, childishly making fun of the people who act like they really care about doing work, or who take initiative. some people don't believe in themselves, so they don't try, thinking that it will get them nowhere, or because they can't imagine themselves to be something great. i encourage everyone to try. just knowing that you tried makes a big difference in your confidence, and your ability to become involved in different things, with different people.

this situation reveals something very ugly about human behavior. i don't mean mine. imagine what would happen if a famous person in media or hollywood or whatever was exposed, without security. someone who was unique. there would be problems. it is a no brainer. people are stalking me, wanting others to know that they get a thrill from it, and that they want other people to join in with them. really lame and a little scary. they are also stalking you. i don't want to seem like the one who is stalking you.

i would like for someone to try to officially protect me, in public. if you don't want to do that, then leave me alone, and quit stupidly gossiping about me.

this mexican girl fakes being strong, or thinking that she is strong because she wants a strong mexican guy to give her something, but it doesn't matter, because a strong mexican guy will figure out really quickly that she is not strong. lol. she also doesn't want mexican guys to think that i am strong. she can't build. she was, or is, not patient and caring enough to build. she is pathetic. she is panicking all of the time, but trying to play it off in a really cheesy fake way that she is cool. she didn't want mexican guys to think that she was or is showing me love in public, because she thinks that it will complicate her ability to get with a guy. some black women did or do the same thing, because of black guys. they think that it will make other guys jealous or envious or whatever. they want to spend too much time unnecessarily gossiping about me. these can't build, or don't care about building. they only care about sex and money for themselves.

this mexican girl and these few black women/black guy are like dogs, or animals who are viciously fighting other animals over food, or blankets, or because they think that the other animals have more (happiness, peace, confidence) than they do. they are insecure, envious, greedy. it was all totally unnecessary. they are insecure, publicly, so they started to flip out.

these few people who you know about already from me, and from other people, are blatantly obstructing people's lives. ignorant people really don't understand how bad this is. we can't develop spiritually because of them. they would rather make everyone miserable or unattractive, rather than to leave people alone, so that some people seemed happier or more attractive than other people. it is extremely childish and selfish of them to do this. the problem has mostly been with girls. they gossip too much.

leave me alone. i will be here every few thousand years, or every few days to God. not important. there is probably a way to predict when it will happen again. this is one of the reasons that i would like scientists and people who understand esoteric aspects of the bible to be involved. why wouldn't you want people, including world leaders, including future world leaders, to be briefed on this? if the police and government would be bold, then there wouldn't be social problems, which will be end up also being social problems for the police and government.

it seems like some girls don't want to nurture a man publicly, because they think that he will be stronger than they are, or than they can be. they have to make themselves strong. i don't want special treatment. i just want to be shown a very basic amount of respect. leave me and my family alone. in other words, some girls don't want this to gain momentum for one man, because they think that the other men won't have as much momentum. they are also afraid of work. what it really means is that they don't want to think of male dominance, i think because they think that they will have to work harder than they want to work.

i am not the one who is stupidly complaining. i am complaining about the people who are stupidly complaining. they pretend as if they have an excuse to play dumb, and be lazy. if that is what they want to do, then fine, but they shouldn't be surprised when other people get ahead of them, or stay ahead of them.

people didn't act as like missionaries until a few people betrayed me and the community. a few evil people tried, or still try to spread crap, which the good guys stopped, because the evil people couldn't keep up with the good people. that is how tribes broke into tribes in the past (native americas, africa, etc.). the people who betrayed me and the community put their own personal, evil, greedy interests above the general welfare of the community. some people stupidly and unnecessarily gossip about me because they want to be thought of as more than i am, or more than God, but this doesn't mean that i am stuck up. they want to be thought of as superior, while being blatantly ungodlike at the same time. some issue or problem with their own concept about their own acceptance.

i was just walking my dog around my town home complex, and saw something about paris hilton which looks recent on someone's tv in their living room, and it is really really confusing to think that someone so childish and disrespectful could get so much attention. she confused me so bad publicly, because of the way this unique situation is, with her childishness, thoughtlessness, and disrespect (actually cruelty), also confusing so many people all over the world, very badly. it is so horribly confusing, with many people feeling so violated, to think that someone who has harmed so many people so badly, knowing that she has harmed so many people so badly, could put on this fake "i'm so great, everything is so great, my life is so great" crap. she would want people to think that i couldn't keep up with her, or that she was more social than i was. no. that's not it. she and her family couldn't keep up with Christ, or with God, and they know that they are crap, but put on a fake act. it is very painful to have to go through this, and paris hilton seems to get a sick thrill from it. it makes me so confused, like it gives me a sick feeling. makes me so angry. she puts on this act like she is so cool, and it is so fake. she wanted to give me hoops to jump through, publicly, for her and her creepy, lurking sister's own amusement, constantly, 24/7, in some really weird, childish, sadistic way. some girls are nice. some girls are not. she is evil. she and her sister are both weak, childish lurkers, who want ignorant people to think that they are more interesting than they are. their husbands are dorks. their dad is a dork. paris hilton wanted people to think that she was the star, and that i was not, or that she is the star, and that i am not. actually, no. it is a very simple matter concerning geometry, or physics, which would clearly indicate that she is not the star, and that i am. she is not a star, but she makes money off of her family's name and wealth. she and her family make me sick, like little weird spoiled children in a candy store . she treated me and other people so disrespectfully, that she tries to make it seem like we are the problem, when we are not the problem. she wants people to think that i want to take up her time, when i don't, and when really she is the one who wanted to take up everyone's time, because of what she doesn't do. she wanted to put the focus on her, but tries to trick everyone like a con artist would, that i want to put the focus on me. i just want my $150 back, and i also want to know if she went on TMZ television in october of 2008, referring to me by name (and also occupation???, i wouldn't have allowed her to do that!), because it common courtesy to let me know. also a security issue. many people don't like her. i haven't watch TMZ in about 14 years, but she would probably want people thinking that i watch it all of the time. her husband might be like "hey man, why don't you leave her alone?!" to which i would say "hey man, why don't you tell her to leave me and everyone else alone?! why don't you tell her to leave you alone?! oh, yeah, because you like her childishly fucking with you, don't you, thinking that this is fascinating, because you are childish too!" he stupidly wants to believe that i will make him and his wife powerful. why does he do that? because she stupidly wants him to think that. she uses me, and wants to use me, but wanting people to think that i want to use her, or that i unnecessarily want something to do with her, when she is the one who unnecessarily wants something to do with me. i just want my money and fucking dignity back, you selfish uncaring jerk! i feel threatened by paris hilton, her husband and her entire family, because she doesn't clean up the mess which she made. it is not offering a very very basic amount of respect and support to the person who has to support everyone, so it doesn't make any sense, does it? she understands this, and is stupidly amused by it, wanting ignorant people to think that i was the one who was no good. she has been a problem since 2008, and she won't clean up her mess. why? because she doesn't want to acknowledge that she created a mess, or that she is a messy, childish person, because she is a cheesy coward who fakes thinking that she is cool. superficial crap.

i didn't want to get mixed up with her. it is embarrassing to think that people think that i wanted to get mixed up with her. she ruined the party, because she doesn't clean up her mess. it wouldn't matter if i had privacy, but i don't have privacy. she created a problem for the public, and she doesn't fix it. very hurtful. she pretended as if she wanted to give me power, while actually wanting to take power away from me, or from men. she does the same thing with her husband. this doesn't mean that i am a weirdo, who wants her. i just want to call an evil childish user b!#ch out for what she is. what i really want is $150 back, and to know if she went on TMZ in october of 2008, referring to me by name. not because i think that the TMZ makes me someone, but to establish order in the community.

she is provoking me, but is playing dumb. she is trying to make me look bad, by frustrating me, knowing that i will become angry, because what she is doing is weird and cruel, because she thinks that she made herself and her sister look bad. the hilton sisters turned out to be really childish and dumb, but they are so rich that they don't care, or cover up their stupidly with superficial fake crap.

paris hilton is involved in a cover up, and she also involved her family in the cover up.

she is like a person who knocks you off of a ledge in public, by playing childish, irresponsible games, and then just looks "down" at you with a stupid look on her face, while you are hanging on to the ledge with your arms and hands, and doesn't even say kindly "oh God, i'm sorry, let me help.", helping you up in front of every one (sending $150 back to me + telling me if she went on TMZ, referring to me by name), leading by example, demonstrating BASIC respect and kindness.

she once stated that her dumb blonde image is a gimmick. she is so cheesy.

she has hurt so many children all over the world, creating so much constant unnecessary confusion and pain.

i will so be happy when i die, when i don't have to think about paris hilton anymore. or i would be happy if i would find out that she died, but i am definitely not trying to get someone to murder her.

these girls who caused, or who still cause problems were not humble, or didn't want to submit. it is not about dominance. it is about submission. you know, i don't see any girls working at construction sites, doing very difficult work like the men do. do you know why? because they are not willing to submit, like the men do.


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i deleted a considerable amount of data from this section of this website about 1 month ago. today is 9/18/22. i have all of it saved to a word processing file on my computer. i had deleted information 4 or 5 times, because i am sick of all of the negativity. i am a positive person, but it was, or still is, important for me to try to protect the community. it is important for me to have something about this situation here on my website, but i don't need to engage in the stupid argument which a few other people wanted to engage in. there is nothing to argue about. it was not just an argument. i was, and still am, letting people know that there is a problem, not wanting it to spread in the community. i want to do my part, but there is a problem. i know that i am being sensed constantly 24/7, and that those people who are sensing me are communicating about this situation to others with electronic communication. so it is already a public situation. in other words, i felt, or still fell, obligated to try to do something good for the community. sort of like i was telling you (confused/determined) "i'm trying, i'm trying, i'm trying". i really can't be a healthy aspect of the community, unless someone officially protects me, or shows me a little love, publicly, so that i can function properly, or more normally, and really be a healthy aspect of the community. i am not healthy. people don't want me to be more popular than they are, so they intentionally make me unhealthy, like it is a childish sick game. this is what happens when people think that they can get away with stalking or harassing a public person. the people who are obstructing are trying to make ignorant people think that people are making up stories about there being a problem, it seems like because they are trying to fool ignorant people into thinking that we want money. i have more security in my life than most people have. i would like to earn a little money from art work if i can, in order to fix up my home. i would also like to work at at grocery store part time. i have a job currently, working for my step father's brother at his ranch, when most people would not work at all. people keep stupidly lying about me and money, because they don't have anything else to lie about. they lie, stating both that i had some unethical intent about money, which i didn't, while also lying, stating that i don't want to work. they try to disguise their own greed, by trying to trick ignorant people into thinking that they have honor, when they actually don't. these people want to make a very cruel, very weird mockery of an honest person who likes to work. they can't keep up with me, so they pretend as if they think that i am something other than what i am, so that they think that they have an excuse to not do work, or try to keep up.

part of the reason that i write so much is because i am trying to cope with a difficult situation, publicly. people try to separate me from the public, or having friends, or socializing, by trying to confine me to them. i don't like them. they are weird, childish stalkers. sadistic. psychological problems. they will continue to do damage to me and the community if the government or police don't get involved. i want to think of other people, or think that i can be with other people, because i really don't like the people who blatantly stalk me, like they want people to think of it as a creepy, weird, childish game. i wish that someone who knows who i am would communicate to me in front of others so that i could cope better. it is very painful. people are getting a sick thrill from creating this pain for not only me, but the entire community. they are not loving people. they want to make a mockery of christ, or what christ is known to have done (peace), because of their envy. they don't have the unique ability to create in the way which i do, and it seem to make them angry, wanting to destroy, like little children.

the very few people who are acting up are weird, childish psychopaths. socially lame. personality disorders. social problems. identity problems. they don't want people to think that i am having a good time, so they obstruct, making a very cruel childish game of it, since they think that no one will officially, publicly protect me. this is a public situation, so people who are not having fun, or who are not fun people, don't want people to think of me having a good time, or me being a fun person, or anyone else having a good time, because they think that it complicates their lives, because they think that they can't do the same thing.

this situation is helping to illustrate how society already was, or is divided into good people and bad people. it doesn't divide because i am bad. it divides because i am a decent, friendly person, and because some other people are not. people should quit stupidly gossiping about me, or implying that i should be stupidly gossiped about. quit unnecessarily involving me in your lives, unless you want to make an international story about me on tv news. then there would be something to communicate about. a few people's stupid, unnecessary aggression means that they want to gossip about me. leave me alone, unless you want to make an international story about me on tv news. the police could certify it.

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don't take the videos in the 'chuckle schmuck' section of this website too seriously. i am goofy. i am being facetious.

i don't want the police to feel humiliated, because of the smokey and the bandit video clip ('chuckle schmuck' video clip # 2). it is not my intent to make the police feel humiliated, or not appreciated, or not respected. i have great respect for police officers. it is a very difficult job, which most people would never think about signing up for, and usually there are no problems with arrests. i feel as if it is important for me to emphasize that i have freedom, like the freedom to make jokes or be silly, but i don't think that i can do anything i want to, and that it doesn't matter.

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people really don't know what i am like, by just looking at my website. you would take it out of context. i am a humble person at heart, but also have a bit of a wild side. more humble than wild. the reason that i feel comfortable being a little bit wild in public, is because i know that people know that i am actually a humble person at heart.

why don't you quit communicating about me, unless you want to make an international story on tv news, with the police certifying a test, confirming that my central nervous system is fused with a few other people's? then there would be something to communicate about. don't waste your lives stupidly gossiping about frivolous crap. the fact that a few people are being stupidly aggressive means that they want to unnecessarily involve me in their lives.

it seems as if people want to find out what i am going to do, or who i am, but without respectfully engaging me in something civil and interesting. what i honestly think is that it seems like you want to set me up for "failure", because it is more socially convenient for you that way.

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curiosity killed the cat. don't be the cat.

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i don't know what to make of this. interesting. i think that the first thing that i would do, if given a chance on tv, is to have the host of the live tv show try to memorize each of the cross references. lol.

https://www.biblehub.com/matthew/7-6.htm

here is something about it. i do not mean that i necessarily agree with it, but i find it interesting. if this were a ordinary situation, i would just walk away, and leave the person who i didn't like alone. they won't leave me alone, because of the way which they can get to me, so i end up communicating about the situation more than a person ordinarily would.

https://www.biblestudytools.com/commentaries/gills-exposition-of-the-bible/matthew-7-6.html

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don't expect me to really work, or to do a good job, when you don't even officially give me a job. not only do you not officially give me a job, wanting to believe that this is official, you don't protect me from A FEW weirdos in the community, so that i end up going crazy, from extreme to extreme. i am a happy loving person by nature. but i am being stalked, by people who are not happy and loving, who don't want people to know me as happy and loving. ok? i don't want to be angry all of the time, but people are intentionally provoking me, making me literally mentally sick every day, all day long.

it is like a good engineer worker would think, or state, "well of course he couldn't have done a good job, if the worker was sick, or the equipment wasn't being properly maintained..."

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don't expect me to change the world, unless you let all of the world know that i am here, just as predicted, at the exact time, backing it up with the courts and police, in one swift statement. you probably wouldn't do that, in part because you want to stupidly make it about religion and not science.

i think that if the police or government give a statement, people will believe you. you can also prove it. put people on the honor system. you would be surprised at what you would get out of them. the government could just say that i am here, and that there is evidence that a few people have been, or are harassing him, and that it shouldn't happen, and that there is no evidence that i am involved in anything illegal. real simple.

i get confused between being in constant 24/7 activity with a small group of people who know me really well, knowing that i am harmless but quirky, and the rest of everyone out there who i am not as close to, or not constantly intimate with. sometimes i think that it is all the same, or ok if i am silly like i am most of the time, and i am sorry if i confuse you sometimes, but the reality is that i am stuck in a unusual situation which confuses my actions. if someone who wanted me to know in front of everyone else that they knew who i was, would communicate to me, showing me a little love, making me feel more accepted, ensuring me that everything was ok, or going to be ok, then my behavior would change. i like to tease girls, but it really applies to the girls who i am stuck with constantly 24/7, funny relationship, and i get mixed up about what they are doing or what communication is going on beyond that, and i don't want to harm girls psychologically. sorry if i have confused you. what is the alternative? no birds and bees? no silliness? a monk, who you probably wouldn't trust or respect, because he didn't have experience?

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please use technology in order to better this situation, or to teach the community about me + 144,000 existence, and to make everyone the same (related to me). don't take technology for granted. think of yourselves as like technological aryans, or technological whatever. technology is technology, whether it be a level, a hammer, a television camera, a flying saucer, law books, history books, computers, etc. don't complain about whatever you think about technological aryans, whatever that is (worldwide), and then not use technology, now, while you can, to balance it out, making a story about me + 144,000. compete. don't underestimate yourselves.

the idea about the use of technology is to let people know about me + 144,000. document this event. it will protect you from potential tyranny in the future, like a future hypothetical king herod. the idea is to give me or everyone, power, or acknowledgement, or respect. do you know what is protecting you right now? the bible. the documentation of jesus christ. don't take it for granted. if you don't document it this time, there can potentially be something worse next time. create order. i wouldn't be going on about this if a few people hadn't proven themselves to be unfriendly, or selfish, or disrespectful, or unloving. the thought is like the thought of a good teacher or leader in school, introducing a new student of the class to the rest of the students. it is common courtesy and loving.

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people need to know that i don't know what to do. i have not known what to do since 1997. earlier, i thought that MAYBE i knew what i was supposed to do, working on number/science stuff because of the change in weather, but i really don't think now that is what it means, or meant, or that i will make any difference in weather science information. i have always been as honest as i could be about everything which i knew about, thinking that i should be open and straightforward. plus it helps me to relax when i am not thinking that i am keeping things to myself in this unusual public situation. i am also unusually mentally challenged, but not schizophrenic, like my ignorant doctors think i am. all that i think that i should do is to be honest about what i know, and also obey the law. i am in the same boat as everyone else. that is why i am honest about what i know, thinking that we all have to figure it out together, and work with each other. i am not about hating people, but i don't like it when people are mean to me, or to others.
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one time my dad worked as a hamburger cook, and the manager of the eatery was giving him a stupid hard time, so my dad made some hamburgers, took a bite out of each one, wrapped them up, served them to the customers, and then quit the job.

how do you like me now?

lol. actually my dad is a humble worker. the reference work is impressive.

https://www.amazon.com/Pharmacology-Hydroxyethyl-Starch-Therapy-publications/dp/0192612395

https://www.researchgate.net/publication/246742487_Pharmacology_of_Hydroxyethyl_Starch_John_M_Mishler

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i have fear, just like i know that other people have fear. they may not want to talk about the fear which they have, but they should. we should all talk about it. why should we have to be afraid, at least when it isn't necessary? i don't like it when some people want to act so "cool", that they imply that they do not have human feelings which are normal to have.

believe it or not, i fear God. a person who knows that he is constantly being observed would fear God. sort of like not wanting to look like you are sitting around, doing nothing when your boss comes into the room when you are at work. i do so much work (which i have to do to remain sane), and make so much effort (which i have to do to remain sane), which is not understood by people who are not observing me. my work on the internet really doesn't give you a good idea of what it is like. i also love God, because i know that he loves me.

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you could think of me as like a king, who comes after a king, who has good qualities and bad qualities, just like my predecessor, in the same way which people already conceptualize a royal lineage. in a current incarnation, i am the new king (son). in my next incarnation, my current incarnation will be the old king (father). i think like Osiris / Horus in Egypt.

it should be celebrated; meaning, if people were to really understand its' regular occurrence, and that people should not unnecessarily or stupidly interfere. i have already suggested that you attempt to have my put to sleep peacefully with a government backed medical procedure, and showing me, my family, the 144,000, and the community some respect by making it public. i think that they could give me general anesthesia, and then stop my heart. if you don't want to do that, or try to make an international story about me on tv news, educating the community, which includes future leaders, then leave me (and everyone else) alone. i am interested in creating something peaceful for myself, and for the community. i have already tried to commit suicide, and it was interfered with, because someone wanted to make up blatantly stupid stories about me not having honor or being lazy. full stop.

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i hope that racist white people don't start thinking that they should give people of color abrasive, cold looks, or non verbal communication gestures, because of the 'technological aryan' file in the 'miscellaneous files' section of this website. not the other way around either. the DNA spread all over the world. they wanted to have children, in order to continue the work.

i am not stating that people should have more children. i recommend to families that they should not have children, or limit it to only one child. people can also adopt a child. government(s) should not let the population get out of control next time, or after the next glacial period, if possible. they need to know that they need to keep population, taxes and infrastructure in balance with the climate. difficult task, but not impossible to improve.

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i got these emails about 1 or 2 weeks ago. creepy. today is 10/3/22. i did not attempt to open a bank account with bank of america, and i did not give bank of america my email address.

i think that childish, evil, dishonest, disrespectful, sadistic black women are responsible for this. if so, they are the ones who lack value. i think that they are implying that anyone who makes money through art, or in a unique way, like as a photographer, or like as a writer, even though i am not wanting to write anymore, should be hated, or that anyone who has money should be hated, or that anyone who purchases my artwork should be hated, or that people are not allowed to purchase my art work if they want to, or that they are threatening anyone who purchases artwork from me, or that people should feel sorry for black people because they typically have less money. i don't bank at bank of america. it would be the world bank. lol. i think what it really means is that some black girls are implying that i am not allowed to be loved, or appreciated, publicly. they have proven themselves time and time again to have a weird childish psychological problem, and anger problem. or envy problem. they want me to be hated, and i didn't even do anything to them. in fact, i showed them more love than a white person ordinarily would have, publicly, even after they violated me and everyone else. it seems like they want to harm me, and other people, while implying that no one can do anything about it, or prove it. this is what they have done for years.

i don't have to like or love or respect all black women, just because of the past slavery issue in the united states. some of them imply that you have to respect them, or love them, even if they act in an ugly, disrespectful way. quite frankly i am sick of them. they wanted or want me to hate them publicly, so that they can try to make people feel sorry for them and not like me. they try to interfere with my relationships because of weird envy.




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if people want to criticize me, then i would like to see you try to do what i have to do. no privacy 24/7, never getting a break, knowing that you will never get a break, and people are blatantly disrespectful or cruel to you, wanting you to know that they are trying to generate crap on the internet. what am i supposed to do? commit suicide so that i can have some dignity? i am not going to try to commit suicide again.

black women are childish and cruel. i don't want to be in a relationship with them. i want to be in a relationship with my nice sweet white girlfriend. do you understand? get out of my life, black bitch. what do you want me to say, that i hate you? because i do. even if you didn't do this thing with bank of america, which i think that you did do, and which i think that you wanted me and everyone else to think you did, you have done blatantly harmful things to me, and to the community in general, wanting people to know that you enjoy it. it is YOUR hated of white people, or just people who are happier than you are, in general, including happy black people. it was or is YOUR hate, and not mine, and guess what, now i hate you. you play cruel childish sleazy mind games. black women in africa are sweeter than black women in america. bye bye.

if i knew of something on the internet, which indicated that people were in agreement about past, or present black female hate, childishness and cruelty, then i wouldn't feel the need to try to do all of the work by myself. i really want black people to be ok. i don't like mean, childish, ugly attitude black women. many people don't.

they like to try to intimidate people, wanting to be sneaky, implying that they can get away with it, like "oh you can't say nothin', even if i do be nasty and ugly..." they think they like con artists or hustlers on the street. sleazy low class criminal attitude. they are also trying to control black men, implying that they won't give them none, unless they act like they like ugly attitude, childish mean black women, instead of a sweet, honest white boy. in other words, they try to boss black men around like "you gotta like me, no matter what..."

why don't you just kill me, so that i don't have to think about these girls anymore? paris hilton, a few black women, mexican girl.

these few people who are acting up, are sending a childish signal to anyone who they think will do what they want them to do, which is like (panicking/greedy) "make it about stupid childish people, not smart people... (panicking/greedy) make it about stupid childish people, not smart people... (panicking/greedy) make it about stupid childish people, not smart people..." they are like Fox news people, compared to CNN people. they could start a tv cable channel called 'sleazetv'.

this mexican girl wants ignorant mexican guys to think that she has an excuse to obstruct my life, because she is worried that a ignorant mexican guy who she will want to have sex with or try to get money from won't like her, or respect her, if he knows that i was cool and happy and productive. or she is worried that he will think that he is less of a man, compared to me, if i don't have unnecessary stupid obstructions all day long every day. i don't think that mexican guys care, as long as i am not causing a problem for them, or wanting to cause a problem for them. i don't want to cause a problem for them. she is a stupid Cabeza hueca, or la jai. malo. no amiga. no Corazon.

i am worried about what is happening this time, but really more worried about what is going to happen next time. the people who are the problem are like uncivil thug gangster people, who stupidly, unnecessarily want to involve me in their lives because of their greed or envy. grow up and get your own life. i totally understand if ignorant people would think, "why don't you do something besides sit at your computer?" i try to, and am blatantly harassed, stalked and obstructed, with the people doing it wanting others to communicate about it to others. like little children who are angry because they don't want to have to do work.

i do other things besides sit at my computer, but you are not sensing it. computer time is about 15 or 30 minutes in one day. that means 23 hours and 30 minutes which you are not observing.

i want to be dr. seven, seven, zero, two, four.... i can punch paris hilton in the nose, giving her a good nose job.

GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY LIFE NIGGER, OR NIGGERS! EVERY MORNING YOU ASSAULT ME AND THE COMMUNITY, BEING REAL SLEAZY AND CREEPY ABOUT IT, WANTING TO MESS ME UP FOR THE ENTIRE DAY, LIKE IT IS A GAME TO YOU EVERY DAY! YOU ARE WANTING TO MAKE ME AND THE COMMUNITY FEEL THREATENED BY SLEAZY LOW CLASS BLACK PEOPLE! YOUR THREAT IS A BLUFF! YOU DON'T HAVE POWER, BUT YOU WANT PEOPLE TO THINK THAT YOU HAVE POWER! THESE PEOPLE WON'T GET OUT OF MY HOME, AND OTHER PEOPLE'S HOMES, LIKE MY GIRLFRIEND'S HOME!

DO YOU UNDERSTAND, "BY ANY MEANS NECESSARY", NIGGER? YOU WANT TO HARM ME? I AM GOING TO HARM YOU, DUMB UGLY NIGGER, SO THAT JUSTICE IS SERVED, OR SO THAT THERE IS BALANCE. WHY DON'T YOU CALL ME MALCOLM MISHLER? OR JOSHUA X? THEN THESE DUMB CHILDISH WEIRD NIGGERS WANT IGNORANT PEOPLE TO THINK THAT I DESERVE TO BE HARMED. OH NO I DON'T! IT IS JUST A BUNCH OF WEIRD BLACK HATE AND RAGE, BECAUSE YOU THINK THAT YOU ARE INFERIOR, OR BECAUSE YOU THINK THAT YOU MADE YOURSELVES LOOK BAD SINCE 2008. YOU ARE TRYING TO FABRICATE EVIDENCE TO USE AGAINST ME, TRYING TO COVER UP THE FACT THAT YOU THINK THAT YOU ARE THE PROBLEM.

"BY ANY MEANS NECESSARY' COULD MEAN THAT I TAKE A CAN OF SPRAY PAINT TO AN INNOCENT BLACK PERSON'S CAR AT THE SHOPPING MALL. YA FEEL ME?

INTERESTING, HOW YOU CAN BE NICE TO BLACK PEOPLE, BUT THEY ARE NOT NICE IN RETURN, WANTING TO INSULT YOU BECAUSE OF THEIR RAGE AND INSECURITY ABOUT THEIR OWN THOUGHT ABOUT HOW YOU ARE CIVIL AND THEY ARE NOT. THEY THINK THAT THEY ARE MORE LIKE ANIMALS, SO IT MAKES THEM ANGRY! THEY ARE PROVOKING ME, FOR THEIR OWN WEIRD CHILDISH LAME AMUSEMENT, BECAUSE THEY LACK INTELLIGENCE, AND ARE BORING, AND THINK THAT THEY NEED ME TO ENTERTAIN THEM. GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME AND EVERYONE ELSE NIGGER! FUCK YOU AND YOUR ENTERTAINMENT WITH YOUR INTERNET, NIGGERS! I WAS NICE TO YOU, BUT YOU ARE NOT NICE BACK!

FUCK PARIS HILTON'S STUPID CONCEPT OF ENTERTAINMENT TOO, BECAUSE THAT IS WHAT SHE WANTED. SHE IS EVIL, TRYING TO MAKE IT LOOK LIKE I AM THE ONE WHO WANTED TO GO ON ABOUT HER, WHEN SHE IS THE ONE WHO WANTED ME TO GO ON ABOUT HER. I WILL GO ON ABOUT HER, AND I WILL TELL HER AND HER FAMILY TO FUCK OFF. EAT GOLD PLATED SHIT, AND DIE! I WANT MY $150 BACK!

THE PRESIDENT OF THE UNITED STATES SHOULD MAKE A STATEMENT, STATING THAT THERE IS A PROBLEM!

THESE CREATURES ARE TORTURING PEOPLE FOR FUN, OR FOR THEIR OWN AMUSEMENT, WANTING PEOPLE TO COMMUNICATE ABOUT IT WITH ELECTRONIC COMMUNICATION. THEY ARE SADISTICALLY PERVERTED. ALIENS OF SOME TYPE. IT IS UGLY PSYCHOLOGICAL TORTURE. IT IS A FORM OF TORTURE. MY CLAIM CAN BE VALIDATED BY OTHER PEOPLE. A MEXICAN GIRL WHO I BELIEVE STILL LIVES IN HOUSTON (I KNOW WHAT I AM COMMUNICATING ABOUT!) IS ALSO ONE OF THESE CREATURES. THERE ARE 2 OF THEM; MEANING, A BLACK MAN AND A MEXICAN FEMALE. THEY ARE TRYING TO INTIMIDATE PEOPLE, BECAUSE THEY THINK THAT THEY DON'T HAVE POWER, OR THAT OTHER PEOPLE HAVE MORE POWER THAN THEY DO. THEY ARE INSECURE AND CRAZY. THEY ARE TRYING TO MAKE IT LOOK LIKE I AM CRAZY. I AM NOT CRAZY. I AM A COOL PERSON WHO IS BEING STALKED IN PUBLIC, AND I KNOW THAT I LACK PRIVACY AND THAT PEOPLE ARE COMMUNICATING ABOUT THIS ON THE INTERNET OR WHATEVER, SO I AM DESPERATELY TRYING TO PROTECT THE COMMUNITY. IGNORANT PEOPLE WOULD BE SURPRISED AT HOW LAME AND MEAN SOME PEOPLE CAN BECOME, WHEN SOMEONE IS GETTING MORE ATTENTION THAN THEY ARE, OR WHEN THEY FEEL AS IF SOMEONE IS MORE LOVED THAN THEY ARE.

THE PRESIDENT OF THE UNITED STATES SHOULD MAKE A STATEMENT, AS A PSYCHOLGICAL DETERRENT. IT IS PSYCHOLOGICAL WARFARE. THAT IS WHAT THESE ALIENS ENGAGE IN. EVEN IF WE CAN'T STOP THEM FROM BEING AGGRESSIVE, THERE SHOULD BE A STATEMENT MADE ABOUT IT.

people want to know what the fuck is going on? i'll tell you what the fuck is going on. i'm being attacked by weirdos in public, who want the public knowing that it excites them to harm a peaceful, spiritual person psychologically in public. actually, they are attacking everyone, knowing that ignorant people don't understand what they are doing. negative aliens who want power or psychological control. this has been going on very bad for 10 years. they are making me mentally sick every day. i really don't want negative things posted on my website, but because of the fact that i lack privacy, and that this is an unusual public situation, i am trying to protect the public. if someone would tell me, "relax, it is ok, they know and it is ok...", then i would know that there was understanding and public support. don't make this about going to church o sunday or jesus christ or religious dogma! make it about a decent human being, right now, like any other famous or well known person, who has feelings, and who is being stalked by childish psychopathic creeps, publicly.

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i didn't want to make the president of the united states feel uneasy, by letting him and the public know that i corresponded with him. i am a citizen of the united states, and i have a right to correspond with people, just as other people do. i think that it is better, if people are not wondering if people know something or not. i would rather keep it somewhat informal; hence, "happy halloween! lol!". actually, you can research all saints day and all souls day, as it corresponds to the time of halloween. i'll get to work if you put me to work. i am mentally sick right now. i don't work in an efficient way, because i am not at rest. protect me and the community, or at least try to.

it is better that i used the term 'nigger'. i don't like it, but i will use it.

a few ugly attitude, mean stupid, totally full of shit, angry black black women wanted to take black people back to the 60s or 70s, and i didn't even do anything to them. this black guy is the same way. maybe this statement will help black people make progress. some of them didn't care about progress, or real work, which requires honesty.

i think that 'nigger' helps me get your attention. i never liked that word when i was younger, or when i came to texas from california. interesting? hate is learned. you wanted me to hate you, because you wanted me all to yourselves, while also wanting to interfere with my relationships with other people. a few lame black people find me fascinating. get away! go away! people use words to hurt others. just like you are harming me, knowing that you have been harming me (and others) for years.

this mexican girl and black guy are like people who can put a piece of spaghetti in their nose and pull it out through their ear, and they stupidly want people to think that it is fascinating over and over and over again, when it isn't, and when we don't care, and when it also doesn't exhibit talent. they are irritating and socially lame, flaunting knowing that they are irritating and lame. they don't think about doing anything else, or being able to do anything else, like little weird children, except that they are adults. we don't care about thinking about their stupid spaghetti crap, we care about thinking about other things, and they know that we don't want to think about them, and they keep going on and on and on. they blatantly obstruct our thoughts like they want people to think of it as a cruel childish psychological game, and just knowing that they can obstruct our thoughts is cause for insanity and fear. they try to get people to join in with their sadism, like trump did with his followers. they both have an anger, sex/social problem. they want to be thought of as powerful and interesting, like stars or celebrities, but they are dumb weird demons, and it makes them very very angry and frustrated, wanting to harm people, like rapists who attack people who reject them. they are trying to ensure their survival or happiness in future incarnations, by trying to make me unpopular, especially with people who are observing me, but who don't understand english.

paris whitney hilton is actually into this same weird deception attempt and CRUELTY, and she also uses her family's wealth and "class" to mask her blatant inadequacies. she is evil, but tries to play it off like she is cool, wanting ignorant people to think that i was some kind of weird
fan of hers, when i wasn't. she didn't want to help SOCIETY achieve something, in part because she is an under achiever, and because she desperately wants to be thought of as more, thinking that she is less, also being a spoiled, stuck up hoarder. she really doesn't like her wealth image, but was stuck with it, and couldn't do anything else, or didn't want to try to do anything else. she is the hater, even though she tries to play it off like she is cool.

i don't want to shout and yell. i wanted peace and quiet. real simple. oh, but that would have made me popular, right? and a few people didn't want me to be popular, because they are not popular.

these people who are acting up don't want me to be able to make people happy because of their envy. what is happening is absolutely disgusting. i mean what most people are not observing, and which some people are. i mean 24/7. it is like watching a sci fi movie with disgusting mean ugly deranged scary aliens, who attack people, who like the people to know that they like attacking them and scaring them. PLEASE HELP. GET THE GOVERNMENT TO MAKE SOME KIND OF STATEMENT, EVEN IF IT IS JUST CIRCUMSTANTIAL EVIDENCE.

because this black guy who has been confusing us since 1998 is a fucked up weird creep nigger and i know, without a doubt, that black people say the same. some cheesy evil childish black women try to use him as their champion, knowing that smart black women will say that they are all stupid. good luck dumb black bitches.

maybe flava flav will give me a job.

this mexican girl is afraid of mexican guys thinking that she likes me more than them, so that is why she is obstructing or playing dumb games.

this mexican girl who is knowingly causing problems makes me think of this rude obnoxious disrespectful mexican girl, who was in a catholic chuch i was in back in 2011, i guess thinking that i was cute, who came up to me slowly, and then pressed her purse into me slowly, like "i won't fuck you unless you have money." it doesn't matter if you don't want to fuck me unless i have money, because i don't want to fuck you at all, because you act like a stupid prostitute. i don't like mexican style. i guess i shouldn't go to the mexican sports bar cantinas with the girls who wear slutty stupid tight shorts. oh, you don't like this white boy? oh, i don't care! cuz i don't like you either, angry brown bitch. oh, look, hehe, he can't handle it. he can't handle it with the girls. ha. i don't want to handle it with you, brown bitch, or dumb black bitch, because you are stupid... i just want to avoid you. i have a nice really cool sweet beautiful WHITE girlfriend, who is more special and more loving than you could ever be. this mexican girl who is causing problems is prostituting herself, wanting to attract a dumb mexican guy who hates white people. she wants him to think, "yeah, i am childish and evil, and i don't have any money, because i am not doing anything, and haven't been doing anything for 11 years, and i hate white people. don't you want to talk to me? don't you want to have me?"

this black guy who has knowingly been causing problems for years can have his few ugly stupid mean evil childish black girlfriends. they can have stupid ugly black babies together.

I AM NOT YOUR MAN, AND I DON'T WANT TO BE YOUR MAN, AS LONG AS YOU LEAVE ME DEFENSELESS, WHILE I AM KNOWINGLY BEING STALKED, OR ACTUALLY TORTURED.

BETTER TO JUST BURN THE WHOLE THING DOWN TO THE GROUND, INSTEAD OF ALLOWING THE SCUM TO SURVIVE AND RUN RAMPANT.

DO YOU UNDERSTAND, "BY ANY MEANS NECESSARY", NIGGER? YOU WANT TO HARM ME? I AM GOING TO HARM YOU, DUMB UGLY NIGGER, SO THAT JUSTICE IS SERVED, OR SO THAT THERE IS BALANCE. WHY DON'T YOU CALL ME MALCOLM MISHLER? OR JOSHUA X? THEN THESE DUMB CHILDISH WEIRD NIGGERS WANT IGNORANT PEOPLE TO THINK THAT I DESERVE TO BE HARMED. OH NO I DON'T! IT IS JUST A BUNCH OF WEIRD BLACK HATE AND RAGE, BECAUSE YOU THINK THAT YOU ARE INFERIOR, OR BECAUSE YOU THINK THAT YOU MADE YOURSELVES LOOK BAD SINCE 2008. YOU ARE TRYING TO FABRICATE EVIDENCE TO USE AGAINST ME, TRYING TO COVER UP THE FACT THAT YOU THINK THAT YOU ARE THE PROBLEM.

"BY ANY MEANS NECESSARY' COULD MEAN THAT I TAKE A CAN OF SPRAY PAINT TO AN INNOCENT BLACK PERSON'S CAR AT THE SHOPPING MALL. YA FEEL ME?

THEY THINK THAT BECAUSE THEY ARE SO FUCKING UGLY, PHYSICALLY, AND BECAUSE OF WHAT THEY ARE KNOWN TO HAVE DONE TO ME, AND OTHER INNOCENT PEOPLE, THAT THEY WANT TO TRY TO MAKE ME UGLY. I LIKE BEING MALCOLM MISHLER. "BY ANY MEANS NECESSARY."

they want ignorant people to think that i wasn't nice to begin with, when i was. i don't care anymore, and i also want people to know that i am in pain. they want ignorant people to think that i didn't mean the kind things which i already stated about blacks and mexicans, when i did. like i just stated, i am not you man, and i don't want to be your man, unless you offer me some basic protection in public. i really want to say goodbye to my family and girlfriend and dog, and be put to sleep in a hospital. at least it would be dignified.

don't make me out to be your leader. i don't want to be your leader. no one could handle this. it is not that i didn't try hard enough. they wanted to humiliate me, because i did try.

it seems like girls wanted to destroy the world for some reason.

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my new york city mobster name is Joshy "the Jerusalem".

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it is sad that innocent people get hurt, but i'll be damned if i don't saying anything about this disgusting cruel black man (with his disgusting cruel black "girlfriends"), disgusting cruel mexican, disgusting cruel paris hilton. don't compare me to other people, in normal situations. you either get the police to come over to my home, saying that they know who i am, that they know that there is a problem, and that witnesses have confirmed that i am being assaulted, wanting everyone to hear it, or don't expect a real change. the police could make video with me to upload to the internet. 30 seconds of 1 minute of something.

in a big way, i don't care about what ignorant people think, because God is on MY side. you would kill these dumb fuckers too. THEY are the threat. just like a cop would shoot someone who continued to be aggressive and threatening, after they were warned to put down their weapon.

these people who are stalking me, and you, want me all to themselves, not wanting ignorant people to know they they really think that i am cool and interesting, and don't want to think about other people being happy, or having a good time with me, a special, unique person. they obviously lack intelligence, and are socially lame. they are threatening me and you, if you act like you like me, or care about me, namely because they are lazy, and don't want to have to work like intelligent people do, or because they think that they can' work like an intelligent person works. "i ain't gonna do it!"  if you knew me in person, up close and personal, you would understand that i am not the problem. GET THE POLICE OR PRESIDENT INVOLVED.