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this mexican girl wants people to think that mexican girls are angry and obnoxious.  that is what she wants as an image.  like she is all attitude and no brain.  she wants mexican guys to think that they are supposed to give her something.  ha.  good luck, you evil, disrespectful scum bag.  she is also messing with me and everyone else so much that she is trying to make ignorant people think that the people who are communicating about her don't know what we are communicating about.  we do know what we are communicating about.  she is a mexican girl who is about 30 years old, who i think still lives in houston, texas.  she is evil, with a real nasty attitude problem.  this black guy is evil, with an attitude problem also.

a few people imply that i am not allowed to be somebody happy in life, because they think people think that they aren't a happy somebody in life. they are obstructing people's lives. they are obstructing people's happiness. they are very childish and very angry. i am not wanting to obstruct people's happiness. people are creating a problem, and because i don't have privacy and am involved in it, i am basically communicating that i can't help. people are communicating that there is a problem, whether i communicate about it or not. so i think that it is better if i communicate something too. do you get it? i really don't like this. i am stuck. get tv news and the police or the government involved. ok?

a few people are being ugly and stupid, just for the sake of being ugly and stupid, or because they think that they can get away with it, taunting people and the authorities. it reveals something really horrible about human nature. no. i'm not making this up, like this mexican girl or other people, want you to think that i am. she is trying to trick ignorant people into thinking that i am trying to trick ignorant people. she is evil. pure evil. what she are a few other people are doing is blatant sadism. they want the public to know what they are doing, and they are implying that they can get away with it. it is a sadistic evil creature, which wants to mock kind, sincere people, like me. why don't you make a story about this with tv news, because i think that you will be able to flush this mexican girl and black guy out? you should document this, so that the police and military and governments officially know. their families know about who they are and what they are capable of doing, being able to create contractions of my muscle and soft tissue, which the rest of the group (144,000) worldwide can sense. they have my vision in their left eye. they were not born with this, they developed it at a certain point in their life. they seem to be animals, mixed with human. it is incredibly disturbing to have to be stuck with them, like being stuck in a jail cell or psychiatric ward with someone who is mean, crazy and evil. they are angry creatures. they don't like thinking about what they are, compared to me, but they pretend as if they do like themselves. they are in a type of shock about what is going on and what they are.



every single day for years this mexican girl and black guy try to associate me with george h. w. bush and northern trust bank and johnny depp, when i am not associated with george h. w. bush or northern trust bank or johnny depp. they are constantly trying to cover up the fact that this black guy and mexican girl are the problem; trying to wrongfully defame me. it is so unbelievably stupid and childish. like they want to play make believe like little children, like they want others to know that they want others to play make believe with them. leave me alone. you are lame. i didn't do anything wrong with paris hilton either, like some black women wanted people to think. it is stupid. leave me alone. you are lame.

every single day, this mexican girl and black guy (and still sometimes black women) are holding everyone hostage, telling people to obstruct and lie about me.

every day, lame childish people fantasize about people thinking that they are more interesting or important than they are because of their stupid lies about me. they need to grow up.

some people like to confuse me or harm me in public. it is sadistic, and they try to get other people to join in with them. they also want to confuse or harm people who they think care about me. they like to make me feel awkward or confused in public, like it is a sick game. i had to go through it, because it is just the way this situation is, but then some people wanted others to know that they got a sick childish thrill from observing me go through it, so they intentionally created unnecessary obstacles. it is a terrible thing about human nature and i wish that it would stop. they want the public to think that they have an excuse to harm me, but they don't, and it is just indicative or their desire to harm innocent people and get away with it. it could be an interesting, peaceful time right now. it seems like some people are angry that other people are more peaceful or could be more peaceful than they can be, so they are acting up, causing unnecessary problems.

the black guy's rapper name is MC gerber. his debut album is 'bush, da bank, and booullshit'.

black guy is trying to humiliate me sexually in front of everyone, because he is insecure, thinking that people think that a white boy is having more fun that an unpopular black guy. he is an angry weird idiot. i have been complimented a few times and feel just fine about myself. he knows this, and this is why he tries to humiliate me.

i don't think that i need to explain this, because i have help, but i am also not defenseless, like a a few people want to insinuate. the community isn't defenseless either.

i know that black guys don't agree with what this black guy is doing.

this black guy stupidly and childishly creates discomfort or tension, when i am creating comfort or peace, because he is envious or jealous. he is pretending as if he thinks that him doing something which he knows is stupid makes him more attractive. he is fake and weird. he is making a stupid joke about being irritating and dominant, and also pretending as if he thinks that the girls like it, when he knows that they don't. he pretends like he thinks that people like him or that people think that he is cool, when he knows that they don't. he is socially lame. weird psychological problem. he is a weird childish irritating insecure creepy black man. he thinks that girls think that he is unattractive, so he does something which he knows is unattractive, pretending as if he thinks that girls should think that he is attractive, or that he likes himself. he is fake and cheesy. creepy and childish and fake. you could call him mc gerber, because he is so childish. or mc cheese creep.

getting to the point, even though i would rather not communicate this, this black guy is implying that black men are superior, or get more attention, even if they are childish and act really stupid, just because they have big penises. it seems like some weak, low class black women are implying the same thing, even though i don't think that they actually believe it. i wonder what all of the other men in the world have to think or communicate about this. what else do you have to think about besides your dick? i feel fine about myself and many things make me confident. what do you have to think about, which makes you confident? i wouldn't be communicating about this, if this cheesy disrespectful insecure fake ass black punk pig mofucka would just leave everyone alone. it seems like he is thinking that black women, or just girls in general, like me or think about me more, and that it confuses him or makes him insecure. it doesn't make confident men insecure, so i guess his huge dick doesn't mean that much.

these black people and mexican girl who lie about me and my character are stupid for doing what they are doing. i never wanted to hurt anyone. that is the main difference between me and them. the main reason that i was confused about george h. w. bush and northern trust bank was because of this black guy messing with me. he had been steering me in the wrong direction for years. i didn't know that he was an ignorant black guy. i thought that he was something advanced, who worked for the government or something. i was having a big love dream and i also had a drug problem because i was sad. just because i have used drugs, doesn't make me an evil person. i never wanted to harm anyone, and i wasn't interested in banks. after the black guy confused me about northern trust bank, i thought that many people were going to invest there, and that would generate interest, and that would help all the banks or do something positive for the entire world. my mind wanted to try to make sense of it somehow. it didn't mean anything at all, and all i hoped for was something positive for all types of people, and someone else was the cause of the confusion, so there is no problem. why do you keep skipping over the fact that the black guy (who i didn't know was an ignorant black guy) confused me, playing dumb unnecessary games? he is lying and telling other people to lie, stating that i intended to write about northern trust bank before he confused me about it, because he doesn't want to take responsibility for playing dumb unnecessary games, causing a problem. all it was, was a big love dream. it is funny. i never wanted to harm anyone. but because he has been caught several times being mean and stupid, he is now lying about it. since a few black women have been caught being mean and stupid too, they are now lying about it. they are trying to use each other a way of lying or trying to "fix" their image problem. they think that they have made themselves look bad, and are insecure about it. i never wanted to harm anyone, and that is the main difference between me and them. people know that i dreamt, and still dream, of something all inclusive. maybe it is easier said that done, but i think that eventually, there will be more diversity. i was glad that i eventually talked openly about what i had done, writing about northern trust bank after the black guy confused me about it, because the situation was making me act stupid and weird in public, thinking that northern trust bank was more important that it was, and also that i had to keep something to myself because of the thought of people not understanding who (turned out to be an ignorant black guy) was communicating to me about the bank or why. i am glad that a nurse at the VA hospital in houston, texas, put a magazine with a picture of johnny depp next to my bed, because it caused me to think that the police at the VA hospital had gotten into my apartment while i was in the hospital, and looked around in my computer. i had written to johnny depp about the bank, thinking that it was my duty to do this, and also because i had started to write a story and imagined johnny depp as a character like a cameo. i think that i had already written to the viper room about this before i wrote about the bank. evil mean people want ignorant people to think that i did something unethical. why do you keep skipping over the part where the black guy played a dumb, childish, unnecessary game, confusing me about northern trust bank? I THOUGHT THAT IT WAS MY DUTY TO COMMUNICATE ABOUT IT. i also tried to protect people from that bank a few years later, because the whole thing didn't make any sense to me after a while. i didn't communicate about the bank in an unethical way. i was just confused about it, thinking that i had been told that it was special for some reason. i explained that i saw a sign for the bank in the elevator of george h. w. bush's office. i have written more about this at the bottom of this 'community' section of this website. i wrote "i am not intentionally steering you in that direction, but you might want to check it out. (or) i am not trying to intentionally steer you in that direction, but you might want to check it out." i don't think that johnny depp ever got the mail, because he wasn't at the viper room any more like i thought that he was. the hospital incident was 3 years after the black guy did something dumb, not taking responsibility for him being the reason that i went to george h. w. bush's office, just dropping off innocent, confused mail. that is when i saw the sign for the bank in the elevator. the black guy made me think that there was, or that maybe there was, a special relationship between bush and myself. i already thought that maybe there was because of "1000 points of light" and the black guy confused me even more. i couldn't make any sense of this situation, knowing that i didn't have privacy, and thinking that i didn't have official support, or that i wasn't supposed to do something like a "miracle" (young and hopeful and naïve). the black guy put me into an awkward situation. he was playing dumb unnecessary games and confused me. it is so simple. i never lie to anyone. the few people who got caught being evil and mean want ignorant people to think that i am the most dishonest, evil person in the world. i am not. it is so simple. just because i am defending myself, doesn't mean that i am guilty of something. some black people will probably lie and say that i was really nervous when i typed this when i wasn't. slightly awkward for brief moment because i lack privacy, and because people want me to know that they are lying about me, but nothing which indicates guilt. they want people to think that something is more interesting than it is because they are lame, boring people. they want people to think that they are interesting or exciting, because they are "involved" with a bank and a former president. george h. w. bush passed away in 2018. please let him rest.

this black guy who can create contractions of my muscle and soft tissue is admitting to being a weird envious obnoxious jealous childish unattractive socially lame irritating creep, making a sick joke of it. he is also telling black women to lie and say that they don't think this when they actually do. in other words, he is telling black women to lie and say that they like him even when he acts like a weird envious obnoxious jealous childish unattractive socially lame irritating creep. in other words, he wants black women to say that they like him more than they like me, no matter how unattractive and stupid he is. he is fake and he thinks that he can put pressure on weak black women to be fake. he has a weird psychological problem. he is trying to disrupt love and harmony. i know that most black people know about him and don't like what he is doing.

i have no intent to purchase a firearm or harm anyone. i wish that people wouldn't harm me and other innocent members of the community. it is nonsense. like childish people who are acting up like obnoxious crazy children in a classroom. leave people alone.

I UNDERSTAND IF IGNORANT PEOPLE WOULD THINK THAT IT SEEMS LIKE I AM JUST ANGRY AND STUCK UP. THAT IS EXACTLY HOW EVIL PEOPLE ARE TRYING TO FOOL YOU. THEY ARE INTENTIONALLY PROVOKING ME AND CONFUSING ME, OBSTRUCTING EVERY DAY, KNOWING THAT I WILL TRY TO DEFEND MYSELF AND THE COMMUNITY. THEY THINK THAT THEY LOOK BAD, SO THEY ARE TRYING TO MAKE ME LOOK BAD. THEY ARE EVIL AND CHILDISH.

for the black women who are intentionally segregating themselves from the rest of the community, you are not giving yourself more resources. you are giving yourself less resources. the same is true of white supremacists. i am stuck in the middle. it is really about loving intelligent people, instead of the color of skin. people can't be forced to live with or like one another, but don't hate each other or harm each other.

it is really weird and childish of people to lie about me and money. cruel. they want people to think that they have an excuse to prevent me from having fun, working and earning honest money, just as other people do. work is good for me and for this group of people. it is a type of therapy. it is therapeutic. repetitious activity. bible study once a week did the same thing. it wasn't so much about the bible, as it was consistent, healthy social activity. they really just don't want me to have fun and and more confidence, socializing a little bit and also doing something challenging/rewarding. they know that it would make me more confident; being good for my metal health. they don't like it when i am strong, because they don't like thinking about how i am stronger than they are. weak, childish, evil people are doing this. they don't like it when i look good in public, because they think that they don't look good or because they don't want people to think that i am better than they are because of how a few of them they screwed up. then they want ignorant people to think that i am lying about wanting to work, like they are children who want to play make believe, wanting other people to join in with them. i currently have a job which most people wouldn't do or think about doing. i just wanted something closer to my home in houston. this mexican girl and black guy didn't establish trust, so that i know that i can work at a job, without them pointlessly interrupting and interfering. i think that i also have had a problem with childish, mean, dishonest black women going to my job to stalk, harass and confuse me while i am trying to concentrate. they are implying that they have a reason to do this, when what it really means is that they are in a very stupid denial about having been a problem. they would attempt to fabricate evidence to try to use against me or they would attempt to cover up the fact that they were the problem, by wrongfully and stupidly implying that i had been the problem. it is saddening, because i like to work. it would have been good for this entire group or the entire community. i am still going to work, but it is not as convenient as a job in houston would have been. i don't think that i have to report the money which i am earning, working for my step dad's brother in la grange, texas, but i can try to learn more about this. it is not that much, and it is not an official or consistent schedule. i am blessed to have security in my life, but i can't get ahead or have a little spare money in my bank account. this is not bullshit like evil, childish people stupidly try to make people think that it is. i wanted to officially work. i am still going to do what i am currently doing for my step dad's brother at his ranch in la grange, texas. more important than money is me getting out of my house for a few days every week. it is good for everyone's mind. the people who are stupidly lying and sabotaging don't care about having a healthy mind. they are like drug addicts who don't care about their own health.

i have told my girlfriend, shelly, that we don't have privacy. she doesn't care. i am not always a psych ward silly goof. it is good for everyone's love making. it was funny, because she stated "i've always been somewhat of an exhibitionist" or something to that effect. people probably assume that it is worse or more awkward than it is. it isn't. we fare well. lots O' love... it would be sort of like watching a tv reality show. mr. and mrs. snuggleupagus...

have a good life. care about having a happy life. don't ruin your life, playing childish unnecessary games. move on.

don't want to seem like a party pooper, but it really seems like this mexican girl and black guy and a few black women and paris hilton wanted to humiliate me in public because they thought that it was fun or interesting. their behavior is indicative of their hatred of me, but i am not a bad person. ??? quit gossiping about me unnecessarily. it is like constantly or unnecessarily gossiping about the fact that the sun rises every day in the east, every 24 hours.

it seems like this mexican girl and black guy are implying that my sweet girlfriend and i are not allowed to have a good time this december on a sea cruise to mexico and also that she is not allowed to live with me at my place, like snug as a bug lovebirds in a cozy home with a little extra money. this mexican girl and black guy are so childish and envious or jealous that it is weird and stupid. like little children who are mean and retarded. i understand if people who don't know me think that this sounds like i am stuck up. i'm not. i am just telling you, seriously, that it seems like some people want to interfere with my happiness and fun because they don't like comparing themselves to someone who is happy and fun when they are not happy or having fun. i think that some black women are pissed off about it too, because they don't like it when i look good or happy in public, because of how they gave themselves a bad image. i wouldn't be surprised if they were lying about what my girlfriend stated to me, which was witnessed by the entire group. in fact, my girlfriend brought it up herself, meaning, the thought about living at my place eventually. she can save or have more money that way. they are always childishly and stupidly trying to make it look like i am a money problem when all i do is the same thing which other people do. people who are in relationships think of ways of making money situations work better for the both of them. there is nothing wrong with it. they seem to be pissed because they think that i will be having fun in public. they have the weird fixation on money. they are just envious or jealous, because what my girlfriend and i do, is done in public, and we are in love and a good match.

this mexican girl and black guy have incredibly weird, incredibly disturbing, disgusting mental problems. they are some type of low level version of an alien (like russian nesting dolls) which seems to be more like an animal. it is like we are sensing weird zombies who wants us to know that it likes to harm and confuse us. it is an envious, very childish creature. they are both human beings on earth. they both have my vision in their left eye (evil eye). there is something wrong with their brain. they were not born with this. black male developed it in february 1998. mexican female developed it in may of 2011. they can both create contractions of my muscle and soft tissue which the entire group (144,000) worldwide can sense. they use it to harass and stalk people. very creepy. or like a weapon to subdue. they use it to obstruct. they use it to intentionally invoke fear into people, like the fear of not being independant of them so that we can have positive thoughts. they got themselves into trouble by showing off like little children, and then once people complained about them, they decided to lie about what has happened, and betray the entire community. they are so lame and childish. they get a thrill from sadism. they are taunting the community. sore losers who want to harm people spiritually.

a few black people are being a problem. ignorant people don't understand how stupidly aggressive they are being. really creepy and really lame. they want to be thought of as sleazy, like it is some kind of psychological warfare game to them. it is inhumane. it is abusive. they fake thinking that they are cool or smart. it is so fake and cheesy that it is ridiculous. they got stuck with christ and it confused them because they are not like christ. it seems like they are angry because they think that they are inferior. i am not a white supremacist. i know that caring, honest black people still defend me, despite what i have communicated here. it is not all blacks that i am frustrated with. it is the evil, lazy, lame, sleazy thugs who act up causing unnecessary problems for people who i don't like.

low class, dishonest unintelligent lazy childish fake pride black people are trying to intimidate loving honest intelligent black people who have more class and more money. the low class blacks are telling others to act like they hate white people. it is confusing, because i am a loving white person. they don't care about acting like they are loving, so they shouldn't complain when they segregate themselves. bye.

this mexican girl is like a child who grabbed the steering wheel of a car going crazy wanting to play around, and she is smashing the car into everything in sight, because she is too young to drive. danger to the community. she is childish and doesn't care about people.

this black guy and mexican girl and a few black women have an attitude like a envious or jealous child, like (obnoxious temper tantrum/voice of a child) "I don't like this! he can have more fun than i can have!" or "i don't like this! he can be happier than i can be!" they don't like for me to look better or more cool than they think that they can look in public, because of how they think that people know that they have damaged their own image. what they are doing is very childish and very selfish. like little children. they imply that i am not allowed to have fun or enjoy my life. their dishonesty about me and money is really stupid. not only are they lying about northern trust bank and paris hilton, knowing damn well that i am innocent, but they imply that i am not allowed to work an honest job, just as other honest people do. they are obstructing so that i don't know if there will be a problem at a job. they don't establish trust. they mock an honest guy who likes to work. evil and very sleazy and very childish. it is because of their envy. they don't want me to look good in public because they think that they don't look good. it also seems like this mexican girl and black guy are trying to make it so that my girlfriend doesn't want to live with me at my place, so that she (or we) can have more money after she retires, implying that i am doing something evil with money. they are just stupid and envious, implying that my girlfriend and i are not allowed to have more fun in our lives because there would be more money. my girlfriend and i have already talked about her moving into my place eventually and she seems to think that it would be a good idea. i have a nice town home and my bills are paid. help from parents and uncle sam. these evil childish people keep trying to use money against me because they are obsessed with money themselves. they are after money, trying to trick people into thinking that they have honor when they don't, so that they can hustle someone for money. leave me alone. get a life. quit lying about me and money. do you know what this black guy and mexican girl are really angry about? that i have love in my life. that it is evident that a girl loves me and wants to be with me. they try to stupidly twist it into something about money, when actually it is about and love and partnership. i have a cozy place, and these 2 are pissed off about it. they want to hurt everyone around them because they don't like themselves.



this black guy and a few black people (mostly women) are promoting hate, disrespect, laziness, dishonesty, stupidly, childishness, ugliness, cruelty, racism. i have tried, and God knows that i am actually a sweet honest boy. i understand if ignorant people would think that i seem angry and stuck up. that is how they are trying to trick ignorant people. it is impossible to work with some of these people because they are unintelligent and socially lame. they are cheesy and fake. they will be the dumb leading the dumb. go ahead. suit yourself. they don't believe in what they are doing. they gave themselves an image problem, and instead of moving on with their lives, like i tried to help them do, they want to remind people of it all day long, every day. too bad. don't make it my problem or anyone else's problem.


for the most part, this is childish, mean spirited lame females trying to make a unique male look dumb in public. they developed an inferiority complex, which means that they think that they are inferior. strong confident smart girls don't have this problem. they don't want to make this about a unique, peaceful, confident male in public, so they are intentionally obstructing. they want to try to take power away from men. this is very painful. i wish that someone would help. you don't understand how often i am being obstructed. i am not a snob. i just want peace and quiet for everyone. these girls have an attitude like "ha! oh yeah! think about childish obnoxious lame girls instead of a cool peaceful guy who works." they want to try to make me look stupid, because they think that they look stupid. mean spirited, vindictive, childish, angry, spiteful.

this mexican girl's family is really really stupid and uncaring for supporting their daughter while their daughter is blatantly violating people, all day long, every day. she does not intend to be thought of as friendly, and there is no reason to be harming me. she lies. she doesn't want to leave me alone, because she knows that people would communicate that our lives improved, and so she doesn't want it to seem like she was the problem. she keeps everything the same stupid thing every day all day long. she is evil. she is boring and socially lame. their daughter is intentionally harming people spiritually, holding people hostage, like she is demanding that someone respect her, even though she is being blatantly harmful and disrespectful toward the community. she has a weird childish anger and ego problem. sort of like a zombie. really. she lies to her parents, not wanting them to understand how childish and irritating she is intentionally being. she is intentionally obstructing people's lives. she is making a sick stupid joke about knowing that she is a failure. she is making a sick stupid joke about how she thinks that she is weak or about how she thinks that girls like her are weak. like "yeah. hehe. i'm stupid and weak. hehe. isn't that funny? i couldn't handle the responsibility. i have a personality disorder. hehe."


this mexican girl and black guy like to intentionally be thought of as creepy and evil, like they are stupidly implying that it is funny. they are making a sick joke which isn't funny at all. they are socially lame. they have a weird ego and anger problem. deranged. brutality. they are trying to recruit evil people, but i don't think that it will work out too well for them. they are actual demons. in a way it is fascinating to experience, but that doesn't mean that i want to continue to experience it. one function which the devil has is to scare people into not being like what it is. satan being cast down makes sense. these things want more power than God, but they will end up with nothing or not very much because their blatant disrespecful greediness gave them away. they seem to be more like animals than human.


it is like an evil unintelligent sadistic tyrant has confined me and anyone who acts like they care about me when it knows that i am innocent. do you understand? it is like having been kidnapped and then tortured slowly in the basement of the assailant's house. the 144,000 and the u.s. government should fight back. the military should now about this. just putting the word out would act as a deterrent or a type of psychological warfare. people should not act like they are afraid to associate with me in public. it makes evil mean weird people think that they can get away with whatever they want to. children don't get in line unless the adult uses a type of force. if order is not enforced, the child will continue to act up because they think that they don't have to take the adult seriously. this is about thousands of years of future social development. please make the most of it. i am tired of needlessly suffering. this situation has revealed something ugly about human behavior. people like to pick on me for no good reason, intentionally hurting me spiritually in public. they flaunt being weird and mean. they are socially lame. it is incredibly nasty. they do it because they know that my spirit would otherwise soar. since we (i don't necessarily mean people who are reading this) are stuck together (144,000/our central nervous systems are fused), they don't like to sense me being happier or more confident or more peaceful or more popular than they are. strong people are not a problem. weak childish people are the problem. they try to make themselves feel better about themselves, by intentionally making me uncomfortable. like they are saying in a really mean greedy way "yeah! that's right! i got more than you got!" and they do it because they didn't like thinking about how i had more than they have. they are greedy. they don't like thinking of how they feel inferior, so they are sabotaging my life in order to make themselves feel "better". again, strong people are not the problem. they feel like equals to me. i am not stuck up. i am social and flexible. you should meet me in person.


these few people who think that they made themselves look cruel and evil are really pissed because they got caught. now they want to hurt everyone. they are socially lame. it is scary. they are like children who are angry because they didn't or couldn't get their way, and so now it is like they are screaming and throwing things around, breaking them. it is like terrorism and i wish that some of the 144,000 and the u.s. government would make a story on tv news, in order to try to deter unnecessary pointless aggression.. i don't think that anyone would want to mess with it. like the honor system. people don't want to create a social problem for themselves. if a few people did act up, we could handle it as necessary. a few people are playing blatantly stupid games right now. they want to be thought of as stupid and irritating, like they get a thrill from complicating good people's lives. like vandalism. the stupid will spread if we don't get it under real control. please show some respect and courage.


this black guy is like a weak, childish basketball player, who makes a bad move, thinking that he made himself look bad, who then whines and complains and bitches like a dishonest, stupid little weird negro bitch, blaming everyone else on the basketball team for his mistake. he is lying and telling black women to lie for him, also letting them know that he will lie for them. these people are sleazy dishonest thugs who are trying to attract other sleazy dishonest thugs. it is not that i am a problem. it is other people who are not like me who are the problem. many people are christ like. some are not.


this mexican girl is trying to have me killed by intentionally making everyone in this activity group (144,000) mentally stressed and sick. they would kill me in order to get rid of her. she is really annoying and obnoxious. she has tried to kill me before, but failed. i think that she thinks that she can get black people or black women to do her dirty work for her. my parent's home in la grange is more secluded, and therefore, a better place for someone to try to commit murder. i go out there to work every few weeks. i want to email the fayette county sheriff department and the la grange police department. i could also send the email to an austin, texas tv news station. she is making people sick, and then if people communicate about it, she thinks that she can fool ignorant people into thinking that we are trying to get money from people. i have to earn money just like other people do. i am not lazy. she just recently messed up my time with a job search lady from the houston veteran's administration. she doesn't want me to work because she doesn't want me to be more respected than her. i am doing work right now in la grange which most people in my situation wouldn't do. she has always tried to trick ignorant mexicans into thinking that i am lazy and unfriendly. the truth is that she thinks that i am more motivated and more friendly than they are, but she doesn't want them to know that, because she thinks that the will become envious or jealous or angry. she has always thought that she needs to lie to mexican guys about me in order to build them up.



this black guy and mexican girl are violating people really bad. they have a mental problem like they are retarded and also very mean and sleazy. it is like they got close to a person who they wanted to be close to or have sex with, and were then rejected, and then they use unwanted sleazy force to do something like rape. continually. over and over. every day. they both have mental problems. they are admitting to being failures with a smug attitude. it is very creepy. they are some type of alien. i think associated with constellation of draco/alpha draconis. i also thought that maybe it has something to do with the moon, because i think that i read that scientists think that there used to be 2 moons. it is horrible. if i had a fire arm and knew where they lived, i would consider killing them, even if i went to jail for 10 or 20 years. they like to harm people emotionally or spiritually. very creepy and sleazy. they are taunting the police or any type of authority. i wish that we could make an international story about this with tv news, because they are a threat now and also in future incarnations. they are trying to take power away from me and other good people.



it would be nice if someone showed my family and my girlfriend and myself some respect. if i were able to communicate in person to people, who i knew were aware of this situation, i would be able to better cope. you can communicate with people who know about the situation. i can't. it helps you cope and spread love. are you implying that i am not allowed to be a social person, or to be able to socialize with other people (family and friends) about my life or about who i actually am? my family? my girlfriend? am i not allowed to be someone, while at the same time being that person? anti climatic. i have told them about what is happening, but they think that i am crazy or that maybe i am crazy. then i have to do this in front of everyone. how does that help my confidence? it doesn't. how does it help anyone's confidence? we are not doing work. you are not giving me any power, which also means that you don't have any power. i don't understand why people don't want to try to advance the law. science. you should take advantage of a free country and free press which would protect people. why are you making this uncomfortable for me? how does that help people's confidence? does it mean that people are getting a thrill from watching me struggle, and not be able to be closer to my family and girlfriend? you don't want to make them into anyone either? i would get more support from my family if they knew about what was going on. my mother would stop thinking that i am crazy and not get angry or frustrated when i try to explain what is happening. it is humiliating. my family would have more respect and love for me. do you have problem with that? it would also give me an opportunity to be more of a leader. you are not forcing people to develop, or to be more open minded.

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The Shepherds and the Angels
8And there were shepherds residing in the fields nearby, keeping watch over their flocks by night. 9Just then an angel of the Lord stood before them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were terrified. 10But the angel said to them, “Do not be afraid! For behold, I bring you good news of great joy that will be for all the people: 11Today in the city of David a Savior has been born to you. He is Christ the Lord! 12And this will be a sign to you: You will find a baby wrapped in swaddling cloths and lying in a manger.”
13And suddenly there appeared with the angel a great multitude of the heavenly host, praising God and saying:
14“Glory to God in the highest,
and on earth peace to men
on whom His favor rests!”
15When the angels had left them and gone into heaven, the shepherds said to one another, “Let us go to Bethlehem and see this thing that has happened, which the Lord has made known to us.”
16So they hurried off and found Mary and Joseph and the Baby, who was lying in the manger. 17After they had seen the Child, they spread the message they had received about Him. 18And all who heard it were amazed at what the shepherds said to them. 19But Mary treasured up all these things and pondered them in her heart.
20The shepherds returned, glorifying and praising God for all they had heard and seen, which was just as the angel had told them.


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some people are intending to be thought of as ugly and mean. like trump and his supporters. they are trying to group ugly, mean people together because they think that they will have more power that way. they are also trying to make it look like i am the one who is ugly and mean, while also wanting people to know that they are trying to trick people or that it is a mockery of kind, honest people. they are evil.

this mexican girl and black guy think that they can make ignorant people think that people are making up a story about how cruel they are because it is so unbelievably nasty and stupid. they try to force the few dumb evil weak people to lie, stating that it is friendly when they actually don't think that. they are holding everyone hostage. please get the media and police and government and me involved. the entire world should be warned about these aliens. now and for future incarnations. they should be kept at bay. they are a danger to the community. it is like they are retarded and very mean. greedy, socially lame, confused, very angry, very mean creatures. they want to hurt everyone because they don't like themselves.

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you are damn right that paris hilton makes me uncomfortable. having to be stuck with her when she intentionally didn't create a basic respectful rapport is so shitty and cruel. she wanted to be thought of as cocky and childish. that is how she markets herself. she keeps trying to fool ignorant people. she started it.

the entire community is having to suffer because of a very few stupid, disrespectful people. they are playing a game about being disrespectful. like obnoxious children in school who talk back to the teacher or principal.

this mexican girl is very weak and childish. she is constantly making a stupid obnoxious sick joke about how she knows that she can't build people's confidence and about how nobody likes her. it is like she is pleading for someone's help, but no one will help her. she has always panicked. she is always panicking. she was greedy and impatient and she fucked herself and her family and the community because of it.


people who i am in activity with, and the rest of the community who know about this situation, seem like children who can't take care of themselves. why don't you coordinate with me and the police and the government and the media, in order to AT LEAST try to prevent this from continuing in the way which it is and probably will continue. i think that coordination would serve as a deterrent. i think that it would work. what are you afraid of? me? why? what am i doing every day? this is not rome in palestine, 2000 years ago. are you afraid of the roman soldiers? are you afraid of pontius pilate? are you afraid of people who would shoot you or something? i don't get it. i am not afraid of people who would shoot me. why don't you take a stand to people who might act aggressively? it would get the ball rolling. is that what you are afraid of? i am a u.s. citizen and i don't want to have to be afraid. ok?


most of this stuff in this community section is generated from people who try to humiliate christ, trying to make it look like he has no power or that good people have no power. they know that i am a good person, who will try to defend myself and the community, but they are trying to make it look like i am powerless or stupid. i am not stupid. God is with me. He knows that i care. other people know that i care. these people who are doing this are low class, sleazy thugs who want low class, sleazy thugs to get attention. it is really sad. i don't know whether to delete this stuff or to leave it. i know that i need to have something here about george h. w. bush, northern trust bank, paris hilton. i really don't want to think of this anymore. they want to mock an innocent person. they get some weird, childish thrill from it.


this mexican girl wants dumb, lame people to get attention. she is obstructing people who would have been getting good attention.

some thug people in america (mostly blacks) are trying to humiliate a sweet, honest, hard working white geek, because they don't act like sweet, honest, hard working, white geeks. this low class mexican girl is doing it too. so did paris hilton.


this mexican girl is trying to have me killed. she is irritating people in this activity group (144,000) so badly all day long, every day, because she is hoping that someone will kill me. she is also trying to give herself an alibi, by trying to confuse people about what she means when she is being aggressive. she mixes lies together in order to try to make it look like we don't' understand what she is doing. just by me stating this, she thinks that she can get away with it, even if she knows that people know what she did. she has my vision in her left eye. she was not born with this. she developed it in may of 2011. a black guy also has my vision in his left eye. he developed it in february of 1998. he can also create contractions of muscle and soft tissue, which the rest of the activity group (144,000) can sense. at first, the mexican girl wanted to be identified because she thought that she could get special treatment. now, she doesn't want to be identified, because of the horrible things which she is known to have done. so she is trying to have me killed, because she thinks that her eye sight will return to normal, so that she thinks that she can blend in to everyone else. she then intends to try to lie her way out of trouble. that is why she is trying to confuse people so badly, but she just makes herself look even more stupid. she is trying to give herself an alibi because it is so blatantly stupid. she intends to lie to some ignorant mexican guy who she fantacizes about meeting, giving him a phony story about what she has been doing or why she hasn't worked. she hasn't worked in 11 years. the guy could find out from her parents what has happened, so she will probably try to have her parents lie for her. her parents are really stupid and uncaring of the community to be supporting her in the way which we think that they are right now. your daughter has an anger and cruelty problem. she is a weird psychopath. she likes to harm people spiritually and emotionally, including her parents. please make a story about this on tv news. i doubt that this mexican girl would continue. we could flush her and her family out. she thinks that she can take advantage of people who don't know about what has happened. she tries to get the same stories about my past to recirculate, so that someone ignorant will think that it is more important than it is. she tries to make ignorant people think that the good, loving, honest people are all evil. she is evil. she is making a sick game about knowing that people know that she is childish and evil. she is trying to attract an evil childish mexican guy. like a thug who is into drugs. she tries to take me away from the love of other people because of her very weird, very childish envy. it thinks that it can't survive if people love me or love me more. it irritates me so that people don't love me or want to say that they like me or love me. it tries to make the people who say that they love me or like me look bad. we can't be happy because of how this creature is attacking us all day long, every day. when i say creature, i mean this black guy and mexican girl. it is a very childish, very mean sadistic creature. it is like it is retarded or like it's brain never develops properly in any incarnation. this doesn't have something to do with me having done something wrong. this has to do with a few people wanting to humiliate someone who can have more fun and be more popular than they can. this mexican girl is so childish, trying to make mexican guys think that they should hate me because i am more unique or because i have having fun, so she obstructs my life, pretending as if she is trying to help or pretending as if she thinks that i am evil. she tries to make them angry, because she pretends as if she is not afraid of their anger. she is dumb, childish and full of shit. she doesn't know how to lie her way out of trouble, because she knows that she has been caught. she tries to make mexican guys envious and hate me, because she thinks that will enable her to get along with them. it is very stupid. she is very stupid and childish.

i am not hated because i am a bad person. i am hated because i am a good person, and because a few others couldn't keep up. they obstruct because they couldn't keep up, wanting to try and trick people into thinking that i am lazy or lame. no. i have much better things to do that do sit at my computer typing this. or maybe this is the most important thing for me to do. i sort of can't figure it out. if someone from the community would speak to me, so that i could get some feedback, i would be able to understand something more objectively so that i could perform better. are you wanting me to look stupid?

i think that some black people want to try to humiliate white people because they are angry about slavery. i think that is what happened with me and my situation. it seems like some black women want to try to spread hate. they shouldn't. i never wanted to hurt them and i tried to help them, more than once. some black woman got stupid and nasty with me for no good reason back in 2008, and i inevitably reacted, and then black women or black people wanted to unnecessarily turn it into a big stupid nationwide black thing. i was apologetic, even though i wasn't the problem, but then they wanted people to think that they rejected it because they wanted to try to trick people into thinking that i had started it when i didn't. i was apologetic and i have showed black people love since then, but it seems as if they can't get over the fact that they they made themselves look so bad. move on. it was your fault. stop feeling sorry for yourselves. this doesn't mean that i think that all black people are bad.

paris hilton is a stupid, cocky, childish rich creep who ruined america. her money was evil. money which got her on tv, combined with a childish, stupid, irresponsible, disrespectful (or actually cruel) girl.




i am going through something incredibly painful, as are a small group of people situated worldwide. it is like being tortured. people, including yourselves, who are finding out about this are also being affected in a negative way. i am not a negative person. people don't want me to be popular because they think that it complicates or will complicate their life. it is an alien war. dirty politics. like russian nesting dolls. i have to try to keep cool and remain objective. it was good for me to have fought, and i already won the war. it was important for me to defend myself and the community with my website, but i want to get rid of most of what i have in the 'community' section. it is important for me to have something about this situation there, because otherwise some people think that they get away with lying about me, and that will divide the community, creating unnecessary conflict. it is horrible how a few people betrayed the community. i am sick and confused as i write this.


this black guy is putting pressure on black women who he thinks are dumb and weak, to communicate that they like a dishonest weird creepy, incredibly mean black man instead of an honest sweet white boy. he is trying to create division within the black community. he is trying to divide low class thug like black people from high class people because he thinks that the majority are low class thug like and because he thinks that they want power. he is lazy and trying to get lazy, low class thug black people to group together because he thinks that they will. maybe we can change that. i think that most black people want to move on from being low class or from slavery and develop their lives and be respected.

this mexican girl has been and is always panicking, trying to get more for herself, trying to take something away from other people, not caring about how many people she hurts, and she is so stupid because she ended up getting nothing for herself. it can be typical weak girl behavior. she is also in denial about having been caught doing this, so she just keeps doing the same thing, all day long every day, pretending as if she doesn't think that she is in trouble. she is a weird childish psychopath who wants us knowing that she likes to hurt us all day long, because she doesn't want people to know that people in this activity group or other people are having a good, relaxed time with me, because of her envy or jealousy. she flaunts thinking that she is childish and obnoxious. it is literally sickening. she couldn't handle the responsibility, just as a few other girls couldn't. she likes to refer to how she thinks that girls are weak and childish, making a sick stupid joke about it.


this mexican girl is trying to make ignorant mexican guys hate me because i have more money or security than most people do. it seems like this mexican girl wants to ruin the sea cruise which my girlfriend and i have already scheduled for december. i have more security than most people do, but i also like to work. i didn't have money to begin with, so i always liked to work. this mexican girl is trying to make mexican guys who have less hate me. she tries to make them envious and full of hate. it is so stupid. her fake stupid childish macho shit is stupid.


this mexican girl''s father should kill her. he would kill her if he was sensing what she is doing every day all day long. she lies to him and her family about what i have done, what i am doing, and what she is doing. her father should kill her or turn her over to the media or police. she is an evil, very angry, very childish sadistic mexican bitch. everyone hates her. she is trying to make ignorant people think that i am crazy, when i keep referring to her as a mexican. i am not crazy. she wanted people to know that she was a mexican girl who lives in houston, texas, but now she is trying to cover it up. she is evil.

what is happening is that when you added a loving honest person like me and other people who are the same, evil sleazy childish thug people who didn't want to do the same thing, or who are not capable of doing the same thing, or who want to mock loving honest people, are forming into a group which resembles a criminal or terrorist organization. they are preying on innocent people, wanting to bully them. i don't think that it will have much success, but it is still definitely a problem for security in the united states and elsewhere abroad. these evil people like it when i try to defend myself and the community on the internet, because they think that it gets them attention and enables them to be able to intimidate and recruit people. another reason that i don't believe that they won't have much success is because they do not seem to be intelligent. they seem to be unintelligent people, who want attention or who want to be thought of as intelligent when they don't think that themselves. some black women are secretly conspiring to do something, but they don't know what is going on or what is going to happen, so they are not as "cool" as they want people to think that they are. they are in a strange, blatantly fake denial about being an initial problem back in the year 2008. they are spreading false or biased gossip about me, trying to intimidate and recruit ignorant young black girls, preferably who have access to computers, who work in different places all over the nation. i don't want to hurt innocent, kind black girls with this website. in a way, i don't like having this information on the web, because it can confuse innocent, kind black girls, making them feel awkward in public. i wish that i would be left alone in peace, and i also wish that everyone else would be left alone in peace. hope that good people coordinate in order to officially combat this. people should coordinate with me, because as long as we are separated, people who resemble a criminal or terrorist organization think that they can get away with being nasty and aggressive, or that there will be no official oversight. they are acting aggressively in order to deliberately harm the community, and it is very sad. envy and jealously is the main issue. they have psychological problems. doesn't mean that i am stuck up. i want people to be happy. what is happening is that people who think that they have less, or who think that they would have less if they left me alone in peace, are wanting to harass/obstruct me and people who they think have more, or who they think would have more, or who are happier, or who they think would be happier. it is very childish, very selfish and very disrespectful of them. they are lying, stating that they have a reason to harass/obstruct people's lives when they don't. their motive stems from envy and jealously.

i was in a grocery store today, looking at the cover of a national geographic magazine which featured a story about jesus. my point is that everyone already knows about christ. he is not a secret. so why are some people making such a big deal about me? the issue is that some people unnecessarily politicize me. they gossip about me unnecessarily. there is no requirement for people to communicate about me, no matter what it is. there is also no requirement for me to do something, i suppose, other than to obey the law. it is a problem when people think that it is more important than it is. good people were already good. evil people were already evil. i don't think that they need me. i don't think that it actually changes people. not necessary. leave me out of it. thinking about it again, i think that it can do the community good if the community is in agreement about the general concept of love and acceptance; meaning having love and acceptance for me. being loving and not mean. i don't want special treatment. i want fair treatment. people always make it about a story about jesus or christ loving other people, but that wouldn't work unless he was treated in a respectable, humane manner.

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i have already deleted important information about my situation 5 times because it can create a negative environment. i can put the information back on this website just as easily as i took it off. i wanted to move on. i want everyone to move on. i want the community to be happy. very stupid childish dishonest people continue to harass me and stalk me. they are insecure and in a weird fake denial about being the problem. actually they are wanting to harass and stalk the entire community. they don't want to move on because they keep trying to cover up the fact that they were the problem. they try to cover it up and also fabricate false "evidence" about me. they would rather make everyone including themselves miserable, rather than have people see me as happier or more popular than they are. some black people want to humiliate me because they think that other people think that i am more attractive than they are because of what they are known to have done since 2008 or before. i think that they think that i am more physically attractive, mentally attractive, and spiritually attractive. i am not sugar coating this. i am getting down to the point. ok? they are angry because they think that people think that i am more attractive than they are, so they are taking out their anger on everyone, and wanting to try to make me less attractive by being aggressive and intentionally making me confused and less confident. they are childish and incredibly mean spirited. they are childish and sadistic. their aggression stems from insecurity or envy and jealousy. i want black people to be ok, but the problem is that some of them don't want me to be ok because they think that people will like me more than them because of what they think people think about them because of this situation or what they are known to have done. a few black people are creating a problem for all black people. i am sick of it. people are sick of it. some black people are sending signals to black people to act a fool instead of acting like they have a heart and a brain. it is stupid. they don't even care if they continue to make themselves look stupid because they are lazy and not trying to do anything with their life. the longer that this goes on, the more stupid all black people will look. it is really sad.

i was going to put everything which i recently deleted back on, but i won't. if i don't have it up, people think that they can get away with lying about me and the good people who are defending me. it also creates a negative environment which i don't want. what is weird is that it seems like other people want to create a negative environment. they won't leave me and other people alone. i wanted to move on but they don't because they are desperately and stupidly trying to cover up the fact that they are the problem. they would rather make everyone, including themselves, miserable, rather that to have people know that i am happy while they feel ashamed in public. i want the community to be peaceful and happy but they don't want the community to be peaceful and happy. oh well. there is nothing which i can do for you. you don't care about me? letting me and others know that you care about me? ok, well i don't really care about you. is that ok, or am i supposed to stupidly kiss everyone's ass? it doesn't do my spirit any good to care for you, because you don't communicate anything kind back to me. it just makes me feel terrible. i wish that someone would communicate to me in front of the other people. ignorant people would be surprised at how sweet and sociable i am in person. you make me feel terrible and confused. all of you. disclosure is not healthy unless it is reciprocated. what is going on? people are stalking me and my family and my girlfriend. what did we do to you? you are the ones who started the crap. i never wanted to hurt anyone. i just want to be left alone in peace. some people are implying that i am supposed to suffer for my entire life. why? because you are lying about george h. w. bush and nothern trust bank and paris hilton or anything else you think that you can lie about? you are so incredibly lame. people know that i am innocent, but you imply that i am supposed to suffer just because you become envious or jealous when i am happier that you are or having more fun that you can have. i really want a job so maybe i will delete everything in this section again. i think that it will help my chances of getting a job in houston. right now i work in la grange at my step father's brother's ranch.

i just had to take my dog back to my mom's home to keep her safe. i have had to do this before. i am stalked and being harassed for no good reason and it causes me to talk out loud nervously and confused and in anger in my house and the dog hears the stress and confusion in my voice and it hurts her spirit. i reassure the dog so she knows that i am not angry with her. people have been doing this, hurting my sweet dog for years, making a sick game out of it, with them wanting people to know that they know that i am innocent, and that they just want to hurt the dog anyway. america turned out to be a really ugly place. please help to fix it.

very sad to say that i can't continue to look for a job in houston, texas anymore with the help of the job lady from the veteran's administration. not a good idea with the way that i am being stalked and harassed. these people want to mock someone who wants to work. they won't establish trust. not only do they lie about me and money in the past, but they are implying that i am not allowed to work for honest money. it is so stupid that it is ridiculous. they don't want me to have more than they have. more confidence. more peace. more happiness. they made themselves miserable or look stupid, so now they don't the public to think that i am more than they are. i can still work out in la grange, texas for my step dad's brother at his ranch. it is difficult, but not so much of a problem if i talk out loud in confusion because i am not around anyone. more difficult than you would imagine. most people wouldn't do it.

this mexican girl is trying to make it look like this has something to do with psychiatric medication when it doesn't. in fact, she is making a sick joke about how she knows that people know that it is not about psychiatric medication, while wanting to be cute about it.

i understand if some ignorant people could say "well, he doesn't seem like a good leader" because of what i stated above about america being an ugly place. there is no possible way for me to be able to be a good leader because i am not healthy because people are intentionally making me sick, like it is a game to them. i am sick and confused as i am writing this. i can not make people healthy and happy unless i had basic security and protection which anyone would need, in order to be able to be healthy, so that they could lead or make others healthy. we are being blatantly violated by some type of alien species. i need police or media protection.

not one of you is kind. let me put it another way. i don't have any real evidence that something kind or loving is out there. it is not just this mexican girl and black guy and a few black women and paris hilton (no, i wasn't a fan of paris hilton's) who are not kind. sorry, i can't do anything for you if you don't do something for me and build me up. don't expect to get something for nothing. are you implying that i should work a miracle? how? oh, i guess it is like a hollywood movie about christ, where they spit at him while he drags the cross. are you getting a thrill? i would have rather thought about people thinking of me spending quality happy peaceful time with my family at a restaurant or with my girlfriend, snuggling in bed.

low class, childish minority females (mostly black and one mexican) want to fuck with and make fun of a white boy who they think is high class and interesting. they are low class, sleazy shit. they started trouble for no good reason. they have an inferiority complex. they thought that if men thought that i had power that it would take power away from other men and they thought that would complicate their relationships with other men. these girls are stupid because it would have just given power to men and made their relationships better. they didn't want to submit to men. they are not humble. black women and this mexican girl like to fuck and play with me, because they think that i am an interesting white boy, because they like me, and also because they want to lie to black men and mexican men, stating that they don't like me, because they are always making me uncomfortable. it is an evil girl trick. you know how girls play evil mind game tricks, right? they think that ignorant people would assume that i am not as likeable as i am by reading this internet shit. they are trying to fool ignorant people. black women and this mexican girl are trying to trick black men and mexican men into thinking that they didn't like a white boy as much as they did. they are intentionally irritating me in order to try to make me unpopular. black women and this mexican girl didn't want black guys or mexican guys to think that they thought that a white boy was more interesting or attractive than they were, so they want to lie about me.

this mexican girl is making a stupid lame joke about how she knows that she didn't out smart anyone in an evil way like she wanted people to know that she tried to. she thinks that she has been caught red handed and is trying to make a joke of it. it is not funny. sort of like "oh, you caught me being evil... hehe. isn't that funny?" she is stupid and childish.

this black guy who won't take responsibility for the george h. w. bush and northern trust bank issue is a childish, insecure, dishonest black man who wants people to know that he is trying to humiliate me because a few black people made all black people look stupid. it is like he is letting people know that he is insecure like he needs a mommy or a stupid evil thug childish low class black bitch to help him. scroll down to the bottom of this crap to read more about george h. w. bush and northern trust bank.

the people who tried to confuse the community about me and money already know that people know that they are lying, so it is really about them wanting people to know that they hate people who have more than they have.

i tried talking sense into this black guy and mexican girl again yesterday, just as i have many times. they are confused, angry, very childish creatures. they need love, but when you give them love or show them love, they just try to provoke me and make me angry even more, so that people don't' think that i was loving. they are like children who are giving everyone a big temper tantrum for many years, screaming and throwing things and breaking things and talking back because they can't get what they want. they have a weird ego problem and image problem. personality disorder. sociopaths. psychopaths. incredibly mean. punkish sleazy attitudes. like obnoxious adolescents who talk back to their parents.

some black women and this black guy panicked about their image problem which they created for themselves, so they want to try to make me look bad but they won't. mexican girl does the same thing. paris hilton is also doing the same thing, but trying to be sneaky about it.

they want people to know that they get a sick thrill from hurting and confusing people. they are creating unnecessary drama because they are boring. this is what happens when a public person doesn't' have police protection.





some people are creating a lose, lose situation for themselves and me and the community. it is sad and illogical. they don't even care about themselves. good luck and God bless you.

https://biblehub.com/philippians/4-7.htm

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i am sorry if information which was in this section confused you, but the truth is that a few people owe me and the community an apology. i don't mean that i would actually expect someone to actually apologize to me.

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i don't know whether to put the info which i had in this section back. very confusing. tired of thinking about it. i need to have something about how a few people are lying about me in order to protect the majority good people who are defending me and the community.

some black women wanted to kill the spirit of america because my spirit exceeded theirs. i understand if ignorant people think "it doesn't seem like you have much spirit." exactly. that is what they wanted to do. it was sabotage. i am much more cheerful in person 24/7 if you met me in person. negative, unhappy people envied people who were more happy or positive, so they wanted to fuck with our spirit. it is like going to a job, and some people can't keep up, and they are also immature, and so they want to drag everyone down to their level, not focused on goals or doing a good job because they really don't believe that they can accomplish much in life.

they keep trying to politicize me. they keep trying to make me unpopular. why do you want to talk about me? leave me alone. they keep trying to politicize me, and they are lying about me too. why do you want to involve me in your lives? because you think that it makes you seem more interesting? leave me alone. get a life. do you own social work on your own.

people who think that they are less than i am, try to politicize me and make me unpopular, in order to try and make it seem like they are more than i am. they think that they have to lie about me in order to do this. strong people are not the problem. weak people are the problem. i just want to be left alone. why are you wanting to involve me in your life?

a few people are holding everyone hostage because they don't want to have to do work, as people ordinarily do work. they don't want to do work and they also want special treatment.

black guy
paris hilton
mexican girl
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the people who are intentionally causing problems are like people who call into work, lying, wanting people to think that they have an excuse to not work when they don't have an excuse. they are lazy, lame losers. they do nothing, sitting around all day long, wanting people to think that they are more special or more interesting than they are. i have much better things to do than to sit at my computer, typing this shit. the reason that i get angry and frustrated, trying so hard, is because i want peace and happiness and productivity for everyone. some people are intentionally causing a problem and i have tried to make it impossible for them to get away with lying or imply that they have a excuse to be stupid. they think that if people know that i am happy and busy, that there is pressure on them to be happy and busy, and because they think that they can't be happy or because they are lazy, they don't even try. they mock honest people who like to work. they are trying to make it seem like sleazy thugs who hustle are dominant. they make fun of me because i am honest and because i work and also want to work. they are lazy and dishonest and very very rude.

sorry, i can't help you. i have tried.

they keep implying that i am the most dishonest person in the world, when actually i am the most honest person in the world, and that they don't want to do the same thing which i do IN PUBLIC. they lie, because it means that other people were the problem, and that they don't want to make it some kind of awkward social situation for themselves or the public at large.

this is real easy to understand. nice honest people versus mean dishonest people. it has always been that way. i don't need to reinvent the wheel, do I?

do you really want to know about me? just read the bible, or go to church.

this mexican girl and black guy keep trying to make ignorant people think that they are stars or celebrities, when they are actually just weird, deranged, very rude mean people with mental and social problems. very childish, like a child who wants to fanaticize about being something which they aren't or being recognized for being something which they aren't. they have personality disorders. very mean psychopaths. something like an animal and human mixed together (alien). it wants something for itself, but it implies that it doesn't have to communicate anything intelligent or kind in order to get it. it is like a thug bully in jail or a mental instituation, which steals peoples food or implies that it has the right to steal people's food. very lazy. very stupid. very greedy. very mean. psychopaths. it spends all of its time trying to deceive ignorant people. it doesn't like what it is, compared to me or other positive, happy people. it seems like it is impossible for this creature to think positive, because of it thinking about what it is (inferior/animal) compared to human beings which are more normal or healthy or happy, so it doesn't like thinking about how others are positive, so it intentionally acts aggressive, in order to make people negative by making them think about something negative or a negative person. it is intentionally making people negative, but pretending as if it is trying to make them positive. totally full of shit because it thinks that it is in trouble. it tries to be crafty but it is really just stupid. it is lying and sending a signal to other evil people to lie, stating that i was the one who wasn't positive when they just can't keep up with my positive. they just don't want there to be such a noticeable differentiation between good happy people and evil negative people, so they are intentionally making everyone negative. that is why they are staking me and everyone else. they don't like what they are, but are faking thinking that they do. they are confused and trying to survive. it is a nasty, animal like creature, which is confused about what it is and desperately trying to survive. it doesn't like itself, but pretends as if it does.

ordinarily, i would just call the police and get rid of a stalker. i am a public person and i am being stalked. do you want to try to help? they are using this unique situation as a way of stalking the entire community.

they have weird, very childish, unusual issues with jealousy or envy and it seems as if they want people to know that they have weird, very childish unusual issues with jealousy or envy. not only do they want to harm me, but they indicate that they want to harm anyone who acts like they love me or care about me. they have personal problems which i don't have, and that is why they act in the way which they act.

they are just lazy, pretending as if they think something about me which they don't think, because they don't want to have pressure on them to act in the way which i act, in public. not christ like. i guess because they are incapable of being christ like. they want to mock people who are christ like. not intelligent enough or they don't have a heart. like i said, it is nice honest people versus mean dishonest people. i suppose it will always be that way. so who cares? very mean negative people versus very loving positive people. go figure...

like i said, some people are holding us hostage. lazy, uncaring people want to hold everyone else hostage. they are very lazy and very lame.

oh well, i tried. sorry, i can't help you or work a "miracle".

some black women want people to think of the fact that i called this black women in 2008 a name, and not the fact that she assaulted me, being incredibly cruel, and also indicating that she was dishonest. she wanted to try to humiliate me for no good reason, and so i wanted to humiliate her because i did have a good reason. what she did was sadistic and evil. she wanted to interfere with my happiness when i had done nothing wrong. guess what? it back fired, didn't it, you dumb, incredibly mean, incredibly childish black bitch...

oh, i'm not allowed to say anything bad about black people? oh, i have to be afraid of them? i'm not a plantation owner. and guess what? black people sold black people into slavery. i have demonstrated respect and love toward black people, and then they wanted to hurt me even more, intentionally making me angry because of it, because they thought that it looked like i was a loving person and that they weren't loving people. why should i try to work with these fucked up creatures? it is impossible. it really isn't difficult to understand. when you add christ to people who are not christ like, it creates a problem.

some black women thought that the paris hilton issue in the past might be the start of me being around people who had money or people who were on tv so they wanted to block it. they thought that i was being recognized. black women are trying to portray me as someone who is greedy and mean. no. not greedy and not mean. they are mean, and they didn't want me to be able to be around people who have money for some reason. i didn't expect hilton to write back to me and i didn't care if she did. that was not the reason that i corresponded with her to begin with. i was not a fan of hers. i was neutral. the lesson was that you can still show people who are in trouble some love. she was in jail. in reference to what happened at the grocery store in 2008, when i was about to get the change out of the metal change dish, i thought about my pride in making my own money and then it got mixed together with hilton because i thought she liked me so it was confusing. i thought that maybe a white lady who was standing next to me in the check out at a grocery store the night before i had a bad experience with a black lady who was next to me in the check out at the same grocery store the next day, was giving me a look like she was implying that hilton and i were stupid. now i don't think that she was giving me a stupid look, but flirting with me. i thought that i liked hilton in the beginning because i thought that she was sticking up for me in public, even when other people wouldn't. it would have confused anyone. i had pride in earning my own money, but it got combined with the thought of hilton's money because i thought that hilton liked me, so it was confusing. earning respect for making my own money was important to me, so her money was not a big deal to me or i didn't want it, but then the more that i would think about how it was not a big deal, the more that it would seem like i was making a big deal out of it. then the more that it seemed like i was making a big deal out of it, then the more that i would think that i wasn't making a big deal out of it. then the more that it would seem that i wasn't making a big deal out of it, then the more that it would seem like i was making a big deal out of it. this is how i became confused at the grocery store in 2008 all in a matter of 3 or 4 seconds. i also felt the need to indicate that i was willing to try to protect hilton, because i thought that the white lady at the grocery store was implying that both hilton and i were stupid, so that is why i acted like i was pulling hilton closer to me when i took the change out of the change dish. what was i suppose to do? leave the change in the change dish? i took the change out of the change dish with a slightly more aggressively feeling than normal, but not something you would have been able to notice as i was doing it. i felt awkward and confused as i was doing it. several things were confusing me all at once. i talked about it when i got back to my apartment from the grocery store because i didn't like the idea of people thinking that i was greedy. i wish that people could see how nasty and childish and mean spirited that black woman who attacked me the next day at the grocery store was. everyone knew that it was innocent, but just a confused, awkward moment in public which anyone would have had to struggle with. i had quit using drugs, quit drinking alcohol. quit smoking cigarettes. exercising. doing what i was supposed to do on while on probation. i had a very interesting job as a production assistant in a live theater and another job, as a production assistant for setting up stage and lights and sound for different events. . there was a dramatic change in my spirit and they wanted to stop it because my new confidence confused them or made them feel inferior. they also thought that they were going to look stupid for having said many mean childish things about me and my past. i developed, and then it seemed like they didn't want me to be able to. the same is true right now, at this very moment. they knew that i had started to write something. i am not wanting to write now, except for an article which i started to work on about sensationalism in the media. i am not wanting to work in theater. the black woman at the grocery store wanted to hurt my spirit, and she knew that i was innocent, so i wanted to hurt her spirit, because she was a nasty, ugly, childish mean bitch. it seemed like she envied my spirit or my new peace which i developed. all black women want people to think about is the fact that i called this black women a name, and not the fact it was a normal reaction to her assaulting me for no good reason. she was childish and cruel. and that is what i have continued to experience from some black women. childishness and cruelty. they want to fuck with my spirit for some reason. they also infected my blood when i was at a hospital, causing me to have 3 major surgeries. i thought that maybe black people would infect my blood, and i talked out loud about it when i was in the hospital 2 or 3 days before they stuck me with a dirty needle. guess what? they did it just to spite me, wanting to prove that my thought about them being nasty and dangerous was true. go figure. they are trying to intimidate people. like stupid gangster thug shit. they can be stupid gangster thug shit if they want to be. i would rather be something else. most people would rather be something else. most black people would rather be something else.

i really want black people or black women to be alright, but if i don't have this information made public, some of them will lie and try to create division in the community.

i also want people to know that i am in great pain. i am a sitting duck. public person with no police or government protection. that means that the entire community is in trouble. we have to worry about childish mean weirdos who act aggressively because they want attention. most people are not a problem.

it makes some black women so angry when i am peaceful and happy. this is what it goes back to. i am a peaceful and happy person by nature. people who don't know me in person would be surprised. you should get to know me in person. i have so many reasons to be peaceful and happy, and they know this, and it makes black women very angry, because they are not peaceful and happy creatures. they are constantly provoking me in this really ugly childish way, in order to take my peace and happiness away from me, so that they feel "better" about themselves. they refer to their own envy of my peace and happiness.

it is like being raped by a bunch of weird stupid incredibly mean black people. they are lame but wanting ignorant people to think that i am lame. they are very mean unhappy creatures and so they don't like thinking of my happiness so they intentionally make me unhappy, pretending as if they have a good reason to do this when they don't.

sergeant milroe with the houston debakey VA hospital police tried to poison me with something in my coffee in may of 2011, but i made myself vomit it out when i got to la grange, texas, about 2 hours later. the girl who worked at the starbucks at the VA hospita said something weird to me as she served me the coffee. milroe and another black VA police man were standing close by.to the starbucks. people knew that i intended to get coffee about 10 or 15 minutes earlier when i was outside in the parking lot, finding a parking space, because i talked out loud about it. enough time for milroe or someone to go to the pharmacy and get medication to put in my coffee. there was a big white gob of shit in the toilet which i vomited up when i got to la grange. my eyes turned bloodshot on the way there and i felt drugged. everybody felt it.

it is too bad that some people were savages.

sorry, can't help you unless the police can protect me. i can't make you healthy while people are intentionally making me unhealthy, making a very childish, very mean game out of this. just like public people are protected, i would need protection.

what a few people did to me is evil and very cruel. they have confined me, knowing that i am innocent. they have not only confined me, but other people as well. they were guilty, or they thought that they were in trouble or would be confined, so they lied about me, confining me to them or people who they know that i know are lying about me. ignorant people don't understand, i can't have a thought because i didn't have a thought, because i didn't have a thought, because my train of thought is being manipulated or interfered with. we are being constantly threatened, which means that we are not free. i am being confined. we are being confined. i would not be writing this right now, but again, today, i was confined, which means that i can't develop. not only is it a problem at the present, the people who are doing it are basically telling me and other people that they will not allow us to develop. you have to have a thought in order to be able to have a thought. i am being forced to think of the same stupid shit lame people every day who do nothing but play games. they flaunt being ugly. they want notoriety. they are taunting the community.

it is like having been put in jail by an evil, political entity when you are not guilty. dirty politics. they want to put anyone who acts like they care about me in jail too. you don't understand how they get to me and other people every day. they make it impossible for us to develop because they envy how we can develop more than they can. oh well. too bad.

some black women got angry because they think that this situation means that people would think that i am more accepted than they are (christ), and they already had a problem with feeling as if they were accepted, so they became really angry and mean and childish. the paris hilton issue didn't help. i'm sick of thinking about it. that's right, that's right... more negative shit. that is exactly what they wanted. they make a sick childish joke about how they are trying to make me negative and unpopular like it is a game to them, like they are admitting to the fact that they know that i would be more popular if they would get the fuck out of my life. they are nasty ugly attitude creatures who want to hurt anyone who is happier than they are. i am a very positive cheerful person if you know me all of the time. unfortunately, i got stuck with people who are lazy and who are negative or who don't give a shit.

some of these black women mock people who are loving. i apologized to innocent black women back in 2008 and the problem to begin with wasn't even my fault. then i went to an all black church and a black adult put a young black girl's hand in my hand and they sang and i cried hard for about 2 or 3 minutes because i of the general love which i have for black people. this is before they intentionally infected my blood, wanting people to know that they infected my blood, wanting people to think that they should be afraid of black people. they try to fabricate evidence against me or cover up the fact that they were the initial problem. they are so insecure. they don't care about themselves. i'm not the problem. they provoke me when it is evident that i am loving, in order to try to make it seem like i am fake. i'm not fake, and i will send nasty people to their grave all fucked up so that hopefully they can figure it out for themselves. it would be more confusing and painful for me if i didn't become angry, and they know that, because i don't have privacy. no privacy. 24/7. you have no idea about how difficult this is when people are blatantly sick cruel disrespectful to you in public, with them knowing that you will never get a break from it because you have no privacy. you know what? i am going to have fun anyway, you stupid angry negro bitch! and then they try to make it seem like it is not a hollywood movie about christ because i am angry. fuck hollywood stories about jesus christ and fuck the bible! you don't know a damn thing about the real christ or that situation because you weren't there.

and just because i call some nasty, incredibly mean black woman or women a bitch, like they should be referred to, they probably want to walk around with a creepy weird ugly smirk on their face, wanting ignorant people to think that they have leverage over everyone. that's right, with their creepy weird ugly smirk, like they want people to know that they like to hurt an innocent defenseless white boy in public.

oh, oh... we have to be afraid of angry black people, because they are angry about slavery. they won't let it go, or they don't have anything else to think about. they imply that it is pay back time for slavery. guess what?! i didn't do anything to you. leave me and my family alone. like they imply that they are going to hurt everyone because they think that people think that they are inferior. they are a threat to national security. childish mean black women playing around with computers and the internet. they are conspiring. they want people to know that they are conspiring.

i didn't start out this way. hate is learned. and if you would have been treated the way that i have been treated for the last 14 years, black people would make you uncomfortable too.

interesting, how it seems like the government wants to sweep this under the rug. they want make it about stiff politics instead of about love. so do other people. you could think of it as a seed, but without being nurtured or watered or given sunlight, it won't do as well. people make this about stiff, cold politics instead of about love. i was about love, but other people didn't want to do the same thing, so it got all messed up. why don't you just kill me, before nasty people have time to hurt the community some more? myself included.

they want to be hated, because they think that they are more dominant that way. i think i am getting to the point where i don't care if i am hated. i want attention, because i am being ignored. but all i want is to be left alone. all i want is to be left alone, and i am being ignored. so guess what is happening? i am getting really pissed. why? because i want attention. that's why. why do i want attention? because i want peace and quiet. not only for me, but for the entire community. every single day, more than one time a day, i am blatantly violated. confined. not only are they confining me at that moment, but they are making it clear that they will continue to confine me and anyone who wants to move on from this stupid shit, every single day. so it is madness. why don't you just kill me? either kill me, or make a story about me in order to obtain a defense. the government can make a story about me like "yeah, he is here. so what? leave him and his family alone! he is not a threat. we monitor him." real simple, isn't it. and also, "he doesn't want to be involved in church or politics." real simple, isn't it. what was the point? that reincarnation or life cycles are real. how does it make sense for the president of the united states to be sworn in with the use of a bible, but not inform the public about christ's current presence, as a way of safeguarding the order and peace of the community? it is a sham. if they are already making a big deal of it, then what is the big deal to communicate about it again?

people treat me in an abusive way, in order to try to make me react, in order to try to make people not like me or love me. they do this because they have weird childish psychological issues or problems because they think that i am more special or loved that they are. in a way, i don't care if all of you people who really don't know me, like me. what matters is that my dogs like me, and my cats like me, and my girlfriend likes me, and my parents (mom and step dad) like me, and the rest of my family (sister and brother in law and niece and nephews) likes me, and my girlfriends mom likes me. guess what? they do. i am a sweet boy. but i am being abused in public by weirdos who have a weirdo fixation on me. they get a weirdo thrill from interacting with me in public. it is sick. literally sickening. would you like to help, please?

this black guy with my vision in his left eye and mexican girl with my vision in her left eye are terrorizing the community. they like to scare people. they are a danger for children. they should be killed. they are a weird alien which is like part animal and part human. it is very childish and mean. like it is retarded. it is deranged, like a crazy homeless person. they intentionally incapacitate people's ability to function. it seems like they are childishly fanaticizing about having some type of power which they want to have in the future. it seems like they have a social problem and sex problem. they are very childish envious very mean creatures. too bad it couldn't have been a happy loving feeling every day. some people were jealous and envious, so they wanted to ruin it. they think like sleazy thugs. they are wanting to scare people. they make people negative, while making a sick joke about how they are trying to fool ignorant people into thinking that they are positive and that other people who complain about them are negative. they are also sending a signal to evil people to lie, stating that they are positive or friendly and that i am negative or unfriendly, while being incredibly sleazy at the same time, like they are implying that it doesn't matter if people know that they are the ones who are the problem, as long as they have something to lie about. they are negative. very weird and negative. everything would be fine if they just left people alone. they are trying to get something for themselves and they don't care about harming other people. they are negative because they are not content. that is why they keep trying to get something for themselves. they are trying to take something away from good people and give it to negative people. they are lazy and trying to cheat. very sleazy, creepy attitudes, like they are saying "yes, we are evil".






black women in america are going to regret letting these stupid unfriendly negative black women who i am in constant 24/7 activity with boss you around. they are negative aliens. they have lost contact with God consciousness.

some people in america want to humiliate someone who they think is more special than they are or who gets more attention than they do. that is what all of this crap is. do you understand? do you think that i would be typing all of this, if people weren't constantly provoking me, trying to humiliate me in public? they are trying to trick you. they want you to see what i am doing, but they don't want you to understand what they are doing. dirty ugly politics, but i am not dirty or ugly. it is a cruel place. i have no police protection. do you understand? this is what happens when the police do not or can not protect someone. it is easy to understand. why don't you get the police to make a statement with the media?


sergeant milroe with the houston debakey VA hospital police tried to poison me with something in my coffee in may of 2011, but i made myself vomit it out when i got to la grange, texas, about 2 hours later. the girl who worked at the starbucks said something weird to me as she served me the coffee. milroe and another black VA police man were standing close by.to the starbucks. people knew that i intended to get coffee about 10 or 15 minutes earlier when i was outside in the parking lot, finding a parking space. enough time for milroe or someone to go to the pharmacy and get medication to put in my coffee. there was a big white gob of shit in the toilet which i vomited up when i got to la grange. my eyes turned bloodshot on the way there and i felt drugged. everybody felt it.

it is too bad that some people were savages. sorry, can't help you unless the police can protect me.

black people and this mexican girl keep wanting to involve me in their lives and i don't want to be involved. they think that they can't do it without me because they are so weak and boring. this black guy with my vision in his left eye is a weird creepy little irritating evil bitch who always wants to involve me in his life in order to try to make it seem like he is bigger than he is. this black guy is tiny and that is what the good black women think about him too. he already knows that i want him to get away from me, but he likes to make a sick joke about being a stalker. this mexican girl is involving me in her life because she is trying to make it seem like girls (in general) are more powerful or interesting than they are. she wants to boss a guy around in the future, so she is trying to make it seem like she is more powerful than she is by wanting people to know that she was "associating" with me. she is a very weak, boring, disrespectful mexican female who i would never associate with.

this doesn't mean that i am unfriendly. it means that they are uncivil. lazy too. they are disturbing the peace. they are implying that they don't have to do what they are supposed to do, like it is a basic requirement of a basic job in life. to be respectful, to act like you care. like being at a job and having to act like you care about doing your job. like it was a basic duty of their job to do something and they imply that they didn't want to do it because they are too lazy or because they want people to know that they don't care because they want people to know that they don't care about trying to advance in life. they are lazy. still complaining about slavery, like they are complaining that they have to do work. very basic work. it is also about them not wanting to act like they care about doing other things as well. they don't want to acknowledge who is who, or what is what. they know that i am sweet and that i work hard, but becausee the don't do the same or want to do the same, the pretend as if they don't know what is going on. like not doing their job. like acting like they don't care about doing work, like they are implying that they think that it won't get them anywhere because they really don't want to have to try in life.

black women are implying that no one is allowed to say that they look like an animal, even when they do look like an animal. and they also imply that no one is allowed to say that they look like an animal, even when they act like a nasty angry mean animal. why should it matter if i called some black woman a rottweiler with rabies, when she actually looked like that? me saying that you look like a rottweiler with rabies in not a crime, especially since you were the one who assaulted me for no good reason. stealing people's mail is a crime. many times. so it infecting their blood when they are at a hospital. so is tampering with their mail (recently/VA hospital). you disturb the peace, black bitch. you are angry about something, and it isn't me. oh, you don't like me? well, that's ok... because i don't like you... you are just angry because you do look like a rottweiler with rabies, and also because you got caught doing something very mean, betraying the community.

you wanna keep going on, black women??? i don't. oh yeah, you wanted to be in a special relationship with me, didn't you??? you thought that it made you seem special, didn't you? ever since the paris hilton incident.

what these black women are doing essentially is letting people know that they are angry for being lower. like their dissatisfaction. their behavior is meant to be thought of as low, like they are indicating that they think that they are low, and also that they are angry. get a life, stupid black bitches. you are lazy and don't try. quit complaining about slavery. quit complaining about the way you look, too. everyone is sick of your dumb bullshit. you try to make everybody come down to your level because you can't keep up.

maybe i should go to the VA hospital in houston, texas, and beat any black women who i see with a baseball bat. black women are intentionally turning a place which is supposed to be about respect, into a place of blatant stupid disrespect. they are intentionally doing the opposite of what they are supposed to do, with a stupid, very ugly attitude problem. when given the opportunity to do the right thing, they don't. they can't even deliver the mail and mail is a very easy job. it is a federal offense to steal mail, and they have recently stolen my mail (advance directive) from the VA hospital to me. they want to take someone's effort and turn it into pain and confusion. they are indicating that they don't care about doing their job because they are lazy and also that the don't care about trying to move on to anything else in life because they are so lazy. then they also want people to feel sorry for them. they are so stupid and childish. i never thought that i would have this problem with black people, but i now i do. for the last 14 years.

it is like being raped, and i am trying to fight off my attacker. i may not be able to stop them, but i gouged out this mexican girl and black guy's ugly eyes. black women's ugly eyes too. all i want is peace and quiet for everyone, every day. but they don't want me to have peace and quiet. people don't want me to have peace and quiet. they think of it as entertainment because they sit around doing nothing. even if i don't communicate about it, people know that i am not having peaceful days because i lack privacy or because i am in activity with people who are also communicating that there is a problem. for me to not communicate something myself, when i know that other people are communicating about it, is very confusing or humiliating. it would make the entire group or community look weak. why doesn't someone just show a little bit of kindness and sociability and communicate something supportive to me? i think that it would get me to calm down. is there a website that i could know about? it seems like people are aware of something when i go outside. what are they reading? what is going on? i have been confused about this for years. don't expect me to work a "miracle". this is sick and sad. it reveals something horrible about human nature.

do these people who are harassing me every day really believe that people would believe that they are harassing me because i did something wrong? or is it that they want people to think that they are harassing me just for their stupid fun? they do the same thing every day. they want to stop me from being more than they are, and they pretend as if they have an excuse to do it. they don't like the thought of someone being more than they are.

i'm not the problem. ugly psychopaths are the problem.

this mexican girl is trying to have me killed with her nasty aggression. she is doing it with a real smug attitude. she thinks that if it works, then it works for her bullshit which she wants to tell someone. like that she is right, because it seems as if other people didn't like me. she thinks if it doesn't work, then it works for her bullshit which she wants to tell someone. like that she is right, because it seemed like it wasn't that bad or like she thinks that she can say that it didn't bother people and that i was wrong for saying that it bothered me.

black women in america in large internet groups are a threat to american security and global security. they used my situation in order to pretend as if they had a reason to be grouped together or believe in something as a group. it was a "convenient" way for them to try to make people think that they believed in something as a group. black women in america and electronic communication devices to not mix well.

some black women really are dumb, mean and childish. i didn't care until they started to stupidly attack me. i wouldn't care, if they weren't attacking me and everyone else. get out of our life.

they are fake, and pretend like they think that this evil creep black guy with my vision in his left eye, is good and that i am evil. they actually don't think that, but they try to use him and he tries to use them. they both embarrassed themselves. some black women are destroying america just for the sake of destroying america. they are still angry about slavery and they want to hurt people. weird psychological problems. people always make a story about white hate, but what about black hate toward whites? in reference to this black guy with my vision in his left eye, fake black women have an attitude like, "say that it be about a black man who be God, even if the black man be stupid." i would rather not have to think about any of this. why don't they leave me and everyone else alone? you see what i am communicating on the internet, but you don't see what they are communicating on the internet. they don't want you to see what they are communicating on the internet.

most of this shit in this section of this website is a result of negative aliens attacking us. they are trying to make people think that i am negative. no. i am not. i am not psychopathic either like they want you to believe. they are trying to deceive you. i am a very positive happy cheerful person if you know me in person all of the time 24/7. negative people are sabotaging other people's lives, because they can't keep up with people who are more motivated and/or intelligent. this is what happens when you add christ to a group of people. some people can't do it or don't want to do it, so they obstruct and then try to create a movement of people who act like they are lazy and don't care. they want resources because they think that they will have to compete somehow in order to survive. i don't think that it will work out too well for them. dumb leading the dumb. it is more about their fake pride and weird ego than doing anything intelligent.

instead of this evil mexican girl and evil black guy pretending as if they think that they are right and everyone else is wrong, why don't they just get out of everyone's life? they create a problem every single day. why don't they just go away? they know that people would say that things are better if they went away, that's why. they are trying to give themselves a way of perpetuating a lie, which they want other evil people to try to spread, with that lie being that they are humble and that i am not. they are not humble. they are intentionally aggravating people in a really creepy, sleazy way every day, so that we can't relax or focus well. they keep wanting to make it all about them every day, wanting to try to show off like obnoxious children, instead of leaving people alone. they are not humble. they don't like the idea of people thinking that they are weird and that they were the problem and that they were rejected, so they are trying to make it seem like i should be rejected, but doing it in a way which means that they are sending a signal to evil people to lie about me. i could have done some excellent work for the last 9 years if it were not for these people. i don't think that i could have gotten my screenplay idea produced, but it would have been fun to try. unfortunately it was made sour. doesn't mean that i didn't care. i wouldn't have even started to write any of this. i would have been upstairs relaxing in bed with herbal tea with my dog before i go to bed. real simple. real peaceful. these people are evil and into trying to deceive. it is pure evil. they don't care if people know that they are lying. they are just going to make a big mess, sort of like any other terrorist organization.

what i meant when i stated that i wanted to find a job for people with mental disabilities is that i have been harassed really badly at the job which i have now, but i like to get out of my house and work, so i want to find a job where it doesn't matter if i am talking out loud a little bit or acting a little unusual while i work. i can still do my job. most people wouldn't have done what i have done and continue to do, given the circumstances. i like to work, but this mexican has always tried to trick ignorant people into thinking that i am lazy and unfriendly, or that she was trying to help me when she wasn't or isn't, or that i deserve to be harmed when i don't. she is constantly trying to politicize me and demonize me, because she thinks that people think that she is the demon. she is angry because she thinks that she can't get what she wants. she is playing a very childish game, like she wants mexican guys to know that she is a demon, because she stupidly thinks that means that they want to have sex with her. she is constantly sending a signal out to mexican guys who she thinks are sort of low class or whatever, that she is easy, and that she is the type of mexican girl who acts like she hates white people, even if she doesn't.

what black women have been doing for years is self destructive. it is sad. apparently they don't have any good leadership on the internet, or it is mostly childish angry dishonest crap.

what this mexican girl is doing is self destructive too. she wants ignorant people to think that i don't know what i am communicating about. that is why she is doing so much of what she is doing. she is trying to trick ignorant people into thinking that i am the one who has the mental problem. she is the one with the mental problem. she wants to make people negative. she has a personality disorder. she has childish anger problem. she wants to play with me and hurt me too, in front of everyone, because i rejected her back in 2013. since i rejected her, she thought that she would stab me and everyone else in the back, trying to make it seem as if she was God and that i was evil. she is some kind of weird creepy demon. just like the black guy is. this doesn't mean that i think that all mexicans and all blacks are demons. i prefer some mexicans and blacks to some white people.

this is what i was referring to, when i stated that some black women want to be thought of as like my girlfriend or wife, wanting people to think that i think about them, and that they have authority or power over me. actually, they want all men to think that they have the power. who the fuck do they think they are? this is what i meant, when i stated previously that it is like they are saying "ah nah, paris hilton ain't your girlfriend! i be your girlfriend!" or like "ah nah, you ain't gonna think of paris hilton! you gonna think about me!", and they are still doing it. they are so stupid. i don't mean that paris hilton was or is my girlfriend. i thought that she wanted to be my girlfriend in the beginning, but that was just confusion which she created by corresponding to me in a childish, cryptic, unnecessary way. i was neutral about her at first and then THOUGHT that i liked her when there really wasn't a reason to. now i hate her.

it is like some of these black women want to stupidly act up so that they can get beaten over and over so that they feel as if they are getting attention. not only that, but they want it to seem as if they are right and i am wrong. they are wrong. what they are doing and have been doing for years is weird and abusive. they want to abuse a white male in public who they think is more special than they are. they have a problem with the concept of their self when they compare it to me. there would not be a problem if it had not been for their totally stupid and unnecessary aggression. this goes back for years. they have a weird psychological problem and it is because of their gossip. they use each other as a crutch, in order to feel stronger about themselves, instead of doing something as strong independent individuals. they are weak, but want to be thought of as strong.

these black women want attention for being childish and ugly and mean. it doesn't make any sense. they are socially lame. their intent is to be thought of as stupid, yet dominant. it is really irritating. they imply that they don't want to try to be something more in life.

and what do they intend to create with their dumb dominance?

they are pretending as if they are angry with me. they aren't. they are angry at themselves. they think that they have made themselves look bad and so they want ignorant people to think that hurting me makes it seem like i was the problem. i wasn't the problem. they just couldn't keep up with a sweet, honest white boy, so they decided to flaunt being dumb obnoxious ghetto shit.

there is strong evidence that black women at the VA hospital are stupidly childishly harassing me. they seem to want people to know that this is what they are doing, and implying in a really ugly way that no one can do anything about it. they have been doing it for years. not only do they disrespect me, but all veterans. i think that they want to try to stupidly boss all men who are veterans around, like they are implying that women with no honor are superior to men who do have honor. i am going to speak with a manager at the VA hospital tomorrow about the harassment.

i am going to delete most of this in this section. i don't like the thought of people being hurt and confused by this. i need to make a statement, so that good people who i am in activity with, are not thrown under a bus. it is sad that a few people decided to betray the community because of their own greed, or because of their own social problems which they created for themselves. i am having trouble being able to focus or think clearly about what i am doing.

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they want to harm someone who they know would have been more confident and happy in public than they can be. the activity can cause people who are not confident or happy to have unusual psychological problems. they want to make me less happy and confident, so that they feel better about themselves.

paris hilton and other girls created a whole lot of unnecessary confusion, frustration, tension and sadness. hilton could fix the problem with her by sending me $150 back, but i doubt that she will. she is involved in a cover up, and the cover up allows other people to act like it doesn't matter if they play very mean games. she knows this, but doesn't care.

i stated that i don't like some black women, but they are not even trying to be liked. they try to make me hate them, in order to try to create a stupid double standard, like they are implying that people have to like them, no matter what. they try to make it seem like i shouldn't be liked because i don't like them or because i don't like everyone. there is a concept known within christianity, known as "the enemy". maybe also "the other side". why should christ not have enemies if christians don't? christ did have enemies. but why not love them, if they are just going to make it be able for you to accomplish more good?

https://www.biblehub.com/matthew/5-44.htm

some black women thought that the paris hilton thing in the past might be the start of me being around people who had money or people who were on tv so they wanted to block it. i didn't expect hilton to write back to me and i didn't care if she did. that was not the reason that i corresponded with her to begin with. in reference to what happened at the grocery store in 2008, i thought about my pride in making my own money and then it got mixed together with hilton because i thought she liked me so it was confusing. i thought that i liked her in the beginning because i thought that she was sticking up for me, even when other people wouldn't. it would have confused anyone. her money was not a big deal to me or i didn't want it, but then the more that i would think about how it was not a big deal, the more that it would seem like i was making a big deal out of it. then the more that it seemed like i was making a big deal out of it, then the more that i would think that i wasn't making a big deal out of it. then the more that it would seem that i wasn't making a big deal out of it, then the more that it would seem like i was making a big deal out of it. this is how i became confused at the grocery store in 2008. what was i suppose to do? leave the change in the change dish? i wish that people could see how nasty and childish and mean spirited that black woman who attacked me the next day at the grocery store was. everyone knew that it was innocent, but just a confused, awkward moment in public which anyone would have had to struggle with. i had quit using drugs, quit drinking alcohol. quit smoking cigarettes. exercising. doing what i was supposed to do on while on probation. i had a very interesting job as a production assistant in a live theater. there was a dramatic change in my spirit and they wanted to stop it because my new confidence confused them or made them feel inferior. they also thought that they were going to look stupid for having said many mean childish things about me and my past. they knew that i had started to write something. i am not wanting to write now, except for an article which i started to work on about sensationalism in the media. i am not wanting to work in theater.

i debate whether or not to delete everything in this 'community' section of this website, but then a few people think that they have the opportunity to lie about me. they want to politicize me, lying about me in order to try to make it seem like they are superior. it was totally unnecessary. they are the ones who want to create division in the community.

i was not advocating the usage of methamphetamine when i wrote 'WWJD'. it was past tense or about the way things can be. i also have a sense of humor. don't expect me to act like a monk. i am a recovering drug addict and i always will be. i have a criminal record, but there are people in the world who have done or who are doing much worse or illegal things than i ever did or would do, and they do not have a criminal record. i have had 5 charges in my adult life. 2 of them were dismissed, and with the other 3 there was no conviction because i completed probation each time successfully.

https://biblehub.com/matthew/10-16.htm

it is more difficult for nice people to understand what is going on, because typically nice people are not associated with mean people. people form into groups, based upon how they act or what type of character they have. nice people are typically associated with nice people, and mean people with mean people. i got associated with people who i would not normally associate with, because they are not nice or intelligent, or because of a lack of a common interest. as an example, people in church would have more difficulty understanding what the problem is, because typically there are not wolves in church. "behold, i send you out as sheep amidst the wolves." it is not just about people who go to church, though. it is a group (i think that you can use the word cabal) which forms because of a common characteristic. intelligence, kindness, ambition, etc.

these few black women who i am in constant 24/7 activity with, who have an attitude problem, try to make people think that they are God and that i am not, because they don't like sitting around doing nothing all day like they do, thinking about how i am God and they are not. it seems to make them angry. this is not a problem for strong people. it can be a problem for weak people. this whole problem with black women started with just a few black women who i am in constant 24/7 activity with, who don't do very much, who wanted to stupidly gossip about me and make fun of me in a really stupid mean way which meant that they weren't being honest about what is what. it meant that they didn't have a heart. then they thought that they looked dumb for having talked stupid unfriendly unloving shit about me when i started to move on in 2007, so they sabotaged, not caring about how many people they hurt or would hurt. very childish and very ugly attitudes. very mean. i think that they thought that they were going to have a problem with black men because of all of the stupid mean trash that they talked about me. they never thought back when they started to do this that i would be on the internet, defending myself and the community from them. then the started to act even more dumb.

sorry to seem so negative, but black women have dragged this on and there wasn't a reason to mess with me to begin with. some black women will always lie about me and my character because they think that if they are truthful, that it implies that i was good and that they were bad. not all black women are the same or care about the crap gossip which other lame black women engage in or try to spread. some person who i think was a black women seemed to want to harass me or attempt to defame me when i was about to be at the photoshop lab to work on art today. i got a weird phone call right before i got to the lab and i think that a black woman wanted everyone to know that she was intentionally wanting to be thought of as dumb/irritating, childishly harassing me. they don't do anything intelligent, yet want to be thought of as dominant. it would never work that way. some black women are telling other black women to lie, saying "it don't matter if it be good, say that it ain't." or "it don't matter if he be honest, say that he ain't." this situation is prejudicial. it is unfair prejudice. they are a danger to the health of the community. mental health. also physical health. they infected my blood with something in 2011 which caused diverticulosis. i had to have my colon resectioned. 3 major surgeries. trauma. they are insane and mean. i don't like them. some of them are running around like chickens with their heads cut off, because they think that they have made themselves look so bad since 2008. they got caught not having the heart, and they are lying stating that i didn't have the heart. they never thought that i would be on the internet. they thought that they could harm me, and that i would never be able to defend myself, along with other people. it all goes back to them lying about me and money and paris hilton. they tried to stop me people who had money from being me. not just hilton, but other people as well. they are the ones who made a big deal about money. i didn't. they didn't want me to have it because they don't have it.

this mexican girl thought that i was better or more than she was so she wanted to politicize me in order to try to make mexicans think that they were better than a white person. it is true. she is a very insecure mexican girl. not all mexicans are insecure. what she did and continues to do is so dumb and childish. like she is a little girl who wants to dress up in a costume and play make believe that she is something which she isn't. the black guy does it too. black women did it too.

people keep trying to politicize me. i don't want to be politicized. this mexican girl keeps and black guy keep trying to politicize me in order to try to trick people into thinking that they are superior. they do it because they think that they are inferior and because they are insecure about it. they are so insecure. they even want people to know that they are insecure because they are trying to get people to lie for them. the only reason that i have suggested that people make a story about this on tv news, proving what this group is, with police certification, is because people attack for no good reason and it creates problems for the entire community. there is no order. i should have rights. biology. simple biology. science. science helps. religion doesn't or won't. you make a story about it so that it isn't an unnecessary story or so that it isn't a big deal. we already have the story before. but without the next one it doesn't make as much sense. it is not big deal. is jesus christ a big deal, or does everyone know about him? why would you make a big deal of it this time, or any other time, by thinking that you can't openly communicate about it? the lesson would be, hundreds or thousands of years from now, worldwide, it that it was respected. simple. biology. the universe. science. people can turn vicious and attack me and others who they think like me, so there should be a defense or deterrent. that is where leadership should be. are leaders saying that i am fair game? how will that help the community? there is no order. there is no law. if it is something which is better UNDERSTOOD, and therefore respected, people will leave it alone and think about something else.

this mexican girl keeps trying to make ignorant people think that i am faking being sick. i am not faking being sick. i just don't like the idea of her getting away with trying to deceive the community. she didn't get away with it. i have had a job for about 6 months now working in the country for my step dad's brother at his ranch. i am now looking for work, with the assistance of a vocational help lady, who helps veteran's. i am looking for work where people who have mental problems work. the mexican girl will probably still try to make it look like she is trying to encourage me when she isn't. she is implying that even if i work, that i will still be miserable. she doesn't like the idea of me being more confident than any guy she would ever be with. the the other thing she is doing is implying that i am not allowed to work or have a decent life because she is lying about the george h. w. bush and northern trust bank issue. there isn't anything important about it because it was a bank. read way below. i don't want to work full time, and this mexican keep implying that i have to work like a slave for everyone, trying to politicize me, wanting people to communicate about how she makes it impossible for me to rest in my own bed, when i don't have to work like a slave for everyone. i like working part time and i also enjoy having time to enjoy my life or help my girlfriend when she needs help or take my dog to the dog park. my girlfriend is a school teacher and it is a very stressful job so i like to help her when i can. this mexican tries to make people think that i am lazy and unfriendly, by trying to get people to communicate about how she won't allow me to rest in my own bed. she just tries to make mexican guys not like me. one way or another. it is either i am lazy and unfriendly, or i did something wrong with george h. w. bush and northern trust bank. she doesn't want mexican guys to think that i am more confident than they are. she knows that i did nothing wrong with george h. w. bush and northern trust bank, and that it was this black guy's fault, but she keeps trying to make it seem like they are God (good) and that i am the devil (evil) when she actually thinks the opposite of that. she is trying to give evil people an opportunity to lie about me and the situation. they are demons and she is trying to cover it up by constantly referring to something else to try to distract people from the fact that it is obvious that there is something weird and wrong with them. she thinks that she can't have sex or be in a good relationship with a man and so now she just wants to hurt everyone, including her own family.

this mexican girl and black guy who have my vision in their left eye are intentionally denying people pleasurable thoughts or feelings. it is an outright denial. they have weird psychological problems, and then they want people to are not sensing what is going on, and reading this, to think that i have the psychological problems. they don't even care about their own family's pleasurable thoughts or feelings. they seem to be some type of animal. it knows that it is not what i am, so it doesn't try to be what i am. it just wants to be something different, like it thinks that it is not mentally capable of being loving. they are real sleazy, thug like people, and they flaunt it, trying to recruit people who are the same. they are sending people a signal to lie about what is going on, trying to make it seem as if i am the one who is negative. they have anti social personality disorders. they are like creepy, unlikeable freaks who would be on the dr. phil show. smart asses who don't care about other people's feelings. they are intentionally denying people pleasurable thoughts or feelings, yet trying to trick ignorant people into thinking that i am the one who is negative or not friendly. i am a very cheerful, positive person if you know me in person all of the time. i am a loving person, but unfortunately other people are not or choose not to be. some black women wanted to deny people pleasurable thoughts or feelings also. it seems like when i have happy thoughts or feelings, that they get confused because they can't have the same type of happy thoughts or feelings, so they act aggressively in order to intentionally deny me the ability to produce happy feelings. you have to work for your happiness, and not just get in the way of someone else's in order to make yourself feel "happy". i really want black people to be ok, but i wanted to tell the community that what those few black women did to me and other people was very ugly, childish and sadistic. i know with certainty that some black people agree with me. i don't think that we will ever recover from what they did, and it is like they didn't want people to be able to forget about it, because they want to be thought of as powerful. they seem to do it because they don't think that they are powerful. not all black women are the same. i wish that i had some black friends or just black people to be around to have a joke or a smile with. i would say that i want black women to be ok and happy, but they some of them would just ignore my kindness or act like they have the authority to deny me, implying that they have a reason to harm me even more. i didn't do anything to them. they started it. they keep wanting people to feel sorry for them when they are the one's who are the problem. why are they destroying the happiness of the community? they destroy other people's happiness because they are more confused thinking that other people are happier than they are. i've got a very sweet, smart girlfriend, and i don't want to think about a dumb unfriendly mexican girl or dumb unfriendly black women. they are stalking my girlfriend. they are trying to deny her happiness also, because it is obvious that we are happy together. they seem to want to try to make it all about people's unnecessary suffering, instead of happiness. they do it because they are not happy or because they think that they can't be happy. they don't try enough.

sorry to keep going on, but i can't believe this. it is like a bad dream. these girls who have intentionally messed with the community seem to want to intentionally create the opposite feeling of how a son feels about a good mother; meaning, feeling comfortable and loved. it seems as if they intentionally wanted to create discomfort for a male in public like they didn't want to think of a man's strength. they didn't want to nurture a man in public, like they didn't want him to be strong or like they didn't want men to be strong, or like they didn't want to create the impression that they think that men are more special than women. i am not saying that men are more special than women, but christ is a man. i am not implying that girls have to kiss men's ass, but it would have been nice if i would have been shown a very basic amount of respect. they disrespect me in public like it is a game to them, like they want to humiliate a man who they think has power, like they are trying to make men who they think people think are powerful, look stupid. i am not stupid though. they thought that i was special and wanted to hurt me because of it. for people who don't know me in person, you would assume by reading all of this that i am not as good as i am. they wanted to create negativity. i am really pissed about all of this. you would be too. i can't have one single day of peace and quiet, like people ordinarily have. i am being knowingly stalked and assaulted every day. yet i am supposed to do something for the community?

i can't even think about what i need to do because of how this mexican girl is intentionally polluting my mind. she has been doing this for years and she is trying to make people think that i am faking being sick or that other people are faking being sick too. she is evil. she goes to such a ridiculous vicious ugly extreme in order to try to give herself an alibi or try to make people think that the people who complain about her are crazy or that we don't know what we are communicating about. she is evil and trying to deceive people. her parents should turn her over to the police. she has a very serious mental problem. she likes to hurt people while making a sick joke about how it is "supposed" to be thought of as help like she is implying that people should give her something while she is intentionally making them sick at the same time. it is dumb. she is so greedy. she has never been any help because she only cared about deceiving men into thinking that they should give her something. one way was to try to trick the men into thinking that they should like her and not like me. one of the things which she is doing is trying to make ignorant people think that she is an alien or that she isn't human. she is a human. she and this black guy have the unusual ability to create contractions of my muscle and soft tissue which the rest of the group can sense. they use it as a weapon to subdue and incapacitate with a really ugly, sleazy attitude, like a thug with a weapon pointed at your head, because if i do work then they think that they will have less because they can't keep up or because they think that people will think that they are less, so they are trying to group together a bunch of lazy stupid losers in order to dominate smart, hard working people. this is very painful. i wish that the government would get involved or at least make a statement to the public so that these evil uncivil childish people won't think that they can get away with this. the government should at least say something because keeping it a secret makes it look like they are trying to hide a problem. this mexican girl is like an obnoxious child with a serious behavior problem, like she is screaming "no! i don't want to have to do work!" but she is also trying to trick people, including her ignorant parents, into thinking that she cares more about work than anyone else. that is totally untrue. she is evil. she thinks that when ignorant people read this, that they will think that i don't know what i am communicating about. i do know. she is obstructing, but pretending with a real evil sleazy smug attitude that she is trying to help. obviously it isn't any help. for years. that is how stupid and greedy and evil she is. she doesn't want to have to do work, so she is trying to give herself leverage somehow or get something for herself in another way, implying that someone owes her something. she is the most nasty, evil, disrespectful, greedy mexican scum bitch that there ever was. she thinks about her looks too. oh well. they don't mean anything. she is like a girl who has a personality like a decent looking girl who gets mixed up in the drug scene and wastes her life or gets beat up for fucking somebody over. she is a greedy evil loser who tries to manipulate or hustle her way into money.

i'm adding some color to the aRt-wErk. will post pictures of it with ETSY information when finished.

i really understand if you think that i have gone on too much, but people are being blatantly stupid and they didn't win the argument. i can rest easy. better too much, than too little. i know that people have my back, but because no one who i know agrees with me actually communicates to me, telling me to relax, i worry more than i need to. it is good for me to worry a little, but i wouldn't feel disconnected if someone would communicate to me.

i'll try to relax. it makes me so mad that cheesy, low class, evil, lame people try to dishonor me. they couldn't keep up, so they pretend like they don't know what i do, so that they don't have to make the same type of effort when in public.

what would jesus have done if there had been internet back then? what would people have done if there would have been electronic communication? childish girls with telephones and computers? television? what we learn in schools? they didn't have schools. would jesus have used methamphetamine if they had it? would he have gotten a DWI if they had cars and alcohol which was readily available? WWJD?


another thing about black women wanting people to know that they stole my mail to TMZ more than once was because they were making a big deal of the fact that hilton referred to me on TMZ, like the black women were inferring that they get attention, but i don't. real ugly attitude. they want ignorant people to think that i did something wrong. i didn't. these black women attacking me is like getting jacked all of a sudden, numerous times, by sleazy, low class, lame thugs

ever since paris hilton said something about me on TMZ, some black women wanted to intentionally irritate me and provoke me in public in order to make me think of them and also interfere with my relationship with hilton and everyone else. it was like they were implying that they were special because they were messing with a special person (me) because a famous girl on tv said something about me. they wanted and still want to think that they were special for interacting with me. it was like they were saying (nasty attitude/bossy/stupid/abrasive/loud) "oh no! now hilton don't be your girlfriend... cuz i be yo girlfriend!" and it was or still is so stupid that i would rather die that to have to be stuck around some of these lame black women. black women got confused and angry and wanted to compete with hilton or a girl who has money and is on tv. i am not stating that hilton was my girlfriend. real way below. i have already communicated about this stupid paris hilton shit. i am sick of her. i am sick of this. i was neutral the first time that i wrote to hilton when she was in jail trying to cheer her up because i thought that maybe she was in trouble. i was not a fan of hers. i was neutral. then hilton wrote back and created a big problem, sort of like she knew that she was going to create a big problem because she knew that i didn't have privacy. hilton turned out to be a big, stupid name on a big, stupid building... she wanted to create a bunch of unnecessary drama like it was for her and her childish sister's personal amusement, not caring about the horrible damage which it is doing to the community. i doubt that the kardashians or anyone else would want anything to do with hilton, if they really really understood what kind of horrible thing she did and continues to do to the community. people's feelings. she belittles me (and other people), like she wanted to intentionally belittle a person who has less money than she does, and i never get a break from it because i lack privacy. it is very painful and confusing. maddening, and she and her childish sister seem to enjoy it. i would also hate any man who acted like he liked her. obviously she lied to her husband and former fiancé about me, and to think that she wants to try to use me as a way of making an ignorant guy think that she is more likeable than she is. she thinks that they think that something means something, other than what it actually means, or she doesn't want them to really understand how she has confused me. i just wanted to do something basic kind for her and for my niece (hand bag gift idea) and i got shit all over in public for 14 years. it doesn't surprise. a stupid girl. i don't mean my niece. some girls are cool and smart and some are childish and dumb. any guy with a bit of experience knows that. they are not all sweet and innocent. hilton plays evil, childish, manipulative games with the media and she thought of this group (144,000) as a form of media. not all of the 144,000 are good. it really is maddening. what she did was cruel. not only to me, but to people all over the world. you wouldn't believe how tense and confused i am as i type this, and all i wanted to think about was being nice to a girl and buying a christmas gift for my niece. that is all it would have been. but hilton was greedy and wanted to try to stupidly and unnecessarily capitalize on it, because she thought that she could use it for publicity. one way or another. she will probably be a dumb, unpopular girl with no money in her next life.

this mexican girl is trying to make me communicate something about nasty, stereo typical mexican behavior in order to try to make all mexicans not like me. not all mexicans are the same so it is nothing new. she is trying to trick ignorant mexicans into thinking that she is better than i am because she wants them to give her something and she does this because she is disabled and doesn't work, so she is trying to hustle her way into something.

it could have been about everyone's power and happiness or strength, but because some people got confused, thinking that i had more power than they did, they wanted to weaken me so that they felt better about themselves. it is really sad, because they weakened the entire community. they continue to do it, every day. sorry, i can't do anything for you. what? you just want me to suffer? will that make you feel powerful? some people are making a sick, childish game about weakening me in public. it makes them feel "better" about themselves. they are very stupid and their stupid shit will die off when i die eventually.

this mexican girl is so unbelievably stupid, always panicking and impatient, thinking that she has to tell a mexican guy in the future, (nervous/confused/dishonest/desperate) "you are so much more than he is. you are so much more than he is. you are so much more than he is." it is so stupid. her fake cheesy "macho" shit is so stupid. she is worried that they will become insecure. it is not a problem for strong men but she is not a strong girl so she thinks that she can't get a strong man. she is intentionally exhausting me every day so that i can't work! but she is pretending as if she thinks that she is trying to motivate me. does it look like she is helping?! no, it doesn't. all she wants to do is to say bad things about me to some mexican guy who doesn't know me in person. the other thing she will lie about is george h. w. bush and northern trust bank. i didn't do anything and she knows that it wasn't my fault, but she is trying to cover for this african american creep because she thinks that the 2 of them together make them seem EVEN MORE weird and stupid. READ WAY BELOW. she is an evil mexican girl who doesn't give a fuck about the community or her parents. all she cares about is sex and money. she lies to her parents. she has a personality disorder. she is so insecure that it is ridiculous. she seems to think that mexican guys are insecure too, so that she thinks that she has to lie to them about me. she doesn't want them to think that a girl is the problem so she tries to trick them about me. it sort of seems as if she wants them to know what she is doing, like she is making a sick childish joke of it, like she wants them to think that they will have good sex because she is evil and childish. i doubt it. she is a disgusting turn off who doesn't care about children, or parents trying to raise children, or suffering old people in nursing homes. she never cared about me. she only cared about trying to trick mexican guys who don't know me in person into thinking that i was no good, or that she was better than i was, or that they are supposed to give her something because "she earned it". she can't work, so she is trying to hustle her way into something.

some of these people make a sick joke about being mean spirited. they won't leave us alone. they are childish, with serious psychological problems. this mexican girl is admitting to being a weak and angry female. she does it in a a very ugly obnoxious way. i made a joke with bugs bunny but this is really not funny. i want to be gay and funny, but it is difficult because these people who are knowingly causing problems want to scare others. the bugs bunny video was also about my faith. i thought about deleting the smokey and the bandit video out of respect for the police, but i think that it is so goofy, that i will leave it. this mexican girl is implying that she would ignore me no matter how much work that i do but she is really not ignoring me. she finds it fascinating that i work so hard, but because i work harder than she does or can, she implies that i should be ignored and that other mexicans should ignore me. isn't that cruel? for her to cause me to tell her to leave me alone thousands of times for the past 9 years and then to imply in public that i should be ignored. it is like she is implying that mexican women are stupid and that the man should always be ignored. this female would never have the opportunity to dominate me ordinarily or if this was an ordinary situation. i would just walk away from her because she would give me a funny creepy vibe and she would never have control of me. she is implying that stupid girls have control. i want black people to be ok, but some black women have done something so bad that i want to express my hatred of them. i want people to know that they have caused pain and that they have intentionally hurt me for no good reason. they do it as a sick joke. they are childish and mean spirited and it makes me sick and uncomfortable. i don't like them. they wanted to hurt me so that i would think about them in public because they got jealous about me thinking of other people. they wanted to hurt me because they thought that i had more potential than they did so they wanted to obstruct. they wanted my attention because they have some weird fascination with me but then they lie about how they really feel about me, saying that they don't like me when they actually think that i am ok. they have childish emotional problems. their gossip about me was and still is their problem. they are childish and angry and mean. i don't like them. they got angry when they thought that i was moving on in life, back in 2008, so they wanted to obstruct. they want to interfere with my relationships with other people because i can do so much more than they can, because of the nature of this situation.

this mexican girl is making a stupid, sick joke about how mexicans should be thought of as dumb. dumb and "macho". she is trying to get other mexicans to do the same thing, but i don't think that it will work.

it is like dumb, stupid, insecure, thug like bullies, picking on a nerd in the school playground in front of other kids, intentionally making him nervous, because they think that they nerd is more special or confident than they are. there is no one around to break it up. i wish that the government or the police or the media would help.

some of these girls don't even try to build. they just make a sick joke about how they think that they are childish, rude, obnoxious and destructive. they didn't want to make it about my confidence and work in public, helping or wanting people to know that they cared and were helping, because they thought that it would take power away from another man. it could have been about everybody's confidence and work but some of them don't care about work. not only do they not offer a very basic amount of respect and help in public, but they blatantly lie and obstruct, making a sick joke about it, because i have no authority to make them stop or because the police have no authority to make them stop. another thing which they are intentionally doing is to make me sick and confused, knowing that i will try to defend myself and the community on the internet, in order to try to make it look like no one should like me. they are trying to deceive you. i would like to imagine having a good life, because i could have a good happy productive life if these few people would leave me alone,, but they probably won't leave me alone because they are sadistic and deranged (nasty alien crap), so i really don't want to live, giving them some weird sick satisfaction of harming me and other innocent people. it is confused. i tried to commit suicide. these people who lie say that i didn't or that i am putting on an act. no. i tried more than once and then i thought that it would be a victory for evil people if i did that because of how disrespectfully me and other people are being treated it so i changed my mind but now i am so sick of this misery which they intentionally create that i am thought about it again, even though i would like to be able to enjoy my life. there is no requirement for me to kill myself and i am not in trouble like evil people who betray the community want you to think. they are in trouble. they got caught harming people and lying. i didn't. even with me writing this, defending myself, they want you to think that it means that i did something wrong. they are not even accusing me of something. they are trying to trip me up on the internet, knowing that i will fight for myself and the community. they try to get me to communicate something in confusion or frustration or anger, or all of that, in order to try to make it seem like there wasn't a reason to support me to begin with. they are the ones who are unpopular and they are angry about it so they want to hurt everyone. they are lazy, evil people who don't try. they can't keep up. they try to make ignorant people think that i am not christ or a good person because it doesn't seem "perfect". if ignorant people knew what was happening all of the time, and not just reading something on the internet, then you would really understand what i am about.

this section of the website would seem confused and that is because it is confused because of a confused situation which a few people are intentionally creating for the community. they are like terrorists who want to upset something which would have been good. they are angry because they have less, so they don't want other people to have more, so they obstruct. it is a form of terrorism. they want people to read that people are being harmed. we are being "poisoned" every day by an evil creature. it is evil, childish, sadistic, unintelligent. something in space. read below. way below. i think that maybe it has to do with alpha draconis or draco/draconian. or maybe grey aliens. i read that they lack a soul. it makes me think of the monster in the movie alien 4, which was a whitish color. it was some kind of cross breed between a human and the vicious alien. it is dumb, childish, very mean and mentally unstable. i would be busy doing laundry and kissing my dog goodnight and going to bed right now if it weren't for these nasty people. nice and peaceful, thinking about something else or something happy. i am a happy person but they don't want you to know that. like i said, they want people to see how i am trying to defend myself and the community, implying that we are defenseless. they are trying to intimidate people. beware. they can't keep up with motivated, intelligent people, so they want to drag everyone down to a stupid level. they think that they can get more people to join in with them since it is easier to be dumb.

i have been goofing around, posting youtube links. i am tired of all of the negative crap which other people create so i just want to be goofy sometimes. i don't care if it makes sense or doesn't make sense because it is funny anyway.

some black women have an attitude like they are implying that people have to like them or respect them no matter how ugly (attitude) and mean and childish they are. it doesn't work that way. it would never work that way. they want people to feel sorry for them for some reason. they are not mad at me. they are mad at the black women who have made them look so bad since 2008. some black woman tried to humiliate me (and paris hilton) for no good reason back in 2008, so i naturally wanted to humiliate the black woman because i actually had a good reason to. i would have become more confused if i didn't say anything back. then i have apologized several times if innocent black women got hurt. it is not blacks versus me. it is low class, dishonest, mean, lazy blacks versus blacks who are not lazy, who are nice, who are honest and who have class. i keep getting these weird phone calls from numbers which i can't call or which say disconnected or no longer in service when i call back and i am reasonably certain that it is black women wanting to take cheap shots at me and the people who defend me. it is very difficult to remain calm. i get a little confused, but it is not a feeling of guilt. it is a feeling of confusion and a little fear because a few weird, childish, incredibly mean people are stalking me and others. they do it when i am driving west or whatever direction and they are also relating it to the dog park or northern trust or george h.w. bush and they are so stupid for doing this. they are stupid because they refer to themselves as dogs, wanting people to be mad at me when i am a sweet guy who never wanted to hurt them. i am a happy person. they aren't happy people. they are like a little child who acts up when it can't get its' way. the only reason that i want people to make a story about me and the other people who i am in 24/7 activity with on tv news with the police is to defend me and the community from aggressive mean childish weirdos. it is a matter of my rights. otherwise, i don't care if a story is made about me. everything would be fine, and i would live out a nice peaceful happy life with a part time job and my beautiful home and car and nice family and nice girlfriend and dogs and cats. i don't want to be politicized. they keep trying to politicize me, wanting ignorant people to think that no one should like me or that they are better than i am and they do it because they are after something for themselves. some black women try to make black men like them more than me because they think that there is a reason for black men to not like them.

there is an issue concerning the concept of lawful jurisdiction in space. but i imagined a small group of little green men who were wearing judge's white wigs and black cloaks. they were smiling.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4mJEF5emuXQ

i've been a little confused for the past few weeks about the swastika. it is confusion about my past confusion, but more so because people lie about me and my character. it is confusing and very painful. i was hoping that something positive came out of world war 2 which i hoped to be a part of in order to be able to help people, regardless of race. never wanted to hurt anyone. i don't know what is going on. maybe i wouldn't like it if i knew more about it. i didn't want to think negative. i felt like my thoughts about something happy for everyone meant that it was going to be something happy for everyone because the thought of God sending someone to create something sad or to be a part of something bad didn't make any sense to me. i thought that God wanted to use me as a way of creating something happy, even if that seems unrealistic. i didn't want to imagine that something evil was dominant; meaning, that we didn't have a chance to be happy. so the way my young brain rationalized it, or wanted to think of it, was to think that i was a part of it, but in order to do good for everyone. like a dream. that was the only way it made sense to me. the only reason that i communicated about the swastika, and posted other information, was in order to kill off false gossip about me coming from a very few people who have proven themselves to be unfriendly and dishonest.


not all black people are the same. a few lazy, dishonest, mean, childish black people are trying to create that impression. just because black people in america were descended from former slaves doesn't mean that they are all the same. they have had generation after generations to more on, but some of them moved on more than others. some of them trying to group all black people together by lying about me and my character or by trying to put social pressure on all blacks to do what they want them to do, not matter how stupid, evil and mean that it is, because they think that a few black people made all black people look bad. they are also lying about the good people who i know defend me. they think that they have more power, because they think that they don't have much power, if they group all black people together. they are not mad at me. they are mad at themselves or the few black women who have knowingly betrayed me and the community. some of these black women don't give a damn about the community or other black people. they only cared about their own sex lives and money, so they lied and continue to lie about me in order to try and make a black man like them more that me, or to put pressure on a black man to like them more than me, because they thought that they have made black women look bad. childish and mean. also, this black guy tries to put pressure on black women who he thinks are dumb or weak, like "ah nah, act like you like a dumb, obnoxious, black man instead of a sweet, honest white boy. i don't like people thinkin' that the white boy got more power..."

this mexican girl is always trying to create the impression that females have more value than they do. she does it because she is a lazy, boring, incredibly lame female who wants some ignorant mexican guy, who doesn't really understand how stupid and obnoxious she is, to give her something. because she doesn't work or can't work, she is trying to create a way for her to get something for herself. it is lies and an attempt to deceive ignorant men. i don't think that it is going to work. i don't think that she thinks that it is going to work, but because she is so fake, she likes to pretend as if she thinks that she is smarter than she is. or she is pretending as if she thinks that other people think that she is smarter than she is.


this mexican girl is trying to have me killed by intentionally making people miserable, but also trying to trick ignorant people into thinking that MAYBE it meant that she intended to help me. no one cares about the meaning. what we care about is peace and quiet every day. she is like a retarded child who is very mean or deranged. she is evil and angry. we can actually sense it or what she is. it is incredibly disturbing. she hopes of me dying and then she is going to go out, because she is trying to lure men, and try to find out if the guy she is communicating with knows anything about this situation, without wanting to communicate about it herself. then she thinks that if he does know about it, that she can tailor her dialogue to whatever some ignorant mexican guy thinks, as long as she thinks that she can get something from him. she is the most evil, disrespectful , greedy bitch that ever was. she has a personality disorder. so does this black guy. their brains never develop properly or it means that they were something unattractive to begin with.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a8BODTA3Kn8



a few people are intentionally provoking me and confusing me in order to try and make it seem like i am not humble or that i am not the humble servant when i am. they are evil and sleazy. they are trying to trick you. they have been caught doing something wrong or dishonest so they are trying to make it look like i am the bad guy when i am not the bad guy. these people are also intentionally provoking good, honest people who are defending me in order to try and make it look like we are evil. the evil people are lying about me and want to make it about hate instead of love. it is easy to figure out who is who. a few people got caught doing something wrong or being dishonest so their lives or image are messed up and so they are trying to make the good people look bad. they didn't anticipate that i would be able to defend myself on the internet. i already won this fight but they don't stop trying to lie their way out of trouble. they just don't want me to be happy because they know that i would be happier than they can be if they would get out of my life.

a few people keep trying to politicize me. i don't want to be politicized. i just want to be left alone so that i can blend in with everyone else. there is no reason for these few people to be creating this incredibly stupid drama every day. all they want to do is to gossip about how they are creating problems for me like they think of it as a sick joke and also implying that they get a sick thrill from it because the police can't do anything about it. i take it seriously and they don't. they couldn't handle the social responsibility. they try to politicize me by lying about me or my character in order to try and make it seem like they are superior. they do it because they think that people think that they are inferior or because they got caught doing something wrong. just a few people. black guy, paris hilton, a few black women and this mexican girl. if people left me alone, i would get ride of most of this information in this 'community' section of this website. they won't leave me alone which means that they won't stop lying. i am not the problem. this was like going to a job and taking it seriously and then childish obnoxious girls play childish games or talk too much or are not focused on work like they should be. they think that i have more capacity than they do and they don't like it so they obstruct in order to try to make a mockery of men who like to work. they can't keep up so they obstruct to try to bring everyone else down to their ridiculously stupid uncaring level. they didn't want to make it about my confidence in public because my confidence exceeds or would have exceeded theirs. they don't want to have to compare themselves to people who are more confident than they are so they are blatantly obstructing, sort of like anarchy.
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it seems like this mexican girl wants to hurt her own family because they don't like her. she has a really bad personality disorder.

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_XoifYo9JCM


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=owvpRNzoaVU

i added the 'aRt-wErk' tab in the 'GALLERY' section of this webite. it is under construction. i will inform the public when the work in available through ETSY. i am trying to raise $5,000 in order to replace the floor in my home.

if i don't write that there is a problem, ignorant people will assume that everything it ok when it isn't and that would confuse me more because i think that you want it to get better. i doubt that these people will leave us alone. they have weird mental problems. it is like being raped by sick weirdos every day who are ganging up on me and other innocent people. imagine watching a movie where a girl gets violently raped by an insane sleazy person, trying very hard to fight off the attacker. that is what i am doing. do you understand? i am fighting for you, too. these people wanted to poison the community but it didn't work. they get angry when they think of something positive which they know that i could have created which they can't create, so instead of thinking of healing or something positive, they wanted to make people literally sick, because of weird childish envy and anger. they are deranged. they have weird psychological problems. i understand if you would think that about me, but you would think that i am cool if you got to know me in person. they don't like comparing themselves to me so they destroy what i would have created. they have a personal problem, like with their sense of self worth. they have unusual mental problems and they should be institutionalized, or killed, because of the way which they are harming people. it is like they want to hurt anyone who they think that God likes more than them.

this mexican girl who i think still lives in houston, texas has parents who stupidly support her and what they should do is turn her over to the police and a mental institution and the media. the only way for people to like her is if she goes away and respects people's peace and independence.

i think that a few black women are trying to make people think that i am guilty of something because the thule.org website is currently not in use. i didn't or don't know that guy that well, but he always seemed nice and it was obvious with the informative website that he was trying to help people. all i am trying to do is to be informative and help people too. the thule society (different than thule) was related to the 3rd reich, but i really doubt if he had cared what race someone was, as long as they were intelligent or had a heart. that is the impression i got from him. namaste'.

these people who are lying about me and paris hilton/northern trust bank don't care if people know that they are lying, as long as they think that they have an excuse to prevent me from earning honest money and being happy. they get angry when they think that people think that someone is happier or has more than they do, so they are childishly obstructing, pretending as if they have a good reason to do it. it was all about their envy and stupid gossip. they don't like to sense how i am more confident than they are, so they obstruct, playing a childish game and not wanting to act like they have to work as hard as i do. i understand if people are thinking "you don't seem very confident." right! that is exactly how they wanted to drag every confident person down to their level.

i would really rather die that to have to think about these few black women who have childishly and stupidly attacked me, wanting people to know about it. i don't want to have to be stuck with them. i don't want to have to think about them. they will lie and state that they had a good reason to attack me. that doesn't surprise me. they didn't. their envy and totally stupid gossip with the use of electronic communication was or is the problem. they didn't or don't want to have to compare themselves to someone who is more confident than they are, so they are intentionally harming me and others, intentionally making us less confident, so that they can feel "better" about themselves. some black women are nice and intelligent. some are not.

people normally group into groups because of intelligence or a lack of intelligence. i got grouped with everybody. think about it. some of these black women try to make it just about blackness and not about people's intelligence, irregardless of race.

this mexican girl wants to imply that latinas are not sweet or loving. it is this stupid childish angry fake macho shit every day, all day long. she is an incredibly weak childish girl who thinks that she can't do anything on her own. she acts aggressively in order to try to cover up her insecurity. she wants to create the impression that mexican girls are angry and obnoxious, like an image she wants for herself or which she wants them to have. she tries to make it look like all girls are the same because she doesn't want to have to compete with smart, more likeable girls. she also thinks that mexican guys will get angry and insecure if she acts like she thought that i was cool or cooler than they are so she lies and obstructs. it is real bad. strong mexican guys wouldn't have a problem with me because i am friendly and hard working. i would rather die that to have to go through any more of this. why doesn't someone just drop off some xanax or opiods or fentanyl at my door so i can overdose? i know that other people don't want this either. we are in a constant state of discomfort and confusion because of this angry personality disorder mexican girl who is implying that she can get away with it or that the police can't do anything. this is what happens when a famous person doesn't have basic security. weird people will stalk them.

some latinas are sweet and submissive.

i wouldn't be aggressive unless other people were being aggressive. if this is the route they want to go, then fine. none of this 'community' section in my website would exist if people had been honest and friendly like i was or am. i would just be like an ordinary guy who obeyed the law and had a part time job. what's the matter? not that interesting? lame people want you to think that it is more interesting than it is. i want to be like an ordinary person. i don't want all of this weird shit in my life. i would like a nice, simple, peaceful life with my family and girlfriend and dogs and cats and a part time job. real simple, isn't it?

this black guy and mexican girl stupidly childishly want ignorant people to think that they have my vision in their left eye because they are supposed to watch over me. no. that is stupid. they have my vision in their left eye because they are weird freaks with a weird mental problem. they try to make people think that because the eye is above the pyramid on the dollar bill, that they have some authority which they don't actually have. i am the one who is watching over. and it is not their job to watch over me anyway. it is the job of the police or the FBI or CIA or NSA or secret service, etc., but there has to be a reason to watch over me. right? there has to be a reason why they would want to watch over me. so it is not childish "make believe" that i need to be watched over. and besides, many people are observing what i am doing and have been doing my entire life, and they don't need my vision to understand what i am doing or what is going on.

part of the reason that i was transparent about the swastika issue is because i knew that blacks and mexicans, who really know me and my character, would defend me anyway. would i do it again. no. do i think that i did something wrong. no, because i was very confused at that point in my life.

this mexican girl and black guy are using their ability to create contractions in my body which other people sense and suffer from as a weapon, like holding a gun to someone so that they can't move or have freedom to think or be able to think clearly and systematically. i am not doing anything wrong. a few black women who are cyber bullying are joining in with them. their aggression is a type of weapon to prevent people from doing work. they do it because they can't keep up with smart, hard working people. they don't want to think about how smarter, hard working people have more or are happier, so they are obstructing. it is a social problem. they are turning it into a social problem about who has more or who is happier. people who work or people who or are dumb and lazy. they are like criminals who use weapons in order to try and get something for themselves. or to prevent another group from having more than they have. just like tribes, but the good nice people were not the ones who started the war. it was the people who thought that they had less or thought that they would have less who started the war. the stupid unintelligent lazy people didn't want to sit around thinking about how they were stupid, compared to people (including me) who aren't stupid, so they started taking something away from people who they thought were better or happier or not stupid, in order to try and make themselves feel better about their stupid thought about their stupid self. it really isn't difficult to understand. they think like criminals who use weapons to get more for themselves because they are too lazy and too stupid to do it the honest way. native american tribes were diverse. some were aggressive and brutal. some were peaceful. it has to do with the way in which it got started initially with certain individuals. i hope to "kill' off evil, cruel crap. i know that i have already made a difference, along with other good people who fight just like me.

this mexican girl and black guy are insane sadistic monsters. like animals. alien shit. really nasty scary alien shit. please help. i think that the same type of species exists within other people. we will be what different species of aliens are eventually. this mexican girl is holding her parents and everyone else hostage, trying to give herself time in order to try to figure a way out of her stupid life, but she just keeps making her situation even worse. she is trying to perpetuate the support which her parents STUPIDLY are giving to her. for her parents: YOUR DAUGHTER IS AN EVIL INSANE MONSTER. SADISTIC. DISHONEST. SHE DOES'NT LIKE TO THINK OF HOW OTHER PEOPLE ARE HAPPIER THAN SHE IS OR WILL BE.

this mexican girl who i think still lives in houston, texas has parents who stupidly support her and what they should do is turn her over to the police and a mental institution and the media. she is the most disgusting piece of mexican shit that there ever was. when i say "i think still lives in houston, texas", it doesn't mean that i don't know what i am communicating about. she doesn't leave people alone so that our brains reset and begin to think of something else. she is doing this intentionally. she is a loser loser loser, very weak obnoxious female, who likes to refer to how she thinks she is weak and obnoxious or how she thinks that people think that she is weak and obnoxious, yet implies that females are dominant no matter how stupid they are. she didn't want to have to work like a humble honest male like me. black women didn't either.

i have been and still am being assaulted by black women and a black guy and a mexican girl who are ganging up on me and everyone else who think that they are stupid, publically communicating about it. they want people to know that they are assaulting me and other people. just because you are black in america and i am a white person in america doesn't mean that you can get away with being blatantly stupid and rude or that i am not allowed to say something back or express my hatred of you. black women tried and are still trying to prevent me from having money or fame or basis happiness in public because of their childish envy and their stupid gossip which they actually feel stupid about. they pretend as if they believe in what they are doing when they don't. i do believe in what i am doing.

this mexican girl is so incredibly cheesy and fake, putting on this fake, childish macho act, because she is trying to make mexican guys thinks that she is not afraid of them because she is afraid of mexican guys because she thinks that they know that she betrayed the community. her stupid fake childish obnoxious macho shit is disgusting and ridiculous. another way to think of it is that she wants a mexican guy to know that she betrayed the community, or that it doesn't matter, because she just wants a mexican boyfriend who acts like he hates white guys. again, she thought that mexican guys would feel inferior or become insecure if they knew that i was more confident than they were, so she thought that she would lie to them about me. ignorant people really don't understand how this girl and a few other people are terrorizing us. they obstruct. we can't have a thought about something else or about other things because of the way which they are obstructing our thoughts. i can't have a thought because i can't have a thought because i can't have a thought, etc. you can not focus unless you are relaxed. she keeps making me think of the same thing like someone who won't get out of your house who is acting weird and obnoxious. i would just get the police to get her away from me ordinarily. i got out of bed to write this because she is intentionally bothering me with me while i am in bed in the middle of the night. she tries to create stories in order to try to confuse ignorant mexican guys and her family but she failed. they know that she is evil.

why do you want ignorant, incompetent dip shits for leaders? now and in the future... hundreds or thousands of years in the future. please make it about science and not religion. biology. please make a story about this with tv news and the police and the court system. we can prove what this is with a test using television cameras. the camera would act like a microscope and the police and media personal can certify that me and other people's (144,000) central nervous systems are fused. put us in different rooms in the media station. say something to me and other people in different rooms would know what it was. give me something to eat and other people would know what it was. touch me somewhere on my body not inappropriate and the other people in other rooms would know where it was. this can be certified by the police. if you make this seem innocent and harmless then that is what other people will think too. that is what they will think in the future, in future incarnations. make it about love and acceptance. for everyone! why are you hiding this from people? if you don't make it seem innocent and harmless then people will think that there is a problem when there isn't a problem. that is a problem. why don't you finish the work. don't take your peace for granted. put scientists to work. there will be wars about me again. there already is a war which a few stupid, dishonest people have started. take advantage of a free country and free press which would protect the world. people who i am in constant 24/7 activity with (144,000) have an opportunity do something and i am pissed that they don't. so what if it is work?! i don't want to go backwards! we can figure out ways of securing it. i don't think anyone would want to mess with it anyway once we made a story. nice and peaceful. i think that people would respect the honor system. i believe in them...


this mexican girl didn't want mexicans to think of my strength or a white person's strength because she thought that it would make them feel inferior but that is only because she is a weak mexican who can't keep up. i don't think that it would have bothered strong mexicans. she blatantly sabotages with this really sick mean obnoxious attitude like "i don't give fuck about christ or the mexican community either." it is sad because her intent is to twist something which would have been positive into something negative. she didn't want to make it about my work and happiness in public because she thought that it would make it difficult for her to be happy with a mexican guy who is not unique like i am. i am sure he would have thought it was fine if he was a strong loving man. i am not stuck up. i am a loving person who cares but the problem is that other people don't care. she is negative. it makes her angry to think of a person who is more positive than she is so she intentionally makes everyone negative. she is also trying to make it so that no one hires me at a landscaping company or at a grocery store, sacking groceries. she is an incredibly mean spirited mexican girl who is trying to attract a mean spirited mexican spirited mexican guy.

this mexican girl and and a few other females want to make this about girls who play childish games and not about guys who work and who are peaceful and confident in public. you don't understand how they are obstructing. it is like a girl who is going "hehe. oh, i'm not going to work like an adult. i don't have to take this seriously. you can't force me to do anything. i'm going to play games. hehe. isn't that funny?" they are ruining america and the world. this mexican girl is trying to trick ignorant people to think that she isn't a human being. she is and she has a personality disorder. she got herself into social trouble and she is trying to give herself an alibi, trying to trick ignorant people into thinking that she wouldn't make herself sick or ruin her own life like she is doing. she just doesn't care about her own life. she is a loser. some girls want to make it about humiliating a unique guy instead of making it about his confidence in public or i think just men's confidence in public. this is a very difficult situation to be in when people are blatantly disrespectful because they think that they can get away with it or that the police can't do anything. it is sad and confusing. i want positive things. i think positive but unfortunately other people don't and they want to ruin it for people who do. ordinarily i would get the police involved and get a restraining order filed against this mexican girl. she is a real person who i think still lives in houston, texas. she is a weird creepy disrespectful angry freak. she thinks that she can't have sex and it really makes her angry because she thought that her looks (not that good looking) were going to get her something like many young girls do so she wants to fuck everybody over wanting people to know that she is a mean uncaring bitch and act like she doesn't care about christ or the community. she couldn't handle the responsibility. she only thought about herself and not the community. she doesn't even care about her own family.

it is ironic that the term "soul" is given to describe black people (soul music/soul food) because some of them don't have a soul.



ignorant people would feel sorry for me if they knew how confusing my life was starting in 1997. you would feel sorry for me now also. if you have an attitude like (sarcastically) "awhh, poor boy..." then i would tell you to fuck off and go eat shit and that you don't have a heart and that you should show a little compassion. you have no idea. i'm not a robot. if someone would have talked to me in person, helping me sort this out when i was 10 or 15 years old, then i would have felt as if i had love in my life and i would have grown into a stronger, more responsible man. instead of some people wanting people to think that they care about my feelings or mental health or showing compassion for someone who was put into a very confusing situation in public, some people try to turn it into this thing where they want people to know that they are harming me and that they don't want to act like they give a shit about my feelings or other people's feelings either. they are just lazy and don't want to have to act like they care about trying to create something positive. i am trying to create something positive by killing the negative. i need to get rid of most of this in this section because other people do the work for me. going on too much creates an impression that i haven't already won the battle.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r_4jrMwvZ2A


i never thought that i would have the thoughts which i do now about some black women. hate is learned. and it is because of the way which they have treated me for 14 years. they admit to being childish and mean. they also admit to stalking me. i have a sweet, gay spirit and it makes them angry to think about it because they don't have sweet, gay spirits, so they intentionally make me angry, pretending as if they think that they have reasons to do this, because they want to drag me down to their angry, bitter level. it makes them feel better about themselves when they don't have to compare themselves to a happy person.

this is really not difficult to understand. when you mix a strong mind (strong spirit) in with weak minds (weak spirits), the weak minds become confused and angry (envy). then the weak people obstruct, in order to try and make it look like i don't have a strong mind or that i am not a strong person. it could have been about everyone's happiness and productivity, but because some people are weak or become envious of the strong people, they obstruct so that they don't have to work as hard as the strong people. they lie about me and want ignorant people to think that they have a reason to obstruct when they don't. some people can't keep up so they obstruct so that they don't have to work as hard as the strong people. this mexican girl and black guy are so cheesy because they intentionally want to be thought of as evil tyrants who bully people. they are implying that evil people dominate, also trying to recruit evil people. they are lazy and sleazy, but want people to think that people like that dominate.

it could have been about everybody, but because some people are so greedy, they decided to try to put me down or obstruct so that they thought that they could get more themselves or have more for themselves. they didn't want to make it about me or my confidence in public because they thought that they couldn't get something for themselves that way. they can't keep up with me so they are dragging everyone down to their stupid level. they lie. they thought that if people knew about my happiness, that they couldn't be as happy. strong people are not the problem. weak people are the problem. they can't keep up. i think that they think that they are not capable. i wanted to make it about everyone's happiness but people who are weak didn't think that they would be happy if people knew that i was happy. they don't like the idea of me having more than they have. my spirit.

a few people are intentionally obstructing, implying in a sleazy manner that they are superior because law enforcement can't do anything about it. that is why i am going crazy on the internet. i can't work like i want to be able to. i want to set an example, but i can't work. i care about doing something good for the community, even if that is just obeying the law and working a part time job. i am also in great pain. that is another reason that i communicate on the internet. i want to be positive. i am a positive, cheerful person by nature. i got stuck with other people who are not positive. it is either very hard or impossible to be able to work. it is frustrating. another reason that i communicate on the internet is to prevent evil people from being able to get away with lying about me or my character. they want to create division. i do not want to create division. some of them try to divide because they can't keep up with people who are honest and work hard. sort of like bullshit in american politics. they politicize me. i don't want to be politicized. jesus had the same problem, so they decided to make a spiritual messiah out of him. he wasn't cut out to be the type of leader which some people wanted or not typical authority. why don't you leave me alone so that i can work at a part time job and enjoy my life with my nice family and nice girlfriend and loving dogs and cats? it could be real simple but people want to gossip about unimportant shit. they want to be thought of as superior because they feel inferior. it confuses them and makes them angry. they have social problems. don't involve me with you social problems. i understand if people are thinking that about me. i want to get rid of most of what is in this section of this website. some of it needs to stay.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Fz3y0BHVvU


this mexican girl keeps going on and on about herself but she is totally lame. it is stupid. her greed is the problem. it is unbelievable. she also lacks intelligence so it is not a good combination. she stupidly implies that what she is doing is impressive but she doesn't even think that herself.

i am being stupidly harassed every day. it is not about me having done something wrong. it is about a few females and this black guy not wanting me to be happier than they can be. they want people communicating about how they are sleazy and cruel. it is the most disgusting shit you could every imagine. it is like having been kidnapped by creepy childish weirdos who call the police to tell them that they are torturing you, taunting the police, implying that they can't do anything it and that they want to hurt the police too or get the police to join in with them. sort of like being eaten slowly by an animal. i mean a real animal. it doesn't seem human. some kind of weird alien shit. please help. they make their social problem everybody else's problem. they pretend as if they have an excuse to harm me and other innocent people. they are trying to create hate. why? very mean, very childish people. you see what i am doing here, but you really don't understand how cruel and evil these people are being all of the time like they are admitting to being cruel and evil like it is a game to them, implying that they think that it is fun because the police can't do anything about it. they flaunt being the opposite of christ as if they are implying that evil people get attention too. i guess they think that they are incapable of doing anything else. they are weird, like scary animals with an anger problem. they have emotional problems. they also lack intelligence. normally, people can choose who they want to be around. i couldn't. i got stuck with a few weird scum bags. they sit around all day doing nothing. that is not what i am doing. i would have been busy right now putting groceries away and making breakfast and then moving gracefully on to another task. they keep interrupting, because they envy what i could be if they didn't interrupt. i wish that people would make a story about this on tv news so that these people don't think that they can get away with it. they want to harm anyone who could be happier than they can be.

none of what i communicate on the internet is official or matters because there is no official recipient. you are wasting my time and your own time. i have sincerely communicated many loving, supporting things of mexicans and blacks but it doesn't matter. also, none of what i have communicated to people every day for years in person is official or matters because there is no official recipient. people can play a game like it didn't matter or that they didn't know about it because i am not officially communicating to anyone. do you like this? i think it sucks. i would rather die. i don't have rights. i am being attacked every day by crazy mean freaks because i don't have rights. this unique situation means that i don't have rights and also that people who i am in activity with don't have rights. you are not engaging me in person, so you're wasting your time if you are trying to get to know me.

i understand if ignorant people think that i am going on too much but you don't understand what these other people are doing or how often they are doing it. it really is weird and sadistic. very childish too like their brains never developed properly in any incarnation. i wish that i could die. many people would like it better if i were dead. it would be more peaceful. i have tried to convince people who i am in constant 24/7 activity with to go with me to a doctor's office, proving that the activity between us is real, making it understandable that it is not healthy. i have thought that maybe i could be euthanized. humans can't be healthy in this type of situation and there is no point to it. i am not doing anything important. i think that we could gain public support for it if we also involved the media. it is especially not healthy because of the way in which other beings are acting weird and aggressive toward the entire group, wanting attention. a few of them are angry and mean because they embarrassed themselves. they don't want me to succeed because then they think that people will think that they are no good compared to me so they are intentionally sabotaging my basic happiness. i would rather die than to have to do through any more of this. this is not a joke. these people are childish and weird. they have weird mental and anger problems and they want to hurt other innocent people all over the world. they want attention because they feel weak. it makes them feel powerful or something weird because they actually don't feel powerful. it is like someone who has a weird angry attitude like (angry/childish/overcompensating for thinking that they don't have power or that people think that they don't have power) "oh yeah... well i'll show you. i have power too..." i'm not the one doing that. they are. YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT THEY ARE DOING OR HOW MUCH THEY ARE DOING IT.

this cheesy, evil, deranged negro keeps coming into our homes when he is not invited. so does the mexican girl. so do black women with the use of the computer. it is cyber bullying. they all got themselves into trouble and are now ganging up on the good people which includes me. he is telling black women something like "you betta say you like me mo than the white boy, even if i be stupid..." they all have evil thug like attitudes like "that's right... we can fuck with you and everyone else and the police can't do nothin' about it... ha ha. isn't that funny..." it is scary. i would rather die than to have to go through this but i don't have a way to commit suicide. i made several attempts to get shot in the head at remote locations with earplugs and photocopied notes in my pocket, the car and in my home. then i wanted to do it in the past by overdose on xanax. i got a job at a restaurant (you can read below) in order to get money in order to get xanax from a canadian pharmacy online but the mexican girl made it impossible to work because she didn't want it to be a story about how a mexican girl was a problem. she thought that she would keep me here in order to try and confuse people into thinking that i was or am the problem. i was really trying to get rid of her. the xanax would have made me fall asleep and then die in my sleep. that would have been a peaceful death for me and good for the people who i am in constant 24/7 activity with.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r_4jrMwvZ2A

why do these people keep involving me in their lives??? i don't want to be involved in their lives. leave me out of your life! they involve me in their lives in order to try to make it seem like they are better than i am. they are also lying about me and my character. leave me out of your life! leave me alone! i would just be like other people, with a part time job and not harming anyone. real simple... sorry, it is not that interesting. you are the ones who are complicating this! i have many reasons to be happy. get out of my life! they involve me in their lives in order to try and make it seem like they are more important or more interesting than they are. i just want peace and quiet for the community. that would make me happy. i attempted to commit suicide several times just so there would be peace and quiet. real simple.

some girls don't want to give me power by acknowledging what i actually am (how i actually am) because they think that it takes power away from another man or would make him jealous or envious. actually the girls just didn't want to give power to men, generally thinking. they don't want to have to act like they submit to men, generally thinking. i think that the girls think that they would feel inferior or like men would have more power than they do and that confuses them. it could be an inferiority complex. girls, including paris hilton, have created a huge problem in this situation. for both america and the world.

the black women who caused and who are still causing problems don't want black men to know what they really think about me or how they really feel about me. they lie because they think that the black men will get jealous or envious or because they think that it will take power away from a black man, confusing their relationship. this mexican girl does the same thing. she doesn't want mexican guys to know what she really thinks about me, thinking that i am hard working and funny. then she is also obstructing all day long every day in this really stupid, irritating way, so that mexican guys don't know about me being happy and successful because she wants mexican guys to think that they are better than me or a white guy because she thinks that it will improve their relationship. she didn't want to include me in her relationship with another guy in a good, honest way. she wanted them to think that i was the bad person because she was or is the one rejected. some of these girls are greedy and childish. they don't care about the community. they don't care about trying to build people up. they only care about getting something for themselves and they don't care about how destructive it is.

in this situation, the people who are intentionally causing problems for the community are like trump supporters. they are obstructing every day, making a sick joke of it, wanting people to know what they are doing just like trump wanted people to know that he was evil. they are unintelligent and they lie like it is a game to them. they don't want to have to act like they care like good, honest people do. this is just like politics. i am a good person. i was confused in the past, but i am a good person. many things were confusing me, but people knew and know that i am good. i communicate so much more than this in person. i have been communicating out loud since 2002. people know me very very well. they know my heart. there is so much more to me than this website. some people are good. some people are evil. the evil people are lazy and don't want to have to act like they care like the good people do. so the evil people lie and pretend like they don't know that the good people are good. they people who are acting up are thugs, like trump supporters. they have social problems because i am a good person. they don't want to have to compare themselves to a good person, so they try to create reasons to say that i am bad. they lie and obstruct. matter of survival to them. it is like politics. it can be very painful. people attack you because you are a public person. they attack and lie. i don't have problems because i am a bad person. i have problems because i am a good person.


some people imply that because i am christ, that i am not allowed to defend myself or say something about nasty, mean people. i am not a nasty person. i am not a mean person. i have love in me. i never wanted to harm anyone. i still don't. they got caught being nasty (childish and sadistic), so now they lie and say that they have dirt on me when they don't. they are a horrible, horrible combination of childish and sadistic. they like to toy with me, harming me psychologically, because they find it fascinating while also implying that law enforcement can't do anything about it. they are taunting the police. they want the police to know that they are harming me and other innocent people.

it is the people who are not being observed who are the problem. i am not the problem. i don't want to harm anyone. i didn't in the past either. black women are conspiring. it is other people's unnecessary aggression which is the problem. they want you to see what i am doing here on the internet, without wanting you to know what i am doing or what i am like all of the time. they don't what you to understand what they are doing all of the time. it is creepy and sadistic. i am a gay innocent man but they like to try to create the impression that i am mean and not innocent. they are trying to trick ignorant people. they are the ones who got caught doing something wrong, intentionally harming innocent people. i have never done that or wanted to do that.

we are damned if i communicate about this and we are also damned if i don't. i'd like to get rid of most of this. i won the fight because i actually made an argument. going on and on makes it seem like i didn't already win the fight.

as far as the swastikas thing in the past, i wouldn't say that what i did was wrong. i would say that it was confused. i don't think that other loving people communicate that it was bad or that i am a bad person either. it is sad to think of the death of the jewish people. i hope that something good came out of it. i think that it had to do with long term alien peace. all i can hope for is the future. i can't change the past. i'm a little conflicted about it now, but not in the past because i was so confused. i thought that maybe i was being given the opportunity to be a part of something strong and dominant, but in order to do good with it. wishful thinking. i didn't want to think that because i was good, that i was going to be killed or that we had to worry or that we didn't have a chance. that wouldn't have made any sense. many things were confusing me in the past. some people probably say that i am trying to hide something. i'm never hiding anything and that is the beauty of this situation. i'm just trying to diffuse a situation which is spinning out of control because some people lie about my character or what is in my heart. come ask me a question if you want to know something. you don't get to know what is going on this way. i got stuck in the middle of something. would i draw a swastika again? no. do i think that i did something wrong in the past when i was young and very confused about many things all at once? no or not really. i may have drawn a swastika but i was by myself and confused and not involved with any white supremacist groups and i never would be involved with white supremacist groups because i don't believe in that. good DNA can be in any group of people. i don't like all white people or i don't always prefer a white person to a colored person.

a few people are trying to make ignorant people think that i am the anti christ when they know that i am not. they are doing it because they did something which was wrong in the past and they know that the community communicated about it. they have a social problem. nobody deserves to be treated the way which i am being treated. i don't care who they are. but i am not the anti christ. they flaunt in a really ugly way how they like to hurt many innocent creatures, including me, so it is not about me having done something wrong. they imply that because i am a unique person, that they have the right to bully and harm me. they are ugly bullies and i hope that it stops. i am not going on and on just for the sake of it. i am trying to get it to stop by making impossible for people to get away with lying about me.

some people are childishly trying to humiliate a person who they think is more likeable (or loveable) than they are. they are trying to use me as a scapegoat because of their own personal social problems which they have created for themselves.

i never imagined that i would be communicating these things about black women in public because of the general love which i always had for them. some of them have an attitude like "yeah! i be bossy! i be ugly (attitude)! i be angry! i be stupid! i be childish! i be lazy! i be loud!" and it is really irritating. uncivil, like they want people to know that they really don't care about trying to assimilate into something else. it is an attitude of american black women and not african black women. they want to make their social problem everybody else's social problem. i'm not a plantation owner. i have showed black people love over and over but because some of them think that they made it look like they are not loving, they pretend as if they don't know about it.

the people who are acting up are angry because they think that they are inferior and/or because they think that other people think that they are inferior. they are deranged. they are nut cases. it is like they are saying (loud/crazy) "i may be inferior, but i'm gonna get attention!..." they are also like Biff, i the movie 'Back to the Future" or like the bug in the movie 'Men in Black'. it is a real dumb creature (bully) which wants attention which gets angry when you say anything bad about it.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r_4jrMwvZ2A


we could have all had something together, but some people (mostly black women) got childish and envious or jealous about me having more than they could have so they tried to stop me from having something. not only do they lie about me and money, they want people to think that they have the right to stop me from earning money honestly or just being happy in public. it is so stupid. they are the money problem and i think that some black women who work for banks or other institutions which require trust might be a problem now or in the future. they have already proven that they can't be trusted with mail. it is a federal offense to steal mail. so they try to stop me from having more than they have and then they also try to turn it into this childish, selfish thing like blacks and mexicans (this one particular mexican girl who i am in activity with) have a right to have more than a white person. i know what i am communicating about. i haven't had a problem with mexicans other than this one mexican girl who i am in activity with. i have had and am still having a big problem with black women. first it was just a few black women who i am in activity with who got childish and envious or jealous (paris hilton incident) and then it has spread to millions now because of their childish gossip and dishonesty. it is a national security problem. they are angry and mean. they want people to think that they have an excuse to harm me and other innocent people like it is some kind movement or dumb black trend. part of the reason that black women wanted to cause a problem (paris hilton incident) is because they thought that they were going to have a problem with black men because of the women's gossip so they tried to humiliate me in front of black men because they thought that the black men wouldn't feel as powerful. i think that the black men would have been fine. women do stupid things sometimes. they play stupid unnecessary mind games. this black guy who i am in activity with joins in with weak black women because he is a weak black man and also because he stupidly thinks that it makes him look like a player when it doesn't. what this situation has demonstrated to me and i think others is that blacks and mexicans (or at least one mexican) have hatred toward white people (or a white person) because they think that the white person (or white people) has more. not only do they have weird hatred toward a white person because they think that the white person has more, but they want to harm the white person or white people. people always want to communicate about white hate, but what about black hate and mexican hate. it is understandable if people are being honest about feelings which people would have. it is easy to understand.



they are going to attack me again real bad in order to try to get me to defend myself on the internet in order to try to make it so that no one hires me if i apply for a job here in houston. i have a job right now working for my step dad's brother at his ranch in the country. they are playing a trick on people. they also want to interfere with my family life and home life and girlfriend life. they don't want me to do work in my home. they don't want people to know that i am happy because of their envy and jealously.

some of them hate me because i am something which they aren't and also can't be. some of them lie about me and my character.

they hate it when i am peaceful and happy. it makes them envious or jealous and angry. my happiness or gaiety is unique and i am hated because of it. they can't do the same thing in public like i can so they like to make me miserable in public like it is a stupid childish game to them. they have mental problems. deranged. angry. like they want to make a sick mockery of a man who is gay or happier than they are or can be. they are childish, mean spirited, low class scum who i got stuck with. they come into my home every day all day long intentionally disrupting my peace and ability to work. i would not choose to be around them. they don't even live in my neighborhood.

i'd rather not think of it this way.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cgvv-Hj62H0&t=119s

this mexican girl is so blatantly weird, childish, obnoxious and stupid; meaning, how she persistently attempts to get something for herself and to deceive men or trick them into giving her something or doing something for her in the future, without actually going out and talking to them in person. she doesn't want to actually go out and communicate with anyone now because she thinks that they will think that she isn't as exciting or interesting as she wants them to think or that she can't live out some childish, weird, greedy fantasy about getting something from people or being happier than she can be. black women are trying to do the same thing with black men. this black guy tries to do the same thing with black women. they all fantasize about someone thinking that they are more interesting or more special than they are or can be. they all want someone to take care of them or give them something which is not realistic. they fantasize about being able to be something which they can't or won't be. they have a confused ego and concept of themselves. personality disorders.

this mexican girl acts like a disgusting drug addict even if she isn't using drugs, like some girl who keeps stupidly trying to get a crumb of heroin or speed out of a syringe or pipe when there isn't a crumb. she is so stupid. then she wants mexican guys to know out about what she is doing ALL DAY LONG EVERY SINGLE DAY because she is sending them a single (sleazy) "hey, do you have a crumb for me? i'll fuck you if you have a crumb... oh, wait... do you have two crumbs?" and she is so blatantly disgusting about it, trying to prostitute herself.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=goKRpR4XNg8&t=47s

a few black people are admitting to being vicious, low class, sleazy animals. they admit to thinking that they are not intelligent. really. they do it every day, trying to drag other black people down with them. like they are telling other black people "be nasty, or else we are going to mess with you too..." i pray to God that this will not manifest worse than it needs to be in the future. 50 years from now. 200 years from now. 500 years from now, etc. they are being blatantly childish and ugly just for "fun" and it is sick. i have much much better things to do with my life than to constantly think about scum bags. it started out with black women lying about me and money because of how they gossip. these black women who i am in activity with want other black women to think that they are God and it is ridiculous. they are disabled. they are lazy. they are not connected. they have no power. it means that THEY fuck around all day on the internet, wanting people to think of me as an idol, yet insulting me and lying about me in every stupid way which they think that they can, implying that they are superior. they know that they got caught being stupid and now they want to hurt everyone. if they don't lie about one thing, they lie about another. i am not stupid. i have a good intent and they know it but they pretend as if they don't know because they don't want to act like they care about doing the same thing.

I WISH THAT PEOPLE WOULD INVOLVE THE FBI AND THE MEDIA SO AS TO TRY TO CREATE A DETERRENT. I UNDERSTAND IF THERE IS AN ISSUE WITH ONLY CIRCUMSTANTIAL EVIDENCE, BUT THE SITUATION WHICH PEOPLE COULD PROVE IS REAL BY PERFOMING A CERTIFIED PROOF TEST OF THIS ACTIVITY ON TV, IN AND OF ITSELF, MEANS THAT THERE WOULD BE SOMETHING ELSE TO THINK ABOUT SO IN A WAY IT PROVES WHAT WOULD NEED TO BE PROVED, OR AT LEAST BE A PRECAUTION. I THINK THAT THIS WILL MANIFEST AS ISSUES WHICH THE POLICE AND/OR MILITARY WILL HAVE TO NEGOTIATE IN SOME FORM SOME TIME FROM NOW. DON'T UNDERESTIMATE HOW BAD IT CAN GET IN THE FUTURE. THIS IS THE START. LIKE IT OR NOT.

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many black guys are cool and have class. God be with them.

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american females, starting with paris hilton, are destroying the world with childishness and arrogance. they have an attitude problem. they want to be thought of as more than christ or a humble man, stupidly insulting a humble man or humble men. no, i'm not a chauvinist. they are stupid childish rude feminists. this mexican girl does it. black women do it too. they will regret it. they have ruined america.

she thinks that i am more interesting and better than most mexican guys but she doesn't want them to know that. i want mexican guys to know that i am not stuck up. she keeps intentionally fucking with my confidence, wanting people to know about it, because she thinks that mexican guys will think that they are inferior and she doesn't want that because she thinks that she won't have sex as good. that is the truth. this mexican bitch is greedy, lame and evil. she hurts me. i am innocent. i am not involved in anything bad. i don't want to hurt anyone. she hurts my innocent girlfriend. she hurts my innocent dogs. she hurts my innocent family. she hurts the community. like she wants people to know that she thinks of it like a game like she is an obnoxious sleazy mexican girl in school who talks back to the teacher after she gets in trouble. i want mexican guys to know that i am not stuck up. i am a good person to work around with a sense of humor. she thinks that i have more experience and more confidence than most guys but she doesn't want them to know that. she keeps intentionally obstructing my life. she lies in two ways. one way is that she is being friendly and trying to help and that i am not friendly or receptive to it. that is one lie. the other lie is that i deserve to be harmed. she can't figure out how to lie her way out of trouble, because she got caught trying to wrongfully defame me. she is panicking. she has been panicking every day for years going crazy because she thinks that she can't get have sex or get money from some guy. she is an evil boring gold digger who tried to use me and when she thought she couldn't, she stabbed me and everyone else who she thought cared about me in the back. she is a threat to national/global security. so is the black guy. so are some black women who are also playing games.

this mexican girl wants to tease and toy with a man, making him mentally sick, because he doesn't like her or because he rejected her BECAUSE HE DIDN'T LIKE HER. she is angry because i rejected her because she thought that she couldn't get another guy to like her so she stabbed me and everyone who she thought liked me in the back. she is an evil bitch! some black women have the same problem. they do the same thing. they are stupid. these females are so stupid. they should move on. they are so lame. men have a right to not like women who don't make them feel comfortable!

another thing is that black women and this mexican girl want other men to think that they are trying to make the men jealous or something stupid like that because they want the other men to think that they are with me. it is ridiculous.

this mexican girl doesn't want mexican guys to know that i have a good time with my beautiful smart girlfriend in my beautiful home because she thinks that she can't have the same kind of good time with a guy. she admits to being a stupid childish jealous bitch. she wants people to see that i am angry but to not know how sweet i am. she tries to trick people. she is evil.

this mexican girl is also definitely lying to her family. she can't work and so she is lying to them in order ot try and get inheritance money. she is evil and wants her family to know that she is evil, stupidly implying that they should give her inheritance money anyway.
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WILL SOMEONE IN THE COMMUNITY PLEASE COMMUNICATE WITH ME AND MY GIRLFRIEND ABOUT WHAT IS GOING ON AROUND THE INTERNET? I KNOW THAT PEOPLE ARE IN AGREEMENT ABOUT WHAT I AM STATING ON MY WEBSITE. I KNOW THAT THERE IS SOMETHING ABOUT IT ON THE INTERNET AND I WOULD LIKE TO KNOW ABOUT IT. IT WOULD GET ME TO CALM DOWN. IT IS VERY DIFFICULT FOR ME TO EXPLAIN WHAT IS HAPPENING TO MY GIRLFRIEND WITHOUT ANY ACTUAL SUPPORT FROM A REAL PERSON. HOW IS THIS GOOD FOR ANY COUPLE OR ANY FUTURE COUPLE? IT DOESN'T MEAN THAT WE ARE GOING TO BREAK UP, BUT IT SURE WOULD BE NICE TO EXPERIENCE A LITTLE LOVE COMING FROM SOMEONE ELSE IN PUBLIC.
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i am not a threat and people lie about me, wasting everyone else's time and energy. it is the people WHO ARE NOT BEING OBSERVED who are the threat or danger. do you understand? i never wanted to harm anyone and people know this about me a long time ago and they still know it about me every single day. i only wanted to make people happy. what am i doing every day? nothing harmful. it is very very simple. some evil childish people are blatant about harming me and others, pretending as if they have an excuse to do so, not wanting me to be happier than they are because of their envy. they are childish weirdos who want to play with me and make me sick in front of everyone like they think that i am a star who they want to play with. please help me and the community.

this mexican girl is the biggest coward and liar in the universe. she is constantly trying to make mexican guys think that she is more macho than they are because she is actually a coward who is trying to trick them into thinking that girls deserve something when that is not necessarily true. she is a stupid coward who was always afraid of real work. i would be doing something else right now if these dumb girls would get out of my life. i would be a very confident, calm, happy man if it were not for dumb childish weird girls who want to play with me in public.

i already communicated on this website that i drew a swastika about 20 years ago to label a binder which had innocent, interesting messages from a guy (thule.org) who i felt was loving. i also think that he knew who i was. i threw it and the messages away years ago. i think i drew a few swastikas in my old note books which i have already thrown away but it really isn't important. i don't communicate with white supremacists or KKK or anything like that. i never did and never would. i thought that there was something interesting about world war 2 and i also never wanted to hurt anyone. some black people talk stupid shit about me but their problem isn't with me. their problem is with themselves. i thought or hoped when i was young and naïve and using methamphetamine that i would be able to be involved in technology in order to help people. it is funny if you really know what i am like. people lie about my character. i always wanted to help and i am stuck in the middle so i didn't understand my potential. i wanted to think that there was some type of justification for what happened during world war 2. maybe there isn't. i got stuck in the middle of something and wanted to believe that i could help or that everything would be ok. i was feeling lost and confused in the past, mostly because of how this black guy had and was separating me from the community, so i wanted to feel as if i was connected and had power to do something good. i didn't want to harm anyone and i wouldn't have harmed anyone if i had been given the opportunity. thule guy was showing me love and i needed love and acceptance in my life. i was also intoxicated on meth, feeling passionate about optimistic about something in something.

i'm not the one who wants to talk about swastikas. i want to move on to something else. that was in the past when i was confused. i never wanted to harm anyone. i never tried to promote white supremacy.


some stupid black people want to start a war because they think that people think that they are inferior. don't make your problem everyone else's problem. not all of them are doing this. some of them lie about me and money or whatever they think they have an excuse to lie about because they think that it gives them an excuse to act lazy and as if they don't care because some of them don't even try to be anything other than former slaves in america. it was all unnecessary. they fake having pride. they fake thinking that they are superior. they fake thinking that they are good and that i am evil it is fake. they are fake. i am not fake and they know that i am not fake and they can't keep up with me or other good people.

they are trying to make it so that i can't get a job close to my home. they don't want me to be happy and then they also lie about me and money. it really is unbelievable how so incredibly nasty and childish these people who are doing this are. it is weird envy but that doesn't mean that i am stuck up. i understand if you are thinking "what is there to be envious of? you always seem angry." that is exactly how they are trying to trick you. they want to make me negative because they can't keep up with my positive. it is like they got kicked out of a party because they were obnoxious or mean to people and then they give the host and other people at the party stupid attitude, scratching people's cars with key and breaking windows of the house after they are thrown out. childish anger. they made themselves look stupid and they don't like it so they are trying to make me look stupid but i am not stupid. do you know the real reason why they don't want me to get a job? because i am a good humble worker who is friendly. they don't want people to see that i am a good humble worker who is friendly. they are not humble and they are sending a signal to other black people to not be humble or caring but i don't think that it is working or will work.

these people make a childish angry mockery of christ or something positive because of their own negativity in their own lives. they don't even try to be happy. to some of these black people the word "civility" is a punch line of a sick joke.

a few people are trying to portray me as an obnoxious bad boy. i'm not an obnoxious bad boy but that is what it would seem like with all of my internet crap. they intentionally provoke me in order to try to get me to defend myself and the community in order to try to make it look like i have an attitude problem when actually they are the ones with the attitude problem. they try to make it seem like i am the one who is aggressive when i am not. they are the ones who are unnecessarily aggressive. they are trying to trick you. i just want to be left alone! do you understand? i just want to be left alone! i would much rather being doing laundry right now or taking a shower or peacefully walking the dogs or vacuuming or looking for a job at a landscaping company (i have a job right now working for my step dad's brother in the country but i would like something closer to my home) or something else besides this. that is what it would have been and they know it and they don't like it because they think that it makes me seem more popular or likeable than they are. i would be peaceful and confident. they are not peaceful and confident. they are the ones who want to try to make a big deal of themselves. i am not the one who i trying to make a big deal of myself. they try to politicize me in order to try to make it seem like they are superior because they actually think that they are inferior or that people will think that they are inferior, and it makes them angry and confused in public. the only reason that i communicate about trying to get the FBI and media involved is because these people are evil aggressors who are intentionally destroying the community because they are angry because they were rejected. i would not be destroying the community if they left me alone. they keep trying to make people think that it is justified to harm me and other innocent people, including innocent dogs, which means that they are trying to fabricate false evidence to use against me or that they are trying to cover up the fact that they are the problem.

this is what happens when you don't get the FBI or media involved. it really isn't interesting.

i know that good black people are defending me, despite what i have communicated. i want ignorant black people to know that it is like being tortured for no good reason by a few black people who have a attitude like "that's right white boy, yeah, i'm sleazy evil nasty low class ugly black thug shit which i know that you hate." what they are doing is perverted. they are weird perverts like someone who would kidnap someone and torture them while saying really creepy things to them at the same time plus calling their family or sending notes to their family, taunting them being weird. they are fascinated with me, wanting to "play" with me and it is absolutely sick. a few black people want other people to think that they are special because they get to "play" with me. they are creepy and lame. ordinarily i wouldn't be anywhere near these people so they couldn't get to me.

i am considering getting rid of this web site. i get tired of the negative crap which OTHER PEOPLE intentionally create. i may keep it. i think that i will keep it but i'm not sure.

it was like i was only about 8 or 9 years old (i had to begin to relearn everything in 1997) when i drew the swastika as a label for a binder. i thought that there was something cool and interesting about it, but it was really about my old thule friend and not nazi germany. i never wanted to harm anyone. it was like i was a young boy who thought that there was something cool about sponge bob square pants and so i drew him on a piece of paper. i was young and impressionable. my life got turned upside down and it was mostly because of what this black guy (who i didn't know was an ignorant black guy) was doing to me, confusing me, making me think that all of these things were connected or that things were more important than there were. i have tried to help black people more than once but they pretend as if they don't know about love because they don't want to have to do the same thing or because they are not the same way. quite frankly, i am fed up. i'm sure that you can tell. some black people stabbed everyone in the back and they are trying to group sleazy black thugs together. these people who are acting up are making a sick childish game about making everyone unhappy because they envy how we could be happier than they can be because of what they know that the public knows that they did. they assault us every day. they disrupt the peace every day. they are weird, angry and want attention because they were rejected. they pretend as if they think that i deserve it. i don't. they are fake. part of the reason that i keep posting on my website is because i am trying to let people know "sorry, i can't do anything for you. sorry, i can't do anything for you. i am trying, but it is impossible." and also because i am in great pain and confusion, wishing that people would get the FBI and media involved. why does it have to be this way? what is happening on the internet?

(because this black guy and some black women keep STUPIDLY harassing me and other people)

get out of my life, negro. you stalk me because you think that i can be happier than you can be because of how you made yourselves look bad. you want people to know that you are stalking me, like you think of it as a childish game. you are taunting the police and the community. you are childish, uncivil, unfriendly and unintelligent. your shit gossip on the internet is your problem. you fake thinking that you are right. you fake thinking that you are superior. you are fake. just like your stupid fat gold chains. i'm not the racist. you are the racists. you are not that special, negro. you want to "associate" with me because you think that it makes you seem special or more powerful than you are in public. eat shit and die. i'm tired of you creating problems for me and the community like you think of it as a childish game. you envy what i could create if you were not obstructing. the problem is not with me not being loving. the problem is with you not being loving. i am not the one assaulting people. it is not about me not including you. the problem is with you not including youselves.


some girls didn't want to show me love or affection in public because they think that it will make other men jealous and complicate their own relationships. so what they do is the complete opposite of showing me love or affection in public. they are cruel or sadistic like they want people to know that they think of it as a childish game. they only care about sex and money for themselves and not the health of the community as a whole. they don't hate me because i am a bad person. they hate me because they think that i am a nice person who is superior. it confuses them about themselves so they constantly obstruct my life in order to try to make me less popular and so that they can feel "better" about themselves being less. they try to create the impression with my website that i am the aggressor. i am not the aggressor. they are the aggressors. they want you to see what i am doing, but they don't want you to understand what they are doing. they are trying to trick ignorant people into not liking me. i really don't care if you don't like me, but what is important is that i have rights or that i should have rights.

i am not the one assaulting people. blacks and a mexican girl are the ones assaulting people. they like to mess with my spirit because they think that i have a stronger spirit than they do. it is like vandalism.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GU7tBHvcG1s

i never thought that i would think or communicate these things about black people. quite frankly we are sick of them. this group which i am in activity with is like media like its own tv station and some people who don't get attention, want stupid unnecessary attention and it is irritating. i get plenty of attention. more than any other person in the world and i am content with that. i have much better things to do than to get on the internet every day defending myself and the community.

some black people flaunt thinking that there are childish and nasty. that is their style. they won't stop. i didn't do anything to them. i didn't want to do anything to them. why are they harming with me and other innocent people? i know why. they have an inferiority complex. really. that means that they think that they are inferior. they become angry and confused, thinking that they are inferior, so then they put on this weird childish phony unnecessary act, acting as if they think that they are superior. they don't like the thought of people thinking that they are inferior or less, because some of them do think that, so they put on this dumb act. they are trying to trick ignorant people who don't know me that well with this internet shit. i would be peaceful and happy and productive every day if these weird childish negros would get out of my life. they want people to see me defending myself on my website, without wanting ignorant people to know what i am really like or what is really going on all of the time. if you want a war, negro, you are going to lose. you will kill yourselves. easy. some black women are very weak, childish and unintelligent. they panic, thinking that black people have made themselves look bad or that they have a bad image, so they are trying to make me look bad. guess what? all things considered, i really don't look bad. i look like a sweet nerd who never wanted to harm anyone who got wrapped up in something unique and interesting. it is like these black women want black men to know that they are panicking, like they are begging for help. people can know about my entire life if they want to. they already do. if i am so evil or the antichrist or whatever you want ignorant people thinking i am, then why are there people all over the world right now at this very moment involved in things much worse than i have ever been involved in or ever would be involved in? now that i made that argument they will probably take another cheap shot at me and lie about george h. w. bush and northern trust.

i am still being harassed by black women or black girls who stupidly started some shit back in 2008 (paris hilton incident). i didn't do anything wrong. they just thought that they had an opportunity to try to trick people into thinking that i did something wrong because they didn't want me to be more than they are. they just hate people who they think have more than they have. their behavior is so ugly and childish that it is ridiculous. then they stupidly complain that people don't like them or hate them. how could i not hate them? how could i not be a racist or not become a racist when they behave in the way which they behave?

GO TO THE BOTTOM OF THE 'FOR YOUR INFORMATION' SECTION OF THIS WEBSITE TO READ ABOUT THIS.

i won't keep communicating about it, but something else about the swastika and thule dude. i didn't understand as much about my situation then as i did now. i had hoped or fanaticized about being able to able to integrate a diverse group of people into something technological, but the more that i think about it, something about the thought of working around, or trying to work around people who were or who are responsible for the holocaust doesn't seem right. i tried to make sense of it in a way which i think was unrealistic. i think that it confuses people and i understand. the small swastika which i created as a label for a small binder which people really couldn't see was about a cool feeling i got from my old thule dude friend and not nazi germany back in the 1930s or 1940s. it really wasn't about nazi germany. it was about him. he didn't give me a bad feeling so i thought that it was ok. thule is a mythological place but it can also relate to some type of society during world war 2. i thought that there was something interesting about it and i didn't want to hurt anyone.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Thule

i thought that maybe i was going to be allowed to have a loving control over something which would carry over to the next epoch of development. in the back of my mind, i hoped that something was peaceful and friendly because otherwise i didn't think that we would have a real chance of positive development. methamphetamine didn't help. it made me unrealistically positive. i thought that things which i learned about in the past meant that they were more significant than they were. i thought that it must mean that it is ok because i am ok. maybe it doesn't. i understand if it doesn't make colored or jewish people comfortable. i wished that it would be ok for them and that is why i thought that it was ok. i got stuck in the middle of something.

did the holocaust occur in order to create peace at some other level in space? i don't understand it. i'd like to believe that something good came out of it. i read something about how something was secured because of world war 2 and what has happened (because of america?) since then.

i'm not in control of what is above us (space/aliens), even thought i would like to believe that i could influence it in a positive way. i read something about how the technological aryans (related to fallen angels in the book of enoch) got started on mars. they are and have been working with people/governments on earth. that is related to what i meant about intelligence and money. science. funding. something about patents. i'm stuck in the middle of something. enoch = christ. circle of enoch/great pyramid. technological aryans/great pyramid. older or more evolved than we are. book of enoch in wikipedia. hybrids. i think that christ would be considered aryan. definition of aryan is important. great pyramid/orion - 10,450 BC. age of leo. sphinx due east.

https://www.constellationsofwords.com/leo/

excerpt from link above.

On page 253 of Star Names Allen says the Syrians called Leo Aryo; the Jews, Arye; meaning a Lion. Ari or Aryeh, is the Hebrew for “lion”, cognate with Akkadian aria, Aramaic arya. Aryeh in Sanskrit (a PIE, Proto-Indo-European, language) means “noble” and in Hebrew means “lion”. Ari was used in Hebrew as an honorific for an important man. The Hebrew name Ari-el translates to “lion of God” []. The word Aryan is a synonym for Indo-European (people and language). The original word in Vedic Language for Lion is ‘Hari‘ [10] which is phonically similar to ari. Linguists say that the Indo-European languages are not related to Hebrew and might deny a link in this case, but they are unsure of some words and they term the Hebrew words that have strayed into these languages “borrowings”. The term “Arya” derived from the Proto-Indo-European, generally carries the meaning of “noble” or “free”, is cognate with the Greek-derived word “aristocrat” [11].

first paragraph (aryeh). don't understand it but 200 and 20 and 2 are interrelated. 200 fallen angels in the book of Enoch.

https://www.inner.org/hebleter/reish.htm


the only reason that i chose to communicate about the swastika in public is because i feared that black women who lie about my character would try to use it as a way of creating unnecessary division for the community. i thought that communicating honestly about it was the lesser of 2 problems. no one would have ever known about it or really cared about it because i am really not a problem. never wanted to harm anyone.

what i imagined in the past, and like i used to communicate all of the time in the past, and now, was/is to be able to coordinate a group of guys like a diverse (mixed multi ethic) special forces team who have a great deal of respect for one another. i was born in america in 1972. truthfully, i don't know if it is possible. maybe i could influence the diversity but i think that something at a higher technological level involves money and i am not in control of that. money or no money, make it about love. you may think that i am cold because of how i communicated about black women, stating "why don't we just agree to hate each other", but you really don't understand how they were and still are the ones who are cold. i also want to get them out of my life and on with their own lives. quit unnecessarily communicating about me. don't "involve" me in your life.

it is easy for you to take things out of context. just because of this little bit of whatever on a website doesn't mean that you know me that well. sometimes i think that the internet is going hurt or confuse people. not just my work, but also the work of other people.

if i was doing something wrong or thinking something wrong in the past, why wouldn't this black guy have acted aggressively with me back then? because i wasn't doing something wrong or thinking something wrong and he knew that i wasn't. he knew that i had a good heart. he changed his story and started to lie about my character after black women made themselves look bad after the paris hilton incident. he can't get a woman so he started to lie also trying to humiliate me. he is a very weak insecure weird black man who would rather lie about me than to stand up to ugly attitude, childish, dishonest black women. he is a fake, insecure, evil, childish, vicious negro pig.


i feel as if i confused or hurt the spirit of people around me or people who are finding out about this and i am sorry for that. i mean about the swastika. i thought that the old thule dude was cool, loving, interesting, smart and unique so it didn't seem wrong or i thought that it didn't matter. i didn't want to think that it mattered or that there is a problem or limit for everyone. wishful thinking. maybe the aliens eat sweet guys like me for dinner. i didn't want to think that. i thought that my old thule dude knew who i was and that he was being supportive and that meant a great deal to me back then because i was very confused and hurting. this is not nazi germany in the 1930s or 1940s. this is some kind of spin off (non violent?) in america after world war II. i think that it is really more about intelligence and money, rather than being white. science. i don't think that the thule dude is in trouble or that the website is down because he is in trouble. i think that a few black women would want people to think that when they actually don't think that it is true. it was a good website. informative like mine. i liked the '"culture" between ice ages' and 'book of enoch' pages. there was also 'the "plan" for massive depopulation' which mentioned something about how there is a "plan" in place to tip an asteroid into the earth's gravitational field. i have thought that if it worked, that it would be a better way for people to die, for the most part ending quickly this large cycle of population. this, rather that to have to struggle or war in tribes like animals for a long time after a transition which will take place in the future. food is going to be a problem because of the weather. that will be the start of it. there was other information as well like 'did we evolve from apes?' something about darwin. another file was about technological aryans.

i hope that the swastika thing doesn't mean that no one will hire me. i have never gone to a white supremacist or kkk or white nationalist website and i never would. i would never show up at any rally for any of those groups. i don't always prefer a white person over a colored person or a jewish person. i don't understand DNA. in a way the swastika was related to world war 2 (thule society/doesn't mean that he is part of the same "society") but in a way it was not related to world war 2. i could have created a label for the binder by writing out T, H, U, L, E, but the swastika was just a way to label the binder. it seemed ok at the time. my old thule buddy never once mentioned anything which sounded mean or hateful toward anyone in the emails. all i am guilty of is organizing paperwork. all i have wanted to do since i knew who i was is to try to help people. i felt as if my old thule buddy was trying to help people too. you are witnessing me about 17 or 18 years later and i am much more confident and level headed, being able to better discern what is important and what is not important. i was and am still intrigued by what the germans (or now america?) were working on. much of what hitler ranted about was propaganda.

these girls who are playing childish games with me and the community every day get a sick thrill from making a guy, who they know would be very confident and peaceful in public, uncomfortable and tense in public, like they think of it as sick game or like they want to make a mockery of a man's confidence in public, like they are admitting to being no good for people's confidence, like they are admitting to being too weak or not being able to build people up. they don't even try. they also don't try to be happy. all they have to do is move on and quit unnecessarily communicating about me. they want to be in a relationship with me in public, but i don't want to be in a relationship with them. i have a girlfriend and we are happy together. i also have a loving family and cool dogs and cool cats. i don't want these people in my life. they should get out of my life and everyone else's life. go away.
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hey ya'll. the aliens said that they would give me a cool deal if i set up a hooters down in antarctica. aliens need love too!
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why don't the black women who have assaulted me in the past for no good reason, and who continue to assault me when i am online for no good reason, and i just agree to hate each other (even though they really don't hate me) and then they can get out of my life? i know why. they want to associate with me in public because they think that it makes them seem more powerful than they are. they try to make it seem like they are superior and i'm not even making a big deal of myself. THEY think that i am a big deal and they want people to think that they are superior for some reason. they are also not wanting me to work because they think that i will be popular, and that they won't be, and they are also trying to make it look like i didn't create my website when i did.

i think that people want to think of me or try to portray me as a monster because i used to use drugs when i am not a monster. i am not a monster and i can think of people who don't use drugs who are monsters. i'm really not a bad boy like i think that people want you to think of me as. i am more like a geek momma's boy who used to use dope a little. i usually never liked the people who were around drugs and usually they didn't like me.

i'd like to move on with my life now. why don't you stop communicating about george h. w. bush and northern trust and paris hilton and johnny depp and antarctica and the thule dude and whatever else which doesn't matter? sorry, it is not as exciting as they want people to think that it is. quit communicating about me and move on with your own lives. all i want to do is live out a happy, peaceful life, with a part time job as a grocery sacker at a grocery store or with a landscape company. it is very painful when people try to stupidly use your past against you for no good reason. what is the point in doing good things in life if people only want to criticize you for your past? i am not in any trouble like some people want you to think that i am because they think that people think that they are in trouble.
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it is like these black women are admitting to thinking that i have more class than they do and trying to make it about low class, thug people who are going to dominate people who have more class. it is scary. they are using this situation as a way of "having something in common" with others so as to try to gather resources. it is scary. they don't even care about children. all these black women care about is sex and money. they lie about me and money. they want black people to know that they are lying, implying that it doesn't matter, as long as they think that they can make up a story. they are the ones who are after money.


I WISH THAT PEOPLE WOULD INVOLVE THE FBI AND THE MEDIA SO AS TO TRY TO CREATE A DETERRENT. I UNDERSTAND IF THERE IS AN ISSUE WITH ONLY CIRCUMSTANTIAL EVIDENCE, BUT THE SITUATION WHICH PEOPLE COULD PROVE IS REAL, IN AND OF ITSELF, MEANS THAT THERE WOULD BE SOMETHING ELSE TO THINK ABOUT SO IN A WAY IT PROVES WHAT WOULD NEED TO BE PROVED OR AT LEAST SERVE AS A PRECAUTION. I THINK THAT THIS WILL MANIFEST AS ISSUES WHICH THE POLICE AND/OR MILITARY WILL HAVE TO NEGOTIATE IN SOME FORM SOME TIME FROM NOW.

a few black women have really ugly childish attitudes because they think that they made themselves look bad. that is why they lie about me, trying to trick people into thinking that i am the one who looks bad. they are trying to bully people and it is very very bad for america. it is real ugly and childish and i don't want it in my life or my family's life or my girlfriend's life. we are innocent. black women have been a problem for 14 years.

this mexican girl is so ugly and childish that it is ridiculous. so are some of these black girls. this mexican girl is trying to make people think that i am crazy and that the people who are sensing what is going on and who also don't like her (144,000) are crazy. she is so stupid for wanting people to know that she has this stupid childish obnoxious, very weak female attitude like "oh, you don't like me... well then i don't want you to be happy or for people to like you..." she does this every day all day long instead of moving on with her life. she doesn't even try to be happy or to have friends. she is angry that i don't like her because she thinks that other men won't like her so she intentionally ruins my life every day so that i can't be more popular. she is very childish and very selfish. she implies that if men don't give her money or if they don't like her or if they reject her that she will hurt them. she is a very weak, very angry, very childish mexican female who is about 30 years old who hopes to get something because of the way she looks who couldn't handle rejection in public. she actually thinks that her looks won't matter and she is pissed off about it. she doesn't have a brain. evil obnoxious bimbo. she is trying to have me killed but not being read obvious about it and then she thinks that she can make up any story she wants to after i am dead. obviously she is lying to her family about what is going on. i want her out of my life. i have never liked her. she never cared about me or my feelings. she only wanted to try to use me as a way of getting something from someone else.
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a sick joke shot out to my homeboys.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=le3xII5yKqE
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this mexican girl has a very disturbing mental problem. she likes to harm people. she is after money. i wish that people would make a story about this situation on the tv news. maybe we could flush her family out. she used to date a mexican guy who was at memorial park with her when i jogged by. she also had him follow me into my town home community trying to intimidate me when she knew that i was innocent. she did this in order to try to make people who i am in activity with think that someone didn't like me, i think trying to create an opportunity for someone to kill me "because it looked like someone didn't like me". obviously she was lying to him about what was going on. maybe we could flush him out too. just because i stated that i have been in the psychiatric ward 14 (maybe it has been 13 times) doesn't mean that i am schizophrenic. usually i am forced in by the police or my parents because it gets so bad. most of the times i have been in (i think 8 times/the last 8 times) was because of this mexican girl trying to have me killed but no one killed me. she wants people to know that she takes a weird, childish pleasure in harming people. she has the most disgusting spirit you could possibly imagine. evil, childish, stupid, sadistic, greedy. some kind of alien. same as black guy. they can't communicate anything intelligent with words like i can so they think that they need to compensate using these muscular contractions but they are not intelligent or friendly, and they both have a disgusting weird ego problem like satan. they use the ability to act aggressively in the way which they can as a weapon, incapacitating people. they seems to want sex and money or love, wanting someone to think that they are powerful, but they really don't think that they are powerful or they have a confused concept of what they are (because they think that people think that i am the number 1). they want sex and money and love like humans do but they act like weird deranged tyrants, or like animals, who flaunt being uncivil and evil. they have a weird mental problem. i have an ego problem too but not that bad. i am like a dolphin. they are like piranhas. really. different biological species.

the people who are causing problems EVERY DAY are wanting to fuck with people who they think can be happier than they can be. obviously the people who are causing problems are not happy and want people to know that they are not happy. they are not happy because they got themselves into trouble by being caught being childish, mean and dishonest. i am not a person who is in trouble.

a few black people (mostly women) and this mexican girl and this black guy and paris hilton think that they made themselves look bad and now they are bullying people around. it is really ugly and childish. i wish that the government would get involved because i think that it is going to get worse or that it is the beginning of a problem for the future. they are harassing me about money and i never did anything wrong with money (northern trust/paris hilton) so it is really really stupid. they just don't want me to be happy because they think that i can be happier than they can be because they think that they made themselves look bad. part of the issue is the money my family has and assists me with so they make it an issue like about hating people who have money. i also get disability benefits but i am allowed to work part time and retain my disability benefits and i would really like to do that because it would make me and other people very happy because it would be healthy consistent activity but people are making a mockery of someone (me) who is honest and wants to work because they are angry that i can be happier than they can be. it is not just money. i have a nice family and a nice girlfriend. my family situation and girlfriend situation are good.

a few black women are trying to use this situation as a way of stupidly bossing men around. i'd like to see them actually go up to a man in person and try to boss them around. why would a man just allow you to boss him around when he doesn't know you? what would he actually think of you in person? are you smart? are you attractive? are you a loving person? are you funny? they try to intimidate men, basically telling the man "you better give me something or else you ain't gettin' none. oh yeah, i'm gonna boss you around." i don't live in that world and i don't want to live in that world. some girls are sweet.

i previously stated something about how childish, obnoxious women don't rule the world and that honest, caring men do, or something like that, but there are honest caring women who help rule the world or who are involved in leadership positions or politics. most women don't try to be in leadership positions or politics and i think that it is because it is something which they don't want to do. it requires courage and sacrifice but i am not stating that girls don't have courage. more of them should get involved but not because they want greedy power but because they want to help. you have to go to college first.

something else about my past when i would do meth is that for about 10 years i would study every week for about 10 or 15 hours, thinking that maybe or that i was supposed to figure something out for scientists regarding the weather and that it was prophesized. that is why i thought that it didn't matter if i used meth and it is also why i was confused about the german stuff. i wondered why i wasn't being arrested since people knew that i was doing it. i also wondered why i wasn't killed. i had already been doing drugs since i was about 13 years old when i found out who i was when i was 24 so i thought that it didn't matter because God knew that there was more to me than just that. i thought that maybe drug usage was going to enable me to figure something out because it gave me so much energy to study. it was a lot of brainstorming but i didn't know what i was trying to write about. i never wanted to hurt anyone. just very confused in the past. i thought that things were going much faster than they were or would be in the beginning so i didn't understand how to understand my life within the appropriate context. i still don't. i was put into one of the most confusing situations in the world, if not the most confusing situation in the world, so i would appreciate a little latitude. i would compare my situation psychologically to being in a war zone. it could be good right now, but some people who are not happy or who got kicked out of the party (not me) want to spoil it for everyone and it is very sad. they are childish and socially lame.

it is really stupid how some black women fake thinking that they have power, knowing that they don't have power. i am not the one with the attitude problem. i am not a chauvinist. they are disrespectful childish feminists.

i have been getting a lot of phone calls lately which i think are black girls who are stalking me and the community. they have a weird emotional problem or are socially lame. i have been getting calls from numbers which say disconnected or no longer in service when you call back but it is a number which a person can call another person from. really creepy. these black girls flaunt being lame. it is really sad for sweet friendly black girls who are cool but they will be ok. i guess it will be a cat fight.


i didn't mean that girls or guys can't be playful at work. i am being stalked by creepy obnoxious lame girls who made themselves look bad who try to make me look bad and who also want people thinking that they are flirting with me while also wanting people to know that they want to interfere with my relationships with other people. they want people to know that they are stalking me because they are stalking everyone and i wish that people would get the media or the FBI or the government involved. it is bizarre and incredibly disturbing. i can't wait until i am dead so that these people can't hurt anyone anymore or try to hurt anyone anymore. it goes beyond being staked. it is blatant weird sadism and it is girls mostly girls who are doing it. this black guy also does it but only because the girls started it and because he is stupidly trying to make it a black thing with these dumb black women who want to make it a black thing when they shouldn't. these girls (mostly black women) don't want men to have power or imply that women have the power while being incredibly stupid at the same time so it doesn't make any sense at all. my girlfriend is very sweet and very smart and very cool and i really really don't want to think of dumb black female lame sleazy "ghetto" thug crap. they try to humiliate or intimidate men because of they way that they want people knowing that they are treating me (an innocent man who is being harassed) in public and it is so stupid and not lady like. they act like sleazy ghetto thugs who make fun of people who have class. they try to humiliate men or a man (me) in public because they think that they will have to be more humble and focused if people know that i am happy, cool and confident like they know that i would be if they would get out of my life. i am not in any trouble. they are. i am not trying to cause a problem for girls but some of them are mean and like to make fun of men so they are trying to humiliate men by trying to humiliate me but they are incredibly stupid because they won't humiliate me. i do real work and they play stupid childish games so they will lose. they already lost. they reason that black women or black women and this mexican girl and paris hilton try to humiliate me is because they think that they are less. that is why they didn't want to have power. they have a weird inferiority complex. i am not a creep either. i am a sweet humble guy. these girls (and the black guy) have a weird emotional or anger problem. they want power but they are not intelligent so it doesn't work.
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https://www.jstor.org/stable/1429971

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the reason that i found thule.org on the internet was because another old buddy had an experience with a flying craft which moved him into it. he was looking at 3 beams of light and he stated that he had some kind of telepathic experience sensing something about the number 64. then later he picked up some mysterious hitchhiker who told him that he should build an ark in order to transport an ark after my old buddy told him about his flying craft experience. my old buddy was still in a type of shock and didn't know what he was doing just like i didn't know what i was doing and just like i still don't know what i am doing and all of this is not as important as it may seem. then he searched for ark of the covenant on the internet and found a file which i think is similar to something called 'the omega file' on the internet (which i don't care about reading all of) which had something about the thule society (hitler or the third reich) which i read about. this information bothered me and scared me at first. it confused me and i tried to protect black people thinking that i was going to be killed the first time i went into the psychiatric ward at the veteran's hospital here in houston at the end of 1997. i have been into the hospital 13 or 14 times since 1997. i was confused and scared real bad for the first few years of this just like i am still confused and scared but slowly my confidence started to build and the black guy (who i didn't know was an ignorant black guy) was trying to build my confidence even though now he will say something different now because he thinks that he can't get a black woman unless he lies about me because of how black women did something stupid several times also lying about me. so anyway, i thought that maybe i was supposed to be involved with something the germans developed in antarctica because of reading a little bit of the file and unique experiences with the supernatural which included what this black guy (who i didn't know was an ignorant black guy) but i knew that i didn't want to harm anyone. why would i want to harm anyone when i know that i don't have privacy and when i don't know who i am in activity with? something else was that i thought that everything had some magical meaning which it didn't when i was younger. so i researched thule on the internet and found thule.org and the dude who i communicated with was very interesting and cool and loving so i continued to communicate with him. you would be surprised at how innocent and interesting the short messages from him were. he told me not to communicate with him anymore since about 2014 or 2015 when i tried to get the government to cause me to die with an official medical procedure when i involved him and darpa (defense advance research projects agency) because of how i believe that he involved me with darpa some time ago. i think that he thought that they should know something about me. i have communicated with him probably about 5 times since then because i thought that it was important but he has never corresponded back and i don't think that he ever would. i think that evil dishonest black women in the group i am with (144,000) harass him but it doesn't mean that he is doing something wrong or that i am doing something wrong. i communicated about thule.org many times back in 2002 or 2003 or 2004 or whatever. people could check out the website and communicate to him and i know that black women thought that he was interesting and cool but they started to lie about him and me after they thought that they started to make themselves look bad after the paris hilton incident. black women stabbed everyone in the back. not all of them. just a few.

i think that i was high on methamphetamine at the time when i created the swastika binder label. meth used to make me act weird especially because i was confused. i was confused and sad in the beginning of this so i used it one a week after i got introduced to it in early summer 1997. it would make me feel very passionate about things in a way which was unrealistic. the swastika doesn't mean that i would like a white person over a person with color or a jewish person.

i am sorry if the swastika thing confuses anyone. i wasn't thinking that white people are superior to whoever else when i created it. i wouldn't do it again but i don't feel as if i did something wrong. you shouldn't be afraid of me. i am harmless. i was young, confused and truthfully i wanted to think that i had i had the power to accomplish something good for people or that something positive was going to come out of my past confused situation because i was sort of lost and feeling very weak and confused for years when this first started. i wanted to believe that i was part of something strong (and i thought loving) because thinking that there is a "problem" (antarctica) for everyone or that i couldn't help anyone was more confusing because i lack privacy so my mind wanted to think that it wasn't a problem. i wasn't as far along with my life as i am now. i was less mature and less developed and i used to think that things in my life were more important than they were and i needed to think that they were more important at that time in the past because i was a confused mess, mostly because of what this black guy (who i didn't know was an ignorant black guy back then) was doing to me, confusing me. this sounds confused but i was confused in the past and i also don't like people lying about my character. i don't know if antarctica is a problem. i don't understand it. i guess there is never a problem in life. that is what faith is about. i know that i don't want to harm anyone and i never did. i think that maybe WWII was something which enabled some kind of work to be able to get going in a way (america/nation state/funding) which is not so bad but that is really because i want to imagine something peaceful. the messages from my old thule buddy were more innocent and and interesting than people would assume. i didn't want to think that we can't be happy (antarctica or whatever other underground stuff exists in the world) or that i can't do anything for people or that it is hopeless or that we are fucked. how would you feel if you knew that you didn't have privacy (people involved in government?) and knew about certain more secretive things and wanted to help if you could? i thought that maybe i was supposed to be involved in something but not in a way which meant that i was going to harm anyone. that is what i hoped for because i thought that it seemed interesting and because i have a big heart. to be allowed to be involved but to do good. wishful thinking. thule guy was loving and interesting and i thought connected to something relating to WWII or high tech something which i hoped would be applied toward everyone in a good way so it seemed ok. i was also confused about my personal experiences with the supernatural, including the communication from the black guy who i didn't know was an ignorant black guy back then. he was trying to build me up but he got carried away and it created a big problem for everyone and now he doesn't want to accept responsibility for it because he joined in with a few dishonest mean spirited black women because he thought that he couldn't get a woman unless he did or also because he thought that black people had an image problem because of what some black women did after the paris hilton incident so he thought that he would lie along with a few black women. i am not trying to create a problem for black people. i want them to be happy and confident. these black women who are blatantly acting dumb should move on and allow other blacks to move on. they are childish and socially lame, wanting to use this group as a form of media in order to get attention and bully people. i don't think that people want to join them. love and peace is better. i will always be transparent but i always already was because i lack privacy. i am not running for a political office. i just want to work at a grocery store part time or at a landscaping company part time. i just want to be left alone. some people try to politicize me because they think that they need to make themselves look superior to me even though i am not wanting to make a big deal of myself.


i thought that evil dishonest black women gossiped trying to fool ignorant people last night or today about my character. i never wanted to harm anyone and they knew that. i don't want to harm anyone and they know that. they want to harm people. i have tried to help black people more than once. they lie about me because for some reason they want to be thought of as superior. i was going through some paper work in my home last night making a point about how there is nothing in my home which is anything to be concerned about. people already knew that. then i remembered that back in 2003 or 2004 or 2005 i created a paperwork binder label with a swastika on it but it was no big deal. i threw it away years ago along with a few (5 or 10) email messages which i got from an old buddy (thule.org) before i attempted to commit suicide because i didn't want my mother or anyone to be confused or take something out of the appropriate context because she didn't understand the big picture. i wouldn't do it again, but i didn't do anything wrong given how i was in a confused situation plus the fact that i never wanted to harm anyone. the binder was for a few messages which i got from an old buddy of mine (thule.org) who wanted to help people including me. i was confused about my own situation back then, thinking that maybe i was involved in something which the germans had helped to develop but it seemed ok to me because i know that i am ok and because i don't want to hurt anyone. it was wishful thinking. i had hoped that i would be able to be involved with technology in a loving cool way. the holocaust is not something which i like to think about. i don't understand it. something about money but also propaganda? population in europe? i think that stalin killed more jewish folk that hitler did. a swastika in my home doesn't mean anything. you need to have a warrant or a reason to search but you can come over to my home any time you want to. . in other words, i have to be a problem in order for the police or anyone to search. i am not a problem so there is no reason to search. a judge or a lawyer could make the argument that i could have a swastika in my home, but also prove that there is no evidence that i am a problem for the community or also that i contribute money or assistance to a jewish synagogue. doesn't prove anything about my character. i am not trying to bribe jewish folk by making that argument. i liked my old thule buddy. thule is a mythological place. once he stated that it was unattainable but that it can be attained, to which he can attest. he was very interesting and he was trying to help people. i think that he may have taken down the thule.org website because unfriendly angry black women were harassing him. doesn't mean that he is a problem just like it doesn't mean that i am a problem. some black women seem to want to hate and hurt people who they think have more than they do. i thought that the swastika was cool because i thought it was ok because i am ok and i thought that maybe i was involved in something interesting which would make people happy but i understand if it confuses people. i don't want to confuse or hurt people. i wanted to be happy and peaceful making other people happy and peaceful. would i do it again? no. does it mean that i think that i did something wrong? no. just young and confused and also very passionate about wanting to be involved and help do something which really is good for people. maybe it is not possible. another time i created a swastika and balanced art around it using metal right angle brackets screwed into a piece of square wood. then i spray painted it. i think that i threw it away years ago. just because i created a binder label with a swastika on it doesn't mean that my old buddy would agree with it. a swastika is also called a hackenkreuz (kreuz is german for cross) or a flyflot cross. don't want to hurt anyone's spirit. don't want to kill jews. i have never stated that jewish folk are bad. i used to state that i thought that those spirits which were harvested during world war 2 served a special purpose. but every soul serves a special purpose. this doesn't mean that i think that it is good to kill people. i got stuck in the middle of something. i can't change the past. all i could hope for was a happy future.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Swastika

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i just noticed that the envelope which i received the purse from paris hilton from in 2009 doesn't have a post mark on it. i already posted that it didn't have a return address on it. you can look at the photo of the envelope in the 'important' gallery at the top of the website. the problem with the black woman at the grocery store was in november of 2008. it seems as if black women don't want people to think that hilton liked me or cared about me after the grocery store incident(s) in november of 2008. i am reasonably certain that hilton went on TMZ and made reference to me by name and it seems as if black women who work in mail wanted people to know that they were stealing my mail to TMZ when i was trying to find out because i have a right to know about it. it seems as if black women were playing a game with the certified/return receipt option which i chose, wanting people to know that they were playing a game. i think that my mail was also stolen when i then used fed ex to try to secure it. if it is true that hilton went on national tv, making reference to me, i feel violated that she wasn't respectful enough to inform me even after i have asked her more than once. hilton plays shady games like she thinks that because she doesn't answer the question that people think that it is more interesting for her publicity or that maybe she didn't get the message when other people and myself know that she did. i know that she went on TMZ (i haven't watched TMZ for many years) and made reference to me but it hasn't been confirmed and it is very confusing. i am not communicating about TMZ to try to make it seem like i am cool. i am communicating about it in order to squash this nasty evil childish black female gossip. actually all of this in the 'community' section of my website. hilton was really wanting to make it about her and not anyone else, pretending as if she was trying to help. she plays evil games with the media. she has been doing it for a long time since new york. what she did is a very serious security or privacy law problem; meaning, because of the way this unique situation is. harvey levin may be a lawyer but i don't think that he would make a very good judge. it really seems as if hilton wanted to create a security problem for me for her childish amusement while pretending as if she was trying to help because she was trying to squeeze me for anything which she could get out of me or kick me to the curb if she thought that it didn't make her look good. she didn't want to do humble simple community work. these girls who have caused problems didn't or don't. read information below. hilton plays dumb games and doesn't answer the questions about whether she went on TMZ, making reference to me. she created or is still creating a national/global security problem because some people think that they have an opportunity to lie about it when she doesn't answer the question. it is like she is intentionally giving them an opportunity to lie about me or my character because she made herself look dumb. she complicated so many people's lives like right now causing me to communicate about this for the sake of the health of the community. i am putting out fires or trying to put out fires but some people intentionally light more like it is a sick game to them. it is causing an opportunity for division in the community because of how it relates to other incidents. i am not a fan of paris hilton's. i wasn't a fan of hers in the past. i was neutral and then found out she is a childish disrespectful creepy tacky yuck. it is embarrassing to think that people think that i wanted to be involved with her. i didn't. i just wanted to wish her well when she was in jail because i thought that maybe she was going through a hard time which related to me. i didn't expect her to correspond back and i didn't care if she corresponded back. she wanted to play games and it has created a big problem for people all over the world, but especially for the black community because black women also wanted to play dumb games.


the 'graph/number work' gallery shows work which i did in 2010 which was an effort to help scientists with the weather. i am not posting it because it is some type of break through or important to study. i am posting it because i think that some obnoxious evil childish black people lied about it, stating that i never did anything when other people did say that i tried to help. it is mostly about 90 degrees or how there is a consistency with 90 or 360 degrees. this is easy to understand when you think of east, south, west and north. 9 (90) +18 (180) + 27 (270) + 36 (360) = 90. the work is probably significant but probably not important at this day and age because of all the work which has been already been done, starting a long time ago. maybe the work is significant because it supersedes current work, but there is no need to go backwards. the work is also about observation and graphing. i was trying to help scientists simplify data processing by simplifying the data input. for example, is it 1 or 10 or 100 or 1000?


black women are still stalking the community. i know ya'll are sick of this shit which i am typing, but believe me, i am sick of this shit too. these people are playing a weird game with me and the public. it is like they are refusing to acknowledge that they have responsibility or that everyone has responsibility because they are lazy and don't care or because they don't want to have to act like they care in public. uncivil. angry. these black women want to make people feel threatened by them for some reason. they are not humble or honest about what has happened. they are trying to force black men to like obnoxious low class unintelligent class mean spirited black women instead of honest sweet jesus. they really are negative ugly attitude mean spirited racists who always lie about me and money because they have some weird obsession with money themselves. they want black men to think of them but they keep referring to me or they are trying to use me as a way of forcing black men to think of them and be intimidated by them. it is stupid. they should do their own work on their own just like the mexican girl should. some black girls are cool and smart and sweet. some aren't.

when this black guy who is now viciously stalking and harassing people, trying to force black women or black people in general to lie about the situation, thinks that he has made himself look bad (even when it really wasn't bad initially) he turns into a little weird bitch and whines and tries to put the blame on someone else. he is not a real man. he is not cool. he is not secure. we are sick of his dumb shit and the fake evil mean spirited childish black women who pretend as if they think that he is the king or something noble when they know that he isn't. they shouldn't continually make their image problem, because of what A FEW black people did, my problem or anyone else's problem. i really want black people to be happy and confident. i never wanted to harm them or anyone else. i have tried to protect them and help them more than once. the problem is that a few black people try to spread anger and hate like they don't even try to by happy themselves. childish mean black women hurt the image of the black community and i am saddened by it and instead of moving on to something happy and forgetting about the past or allowing people to forget about it, they dwell on it and keep reminding people of it because they want me to be blamed for having done something wrong when they actually know that it was them who did something wrong. they keep lying about my character or intent. they try to portray me as a monster because i have power. i am not a monster. i am a sweet honest nerd (a little wild sometimes) who just wants to be left alone so that i can work. they don't want me to work. they don't want me to be happy because they think that people will think that i am happier (or better) than they are. they would rather make everyone including themselves miserable instead of just moving on. it is very selfish and childish of them.

these few lame people who lie are not even officially accusing me of something so that i could officially defend myself. they just keep referring to something without saying anything intelligent or logical with the use of words. they are lame cowards and they know it. they like to refer to their own thought about their own lameness pretending as if they think that they are cool when they actually don't think that they are cool. they know that i would be such an interesting gay spirit who was productive if they would get out of my life and it makes them angry and envious to know that so they keep stalking me and everyone else. they are very childish, creepy, lame, boring, evil and the only way to really get rid of them is to get rid of me. ignorant people don't understand how what they are doing is a form of torture or inhumane abusive treatment. this is what happens when people don't have a basic amount of security like living in a separate locked home or being able to involve the police. these people have disturbing mental problems. anti social personality disorder. they want to play with me in public in a perverted abusive creepy way because they find me fascinating and because they think that people will think that they are more interesting than they are. this is true. doesn't mean that i am stuck up. i don't want to play with them. i have better things to do. as i have suggested, we could make a story on tv news about it as a way of trying to create order and accountability. the problem is really with childish women who want my attention (paris hilton, mexican girl, some black women). they are childish and dangerous. the reason that i have written so much is not because i am trying to fool people into thinking that i am sick when i am not. that is what they want you to think. i am trying to stop them from being aggressive by informing people about what is going on in order to try to get them to stop lying about it because their lies won't work. i am also begging for help. these people are predators who like to harm people. they like to harm innocent happy people.


we are all sick of this mexican girl playing stupid games. she implies that childish obnoxious bimbos rule the world instead of sweet honest peaceful men who work. she thinks that because i am here, that men overshadow women so she is trying to make it look like women overshadow men. this doesn't mean that i am making a big deal of myself or stating that i am superior. the problem is her making a really stupid big deal of herself or implying that she is superior because she is confused thinking that women are not superior or that people will think that women are not superior. she has a very weird, massive inferiority complex. she has a very lazy mind and is not intelligent. she doesn't like it when i have peaceful positive thoughts because she can't have the same type of peaceful positive thoughts. she is not as strong and it makes her angry. she is envious or jealous and angry. also very childish. it is the same with black women. they don't like to sense me positive because it makes them angry because they are not positive so they are intentionally making this negative. mexican girl keeps intentionally inserting stupid shit into my brain and other people's brains all day long every day so that i can't move on. it is incredibly cruel. ordinarily she would just be some girl who gave me a horrible vibe and i would choose to not associate with her; meaning, i would be in control and get her the fuck away from me and my family. she is weird and stupid. if she wouldn't leave me alone i would call the police. very simple. she implies that no one is allowed to reject her or she implies that men are not allowed to reject women when they can reject women. she is stalking me, thinking that it is fascinating to toy with me in public. it is childish and perverted. she can't keep up so she forces other people down to her level because she doesn't want it to be obvious that she can't keep up or do as much as me. she is faking thinking that she has a reason to obstruct. she just doesn't want it to be obvious that i am a guy who likes to work so she keeps obstructing, pretending as if she thinks that it means that (1). i am lazy and unfriendly, or (2) that there is a good reason to stop me from working. those are both lies. she has been mixing lies about me together since i started communicating about her on the internet. she doesn't know how to lie her way out of trouble and she also really doesn't care about doing anything at all but playing games. she thinks that she make her parents think that as long as i am alive, that she doesn't have to do anything and i think that she is also trying to work her parents for money later on. she has killed the spirit of america because of her childishness and obnoxious rude behavior.


just because these people who got caught doing something very bad created social problems for themselves by being unnecessarily aggressive (cruel/evil/childish) can't move on doesn't mean that i am not allowed to move on. they are childish and selfish, implying that i am not allowed to be happier than they are. they don't want anyone to be happier than they are. they are implying that i am not allowed to move with a happy life. why? because people are brainwashed about the suffering of jesus christ in some movie? jesus used to have a good time with people and people had a good time with him. mary magdalene for example. he was a good spirit. i'm not in any trouble. these other people are in trouble. they are like a child who is in kindergarten or very young in school who gets caught by the teacher doing something wrong and then they become confused and scared and try to blame someone else as they talk slowly and confused and scared and it is so obvious that they are trying to be sneaky. come over to my house or call me and accuse me of something in person. do you know why people don't do that. because they know that i am innocent and also that i could officially defend myself. they just take cheap shots at me like lame cowards. none of this internet crap is official because i am not actually officially communicating to someone. there isn't an actual recipient of the information which i know of so it isn't official. i am trying to defend myself and the community from evil mean weirdos but it isn't official unless you actually communicate something intelligent to me with words in public. these people try to make it look like i am guilty by causing me to try to defend myself on the internet but i can't actually officially defend myself unless someone actually communicates something to me with words. they are trying to make me look defenseless because they get some weird sick thrill from it. why don't good people figure out a way of making it official or including me in what is going around on the internet.


a couple of things which i have already communicated honestly when i had my old facebook account which i deleted because it looked like someone hacked it was that the black man who has my vision in his left eye and who can create contractions of my muscle and soft tissue in whatever part of my body he wants to (who i didn't know was an ignorant black man in the past) stimulated me on the right side (east) of my body when i just happened to be driving by a northern trust bank location 1 year after i was in george h. w. bush's office just dropping off innocent/confused mail. i didn't think that the mail would be processed through the regular mail service machine because it had coins and a metal peace sign in it which were just symbolic of something (support [15/5 + 5 + 5]/good health [20]/something about the rosicrucians which i thought was more important than it was or is (36 + 36 + 36)/1000 years starting in 1997/125 [5 x 5 x 5] years between george washington [1799] and george h. w. bush [1924]/presidents on u.s. currency/spiritual wealth) because i was confused because of many things, some of which i saw in books which i thought were more important than they were. none of what i did was important, because the important fact is that the black guy confused me. i wouldn't have thought about giving george h. w. bush any mail and i wouldn't have been in george h. w. bush's office in 2005 if the black man (who i didn't know was an ignorant black man) hadn't stimulated me when i was writing an innocent/confused note to george h. w. bush in 2002, trying to get advice because i knew that i didn't have privacy and i didn't understand how the situation made any sense for the community or government unless i worked something like a miracle. i was really mixed up and confused back then. i am better now. so in the past it made less sense to me. basically the only things which i mentioned in the note to george h. w. bush in 2002 was something about geomagnetic reversals or pole shifts which is something that i thought that maybe i was supposed to help scientists with (weather) because i had come across something in a book, and the fact that george h. w. bush had stated something about "1000 points of light". after the black guy (who i didn't know was an ignorant black guy) stimulated me as i wrote the note in 2002 i thought that my imaginary hopeful thought about me helping scientists was true and that i was supposed to help scientists and that it was prophesized that i was going to help the world in some unique way. my mind couldn't make sense of it any other way. that is why i continued to use drugs and be alone studying. i thought that it didn't matter if i used drugs and i was really depressed and confused without drugs so that is why it made even more sense. i have some of this information below in previous posts on this website. i was not very confident when i wrote the note in 2002 because i didn't know if i should be writing it at all because i was using drugs and it wouldn't have seemed like i was making a point about anything. i just wanted to get some advice (help from an older man who i respected and who i thought was wiser than he was because of whatever my imaginary freemason or skull and bones hocus pocus was) because i was actually nervous and sort of scared. my life was very strange or seemed like it didn't make any sense mostly because of what this black guy had been doing to me for years. i would have been afraid of george h. w. bush if this black guy (who i didn't know was an ignorant black guy) wouldn't have confused me about him. i would have stayed way away from him. the black guy doesn't want to admit to trying to help me. he knew that i was ok even though i was using drugs but he changed his story and started to lie along with black women after the paris hilton incident. i was the passenger in a vehicle in 2006 which was going to get food and we just happened to be driving north passing a northern trust bank location when the black guy stimulated me on the east side of my body when the driver of the car said something about northern trust and the fact that you need 5 million dollars to be able to be a customer there. i think that the black guy was referring to 50 like 5 plus 0 or something (i had started to look at numbers so he would have understood something about that) but whatever he meant by it except for wanting me to think that i am not connected with bush (which didn't make any sense to me at that time because the black guy was the reason that i thought that i was connected with bush or the government) doesn't matter. all of this shit is so stupid because people are lying about what happened or my character or my intent. i wasn't thinking of writing about northern trust bank before the black guy stimulated me when we were driving by a northern trust bank but he is lying about it, wanting to shit all over my good writing work for the movie idea which i had, which i did later which people witnessed. he is a childish, angry, evil black man who is pissed off because people don't like him and because he thinks that he can't get a woman. i was trying to make sense of something which didn't make any sense. it wouldn't have mattered what side of my body that the black man stimulated me on, as long as it was opposite the bank. he combined george h. w. bush's office and the bank which confused me because he was the reason that i was in the office to begin with. the black guy was just trying to put it off on me because he thought that he had made himself look bad because he knew that he was the reason that i was in george h. w. bush's bank. he started to lie about what he meant by it after black women acted very mean and evil because he thought that he couldn't get a black women unless he played their stupid game. he and the mexican girl think that because they aren't saying anything intelligent with words in public, that they can make up any story they want to about the meaning of what they are doing. he wants people to think that he is so much smarter than he is or that the situation seems more interesting than it is. he started to lie and say that he was stating to me and other people that northern trust didn't belong in the west because i had started to write something trying to make a movie (because he stimulated me on the east side of my body) when actually he was the reason that i wrote about northern trust and sent it to the west. it is totally stupid. he is totally stupid along with the other people who lie. he is an evil childish black man who just didn't or doesn't want to take responsibility for me having written about northern trust when it wasn't a special bank or important or for me being in george h. w. bush's office, seeing the sign for northern trust bank in the elevator to begin with. i would have been scared of george h. w. bush and stayed way far away from him if the black man (who i didn't know was an ignorant black man back then) wouldn't have stimulated me like he was trying to comfort me or reassume me and everyone else that i wasn't doing anything wrong when i was writing the innocent/confused note in 2002 and that it was ok when i had a nervous feeling when i was writing the note to george h. w. bush in 2002 thinking that i shouldn't be writing to george h. w. bush because i was using drugs. the black man probably lied (it is easy to figure out that he is lying), stating that he stimulated me because i was doing something wrong in the letter. it seemed as if he was trying to comfort me or reassure everyone and i know that i have witnesses who sensed it too. the black man changed his story around and started to lie because he thought that he made himself look bad by betraying the community. i wasn't interested in banks or banking and he knows it. he was playing games and then created a problem and then didn't or doesn't want to accept responsibility for it. i thought that when he stimulated my on the east side of my body that the east meant toward God like the sun or something i had read about in a book ('big secrets' by william poundstone) which had something about one particular shriner's recognition test. (there are many sects of freemasons so it is not important). i immediately thought that the bank was something special for the world and that it involved antarctica and i didn't want to hurt anyone. like an innocent boy who just wanted to help (even though i was using drugs and stealing food from the store to support my drug habit/my mother didn't realize that she wasn't giving me enough to live on even if i wasn't using drugs/she suspected that i had a drug problem). then once the black guy realized that he had done something wrong buy confusing me AGAIN, he made reference to the south (like antarctica) because he thought that he would try to put it off on me in order to try and humiliate me or try to make me look like a monster, wanting to intentionally mislead me. he is an evil insecure black man who panics when he thinks that he makes himself look bad. you could also think that he was telling me that the south was away from the trust or george h. w. bush in the north, but he knew that at that time that i couldn't process it any differently, so his intent was to imply that he tried to help me, even when he wasn't trying to do that, in order to try to get himself out of trouble. he was trying to get out of trouble AGAIN. he is a very insecure black man who plays childish, evil games. he wasn't communicating anything intelligent with the use of words. he was or still is just playing games. he is still playing games. then once he knew that people thought about the east because i have been telling people about what has been going on for years, he started to lie and make a big deal about the west (like california) when it didn't have anything to do with california in the west. he lies and he tells people (black women) to lie because he thinks that they all made themselves look bad. he viciously attacks people like a deranged monster. mexican girl is the same. she knows that i am innocent, but since she thinks that the 2 of them look bad together, she also lies. i communicated in the letter which i sent to johnny depp that i saw the sign for northern trust in the elevator of george h. w. bush's when i was going up to the 9th floor of the office. i thought that 9 was important because of the concept of 'benevolence', which means charitable or giving (see photograph in the 'important'' photo gallery above). i was like a young innocent boy who wanted to believe in something good for the world. very simple. again, the black man is responsible for me being in george bush's office and also writing to johnny depp about northern trust bank which i thought was my duty to do but i didn't write about it in an unethical way. why would i think that i was supposed to know about some "special" bank but not communicate about it? that thought would have just created confusion in me. i thought that God was tasking me with something special because the bank was good for everyone. i wanted to believe that. i wanted to believe that i had some special purpose which was positive for the world. i thought that IF there was something good about the bank, that people would have to discover it on their own. that is why i wrote about northern trust in the way that i did. i didn't write about antarctica. i didn't write to george h. w. bush about antarctica either but the black guy probably lies, stating that i did. after i wrote about the bank, i thought that there was something good about the bank which was legitimate but that was just me trying to make sense of a confused situation. then after that i thought that the bank was evil and that it was taking advantage of people. there is nothing special about northern trust bank. this black man changed his story around and started to lie because he thought that he couldn't get a black woman otherwise (a few black women made themselves look really mean and childish/they lie about paris hilton and my character relating to other things). he sends signals to them to lie. that is what the mexican girl does too. they think that people reject them, so they lie about reasons which are not reasons people have to reject me. it is always about money. they try to trick people into thinking that they have honor because they are the ones who want something from someone. i don't think that johnny depp every got the mail. black women could also lie and state that they intercepted something which i didn't write. the problem is that a few other people think that they made themselves look bad so they lie about me. they are using each other to gang up on people because they think that they look stronger if they lie as a group. again, this black guy and other people who lie are so stupid for making a big deal of northern trust and george h. w. bush. they lie and state that he was telling me to get away from california when he was the reason that i sent something to california. it is so stupid. he also lies about what he meant about antarctica because it means that he was cruel and wanted to mislead me or humiliate me because he thought that he had made himself look bad. that is what he does. he thinks that he makes himself look bad and then he blames and wants to humiliate someone else because he thinks that they look better than he does. he is childish and weird.

like i stated before in the website, this closes the case. it doesn't open the case. or there was never a case because people always knew what was going on. people aren't even accusing me of having done something wrong with the use of words. they just keep referring to the same incident(s) with the use of stupid childish "which direction is it" bullshit because they want people to think that it is interesting or that i did something wrong when they know that i didn't and that it was someone else's fault for creating the confusion.

the information which i already gave you about george h. .w. bush, northern trust bank, la grange, texas and paris hilton is true and means that the case is closed. not that the case is open. actually there was never a case because everyone knew what was going on all of the time anyway. i have been truthful about it for years because there is nothing else which i could have done. it is so simple but evil dishonest people desperately and stupidly trying to make it look like it is more interesting than it is. some evil childish people will try to use the information which i put on this website as a way of lying even more and harming people even when they know that what i have communicated is true and that i am innocent. they do it because they are in trouble, so they are trying to switch the focus to me, implying that i am in trouble when i am not. the people intentionally causing problems for the community are childish, lame, angry and very mean. they want attention for being stupid after they were rejected.

some girls are stalking me and everyone else wanting people to think that childish obnoxious girls overshadow interesting guys who work. they can't keep up with me so they play games, dragging everyone down to their dumb level.


this mexican girl doesn't even try. she is very weak and childish. she keeps admitting to be no good with a really creepy angry obnoxious sarcasitc attitude. many weak childish girls do the same thing when they think that they have made themselves look bad. they dwell on it or can't overcome a little obstacle because they think that they don't look strong. instead of having a positive attitude and moving on like it was no big deal and that she cared, she wants to constantly think about how she made a mistake in public. it is like when a girl thinks that she did something wrong and then says to the man with a really creepy angry obnoxious sarcastic attitude "oh, so i guess i am no good then, huh?" or like "oh, i guess i shouldn't do that then, huh?" which means that she wants to act like she doesn't think that she is weak while admitting to it at the same time. it is really stupid. she didn't or doesn't act like she wanted to love people and build people up. she didn't care enough or have enough patience. it doesn't make any sense at all. she didn't want mexican guys to think that she was committed because she thought that she couldn't get a guy or that she couldn't go easily from guy to guy because she is only interested in getting a better deal for herself.
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i'll try, but this is what it has been like.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WjM26GWWoGk

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this mexican girl is trying to have me killed. she is being so aggressive every day all day long in order to make people sick and she has been doing it for a long time. why doesn't someone drop off some fentanyl, opiods or xanax l at my front door so that i can attempt to kill myself by overdose or coordinate with me so that a group of people who i am in constant 24/7 activity with and i can go to a doctor, proving that the activity is real, in order to try to have me euthanized. this is really horrible for people to experience and communicate about. it will become sadistic socially. people will think that it is interesting or entertaining. i am not joking. you would not want to have to live being treated in an inhumane, sick abusive way every day. that is why i am writing so much about this shit on the internet. this mexican or other people will lie and say that i wants the drugs so that i can get high. no. i just want to pass out and die. give me anything which will cause me to fall asleep and then die. i am sick of this. you would want to die also. i have been sick of this mexican girl and black man and some black women and paris hilton for a long time. they won't be able to harm the community if i am dead. they die off when i die.

it is like being raped and trying to fight off your attacker. i won the argument because i actually made an argument over the years. i am not just complaining. i am trying to make it so that these people won't harm people any more being unnecessarily aggressive because they think that they won't be able to deceive ignorant people in the community like they are trying to. they want you to see what i am doing but they don't want you to understand what they are doing and have been doing for years. they are trying to trick you. i am not trying to trick you. you have God's word.



this mexican girl wants mexicans to have an image like they are obnoxious, scary and bully people. she is trying to intimidate people. she doesn't intimidate people because she is so childish and stupid. it is sad because many mexicans are cool and hard working. she isn't.

this black man and mexican girl want people to think that because they have my vision in their left eye and because they can create these contractions in my body in whatever place they want to, with the rest of the people in the group (144,000) sensing it, that they have the authority. they don't. the majority has the authority and the majority situated all over the world know that they are stupid and evil. obviously these 2 are weird, evil, greedy and very mean creatures. they have an ego problem and a sex problem which is complicating their actions. they want to be thought of as something great, like a celebrity or star, but as i stated and as i know that other people have stated, they are weird, evil, greedy and very mean creatures. they don't have the authority. the majority has the authority. people who are sensing me (144,000) don't need my vision to know what i am doing all of the time. these 2 want people to think that they have the authority (when they don't) because they want people do so something for them or give them something. the try to use the fact that they have my vision in their left eye as a way of lying about me. they try to deceive people. they know that they are evil creatures and they are trying to survive. they don't have the authority and they know that they don't but are giving everyone stupid attitude. they have personality disorders.

then when i am defensive try want people to think that it means that i am guilty of something or nervous about something i did. i'm not. they are. they are stupid and panicking, trying to play it off like they are cool when they aren't.

i got a phone call last week from the police department in pharr, texas, (no message was left) which i think was a childish evil black woman stupidly harassing me and people who defend me. i think that it had something to do with antarctica in the south since pharr, texas is in the south of texas. i think that it was a fake cheesy childish black woman who works at the police department in pharr, texas, who is not authorized to be using police equipment for that reason, who is also trying to make it look like i am in trouble when i'm not like she is trying to flex some flabby muscle or muscle which doesn't exist. why haven't the police knocked on my door about antarctica or george h. w. bush or northern trust or paris hilton? why? because i'm not in any trouble. because i didn't do anything wrong. i never wanted to hurt anyone. i am not involved with antarctica or banks or hollywood and i don't want to be. i have an interest in antarctica just like other people do but so what? i never wanted to hurt anyone and everyone knows that. mean childish angry black women are the threat. i am not. i really think that a black woman was harassing me from the police department, trying to make it seem like the south was important, because i got a call about 1 week earlier from someone who i think was a childish evil black girl in denton, texas (west) while i was paying for groceries. this relates to the stupid black guy playing games with me and lying to everyone about northern trust, california and antarctica. black people know that he is lying but because they think that they made themselves look so bad they are lying about it too like it is a trend and telling other black people to lie so that they think that they don't look so bad or so that they can pretend as if they feel better about it. these black people just take incredibly stupid cheap shots at me which means that they know that i am innocent and also that they are evil incredibly mean cowards. they don't like the way they look so they try to make me look bad. they like to irritate or dominate people with stupidness. it is so frustrating for me because i have tried to help black people so many times and they seem to want to make fun of me because i am nice which means that they are trying to cover up for the fact that they started the trouble. actually paris hilton stupidly started it.

someone should figure out where this mexican girl lives in houston, texas and kill her. or the police should kill her. she has a weird incredibly disturbing personality disorder. she likes to hurt people, pretending as if she has a good reason to do it or that she has honor when she is actually the most creepy, dishonorable, evil mexican in the entire world. she is always having a weird childish fantasy about being something popular because she isn't popular and she is angry because she knows that she isn't popular and she wants to hurt people because she isn't popular and never will be popular. she is really fucking weird, childish, creepy and mean. she is also trying to make ignorant people think that she isn't a mexican girl who i think still lives in houston, texas like i have communicated. she is a real person and she is mexican. she is the most disgusting, creepy, evil, ugly, mean mexican you could possibly imagine and she has decent looks. lol.

this mexican girl knows that she got caught betraying the community and lying and she has been pretending for years as if she hasn't been caught, trying to play it off like she is cool or macho or honorable and it is so incredibly fake and stupid. she is a childish evil coward. like a criminal who is guilty and has been caught and who has so much evidence against them and they deny it and deny it and get the maximum sentence they can get anyway. all she wanted or wants was sex and money. she doesn't give a fuck about the community or her family.

these people who are intentionally causing problems know that i would have a beautiful happy peaceful gay spirit if they would get out of my life. i have so many reasons to be happy. my family. my dogs. my cats. my girlfriend. my beautiful home. my car. my soul. my experience(s). people who i am in activity with who i know love me (even though they don't think that it is a good idea to communicate with me in public). these people who have made themselves look bad over the years are angry and don't want to think about my happy gay spirit and their angry spirit at the same time so they are intentionally making me angry. they are very childish and selfish. they also don't want the public to like me because of envy or jealousy. they have ruined america and the world. it wont' make any sense until i am dead unless you can figure out a way to make them stop acting aggressively. go to the police and media. coordinate with me so that we can prove how this activity is real. flush these people out. warn the community. bind the community.

this mexican girl doesn't even try. she just plays the same stupid game every single day. she is incredibly cruel and incredibly fake. she got caught lying and is pretending that she hasn't been caught lying. she lies to her family. she wants money from her family and her family should know that she has an anger problem and a cruelty problem. she is a weird childish girl who likes being cruel to people. she is making people sick every day all day long like she wants people to think that she thinks of it as a childish game. she wants attention for being stupid.

childish rude females are killing or have killed the spirit of america and the world. paris hilton, some black women and this mexican girl (and this little black bitch of man who joins in with these girls). they have been childish and destructive like they wanted people think that they are making a sick joke about it or like it is a childish game to them. like some childish girl who starts to drive a crane and destroys something which she shouldn't have and then makes stupid obnoxious laughs and smiles, making a joke like "oh, i'm just a childish girl, hehe...." like they are too stupid or lazy to take themselves seriously. they have destroyed my work for years. since 2008. it is like they want to destroy a good man's work because they think that they will have to do more if it is obvious that i have accomplished something. people know that i would be a very happy peaceful focused spirit every day if these childish people would get out of my life or if they would not have caused a problem to begin with.

this mexican girl is such a weak fake girl who thinks that she needs to lie to mexican guys because she is afraid of them because they think that they know that she is a weak fake evil girl. she fakes being strong and macho and it is so stupid. she fakes being strong and macho because she doesn't want to have to do any work. she is afraid of mexican guys but is trying to trick them into thinking that she is not afraid of them. she makes her relationship problems everyone else's problem.

it is really sad because this obnoxious childish rude evil mexican who i think still lives in houston, texas has killed the spirit of america and the world. she couldn't handle the responsibility. she likes to be thought of as rude, obnoxious and angry (fake macho) like she wants people to think that is what mexicans are. it is like her mother didn't teach her any manners. i know what i am communicating about when i state that she lived in houston, texas and that i think that she still lives in houston, texas. she came out to see me several times in the past and she wanted me to talk about her because she wanted mexican guys to know that she is mexican because she was trying to work them. she stabbed everyone in back when i wouldn't give her hollywood fast enough but she didn't even give me a chance to finish writing what i had started to create without interrupting because she was so greedy, impatient and childish. any time that i am doing work she tries to use it against me in order to try to make mexican guys like her and not me because she thinks that they don't like her.

this mexican girl tries to make it look like men can't do anything on their own and this girl is so stupid because all she does is get in the way. all she has done since the beginning of 2013 is get in the way and she knows it and is embarrassed by it and then tries to cover it up by intentionally interfering so much that i can't do anything or think clearly because she is so dumb, childish and rude, pretending as if she is trying to help me, so that she can then lie and say that i didn't care enough. she is just trying to cover up the fact that she knows that she is the problem by intentionally creating an even bigger problem so that it doesn't seem like i can do very much. she is so stupid and rude and evil. that is one way which she is trying to deceive people. the other way is implying that i am not allowed to do anything because i am evil which is totally stupid because i am not evil or dishonest and that people know that i am not evil or dishonest. what is she accusing me of? she would have to actually make an argument and not just stupidly refer again and again and again to something which means that i am innocent. she tries to make people who don't know what she knows about me and the situation think that there is something more interesting about my past than there is.

in 2009 i thought that a few people found out about northern trust bank because i had written about it and that there was something good and legitimate about it and that they wanted to give me some money to show their appreciation and support in public but i told people out loud that i wouldn't accept any money and that it was not what i wanted to be respected for. i told people in 2009 that i would create a conflict of interest between me and the people who were giving me money in public so i wasn't going to do it. it was all imaginary because of what the black guy did with me thinking that he was something more advanced than he was or is and also because i thought that i was in activity with everyone for 4 years (2008 - 2012). i wanted to earn my respect as a writer. there was nothing special about northern trust bank and i did nothing wrong. the mexican girl and everyone knew this already but she is going to play dumb. she acts really stupid in order to try to give herself an alibi because it is so unbelievably stupid or another way to think about her is that she actually wants mexican guys to think that she is stupid because she wants them to think that it is funny because she is easy to have sex with and also that she hates white people no matter how sweet, honest and hard working they are. in fact, she hates them more if they are sweet, honest and hard working. she is trying to have me murdered but she thinks that if no one does it that she can make people think that it wasn't that bad or that she wasn't doing that while she tries to give herself time to try to lie her way out of trouble some other way.

this mexican girl has an attitude toward mexican guys like "yeah, i'm a shady evil childish bitch who won't fuck you unless you give me money. that's so funny, isn't it? hehe. oh yeah, another thing is that i want a mexican guy who acts like he hates white people even if he doesn't." sorry if this hurts mexican guys' feelings. i wish that people knew me in person and not this computer crap. i am a good person to work around. she isn't. she likes to hurt men. all men. she wants to try to humiliate or insult men who she thinks have more confidence or peace than she does.

i created another gallery on this website (see above/'important') for the photos which i had posted on the facebook account which was disabled (read below).

this mexican hates me because i am a nice intelligent interesting white person. not because i am a mean unintelligent lazy white person. she wants ignorant mexicans to think that she hates me because i am a evil lazy unfriendly white person. she hates me because i am a nice intelligent interesting white person who she knows would succeed if she left me alone or if she quit stalking me every day. this black guy is the same. they won't leave me alone because they think that people will communicate about how i am happy and successful and so they think that people will think that i am good and that they are bad and they don't like it so they childishly harass me or stalk me and other people who want me to be ok. i don't mean rich when i state "successful". i am blessed because i already have security but i would like a part time job in the city after my job in la grange which i have right now which these people are complicating because they are lying about george h. w. bush and northern trust bank. they want people to know that they are lying. they are so stupid and childish that it is ridiculous. people know what happened and that i didn't do anything wrong. they intentionally want to make reference to how they were the problem, implying that it doesn't matter and that no one is allowed to criticize them while also being incredibly cruel to me and the people who care about me. they are making a sick joke about how they know that they are the problem and about how they know that all they have done is ruin people's lives like they are stating that they don't even care about trying to do any good with people's lives because they are so weak and lame. it is like they are admitting to being no good for anyone at all, making a sick creepy joke about it and also implying that they won't even try to do anything else or be civil. do some black people or a mexican have a problem with an honest white person who likes to work or who can succeed? that is what is seem like. i can't believe how fucked up this situation is. a part time job after the part time job which i have would be good for a little bit of money but more importantly for my spirit and the spirit of the group. a little bit of work is good for our souls. peaceful repetition is therapeutic like meditation or chanting. two 5 hour shifts per week would be perfect for me and this group but since this mexican girl and black guy are trying to lie their way out of trouble they will probably make it impossible like they are already making my job very difficult or impossible and it is so stupid and childish of them because they intentionally refer to how they were or still are the problem while implying that no one is allowed to criticize them because they are so childish, angry and insecure. .this mexican girl and black guy know that i like to work and that i am honest but they keep lying about george h. w. bush and northern trust bank. it was the black guy's fault and i still did nothing wrong. the black guy is the one who is not TRUSTworthy. he thought that he made himself look bad and then he tried to put it off on me and he wants people to know that he is lying like he is implying that he can do whatever he wants to do and that no one can criticize him. i wasn't interested in banks or banking. he made me think that i was suppose to know about something special but it wasn't special and people already know about this very well. he confused me about george h. w. bush when i was writing an innocent letter to bush in 2002 trying to get some advice at the moment when i thought that maybe i shouldn't be writing to bush because i was using drugs, making me think that everything was ok or that it was ok to write and actually what i think that the black guy was doing is trying to make people who were sensing that i was conflicted about writing the letter think that i wasn't doing anything wrong. this is something which i think that the black guy started to lie about later. he lies because he can't get a woman. then because of that i thought that there was some special relationship with bush because i didn't know what the black guy was or i thought that he was something advanced which worked for the government and nothing else at that time really made any sense to me because i wanted to believe that this situation meant something good like a miracle which i thought that i was going to work because i was studying and which the government already knew about because i thought that things were prophesized. i couldn't imagine that God wanted to create something negative or weird or awkward for the community. i knew that i didn't have privacy so naturally i was confused about who knew about me or what i was suppose to do and when i was younger i was in much worse shape but actually it is worse now because my own people betrayed me and the community after i developed and moved on after my initial confusion. they had been making fun of me and gossiping about me when i was young and then when i grew up and could move on they obstructed it because they thought that they were going to look stupid because of what they had been saying about me and they thought that i would look good like a champion who had to go though something difficult but who was a cool honest guy who ended up being successful. when i went to bush's office to drop off innocent mail because i was confused about what was going on i saw a sign for northern trust bank in the elevator and didn't think much about it but then one year later i just happened to be driving by a northern trust bank location and the black guy did something stupid and unnecessary which confused me about the bank which meant that he didn't want to take responsibility for me being in bush's office in the first place. he isn't trust worthy. he assumed that i would never go to bush's office because of him fucking with me when i was writing to the innocent letter to bush and he assumed that i would never talk about it back then. he started to lie and say that i was thinking of writing about northern trust bank before he unnecessarily fucked with me when i just happen to be driving by a northern trust bank. i didn't do anything wrong when i wrote about it to johnny depp because i was working on a film idea writing, thinking that it was my duty to communicate it. about 3 years later, i got a funny feeling about the whole thing (when there is nothing special about that bank to begin with). i thought that the meaning was that many people were going to become customers there and that the bank would generate much interest which would help other banks or do something positive for the entire community. i also thought that it had something to do with antarctica which i thought was meant for the entire community or world but that was because the black guy intentionally deceived me in order to try to humiliate me because he was trying cover up for the fact that he was the reason why i was in bush's office to begin with. oh yeah, i wouldn't have thought anything at all about that fucking bank if the black guy hadn't stupidly fucked with me in a way which meant that he is evil, trying to put his stupid bullshit off on me. i wrote a letter to northern trust's legal department trying to protect people from that bank. i read the letter aloud. i was confused, thinking that someone got into my apartment and looked at my computer and so it meant that private information had become public and i thought then that i was in activity with everyone everywhere. i'm glad that i thought that someone got into my apartment so that i talked about northern trust because i was acting stupid for a few years, thinking that it was important when it wasn't. i had to keep it to myself, because people would have wanted to know what it meant and then they would have thought that there was something wrong with it or with me or with the person who was creating the contractions (black guy who i didn't know was an ignorant black guy). the black guy was playing games with my in front of everyone and created a very bad situation and he still does the same thing. he is an angry childish evil man. i don't think that johnny depp ever got the mail because i sent it to the viper room after he had left that place, thinking that he was still there. i wrote that i saw the sign for the bank in the elevator when i was at bush's office and nothing about the black guy stimulating me when i drove by. i was a passenger of a car, so i was not intentionally driving by the bank for a special purpose. i wrote "i am not intentionally steering you in that direction, but you might want to check it out." or "i am not trying to intentionally steer you in that direction, but you might want to check it out". the black guy also again and again intentionally deceived me about the importance of northern trust bank because he wanted to humiliate me while also trying to cover up the fact that he was responsible for me being in bush's office which was the reason why i saw the sign for the bank in the elevator. this black guy is a very insecure weak childish evil black man. he confused me because he combined the bank with bush's office but he was the reason why i was in bush's office. I STILL DID NOTHING WRONG. i wasn't interested in banks or banking and i am so sick of this evil negro mother fucker and this evil mexican girl who flaunts that she knows that it was his fault. she thinks that the 2 of them look bad together so she tries to cover for him. i tried to protect people from that bank and this black guy created a bunch of stupid shit and he is still creating a bunch of stupid shit playing childish games. northern trust is not important. i have already explained this more than once i and i am really really sick of this shit! these people are taunting everyone, including the police. why don't you try to create a deterrent with the media? flush their families out. get the police to use the media to try to get their families to work with the public. don't let this nasty gossip spread. don't allow people an opportunity to spread nasty gossip or play games. it will get worse and worse, especially for black people. unnecessarily breaking into tribes, etc. this mexican girl and black guy have very serious mental problems. they are showing off like children wanting people to know that they are angry, wanting to hurt people emotionally. they are intentionally destroying the spirit of the community. it is like a child who breaks or throws something when they are angry.

people will try to use the honest information above as a way of lying and gossiping. why don't you ask me in person? i have already been over this shit again and again! i did nothing wrong. i am sick of communicating about this. it was the black guy's fault and he knows it but he is trying to cover it up and make me look bad. he started to lie after black women did something stupid because he thinks that black people made themselves look stupid. people gossip about it because they childishly want other people to think that they are involved with big banks or george h. w. bush or johnny depp or antarctica when they aren't. neither am i. i was like a child who couldn't understand what was what and i didn't want to harm anyone! these people want to harm people. that is the difference between me and them.

this mexican girl who i think still lives in houston is panicking, not knowing how to lie her way out of the social trouble which she got herself into by being greedy, disrespectful and dishonest. she tries to make people think that either i am lazy and unfriendly, or that i deserve to be interfered with. both things are untrue. she doesn't know whether to be thought of as friend or foe and she has been doing this same stupid evil childish thing for years, pretending as if she thinks that people think that she is smart for wanting people to know that she is playing a childish evil game. she is trying to make ignorant people think that people who are sensing what she is doing don't know what we are talking communicating about. she is just wanting to bullshit her way out of trouble. she tried to kill me and wrongfully defame me, so that i couldn't defend myself back in 2015 but it didn't work. since then she has just been acting stupid because she knows that the community knows that she is mexican garbage. she is still trying to have me killed, but just not wanting to be real obvious about it. she never cared about me or anyone else. she just wanted sex and money. then if i communicate about it on the internet, she wants people thinking that i am fake or faking being sick because i want money from people. i already have more security than most people. i have a part time job which she is interfering with and that is God's honest truth. she is interfering with work at my house. she is hurting my innocent girlfriend. she is hurting me and i am innocent. she is hurting the innocent dogs. this girl is a human. part of the reason that she is doing what she is doing is to try to confuse people into thinking that she isn't human or that people who are sensing her don't know what we are communicating about when i state that she is a mexican girl who lived in houston and who i think still lives in houston. i think that she lives inside the 610 loop. she used to have a white SUV in 2011. she is about 5 foot 1 or 2 inches. she had or probably still has long brown wavy hair. not black like some latinas have. she has medium size breasts or a little bigger than medium. part of the reason that she is doing what she is doing, flaunting being shady, is because she wants to attract a mexican guy who is shady too. she wants a mexican guy who acts obnoxious and rude. she also wants a mexican guy who acts like he hates white people even if he actually doesn't. what is important about a part time job for me is that it does my spirit good. it is good for me to get out and be busy for a few hours and socialize a little bit and then feel good about what you did that day. she wants to harm my spirit. she knows that work would make my spirit strong and she doesn't want people to know that my spirit is strong or stronger than hers. she doesn't want people to know that i am happy because she thinks that she can't be happy if people know that i am happy. she is a very childish, envious or jealous creature. the black guy is the same. a few black women are the same. i have given this mexican girl and black guy a chance to move on in life, showing them love, but they don't because they are dishonest, mean cowards.

people want other people to think that they are superior because they think that i am superior. they have a weird childish inferiority complex. i am not stuck up. i just want to be left alone. i am not the aggressor. they are. i am not the problem. they are.

this mexican girl who i think still lives in houston, texas is obnoxious childish stupid fake macho shit. it is ridiculous. she likes to make everyone sick pretending as if she thinks that it means that she has talent. she is so stupid and rude that it is ridiculous.

a few people make fun of loving honest people, like they are implying that it won't make a difference in the world if people are loving and honest but it will make a difference.

i think that i may be some kind of treaty between alien forces or star systems but part of that is wishful thinking. i have also communicated that maybe an evil force wants to use me as a way of confusing or destabilizing the public so that it can more easily dominate. i don't know. i wish that people would involve me so that we could put people to work. make it more about science and less about religion. objectivity. even the aliens don't understand what is going on. just because it is higher level doesn't mean that they know what they are doing. there is always something older and smarter. why don't you really fight against evil forces by putting people like law enforcement and judges or other civil institutions to work? scientists too. it would be more objective and innocent that way. i am innocent. a few people are lying about me but the community knows that they are lying about me so they make themselves look stupid and childish. they want people to know that they are lying, trying to give thugs power over people who have class. i have broken the law a few times in my life (drugs and alcohol/confusion) but i am not a big problem or evil. i am not in any trouble with law and i have no intent to break the law. i have lied a few times in my life when i was younger, but i have never lied to the people who i am in activity with or on the internet. i cheated on 2 tests (i remember it being 2) in college because i really didn't feel like studying because i was very confused and very sick. it was horrible madness. i missed a test one time and then had to schedule a time to take it and i accidentally discovered that i could easily cheat at the place where the tests were taken. i'm not real ashamed about it because i was so sick after 1997. you are seeing me now after 25 years of getting used to this unusual and very confusing situation but i was a complete nervous confused uncomfortable mess for the first few years. i usually don't cut corners on work. i hated college after 1997. it was difficult to have to go through it knowing that something with me was going on and that i was isolated from the community. sometimes i didn't feel like going to class to be around other students because i was so confused. sometimes i thought that the teacher and students were sensing me when they weren't but some people were. once a college buddy gave me a paper which i think that he got off of the internet and i turned it in and got an A but i didn't ask for it. my mom helped with writing a few times (not all of the work) but she loves to do it. it was still my job to get it completed. once i lied to a professor about my computer crashing when it didn't so that i had an extra week to do the work and i did it and got it completed. i wasn't a big fan of school. i am more of a blue collar worker type person. i ended up getting a B average and it took me 4 and 1/2 years. i gave an inappropriate note which was not real bad to a girl who looked like she was about 15 or 16 when i was 21 in the army but i didn't want to hurt her and i was giving her the option of doing something but it was still wrong and i already got in trouble for it. i really didn't think of an actual law which would prevent me from associating with her plus i just imagined her being happy plus i was with girls who were young teenagers when i was a young teenager so it didn't seem bad. i did a few crazy destructive things when i was young like adolescents or young adults do sometimes. people can know everything about me if they want to. i don't care. that would be a plus and not a minus. people already know everything about me because i told them.

this black guy who is acting like a weird childish creepy fool didn't want to have to take a stand to black women who he knew were evil and childish and very mean. he thought that he wouldn't be able to have sex that way. he is too wimpy and weak and unintelligent so he started to lie about the past. he is also a racist. these few black people who are causing problems are racists.

people with class are not harming people. people with low class are harming people with class, trying to drag them down to their level because they are lazy, not wanting to have to do what people with class do or they think that they are incapable of doing what people who have class do.
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these photographs which i posted on a new facebook account which i created on 2/11/2022 are in the interest of national/global security. a very few people are childish and dishonest, wanting to create evil gossip. they wrongfully claim that they have a reason to make me unhappy every day when they know that i am innocent which means that they just don't want me to be happier than they are because they are weak, envious or jealous people. i am not stuck up. they should stop gossiping about me and focus on themselves.

https://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100077845852045

facebook disabled my account. i requested a review to try to get them to change their mind but i doubt that they will. the photos were of a police report when i was in la grange, texas in 2011 and my request for the report in 2014. the mexican girl knew that i was innocent but tried to wrongfully defame me and also have me killed so that i couldn't defend myself. she also combined george h. w. bush and northern trust bank together with the la grange incident, knowing that i was innocent of all of it. she had a weird childish fantasy about thinking that i mexican female (who is evil) was God and that a sweet innocent honest white boy was the devil. it was or still is incredibly stupid. i also had 4 photographs of an envelope which paris hilton sent me which had a purse which i didn't ask for or didn't want. she jerked me around and ripped me off for $150. the envelope which had unique stamps on it indicating she was being supportive was sent to me after the issue with the black women at the grocery store in 2008. one stamp is pomegranate meaning something about health. the next stamp is a guy named james a. michener (writer) which sounds like my name mishler. she knew that i had begun to write something. i guess Rockefeller is something about her new york bullshit which i don't care about. the tiffany lamp stamp had something to do with me having talked about how i imagined tile like a tiffany lamp around a bar area of an apartment which i thought i was going to live in eventually. she sent me this envelope in the beginning of 2009. the incident with the black woman at the grocery store was in november of 2008. why didn't hilton put a return address on the envelope? how was that supposed to make me confident in public? so she wanted people to know that she was playing childish shady games? so she wanted me to play her childish shady game with her in public? she also included a flirtatious creepy childish photograph of herself which i sent back to her eventually in the purse which i didn't ask for and didn't want. i wanted a different bag for my niece at christmas time. not for me after christmas time. hilton is stupid, childish and disrespectful. actually cruel. i also sent another childish flirtatious cryptic photograph of her which she sent to me (which is how all of this stupid unnecessary crap got started in the first place) back to her. i am not communicating about this in order to make it seem like i am cool because paris hilton liked me or supported me. i am communicating about it because some black women are lying about the situation, wanting ignorant people to think that she didn't like me and that i did something wrong when i didn't. black women have been caught doing something wrong and they have acted really stupid about it.

i don't want to think of obnoxious, childish, mean black women who want my attention. i want to think of my sweet, smart, cool girlfriend. get out of my life black women, unless you want to say something friendly.
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this is just another example of the many problems which paris hilton and other childish, disrespectful females have created or are still creating. i don't want to just complain. i want someone to help make it better so that people don't continue to cause unnecessary problems for the community.
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i don't like any of the people who i am in constant 24/7 activity with. they make me uncomfortable. no one every said anything kind to me like they want me to know that they care about me or my feelings or like they want people to know that they care about me or are trying to help me cope.


this mexican girl who i am in activity with likes to insult men who work like she wants people to think of it as a childish game because what she actually thinks is that men are superior but she fakes thinking that women are superior. she is obnoxious for the sake of being obnoxious. it is sick. she wants mexican guys to think that she is more macho then they are but she is a very very weak dishonest childish female so it is totally stupid. she is implying that mexican girls are superior and that they treat men like shit and that the men have to give them something. it is really stupid. she does absolutely nothing all day long every day but then stupidly implies that she is superior or the boss. she is implying that a mexican guy has to agree that stupid childish lazy women are superior otherwise she won't give him sex. she is so stupid that it is sickening like she isn't even human. she interrupts me all day long every day, wanting people to communicate about it, playing a game like "oh, maybe i was trying to help him... oh, maybe i was trying to hurt him... oh, maybe i was trying to help him.. oh, maybe i was trying to hurt him..." like she wants people to know that she is playing a childish game like she wants people to think that she has talent because she is playing an evil, childish game. she is confused, not knowing how to lie her way out of trouble and she has been doing this for years, like someone who knows that they are in trouble and have barricaded themselves in a house while they surrounded. she is insane and incredibly disrespectful toward the community. she never cared about me or my work. she still doesn't. she wanted mexican guys to think that she was special because she was "associated" with me, but they wanted them to think that she was better than i was because she actually thought the opposite of that. she is a nasty evil gold digger. she won't stop lying. she also wants people to think that it is funny that she is so evil. it isn't funny. she is making people including young people and parents trying to raise children and old people sick every day all day long. all she cares about is sex and money. she is trying to get someone to kill me because she thinks that she has confused the community so that she can make up any story she wants to after i am dead but she hasn't confused the community because other people and myself have done so much work for years making sure that people knew that she was or is evil.


i am a nice honest person and i am being harassed, stalked, viciously violated all day long every day and the people who are doing it are taunting everyone including the police wanting them to know that they know that i am innocent but trying to intimidate or humiliate authority. the people who are doing it are trying to create crap on the internet. it is very painful. i would be more confused if i didn't communicate about it or try to protect the community. it would be like the president of the united states not having security. there are weird childish people out there and they attack if they think that they can get away with it. just knowing that the president has security is a deterrent. i don't have any protection which means that the community doesn't have any protection.


this black man knew that i was innocent in the past, but because later on black women stated publicly that they didn't like him, he tried to humiliate me and them, lying about the past and my character. he tried to humiliate nice loving black women and me, trying to rally childish obnoxious evil thug black women. he also tried to get black men to act a fool. i don't think that they want to do it. he is just talking back to black people or me or anyone who doesn't like him, giving them and me and everyone else a really stupid, really ugly angry childish attitude like a little baby who is screaming. he started to lie about the past because he is insecure. he stabbed everyone including his own family in the back. he is angry because he can't get a woman so he wants to try to humiliate people who can have fun but it won't stop us.

what some black people are doing to this nation is really horrible. it is like a drive by shooting because the people doing the drive by shooting are people who think that they are less than the other people and they started stupid shit because they want to imply that they are more even when they really don't think that they are more. it is like a dog at the dog park who thinks that the other dog is stronger or superior and so it starts to act weird and attacks because it is nervous because it thinks that the other dog is stronger or superior. then childish fake mean black women would state that i am the one who is nervous. no. they are. they were and they still are so they act up stupidly.

i am much more confident in person. i wish that people would get to know me better. this part of my website will make ignorant people misinterpret something of take something out of context. these people are trying to make you think that i am more nervous or skittish in person than i am. they are trying to deceive you, trying to make me unpopular or seem like i am not cool because they don't want people to follow me because they think that they will have to do more work or act like they care. it is a difficult and unusual situation. i am a public person or a person who is in a unique public situation who doesn't have basic law enforcement protection from weirdos. it is scary. it doesn't mean that i am unfriendly and it doesn't mean that i am weak.

people only want to think of the divine aspect of christ and not the human aspect. we are not capable of understanding the divine aspect. way too much time involved, incarnation after incarnation. astrology. something else to consider is that events or other people affect what christ is doing. in this incarnation there was more probability that other people or other events would affect my life because of the increase in technology. i am not the only one who has responsibility.

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i communicate in this website about a problem with blacks and a mexican and paris hilton but i also had a problem with a few white people who were cops in la grange but i really don't care about that anymore because they don't continue to harm me. i forgive them and i have tried to help them. i am a loving person but i can't stand people who are evil or cruel. i ended up opening a coffee bar in la grange called starclucks.
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it seems as if this childish obnoxious thug black man is trying to humiliate a white person who does honest work because he thinks that a white person who does honest work can get ahead when he can't. he is trying to make it seem like it is about thug low class childish people who hustle instead of people who do real work. he is having a weird childish fantasy about people thinking that he is some kind of gangster player when actually black people think that he is totally totally stupid.

this situation is like childish, obnoxious hoodlums shining a laser pointer into the cockpit of an airplane which is on approach to the runway at the airport. they know that it is difficult work which demands a great deal and they want to play stupid games. it is dangerous. i wish that the police or FBI or media could help. can we at least try? i have been trying to motivate people to do this for years. what are you afraid of?

this black dude has got a weird, childish, deranged, angry, evil, possessive, very mean attitude toward women or just in general toward people like (thug/low class/socially lame/loser/stupid/childish) "Ah nah, you ain't gonna think about him. you gonna think about me..." believe me black ladies, you don't want to think about him. he flaunts being a creepy weirdo and he is a disgrace for black men. i know that good black people who i am in 24/7 constant activity with have informed the public. "he be a fake nigga."

a few black people are trying to humiliate or make fun of an honest, loving white male in america because they are not honest and loving and just because i am white in america doesn't mean that the black people are right and that the white person is wrong.

people who are low class and unintelligent are playing stupid childish games with people who are higher class and more intelligent or the management.


this black guy who people know about wants people to know that he likes to hurt an innocent sweet white man in public. it is absolutely sick. someone should kill him. maybe he lied to or didn't disclose something to the social security administration about his left eye or that fact that he has my vision or that he is sensing me like other people are and that he can create contractions of muscle and soft tissue which the entire group can sense. he really is a weird disgusting creature with an incredibly fucked up mental problem who wants people to know that he is harming people and the social security administration should not be giving him money. (for the u.s. social security administration. the problem with this black man's left eye began in february of 1998. i think that it was february 22nd, 1998. he probably would have gone to the social security office in march or april of 1998 to try to obtain benefits. he lied on his application. he has a incredibly disturbing mental problem and he is harming people every day.) he likes to harm innocent beings like someone who wants someone to know that they like to repeatedly rape someone who who is telling him to stop. the mexican girl is the same way. black women are doing the same thing. it is scary. it is like rape because the person who is doing it knows that you don't want to think about them but they continue anyway, knowing that they are harming you emotionally or psychologically or spiritually. i don't deserve this stupid shit and people know it. it makes me hate black people and mexican people which is sad because i always loved them and was nice to them. it makes me think of stereotypical black and mexican behavior which is not attractive. they are trying to make me think of this, trying to make it obvious that i hate them because they are trying to create a double standard, trying to create social leverage over whites. they are also trying to recruit low class blacks and mexicans but i don't think that it will work.

normally one can choose who one wants to socialize with, but i didn't or don't have a choice. cool friendly people and lame unfriendly people got mixed together in this situation but the cool people will win.

i understand if you get tired of reading this, but i added a few things below which were important about george h. w. bush, northern trust bank, this mexican girl causing problems, and black women who infected my blood back inn 2011 when i was at a psychiatric care facility. something else about northern trust bank is that i tried to protect people from that bank after i thought that something was not right about the situation. i wrote a letter to their legal department and read it out loud in 2010, basically letting people know that if you want to associate with that bank, you are on your own. there is nothing going on with northern trust bank so don't worry about it. the black guy did something which was very very stupid and unnecessary which meant that he wasn't TRUSTworthy. he still isn't TRUSTworthy. he thinks that he makes himself look bad and then tries to put it off on me. he is a very weak black man. then he wants black people who are shady to lie for him because he turns it into a black thing because he is a racist. no, you insecure, weak ass, punk ass, bitch ass, evil ass, fake ass, puny ass negro. i don't want to post for a while. the community needs to digest this. you would be surprised how i am different in person. all of this chaotic crap in this part of my website is a reflection of stupid childish sadistic people who are playing games with everyone. they think that it is so fascinating to play with me but i don't want to play with them because they are socially lame. they want attention because of the attention which i get but i'm not stuck up. that is just the way it is. it is like when you see someone on tv and some childish person gets behind them and acts up wanting attention on tv.

these people who are intentionally bothering everyone know that i could have fun and a spirit which they can't have and they are angry about it. they are intentionally causing me to defend myself on the internet after i started to do it in order to try to make it look like i am an angry person in order to try to make me unpopular in order to try to get people on their side so that they can have more. they are attempting to hustle people. they don't want to think of me (and other people) having fun and them not having fun or people thinking that they are dumb and mean (because they really were) so they harass and stalk me and other people making a very stupid sick childish game of it. it is very childish, selfish and mean of them. the more time that black people have had to advance in america, the more it seems like blacks who have less hate blacks or whoever who have more. that is why some blacks are trying to use me as a way of creating division amongst other blacks. stop hating and grow up and do something so that you have more plus more to feel better about. and don't hate me either because i am or because you think that i have more than you have. i'm not stuck up. what else would i think when they harass, obstruct and harm a person who you know is innocent and loving? they are childish.
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i wish that i could post a link to http://thule.org?w=5035170?w=5035170?w=5035170 but the website is currently not in use. i gave people this information in about 2003 or 2004 or 2005.
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i think that this internet crap is unhealthy for the community. people don't know if people have read something or not, or are familiar with something or not, and i think that it is unhealthy for the community. why don't you just make a story on tv news so that everyone in the world gets the information all at once? simple. i think that people think that this internet crap is creepy. we are not accomplishing that much that fast and there really isn't any real pressure on anyone to not act up stupidly or cause unnecessary problems. we all want to be as peaceful as possible. we have a common enemy.

i would like to believe that i had some good loving control over issues in the world which really are healthy for all types of people, but usually lately i think that maybe an evil force is using me as a way of destabilizing society so that it can dominate. i have a good heart. it knows that i have a good heart. but maybe it is using me as a way of confusing or destabilizing society so that it can dominate. why don't you kill me? i don't care. if you make an international story of this, we could probably generate public support for it with doctors doing it officially at a hospital. if things go on in this way, you should kill me. i started to say back in 2010 when i was starting to become very confused or when my confusion was compounding, either fix it or get rid of it. i have already tried to commit suicide. i tried unsuccessfully to have myself shot in the head several times by going to remote locations with ear plugs and photocopied notes in my pocket, car and home. then i figured out that i could get xanax online (i had thought that it was harder or impossible for me to get) so then i got a job as a dishwasher at pappasito's restaurant close to my home so that i could get the xanax and attempt to commit suicide after 6 months or 1 years of working and enjoying my life before i die (like taking a vacation somewhere) but the mexican girl intentionally made it impossible for me to work on the first day (Period Beginning: 03/28/2018 CO. FILE DEPT. CLOCK VCHR. NO. Period Ending: 04/10/2018 156557 039000 PC010 0000154532 1 Pay Date: 04/18/2018/2.92 hours/gross pay-$30.66, net pay-$28.32) because she wanted to try to lie her way out of the social mess which she created for herself so she tried to make ignorant mexicans guys or ignorant people think that i didn't have enough honor or courage to go through with the suicide attempt (which is not true) or that i am lazy or a bad worker (which is not true) or that she was trying to help me at work and that i am unfriendly (which is not true) or that she wanted to keep me here in order to try to motivate me to do work (which is not true). i didn't want to commit suicide because i am lazy or uncaring like she wants people to think that i am. i wanted to commit suicide to get this weird evil greedy mexican girl away from me and everyone else. she also thought that ignorant people wouldn't think that she would keep me here alive while she is in activity with me, so that is another way which she is trying to confuse people so that she thinks that she can try to lie her way out of trouble. she thinks that she can make ignorant people think that she doesn't even exist or that all of the people who communicate about her are crazy. she thought that she would keep me here in order to have time to try to deceive people because she had been caught doing something very very wrong and she thought that she needed time to try to deceive people. she is trying to have me killed now but just not wanting it to be real obvious. it may seem like i don't know what i am communicating about but that is exactly how she is trying to deceive people. she tried to create so many ways for her to lie her way out of trouble that it got her into even more trouble. she is trying to have me killed and her plan is probably to say (because someone will want to know what she has been doing since 2011) that she was one of the people who i was in activity with; meaning, that she was disabled, and that she liked me and would have never done what she is doing every day all day long. or she could say that it sounded like we didn't know what we were communicating about. she will wait to see what someone states to her, and then depending on what they say, she thinks that she can tailor her attitude or statements so that she can get money from a man, no matter what his opinion is. she is evil and greedy. she and the black man who also has my vision in left eye are really the most disgusting evil childish sadistic creepy stupid creatures you could possibly imagine (in outer space!) and like to flaunt it and they like to flaunt how they are stalking people including law enforcement. they are tying to take control of the planet. law enforcement and the military should know about it. seriously. it is trying to sour what i am and what i create or what the public thinks i am so that it thinks that it can have control now and in future incarnations. it is like a creature or animal that has been trapped and is thrashing around in a cage in confusion, trying to get free. it thinks that it can't survive in future incarnations if people know that it was a problem so it is trying to make it look like i am the problem but i am not the problem. it doesn't want people to be happy. it is the opposite of what i am. it envies me because i am a happier, more social being than it is or ever could be. it doesn't want people to be happy and then it stupidly implies that it should be worshipped and it seems to be a battle of unhappy people wanting to harm happy people or maybe some negative alien agenda which i read about (see below/ascension glossary).

i don't like people who i am in constant 24/7 activity with not making an international story about this with tv news. we could prove that the activity is real with a test on tv. why are you keeping it a secret from other people? that is dangerous. when people think that people are keeping a secret, they assume that something is wrong or that there is a problem. why should people think that there is a problem? if i was a manager of a company, i would put information out to everyone at the same time. you can put the courts, law enforcement and civil institutions to work. don't be brainwashed by stories of jesus. don't play into your idea that other people have been brainwashed by the stories of jesus christ. what is the big deal? i am harmless. this should be about biology and science. that relates to everyone and not just me! solar system. stars. a celebration, because it works in cycles.


some people may say that i am fake because i had or still have an interest in what the germans were working on in antarctica during WWII. i am not fake. the information was discovered by an old friend of mine who was doing research on the ark of the covenant. supposedly the file was written by a man named arkel. you can find something like 'the omega file' but someone told me that it or some of it is disinformation. i would rather have a beer and a bratwurst. i think that america took over the project in antarctica (operation high jump/admiral richard byrd /1947). i don't believe that it is only white people who work on it or who are involved. at least that is wishful thinking. much of what hitler ranted about was propaganda. good information which i got is that he escaped to south america. a flotilla which refueled in the mid atlantic. i researched 'VRIL' but not much. i find it interesting just like i am sure that everyone would. that doesn't mean that i am a mean person or that i want to hurt people. i don't understand it. i used to think that i should respect something which is more advanced because God created it, but I am sure that there are different groups of entities which are more advanced, so I would probably fit into one group more than another. i still have to respect all of them though. i think that i read something about orion and something nordic looking (ascension glossary/see below), but i don't understand it. orion and sirius? (south). there is also alpha draconis and ursa minor (north)/(see below). they now have documentaries on the history channel about antarctica. apparently there are other underground facilities throughout the world. i read some information about technological aryans (keep in mind that an aryan is not defined as someone working for hitler during WWII), which stated something about their fear, hate and avarice (greed for wealth). i don't understand the hate part, because there has to be a reason to hate. i thought that maybe they are nice, but hate people who are not nice or intelligent. i don't know. i know what i am. i am a sweet boy, but i can't tolerate evil people or mean people and i do become angry just like other people do. i don't want to confuse anyone with this information, but i feel as if i wouldn't be doing my job unless i was honest about what i know. i am not going to sugar coat anything. there was other information which stated something about how these technological aryans sometimes abduct good specimen females in order to insert their genius stock into them or to procreate. they want to have children in order to continue the work. i like the concept of good in every race so it confuses me. there is genius in every race. i don't understand it. just because they are white doesn't mean that i would get along with them or that they would like me. maybe i would get along with them. i don't understand it. the person who wrote it might not understand everything about it. here is something else. my wishful thinking is that it included good people from every race or a broad gene pool.

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i understand if this german stuff gives you the creeps. it confused and scared me at first. i tried to protect black people the first time that i went into the psychiatric ward at the VA hospital at the end of 1997 when i flipped out thinking that everyone was sensing me. it still scares me a little but i try to be objective. i think that i am some type of treaty between different alien forces but part of that is wishful thinking. i don't want to harm anyone. it is better if we help each other.

don't panic. a few black women are panicking, fighting about money and human resources, which seems to be because they are worried about something which is mostly in the future. they are trying to turn good black people to bad black people who hate unnecessarily. they are trying to work black people who have money or influence in order to try to get them to do something for them. it is not necessary. don't do it. don't be fooled by their attempt to wrongfully defame me because they are evil and greedy, trying to get something for themselves. they have become stupid haters who don't have a plan. it is sad because it was all unnecessary. love is the better way... don't unnecessarily break into different groups or different races battling with each other. you will be better off helping each other. do not take your current security for granted -- do something now so that it doesn't need to become worse than it needs to be in the future.

do you want to know what i think the big problem is here? white supremacists. some black people feel as if they need to polarize themselves against the white supremacists who flaunt or advertise being what they are. black people are doing it secretly and i think that this is dangerous or unnecessary. i would rather join white supremacists as a last resort if black people or other races were treating me so badly that i didn't have a choice but i would rather not have to join with white supremacists. try to work together and help each other. if you are weak or disorganized because of unnecessary fighting, then it will just be easier for some group who you might not want to dominate you, dominate you. i am concerned about some black women using this situation as a way of trying to scare or wrongfully intimidate or wrongfully coerce other black women at different work companies. you are better off working with nice people. so be nice. it is like some black people are holding a gun to other people, telling them not to move because they are trying to accumulate money or power or resources. they don't even have a plan because they don't know what is going on yet. eventually something is going to give; with power and the internet going down. love is the better way... help each other. i don't think that the white supremacists really have a plan either. this will probably sound crazy, but if black people want to have a better chance at survival in the future, establish places which are like bases out in the country. the cities will become chaotic in the future. probably better to be in the country. most black people are in big cities. organize ahead of time. this situation means that some black women did something wrong and got caught and are now in denial about it and are trying to use unnecessarily me as a way of dividing black people from everyone else because they think that they will have more power as a group that way. here is a word to black people. don't do it. don't join the people who just want you to think about anger and hate (or how 1 black woman was mean to an innocent white boy). there is no reason to hate me or the people who defend me. we are harmless. you will be better off with nice white people but i don't mean that all white people are nice. i said it before and i will say it again. i am sorry if what i said to that black woman at the grocery store in 2008 hurt black people but she was trying to humiliate me and there was absolutely no reason for it. it was very childish and very mean of her to have done that to someone who lacks privacy the way that i do and she must have done it because of some bullshit social situation which she had already created for herself. stop communicating about my past unnecessarily! i want to communicate about a healthy, happy future. this doesn't mean that i am trying to cover something up either. they lie about me and money or my intent. it is a bunch of stupid evil gossip. stop! move on to something happier and less tense for everyone.

stupid macho (read below) is when a person fakes being macho because they are really evil or dishonorable. you can figure it out for yourself.

the only reason that i want people to make a tv news story about this situation is because of weird, mean, childish people who want to make it about them instead of the peace of the entire community. they act up because they think that they are less or because they think that people think or will think that they are less. i am not the problem. i just want to be left alone. i wouldn't have written all of this crap which you have been seeing for years if people would have acted more maturely, leaving me and everyone else alone. they think that if they leave me alone, that i will be happier than they will be or that people will think that i am happier than they are, and they don't like it. they got themselves into social trouble so they pretend as if they have a reason to obstruct my life. it is evil, childish and selfish. they want to control and hurt the entire happy community. it is like a child, like "if i can't be happy, then no one can be happy!" it is a childish temper tantrum.

it really seems as if these few black people and this mexican girl are wanting people to think that they are unwilling to act like they care about a white person in public and i am a sweet white person. blacks and mexicans often have an attitude like they want whites to think that they ignore whites and i think that it is because they don't want to act like they think that whites are superior but i am not stating that i think that whites are superior. it is understandable in this nation. slavery, mexican american war. the issue is not about me wanting to be thought of as superior. the issue is about them wanting to be thought of as superior. why? why won't they leave people alone?

this situation has demonstrated something very ugly about human behavior. a few people want to humiliate me in public because they think that i am more than they are. it is abusive treatment. the people who are doing it are trying to get others to join in with them. very childish and very mean. this black guy and mexican girl who you can read about down below are like people who you would see on the tv news who got arrested for beating a child and keeping it locked in a closet with no food or water. they flaunt low class behavior and they try to get other people to join in with them. they think that it is easier for them to get people to be lazy and lie, rather than to act like people who have class. people who are intentionally harming me and others have weird psychological problems.

the few people who are intentionally causing problems for the community are like children who are obnoxious who were told to go to their room and clean it up and then they yell at their parents and sneak out of the house. they are implying that it doesn't matter if i am right and that they are wrong because they are implying that people should ignore me anyway. they are implying that thugs get attention and that honest people who do honest work don't get attention or don't get any where in life. their behavior is low class, sleazy and very very childish.

i am not just wanting to complain. i am trying to get this to stop so that the community can be a better, happier place. i have been trying for years on the internet (first with facebook, now with this website) and childish, mean, evil people want to mock me, wanting people to know that they are hurting an innocent person. like bullies at school who want to knock a sweet nerd's books out of his hands in the playground in front of other kids and then push him around, knock him on the ground and kick him so that he yells in pain and confusion in front of the other kids. it is real ugly childish shit in america and i wish that it would stop. i just want to be left alone! it is very simple. they are trying to trick ignorant people into thinking that i am making a big deal of myself when they are the ones who are wanting to make a big deal of themselves. people didn't start to defend me until other people started to fuck everyone over or betray the community. that is why we write so much on the internet. evil people are trying to fool you, wanting ignorant people to think that i am the aggressor. i am not the aggressor. i am acting defensively. i just want to be left alone.

this mexican girl is not kind or gentle. she acts like an obnoxious punk like she wants people to think that is what mexican girls are like. if mexican girls are like that, then fine, but get out of my life. i have a girlfriend who is sweet and loving and kind and beautiful. we don't want this mexican girl's low class, disgusting attitude crap bothering us or our families or our dogs or our cats. i don't want her intentionally bothering me before i go to work or when i am at work either. this mexican girl wants to be thought of as like a mexican drug cartel member's girlfriend who is vicious, brutal, evil and ruthless like that is what she thinks mexican people's image should be. she never cared about me or anyone else. she just tried to use me and everyone else in order to try to trick ignorant mexican guys into thinking that she deserves something when she doesn't or that i am lazy or unfriendly when i am not or that i did something wrong (george h. w. bush/northern trust bank) when she knows that i didn't and that it was someone else's fault and that i had a good intent anyway. i stated below something about "stupid macho" but what i meant is that there is a difference between stupid macho and good macho. she is a very weak, evil mexican female who fakes being strong and macho. it is like she wants to publicly desecrate the office of christ or a good man. she wants to try to humiliate men while still implying that they should give her something. what she actually is, is an incredibly stupid, weird coward who is in denial about knowing that she is the problem. paris hilton does the same thing. black women do the same thing. this black guy who has my vision in his left eye who can create contractions of my muscle and soft tissue does the same thing. read below.

i don't want stupid, childish, mean, fake black women in my life either. they lie about my heart because they got caught not having the heart. they lie about my intent. if they want to be thought of as something low class, then fine, but leave me out of it. i'm definitely not stating that all black women are bad or mean. some of them don't even try to be anything in life. they caused a big stupid unnecessary problem for themselves and then all they want to do is complain, faking thinking that i was the problem. what that black woman did to me at the grocery store in 2008 (read below) was childish, evil and sadistic. they are intentionally provoking me now in public in order to try to portray me as a monster. no. i am not the monster. they are. they are trying to fool ignorant people and i think that it is working a little bit. don't be fooled by it. i am a sweet honest white boy and they like to try to humiliate me or turn my sincerity into pain, confusion, frustration and anger in public because they know that i am a sweet honest white boy and because they think that i am something which most black people are not. i don't want their unnecessary aggression. it is stupid. i don't think that black people want it either. they act like satan, implying that they are superior while being incredibly evil and mean so it is dumb. satan or the devil has a ego problem (upside down thinking/it exists in everyone). they have an ego problem. they want the community to know that they are acting aggressively. they are not humble.

paris hilton is a tacky dork. i didn't want to get involved with her. i just wanted to wish her well when she was in jail. it is embarrassing to think that people think that i wanted to be involved with her or that i was involved with her. she made a big unnecessary childish deal of something trying to manipulate the media like she wanted people to think that i was a fan of hers and that she rejected me or that she was better than i was because she has money and is on tv. i wasn't a fan of hers and there was no reason to reject me. she is childish, greedy and disrespectful. she was a curse for the USA. seriously. she probably stupidly bosses carter whatever his name is around. i think that she tried to stupidly boss chris zylka around but it didn't work. she tried to stupidly boss me around but it didn't work. what hilton did to me and everyone else was childish and cruel. that is not an overstatement. she is a bad thing for children in the USA and all over the world. she wanted people to think that she was so important or so interesting because i thought about her or wrote to her trying to lift her spirit when she was in jail and then she shit all over me in public as if she wanted to hurt me because she thinks that i am more interesting or unique than she is despite all of her money and tv nonsense. the only reason that i thought about her is because she didn't go to jail the way which she should have and i wanted to try to make her loved or ok because i thought that she was going through a bad time or because i thought that maybe she was having a hard time because of this situation. it seems like she was. she wanted people to know that she was one of the people who i am in activity with. bossiness, cockiness, boastfulness, thoughtlessness, cruelty and disobedience are all aspects of her astrological makeup. i don't like her. she is full of shit. the reason that i wrote to TMZ with my mail being stolen 2 or 3 times by black women who wanted people to know that they were stealing my mail was because hilton wouldn't show me and everyone else a very basic amount of respect and answer the question about whether she made reference to me by name on TMZ herself. read below. she wants people to think that maybe i am such a problem that she won't communicate with me when she is the one who created the problem so it is stupid. she is trying to cover up the fact that she was or is the problem. i want my $150 back. here are 2 excerpts something from the same astrology book (The New Astrology by Suzanne White):

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First of all, the Aquarius born in a Rooster year often succeeds. And second of all, this person frequently fails.


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Not that the Aquarius/Rooster is a blase' shrugger of the shoulders. Far from it. This person is generally of cheerful demeanor, and personifies enthusiasm and involvement. But look a little deeper. The scars are cleverly hidden under natty dressing habits and a smart wardrobe of accessories. The Aquarius/Rooster's disenchantment may be camouflaged a cushion of glorious pink roses, but it's still there.

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paris hilton probably goes (dumb blonde) "ah, gee, daddy... i don't know what he is talking about when he says that i could fix it". she could respectfully tell me (and everyone else) whether or not she went on TMZ in october of 2008, making reference to me by name. i also think that she had the outrageous audacity to tell people what kind of work that i was doing, like it was her work or that she had to be involved with my work or else she would kick me to the curb if i didn't work her publicity. it is a privacy law problem. she wanted to make me a target, trying to force me to make her look good or else then she could just make up a story about me like saying that i wasn't good enough for her or for the public. she plays evil childish mind games. she started it out by trying to make it seem like she was accepted but that i wasn't. she knew that people would attack me if she made a statement about me because she knows that they don't like her. i know that she did do this on TMZ, but i would like confirmation. that would be the decent thing to do. i feel violated. i would also like $150 back. she ruined the spirit of christmas but that will be her problem and not everyone else's problem.


paris hilton has created a national/global security problem WHICH SHE DOESN'T FIX. black women or black people are using this situation involving hilton as a way of creating division in society, which means that they are beginning to try to recruit people in order to fight over money and resources. it is like they are holding people hostage, threatening them to do something for them or else. paris hilton holds people hostage too. she is the one who is unpopular. but the media is a fake, superficial, evil industry... so she thinks that she will benefit. she is fake. her family is fake. her husband is fake. she must lie to him or intentionally deceive him about the true nature of me or what has transpired. i know that she intentionally misleads him. i can't see how any guy would want the public to think that he liked a girl who has hurt so many innocent people all over the world. obviously he doesn't know what she has done or is doing. she doesn't want him to know. i'm not the one who dragged this on. i just wanted to take care of business back in 2008. real simple. hilton dragged it on because she wants to use me for publicity. she plays dirty publicity games, pretending as if she doesn't like this shit.

it seems as if paris hilton is intentionally giving black people the opportunity to lie about me and this situation. it seems like paris hilton wants to hurt black people (who have probably fucked with her mail) and wants to hurt me and wants to give black people the opportunity to hurt me and wants me to hurt black people. it is stupid crap every day in public and i don't deserve it at all. paris hilton is childish, weird, greedy, irresponsible and cruel. she is a problem for national/global security. and she really doesn't care. like the cheesy 'simple life'. like it is all a big joke to her, with her stupid hand bag dogs and creepy fake smile.

she really doesn't care about her reputation because of the way which she manipulated the media with her family's money.

it is really really disturbing to think that the media would make a "star" out of hilton when she really really is disrespectful, childish social garbage. she has hurt so many people. like a stupid, mean rich person like donald trump. she will put on her fake "i'm so sweet and i'm so cool and i like myself so much act", but so what?.

hilton and her husband are cowards. she wants people to think that i am some weird obsessed fan but no, that is definitely not true. she didn't and still doesn't do something to make it stop because she is wanting to use me for publicity. she tricked 'carter the ignorant' into thinking that she is interesting because i think of her. yuck. that is what i think of her. childish, weird disrespectful yuck. she doesn't do something to make it stop, like letting me know if she went on TMZ in october of 2008, making reference to me, plus sending me $150 back because of sending me some purse which i didn't ask for and didn't want. it wasn't necessary for me to send an extra $150 and the reason that i sent it is because she sent me something which i didn't request so i thought that it was gift so i thought that i need to pay more toward what i had requested. i had merchandise (which i didn't want) after i sent a certain amount so why is she keeping the rest? i was going to file a law suit against her but i sent cash so i can't prove that she owes me money. she is trying to create the impression that i liked her or that i want something to do with her. i was not a fan and i don't want something to do with her. i was neutral at first but now i am not neutral. i hate her just like many other people do. i don't want something to do with her. i want the situation to be resolved so that i can move on WITHOUT HER. she doesn't like that idea because then she doesn't seem that important. her cheese ball husband probably doesn't like it either.

i would want paris hilton to be happy but she didn't want me to be happy so i don't want her to be happy and that is natural.
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i'm not complaining too much. all of this crap really really is a reflection of other people who are talking stupid childish evil shit all the time when they shouldn't be. i am not the type of person who talks much or engages in childish gossip at work. i like to do my job, being quiet and focused, and not engage in childish crap. they are engaged in childish crap and it is causing a problem for the other workers. some girls have played games with me in the past when i am at a job, flirting with me or just being childish and stupid, which means that they are not focused on their job and it is really irritating. i know that both men and women who take work seriously know what i am communicating about.

i understand if you think that by reading this that i go on too much but i am being made intentionally sick every day and it is really bad. it is like being poisoned. not only do they want to poison me but they want to poison anyone who is happy and loving. these people are weird creepy lame losers. they are stalking people. they are also stalking law enforcement. they want people knowing that they are stalking people. they want to interfere with my relationships with other people and this initial information on my website is an example of that but it is better that i get this information out. they want people to think that i am an angry person in order to try to make me unpopular but i am not an angry person by nature. i am a very peaceful cheerful optimistic person who just wants to be left alone so that i can work. they are angry because they got themselves into social trouble and now they are trying to cover it up. these people don't care about work. they just want to play childish games, mocking people who work or who like to work. they are stupidly trying to make ignorant people think that i am the most dishonest person in the world when i am the most honest person in the world because that is naturally what this situation demands from me because i lack privacy or i know that i am being constantly sensed so there is no way that i could lie. i never lied to anyone who i am in constant 24/7 activity with and i have never lied to anyone on the internet. they know that or it is very simple and innocent but because they don't want to have to do the same thing in public, they are lying. they want people to know that they are lying, like they are mocking honest people (me and the people who are defending me) or people who like to work. it is like an attempted coup d'etat but these people who are trying to do it are so dumb and childish that no one will take them seriously. a very few people or mostly black women in the community (i don't want to hurt innocent sweet black women) think that they made themselves look bad or dishonest and mean so they are trying to make me and people who defend me look bad. they are lying about the past and the present. they are psychopaths or people with personality disorders who want to hurt innocent people including me. they got themselves into social trouble because of their evil incredibly mean stupid childish gossip. they make themselves look stupid and mean and then they panic and then intentionally act even more stupid and mean while faking thinking that they think that they look cool. it is social lameness. some black women want to be stupid and childish wanting attention wanting to and try to drag america down to some dumb obnoxious ghetto shit but it won't work. some ugly attitude evil insane incredibly childish and mean spirited black woman who i am in 24/7 constant activity with who sits around all day doing nothing at all has been harassing me and everyone else every time i get on the computer for a long time. everyone is sick of it and her and other ugly attitude mean spirited evil childish black women. it started after my mail to TMZ to try to get confirmation that paris hilton made reference to me (privacy law problem) was stolen twice (or maybe 3 times/i think that maybe a fed ex security signature thing was phony) by black women. i grew up but they didn't. they want power and attention, not caring if they make themselves look stupid or uncivil. i am sorry to keep going on about this and i really don't want to hurt sweet friendly honest black girls but sometimes black people's strategy is to intentionally be thought of as dumb but dominant and it really is dumb. they keep making an incredibly stupid deal of the fact that i called this nasty mean evil childish dishonest black woman who wrongfully attacked me in 2008 at a grocery store a name, trying to trick ignorant people who don't know me or what happened into thinking that i was the one who did something wrong when i absolutely didn't. i didn't and people who really know me and really know what happened know that i didn't. i reacted slightly defensively to a white lady at a grocery store one night as i was taking my change out of the metal change dish (which already necessitated me pulling the change toward me) because i thought that she might have been giving me a dumb look implying that paris hilton and i were stupid together and i had pride in my work or i thought about a sense of self worth because i thought that the white lady was trying to take my worth away from me or from both hilton and myself. i had feelings for hilton at first because i thought that she was sticking up for me in public but she was just playing dumb totally unnecessary childish games which confused me (and everyone else damn it!). i thought that she liked me and that she wanted the public to know that she liked me so that was part of the confusion at the grocery store. she sent me a weird childish cryptic (which is what people who stalk people do) which confused me. it was totally unnecessary. i also think that she told her father to call me, playing games with him saying "hi", but not responding to me saying something back. it sounded friendly and i think that she wanted everyone to hear it. hilton is dumb and childish and selfish. she wanted to use this group as a form of media in order to wrongfully manipulate people. it was and still is so cheesy because it seems like she thinks that she is so desperate. i didn't do anything wrong at the grocery store and people know it. it didn't matter. it was normal confusion given that i lack privacy. it was a confused thought or feeling at the grocery store which happened in a matter of 2 or 3 seconds and i felt awkward and confused as i did it. i stated something about it quietly when i got back to my apartment right after i was at the grocery store indicating that i didn't have an attitude problem or that i wasn't rude and that i just got confused. now i don't think that the white woman who was at the grocery store was giving me a dumb look but was flirting with me. these black women just didn't want me to be happy or peaceful or spiritual so they pretended as if they thought that i had done something wrong with money so that they could stupidly attack me try to humiliate hilton and myself. it meant that they knew that i was innocent but that they didn't want me to be around people with money or to be able to make money because of their childish envy or probably because of their childish evil incredibly degrading gossip about me which they had been engaging in for years before that. i know that they had been communicating stupid shit about me which they shouldn't' have been for years and then when there was a change in my life and i was moving on they tried to stop it because they thought that they were going to look bad because of what they had been saying about me before that. they have a weird problem about money like they are acting like they don't want anyone to have it because they don't have it. what these black women are really pissed off about is that they made themselves look bad or that they know that the black woman who wrongfully attacked me deserved to be called a name. they know that i was and still am innocent and they lie about me and my intent. these black women are a disgrace. they act childish and sadistic like they are flaunting some black girls' childish sadistic creepy low class behavior. it also means that they are greedy, trying to get more for themselves. it is a low class sleazy attempt to hustle. they are evil too because they know that i am just a peaceful innocent nerd. they want to humiliate a peaceful innocent nerd in public but they have just humiliated themselves. these black women don't give a shit about black people. they are just trying to stupidly boss them around, trying to get something for themselves. what that black woman did to me (and everyone else) in 2008 was evil and sadistic and it is still evil and sadistic and it is like these black women want to known for this shit. i was apologetic to innocent black women back in 2008 even though i didn't cause the problem. these evil black women flaunt being ugly and childish (they infected my blood when i was a patient at a psychiatric hospital with something which attacked my colon and caused me to need my colon to be resectioned/3 major surgeries/i joked out lound in anger about the thought of black people sticking me with a dirty needle about 2 or 3 days before they did because i was trying to ward it off just in case they were thinking of doing it and then they did it just to show everyone how ugly and childish they are or to spite me or to prove that they are as nasty as i thought that they were/the reason that i was having the thought to begin with was because of how black people had made me uncomfortable) and they are trying to drag america down to a stupid ghetto level but it won't work. they are making a very cruel childish mockery of me as a sweet innocent nerd honest white boy who likes to work. they like to make an honest nerd white boy who they know would be confident and peaceful nervous in public like they want people to think of it as a childish cruel low class thug black female joke. they want to mock people who are kind, honest and civil. they are trying to recruit thug like sleazy dishonest people but i don't think that it will work. they are obstructing people's lives because they don't want to think about people thinking about some people being better or happier or more confident than they are. dirty sleazy politics. they fight ugly and dirty when there is nothing to fight about. they are incredibly childish, evil and mean spirited. weird anger problems. they are a problem for national/global security. it is a form of terrorism. they are stalking me and it is actually a form of flirting with me in a real creepy way which means that they want my attention and that they want to interfere with my relationships with other people. they envy my ability to socialize in a unique way. they want people to know that i am thinking of them like they think that it makes them seem more important or more powerful than they are. they want to unnecessarily gossip about my life (george h. w. bush, northern trust bank, pairs hilton). it is an unusual story but that doesn't mean that i did anything wrong or that i had an evil intent or that it is more interesting than it is. i wasn't a fan of hilton's and she should have just gone to jail like she was supposed to have. i didn't want to fuck with her. why does she want to stupidly and childishly fuck with me and everyone else? this black guy who has my vision in his left eye who can cause contractions of my muscle and soft tissue was or still is the george h. w. bush and northern trust bank issue and he knows it and everyone else knows it too and we are all sick of this george h. w. bush and northern trust bank bullshit! they try to make people think that because it is an unusual story that it is more important or more interesting than it is. they try to use it as a way of making people think that they are more interesting or important than they are and they do this because they want power over others or ignorant people. they stupidly imply that they have some reason to harm me and other innocent people. what are they accusing me of? they know that they couldn't accuse me or anything in person. they know that they couldn't accuse me of anything anyway. it is just a bunch of stupid BS on the internet which they are engaging in and they do it because a few people got caught doing something really wrong and so now they wrongfully claim they have dirt on me when they know that they don't and when other people know that they don't either and also when God knows that they don't. northern trust bank is not important. don't worry about it. nothing special. this black guy confused me about it with him doing something really dumb and unnecessary and i thought that it was about antarctica or technology or charity or something beneficial for the entire world. what else would would i have thought at that particular time? i was like a young innocent boy who wanted to believe in something good and happy like a dream or miracle. they knew that i wasn't a racist or mean person. why would i be a racist? seriously. it would make me unpopular especially when i knew that i was in activity with different types of people everywhere. i still want to help everyone regardless of race. i used to talk about my dream of diversity every week. i have called a few black people and this mexican girl names but they attacked me first and this is after this stuff in the past which i am communicating about now. people knew that i wasn't a racist or that i didn't want to hurt anyone. this is one system. the black guy confused me about george h. w. bush and we are all sick of this george h. w. bush bullshit! they knew that the black guy confused me and they still know this but they lie about my intent or what caused what to happen. i thought that maybe by george h. w. bush stating "1000 points of light", it meant that he knew something about me and some imaginary good task which i going to perform for the world and then the black guy confused me when i was trying to get to the bottom of it sending him an innocent letter. there wouldn't have been a problem or issue if the black guy who i didn't know was an ignorant black guy would have just left me alone. it was hard to imagine that i could be successful if i didn't have support from the government, but i thought that i had to figure something out for scientists in order to be able to obtain that support. what else was i suppose to think? that it was suppose to be something weird and unhealthy for the community including the government? why would the government want to think of people thinking that the government was thinking something weird? that is a security problem for the government. i knew that i didn't have privacy and i didn't know who the people were or where they worked. i had some experiences with the supernatural beginning in 1997 and also other experiences like just happening to come across certain books or information on the internet which made me think things about my situation which were not real or which caused me to not be able to understand something within the right context. i have a sweet loving nerd honest intent and they knew it and still know it but because they got caught having a mean nasty evil intent they lie about me and try to wrongfully defame me. it is unbelievable. nasty ugly evil cheap shots. it is about these few low class creepy sleazy lazy black women and this low class creepy sleazy lazy mexican girl who has my vision in her left eye and who can cause contractions of my muscle an soft tissue wanting to humiliate an honest white boy innocent nerd because they are angry that he gets more attention than they do or because they think that he can do more than they can do. it is true. it can be human nature. strong people are not the problem. weak people are the problem. the black guy with my vision in his left eye who can create contractions of my muscle and soft tissue does the same thing or thinks in the same way. i am not stuck up either. it is like they are implying that they should make fun of people who do honest work. these black women and black guy and mexican girl are childish uncivil low class racists who have attitude problems who want to humiliate a white person in america. they have hate in them. they try to intimidate people, wanting people to be afraid of them but they are so stupid and childish that they won't intimidate. they will just irritate people and then isolate themselves making their personal situations worse. this mexican seems to want to imply that mexican girl style is to not be thought of as loving and kind and that they are all obnoxious and rude and stupid macho (difference between stupid macho and good macho). i mean no offense to sweet hard working mexican girls. i really don't want anything negative on my website but i need to confirm what i know people who i am in automatic constant 24/7 activity with (144,000) are communicating. it is a sad and frustrating situation but something good will come out of it. these people who are intentionally causing problems should grow up and get a life. they are childish, evil, mean spirited and socially lame. they are flaunting being childish, evil, sadistic and creepy implying that they can get away with it but they won't get away with it. no way. i have done too much honest work for too many years while being observed. they like to cause me to have to struggle unnecessarily in public making a really sick stupid childish cruel game out of it. it is incredibly disturbing. this is what happens when a public person doesn't have security. it reveals something nasty about human behavior. i really don't want to go on and on but these people's gossip is so evil, childish and mean that it is unbelievable. then if i communicate about it on the internet it emboldens them to act even more evil childish and mean like they are trying to get people to join in them. they are boring people who want people to think that they are more interesting or exciting than they are. i need help from the community in stopping this. their evil childish mean gossip is what got them into trouble to begin with. especially the few black women who are intentionally hurting innocent people including black children. a few black women who lack confidence or who got themselves into trouble because of their stupid evil dishonest gossip are harassing me wanting to make me less confident in public because they don't want people to think that i am more confident than they are. they try to use me as a way of irritating people in order to try to make me unpopular. they are trying to trick you. they don't want to think about my confidence and their lack of confidence at the same time. it is envy. really weird childish envy. they don't like to think about how i am more than they are or they don't like to think about other people thinking about how i am more than they are so they want to make me less in public. i am not stuck up. i am trying to make this situation more normal or normalize this by trying to get people to make an international story about me and the 144,000. we could prove who we are or that our central nervous systems are fused (electromagnetism?/great pyramid?) with a test on tv and the interesting this is that these people are situated all over the world. not racist. interesting about about DNA (or biochemistry?). i have a few ideas about security measures which could be put in place plus it is the job of the courts and police. i am here every few thousand years which is every few days. no big deal. it also changes with astrology. everyone including world leaders and future world leaders should understand the science behind it. i could get help. i am only alive for 70 or 80 years or whatever and then i die and this should be a celebration about everyone. cycles of time/development. why would you want people to think that this should be an unhappy or weird story every time i come back? that seems unnecessary. that is dangerous for everyone. use technology and civil institutions (work which has already been done/law) to create peace. think about how the documentation of jesus is creating peace at this moment with me being here now. do it again for the future incarnations. don't take it for granted. back to the crap, a few black women created a social problem for themselves and for everyone and i know that innocent black women are sick of it. i am sick of it too. these black women who are causing problems are lazy, lame, dishonest, boring, very mean and childish. they are childish, fake and they are racists. it seems like these black women want to be known for being mean and childish and creepy. it is incredibly disturbing. they are playing a very stupid childish game with everyone. they are trying to trick ignorant people into thinking that i am mean because they got caught being nasty and mean. i'm not mean. i just want to be left alone. people always communicate about white hate but what about black hate of an innocent white person or innocent white people? psychologists would understand it. black people can hold an unnecessary grudge against innocent white people. these black women would rather ruin other innocent people's work in order to make themselves feel "better" about themselves rather than do something cool on their own as an individual in order to make themselves feel better. i am a sweet humble guy and people know it but some of them intentionally provoke me in order to try to make me less popular like they are making a childish incredibly cruel mockery of someone who they know is sweet and humble. they want people to think that it is interesting and exciting that they can harm me and others in public with out me having protection or without me being able to defend myself. they are implying that harming people is impressive when it isn't. i would compare it to vandalism. like i stated, they are like terrorists. harming people is the exact opposite of what i want to do or would be doing if they got out of my life and they know it. they want to interfere with my relationships with other people because of envy or jealousy. like i stated, they have weird psychological problems. it is incredibly disturbing and i have asked people to tell my family about what is happening but no one helps or seems to care enough. these people who are intentionally causing problems have personality disorders and they are using this group as a form of media in order to stalk people. paris hilton, a few black women, a black guy who has my vision in his left eye and a mexican girl who lives in houston who has my vision her left eye are the problem. paris hilton, a few black women and the mexican girl all think that they need to lie about me or the situation to other men in order to build those men up. i am not implying that all girls are doing this or that other men need to be lied to. it is just the few girls who got themselves into social trouble because they were playing dumb games. the black guy who has my vision in his left eye and the mexican girl who has my vision in her left eye can create contractions of my muscle and soft tissue which the entire group (144,000) world wide can sense and they are using it as a weapon intentionally harming and trying to intimidate others in order to try to get something for themselves. they have betrayed the community. they are trying to bully people around but it won't work. they think and act like sleazy thug like criminals. they are trying to make ignorant people think that i am evil and that they are christ when i am not evil and when they are not christ. obviously it is me and not them and they just can't handle it or don't want to work like i do and like people know that i do. black guy who has my vision in his left eye and mexican girl who has my vision in her left eye are a form of Satan. it is evil and attempts to deceive people wanting people to know that it is evil trying to recruit them. they are trying to steal my power but they are so blatantly stupid and evil that i don't think that it would work. the issue with their left eye doesn't mean that they are good like they want people to think. it means that they are evil and that there is something wrong with their brains. it is scary. it is like they are retarded and they are very very mean and evil. they are like vicious weird animals who want people to know that they like to hurt people and that they don't care about having friends. they are bound like Satan. that is what their left eye indicates. they act like little children who got caught doing something wrong and are now trying to lie their way out of trouble. i understand if ignorant people are thinking "ok, ok, man... you don't need to keep going on!" you don't understand how often these people are being aggressive. it is really nasty really weird sick aggressive shit all day along every day and they are going to wish that they never fucked with me when all of this is over. they will die stupid and confused and it is their own fault. oh well. this mexican girl doesn't know how to lie her way out of trouble and she has been panicking for years. she tries to confuse people as to what she is doing because she is trying to lie her way out of trouble. she tries to make people think that either she is trying to help me which is definitely not true or that she has some authority to intentionally harm me and other innocent people. like a little child who wants to play make believe or who wants people to think that her life is some kind of ridiculously stupid false fairly tale. the black guy is like a little child who wants to play make believe too. he mixes truth and lies together in order to try to get people to believe his ugly cheesy lies. these creatures are evil and sadistic. they should be killed. sensing this black guy and mexican girl is like watching the little girl character is the Exorcist movie. it is incredibly disturbing. they are evil and lying about me and they want to hurt innocent people all over the world. it is like sensing a wild animal which is confused when being around humans. they are like evil incredibly mean tyrants. this mexican girl knows that this black guy is guilty of creating the george h. w. bush and northern trust bank issues and she tries to cover for him because she thinks that they both look stupid like weirdos at a party with dunce caps on. they are panicking. they are insane just like these black women who are intentionally causing problems for the community are. their lies are ugly and cheesy too. these people are like drunk obnoxious mean people at a party who nobody likes and who get kicked out. i think that the mexican girl's parents are supporting her knowing that she is harming people all over the world and that is incredibly stupid. they should kick their daughter out of their house and make her live in a group home or half way house. i think that the black guy and mexican girl are Set and Nephthys back in egypt. they are 2 of the 9 original egyptian deities. i am Horus which is Osiris (constellation of Orion / relationship between orion and sirius) reborn. they are panicking thinking that they have given themselves and people of their race a bad image and they are worried about their survival in future incarnations. i am not wanting to cause problems for blacks and mexicans. this doesn't mean that all white people are good and that all blacks and mexicans are bad. i mean what i state when i state that i don't want to cause a problem for blacks and mexicans but some of these black people and this mexican girl don't care if people know that they are nasty and evil and childish just as long as they think that people think that they are dominant. it is scary. they have a smug creepy childish attitude and it is scary. they try to intimidate but they are dumb and childish. they flaunt being smug, creepy, evil and childish implying that they know that i am right and that they are wrong but that they don't care or that it doesn't matter because they are lazy and don't want to try to do anything with their life or because they are implying that lazy thug sleazy people rule. no. they don't. they want people to think that i didn't create this website when good honest people know that i created it. it is like these black people who are intentionally causing problems want to be thought of as disgusting mean childish creatures so it is weird and disturbing. they act aggressively wanting me and other people to defend me because they want other people to know that they know that i am innocent and that they just want to humiliate me and anyone who acts like they care about me. this is how black women got themselves into trouble to begin with. they wanted to humiliate me in public for no good reason or because they didn't like the thought of me being more confident or peaceful or graceful than they are. they wanted to drive a wedge in between me and people with money or people on tv when i did nothing wrong just in case that i would have had an opportunity to be around people with money because of my writing which they knew that i had started. they were implying that i wasn't allowed to be loved or liked even when they knew that i did nothing wrong. it was because of their envy and evil mean dishonest gossip which they had been engaging in. they thought that they were going to look stupid or have social problems because of what they had been communicating about me for years because i went through a positive spiritual transformation which they didn't anticipate. i understand if it sounds like i am rambling but i am scared and confused along with other people and we have been going through this for a long time. these beings who are intentionally causing problems are so evil and sadistic that it is weird. they are angry and confused because they think that i am more than they are so they try to make me less. they have weird psychological problems. they are socially lame. strong people are not the problem. weak people are the problem. some of these girls are mean and childish and like to make me (or a man) nervous or uncomfortable or feel threatened in public like they get a sick childish thrill from it. it is very mean and confusing. my situation is already difficult and confusing. they are actually wanting to play with me and toy with me and tease me and unnecessarily take up my time thinking that they are so special because they get to interact with me and it makes me sick and then they lie to other men stating that they don't like me when they actually do. this has been and still is very painful. black women or black people are secretly conspiring with the use of computers. different work organizations. government organizations. i think that they learned some knowledge of computers from crooked black cops or crooked black government position workers. they are childish and dangerous on some weird angry deranged power trip in america. beware. black people need strong bold public leadership. i care about them. i wish that i had a few black friends who i could kick it with every once in a while. me becoming angry is like a country or territory reacting defensively with a bomb destroying an evil aggression from another country. it is unfortunate that innocent people get hurt but it is the lesser of 2 problems. the long term benefit is greater. i have deleted negative stuff 3 times from my website because i want people to think more positive and feel more positive but i have to document this. it is for the benefit of the community. i never thought that i would think these types of negative things about black people or communicate these types of negative things about black people or feel these types of negative things about black people because i always had a basic love and appreciation for them. i want them to stop hurting other people and themselves. it is just a few of them who are acting childish and stupid. it doesn't mean that that the entire black community is a failure or no good or that they need to feel ashamed. i am sick of thinking that black people are thinking that people are thinking that they are a problem when they aren't. something else important about my george h. w. bush confusion is that i didn't know what this black guy who confused me was back then. the black guy referred to george h. w. bush and i didn't understand the meaning. for a while i thought that it was george h. w. bush who was communicating with me. i thought that the black guy was something advanced or more intelligent that he was because he was creating contractions of my muscle and soft tissue in a weird unusual way which didn't seem human and i thought that he worked for the government or worked with the government because i couldn't imagine anything else at that time. i also assumed that all of this was supposed to mean something positive like a miracle. part of that was wishful thinking. part of that was my imagination as a young person. i also had a problem with methamphetamine usage. i got introduced to it and then continued to use one a week because i was sad because i got removed from normal society and my family mostly because of what this black guy was doing to me for years. i liked to use speed and study but then i would get confused and overwhelmed when it would wear off and i was in a vicious horribly dark downward spiral for about 10 years wishing that i could do something positive or interesting which was unrealistic. i didn't want to imagine something weird and negative or awkward for the community so my mind wanted to think of something positive which was unrealistic. i just didn't know any better like a young child. in a way i am only 25 years old right now meaning that i had to relearn everything or be reborn starting in 1997. i was communicating out loud to people after i would use speed every time after i would use about my thoughts and dreams and what i had experienced and my entire life and anything i had done which i felt bad about because i thought that i should come clean and always be a brutally honest as i possibly could. there is really no other way for someone in my situation because you are constantly nervous because of a lack of privacy. you get used to it and become more confident but it is always difficult. a few things happened to me starting in 1997 which i thought were more important than they were or which i thought meant something which it didn't mean. i thought that everything had some type of magic meaning sort of like when you start a job thinking that something will be a certain way but it isn't. part of the issue is that i i thought that things were happening faster than they were or would or could. i didn't want to imagine something confused or awkward for the community. i wanted to imagine something magnificent. the black guy and mexican girl should use the ability for them to be identified because of their left eye issue as something positive but in order to do this they would have to be much less aggressive and honest about what has happened just saying something like "i fucked up because i was confused about my own life" and they would be ok. i want them to be ok. childish, mean, lazy, boring people are blatantly obstructing the community's health and happiness, implying that this can't be anything good when it can be. they stupidly and childishly seem to be implying that it is all about my unnecessary suffering or other people causing me to unnecessarily suffer just because a few people accidentally caused me to unnecessarily suffer initially because of a lack of understanding about the situation. now we do understand so it is pointless to unnecessarily suffer. they want people to think that it has a negative meaning when that is not true. they know that i can move on but they don't want me to because they think that i and other people will be happier than they will be and it is very selfish and childish of them. i have girlfriend and a job and i want to be left alone. everyone wants to be left alone so that we can be happy and meet our potential. i'm not in any trouble with the law and their evil gossip about the past or present is stupid. they think that they can't be happy because they got themselves into trouble so they don't want to think of other people's happiness. i wish that people would "kill" off this negative stupid incredibly and unnecessarily mean shit coming from other people. make it more about science and less about religion. use technology and civil institutions. have faith in people. the goal is to create something happy and peaceful for everyone including people who have or who still are causing problems. it seems like these very few black women are implying that i am not christ because i don't like them and what it actually means is that i am christ because i don't like and fight against childish evil mean people and that could be anyone and not just a few black women.

why won't someone who i am in constant 24/7 activity with (144,000) inform my family about who i am and the problems which the community is having? i don't understand it. that doesn't mean that i would expect my family to tell other people so that they would tell other people, etc. people know that i have tried to explain to my family how there is a problem and that my family doesn't understand and that it causes problems for me and my family. why doesn't someone help or show some love and kindness and respect??? it is incredibly humiliating for me and my family in public. why does the public want to think of this, especially when it is unnecessary? are you implying that i am not allowed to be loved and respected and cared for by own family? do you understand how difficult this is to do when i am thinking of how public is thinking of how this is creating a mess for me and my family? how i am supposed to have strength? how does that support the community? it doesn't seem like the public wants me and my family to be strong or happy or spiritual. why? people want to make it about how they love jesus but it seems like when christ is actually here that they only make it about christ loving them or what christ does for them and not about them loving christ or christ's acceptance or what they can do for christ. relationships are about helping one another.

i wish that people who know about what is going on (144,000) would coordinate with me and the media and the FBI. you should use technology and civil institutions in order to set a legal precedent. if one person does not have rights, then no one has rights. peace on earth...

https://biblehub.com/philippians/4-7.htm
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the point about insecurity (2nd advent/read below) is that people should know that it worked just like clock. God kept his promise. i think that one way you could think of it is that Christ overcame death. it would make people realize that they too will be reincarnated, or that reincarnation is real. life cycles are real. i think that it relates to the concept of Messianic rectification. that is a broad concept, and not one which only applies to me. i came back just as predicted or at a precise, specified time. this means that it had to have originated from a source a very, very long time ago, and also that there have been numerous incarnations, all working similarly like a clock. that is something to believe in; especially as it applies to everyone. i will continue to come back. happening twice (or 3 times if you want to go back to the story of Horus in egypt) means that it happens or happened again and again and again. not very important. interesting, but not that important. another point about insecurity is that it doesn't matter what i am doing, as long as i am not breaking the law. the law is different, depending on which country you are in. i don't have to go to church if i don't want to. i can drink alcohol if i want to. i could have sex with a man if i wanted to (at least in america) but that doesn't mean that i want to have sex with a man. i have had sex with men before. i don't have to give money to the church if i don't want to. sometimes i do give a little, but that it besides the point. i don't give that much money (or 10% of what money i have), but i have rung the bells as a volunteer every once in a while (smile).

everyone automatically gives 10%. God is 1. 10 / 1 + 0 = 1.

https://biblehub.com/sermons/auth/young/the_difference_between_christ's_first_and_second_advent.htm
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