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the poem ('to my son') in the joshua evan mishler link above was created by Bruce B. Wilmer.




gematria / look at etymology

scroll down to carl's breakthough in gematria. each of the 14 numbers will equal 9 when you add the digits of each number until a single digit is derived.

for example:

144 / 1 + 4 + 4 = 9
1296 / 1 + 2 + 9 + 6 = 18, 1 + 8 = 9

more on the number 9 in section below (ennead/casing out of nines).

22 hebrew letters / click on gematria link / take note of how in upper right corner there is alef (1) and beit (2). that is similar to alpha - bet. you read from right to left in hebrew. 1 + 2 = 3.

divine providence related to eye of providence on dollar bill. hebrew letter ayin has an oridinal or positional value of 16. absolute value is 70. both 1 + 6 and 7 + 0 = 7,ayin

in link above, take note of how the shape of hebrew letter ayin incorporates the hebrew letters nun and vav.

hebrew letter nun / 14 or 50

300 + 400 is the 21st letter of the hebrew alphabet added to the 22nd (last) of the hebrew alphabet

hebrew letter samech / 15 or 60

photos in link (3 hebrew mother letters) above were taken of information generated by  take note of archetype for each letter.  compare with information within the wikipedia 'messiah in judaism' link below.  mashiach ben david (for hebrew letter mem) and mashiach ben yosef (for hebrew letter shin).  archetype for hebrew letter alef also relates to the mashiach (messiah).  a jewish person who is deep into study stated to me that i am right for thinking that there is some confusion amongst jews (even jews who study) about whether the mashiach (messiah) is a concept or an actual person.  he also told me that maimonides ruled that it would be an actual person.  jesus christ was one of the messiahs but everyone didn't have the same information.  christians were initially a secret society.  they feared persecution.  they were persecuted.  so were jews.  so were romans.  so were muslims, etc.

hebrew letters alef (1), mem (13 or 40) and shin (21 or 300) correspond to chapters 1, 13 and 21 of the book of revelations (bible). chapter 13 is best known for 666. important to remember that it is sequential and that chapter 14 is after chapter 13.


essenes. referred to above.,_Christos_Templars


page 8. page 35.

scroll down to diagram of 3 pyramids / golden ratio


the great pyramid is one of 3 pyramids close to cairo, egypt which are an exact model of the constellation of orion. man did not create the pyramids. God did. there seems to be some type of understanding or agreement about the relationship(s) of a biological entity at some higher level. i am a part of it and i want to make a difference which is beneficial for everyone. i can't do it alone. i need help.

10,450 BC / age of leo / also in link directly above

consider chapter 14 of the book of revelations

considering 144,000. there are 1440 minutes (720 or 72 x 2) in one day. 6 days = 144 hours


circle of enoch / enoch was the 7th patriarch in the bible / God takes him at 365 like the number of days in 1 year.

scroll down to 1 enoch

take note of lineage starting with enoch

melchizedek was or is part of the lineage starting with enoch (link directly above)


take note of 4004 BC. 4004 BC - 1996 AD = 6000 years.

take note of diagram (2000, 2000, 2000, 1000). also, this hebrew letter zayin would correspond to chapter 7 of the book of revelations

6 and 7 like days of work and then1 day of rest. 6 x 7 = 42. scroll up and down.


the egyptian Set battles with the egyptian Horus. Set is associated with 72 conspirators in egypt. christ was also associated with 72. again, 72 (or 720) x 2 equals 1,440 or the number of minutes in one day.


Matthew 26:53 - A Roman legion consisted of 6,000 soldiers. A roughly equal number of auxiliary troops supported each legion. Thus 12 legions of angels would be equivalent to 72,000 or even 144,000 angels, more than enough to defend Jesus against arrest and crucifixion.

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casting out 9s. take note of how the figure 10 is part of the formula relating to the figure 9.

90 (east) = 9 because 9 + 0 = 9
180 (south) = 9 because 1 + 8 + 0 = 9
270 (west) = 9 because 2 + 7 + 0 = 9
360 (north) = 9 because 3 + 6 + 0 = 9

45 = 9 because 4 + 5 = 9.
45 is also the triangle of 9 because 1 + 2 + 3 + 4 + 5 + 6 + 7 + 8 + 9 = 45

any time you half 9 or something which equals 9 you will arrive at 9 again when adding digits together until a single digit is derived.

for example:

90 / 9 + 0 = 9
45 / 4 + 5 = 9
22.5 / 2 + 2 + 5 = 9
11.25 / 1 + 1 + 2 + 5 = 9
5.625 / 5 + 6 + 2 + 5 = 18, 1 + 8 = 9

you could multiply any number which equals 9 when the individual digits of that number are added together by any number and you will generate a number which equals 9 when the individual digits of the new number are added together until a single digit is derived.

for example:

36 (3 + 6 = 9) x 23,754 = 855,144 (8 + 5 + 5 + 1 + 4 + 4 = 27, 2 + 7 = 9)
9 x 97,456,356 = 877,107,204 (8 + 7 + 7 + 1 + 0 + 7 + 2 + 0 + 4 = 36, 3 + 6 = 9)
108 (1 + 0 + 8 = 9) x 74,593 = 8,056,044 (8 + 0 + 5 + 6 + 0 + 4 + 4 = 27, 2 + 7 = 9)

1 through 10 consistently generates 1 through 9 consistently.

1 / 2 / 3 / 4 / 5 / 6 / 7 / 8 / 9 / 10, 1 + 0 = 1 / 11, 1 + 1 = 2 / 12, 1 + 2 = 3 / 13, 1 + 3 = 4, etc.

10 / 9





3rd letter of hebrew alphabet is Gimmel / 3rd letter of greek alphabet is Gamma.  7th letter of latin alphabet is G.  the letter G is significant to freemasons because it stands for God, Geometry, Grand architect

3 and 7. take note that the first verse of the bible equals 2701 which is 37 x 73. refer to link above about mathematical monotheism.

refer to wikipedia (gematria) link above / gamma.

note that 6 and 28 are perfect numbers. 6 = 1 + 2 + 3 / 28 = 1 + 2 + 3 + 4 + 5 + 6 + 7.  also note that 496 is mentioned in an above link about hebrew letter nun.

note how in first video the rabbi makes reference to 16 (which is 7 because 1 + 6 = 7 or because 7 + 0 = 7) and 17 (which is 8 because 1 + 7 = 8 or because 8 + 0 = 8) at the end.

8 transcending 7. 50 transcending 49.


888 / look at hexadecimal conversion on right side of page. also note factorization incorporates the figure 37 into it.

note diagram in upper left corner / 378

the length of the grand gallery in the great pyramid = 153 feet. that is 1836 inches. the pyramid inch = 1.001 inches. therefore, 1836 x 1.001 = 1837.836. note 378 in the center of this number. also, a 3 digit number can create 2, 2 digit numbers. add the 2 digits to the left of the number until you have a single digit, leaving the digit to the right alone. leave the digit to the left alone and add the 2 digits to the right of the number until you have a single digit.

378 generates 18 and 36 again. 1836 inches

153 can relate to the miraculous catch of fish in the new testament. 153 is the triangle of 17. in other words, 1 + 2 + 3 + 4 + 5, etc. + 17 = 153. 17 (hebrew letter pei [17] is paired with hebrew letter ayin [16]). another issue which is related is that Yahweh (name of God which was revealed to moses/YHWH) equals 26 or 17. 26 / 2 + 6 = 8. 17 / 1 + 7 = 8. Yahweh is spelled yud (10), hei (5), vav (6), hei (5) in hebrew with no vowels. it generates 17 or 26, depending on whether or not you drop the zero in the 10. ultimately it will equal 8 when digits are added together until a single digit is derived (1 + 7 = 8 / 2 + 6 = 8).

some of my own work. 7 (like 7 days of the week) x .54 = 3.78. 8 x .54 = 4.32. 432 is the square root of the speed of light. 432 also relates to the scale which the great pyramid was designed with.

look closely number 1:43,200.



read introduction and then scroll down to glacials and interglacials.


in genesis 1:1 there is an alef tav (word or concept/like alpha and omega/alef is first letter of hebrew alphabet, tav is last letter of hebrew alphabet) and then also a vav alef tav (word or concept). the hebrew letter vav represents the number 6 (like 60). vav is used as a conjunction like the english word "and".


666, 777, 888
8 / 7

i don't know that much about it but 36 is the triangle of 8. in other words, 1 + 2 + 3 + 4 + 5 + 6 + 7 + 8 = 36 (or 360). 666 is the triangle of 36 (same as 360). in other words, 1 + 2 + 3 + 4 + 5. etc. + 36 = 666.

i wish that i could get help with this. people should establish trust and confidence within the community; wanting people to know that they were not afraid to talk to me in public. i can get experts started but you would have to give me some authority. it would also hold me and everyone else more accountable. if there is anything which i am doing which people don't like then simply tell me. i will work with you. i am flexible. put civil institutions to work. don't make a waste of technology. upgrade. create something peaceful and interesting. it won't make a good difference if i have to do it all alone. i understand if people out there are thinking "i don't really care about all of this information." i understand. what would really be more important is some kind of communication or tale about love and acceptance. they already did that with the new testament. now we could construct the newest new testament. validate scripture so that experts can expound upon it. part of it has to do with time keeping. just like BC and AD. if you give leaders the information there won't be as many surprises in the future so they will think that it is no big deal. people make a big deal of it when it is not normalized and that can cause trouble. at this moment we have the ability to normalize it; making it more socially acceptable. put technology to good use. i fear that they will fight over me again in the future unless you do what i am suggesting you do.

the constellation of orion is osiris. 3 pyramids close to cairo, egypt are an exact model of the constellation of orion. note that the constellation of orion illustrates the golden ratio (1.618/diagram above) which can be related to quadradic equations.

relationship between the egyptian thoth and the greek hermes

in reference to a "divine trickster", it is not a trick but people can get tricked. i think that the part of the story about hermes telling lies has some other meaning or represents something else about how it isn't a lie but how people can get tricked by not being open minded or loving enough. in a general sense, there is a mystery of God which is difficult to understand within context. think of jesus christ; past and present. i have thought about it as something like the game called rock, paper, scissors. also like an right triangle. one angle is 90 (or just 9 because 9 + 0 = 9) with there also being two angles of 45 (or also 9 because 4 + 5 = 9). 9 + 9 + 9 = 27 and then 2 + 7 = 9. or all types of triangles. all of the angles added together in any type of triangle is 180 (or 9 because 1 + 8 + 0 = 9). the important aspect of a triangle is that the angles form a center point. same with a circle. same with a square.


22 hebrew letters. alef (1) + tav (22) (first and last) are similar to concept of alpha + omega (refer to information above/22 hebrew letters, 22 chapters in the book of revelations). the torah or bible begins with the hebrew letter beit (2) as the first letter of the word 'Bereisheet' (in the beginning). 3 is the triangle of 2 because 1 + 2 = 3. 6 is the triangle of 3 because 1 + 2 + 3 = 6. 21 is the triangle of 6 because 1 + 2 + 3 + 4 + 5 + 6 = 21. 231 is the triangle of 21 because 1 + 2 + 3, etc. + 21 = 231. there are 231 ways of connecting or interrelating the 22 hebrew letters. this relates to the understanding or illustration of 1 body. cyclical.

hebrew letter shin / 21 or 300

hebrew letter tav / 22 or 400. note how tribe of Dan is incorporated into understanding. tribe of Dan is the archetype of the 16th letter of the hebrew alphabet (ayin/16 or 70, 1 + 6 = 7, 7 + 0 = 7). refer to information about hebrew letter ayin above. note that 22 and 1 are the same or overlap. the end is enwedged in the beginning and the beginning is enwedged in the end.

913 is the value for 'in the beginning' (genesis 1:1). this book was recommended to me when i told rabbi ginsburgh's secretary that i was interested in the overall structure of the bible. i have not ordered it or read it. i believe that the last letter of the hebrew word bereisheet (in the beginning) is the hebrew letter tav. tav is the last letter of the hebrew alphabet. the first letter of the hebrew word bereisheet is the hebrew letter beit which is the 2nd letter of the hebrew alphabet. when focused on 2 or the 2nd letter of the hebrew alphabet, i think that 2 is significant as it relates to the entire word or concept of bereisheet because 3 is the triangle of 2 or in other words, 1 + 2 = 3. the hebrew letter shin is the 21st letter (next to last) of the hebrew alphabet. 21 = 3 because 2 + 1 = 3 or because its' absolute value is 300 and 3 + 0 + 0 = 3. 3 is the triangle of 2. 6 is the triangle of 3. 21 is the triangle of 6. 231 is the triangle of 21. there are 231 ways of connecting or interrelating the 22 hebrew letters. thinking more about about the number 231, 2 + 3 + 1 = 6 (like 60 or a cycle or circle). there is some kind of differentiation between the first and last (22nd) letters of the hebrew alphabet with the 2nd and 21st (next to last) letters of the hebrew alphabet. it is one body.


if you pair the value of the first letter of the hebrew alphabet with the value of the last letter of the hebrew alphabet (like alpha and omega / beginning and end) you will get 5. that is 1 + 22 (ordinal or positional value) or 400 (absolute value). 22 / 2 + 2 = 4 or 400 / 4 + 0 + 0 = 4. so 1 + 4 = 5. then work your way inwards and you can pair 2 + 21 (ordinal or positional value) or 300 (absolute value). 21 / 2 + 1 = 3 or 300 / 3 + 0 + 0 = 3. so 2 + 3 = 5. then work you way inwards and you can pair 3 + 20 (ordinal or positional value) or 200 (absolute value). 20 / 2 + 0 = 2 or 200 / 2 + 0 + 0 = 2. so 3 + 2 = 5. i am not an expert on this, but it seems to allude to a notion that the concept or structure of the messiah is illustrated by letters or words or by holy scripture. one body. 5 is related to 50 or a concept related to the messiah. that would be 11 fives because 22 letters paired is 11 pairs and each pair = 5. 11 x 5 is 55. 55 is the triangle of 10, or in other words, 1 + 2 + 3 + 4 + 5 + 6 + 7 + 8 + 9 + 10 = 55. 10 is the triangle of 4 because 1 + 2 + 3 + 4 = 10. i think that this has something to do with the value of 'in the beginning' being 913 (or 4 because 9 + 1 + 3 = 13, and 1 + 3 = 4).

if i confused anyone with ordinal or positional value and absolute value, the values for the hebrew letters 1 through 10 are just 1 through 10. when you get to 11, you also have an absolute value. 11 is also 20. 12 is also 30. 13 is also 40. 14 is also 50, etc. 19 is also 100, 20 is also 200, 21 is also 300 and 22 is also 400. both ordinal or positional value and absolute value will be the same when you add the digit of the number until a single digit is derived. for example, 21 / 2 + 1 = 3 or 3 + 0 + 0 = 3.


concerning the significance of the freemasonic letter G, G is 3 in hebrew (Gimmel) and greek (Gamma) or G is 7 in the latin alphabet. G can stand for God, Geometry and Grand architect.

in the beginning / 913, 9 + 1 + 3 = 13, 1 + 3 = 4
created / 203, 2 + 0 + 3 = 5
God / 86, 8 + 6 = 14, 1 + 4 = 5
(untranslatable) / 401, 4 + 0 + 1 = 5
heaven / 395, 3 + 9 + 5 = 17, 1 + 7 = 8
and / 407, 4 + 0 + 7 = 11, 1 + 1 = 2
the earth / 296 / 2 + 9 + 6 = 17, 1 + 7 = 8

therefore, 4 + 5 + 5 + 5 + 8 + 2 + 8 = 37

refer to mathematical monotheism link above. 37 x 73 (thinking of 3 and 7) = 2701 or is the value of the first verse of the bible. it forms a perfect equilateral triangle with 2701 dots or pixels.

i wish that a group of the people who i am in automatic 24/7 activity with would go with me to the FBI in order to inform the FBI and furthermore the media about the few people who are assaulting us and intentionally creating confusion and misery for the community. they are childish, socially lame, angry people who don't want happy people to be happy. they are wanting to make a mockery of honest, loving people because they are not honest or loving. they think that they can't operate at a certain higher level so they want to intentionally drag people who they think can operate at a certain higher level down to their low class level. they are dishonorable. they are betraying the community. they lie. they are creepy. they are stalking and intentionally harassing and harming the community. it is a national and/or global security problem.




john dee worked for elizabeth I in the 1500s. dee traveled to the new world. this would have been before the american revolution. i am not implying with my ancestry DNA results that i am john dee or 007. i think that he and others knew about me before i was born in the new world; meaning, that they knew that i was going to be born in the new world.

144 / 144,000 (book of revelations) / 144 is the 12th term in the Fibonacci sequence which means that it is unique in that it is 12 raised to the power of 12 / Fibonacci sequence relates to the golden ratio or spiral / pyramids (link above) / golden ratio or PHI relates to the understanding of quadradic equations or space/time / there are 1,440 minutes in one day / 6 days = 144 hours


some of my own work. every 12 parts of the zodiac is separated by 30 degrees. as it relates to something scientific, in kabbalah, the absolute value of the 12th letter of the hebrew alphabet is 30. also, as it relates to something scientific, the absolute value of the 18th letter of the hebrew alphabet is 90. every 90 degrees of the zodiac can be illustrated as 3, 6, 9. 3 + 6 + 9 = 18.

for example:

30 / 3 + 0 = 3
60 / 6 + 0 = 6
90 / 9 + 0 = 9

120 / 1 + 2 + 0 = 3
150 / 1 + 5 + 0 = 6
180 / 1 + 8 + 0 = 9

210 / 2 + 1 + 0 = 3
240 / 2 + 4 + 0 = 6
270 / 2 + 7 + 0 = 9

300 / 3 + 0 + 0 = 3
330 / 3 + 3 + 0 = 6
360 / 3 + 6 + 0 = 9

as it applies to each 90 degrees, take the outer 2 digits of 3 / 6 / 9 and multiply by the center digit.
39 x 6 = 234. 234 is the inverse of 432, which is the square root of the speed of light. it illustrates a mirrored or reflexive nature like 37 and 73 or 144 and 441.

as it applies to each 90 degrees, take the outer 2 digits of 3 / 6 / 9 and divide by the center digit
39, divided by 6 = 6.5

6.5 x 4 (4 parts of 90 degrees) = 26, which i think has something to do with a concept of 26 dimensions in string theory and possibly the 26,000 year cycle of the zodiac

234, divided by 6.5 = 36, with 90 degrees of a day on earth being 360 minutes.

i would like to follow up on this work with someone who knows something about number theory. i think that it is significant but i don't know how to explain it.

3 x 6 x 9 = 162, divided by 3 (3 numbers of 3, 6 and 9) = 54, with 54 or 540 relating to the formula for precession of the equinoxes. 5400 corresponds to the equator because 60 minutes of latitude = 1 degree of latitude. therefore, 90 degrees (pole to equator) x 60 (minutes) = 5400. you could take 3 away from the 9 in 3 / 6 / 9 and give it to the 3, forming 6. therefore, you would have 6 / 6 / 6. 6 x 6 x 6 = 216, which are the same digits as 162. 216, divided by 3 (3 digits of 3, 6 and 9) = 72. it takes the sun 72 years to travel 1 degree along the ecliptic. this relates to the equator or 54. you could square 3 to get 9, square 6 to get 36 and square 9 to get 81 and then add 9 + 36 + 81 to be 126, with 126 being the same digits as 162 or 216.




the hebrew letter tav is similar in concept to the greek letter omega.


me loves me sweets...

my girlfriend and i were both born in 1972. we are both water rats. we got back together in 2020 after high school which was year of metal rat. metal creates water. it will be metal for the next 11 years since this is 2021. 12 year cycle. rat is the 1st sign of the cycle.


heaven - yang water
earth - yang water
human - yang wood
kua # 1 (east group) - yang water


heaven - yang water
earth - yang water
human - yang wood
kua # 8 (west group) - yang earth

for a male to find his kua # you take the last 2 digits of the year you were born and add together until a single digit is derived. for example, 1972 is 9 because the 7 + 2 = 9. then you subtract 9 from 10 to get 1. for a female, you add 5 to the 9 you got by adding 7 + 2. this will give you 14 and then you add 1 + 4 to get 5.

kua # 5 for a male is kua # 2.
kua # 5 for a female is kua # 8.


from 'The New Astrology' by suzanne white

Sagittarius / Rat

bad manners
contradiction (contradiction is interesting because there is a contradiction about the contradiction)

thirst for power
intellectual skill


in a way my astrological characteristics are not important because it will shift with every incarnation just as everyone else's will. God is in control.

scorpio = 8th sign of the western zodiac
sagittarius = 9th sign of the western zodiac

take note of space for each letter. 15 (hebrew letter samech) supports 14 (hebrew letter nun)

hebrew letter nun / refer to above

hebrew letter samech / refer to above

the beginning of the spelling of the name moshe (moses in hebrew) corresponds to the spelling of mashiach (messiah). the first 2 letters of the word Moshe omitting vowels are M and S, which are the hebrew letters Mem (13 or 40) and Shin (21 or 300). the hebrew letters Mem and Shin are also 2 of the 3 mother letters.


hebrew letter nun (14 or 50)

hebrew letter samech (15 or 60) / i want to learn more about what a jewish soul is considered or understanding how torah is applied to everyone, regardless of whether or not someone is a jew. i am mentioning this because of how the rabbi in the video below discusses a marriage with the jewish people. it is everyone but don't know how to explain it. i think that jewish folk relate themselves to the torah or the tanahk (hebrew bible / 24 books) because of the significance of hebrew.

message from a rabbi's assistant.

Harav Ginsburgh's Secretariat <>
Tue 6/23/2020 1:54 PM

  •  You
Basically it means that there are unbreakable bonds between the soul, and God, and the Torah.

On Tue, 23 Jun 2020 at 20:14 joshua evan mishler <> wrote:

what does it mean to be Jewish?  are all souls "Jewish" because of the unity of God?  12 tribes of israel?  priests, levites and israelites?  what is israel?


these black women who i have mentioned in the past are evil trying to force people to be evil just like donald trump did. they act like low class sleazy thug like creatures to are trying to intimidate others. they are lazy lame scum bags who obstruct because they can't keep up. this black guy who i have mentioned in the past is a weird sadistic creep who knows that women think that he is a disgusting dishonorable pig. this mexican girl who is causing problems for innocent people is like a person who the police would taise. she has a serious very disturbing mental problem. she is being a smart ass about how she thinks that she is a loser referring to her own thought of her own lameness.

i wish that people would coordinate with me and the authorities in order to try and combat these evil monsters who want to intentionally disrupt the peace and quiet of the community. it is a form of terrorism. they want to scare people. they envy people who have more than they do so they are trying to take something away from people who are christ like.

there is no law which protects me or the community at large. try to create one. i am an american citizen who should have rights. if one person doesn't have rights then no one has rights. these creepy childish sadistic lame people who are stalking everyone are implying that there is no law which can stop them so that is the problem.

this mexican girl has a very serious scary ugly ugly nasty nasty disgusting mental problem. her parents should be investigated for not turning her and what they know about her over to the police or media or me.


this black guy who is an african american and mexican girl who i think still lives in houston texas who both have the ability to act aggressively by creating contractions of my muscle and soft tissue which other people in the group (144,000) sense are very childish and very mean trying to humiliate me because they think that i am superior or that other people think that i am superior. a few disrespectful lame dishonest black women in america are doing the same thing. they are very childish and very mean. their childishness is sickening.

unfortunately it seems like this is stupid low class sleazy gangster shit coming from black people and this mexican girl. they are the weakest link. i think that a few dirty black female cops are involved in something in america also.

this mexican girl is trying to have me killed while trying to confuse people at the same time so that she thinks that she can make up a lie about me and herself if someone eventually kills me.

this mexican girl is incredibly nasty and angry with a weird psychological problem. she wants attention for being stupid and rude, not for being kind to people. she wants mexicans to have a mean brutal image. then she plays games thinking that if i say anything about it she just wants people to think that i am weak. i am not weak. i am a man. and i want this evil childish disrespectful mexican girl out of my life. she wants to fight with me every day like it is some kind of stupid childish lame female game. get this bitch out of my life. she is not my girlfriend. she is not my wife. but she wants attention like she was my girlfriend or wife. i hate this mexican garbage and i know that everyone else does too. she is lame and lazy, not doing anything all day long every day and then she obstructs other people's work so that people don't know that people are happy and productive without her being around.

this black guy who has my vision in his left eye and this mexican girl who has my vision in her left eye who can both create annoying contractions of my muscle and soft tissue don't even care if people think that they are stupid and rude. they just want to be thought of as superior because they have an inferiority complex which means that they think that they are inferior. they act like sleazy low class thug like people along with the people who follow them. they are low class sleazy thug like bullies who are trying to recruit low class sleazy thug like bullies.

this black guy and mexican girl are weird like they are some kind of retarded and they are very very mean so it is creepy.

this black guy and mexican girl are insecure because they think that people think that they are weird so they act aggressively bluffing trying to make it seem like they are more secure than they are but they really think that they are inferior so they are insecure and try to cover it up. we are all so sick of them. they want to show off but they are dumb and childish like they are retarded.

obviously i hate this mexican girl and black guy so why don't they get the hell out of my life and also everyone else's life who also hate them and who communicates this too.

they fake thinking that they are cool. they really think that they are evil and dumb. they are actually embarrassed or ashamed to be what they are. they know that nobody likes them. they send signals to each other to try to get low class scum bag people to dominate but it won't work.

this black guy and mexican girl are like weird animals who don't even want to be seen who are desperately and stupidly trying to ensure their survival. they are actually panicking and nervous but trying to play it off like they think that they are cool.

some black women are desperately trying to get something for themselves.

this mexican girl is holding people hostage trying to figure out how to get something for herself like she is demanding that some dumb mexican guy give her something because she was rude to people so it doesn't make any sense and the reason that she is rude to people is to try and make it appear as if she is sure of herself when she actually isn't sure about herself at all. it is like she is implying that some dumb mexican guy should give her something otherwise she will be rude and mean to people bothering them every day so it doesn't make any sense.

this black guy and mexican girl are confused thinking that they can't survive. a few black women are the same. they are panicking and acting up in order to try and get something for themselves. they are like animals who think that they can't survive so they are going crazy being dishonorable.

they don't even care about the type of attention which they are getting. they just want attention because the are childish. they are not stars or celebrities. they are garbage like losers in the dope scene or like people who jack other people stealing from them or breaking into homes.

it is like we are all at a party and some people don't want people to have a relaxed peaceful happy social spiritual time with one another and i think that they do it because they don't want to think about some of the people at the party having a better time than they are having. they should back off and leave people alone. they can't have a happy time at the party for whatever personal reason of theirs so they don't want other people to have fun at the party because of envy so they keep childishly upsetting the party. it is very selfish of them to do this. very selfish and very rude. it is the black guy who has my vision in his left eye who can also create contractions of my muscle and soft tissue which the rest of the group sense (144,000). it is the mexican girl who is the same as him. and it is also a few mean spirited childish black women who try to humiliate me because they think that i am more than they are or because they envy my confidence. i am more confident than they are and they don't like sensing it so they like to try and make me less confident in public like it is a very sick very childish very stupid game. it is obvious that they do it because of envy. the black women got confused and envious when they thought that i was moving on in life back in 2008 so they sabotaged it pretending as if they had dirt on me when they knew that they didn't.

people intentionally causing me to defend myself and communicate on the internet is an example of how they want to spoil the party. they know that people would be having a good time if they would leave us alone and they don't like it. they want childish attention and control of others probably because they don't think very much about themselves or because they think that they don't have that much power.

these childish lame mean spirited people are trying to make others think that i am an angry person when i am actually a very cheerful person and they can't keep up with the cheerfulness so they intentionally make everyone angry like it is a sick childish joke like mean people who want to spoil a party or like mean people who are like setting off a bomb at a church. it is the same thing. it is like terrorism. i don't mean that i actually know of someone who is going to set off a bomb at a church but you understand what i mean. ugly attitude mean spirited black women want attention in america. so does this nasty black guy. so does this nasty mexican girl. they are acting like terrorists flaunting that they think that nobody or not even the police or FBI can stop them. they are a danger to people on the road when i am driving. these black women don't even care about little black children in cars or old black people in nursing homes. they are angry childish mean spirited envious black women who want attention.

they want people to think that i am an angry person. the truth is that i am gay and cheerful in a way which some of these black women can't be so they pretend as if they have a reason to intentionally provoke me in order to try and make themselves feel better about themselves. i know that cool honest black people defend me and state that i am not the problem. what a few of these black women have done to me and others is absolutely sickening. they are childish and mean spirited. dishonest too. they keep pretending as if they think that i did something wrong back in 2008 in reference to paris hilton but i didn't and they know that i didn't but they thought that they had an opportunity to derail it so that i couldn't be more happy than they were in public. why don't you ask paris hilton what she thinks? they didn't want me to be more happy than they were. they had probably been saying very mean things about me prior to 2008. i have a good heart and wanted to help people but i had a weird drug problem because i had a weird mental problem. guess what? so what? leave me alone. these black women infected my blood at a psychiatric hospital where i was going crazy a couple of days after i tried to ward off black people infecting my blood by stating that i am afraid that black people were going to infect me blood with something. cold hearted is an understatement. they wanted and still want entertainment. they want to make me less confident in public because they think that i am more confident that they are or can be and they don't like it.

they are stalking me. they are stalking my sweet girlfriend. they are stalking everyone.

the black woman in 2008 at the grocery store wanted to interfere with love and happiness and confidence that i had in my life. she tried to make it seem like it was about money when she knew that it wasn't. she wanted to interfere with my confidence because she thought that i was more confident than she was or could be and she didn't like just like other black women probably didn't like it.

this black guy pretends like black guys want to follow his stupid creep crap when he actually knows that they don't. he pretends like he thinks that he is a player when he isn't. black women hate him or at least black women with class hate him. he is a sleazy dishonorable pig.

this mexican girl and black guy act like little weird incredibly mean incredibly dishonorable retarded children. it is like they are coming up to everyone giving then a nasty dumb weird look and saying "yeah, i'm special because i am so stupid and rude."

why are famous people stalked by crazy weirdos? because the crazy weirdos envy what the person being stalked would have been doing or thinking about without the crazy weirdos forcing the person being stalked to think about them and something stupid. the goal is to make the person being stalked to think about something stupid instead of something interesting and cool which the person being stalked would have been thinking of if they were not being stalked. people who stalk people know that the person being stalked has better more important more interesting things to think of besides the people who are doing the stalking and the people who are doing the stalking don't like it and get weird and act aggressively in order to obstruct the person who is being stalked. i am being stalked because of other people's childish envy. they envy me being a unique person or what i am and what my mind could do if they would leave me alone. i understand if ignorant people reading this would think "what is there to be envious of? you always seem angry." that makes perfect sense because it means that what these people who are stalking me are doing is working. they are wanting to make me less in public because they think that i am more in public and they don't like it. don't get the wrong idea. i am not stuck up. strong people are not the problem. it is weak childish dishonest people who are the problem.

millions of people in america know that i am being stalked yet you do nothing. in fact everyone is being stalked by these crazy weirdos who want attention. they want attention because they don't get the type of attention which i get (and this is definitely not limited to the internet). i am center stage 24 hours a day 7 days a week and these people who are stalking harassing me get a stupid childish rise from making me act differently in public than i would have been acting if they would get out of my life. they envy what i am and what they know that my spirit could do if they got out of my life. they are torturing me in public and that is not an overstatement.

a few black women and this black guy and this mexican girl all lie about me and money. they are trying to make people think that something is more interesting than it is because they want people to think that they are more interesting than they are. it is actually boring. i never lie. they don't want to be humble like i am. i am humble but i get extraordinarily pissed off when people are dishonest or want to hurt others.

these people who are intentionally causing problems for everyone are childish and socially lame. it is very painful to have to go through this. they want people to think that i am socially lame but i am not. all of this bullshit is a reflection of them. this mexican girl is a nasty weird creepy obnoxious mexican who likes to give people the creeps like a mexican who has committed a horrible crime violating someone and when they are sitting in court gives the victim's family nasty looks wanting to hurt and taunt them and also the judge and then says something really stupid and mean right after they are sentenced.

this mexican girl's family or parents should turn her over to the FBI or the media (channel 2 [nbc] in houston) or to me.